Welcome back to my Diary of Becoming Series.

This is my series from YouTube that takes a handwritten, stream-of-consciousness journal entry of my current life reflections—and turns it into an audio piece + video diary.

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This entry captures the whirring feeling in the middle of a fast-changing year. I look back at who I was a year ago, and I am not the same. I have been birthing something new, and a new me along with it.

You cannot help but to change.
You cannot help but to evolve.

When you’re creating something new, you become created anew through the process.

I truly believe: You are the art, as much as you are the artist.

You create your life. And life creates you.

August 11, 2026

This year has been moving at a rapid pace. I’ve been focused and steady towards my goals, balancing at the edge of overworked and just enough rest. One year ago to now, the dynamic has completely changed. My days, my time, my business, my team have all changed. Evolved. I’m proud of how far I’ve come and I truly feel like I’ve stepped into a new chapter of myself. And this was the year where I was pushing her out, like I was birthing my new self into reality.

Last year was the incubation and growing in the womb—beneath it all, behind the scenes. This year has been the long, slow, almost painful and messy birth. But after this process, it’s impossible to go back to what used to be, and who I used to be. Just as you can’t undo a birth after it’s been done. I am here. I have grown. I have experienced. I have learned.

This year has been humbling but also rewarding. These past few years have been very humbling. The contraction, the slow down, the pivots, the endless uncertainty, the frustration of believing in myself and my vision but not being able to see it reflected in reality yet.

I still have to go through the process.

It was also very enlightening—this year.

I finally made a breakthrough in my book’s framework and structure—a project I’ve been working on and evolving for the past 10 years—literally.

I read my old notes, and I was so young then. I would have written a completely different book at 25 than I would have at 35. I only got through the first few chapters then—my worldview has evolved and deepened so much since then. How grateful I am for this growth. I am ever learning. Ever becoming.

I feel so much more at peace with myself, my sense of beauty and style, how I like to spend my days. I’m grateful to have work that I feel a purposeful drive towards, work that inspires and motivates me.

I am doing okay, honestly.

I am always striving for more, but I am doing okay.

I am grateful to be driven by the joy and curiosity for more in life, rather than feeling like I have to prove anything to anyone. I found love—in myself, my family, my friends, my life. A love for life. I am grateful—so grateful—that I’ve grown past needing to prove.

I can simply live in delight and inspiration, and be fueled by the love I have within, for all that’s around me.

The world is a playground—that I am still learning to navigate.

But I am having fun creating what I want to create, in my own little corner.

Perhaps that is enough for me, for a fulfilling life.

I know and trust that I’m making some sort of positive impact. I don’t have to do it all, I can just do a little.

It’s enough. This effort.

I’m enjoying life along the way.

We’re here to learn, to grow, to connect with one another, and most of all, experience the highs and lows of the nuances and complexities of life. And ultimately, it’s meant to be fun, or beautiful, or fulfilling… whatever word it is that can encapsulate all of the emotions that is LIFE.

I don’t think there’s a word for that, and there really should be. The Tao? That which encompasses all of it. All the emotions and experiences in one lifetime... There should be a word for it. It’s both beautiful and ugly, grand and simple, exhilarating and boring, delightful and dreadful, meaningful and meaningless... and everything in between.

Could there ever be a word, a concept, that encapsulates all of this? All of life? Like, I experienced ___ , and I am better for it. I am wiser and greater and more loving, more understanding because of it.

When you’ve gone through the lowest points and also experienced the highest points, and everything in between—you know what it feels like. You know that you’ve been changed as a result. And there’s no undoing that change or going back to who you used to be.

Your worldview deepens. Your perspective widens. You see more, because you’ve been through more. That’s what I feel like I’ve experienced this past 10 years. A deepening, a healing, an evolving. Through many stages and many layers, I’ve experienced ___. And now I am better because of it. I am wiser, greater, more loving, more understanding because of it.

And I know that I am still only beginning. I know there are probably many more chapters ahead that I have yet to learn. But I have gone through something—and I recognize it. I recognize the change in me.

This “___” nonexistent word that encompasses all that is life—is probably what we come here for, for the journey through it all.

I trust the longer journey—the big picture.

I get caught up in the daily details still.

But I’ve learned that it’s not about taking the right actions or making the right choices every single time—it’s about trusting the journey. Trusting that whatever happens, this journey is right for me. There’s always an opportunity in front of me. And I trust myself to grow through this process.

The challenge presented to me is the challenge presented for me. It is the assignment and the lesson I need—I don’t even have to go looking for it; it’s always right in front of me. Presented to me, for me.

The seeds of our growth and our future are always found in the present.

I just have to tackle the now that’s in front of me. Always.

That simplifies things.

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Enjoy this new 5 minute flow from my Manifesting Flows Series—mini-transmissions to help you transform your mindset and inner state. Here is the last post.

You’ll find this audio and many more in my app Resonance. Each audio is designed to gently shift your beliefs and identity, little by little, with each listen. This is the power of words, music, and repetition as a daily practice.

I Choose Trust

[ breathwork ]

I choose to trust. I choose to trust.

I trust that I’m on the right path.

I trust that I am safe.

I trust that I am guided.

I trust that I am supported in all the ways.

I trust that I am exactly where I’m meant to be.

I choose trust. I trust in myself.

I trust in the timing of my life.

I trust that I can take my time, that I don’t need to rush.

I can take my time, I don’t need to rush.

I trust that everything will be okay.

I choose to trust.

I trust the uncertainty.

I trust the process.

I trust the unknown.

I trust my path.

I trust my journey.

I choose trust.

I trust myself.

I trust in my timing.

I trust in my guidance.

I trust in my support system.

I trust that I will be okay.

I will be okay.

No matter what, everything will be okay.

I choose trust. I can trust.

I believe in myself.

I love myself.

I know I can handle anything, anything that’s in front of me.

And so I can trust myself.

I choose myself and I trust myself.

There’s nothing stronger than the trust I have for myself.

I trust the process of life.

I love my life and I trust my life.

I trust my journey.

I trust this process, this beautiful process called life.

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This piece is an example of how I might begin with an outline or ideas for a guided audio, and then I end up flowing spontaneously once I’m tapped into the frequency. As I finished saying what was written, I let the music take me further… the ending bit was an extra, unplanned section, and I had a lot of fun doing it.

I had an epiphany afterward that what I’m doing is basically freestyle rapping… and I may just be the slowest, calmest rapper you’ve ever heard 😂

Two years ago, I began sharing my journal entries in a video series called: Diary of Becoming. Looking back, this was a turning point in my content where I found a format that revealed the vulnerable, personal musings that I had always kept to myself. From stream-of-consciousness thought to paper to audio to video, something about this format cut through the part of my conscious mind that would filter the words I say or share in my content otherwise. I didn’t plan what I wanted to say. I just let it flow and saw what came out.

That’s partly why I feel these diaries are so timeless and meaningful.

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For my entire adult life, I’ve been contemplating what “life as an art” truly means, placing life in a metaphor through every art form that exists, and seeing what insight and wisdom can be gained.

Today’s excerpt, from Diary #1, touches on Life as a dance.

How life is a work-of-art in motion, continuously moving through the journey of becoming. Unfolding and unveiling itself with each step.

If you’ve ever seen or experienced what it’s like to freestyle dance to music—spontaneous, sensory, exploratory—life can be very much the same. Through this dance, you learn to express yourself, you come to understand yourself, you uncover little surprises, all while experiencing a deep feeling of alignment and joy.

Life is a dance to be learned, to be experienced, to be enjoyed. The more we dance, the better dancers we become.

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Life is a dance. As a work of art, it is more a dance-in-motion than a statue, sitting still. Rather than a finished work of art, it is a work of art that is in the process of becoming.

Unfolding and unveiling itself with each step.

Sometimes we get so lost in the steps that we don’t realize that we’ve made it to the other side of the room. We are moving… in the micro and the macro. So Patience. Patience with the little things.. the little steps.. and soon we will have made it closer to our ideal—whether that is a goal, a destination, or simply, a more experienced, graceful level of dance skills.

Maybe the goal isn’t in finishing anywhere, but in becoming a better dancer.

I often like to say that life is not just about achieving your goals, but moreso it is about who you become in the process of achieving those goals—how you grow and evolve to become your fullest, most authentic, most confident, most loving self.

That’s not to say we shouldn’t set any goals. Goals are the dreams that inspire us to take motion. They are the dreams that inspire us to get up and dance. And the more we dance, the better dancers we become.

I find that if I see life this way, it feels more relaxed. I don’t have to feel so anxious about everything working out perfectly.. I just acknowledge that to even have a dream, and to be taking action towards it.. is enough. That is enough for my own growth & evolution through life.

As long as you’re doing that, you can feel comforted that you are on the right path.

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This audio, and many others like this, are available in my app Resonance—your sound sanctuary for inner transformation.

More from the Diary of Becoming Series

• To Be Soft And Strong

• Your Awareness Is Your Power

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Continuing my Manifesting Flows Series sharing mini-transmissions to help you enter an elevated mindset and inner state. Here is the last post.

This audio is a powerful reminder that everything will be okay in the end, and it will all unfold exactly as it’s meant to. Your success is inevitable, so you can relax and enjoy the journey getting there.

If you often feel anxious about your life and the uncertainty of not knowing, this audio is meant to help you let go. Let go of the control. Let go of needing to know it all now. Let go of how tightly you’ve been holding onto everything.

If you could truly believe, and truly trust, that you will inevitably reach your desired destination, then you wouldn’t feel so anxious along the journey getting there.

Trust.

Relax.

Enjoy.

Know that it is coming, in its perfect timing.

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And if all of this still feels foreign to you—like you just can’t get yourself to believe this could be true—then press replay. And listen again. And again. Come back daily if you need to.

The beauty of these audios is that they’re meant to be listened to, on repeat, or whenever you need them. I format them loosely like songs, with repeated main phrases as “choruses” and verses in between. Supported by healing frequency background music, they’re meant to slowly ingrain into your brain the way a song does. Soon, the words will etch into your mind the way song lyrics do. And you’ll have rewired your neural pathways before you even realize it.

That’s the power of Resonance. The power of words, music, and repetition to gently shift your beliefs from the inside out.

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Press play, and feel how good it is to be alive. <3

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I journal and script often—and honestly at this point they really blend together. I wrote this exactly a week ago, and it reflects how I was genuinely feeling at the time. We kickstarted our Feel Good Manifestation Challenge in Resonance, and I’ve been focused on feeling good everyday—in my body, in my mind, in my life.

This excerpt felt so pure, I wanted to turn it into a recording and share it, in hopes it can help you step into that high vibrational feeling.

I’ll be sharing more of these, what I call “manifesting flows”—here and in my app Resonance. They’re like little pockets of energy. A transmission. I hope that through words and sound, I can transmit this frequency—this energy, this emotion, this feeling—to you.

Life Is a Blessing

Life is such a blessing.

Life feels so good right now and I feel so grateful.

Every new day is a gift, truly.

I am alive. I am here. I am building my dream life.

I am so proud of myself.

Life truly feels so good right now. It’s the biggest blessing.

I have everything I need, I have everything within me and everything around me.

I feel safe. I feel loved. I feel creative. I feel free.

I feel rich, rich in life! I truly do!

I feel healthy. I feel fit. I feel fabulous. I feel wonderful!

Life is truly such a blessing and it feels so good.

Life just keeps getting better and better! As I get better and better, life gets better and better.

I feel more connected than ever. I feel satisfied and proud of my work.

I am calm. I am confident. I am so good at what I do. I just have to show up.

My energy is aligned, and I simply transmit. I show up and I transmit. And then I receive.

I let it flow through me. I am the channel.

I’m aligned with high vibrational energy.

I am love. I am light.

And soon I know—I trust—it will all snowball into even bigger blessings and success.

In time.

For now, I’m enjoying the journey along the way.

Thank you, Life!

Thank you, Earth!

Thank you, Heaven!

What a beautiful experience I get to live here—in my bliss every day.

I love stream-of-conscious journaling because I might start out writing from my mind, but I often end up writing from my heart and soul. It truly helps me tap into something deeper, and I become a channel.

As a creative, my job is to keep that channel open. To keep it pure. To keep it flowing.

I often think about this quote by Marianne Williamson:

“God is the water. You are the faucet.”

There’s this beautiful point where you stop trying so hard—where the effort is no longer coming from you—and you simply exist as the channel to let the expression flow through.

You are the faucet, and God is the water.

You don’t have to do all the work. You don’t have to force everything from your own will. What you do have to do—which is the real work—is tend to yourself and keep the channel clean. Keep it connected. Keep it open.

For you to receive, and transmit.

Receive, and transmit.

Today, I’m acting as my future self as I reflect on and share this journal entry from almost two years ago.

Our Diary of Becoming Series continues, with Diary #4: Mindfulness & The Power of Awareness.

This is one of my favorite reflections, written in a time of internal and external change in my life. A time of newness, excitement, and uncertainty. A time when I was struggling, oscilating, between self doubt and trust.

Now here’s the future self reflection.

In this entry, I had written:

…it’s fun to envision what I would be amazed and in awe to see if I were to meet my future self. Who would she be?

It’s likely something I can’t even imagine now, as this was something I couldn’t imagine back then.

Reading this two years later… it’s true.

Incredible.

At that point in my life, I would not have expected how the next couple years would unfold. I decided to create an app, hired a new team, spent a year learning, creating, building—and now that app is launched into the world.

Two years ago, when I wrote this entry, I was still so shy to admit that I wanted to create something in tech. I knew I was being called to explore something new, and had no idea where it would lead me.

Honestly, if I could go back in time, I would simply say the same thing that I wrote to myself that day: Just be patient, and trust. It will come. It’s on the way. You’re being prepared for it now. Don’t worry too much. You’ll be fine. You’re growing. Every day.

Perhaps that gentle voice that comes to me while journaling is the voice of my future self, my higher self, the self that’s at peace, knowing how it all unfolds.

Listen here:

Be patient and trust.

Instead of feeling overwhelmed at my goals and projects, to simply focus on making each day great.

To nurture my energy and wellbeing so that I feel relaxed and joyful—not stressed or overwhelmed—and simply do the important work that would make me feel satisfied and proud of myself at the end of the day. That’s it. Have a general idea of where I’m going… and then take a balanced path getting there. Being focused when it’s time to focus, yet still giving myself plenty of space for freedom & leisure. The pockets of time to fill my soul.

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Instead of one audio for the entire entry—which you can listen from the video at the bottom of the post—I thought I’d share short audio clips of my favorite sections.

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August 14, 2024

We’re deep into summer now. It’s already been 6 months since moving into this new home. We’ve settled in, yet there’s still so much left to do. I don’t think it’ll ever feel completely finished. I feel like I’ve definitely entered a new chapter here. I’m more mature, peaceful, and inspired. Life has been so full & eventful this year—it can be hard to grasp.

It’s funny how when you settle into your environment or life stage, you can forget that this—what you have now—is what you had wanted at one point, what you had worked so hard for. The hard work is done and now you’re here. But you continue to chase the next thing, and the next thing.

I remember how amazed I felt sleeping in this house the first night. Using our master bathroom shower for the first time. It was like my dreams had come true. I was literally living my dream, what I had envisioned for so many years. And now it’s here.

I try to remember and hold onto that feeling—and to stay grateful. But over time, you settle into this new version of your life and it becomes what you’re used to. Your new normal.

But I try not to forget that everything I have now, everything I am now, came from dreaming and hard work.

I had envisioned it all first, before it could become a reality.

Other parts that I could not envision, like my own healing, happened naturally as a result of me pursuing growth, happiness and peace, as well as following the signs from the universe.

I’ve always felt guided… guided by my heart and inner desires. Guided by this inner knowing that things were meant to get better for me… that I have a purpose and that I’m meant for more. Even if others couldn’t see it, something in me always had enough faith to believe in my dreams. To reach for more. To finally get to live life for myself and see what it really means to reach one’s full potential—or at least try.

It’s always felt like a struggle though and I often feel lost. And I still—even now—doubt myself.

What if that’s all that I had in me?

What if this is as good as it gets?

What if it goes downhill from here?

I have my moments where I still feel like this.

But the brighter, more conscious part of me feels reassured when I hear that it’s all about trusting & believing that everything will be okay, and life will continue to get better and better.

Manifesting mindsets help me in that way. To remember that it’s all about our energy, and our beliefs.

But the most important factor is to embody that daily—to be consistent with it. Managing your energy: purifying, cleansing, getting it right. That daily practice is so important. It’s the invisible self care. The mind care. Heart care. Energy care.

It’s a daily commitment.

Deep breath… I trust in wherever life takes me, and am grateful for all the blessings I am given.

I’ve already been able to experience so much. It’s amazing. My younger self would be so amazed and in awe to meet me.

In that way, it’s fun to envision what I would be amazed and in awe to see if I were to meet my future self. Who would she be?

It’s likely something I can’t even imagine now, as this was something I couldn’t imagine back then.

The change happens so slowly though, so I’m reminding myself to be patient and trust. Instead of feeling overwhelmed at my goals and projects, to simply focus on making each day great. To nurture my energy and wellbeing so that I feel relaxed and joyful—not stressed or overwhelmed—and simply do the important work that would make me feel satisfied and proud of myself at the end of the day. That’s it. Have a general idea of where I’m going… and then take a balanced path getting there. Being focused when it’s time to focus, yet still giving myself plenty of space for freedom & leisure. The pockets of time to fill my soul.

Last night I played Chopin again on the piano. I found sheet music to a piece I used to know by heart, but have now forgotten. Waltz in C minor. It felt good to feel the melody flow out of my fingers after I got the hang of it. The memories are still there, buried deep.

Time to do things like that fills my soul. It’s not for anybody else. Just me. We need to live a varied life—to nourish all important aspects of ourselves. For me, creative expression is a big one.

I am here to live. Dreaming and achieving is a part of life. But also being & experiencing, loving & laughing, crying, connecting. There’s so much to life, and we’re here to experience it all, or even choose and be intentional about the experiences we want most.

That’s the fun in this. That’s the creative, “artist of life” aspect of this. It’s the power to get to choose. To get to choose which experiences to prioritize in life. To choose what kind of person you wish to be. To choose how you want to see the world—what lens or perspective to carry with you.

I choose to live in love. I choose to live with joy. I choose to trust. I choose to believe in myself and my bright future. I choose to see the good in others. I choose positivity. I choose hope. All of it is a choice. An active choice, that is made every day.

You choose what you want to focus on. And what you focus on grows.

Your attention is the power.

That’s why mindfulness is such an important practice.

We are honing our ability to be aware, to control and focus our attention.

Because our attention or awareness is where our power lies.

It is the power with which we notice our lives. To live, appreciate and enjoy our lives.

And also the power that enables us to choose where to direct our mind… and thus our experience of this world and our reality.

The power of awareness and the power of choice go hand in hand.

You couldn’t choose if you weren’t aware… if you didn’t even realize you had a choice.

With greater awareness, you realize more and more that you always have a choice. And that’s empowering, knowing how much all of our choices shape who we are and what we experience in this lifetime.

They want you in fear.
We need you in your power.

When you’re in fear ⇒ you’re disempowered.
When you’re in your power ⇒ you’re unstoppable.

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In the dark and perilous state the world seems to be in right now, this is the message that I deeply wish to share. One that I believe truly matters.

The Pull Towards Disempowerment

This is how it can feel, on a regular day, reading and processing the news on the current state of society:

Scroll. Scroll. Scroll.

Corrupted elites. Broken systems.

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Wars. Chaos. Destruction. Suffering.

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Food shortages. Fascism. AI.

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Misinformation. Hot takes. Opinions from all sides.

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Anger. Frustration. Fear. Grief. Helplessness.

Scroll. Scroll. Scroll.

It can feel so overwhelming and exhausting when you have to absorb all this information and news about society on a daily basis. It’s always been there at some level, but this year the news and events are amplified, heightened, like a boiling kettle about ready to burst.

And this is just the beginning.

The story goes on, with an uncertain future unfolding day by day, week by week.

And we have to learn to live with this, to live through this.

If you’ve ever found yourself doomscrolling for much too long, you know how icky it feels, and how it can affect your energy for the rest of the day if you let it.

Processing all this difficult information can put you in a low vibe state—making you feel low energy, fearful, overwhelmed, confused, disoriented, disillusioned.

In that state, you don’t feel like doing anything, you don’t know what to do, you feel lost, and then you often succumb to numbing—whether that’s turning on some form of entertainment or self-distraction, or to simply continue scrolling.

In this low vibe state, you are in your state of disempowerment.

You barely even have the energy to make yourself a meal. Let alone take on greater ambitions.

(*Consider then, how major dumps of dark information could be done (are being done) intentionally, to overwhelm and influence the masses into a low vibrational state of fear, confusion, and disempowerment. As well as how following the news and certain social media accounts is like supplying yourself with a consistent daily IV drip of this energy.)

Observe with Detachment

How then, do we manage to stay informed and aware, without falling into disempowerment?

The goal is to be able to receive information intentionally, and with a healthy level of detachment, as to not overload your nervous system.

Observe with detachment.

As much as possible, observe the information from an objective, detached point of view.

Observe. Don’t react.

Easier said than done, I know. Especially if you’re particularly sensitive.

Sometimes you read something and in that moment your emotions are already brewing.

In that case: Take a breath. Observe. Ground yourself in the present moment, and remember that you were fine before this information hit you, and you’ll be fine after.

Observe.

This is not a time to respond or act right away. Just observe, as detached as you can be.

Whenever feelings come, allow yourself to feel the feelings. Let them course through your body—and just observe them. Take however long you need—whether it’s 15 minutes, an entire day, or many days—to process the emotions. But try not to dwell in them for too long. Only when you are in a calm, neutral state, can you properly decide how you want to respond to this information.

When you’re ready, realign and anchor back into a high vibe state.

Coming Back to Your Power

A high vibe state is an energetic state of unconditional love—encompassing hope, strength, resilience, trust, positivity, joy, and light.

It is when you are in your greatest power.

Where you feel the unbounded energy of: “Anything is possible. I sincerely believe it.”

You feel strong, light, capable, loving. You are embodying a higher version of you, emanating bright, positive energy.

Think about how you feel in that kind of state. When was the last time you felt that way?

It doesn’t have to be grand or epic. It could be the lightness and peace you feel on a happy Saturday morning, when everything is going well. Or when you laugh so much with your friends that your entire body is exploding with joy. Or when you’re in flow, doing something that lights you up.

That is the state we need you in. That is your power.

Because in that state, your energy is at its full capacity. You are energized to do anything. Your energy is so positive, so strong, so powerful, you can move mountains.

So, how do you get there?

In order to step into your power—consider the following prerequisites:

1. You take care of your wellbeing.

You got the basics down—taking care of your health, resting, eating well, moving your body regularly, staying hydrated, sleeping well. You have a lifestyle that supports your physical, mental and emotional health. This sets the strong foundation for your energy.

2. You know how to regulate your nervous system.

You have practices for bringing yourself back to a calm, neutral, balanced state. You’re not in a perpetual state of fight or flight. You know that you operate and think best when your nervous system feels safe.

3. You have a healthy sense of self worth.

You believe in yourself, your strengths, and believe that you have something to offer (your strengths, skills, etc). Even if small, you believe you can play a role in uplifting your community and the world around you, or contribute in some way. You believe you are worthy and capable of whatever it is you wish to do.

4. You have compassion—for yourself and for others.

You have the ability to see the humanity in all people. To hold space for empathy, understanding, and non-judgment. To be able to see perspectives beyond your own. And as such, to be able to see nuance, and understand that the world doesn’t operate in black and white. In order to have compassion for others, it begins with having compassion for ourselves.

5. Bonus: You know how to manage (and design) your energy.

You have intentional practices or tools to shift your energy, mood, and emotions. You know how to lift yourself up, whether it be going for a walk, listening to music, getting up to dance, journaling to release emotions, gardening, creating art, or beyond. This is what it means to live intentionally, designing your energy in any given moment (what I created Resonance for ✨).

If you have all of these qualities down, we need you.

If you don’t yet, that’s okay. Take care of yourself first. You are your #1 priority.

If you don’t have all of these, why are you wasting time worrying about the world when you should be focusing on you? The real work always begins within.

Even if you do have these qualities, it’s a continuous practice. Nobody’s perfect—and it’s normal to fall off or out of balance every now and then.

So regardless, remember to take care of yourself. You should be your #1 priority.

You cannot pour from an empty cup.

And the darker forces that be, those in power who benefit from your disempowerment, want to keep your cup empty.

It’s simple. It’s about:

Disempowerment vs. Empowerment

Those who benefit from your disempowerment are incentivized to prioritize the continuation of that.

But YOU benefit from your empowerment.

Your community benefits from your empowerment.

Society at large benefits from your empowerment.

We need your light.

The Work Worth Doing

And so I remind you again:

Please take care of yourself.

Cultivate positive habits.

Learn to master the basics—your health & wellbeing.
Then, learn to master your nervous system.
Then, learn to master your self worth.
Connect with the love and compassion you have within.

This is the process of learning to master yourself. So you can be the most empowered version of you that you can be.

All of these qualities are learned habits, skills, and ways of being. We don’t come out of the womb, experts at all of this. Some of us may be gifted with more natural self confidence, or a calmer nervous system, or greater empathy… But we all have learning to do. We’re all here to grow.

So take care of your foundation.

Learn it. Practice it. Master it.

You should be your #1 priority until you get this down.

You don’t have to be perfect or get it right all the time. None of us are.

But try.

Be in the process of trying, of continuing to make an effort. Because it matters. You matter.

The better you get, the more empowered you will be.

With a strong foundation, you can then successfully shine your light in your own unique way, in whatever form that takes, and that will make all the difference in the world around you.

Please. Do this.

Because we need you.

We need you in your power.

Today’s message came to me while in meditation, and immediately afterward, I opened my eyes and took to my journal to write all the thoughts down. The words and ideas came out a bit scattered and choppy, but the message was clear: They want you in fear. We need you in your power. This post is a blend of my choppy notes and the writing I added to fill in the blanks.

I’m sending you all the love and support to do this inner work.

To nurture yourself, your nervous system, your self worth, compassion to self, and beyond.

This is why I’m focusing a lot of my energy on creating resources that help you stay in your power—nervous system regulation, mindset shifts, emotional healing, energy design, strengthening intuition, intention, and more. On creating tools and resources to help you stay aligned and empowered, each and every day.

Your inner work is more important than ever.

This is a series I began sharing on YouTube almost two years ago. It begins with a handwritten, stream-of-consciousness journal entry of my current reflection on life—on this continuous journey of “becoming”—and pairs it with video visuals of my recent life.

This series has always felt special and so personal to me, as it very honestly reflects my innermost thoughts, something that I hadn’t been able to share in previous content formats. It feels like the truest and closest you can get to my heart and inner reflections about life.

Since it begins in written form, then a recorded audio, before it’s compiled into video, I've decided to share this series here on Substack, for those who prefer reading or listening.

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Please note that these entries are intentionally left unpolished. I really write these by hand in my journal, then transcribe them into text with only some light editing and formatting. I believe there’s beauty in the imperfection. (And in this age of AI copywriting, this format remains fully human.)

What I love about this series is that I don’t often know what I’m going to write about. I begin with a thought, and let it flow—and then eventually some gems appear before me.

To find clarity, to touch truth, to reach some revelation—is to me, the joy of journaling.

February 24, 2026

Life is a garden. Every area of your life is a different piece of your garden that you can tend to, to nurture, to grow. Like any garden, some of your flowers or vegetables may be in bloom, some may be dormant, resting. There are seasons for our life as a whole, as well as seasons for the different areas of our life.

When I look at my garden the past three or four months, this garden is shifting. Areas that had taken up most of my garden and attention in the past have now become a bit quieter. There are new flowers that I’m tending to, and of course, the foundational pieces of my garden—my family life, friendships, sense of adventure and wonder—that I’ve been tending more to this winter.

I’m allowing and observing the ebbs and flows of this garden, allowing my public life to grow quieter these past couple months as I tend to my inner circle and inner life.

As someone who had grown conditioned to being public and seen so consistently the past decade, I’m experiencing something new.

There’s a renewal of my beliefs and conditioning as I mature. The worth that was tied to my public presence and external success—my drive for survival in this career and industry—this pressure to keep performing and stay relevant (so ingrained that it felt equated to breathing)… has finally dissolved.

I feel much more quiet and a bit more free. This is what it feels like to go through an identity shift. A self-belief shift.

I had gotten to a point where, the thinking and way of living that had brought me success is not the same thinking and way of living that will bring me to my next chapter.

It’s such a funny feeling to grow beyond the thing you once dreamed of, the thing you once wished for so badly and would have done anything to get. I’m so grateful for my journey and I regret nothing, as all of those experiences and lessons were meant for me to help me grow, learn, understand, and evolve.

And now I simply feel that inner knowing that I’ve learned what I had to learn, gained what I had to gain from that chapter, and now I’m moving towards the next.

Change is such an interesting process.

Sometimes the shifts feel instant. Other times, it feels as slow as molasses—taking years. Like the effect of the tides on rock, washing upon the rock endlessly, tirelessly, creating change that seems invisible until you zoom out the timeline far enough to realize how epic the changes truly are.

Sometimes the change in nature is loud and abrupt. Most times, it’s slow and seemingly invisible. You live the same life until you realize that your life now is actually not the same at all what it used to be. Your thinking, your habits, your preferences, your motivations, all of it is constantly shifting. Many times without you knowing.

I’m riding the wave, embracing the flow, trusting that this is what growth and maturity feels like.

I’m still being intentional. Your intention is the guidance for the flow, but you can’t predict exactly how it will all play out. That’s what keeps life interesting, I guess. The surprise. The delight.

And the learning of letting go of control, loosening your grip, so you can have an easier ride. Rather than being stressed and anxious the whole time. If we could only truly learn to let go and trust.

To live with focused intention, yet let go of the rest. Taking inspired action from your natural energy, and not forcing it when you don’t have the energy.

The balance of doing, and doing nothing.

Do, when you have the energy to.
Rest, when you don’t.

Listen to your body and your intuition for the key.
Only you know the right decision in any given moment.

This is the balance I’m learning to live life with. No longer forcing or rushing or setting arbitrary self-imposed deadlines.

Living in accordance with my energy, intuition, and body.

Even if it goes against societal constructs, systems or beliefs. Letting go of the fear of it all—fear of failure, fear of judgment, fear of being wrong or doing it wrong.

Instead, choosing love and compassion for myself, which feels like: safety, support, “no matter what, I love you and will take care of you,” and a reassurance that it will all be truly okay.

You’re tired? Take a break. It’s okay. Don’t push yourself. You can come back to this when you have the energy.

You don’t feel like doing this anymore? Okay, great. I hear you. Let’s honor that and explore what that feeling truly means. What your body is trying to tell you.

All love.

No matter what, we’ll work through it together.

No fear.

It’s amazing that this is the kind of loving self-talk that I’ve built for myself brick by brick. Literally had it reprogrammed into my brain because 10 years ago, it was absolutely the opposite.

Yes, it feels soft. Love is soft. But it is also incredibly strong.

I love this dichotomy of soft and strong. Of being soft and strong. And living a life that is both soft and strong.

I’ve felt, the more I’ve healed, the softer and the stronger I’ve become.

In ancient Chinese wisdom, Taoism, what’s soft and flexible is actually strong.

Water is soft and strong.

A soft, flexible branch is more resilient than a hard, brittle one. In a storm, against harsh winds and pressure, the flexible branch survives, the rigid branch breaks.

What might seem strong at first glance, a person’s toughness, for example, is like a hard wall formed for protection. It’s strong until it breaks. And there are so many forces that could break it. Water, wind, earthquakes, etc. Even the strongest stone wall can crumble under circumstances.

But what is truly soft is like water. It’s so soft that it’s allowing, it’s flexible, it’s malleable. Because of this, it cannot break. It only transforms.

What’s soft is also strong, because what is true strength?

Resilience. Power. A force that cannot be broken. This is the quality of our soul.

In our innermost being, we are pure source energy that cannot be broken or erased.

Our power is like an indestructible flame, ever resilient.

So to me: To be soft and strong is to be so open, so flexible, so allowing to the external forces of life, while being so rooted and so connected to your soul—your inner power, inner light, and indistinguishable flame.

This is a truth that resonates so deeply.

So I’m embracing the softness and the flow, knowing that I am ever resilient.

That all of life is simply for the purpose of leading me closer and closer to this inner flame. And everything external—is the path taking you there.

So you don’t really have to hold on to anything external, to cling on to anything, really.

You don’t have to be afraid of change.

Or of exiting societal constructs.

Or embarrassing yourself.

Or making mistakes.

There’s no shame or guilt that you need to hold on to.

All of it—all of life’s experiences; its people, events; joy, pain, hardships—are here to nudge you inward.

To help you remember your power, to connect with your voice, to heal, expand, and evolve your soul.

How beautiful is that?