As I've been embracing the new, there was still a piece of me that felt like something was off, something still needing tending too, but I was too busy with all the changes to sit with it and figure it out.

Until I couldn't shake the feeling anymore….

Until God revealed it must be dealt with….

The person I mentioned God putting in my life, has brought a lot of things to the surface that I either thought were healed, or didn't even know were there.

And so I prayed. I started seeking God and asking Him what to do and how to handle things so I can fully embrace the new!

He told me I needed to go through all my journals and get rid of anything that would hinder my new future.

Wow!!!

I thought that I had done that, turns out, I needed to do it again.

The old must die for the New to fully emerge!!!

This process took 3 days….

But I was ready, and honestly I didn't want to look through it all, I just wanted it to be gone!

I'm glad I did though, because I needed to see the transformation that happened throughout all these years.

My how I have grown!!

As I was reading through, some memories came up, but I didn't feel grieved, I actually felt lighter. Some moments were harder, but for the most part I felt relieved and ready to step into the new, fully.

I look forward to the future more than looking back at the past

And that's the thing, I didn't want to look back.

But God assured me I wasn't looking back, I was clearing out and making way for the new, the better! And that I needed to go through it to see for myself that those things were dead and didn't have a hold on me anymore.

Praise God for delivering me and setting me Free!!!

I'm ready to embrace the new! I'm ready to step out of the boat and set sail on this New Adventure! And I wouldn't want it any other way than how God planned it, and with whom to share it with 💝

If you're going through the season of letting go of the old, a season of transition, embrace it! Let it flow and let it go!! 🙏

Fall Into My Arms.

Let Me Hold you.

Let My Warm,

Soft Embrace,

Surround you and become One with You.

Sink Into My Love,

Fully Embrace Me.

It's My Love that I want to Give You,

That I want to Hold You In,

So Let Me.

Accept Me and Let Me Love You.

You can Trust Me.

You can Confide In Me.

Come to Me, My Darling,

My Child,

My Love.

Come to Me and Let Me Love You The Way you are Meant to Be Loved.

You are Worthy of My Love,

For I have Loved You with an Everlasting Love that has no bounds.

I AM In You,

All Around You,

Always.

I AM Your Fortress,

Your Shelter,

Your Comfort,

And you can Give All of yourself to Me,

Completely.

For I AM yours,

The same Way that You are Mine.

Receive Me and My Gift,

My Love,

It's Specially Made,

Just for You.

Written by: Amber Celestial Angel

Christ,

Who Strengthens Me,

For You are Within Me.

My Power, is not my own,

But it is You Within Me.

My Strength, is not my own,

But it is You Within Me.

I AM that, I AM.

You have helped me Face my fears,

Face myself,

Face the adversary,

Giving Me the Full Armour,

Teaching Me,

Equipping Me,

Preparing Me,

And I Know With You,

Victory is Always at Hand.

It is Always the Destination,

For I Give ALL to You,

Knowing,

Trusting,

Believing,

That the battle is Already Won,

Before it has begun.

Only Because of You,

Only With You,

Is Victory Promised.

No matter how long it takes,

I Will Endure.

No matter how hard the task,

I Will Accomplish.

No matter how tired I may be,

I Will Stay Awake For You.

You are My Rock,

You are My Shield,

You are My Mighty Protection,

You are My Steady,

Firm Foundation.

You are My Refuge,

Upholding Me in Your Arms.

Together, We Are Untouchable.

United We Stand.

Written by: Amber Celestial Angel

Wisdom,

Creation,

Treasures,

Hold a Trove of Mysteries that Surpass all human understanding.

You are The Master,

And You put the Pieces Together so Perfectly to Create a Marvelous Masterpiece!

One cannot fathom The Work of Your Mighty Hands.

It Transcends Beyond all comprehension.

To Know You Created Me,

As a Masterpiece within Your Masterpiece,

And all Your Children,

And all Your Creation,

As a Masterpiece Within Your Masterpiece,

Is a Perplexing and Awesome thought to Behold.

Your Ways are so much Higher,

Your Thoughts are so much Higher,

Your Understanding is Unsearchable,

And Oh what a Journey to take with You,

As You Reveal Hidden Wonders along The Way!

Written by: Amber Celestial Angel

If you haven't written a book, there are a lot of emotions that go into it.

One of my biggest setbacks is rejection. I'll go deeper into that in another post as I take you on some journeys I've went through as a writer, and author. Things like how God helped me get the book out (supernaturally!), how my first book consisted of many trips to the library and a coffee shop that was run by a ministry that helped women out of domestic violence (and they were the first to host a book signing for me!), and how the book even came together, as well as how this next one is coming together. And many more stories that are sure to bring hope along the way!

I hope you'll join me on this journey friend, and I hope it inspires you and helps you uncover and unveil the gifts God is asking you to share 🙏💝

If you'd like to purchase the first book of poems/psalms you can get one here:

https://a.co/d/0cDuCJYX

Much Love and Many Blessings 🙏

~Amber Celestial Angel~

After I had my Near Death Experience (NDE) it was VERY CLEAR that I was in the wrong relationship. God opened my eyes to the abuse that had been taking place. How didn't I see it? How could I have been so mind manipulated, so mentally tormented, that I couldn't see the abuse that was happening? And once I did, how could I keep going on like that? Well I did…. For 4 more years.

See, after I had that experience, I absolutely without a doubt, 100% knew God was real! But we had come together unbelievers… more than unbelievers, we were very logical, scientific, and even had a distaste for God because why would He make the world suffer after all? Yes, I was one of those too 🙄. But I digress.

After that experience, my whole life changed. I could no longer pretend. I could no longer ignore the abuse. No matter how hard I tried to lock it away and pretend it wasn't happening, God would not let me. At first I still stayed out of guilt. I was in a wheelchair for a while, his family was helping take care of me, he was taking care of my grandma who lived with us, but I couldn't help her because I couldn't even help myself. And that made me stay. For 3 more years.

Then when I listened to God's calling to sell everything and move/travel (and he made that choice too), that's what we did. We went to many places and saw and experienced many beautiful things, our children got to “roadschool”. It was nice. But still. That aching knowing I wasn't supposed to be with this man never left. It only got stronger. Within 9 months (4 years later) we were separated. It was mostly mutual. I told him I believed in God and it won't change and I was ready to fully heal and change and follow God completely, and, well, he wasn't. There was nothing wrong with him, according to him. (As cliche and overly used as it is, yes, the n word, narcissist) Now I wasn't the best woman, I definitely had flaws, but I was ready to change, repent, heal, grow. I took responsibility. And although it has been a long road, and I still have a ways to go, that decision was the best one I made.

But here's what else came…. What the people who have not had to endure this don't understand, what those who look down on single moms don't talk about, don't see, don't get, is with this decision we are faced with

Shame, guilt, loneliness, betrayal, heartache, another level of trauma, hopelessness, sadness, depression, anxiety and so much more that we can't explain

I get almost everyone has endured at least one type of trauma, and many of us have had to face multiple, but I'm going to break down some of the main ones we suffer with (and I mean suffer!)

Guilt- we feel awful about our children not having a dad. It's a normal biological need. Most of us don't want to be single moms. And that makes the guilt sink in harder, because when you're healed from the trauma of men, you want a happy, healthy family.

Shame- we feel ashamed that we can't buy organic foods, cook, clean, work, homeschool, etc. We can’t be that “perfect mom”..We get off of work, put a microwave pizza in, talk, and just feel exhausted and ready for bed at 5pm (when we do cook a nice meal, we are very happy with ourselves 😌). Most of us have to (or have had to) work multiple jobs, go to food banks or get on government assistance to help. And what then is that saying to our children?

Loneliness- the level of loneliness is something surreal. Because we knew what it was like to have a “family” or at least dreams of it. Doing it all alone brings a tremendous amount of lonliness. A longing for a man who will treat us right, love us right, fill a role only a man can. Many also face rejection from our own family. Or many don't have family support. Many of us truly are alone in this.

Outcast- we feel we don't belong anywhere. We feel like a burden to people. We want so bad for a “tribe” for a “community”, but we almost never get it. Instead we get looked down upon. We go to church to find our village, and are met with rejection (because why wouldn't we stay with the other person, we are supposed to stay NO MATTER WHAT right?)and fear that we will steal their husband 🤣

Depression- so we just want to isolate, be alone, do it alone, tired, worn thin, we've probably all thought (or have) of running away or ending it.

Hopelessness- we have known despair. We have known crying and heartache to a depth that many may never experience.

But here's the Good News

When we have a relationship with God, He starts to heal us. He starts to work on us and in us. He starts to mend our broken hearts “The Lord is near to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit”. He is the only One who can!

We stop seeing ourselves through the eyes of others, or through our faults, and we start seeing ourselves through the Eyes of God!

We stop people pleasing. We stop caring what others think. We stop beating ourselves up for not being that “perfect mom”. And we start praying instead. We leave it in God's Hands, we surrender it all and say “God even though I'm having to make this microwave pizza, even though I'm short on rent, even though I can't buy my child this thing, even though… You have my life, and my children, in your hands….

You see, many will never come to that kind of surrender. That kind of faith. That kind of strength. That kind of Praise.

So let me tell you mama, you're doing what you can. Leave it in His Hands. Trust. Keep going. Live life on purpose. Yes, you have a purpose that God has called you to! It's more than this!

We have broken chains!! ⛓️ Remember that you stopped a cycle of abuse! This is one of the most bravest and hardest things imaginable to do! And you're doing it!! Do not let the battle defeat you! Do not let this time go in vain!! Learn, grow, Seek God and lay it at His feet over and over! He is our Protector and Provider!

My sisters and friends- I see you. I feel you. I'm here with you 🙏

And this is where I was taking a class to “find my niche” and start charging for coaching and one on one sessions.

But I can't. I know you. I am you. I see the struggle.

And if you want to join me in a monthly group call, please do! We need each other. To encourage. To pray. To learn. To grow. Our own little village 💝

Much Love and Many Blessings,

~Amber~

Let's dive in

I'm not Catholic. Never have been. I really don't even claim to be Christian, and this is why. The remarks Christians in this video made. I am a follower of “The Way”. That is what Yeshua called it in His time of ministry and His apostles followed.

I don't worship or praise Mother Mary, but I absolutely honor and cherish her for who she was, who she is. I will not dismiss or denounce any of my Royal Family. The Angels and Mother Mary are who led me to The Son, Yeshua, after (and during if we see Yeshua as God) my Near Death Experience. God made me believe and saved me during it, and afterward I still had beliefs that needed to be stripped away and had to find the truth, and the Angels and Mother Mary are who ultimately led me back Home! Into Yeshuas Loving arms! And He was the One directing it all! He knew what I needed and how to get me there! He never gave up on me, He continued pursuing me in a way only He could because He's the only One who could know how to get me there! 🙏

It's a shame that people will close off their hearts because it doesn't fit their narrative, closed mind, or logical understanding.

And do you know, that's exactly how/who the Pharisees were?

I felt I needed to make a statement and share the truth of my own experience and understanding, up to this point. If someone feels the need to speak ill because of their own judgement or misunderstanding, that's on them, and I'm here to clear the air and stand firm in MY EXPERIENCE that GOD gave me. One cannot speak on someone else's experience from and with God, or else you would be replacing Him and acting as Him… that is not mans place.

You will not lead sinners to repentance with self righteousness. Only God and His truth and love can do that! Yeshua said He came for the sinners to come to repentance, not the righteous. Thank God for His mercy and grace that some of us are on the front lines reaching those people… and it took my Near Death Experience and what I went through to be able to understand those people who need it most. I'm thankful and honored to be in this position, and I will not turn my back on those who need Him most 🙏

It boils down to this…

I am a whole hearted believer. I am saved by His grace. I am loved by my Father who art in Heaven. I love my Royal Family.

I don't have to ask for mans approval, because I already have God's.

Exit stage Heaven Bound 🙏💝

Here's the video:

https://youtu.be/4VimzUDuRM0?is=E4VpR71S32mfUN3O

Everyday life itself steers us in many directions. You move. Someone dies. You lose your job. Etc. So many things at play that there's no way to always be on track, except for the fact that we call God into the things that happen, and remember He is always with us through it all. 🙏

It seems like a never ending task to stay on task 😆, but maybe that's what keeps us aware and seeking God continuously. I know I can't do it without Him.

As soon as I seem to be getting back on track, boom, here comes the next “thing”. But through it all, God has taught me to keep going, keep praying, keep seeking. To get back up and get back on track, despite the bumpy ride 😂

Consistency

Discipline

Sustainability

I'm working on it 🤷‍♀️

I was invited on a pretty big podcast and with this upcoming premiere, I've decided to open the doors back up for one on one and group coaching. To help women get back on track (and stay on track), and help unlock your treasure to help bring it out to the world. 💎

This is me getting back on track, and if you feel called, I hope you'll join me 💝 message me for info 💝

Much Love and Many Blessings 🙏

Surely Goodness and Mercy shall Follow Me All the Days of My Life.

He has Poured the Oil of Joy Upon Me.

For Joy has Come from within the mourning.

I have Sown in Tears,

And I shall Reap in Joy.

Rejoice!

For the Time has Come to Enjoy in Joy!

His Gladness shall Spring Forth as a Gushing River,

A River of Life,

With a Sweet,

Satisfying Taste of Serenity,

And a Rainbow Bursting Through the Silence,

Flowing from the Tip of My Tongue,

For He has Given My Voice a Song to be Sung!

One that Lights the Soul Ablaze,

That Awakens the Dry Bones,

And Revives the Heart Back to Life!

So Stand Tall,

Sing!

Dance!

Rejoice!

Praise!

For The King has Come!

His Cup of Joy is for All to Partake in,

And His Well Never Runs Dry.

Written by: Amber Celestial Angel

Though I may have been in the valley,

You bring me back up the Mountaintop,

Where I See Clearly,

I Hear Clearly.

Here I gain Clarity and Wisdom.

Here You give Instructions and Plans.

Here is where I remember all that You have Spoken.

Taking the High View,

Seated with You,

Strengthening and Sharpening my gaze,

Learning to Focus with Clarity and Precision.

Beholding the Vision with Single Sight,

I Perceive it!

Like the eagle I Soar above the storm,

Sight Set High,

Wind beneath my Wings

And Dancing in Victory!

Hallelu-Yah!

Written by: Amber Celestial Angel

Katie Sampias is a Christian, wife and mother, living in Brisbane Australia. You can find her on Substack and Instagram:

https://substack.com/@katiesampias?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=2ra6rd

And

https://www.instagram.com/katiesampiaswrites?igsh=MThkM2lraTJmaDB0bA==

❤️New offer from me, Amber! If you're interested in my 2 month class/course on finding your voice to share your story, heal, and step into God's purpose for your life, message me!

Much Love and Many Blessings,

Shalom 🙏

My dad wasn't in my life growing up. My mom wasn't much either, but that's for another day.

I searched in all the wrong places to fill that void.

I ended up with abusive men (and also had a superior attitude toward them and acted like a man myself. Independent and an attitude of "I can do it all by myself, I don't need a man").

With these wounds I built a wall that was hard to break down. I didn't allow my feminine energy and natural motherly affection to flourish. It was suppressed.

Once my younger children came along, I started to embrace my feminine side and get in touch with my motherly instincts.

But still being in a narcissistic abusive relationship, I still couldn't be who I truly was fully.

It wasn't until after that relationship ended that God started working on me and with me to heal the Father wound. The Father and Mother wounds are very real, and each have to be tended to and healed to fully embrace the wholeness of God and who we are and our identity made in God's Image.

So as God was working on and in me, He showed me how I needed to see Him as a loving Father, a Father who would never leave me nor forsake me. A Father who disciplines those He loves, not out of anger or fear or condemnation, but out of safety and knowing what's best for us. He showed me that even on my bad days, or times I stray away, He still loves me and will always draw me back, like the 99 sheep who stay, but the one who wanders He will not let go of, He will search for and pursue. He has shown me He guards and protects me.

And He has restored my relationship with my earthly father.

One who wasn't in my life and was addicted to alcohol, in and out of jail, homeless and lost, to full restoration! 🙏 He has given me a father who cares and loves me, and who still may stumble (like we all do) but loves enough to keep coming back and keep going, keep looking up and keep holding on. And I'm so joyous and thankful that we have been reconciled and I have not only a father, but a best friend ❤️ I haven't said that until now, as I'm writing, but it's true. I can talk to him about anything, and he gives me advice, without judgement, and loves me anyway 💝

Thank you God, my Abba Father, and thank you Dad for also following God and for being in my life and being a best friend I've needed for so long 🙏 and thank you that I get to be a daughter.

I Love you!!!

Don't give up on your loved ones. Don't give up on God. Keep the faith and hope. If you don't have it, pray for it. Surrender. Don't worry. Give it to God.

A prayer for you reading: 🙏

Heavenly Father,

I Honor You. I Adore You. I Love You soooo very much! I thank You for restoration, for reconciliation, for making all things new. My heart is in Your Hands and I trust You with my most Valuable Treasure. I'm so thankful that You found me and chose me, for such a time as this. I'm so thankful that You fulfill Your Promises to me. I'm so thankful that You hear my prayers and You answer. Anytime I may stray away, I thank You that You have grace, mercy and patience with me and guide me back with Your loving kindness. Thank You for Your eternal Love and Life.

Love Forever, Your

Daughter

Amen 🙏

Pics of my dad and me as a baby, and my dad and mom 💝

Opportunities,

Wonders I only once Dreamed of!

As I stepped Forward in Faith,

Hesitantly Trusting,

You took that little Seed and a Mighty Tree Blossomed and Bloomed.

Like a Mother in Labor,

Though I lamented,

Though it was painful,

You turned that pain into Beauty and New Life sprang forth.

I cannot put into words how the Work of Your Hands and Heart has Touched my Heart and Soul,

Has Brightened my Life and The Light You placed inside me.

I’m so very thankful that this test of Faith has produced an Endurance,

Patience,

And Joy that could only come from the pressing.

A Hope that could only be Revealed when all looked hopeless.

Yet,

I Held on,

Steadfast, Sturdy and Firm,

Trusting that You would Make The Way with each step taken.

And what a Beautiful Castle You have Walked me Into!

Written by: Amber Celestial Angel

It is Right Here,

Right Now,

This very Magnificent Moment.

At this very Moment I AM Working In you,

Through you.

I AM Building You,

I AM Nurturing You.

You are Growing Right Now.

With each Moment, it is Growth.

You may not see it Now, but You Will.

Growth,

Transformation,

Takes Time.

This Time is but a Flicker,

A Flash,

And still yet,

In this Moment,

It’s as if Time is Still.

Don’t rush this Time,

For it is Imperative for Growth and Understanding.

You wouldn’t expect a Seed you Planted today to Grow overnight,

Would you?

No,

It Takes Time.

Nurturing,

Watering,

Loving.

It’s a Process.

And with The Light of Each New Day,

Begins it’s Transformation.

So, You See,

How much this very Now Moment Means?

It is The Moment that is In this very Space and Place In Time,

That while it is only a Glimmer,

It Matters.

Creation,

Growth,

Transformation,

Miracles,

Are Happening Right Now!

They Will Blossom and Show Themselves In Time.

For Right Now You Once Prayed,

Hoped,

Dreamed,

That You would Be Right where You Are Now.

Enjoy this Now Moment,

It Only Happens Once in a Lifetime!

Written By: Amber Celestial Angel

As some of you may know, we got our new home (the camper that some of you helped us get through prayers and donations!! Thank you so much!!) 🙏

But along with that, God gifted us a beautiful place to park it and live, and a new job! 🙏 I mean wow!! God swung the doors wide open after A LOT of warfare!!!

A quick recap:

I went to apply for a loan and was told I got the loan, just needed to sign papers and that was all. Well, I had them transfer to a closer place to go in and sign, and all the sudden I wasn't approved for the loan anymore!! At the same time I had applied for a camper and just 3 weeks earlier tried another place (apartment and camper) and was denied. But all the sudden my credit score shot up overnight (Praise God!), so now I had more doors open. At least this door… I was approved for the camper! I didn't think there would be an issue because I was getting this loan that would pay for the down payment…. Only to find out days later I wasn't approved. I tried to apply at other places again…and again…and again… and kept getting denied! At this point I knew there was warfare going on, because I also had issues with my vehicle that cost me, and me and my children started getting sick, and I lost hours at work all from it!

But, I kept going…

God kept telling me “keep going!”

But I felt so defeated, so discouraged, so helpless.

And anytime before this, I would have given up. Honestly, I would have thrown in the towel and forfeited what God had for me. And then I would've come back around the mountain, AGAIN, later.

But not this time.

This time I listened. This time I pushed through. This time I got really angry and felt betrayed by God and felt like I couldn't trust Him. Which was new to me because I hadn't felt that before. But I had just let the enemy steal, kill and destroy and thought that was God just saying “it wasn't meant to be”. But that was a disguise by the enemy to take my fruits and Promises God had for me, and make me upset with God… and I realized that during this process.

He built perseverance in me.

He built trust (still working on it, but I KNOW the truth!).

He built wisdom in me.

And He was building these things through the hardship, through the trials.

He also built my trust in people again through this.

When I had been in situations before and asked people for help (which that was broken and stemmed from pride), I would constantly get rejected, denied, looked down on, looked up to through envy or jealousy, and I would just shut down and retreat. I would hide and cry. Literally.

But He broke that in me too. He showed me it didn't matter what they saw, it mattered what He saw, El Roi, and that my trust should be in Him, and even if they do that to me, I'm to keep focused on Him, and if He tells me to keep asking, keep going, to listen to Him.

And that's what this did. I had to bring my fear of rejection, denial, etc. to His feet and not let it get to me, and keep doing as He instructed.

And because of this, He’s restoring my trust in myself, in Him, and in people again.

And this time, people came through!

I met some rejection, but I kept going and kept my eyes on Him and gave it all to Him, as He told me to. And I'm so glad I did, because it also brought me to realize that even though we are to solely rely on God (the wilderness season is where that is built), there comes a time He wants us to know we can't go any further alone…

I needed people to pray for me. I needed people to help financially. I need help building. I can't do it alone anymore. And that's a very valuable lesson I have learned through this. I've gained many pearls and gold nuggets, but this one was a big game changer!! We need God, of course! But we also need a tribe…

And I'm so very grateful for you all!! 🙏💝 Please keep me in your prayers (only good ones are accepted), and I'll keep you in mine (let me know if you'd like to be included and I'll add you to my prayer board! 😊🙏) I pray someday I'll get to meet some of you (if I haven't already!). And I pray this read could give you some insight and encouragement to

Keep Going

And

Trust Again

P.S.

Our new view at our new place! 💝 So blessed!

We are so close to this being our new "home"! It may not seem like much to some, but it's a huge accomplishment for me. And here's why ...

About 4 years ago me and my children's father split up. This was after I had a Near Death Experience in 2018, where I met God (which I formerly didn't believe in because for a short time in my life I was in church while my mom was recovering from addiction to alcohol and drugs, and during that time, I had some bad experience with the church, where my prophetic gift was shunned, and my mom claimed I only wanted attention. So I shut down and told God to leave me alone and that I didn't want to see or hear anymore).

So after I experienced God, I knew He was real, and I knew I was sent back and here on earth for a reason and that God had a purpose for me!

I also knew God was telling me to leave the relationship with my children's father, but I felt guilt (realized later) because for a little while, I couldn't walk, cope or comprehend. I was in such a daze from physical ailment, and spiritually was trying to figure out what just happened. We were also taking care of my grandma who had dementia. So her and I were both in and out of the hospital, and she ended up passing away in 2019.

But God kept pressing me, I could see the darkness, I could feel the energy. But I stayed... For 4 more years.

During that time I felt God wanted me (us) to sell everything and just travel. He would call me to specific locations to pray and play the harp, and heal. That was my "job" for 2 years.

We ended up splitting up in late 2021, after it became so clear God did not want me in that relationship, and showed me the mental and emotional abuse I was enduring. If you've been through this, you know what I'm taking about. And if you're going through it, chances are you either don't even know, or you know but somehow they always make it your fault, and you question yourself and end up believing their lies.

I felt like everything fell apart. I cried. I prayed. I asked why everything was taken from me. I wondered about everything! And for 2 more years I was both in the wilderness myself, and ministering to others.

Then God started calling me out...

I was baptized in 2023 and God started rebuilding me. He started showing me His promises, and how He had good things for me, but they had to be rebuilt on the solid rock, on Jesus Christ (Yeshua).

And this takes time....

It doesn't happen overnight. It's a stripping and healing and deliverance that is a process, a painful one, but each time I've been healed and delivered, something beautiful has come from it. 🌻

I'm still in process, as I think we all always are while we are here on earth, but I have come a long way!

It's so true that we overcome by the blood of the lamb, and the word of our testimony! It's the only way I know how! The only way He taught me 🙏

I've been honored to host womens retreats to help deliver and heal others. I've been honored to be a vessel used for the Most High in whatever way He has called. And I have written a book of poems/psalms from my time in the wilderness, but that gift continues and I'm so thankful that the gift He has blessed me with, can also be a blessing to others 💝

So this post is an encouragement, accountability, and prayer all in one.

Encouraging others to speak up and share, to know that when we speak/write/just simply create, we are setting others free through the gifts God has given us!

Accountability to listen and be obedient when God is revealing something or asking us to do something. To listen and take action (sooner rather than later).

And prayer that this next chapter will come with joy and thanksgiving 🙏

I'm so close to the goal we need to get this camper and make this our home! So if you're able to please donate! We have 2 days!

It really is a lot for us, as I've had to rebuild from nothing, but I couldn't do it without God! And that has been my prayer from the beginning, that I don't want to go unless He goes with me 💝

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And here's a prayer for you:

Heavenly Father, we ask that you show us the way to the beautiful, abundant, fruitful life you have for us. We ask that you be with us every step of the way, and if there's anything from hindering us, it be revealed and brought to light so we can move forward in all you have called us to! May we step up boldly and courageously as we align with You and Your will, shaking off the old, and making way for the new horizons you have in store for us! Thank You, we love You and honor You, Amen 🙏

This is (part of) my story. This is (part of) my song. 💝

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When I prayed about it He said I needed to go. I needed to take care of myself and have a nice pampering day (I can't tell you how long it's been since I had a nice professional haircut and style, let alone anything else 😂). So I know God was telling me that I truly needed to allow myself to be loved and taken care of… Well, little did I know He needed me to minister to the hairstylist.

As she was cutting my hair, she seemed nervous, and I smelled the alcohol from her breath (she was younger) and as I was in the chair I just kept praying “Lord please let her do a good job! You come through her and work her hands and give me a beautiful haircut please!” She didn't say much at first, but as time went on she asked what I do, and I told her I've done ministry for a while, and work with women and do doula work.

That was the open door.

She started telling me about how she had a few miscarriages and her last one was hard to get over, but she just works to not think about it. I shared with her how I've had a miscarriage as well, and I asked her if she's ever seen the baby she lost. I have heard many moms share that they would have dreams of their miscarried babies, or just see them or sense them. She said she did have dreams of her baby. She was about ready to breakdown and I felt it was time to stop the subject for the time being.

As she continued my hair, now at the point of drying, so can't talk much anyway, I contemplated and asked God how I should go about this. So He showed/told me. And when she was done, as I was checking out, I told her she needed to grieve the losses, because if she doesn't, it will just stay inside and boil and cause more pain. I hugged her as God hugs us, so warm, tight and gentle, and I told her I didn't have parents who loved me growing up, and she said she didn't either, but I told her that God loves her so much and has a special plan for her and her life, and if she would just call out, seek Him, He would make Himself known. I promised her! Because I know God shows up!! She held in her tears and said thank you and she needed to hear.

I planted the seed, and I trust He will water it 🙏

She also didn't charge me as much as it was supposed to be, so He gave me a good discount 🙏

One of these times, I'll share how God sent me into a bar (not the first time, but this one was profound!).

We really never know how God works, and how He wants to reach His children, if only we are obedient and “lean not on our own understanding” 🙏💝

I'm not a Christian only music person, and in fact I think a lot of it is tainted. I can feel when beats are off, which comes to the knowledge of HZ frequencies and how they effect us.

The way I look at it, if I can sing it to God, or He can sing it to me, He's in it!! 🙏💝

Celine Dion: Because You Loved Me (I'm saying Love, not loved ☺️)

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

I'll be forever thankful, baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through, through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cause you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me, ooh baby

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand, I could touch the sky

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love, I had it all

I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak (you were my strength)

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cause you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me, oh

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak (you were my strength)

You were my voice when I couldn't speak (oh, when I couldn't speak)

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cause you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me, yeah-yeah

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak (my voice)

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cause you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me, oh

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

Exhaust is empty.

Denial is debilitating.

Hopelessness is hollow.

Overwhelm is consumable.

But....

Victory is had because:

Joy is a Filling Fountain of Living Water.

Acceptance is our Inheritance.

Faith is our Firm Foundation.

Peace is Preservation.

I will Receive my Oil:

Of Joy for morning.

Of Beauty for ashes.

Of Praise for despair.

Planted Firm and displaying His Splendour.

I will Receive a Double Portion instead of shame.

I will Rejoice in my Inheritance.

Everlasting Joy will be mine.

I will Persevere and be Preserved.

And let no one take thy Crown.

Written by: Amber Celestial Angel 😇

I hate this. And I'm being honest. I hate that I feel like just when things are going right, BOOM! They fall apart. Before I even get to be happy about it.

I’ve been disappointed time after time, and I’ve prayed for that to go away. I've prayed for stability and peace. I've prayed for a place for me and my children (being a single mom because I left abuse). I've prayed someone would have mercy and help us. I've prayed for God to send the man He has for me. I've prayed for more money. I've prayed for wisdom. I've worked hard to get nowhere because just when I get ahead, things fall apart again. I've prayed so hard, and so much. People who know my situation can't believe how I've made it through, especially without any substance use as that's where most people in my situation end up. And I've felt exhausted and defeated over and over again. And while pieces of me still feel this way at the moment, God has also taught me and shown me a lot:

It's not about me!

When trials and struggles come, during the time I tend to focus on “why would you do this, again God!? Did I do something wrong? Why is this happening? Is this You, or the enemy?” All these questions flood my thoughts and speak out in crying out, in lament, in anger, in hurt, in not understanding.

But He showed me today, that it's not about me.

That man I met at the auto shop, who I broke down in front of because he just quoted me a price that I have no clue how I can afford or fix this because of all the other things that have drained me in the last 2 days, that man felt so bad and what he saw was me trying to hold back the tears and still saying “I don't know how but God will come through” as I'm breaking. He was touched.

As I sat in my car crying and wondering where I was going to go, what I was going to do, how this could happen. Missing work, putting them in a bind, and praying through it that she would be okay and get through the day without me. Lamenting that I made plans for me and my children for mothers day for a special outing, that by God's grace I was even able to afford, but now would miss it. I called to try and get a rental car, but lo and behold, NO WHERE HAD ANY AVAILABLE! I mean come on God! I was going to go to a further auto shop that was recommended, but I wasn't sure if my car would make it, so I looked around on the map and found one closer. I called that place and he said he couldn't get to it until next week. I broke down again! What is happening! I apologized and he said it was okay and asked if he could call me back. Honestly, I didn't expect a call back. I thought he thought I was cuckoo lol 😂 But he did! He called back and told me to come in and let him look at it. He gave me a time and in the meantime I was praying and panicking, and yes, even cussing (which I do not do often so it was bad. And yes I repented).

I took it in and he looked at it and found what was wrong. Which was not what the other mechanic said. It was a much cheaper and easier fix than the first one.

Which brings me to my next lesson:

Do not believe the bad report!

The first mechanic gave a false, and bad, report. It may not have been the man who delivered the message, I don't think he knew. He just told me what someone told him. And he was ministered to in a way.

The second mechanic looked and found the real issue, and he was so nice and accommodating. They were getting ready to close and he stayed longer so he could help me and get the job done so I could have a running car! I was crying in the office while he was working on it just thanking God! It was done fast and efficient, and cheaper than expected (thank God I had that amount!). And all I could do was thank him and tell him “God bless you”.

And God showed me that's all that was needed…

I sat in aww, crying and repenting for how selfish I felt..how I couldn't see that He knew what He was doing, no matter how bad it seemed, how hard it looked, how much I couldn't understand, but He just wanted to use me to be the hope and light to someone else.

And to the next lesson:

God works all things together for the good

Despite all the hard trials the past few days (because see, I didn't mention that that vehicle was a source to a loan that I was getting (am getting, thank you God!!) so that I could get a place for me and my children, so it was one thing after another! Setbacks and delays galore!) BUT GOD.

He has worked some of it out, and He will continue to work it ALL OUT FOR MY (AND YOUR) GOOD!

We can't always see the bigger picture (most of the time we don't!) but He knows the testing of our faith produces endurance, even when it's ugly!

And that brings me to the last lesson:

God loves you unconditionally!

It got ugly. I got ugly. I got emotional (which is okay by the way, I'm not afraid to be naked in front of my God! He knows how to handle it, and He knows my heart!) and He showed me that He's not looking for perfect, or keeping it all together, or pretending everything is okay when it's not. No. He showed me it's okay to come to Him, flaws and all, and that He will still love me unconditionally, and that His love is not transactional or based on how good I've been or how well I performed, but it's truly unconditional. What a mighty example He showed me as a parent! And what I can now take as a tool with my own children! 🙏

I'm still not fully over it. But I will be.

I will keep trusting, keep praying, keep leaning into God even when it feels hard or disheartening. Because I know I love Him and I know He loves me, unconditionally 💝

Much Love and Many Blessings,

Shalom 🙏