August really kicked my butt. Did it kick yours! I feel like I’m still recovering, lol. So hopefully this reading can give you some solace.

You know, sometimes, we go through something really hard, and we’re still left wondering, why did that happen? Why did it have to hurt so much? Why is it still lingering?

I’ve had a lot of questions lately and felt like I’ve been living in a confused haze. It doesn’t feel very good. It’s hard to be in limbo.

Maybe the answers weren’t meant to be revealed just yet.

Logic may try to reason it away, but your feelings tell you a different story. Anyways, that’s the reality I’ve been living in…

No great answers today, but merely some reflective thoughts.

If you are the feminine with a bright idea or passion project in mind, this is the reading for you, because it ends on a very positive note :)

Let’s Get Into Your Reading

The Chariot: The Chariot is all about forward momentum, willpower, and the gusto to take something and carry it forward. You are somebody who has this gusto to see your dreams through. This fire that carries you forward is the ticket to…

Ten of Pentacles: Long-term stability, long-term financial abundance, joy, and satisfaction. In this depiction, the ten of pentacles is a tall and strong tree. You cannot have a tall and strong tree without strong and deep roots. This card shows that this what's in store for you.

Three of Wands: Another forward momentum card. Three of wands is about looking ahead, being on a path of discovery. It can be about travel or learning something new. You are creating new experiences and thinking points in your life. But this is not without a period of difficulty.

Nine of Swords & Four of Swords: Nine of swords depicted here has a dagger in the pillow. Who can sleep with a dagger in their pillow? Swords can be about the mind and thoughts. You must have been in a period of angst, insomnia, or anxiety, where rest seemed out of the question. It was hard for you to surrender your plan to your Creator.

Seven of Swords: A recent betrayal that sparked some significant healing

Death & 5 of cups: Sometimes our worst betrayals spark the biggest awakenings and soul growth. With Death, parts of the ego have a chance to transform into something more soulful. Death is about transformation and soul growth. The 5 of cups - if you can see it - it’s a broken cup spilling. Your heart was broken and this triggered some deep healing.

But now the story changes…

6 of Swords: Calm waters, a time of transition, feeling in touch with the Divine. Things are starting to shift soon.

Ace of Wands: A passion project or idea is flowing towards you, and you are wondering whether this is a fine idea or something worth going for. Notice the new branches on the tree.

Queen of Pentacles: (cue the angels singing!) The Queen of Pentacles is all about financial abundance, security, and stability. It’s manifesting abundance from your feminine energy (there’s a place for masculine energy as well, though most of us were overmasculinized in the pursuit of money). This is saying it’s okay to manifest that money in your own way.

Overall… without the darkness there can be no light. Sometimes it takes our most painful chapters to end in order to welcome in fresh new beginnings that actually give back to us and meet us. If you have a passion project or idea, the cards are saying “go for it!” It will give back to you greatly.

I still forgot to take a picture of the overall spread. My bad. Maybe Spirit doesn’t want me to 😉😂

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Lots of love,

Angeli

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The Other Side of Change by Maya Shankar

This book is amazing!!! My spiritual bestie Kay was reading it first, then I checked it out from the library, got kinda busy, returned it, and then checked it out again later 😂 such is life, right? If you love stories, you will love this book. The stories in here are incredible. Maya poses the question, who do we become when life throws you a massive curveball? She started a podcast to talk about these very things. The stories she shares in the book came from her podcast - a young woman who acquired locked-in syndrome (couldn’t move any of her muscles for a really long time!). An incarcerated man who became a poet and author. A woman who accidentally hit and killed a child with her car.

Even her own story - she was planning to have children with her husband. Through a series of unfortunate family planning events, over a 6 year span, they decided to go with a surrogate - and I won’t spoil it - but there were lots of twists and turns there. This is what prompted her to write this book.

Sometimes we make plans, and life throws us some extra crazy curveballs. If you’re looking for comfort and insight, I highly recommend this book!

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Before we start our post, I was supposed to email you on Tuesday about who was the winner of a FREE tarot reading for the survey I posted. But I’ve been massively fatigued this week, so I didn’t have the energy to email you. But none of you answered the survey! So nobody wins! Lol.

The last time y’all didn’t answer a poll I put out, I wrote my first book, and a fair few of you bought my book, so I really appreciate that! I will leave the survey up until midnight tonight, you can take it here. Once again, one of you will win a FREE tarot reading with me! It will only take 2 minutes of your time. It would help me greatly.

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This eclipse is so intense!!! OMG. Like I said, I’m massively fatigued and going through some deep healing of my own. If you are also feeling this one, know that you are not alone!

Today’s tarot read is about this eclipse season. For many of you, you experienced a recent betrayal or loss and it hurt really badly. With the moon showing up in this reading, there may be anxiety or confusion or information that is blocked from you.

As always with my readings, this is a general read, so please take what resonates with you and discard the rest.

Let’s Get Into the Cards

The Empress: This is about feminine energy, creativity, nurturing, birthing babies or projects, whichever applies. If you look at the card, it’s a picture of a pomegranate and you can see that the pomegranate has lots of seeds/arils on the inside - a fertile fruit. Perhaps you were feeling really hopeful about something.

Seven of Swords: This card signifies a recent betrayal or situation where you felt tricked. You might be looking at a situation through the lens of, is this real? Is this an illusion? Your guard might be up, your discernment is high, and your spidey senses are tingling. It could have been something completely unexpected.

Temperance (Reversed): You’re feeling imbalanced, out of sorts, off, maybe impatient for answers.

Page of Cups & The Magician: Page of Cups signifies following your heart, a youthful disposition, honoring your innocence and your joy. You are well within your right to tune into your own heart, your innocence, and your childlike wonder to manifest exactly what you are wishing for. The Magician tells us you are a Divine Creator and a master of your destiny. Even despite being hurt recently, you can still tune into the best parts of yourself, not allowing the hurt parts to take over, and still manifest what you want.

The Moon: Not everything has been revealed to you and that can make you feel anxious or confused. Whenever we are looking for clarity, the real work is to sit with the feelings that are coming up, because once those are cleared, clarity follows. When our feelings are settled, we can really hear our intuition, which is the gateway to clarity.

Eight of Wands: Symbolizing quickness, the clarity you are seeking will come through once you have felt your feelings and released them. Things start moving very fast.

The Devil: The Devil shows us there may still be inner work to do regarding limiting beliefs, crippling patterns, obsessions, or addictions. As you feel your feelings and heal these old ways of being, you create so much mental freedom which emanates out to the rest of your life.

Queen of Cups: Now your true sensitive, intuitive, and empathic nature can really shine fully. The world needs to see you in this way.

Justice: Your good karma has arrived. Anything that was off gets to be righted. The scales start to balance. Once you have settled your feelings and heal, everything will make sense.

Finals Thoughts

What I love about tarot is a good paradox. As we see, the ego wants to speed up when it wants to speed up. The ego wants everything quick-fast. But the soul, your intuition, knows that when you slow down and make time to feel, even though it seems like everything has to stop in order to do this, you actually unblock yourself and life starts moving again - quickly!

If you went through something kinda brutal recently, the Justice scales are telling you that your healing helps to right the scales and your good karma is coming. Things that can feel so hard and heavy help you open up to higher energies that align with your inner being and your soul’s true path. It will be worth it.

Wrap-Up

I hope this reading was helpful to you - write in the comments if the message resonates! Take good care of yourself during the tail end of this eclipse season!

Lots of love,

Angeli

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Today’s post is another tarot reading. I received a couple of compliments about my reading last week, and I’m happy to share another message with you!

If you missed my email on Tuesday, I sent out a survey about creating spiritual community with you. This is for the ones looking for purpose who are also survivors of narcissistic abuse. It’s not too late to take the survey, but it will only be open for a few more days (till Tuesday, August 25th). One lucky participant will receive a FREE tarot reading from me ($44 value). You can take the survey here.

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The reason I am choosing a very niche-y group is because narcissistic abuse fucks up your life in very hard ways. It blocks your joy and your purpose, numbs you out, and creates really tough patterns that cripple you from sharing your gifts, being seen, receiving love and money, and so much more.

And yet, on the other side of the pain is your blossoming. Community enables you to live your purpose to the fullest, instead of getting lost in “I can’t feel joy” or “I don’t know what my purpose is”. It helps you break out of patterns like rescuing, caretaking, and people-pleasing. It helps you grow among others who know what it feels like to be scapegoated or emotionally abused, and create safe and intimate connections that can empower you to reach higher.

I know I couldn’t have gotten to where I am without my spiritual girlies.

Anywho, onto our reading today :)

Knight of Pentacles: Now, this normally means putting in the hard work and taking steady steps to manifest abundance or money. But when I zoom out and look at the entire reading, I really feel like this is saying you’ve been working immensely hard on yourself. You’re starting to see the fruits of your labor, seeing shifts in your outer world.

Death: We got this last week too. Death is about transformation, change, spiritual awakening. This is not human death, lol. The card Death is about ego death, releasing old patterns and versions of yourself, so that you can step more fully into your Highest Self.

5 of Cups: If you notice the card, it’s a broken cup with liquid spilling through. You’re going through some significant healing right now - like heartbreak or brief. Your heart is broken right now, just like the cup. Right now it feels painful and emotional, but it will lead you to warmer waters.

The High Priestess & 3 of Cups: The High Priestess is about following your intuition, having a strong intuition, and being in touch with either your moon cycle or the moon itself. The 3 of cups is like your soulmate best friends. Putting those two together, we have spiritual and intuitive community. This type of community is full of people who are in tune with themselves, and so are you.

Queen of Cups: Once again - you are in touch with your emotions, you are willing to feel your feelings, you are sensitive, empathic, sweet, and kind natured. Just like your community of people.

Eight of Wands (Reversed): Two things come up for me when I see this. One, it might be a slow burn the way you find this community. And really the best relationships are slow burns and they have longevity. But second, this signifies it might take some time to manifest it. Be patient.

The Lovers: We normally think of this card as a romantic soulmate card. But The Lovers also signifies soul alignment. The more you align with yourself, the more you draw in things, opportunities, and people that align with you.

Nine of Cups: A very happy card - you’ll be very happy with this community that you find. Nine of cups signifies heart fulfillment.

And last but not least…

Nine of Pentacles: Prosperity, stability, and material security. When we align with our true natures, we get to unlock our greatest prosperity. Prosperity could mean money but it could also mean anything that blesses your life. A very positive card!

So there you have it. I sent out a survey earlier this week about spiritual community and then universe sends you a message about spiritual community. What are the odds? You can’t make this shit up 😅

I forgot to take a picture of the reading again! Ahh!

Another Note About Community

I was in a spiritual community back when I was looking for my purpose. And to tell you the truth, I didn’t love being in it. I didn’t feel like the creator really cared whether I found my purpose or not. The resources and classes were good, but I felt disconnected. So if I create something like this, my hope is that you get the help you need at an affordable cost so that you can really shine in your life and create what you want. And feel connected!

When I wanted to quit the group, I received way too many emails guilting me to stay with price increases and the like. I would never do that to you. If you want to stay, stay. If you want to leave, then leave, it’s all love & peace, okay?

Wrap-Up

If spiritual community is what you are looking for, growing within it can be extremely enriching. Hearing other people’s stories who are going through something similar or who have gone through something similar can be really helpful and take you out of the shame that you have been brought up to feel. Watching as others step into their purpose can be really inspiring and help you step further into yours. Celebrating as each person has their wins can be so fun, rewarding, and connecting.

If that’s what you're manifesting, then blessings for you - it’s on the way!

Thanks for watching, listening, and reading!

Lots of love,

Angeli

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Today’s post is a tarot reading that I uploaded to Instagram yesterday! I felt called to upload it here in case this resonates with you.

I’ve been really obsessed with tarot lately. I don’t know if this is a good or bad thing. But I love pulling cards these days and I’ve been following a lot of talented tarot ladies on Instagram, and they just inspire me!

My tarot readings are like a coaching session, a hug, and a delivery of clarity, all-in-one.

Your purpose is on the way.

This reading is for those of you who are at a crossroads in your career. Maybe you tried something and it didn’t quite work out. It didn’t light you up the way you wanted it to, or you try to make something happen and it just wasn’t panning out. If you don’t know what’s next, but feel that something is next, then this reading is for you!

This deck is The Plant Joy Tarot. I just bought mine used on Etsy. I love it because I love flowers. My friend Kay and I send each other pictures of flowers from our gardens every summer because it’s so fun and we are both flower lovers!

Without Further Ado, Here’s The Reading:

Death: We start with Death. This is the card of transformation, ego death, spiritual awakenings, and the like. A part of you has to die in order to welcome in a newer, more spiritually aligned version of you.

The Knight of Pentacles (Reversed): Something work-related or financially related didn’t work out, or it ended. It might be time for pivot.

The 2 of Cups: Paired with The Knight of Pentacles in Reverse, maybe you did love this thing and wanted it to work out so badly, but it just wasn’t working, or it needed to end.

The Knight of Wands (Reversed): Once again, you’re not feeling lit up about this project, or you feel uninspired or drained or not energized like you would want to. Maybe things were moving way slower than you were expecting.

8 of Pentacles: This is the card of purpose! Mastering your craft, practicing your skills, taking risks, aligning with your true soul’s purpose, and becoming a true expert.

Strength: This is about staying the course. Even if you do have to pivot, your purpose will bring you forward steadily, one step at a time, as it is meant to. Universe is guiding you.

The Star: hopes and dreams will be fulfilled!

King of Wands: You’re about to be on fire, magnetic, lit up, passionate, and fiery about the work you are about to do. You’ll feel like a master of your destiny, able to create what you want.

The Devil: before you celebrate too much, we must face the darkness so the light can shine through. The Devil is all about releasing mental entrapments, addictions, bad habits, and patterns of self-sabotage that get in the way of you manifesting and committing to your purpose and really going all in with it.

Last, but not least!!

5 of Pentacles: Usually this means you feel like you are so far away from your goals, that you are so bereft in your finances. But the pentacle is right there on card, within reach. All it takes is a perspective shift. Once you release your Devil lessons, you will manifest abundance. Purpose is a one-step-at-a-time process.

Next time I’ll take a picture of the whole reading :)

Wrap-Up

Purpose really is one of those things that has its own unfolding, in its own timing. It can bring you to some really unexpected places. Things you thought for sure would work out, just don’t. And things that you’d never expect can happen, too! When you aligning with your purpose, trust that the universe is guiding you forward, even if the things you are doing don’t make a lot of logical sense. Your intuition is really key here.

Purpose will also enable stages of spiritual growth that help you reach higher than you could have ever done before. There are painful sides to it, but when you heal, you become much stronger, much more magnetic, and much more you. All of thishelps you fulfill your soul’s mission while on this planet.

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Greetings beautiful soul and welcome back! ⭐♥️

When you first start to look for purpose, it can be wrought with anxiety, confusion, impatience, frustration, or even anger. It seems like what should be so obvious, just isn’t. In the beginning, that is.

When you embark upon the journey of following your purpose, there will be obstacles and hurdles to overcome. In my book, It Can Be Done, I speak about how when you raise your vibration to manifest purpose, your shadows and wounds and limiting beliefs come up.

Once you clear out your limiting beliefs, anxiety, and confusion, clarity comes. And at that point, there’s no turning back. Once you know your purpose, there is no unknowing it, and once you discover one way to express your purpose, you will begin to discover more and more ways to express it.

There comes a point where all other options fall to the wayside and the only path is forward.

Let’s go over the 3 signs you are ready to follow your purpose.

But first, a story.

Back when I was looking for my purpose, I would do anything to attain the feeling that I had one and knew what it was. I was desperate, man. I was so burned out and unhappy working in healthcare. And it surprised me, because I used to love work. But of course, you grow, and change, and evolve, and you realize that these systems that are in place are not for the greatest and highest good. They are built on profit and productivity, often at the expense of the people they serve and the people who work for them. Their core values and goals did not align with my own. And that feeling started to get louder and louder.

There was something inside of me that was calling me for more. There was a strong feeling that I needed my work to be something purposeful and meaningful and to reflect the true me. Whatever that looked like - there was a time I had no idea what that would be.

As a multi-passionate person, it makes it extra hard, because I’m so interested in so many things, and many of those things did not seem to overlap.

Fast forward to now - I am a dog sitter turning trainer, energy healer, wedding officiant, author, and soul purpose teacher. Ha.

Finding my purpose meant that I was walking away from financial stability, health benefits, and the approval I’d receive from others about my job title.

Here are the 3 signs you are ready to follow your purpose.

Sign #1: You’re willing to burn everything down.

You’re willing to let go of what was stable, secure, stifling, and out of alignment in order to formulate a new path. You’re willing to do whatever it takes, even if it costs you, to move the needle and create soul satisfaction on the inside. You’re willing to let go of old roles and parts you played - like being the “stable one”, the “reliable one”, the “doormat”, and the “overgiver” - because they tire you out and they’re not really who you are.

You’re willing to stop self-sacrificing so that you can have true fulfillment in your life. You don’t even know what’s on the other side, and yet you’re still willing to say yes to yourself, if it means your soul can breathe again.

Sign #2: You’re willing to tune inwards, not outwards.

When you make a big shift in your life, inevitably there will be people who naysay what you are about to do. There are people who will say that you can’t do it, or you always need to make more money, or you always need a stable job, or that you’re not that talented. There are people who are too afraid to confront their own dissatisfaction with their own jobs, and will project their scary feelings onto you. Even despite the fear they feel or the fear you feel, you’re still willing to tune towards your soul for the answers and reassurance that you need.

Each fear, shadow, traumatic memory, or hurt feeling is an opportunity to grow more into yourself, which grows your purposeful business and brand. Each time you uplevel your vibration through healing, your message gets clearer and your confidence increases. Each time you use your purpose to be of service, and practice your gifts, you magnetize more and more of what you want - clients, testimonials, tips, referrals, and more business. Each time someone complains about your prices, you’re willing to go back inwards and foster your worthiness so that you’re not as bothered by their negativity. Or you fire those clients because they’re fucking annoying. Soulmate clients don’t complain <3

Sign #3: The pain of staying the same outweighs the pain of changing.

At some point, purpose will weigh on your mind, and you are at crossroads with a choice. The pain of staying the same becomes much bigger than the pain of changing. You have to reach a place of such unhappiness (or burnout or suffering), to feel like I’m willing to let go of it all to follow God’s higher plan. That’s a big deal for many people, and I know I had no idea what challenges and mountains I’d have to overcome in order to pursue and foster my purpose.

In some ways, it was a good thing going in blind. I was smacked with health issues, family issues, money issues, worthiness issues, visibility issues, and certain things working out that I didn’t expect (like dog sitting) and other things not working out that I didn’t expect (like coaching). But overall, there’s a point of no return, where you’re finally like, Okay I get it! I can’t stay the same. And then you keep going.

Wherever you are on your purpose journey, honor that. Once you’ve reached the point of no return, things start to get very interesting. All of your karma comes up to be settled, sometimes it feels like you’re really going through the wringer in order to do what you want to be doing.’

What Happens When You Follow Your Purpose?

You have a feeling of alignment, satisfaction, pride, joy, peace, and love because you took a chance on yourself, you created a schedule you wanted, you connected with soulmate clients you adore, you allowed yourself to rest, you allowed yourself to heal from deep-seated traumas, you traveled to beautiful places that were calling your name, you didn’t have to ask for permission to take time off, you impacted people in positive ways, you taught others something that they didn’t know before, you affirmed others who needed the reassurance, your energy was appreciated for who you are, your chakras balanced because they are at peace, your voice became stronger to vocalize what you wanted, you became a more embodied, regulated version of you with good boundaries, you learned who was worth and not worth your time, you strengthened your relationships with the people who support you, you attracted new relationships that honor you … the list goes on…

Is it worth following your purpose? 100%

Is it easy? Fuck no. That’s why I write this newsletter.

I’d love to hear from you - what did following your purpose look like?

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Lots of love,

Angeli

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I just got back from my 4th trip to Hawaii. This was the best one!!! Hehehehe.

Today’s post is about why you should go to a nude beach. Before you close out of this post, hear me out.

Let Me Start With A Story.

The first time I went to a clothing optional/nude beach was in November 2025. This was my second trip to the Big Island, Hawaii. I was looking for black sand beaches to go to - they are a Hawaii staple, not something you see commonly in other parts of the world - because of the volcanic eruptions from the past. I came across Kehena Beach in my research, and read that the sand was absolutely amazing but it was clothing optional.

Something in my soul told me to go. I was down. I didn’t know what to expect.

I actually met someone on the beach that day. A really sweet, sensitive, spiritual, and creative man. And we had a couple of tantric experiences. It was beautiful and also very healing actually.

I went two more times since to that same beach, back in February (where I talked to nobody and was definitely a hermit) and again this July.

I want to share with you what I’ve learned about going to a nude beach - and why I think everyone should try it.

It Doesn’t Have to Be Sexual

There’s a huge stigma in our society that being naked is really weird, bad, or it has to be sexual. I think because we censor and cover up so much, when we see a naked body, we don’t know what to do! Especially the men, lol.

When you get to be outside naked, it’s actually very natural. You feel so connected to Mama Earth. Our ancestors were hanging out this way, so it feels very innate.

Wearing a bathing suits sucks - at least as a female. You’re trying to keep your parts inside this skimpy little number, and it never works because at least once you’re going to get knocked by a wave and your boobs will spill out. It’s also uncomfortable to sit in wet clothes.

When you’re naked outside, you feel very free. And if you go somewhere where the people are used to seeing other naked people, it’s not very creepy at all. With a caveat - there might be a small percentage of weirdos there, okay? Nothing’s absolute. But for the most part, you meet open-minded, spiritual people who are just happy to see you! They look directly in your eyes when you talk to them, not at your body parts. And it’s really cool to connect in this way.

Even with the guy I first met in November, it wasn’t like boom I just met you and I want to do you. We actually had a lovely conversation first! He offered me some aloe and we got to talking. We went in the water - he swam, and I went right back out lol. Then he invited me over for lunch and he cooked for me 🙂 I love when people cook for me.

But lastly, people bring their children to these beaches! And I think a lot of valuable lessons are garnered to children when they get to see others naked and enjoy themselves naked outside. Again, non-sexual!

Let’s go over some reasons why your next trip should include a nude beach.

Your Body Image Will Improve

When you look at me, I bet you think I have no issues with my body at all - because I’m gorgeous, slim, fit, and I have sizable boobs. But I also grew up in the same world as you, the one that puts a lot of pressure on women to look a certain way and to be perfectionistic and hypercritical about our bodies. I was not taught to love my body as a young person, just like you.

I have such a tiny body. When I was in high school, I literally bought my junior year prom dress solely on the basis that it was the only dress that fit me in the entire mall. Yes! It was a beautiful dress. But that’s the only way I could dress myself for anything, because back then they just didn’t carry smaller sizes. I also had to spend more money on it than my friends who could get the bargain dresses. That made me feel left out and like I wasn’t enough.

I was also an athlete - a runner. I ran competitively for my college (University of Maryland). I was on a team with gorgeous women who were super lean and fit and all had 6-pack abs. And I had strong abs too, but I also had some belly fat - which is normal, and I was actually one of the only people on the team with a regular period.

I would look at these girls and criticize myself for not being lean enough, even though we were running 60 miles per week and lifting weights twice a week and competing once a week. And I was eating good food.

One day, when I was 21, I looked in the mirror at my belly and thought, you know, this might be the most athletic I’ll ever be - I can run, swim, lift weights, dance, and walk, without problems. Maybe I’ll just be grateful for that and give myself a break. So I was able to start loving my body.

I also grew up in a time where J. Lo and Beyonce’s butts were big talk. I don’t have a big butt, so I always felt like my butt was never big enough. And no matter how many squats I did, it was always the same size 😂

When I was in my mid-twenties in pharmacy school, I had a friend tell me I had “no hips”. I was so ashamed when she said that!!

When you go to a nude beach, you get to see and appreciate everybody’s body. Oh, their areolas are this color. Oh, they look like this with that shape. Oh, it’s so beautiful. It’s like mine, but a little different. There’s this sense of, everybody has parts, and all of them are beautiful, and all of them are unique.

You Might Meet New People

On this past trip to Hawaii at the same beach, I met another guy. He was really special - so spiritual, sensitive, empathic, and creative. We did make love later in the week. Afterwards, he told me that he liked my butt. And I said “Really?” And he said, “Oh yes”. And inside, I felt some shame. Because those old feelings about my butt came up, and I was able to feel them and realize, “Oh wait, I’m enough and my butt is enough”. It was nice for him to affirm me, I really appreciate it, but really the affirmation needs to come from myself. And now I’m thrilled because I love my butt more.

Loving your body is a process of course.

There was a trans person on the beach this time. They looked so happy and free being naked at the beach. That’s huge. They came with a friend, who had a dog. Of course I made friends with them, the dog mom, and the dog 😂 It was so nice to see other people feeling really happy and free and comfortable in their bodies. It was nice to see them enjoying their friendship outside.

I also made friends with a woman. Her name is Natalie and we had an instant soul connection. She was naked when I met her. So was I. It was not weird. We got to spend a good amount of time together, clothed even. I have a feeling we will be friends for a long time.

So you never know! You might make new friends!

You Realize Your Body Hair Is Right the Way It Is

Once again, the patriarchy has relegated women to strip and rip off hair that grows naturally in places on their body. Anyone seen Marcello Hernandez’s stand-up special on Netflix? Growing up with Cuban women in Miami, he reveals, all women have mustaches. They spend a bunch of money, “going into debt”, removing their body hair for dates with men. He says, if a man wants to split the bill with their date, tell her before the date, so that she can skip all the grooming, save her money, and show up with her mustache - then you can split the bill like dudes. 😂 I died, lol.

When you see others on the beach with hair - armpit hair, leg hair, pubic hair - you realize, women grow hair in exactly the same places as men. How many of you have chin hairs? I’m raising my hand! It puts a lot less pressure on us if we just accept that our body hair is growing in the proper places and it’s just going to keep growing back anyways! Lol.

Breastfeeding/Breast Pumping

This is not about going to a beach, but it is a PSA on behalf of new moms. We are so nipple-phobic in our society. Think of every mammal you know. All of them feed their babies through their breasts, right? Dogs do this, cats do this, cows do this, we think that’s normal, and honestly kind of cute.

All of us adults had to be fed as babies to make it to adulthood, right? So why are so afraid of new moms feeding their babies in public? Whether they are breastfeeding or pumping, why do we send them to private rooms (sometimes shitty ones if in the workplace), or make them cover up with an apron, when baby suckling mom’s breast is the most natural thing in the world? Hmm???

What we cover up and cast into the shadows becomes really weird and foreign and fetish-like as well. When we fear it, we might be mean to it. When we own it, allow it, and love it, it’s the most natural and sense-making thing ever! Give moms a break! They’re tired!!

You can read more about this in Ina May Gaskin’s Guide to Breastfeeding (affiliate link).

Okay, PSA over.

You Will Embrace Your Age

One last perk of going to a nude beach. Now before you start making excuses like, she’s young and hot, of course she can go there and feel fine.

Get that shit out of your head! There is no age limit on going to a nude beach! Nude beaches are welcome to all ages, all sizes, all shapes, all colors, and all gender identities. I’ve seen it all! You are most welcome there! Mama Earth doesn’t care if you are naked or wearing 10,000 layers of clothes :)

Wrap-Up

I hope this post helps you to see the value of going to a nude beach. It’s a really lovely, freeing, and valuable experience. It will help you connect with your own body and with Mama Earth. It will help you appreciate your own body and others’ bodies as well.

It will normalize your comfortability being around other naked people. You will feel so happy and proud of yourself for trying. You might meet your new best friend there, or meet a lover. You might still be a hermit like I was on one of my trips. All of it is totally fine!!!

You will teach your children to feel comfortable in their bodies and love themselves exactly the way they are.

You’ll enjoy a beautiful view of the ocean and feel the sand on your butt, not just your toes 😂 if anything, it’s worth it for that! 😂

Did I convince you?

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Greetings beautiful soul and welcome back! ⭐ ♥️

Today’s post is about how to use tarot to heal your life.

But first, a little backstory.

I got my first tarot deck with my spiritual bestie, Kay, during the pandemic sometime, when she came to visit me. I picked out The Muse Tarot by Chris-Anne. (affiliate link) It’s still my favorite deck to this day 🙂

Later on, I took a tarot class with my spiritual teacher, Bertena. Bertena’s an amazing teacher and you should subscribe to her Substack, it’s all about the Divine Feminine. Prior to her tarot class, tarot was so beyond what I could comprehend. She made it understandable and equally intuitive.

After that, I would practice on friends and family, as well as myself. And finally one day, when my understanding of the deck started to really click, I received an intuitive feeling to start offering tarot readings as part of my business.

I’d say my tarot readings are like a hug with some honesty and clarity sprinkled in 😂

I’m going to also mention that this past year was not easy for me. I went through some deep and troubling changes that were trying to say the least. It’s still very tender. I was not feeling very spiritual this past year, so I put the decks down.

Then, I started watching these amazing tarot ladies on Instagram, and they inspired me to pick up my decks again. If you’d like to watch a tarot reading I did this week on Instagram, click here. It’s about career.

As I started to pick up the decks and shuffle, I could see the cards can tell when I’m feeling upset underneath. It’s like they can pick up my energy before I am super aware of it, and then clue me into what’s going on in the background.

The King of Cups Reversed. An emotionally unstable, manipulative, controlling man (or father figure). Check. The 6 of Pentacles in Reverse. An imbalance with giving and receiving, a power imbalance, or abuse. Check. The 10 of Wands in Reverse. Needing to offload or be completely done with something. Check.

What’s so beautiful about tarot is the cards don’t lie. They can tell what you went through, and that alone can be very validating, especially if your recent path was hard.

And they can tell the future, but not necessarily always, because the future can be changed and adjusted based on what you choose, which gives you the power to be the creator of your life. They can give you insight as to what’s underneath the surface and where you need to focus your energies, so that you can manifest what you want.

What Is Using Tarot to Heal?

Now, I couldn’t possibly give you a full lesson on how to read tarot in this blog post. But I can tell you that when you pay attention to the messages that Spirit is giving you through the cards, you can acknowledge the deep and long journey you’ve been on. Maybe this wasn’t the easiest year for you either. And then, as you pull cards, you honor your feelings that come up, because maybe they were waiting for permission to be seen.

Using tarot to heal is trusting that the cards that came out or that you chose are the right ones for this moment. And it’s allowing the message, whatever it may be, to help guide you and to know yourself a little more.

How to Use Tarot To Heal

Whether you are new to tarot or a seasoned reader, I will walk you through a practice that Bertena taught me, that I will share with you.

1. Draw 1 card (or if you have more experience, 3 or more cards). Also, read them right side up.

2. Take out your journal and notice all the imagery of that card. What is the story there? What are the symbols? (Keep in mind that there is a lot of symbology in tarot). What is the energy of the card? What is the feeling? Wands can mean passion and inspiration and a quick timeline. Pentacles are a slow burn, usually related to money, abundance, or the physical realm. Swords are related to the voice, expression, or communication, and are fairly quick in energy. Cups are related to emotions and intuition. Write down what you see.

3. Make meaning of that card. What does it mean to you? How does it apply to your life? Sit with your feelings that come up and allow them to pass through.

4. Do this practice every day for a while, so that you can practice looking at the cards and feeling into their energies.

5. Notice day to day what cards are coming up for you. Allow your feelings to come up so that they can heal.

You can read books about tarot, but I find them boring, and I’ve found I understand the cards better through practice, not print. Up to you though.

As you continue doing your readings, you’ll notice that each day brings a nuanced difference to the reading. Which is absolutely amazing. We are always a different version of ourselves each day.

Mistakes to Avoid

There are really no mistakes you can make here. Your interpretation of the cards is your interpretation. Different decks depict different things. Even if you don't feel called to pull cards, that’s totally fine, too. As long as you are following your intuition, you are doing everything right 💖

What If You Follow These Steps?

You’ll learn even more about yourself, your healing process, and your spiritual growth. You’ll face feelings that were buried underneath for a while. You’ll strengthen your intuition and your self-confidence.

You’ll receive messages from the Divine. You’ll strenghen your connection to the Divine. You might surprise yourself on what you are capable of, what you have endured, and what you are learning now. You’ll also have a lot of fun, because that’s what tarot is really about 💕

Wrap-Up

I hope this post shows you the magic and wonder of tarot and how it can help you heal your life. If you’d like a personalized reading, I do telephone and email readings. You can book a session here.

Do you use tarot for healing purposes? Write in the comments ✨

Lots of love,

Angeli

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Greetings beautiful soul! ⭐♥️ Welcome back! Hope y’all had a good holiday weekend (in America). I was meaning to write to you last week, but I was busy hosting some relatives (and dogs) at my house. I was still thinking of y’all.

Today’s topic is about spiritual and financial wealth.

Let’s Look Back on History…

Growing up in the world we did, financial wealth was prioritized over lots of things. And if you look back to where the generations above us came from (mostly from war), that kind of makes a lot of sense. If you were impoverished or didn’t have your basic needs met like food and shelter, then finances will become increasingly a stressor/priority. And then your dream for your kids is to have financial stability.

That intention was not bad. However, what’s interesting is, after the mid-century wars, was the feminist movement - women wanted to join the work force - and so they did! Which is a huge win for women in terms of contributing financially to the household.

However, with the advent of the nuclear family, you have two (or one) stressed out parents or caregivers who don’t have much time to give you and not much emotional bandwidth. From there, you are loaded with programming that tells you financial achievement matters above all, and from a young age you enter systems like school that teach you to be productive, conform, and get to work.

Meanwhile, the inner child in you sang of other much more fun possibilities. When we are thinking about creating meaningful work, we are missing meaning and joy in what we are currently doing. But when it comes to creating that work, ideally many of us want it to be financially fulfilling. There can still be many blocks to creating that fulfilling work, because part of you doesn’t believe you can be spiritually fulfilled and financially wealthy from the same job.

Here’s an Exercise:

This activity is borrowed from the book, The Abundance Code by Julie Ann Cairns (affiliate link).

I had this same pattern. Even though I was really happy with all the businesses I had set up and all of the services I was doing, for whatever reason, my money was stuck. There are lots of reasons for this beyond subconscious beliefs. Sometimes there is trauma there too that teaches you to cap your happiness, your excitement, or your joy. Or that you really don’t deserve to be happy. Or that you don’t deserve to receive. Or that you can’t be happy and have money. Lots of stuff, this list goes on and on. Your nervous system must feel safe about receiving, and that’s a whole ‘nother level of rewiring that needs to be done.

But in order for work to be truly sustainable, it has to fulfill you spiritually and financially. We don’t have unlimited energy to work all the time. Ideally we have enough energy to fulfill our life’s mission and feel satisfied at the end of each day.

Life is complicated, and following the path of purpose will reveal to you all of the shadows and traumas that you never felt safe enough to look at before. Some of it will really break your heart. And yet, the healing is what sets you free.

This myth that you can’t be spiritually fulfilled and financially wealthy has to be updated. You can create whatever you want, but you must believe that you are deserving of that level of happiness.

We all cap ourselves in various ways. If you had a parent who couldn’t stand when you were happy, or when you shined, that’s going to unconsciously guide your actions and feelings so that you never actually go after what you want, or sabotage it when you do.

Or, if you have health issues, which are usually a side effect of unprocessed trauma, you may be blocking your clients because you don’t have the energetic resources to take care of them. Once again, because there is something your nervous system perceives as unsafe, it is going to block you from attracting the work and clients that you love.

It’s a deep and shadowy process, not the most glamorous, of course. According to Law of Attraction teachers, cultivating spiritual wealth helps your financial wealth.

Here are some examples of how to cultivate spiritual wealth:

1. Drink a warm cup of tea, slowly

2. Start your day with your feet in the grass

3. Go outside and feel the sun on your skin

4. Go for a walk

5. Meditate

6. Journal

7. Dance or move your body

8. Cook something nourishing

9. Bake

10. Garden

11. Do breathwork

12. Do somatic exercises

13. Do yoga

14. Text your friends so you can joke around

All of these things are easily found through your joy list - the one I sent out to you when you signed up for this newsletter. Open it back up and use it again. This is also the path to discovering your purpose and what you are meant to do on this planet (if you use it with regularity).

And while, yes, having spiritual wealth is a beautiful and amazing thing, if you don’t release the deeper subconscious programs that say you can’t have both spiritual and financial wealth, you’ll stay stuck in poverty for a while. Even if you feel happy on the inside. This is what Law of Attraction teachers don’t teach you.

The new spiritual paradigm asks us that we combine spiritual and financial wealth for our greatest health, happiness, wealth, and love. There’s really no reason you can’t combine the two, unless the reason is because you genuinely don’t want to. I just can’t see why someone wouldn’t want that, unless you love working extra hours (I know I don’t love that, lol).

My point is, you are the master of your life. You can create what you want. If you want spiritually and financially fulfilling work, it is yours.

If you are feeling blocked and want a quick and effective way to release subconscious programs so that you can live more freely and healthfully, sign up for energy healing with me.

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Greetings beautiful soul and welcome back! ⭐♥️ And welcome to our new subscriber!

Today we are talking about a very important piece of finding your purpose and expressing it. On the way to purpose, and when you figure out what you want to do with it (which, if you read my last post, could be many, many things!) one very important lesson to learn on this journey is that your gifts are gifts to others.

This is a lesson I continue to learn on deeper and deeper levels, because for whatever reason, I still need to remind myself of this, and I’m guessing I need to remind you too.

When we look at other people, especially those who appear especially talented to us - like actors or comedians or musicians, etc., it’s really easy to think that they have something special that we don’t have.

But that simply isn’t true. Every person is born with a seed of greatness that comes from the same source. The difference between someone who has already “made it” and you is multifactorial. First, were their gifts encouraged when they were young? Were they allowed and encouraged to pursue them? Were they allowed to be themselves at home? Some people were lucky enough to receive that type of support as young people. Some were not as lucky.

These people have also dedicated countless hours to their crafts. I was just watching a documentary on Netflix about actor and Broadway star, Martin Short. It’s so interesting, but you can see even when he was young, he’d sing songs and play instruments and always be performing. And that carried through to adulthood when he decided to make a career out of acting.

As he continued on, he got better and better and better. But he went through hard times. He lost both his parents by the time he was 20 years old. And a brother when he was 12 years old. He had hard times with acting too, years where he didn’t receive much work. But he kept going, and eventually he started to make it on to bigger ventures like Saturday Night Live and big time movies with big time actors like Steve Martin and Chevy Chase.

His gift is to act and sing to his highest abilities and make people laugh!

When we follow our purpose, sometimes it feels too big to share, or equally, the opposite. Sometimes you can feel like your gift doesn’t matter or it’s not really needed. I know I have done this with my energy healing. I know this energy healing is meant for many people and dogs.

And yet I haven’t always offered it to people, or talked about it that much, because equally when I’ve offered it, I’ve received many “no’s”. Some people are just not comfortable with the idea of energy medicine (yet) - though I believe energy medicine is the medicine of the future.

Shame makes you want to hide your gifts. And there are a lot of reasons why people carry underlying shame (usually it’s usually trauma-related). But I am learning to come out of my shell and offer it more.

So Here's A Story

I’ve been dog sitting for this one dog, Billy (changing names for privacy!). I’ve watched him many times. He is a really good dog, but he has really bad separation anxiety. (Separation anxiety is when a dog becomes stressed when away from its human or whichever human is watching him). Not the kind where he destroys your stuff when you leave the house. But the kind where he cannot be without you even inside the house. And if you decide to go to the bathroom without him or put him behind a gate, he’ll start barking.

It took me like 5 visits to finally offer energy healing to his mother. I actually didn’t even think about it until this visit. And this weekend, his mom said yes! First try! Yay!

Billy’s afraid of everything. He’s really sensitive, and he also no sense of boundaries 😆 he’s a lap dog. But PSA - dogs need boundaries, and the anxious ones who have none of those, who use you to soothe them, who are never told no, and who are already reactive (bark, whine, groan, growl) to every little thing - they’re the ones who become aggressive. They’re the ones with the cute, fluffy faces who get everything they want. The ones you’d never expect. So you have to be really careful.

In this same stay, I asked Billy’s mom if she wanted any training for him. She said she wanted him to stop jumping when she comes home. But here’s the thing - his jumping is a sign of reactivity which is also seen in his reactive barking, whining, separation anxiety, etc. So it’s not just one thing, so we worked on many things.

We worked on having him be a few feet away from me and still feeling okay. We worked on having him eat his dinner while I walk away and he doesn’t follow me. We worked on not having him sit in my lap constantly to soothe his own anxiety. We worked on closing doors and gates while he eats Greek yogurt so he can feel okay behind a door or a gate. We worked on his reactive barking (we always have construction in East Nashville!!!). We also worked on rewarding him when he is calm with his chin down on the floor or couch.

It was really hard work. And it was really emotional for me. But we did the best we could with the 7 days we had together.

When Billy’s mom came to pick up Billy Monday night, she could already notice the difference. She said he was so much calmer than before. He got in the car and didn’t fuss over sitting in the front seat, not as intensely as he used to (which you should not have your dog sitting in the front seat! Ever. It’s very dangerous).

And I got an update this morning from Billy’s mom. She said he is so much calmer and less hyper than he used to be. She and her husband are diligently acting calmer around him when they enter the house, and rewarding him when his paws stay on the ground. He’s doing great! She was very happy! So it was all worth it.

Sometimes I’ve thought that sharing my gifts with others is selfish - even though rationally I know it’s not, because there was always a part of me that felt that if I received money for them, somehow that makes me selfish. “Why aren’t I offering more stuff for free?”

(And really, these aren’t my gifts. They are Spirit’s. I’m just the vessel.)

But, the sharing of the gift is the gift, and the gift improves others’ lives. And it’s something they can’t do themselves. Just like a plumber can fix your toilet when you can’t, so you pay them. Some people don’t have the time or the mental energy to learn or do what you do. That’s why you’re here - to offer your help and make other people’s (and animals’) lives better.

Your gifts are meant to be shared. If you want, you can share your gifts in exchange for money. You don’t have to if you don’t want to. But if you want your soul to align with your work and the rest of your life, then you must. The money you receive is the gift you receive back from sharing your gift. Think of it as a gift exchange. And you deserve it!

I was so grateful that I was able to give Billy some healing. I’m also grateful he is already doing better.

But yeah, your gifts are gifts to others. Your presence is a gift to others. Your existence makes the world better. You were born with these gifts because they matter. You might be a visionary, where at first, people can’t see why they would need what you have to offer. That’s part of the game. If you can grow through that, you become stronger, more whole, more complete, more resilient, more detached, and then you become this amazing salesperson (without even trying!)

The more sales you make, the more money comes to you - for your true gifts, and for just being you! Which is an amazing feeling! Because once again, what you’re offering isn’t “ick” - it’s not exploitative, greedy, or abusive of Mama Earth and its inhabitants. It’s the literal opposite.

It’s uplifting, it’s healthy, it’s loving, it’s balancing, it’s necessary. It’s for the betterment of the planet. It’s solving a lot of problems. Your dharma is solving a lot of problems. That’s why you’re still here on this planet!!!

So I hope I have drilled this in enough. Your gifts are gifts to others. What you have, someone else is looking for. Your gifts improve the lives of others. Don’t be afraid to offer them up.

And if you need more support, join my Meaningful Career Masterclass, I’ll be going over this in a lot more detail!

I’d love to hear from you! Do you feel comfortable sharing your spiritual gifts? Why or why not?

Lots of love,

Angeli

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Greetings beautiful soul and welcome back! ⭐♥️ And welcome to our new subscriber!

Today we are going to talk about how your purpose can take you in multiple directions at the same time.

Back when I worked a full-time job, I believed that you had to receive all your income from one location. And actually, I also believed the fewer places you had to work, the better (because it meant I needed to work less to have enough money).

So naturally, when I started looking for my purpose, I thought it had to come from one place, or be one thing. And when we think like that, we can get really stuck.

The truth about purpose is, it really does transcend that one thing. It can be multiple things, over time, or simultaneously.

The fact is, most of you are multi-talented. You are gifted in many different ways, and sometimes when you look for purpose as a multi-talented person, it feels hard to fit everything you have and are into one box.

But you really shouldn’t have to fit into a box. Purpose doesn’t fit into any boxes.

For example, after I found my main purpose (which is to embody my authentic self and inspire, teach, and model to others to do the same) - and started expressing it mostly through writing at the time, I came to realize that I love dogs too. I was already a dog mom to Rocco ♥️, and I started to dog sit for my friends and neighbors.

I realized I loved it so much that I wanted to start a dog sitting business. Through the business, I started to learn a lot about dog behavior. I would watch what Rocco does and what other dogs are doing. Rocco’s a perfect angel - so well-socialized and a lover to all (I’m not biased, right? 😅). But it turns out you learn so much more from dogs who have tough or challenging behaviors than the ones who are already exhibit wanted behaviors.

As frustrating as some of those dogs were, it challenged me to think deeply about what was going on and what would be a healthy and helpful solution, versus me encouraging bad or harmful behavior.

What’s interesting about dog training is, I’m able to intuit solutions without having read it in a book or online (though books and online are obviously very helpful).

For example, I was sitting for my friend’s dog, who was not fully housetrained, and it got me thinking - “why doesn’t she poop at the same time every day?” How come sometimes it’s on our walks, sometimes it’s in the backyard, and sometimes it’s in the house?

Then I thought back to Rocco - why does he poop at the same time every day? Because he eats his bowl of food in under 90 seconds flat 😂 Every time! Because he eats consistently, he poops consistently.

But some dogs only graze, or eat intermittently. Some are not that food driven. And when a dog eats erratically, their poop schedule will match. So I started feeding her the same time every day, and removing the bowl, so that she couldn’t graze. Whenever I’d put the bowl out at the next feeding, she’d be ravenous for food, and then poop reliably on the next morning’s walk.

I didn’t read that in a book or find it online. I think I am able to connect to divine consciousness and have breakthrough thinking. (and you can do this too in your purposeful field!) Michael Singer, author of The Surrender Experiment (affiliate link) learned to program computers by channeling! He didn’t learn from books or courses.

What I realize from being Rocco’s mom is he really changed my life. His unconditional love, cuddliness, warmth, and companionship made me miss him greatly when I used to go into work. I remember telling my best friend, “I wish I could be a stay-at-home dog mom”. And a few years later, it literally came true! I love being home with my baby every day. And I love taking care of dogs.

I also love writing, speaking, officiating weddings, meditation, healing myself, reading books, gardening, nature, hiking, enjoying my backyard, cooking, and baking.

Multi-passionate.

Because purpose isn’t meant to stay the same. It changes and evolves with you, or it expands simultaneously with the things you are already doing. I’m sure when people ask me “what do you do?” they get really confused by what I say. What does wedding officiating have to do with dog sitting?

(Honestly, a lot of my wedding couples are dog lovers too.) But really - both things come from my heart. Purpose is the path of heart. The heart can never fit into a box because the heart is our connection to universal consciousness which is literally The Field of All Things. Plus, each heart is extremely unique.

So if you are looking for your purpose and you feel like you can’t fit in a box, don’t sweat it. You’re not supposed to. If you are looking at your joy lists and realizing, how do these fit together? Maybe they’re not supposed to.

The best thing about purpose is it will always surprise you. I just met someone recently who started with boarding dogs at her house with her husband, and her skills turned into dog grooming. You see? It didn’t stay as one thing because purpose always evolves and grows with you.

I have a friend who is a dancer/choreographer, a pharmacy technician, and an organizer/coach. (And btw, her organizing sessions are amazing, you can book with her here).

I have another friend who is an EFT practitioner, herbalist, reiki master, and menopause midwife.

Multi-talented.

This is why you see celebrities doing multiple things - Rihanna does music AND makeup. Oprah writes books AND hosts podcasts. Dr. Aimee Apigian studied trauma biology AND made music about it.

The greatest part about purpose is it makes you realize what an artist you really are.

Get it out of your head that you’re not creative. Pish posh!!

I hope this post helps you in some way. Write in the comments - do you find your purpose is taking you in multiple directions?

And if you want to go deeper and learn more about your purpose, join my Meaningful Career Masterclass!

Lots of love,

Angeli

PS - I made a dog sitting instagram - you can follow me here

I know I’m “supposed to” write about niche things like meaningful work, but lately I’ve been feeling like owning the fact that I do multiple things and have multiple interests and I’m just going with that 🙂 I’m a multi-hyphenate, and many parts of life are important, not just work. So yeah, we’re going with that today.

Today we are talking about trusting our feelings. When many of us grew up, we were taught not to trust our feelings. We were taught to go with our logical left brains, and that feelings weren’t that important. For some of us, maybe we had parents or caregivers or lived in a culture where your emotions were “too much”, “too loud”, or “not real”.

There’s a very damaging message that comes from that - along the lines of “I’m not important” or “I’m too much” or “My needs don’t matter”.

Because the truth is, your feelings are quite possibly the most important part of your reality and your existence. Here’s why - your feelings inform your subjective experience of life. That is unique to you. Your perspective matters.

If you’ve been in relationships where your emotions were gaslit, dismissed, denied, or heavily criticized, you may get the message that you need to hide your feelings or worse… not listen to them at all. Then you wind up in painful situations over and over again because your feelings were telling you the truth, but you were taught not to listen to them. Or to just “get over it”.

The problem is, when you’re used to being disappointed, let down, taken advantage of, or the like, you’ll continue to attract similar situations over and over again and still feel used to it… pushing past negative feelings only to go through the same things over and over again.

Listening to your feelings is an art. It requires you to pay attention in the present moment. But listening to your feelings is not limited to just listening to your feelings. It is also paying attention to your bodily sensations. For many survivors of trauma, as mentioned in the book The Body Keeps the Score, they have something called alexithymia. This means they are not able to state what their feelings are, because they’ve learned to numb or dissociate from them, and what happens instead is the feelings end up expressing themselves through the body. This could be through an asthma attack, or a migraine, an allergy, or a chronic illness.

When our nervous systems become wired to ignore what’s going on - or to stay in a hypervigilant state, we sometimes can’t even feel the sensations of what’s going on in our bodies, until they’ve gotten so loud that we have to listen.

When I speak of sensations, I mean pressure, tingling, numbness, heaviness, temperature (hot or cold), palpitations, dizziness, pain (dull, aching, sharp), tightness. Actual physical sensations. Emotions that are not felt become somaticized (stuck in the body).

I recently started doing somatic exercises (with Teresa Trieb - highly recommend her!!). They are small, gentle, repetitive movements that may involve touch, pressure, orientation, or warmth to help you regulate your nervous system. I use these exercises to help with chronic fatigue and brain fog.

What I noticed at first was I was not very in tune with the sensations of my body until I started to do these exercises. As I continued to practice, I started to recognize the tightness in my neck, the soreness of my shoulders, the ache in my upper thoracic spine. When I massage my throat, I start to cry sometimes. Doing these exercises every day has allowed me to become more in tune with sensations that I was numbing myself from feeling. But these sensations are clues. They are clues to what I went through and they are clues to what I am going through now.

Listening to your feelings matters. Feelings need to be seen and acknowledged before they can be released. When you give your feelings a chance to be heard, they can thank you and you can feel better.

Going a bit deeper though, in my own inner work with IFS, I discovered that I have protector parts that numb, dissociate, and distract me from my feelings. So even though I’m not actively seeking outer distractions like alcohol or food to soothe myself, these protectors parts can block me from finishing the natural progression of feeling a feeling and releasing it.

Once I am able to recognize this and unburden those parts, then I am able to feel those buried feelings and yes, release them. A lot of spiritual teachers will tell you to simply sit with the feelings, but there’s more to it than that, especially if you’ve gone through trauma or abuse.

Basically, your feelings are telling you the truth and I’m going to give you some examples why.

Rover

My cousin received a scam message on Rover (dog sitting). He messaged me with a screenshot of the conversation wanting my opinion. It was a “daughter” whose “dad” was “moving from Spain”. She was trying to give my cousin her phone number to chat off the app immediately. She wanted to pay him before they even talked about the job she wanted to hire him for. Then, she started bullying him - “Did you text my dad? Did you text him?”

Whenever people try to hop off an app, pay you up front without discussing the job, or act nice at first and then get kinda pushy, it’s a scam. I learned this through my wedding officiant business on TheKnot.com. (Thankfully, I wasn’t scammed).

And thankfully, my cousin listened to his feelings. Something was off. Then he messaged me. I messaged back - “Don’t respond! It’s a scam!!!!!” And proceeded to send multiple audio messages as to why it’s a scam. But essentially, his feelings were telling him the truth, he has good instincts, and I’m so glad he listened!! You can get kicked off of Rover if you take your business off the app. He is so smart.

My Client

I had a long-time dog sitting client I met in the neighborhood. He used to use us all the time for dog sitting. His dog was best friends with mine. But, he is always giving me mixed signals. He always flirts with me but makes no plans to date me. It’s confusing. He’s late to pick up, late to drop off, he gets mad when I charge him the right amount. He gets mad that his dog loves our house so much. He’ll scold me for things he didn’t tell me about beforehand. He wants discounts because he uses us so much. He is friends when it’s convenient.

He went to Austin for 4 months, never texted me, not even during the Great Icemaggedon of 2026, where we lost power for 6 days!!! Then when he came back, he acted like we were best friends.

I can tell he doesn’t appreciate me. You can tell if someone appreciates you. And it’s not just through their words. It’s through their actions and it’s through your feelings - because they’re not wrong.

So I fired him. The next week, I attracted a new client who overpays and always tips us. (When I say “us”, I mean me and Rocco 🐶)

Your Feelings Are Telling the Truth

Life without feelings is hollow and empty. It’s not fulfilling. So many of us burn out at work because we don’t get to feel our feelings there.

Your feelings are telling you whether someone is being fair to you, whether you are in a reciprocal relationship, whether the other person is holding all the power, whether your feelings are being heard and seen. Your feelings are telling you when someone is taking advantage of you. Your feelings are telling you when you’re too tired to put up with the bullshit and when it’s time to let people go. It’s your feelings that help you learn and grow and see what you really deserve.

Equally, your feelings are telling you when someone is reciprocating you, appreciating you, loving you, wanting to be there for you, wanting to be generous with you. Wanting to repair with you if something went wrong. You can feel it and you can feel their love.

Your feelings are the most precious part of your experience of life. Trust them. They aren’t lying to you.

So, please, please, trust your feelings!!!

Lots of love,

Angeli

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Greetings beautiful soul and welcome back! ⭐♥️

Thank you to those who wrote me back last week on my last post! It’s so nice to hear from you! 🙂

Today I’m sharing 4 songs to help you attract your soulmate. This is for the single ladies in the group who are looking to get married.

Why Am I Qualified to Talk About This?

Well, I’m not. I haven’t met my soulmate yet. But… because I’ve struggled with finding the right partner, I think I tend to think about this more deeply than, let’s say, someone who had an easier time doing this.

Let me tell you my story.

I’ve been single for 9 years. And not single like, oh I’ve had many short-term boyfriends. Not even that, lol. I’ve been so single, it’s wild. But, I also have lived through chronic childhood and relational trauma, narcissistic abuse (over and over again!), harsh situationships, almost relationships, confusing flirty friendships, and being afraid of men because of all of the above.

In that time, I’ve learned to sit with myself, release limiting beliefs, heal my past, break generational curses, heal an exorbitant amount of shame, heal sexual trauma, heal my attachment style, regulate my nervous system, and release trauma and subconscious blocks. I’m an energy healer too so if you’re looking to release your relationship blocks, book a session here.

I’ve dated so many avoidant, emotionally unavailable, and narcissistic men. I feel like I might be winning this contest, lol. I’ve also been so afraid of men, due to abuse, that unconsciously, I wasn’t able to date at times. And I know the pain of wanting to be with your soulmate and he hasn’t come yet.

I used to feel so ashamed of my single-ness, like something was wrong or deficient with me. I’ve come to realize it has put me on the greater path of self-love. I feel like I’m my own best friend, and that’s a really lovely feeling!

The reason I’m writing this post is, if you grew up with a dad who didn’t say sweet things to affirm your existence - if instead you received harsh glances, contempt, criticism, rejection, shame, blame, or inconsistent behaviors, you’re not going to expect good behavior from men. Naturally. I know because I’ve lived through this. How your dad treated you colors who you see men when you grow up, subconsciously. Dad-daughter relationships are really important.

When you listen to music, if you’re listening to songs that degrade women, put them down, depict them in a subservient role, talk about infidelity, normalize betrayal or lack of commitment, or normalize codependency and addiction, this goes straight into your subconscious mind and it influences how it sees the world and what beliefs it makes when it comes to love.

I am also a professional wedding officiant. And I will tell you in my wedding speeches, I talk about how marriage is a union of divine equals and partners, with the goal of mutual spiritual growth. On a human level, yes, it’s about being with your best friend and soulmate, laughing, making memories, and reciprocity. It’s about true love and care, and getting your needs met too.

On a soul level, it’s the next stage of spiritual growth. The unconditional love and acceptance that comes from true soulmate love is the perfect catalyst for you to grow into who you are meant to be. Each person is responsible for their emotional hygiene and wound healing. Just as you grow, your dreams and goals grow with you. When you grow through these things, the right person finds that delicious and sexy. The right person wants to see you win, over and over again. And they’ll love you just the way you are, right now.

When I give that speech, people love it. They love that I’m not talking about women obeying men, a social hierarchy (there should not be one in a healthy relationship!), or inequitable relationships.

Marriage, back in the old days, was an exchange of assets. The bride was considered an asset (aka an object, not a subject).

Times have changed!!! Thankfully, we are in a new spiritual paradigm where you get to make marriage what you want it to be. Both people in the relationship are whole, sovereign beings who are making a sacred commitment to each other and choosing each other over and over again.

I hate when people say that marriage is just a piece of paper. It’s not. It’s so much more than that. And if you’re someone who despite all your heartbreak is still willing to meet your love, exchange rings, make a lifelong commitment, and sign that damn paper, then good for you 👏

But I hate when people act like you are still brainwashed and can’t believe in a happy ending because you’re “naive” or “spiritually unevolved”. That could not be farther from the truth. The most impactful growth is the growth we do in front of another person, not behind closed doors. And, you are worthy and deserving of the best, most fulfilling, most cherished, and most committed love possible.

Let’s move onto the songs I am recommending.

Song #1: 11:11 by Londrelle

I love this song because it’s sung (or rapped) by a man who truly values women. Londrelle is an amazing poet, rapper, and producer. I’ve been listening to him for a few years now.

Here are some of the lyrics.

“When God said let there be light he was speaking of you

And then he found that the trees of life needed a fruit

Blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice

He was thinking of you

You have that same Goddess Glow that I see in the moon

Even when the sun shines I’m dreaming of you

Of course I believe in love I see it in you

I never needed the proof

I would like the chance to express my affectionate ways

Just give me the time and definite place

I promise to love and embrace you in delicate ways”

He’s talking about the love he hasn’t met yet and is manifesting. (Spoiler alert, he did meet his wife). What I love about these lyrics is how much he honors and cherishes the person he wants to meet, already. She’s a Goddess to him. And you are to your mate as well.

It’s helpful to hear a man say these things, especially if you haven’t heard those kinds of things before. I know my friend Bryan, has helped me by coaching me through my business journey, and whenever he affirms me, even if just as a friend, it’s very healing to hear those kind words from a man.

Song #2: The Two of Us by Omar Apollo

I first heard this song on my first trip to Hawaii in 2024, and pretty much had it on repeat the rest of the trip (slash year) haha.

Here are the lyrics:

“Young and in love

Got someone I can trust

And I know that you can feel the two of us”

What I love about these lyrics is having someone you can trust. Once again, if you’ve walked down the betrayal aisle too many times, it can feel like something as fundamental as trust in a relationship is out of reach for you. But it’s not. It’s your basic right to be able to trust your partner.

I love the part where he says you can feel the two of us. That’s so true for soulmate love! Whenever I’ve gone to a wedding or officiated one, I can feel the couple’s love and it’s an amazing feeling!

I don’t care how old you are, you’re never too old for partnership love!

But in all honesty, this would be a great song to walk down the aisle to (if you are walking with your partner, not your father, lol).

Song #3: Float by Olivia Dean

I love this song!!!! Here are some of the lyrics.

“I could see where we’re headed

Had one foot in before

Don’t wanna regret it

I wanna be sure

Hope you know that I’m all in

Not having second thoughts

Just wanna stay in this moment before we get lost”

In this song, she’s met her person, and she wants to take it slow, cherish it, and protect it. She doesn’t want to rush it. She says, “are we cool to just float?” She’s not having second thoughts. That’s so crucial. What a wonderful feeling! It’s such a beautiful song that I once again can listen to over and over again.

Give it a listen!!!

Song #4: Love on This Planet (Foreal) by Kisa soul

This is my new favorite song!!! It’s so good. Here are some of the lyrics.

“We hold onto love, not just words (forreal)

Marriage and family

Still the dream we feel (foreal)

Don’t let em tell you it’s just a piece of paper, no

It goes deeper than ink

Stronger than rumor (foreal)

Building legacies, teaching babies how to grow

Honoring elders, passing down what we know (foreal)

This bond they try to doubt

We prove it every day

Through laughter through tears in every single way

For real this love is so full of sacred

It’s highs growing together reaching higher building towers (foreal)

We channel real love back on this planet for real

Marriage and family

Still the goal we feel (foreal)

Don’t believe the lies - “love is a lie” (forreal)

Black love shining bright, forever we thrive”

It’s such a pretty and honest song! And she’s so spiritual, and she’s saying we hold onto love (actions), not just words. People can say anything but their actions are what tell their true story. It’s fine if marriage is still your goal. We are channeling real love back on this planet. Because that’s what true love is. It’s cosmic!

She also talks about the importance of teaching babies to grow. That might be the most important job in the entire world! Happy babies are a happy future for this planet! I cannot think of a more powerful legacy. Shout out to the moms in the group!!!

Wrap-Up

So, as you can see, listening to high vibrational music matters. You matter. Your existence matters. Your heart matters. Your happiness in a relationship matters. You are worthy and deserving of a love that you can shine bright in, reach new heights, grow and evolve, and be loved, cherished, desired, chosen, accepted, and respected, just for being you.

He’s out there.

Have you heard any of these songs? Write in the comments!

And if you’d like to go deeper to release any relationship blocks, I now have 3-session energy healing packages you can purchase from my website. Clear those blocks and he’ll come!

And then you can hire me to be your wedding officiant 😀 I am now expanding my services beyond Nashville to the rest of the USA! You can book me here.

Lots of love,

Angeli

Greetings beautiful soul and welcome back! ⭐♥️

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Today we’re going to talk about how purpose is a paradox (and has many paradoxe). Purpose is one of those ever-prevailing ideas running in the background, but once your perspective has shifted, it appears everywhere and can then be very obvious. When you are searching for your purpose, it can be one of the most confusing and anxiety-ridden times in your life. All you want is clarity.

Each teacher has a different way of teaching you how to find your purpose. While many of the principles are similar, sometimes we can get caught in the wrong detail and then find ourselves stuck again. Some teachers, like myself, say that you can find your purpose in your joy. And that’s true. I’m living proof and I’ve helped countless others find their purpose through my book: It Can Be Done.

On the other hand, that’s not the full story (which I also cover in my book). Purpose is full of paradoxes and this why I’m talking about this today.

Why Is This Important to Know?

If you only look towards your joy for your purpose, and you haven’t taken a look at the full picture, you can really miss what’s right in front of you. As such, it can really impact how you start your business or offerings, because without a clear message on what you do and how you can help, others can’t really find you and the ones who need you will be missing out.

It’s like following a recipe, but half the ingredients are missing. You wouldn’t want that, right?

When you are aware of the paradoxes of purpose, you can work through the challenges of figuring out what yours is with ease and self-compassion, knowing it’s being revealed to you at exactly the right time.

Paradox #1: Joy vs. Pain

In my book, It Can Be Done, I spend an entire chapter talking about the importance of using joy to find your purpose. That principle is visited and revisited time and time again throughout the book. Joy is a great connector to purpose because purpose feels really good!

Joy connects you to your intuition, your creativity, your authenticity, your heart. These are great vibrations to call in your purpose.

But purpose is not limited only to things that give you joy. It can be revealed through your pain.

For example, if you grew up with relational trauma (or childhood abuse), then intimate relationships are likely very difficult for you. You’ve probably been through too many breakups to count, and it’s left your heart very sore. Or you learned to protect your heart, which blocks real love from coming in. Then, maybe you learn the tools and exact steps to heal your heart, your childhood, and your relationship with men. You learn how to regulate your nervous system and now you’ve met your love! Now you are fountain of wisdom to share with other single women who are looking for their soulmates.

If you are undergoing a health challenge, you’re probably doing everything you can to heal and feel better. Maybe your purpose is underneath that challenge. What did that health challenge teach you? How did it help you grow as a person? What realizations did you have about yourself or about life? What advice would you give to others to work through this?

If you suffered from money trauma, and you know what it’s like to not be able to cover your bills or you’ve had to rely on others for help, maybe you went without a stable job for a while. It becomes the force that helps you learn how to manage your money, open up new streams of income, and manifest wealth in new ways. Then, you have these new skills that you can teach others, so that they can also live in financial abundance.

Through painful circumstances, you grow into a joyful and more whole version of you who has overcome something you couldn’t have never imagined you would, and now it’s this amazing thing you teach others!

So joy and challenge go together in purpose.

Paradox #2: Obvious Vs. Not Obvious

On the one hand, your purpose and gifts might be very obvious to others. For you, because these gifts are so innate to you, they can be so easy to miss. In my book, one of the things I recommend is to ask other people what gifts they see in you, what energy you bring to the room, and what do they want from you when they come looking for help? Your people will be able to answer these questions very easily, but you might not see it at first.

One of the great pains of childhood is not being celebrated for your gifts, which are some of the the keys to revealing your purpose. For example, if you were sensitive and empathic, and you liked writing, but your parents didn’t value nor affirm your gifts. You may grow up in the world feeling like you have to stifle those parts of yourself, when really they are meant to come out full force!

It’s almost like you have to go through something that squashes your gift in order for you to find and retrieve that gift and want to express it with gusto as an adult!

Something that was so hidden to you now becomes so obvious.

Paradox #3: Easy Versus Hard

Another great paradox of purpose is that yes, it should come from the gifts you barely have to think about - your empathy, your great listening skills, your presence, your sensitivity, etc. But when sharing those gifts intentionally, that can feel like the hardest thing in the world. If you grew up in an environment that thrived on keeping you small, quiet, agreeable, or always in selfless giving mode, it can feel really scary and unnatural to put your work out into the world. You might feel really selfish, for no reason beyond the programming of the family you grew up in. (Why is it selfish to share your gifts? It’s not, but try telling your inner critic this)

Beyond that though, once again, if your gifts weren’t believed in as a child, you have to undo all of those belief systems as an adult so that you can steady your self-worth and believe in yourself again. That can be very difficult. If you were taught you couldn’t use your natural gifts to create work and be paid, that’s a huge mountain to overcome as an adult.

Through the pain of growing through something hard, there’s joy on the other side. What can feel so easy can feel so hard at the same time. But as you move through that challenge, it starts to get easier again.

Paradox #4: Pain Within Yourself vs. Pain You Feel From Others

For this one - I’ll give you a personal example. A year after I quit my job, I started a dog sitting business. I love this so much. I’ve gotten really good at it. I take multiple dogs at a time now, and I’ve gotten really adept at handling them.

But there was a problem - not with Rocco (my dog). Rocco’s a perfect angel - great temperament, great dog relations, great human relations, great manners. He is a product of good socialization and good training. We are a great team.

The problem was with other people’s dogs - they were misbehaving, acting aggressively (resource guarding), didn’t have good manners (demanding attention), couldn’t walk on a leash. One didn’t know how to play with other dogs. These dogs were causing problems because their training was incomplete. Training a dog is really hard. It’s like a minimum 1.5-2 year commitment. You have to be really consistent and disciplined every day. (And theoretically, their training never stops).

But an undertrained dog at best, is just inconvenient. At worst, is really dangerous. So this was a new pain that I having - I was clearly not screening well enough for these dogs to have a safe stay my house. And yet, spiritually I felt I was called to care for them in order to see these problems and communicate them to the owners. But they left me scratching my head like, “what one would do to help with this?”

As a sitter who wasn’t a dog trainer, you’re kind of stuck just “managing” the behaviors, but honestly, in managing - you’re low key training the dog. Because you don’t want to encourage bad behavior or allow it to get worse. You’re also in a tough spot, because the owner either didn’t know, or they did, and either way it’s a tough conversation to have. It also reveals people’s true colors when you tell them. Are they open and curious about your feedback? Do they make jokes or gaslight you? Will they take responsibility and do something about this? Do they understand without training this will get worse? Are they grateful for the information and the care that you gave? Who knew dog sitting could be so complicated?

So, this was my cue to get a dog training certification. I’ve learned so much so far. My screening is way better for dog sitting now. And though I’ve still gotten some poorly behaved dogs, it’s taught me to be honest and strong in my assessments and observations and communicate them clearly. It’s also taught me how to train and manage aggressive dogs - something I never thought I’d ever want to learn. And yet, it’s really empowering learning about what to do to train a dog out of growling/snapping at other dogs, resource guarding, etc. These were skills I didn’t have before.

I’ve also been able to help a few clients so far with free training. I’ve trained a few dogs now to walk better on their leashes, thereby enhancing communication and a better relationship outside between the dog and their owner.I helped a friend of mine housetrain her dog. I helped another with her excessive whining and jumping. And yet another with excessive barking (ick).

This last paradox is a matter of pain within yourself, versus pain that you feel for others. Sometimes we have to personally go through that pain (for example, me changing careers and going through a health crisis at the same time). Sometimes the pain is in relation to others like these dogs who need help. It wasn’t Rocco who made me want to do this. It was the other dogs. And overall, this makes me a better sitter, handler, and reader of dog behavior.

So if you’re having trouble with finding your purpose, or expressing it in new ways, look to the pain points in your life. See if they’re nudging you somewhere.

And if you want to go deeper, I’ll be going over this in my Meaningful Career Masterclass (on presale now). I am taking the deadline off of this course. I’m just going to build as I go. I think it should be ready by mid-August, but with health issues, I don’t want to put too much pressure on myself. Thanks for understanding. If there’s any topics you’d like covered in the course, hit reply on your email.

Lots of love,

Angeli

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Today we are going to talk about my Hero’s Journey with my Meaningful Career. This is a sneak preview into our Meaningful Career Masterclass :)

What Is the Hero’s Journey?

The Hero’s Journey is based on Joseph Campbell’s work on mythology in his book: The Hero With A Thousand Faces. In every myth, story, and movie we watch, the hero goes through these same 12 steps. These same steps apply to real life. Often, when we start a new journey, we may not be sure what’s possible and what’s not, how easy or hard something might be, or what to expect.

Why Would You Want to Know the Hero’s Journey When Creating a Meaningful Career?

We usually don’t have all the information before we get started! Sometimes that’s a good thing, and sometimes that’s not a good thing. Often, we meet unexpected surprises along the way. Having an understanding of the 12 steps to the hero’s journey can help us to reframe expectations, foster compassion for ourselves, and learn to appreciate the small wins. Creating meaningful work is all about celebrating the small wins.

What I love about this is… It’s nice to know that there are different stages to any journey, and while you may be caught up in a single stage, all of this is part of a bigger plan that’s for your greatest and highest good. Sometimes when we’re stuck on a stage, or we’re not having as many wins as we’d like, we feel like we’re not meant for this or it’s a bad sign.

But really, there’s just some necessary steps one has to go through in order to transform into a new and confident person who really stands by their true and authentic power and mission, even when no one else is watching or listening. That’s where true heroes are formed.

We are only familiar with the heroes we know in real life because they stuck with what they wanted to do long enough to break through. They also had to grow into the versions of themselves that would be successful in that new arena. However, whenever you feel discouraged, try to remember it’s a heroes’ journey and you are right where you need to be.

Any person can be a hero. And anytime you bring an idea into the world, or take a new journey, you pass through these 12 steps. The steps can each take days, months, or years. All of the steps live within the essential nature of all things.

All of these can be applied to career, personal changes, or even relationships.

Let’s go through them!

Step 1: The Old World: What was it like before I left my job…

The old world was full of too much busy-ness, too much stimulation. I’d wake up to a too-loud alarm, push through the morning to get myself to work. I’d stomach a lot of abuse and problems at work, then push to get home and spend time with my dog. I was so anxious. I couldn’t sleep, And I wondered if this was all there was…

I felt challenged by having to push to complete all of the tasks of the day. I was always rushing without realizing it. I felt too tired to enjoy life outside of work. I was feeling so unfulfilled and so burned. I was being congratulated for a job well done, meanwhile feeling hollow and empty inside.

If I finished my work (and there was time left), I’d have to “appear busy” by finding more work to do. Sometimes precepting students was really challenging. I hated looking things up all the time instead of trusting my intuition. Writing notes at work was extremely boring (little did I know I love to write! but I wouldn’t learn that till later) The endless meetings were boring. Being on Zoom was draining.

My hopes and dreams were to find my purpose and build work out of that. I wanted to work fewer hours and have more time to enjoy nature, my dog, and rest every day. I wanted to work less and be paid well. I wanted to complete work and then be done for the day (not just count down on the clock on when I could leave). I wanted to refresh my energy and recover from burnout.

Step 2: The Call to Adventure - The Thing That Makes You Want to Move into a New Adventure

After offloading and delegating extra tasks, taking vacation, and still finding myself having sleepless nights, anxiety, confusion, and burnout, I kept hearing through podcasts that finding your purpose would help relieve burnout and the lack of fulfillment. I finally asked myself the question, “What is my life’s purpose?”

I sensed that something is missing, that staying was hurting my health, that I was in a toxic work environment where the numbers/metrics mattered more than the people itself, and yet I was also afraid to find my purpose because it likely meant leaving what as familiar. I wasn’t sure if financially I could swing it.

Step 3: The Refusal of the Call - Where people resist and give up their dreams - and move into comfort seeking

My refusal of the call was when I’d heard about dharma and purpose, and still didn’t get started on it. I was in denial for a little while. I wanted to see if things might get better at work. I also knew if I knew my purpose, I’d have to leave because it wasn’t being fulfilled there. I wanted to be able to stay while financially supporting myself until I could get a business off the ground, but my health wouldn’t allow me to…

Step 4: Meeting The Mentor - the person or thing that helps you get started

My first mentor was Sahara Rose’s book: Discover Your Dharma. She taught me that my purpose and my work could be one and the same and that I could be rewarded for it much greater than a job I felt burned out in.

Later on, my mentors would be Michael from Awakened Academy (coaching school) and Dr. Bradley Nelson (energy healing school).

Step 5: The Threshold - you enter into a new world where you are doing different things than before. Going to a new place, learning new things, practicing new things, or having new consciousness about your new life

I started doing new meditations, journaling questions, and joined a spiritual membership so that I could find my purpose. I took classes, connected with other spiritual people who were also looking for the same thing. I practiced giving astrology readings. I was doing this in secret.

I was making joy lists every day and trying to incorporate more joy into my daily life.

Then, I finally quit my job.

Step 6: Allies, Enemies and Tests - what are the situations or people that challenge you?

Telling my parents was really difficult. They were not supportive, they were very disappointed. They scapegoated me. It became really pronounced after I left my job. They tried to bully me back into getting a pharmacy job, even part-time, when I wasn’t well enough to work. They couldn’t accept or see that I was not doing well healthwise and wouldn’t be returning to a pharmacy job.

Step 7: The Innermost Cave- the big challenge, the hard work, facing your demons, getting ready

I joined a coaching academy. I had to shift my self-image into a coach and entrepreneur, which required a lot of inner work - shifting limiting beliefs, healing old traumas and wounds, healing protector parts - not only so that I could recover from burnout, but so that I could serve others in my purpose.

I got an energy healing certification at the same time and once again I need to learn how to believe in myself as a spiritual person who has very real gifts that are needed in the world. That people and dogs need energy healing. And I wrote a book on it! It Can Be Done: Learn to Create Meaningful Work You Love. I created a wedding officiant and dog sitting business - and was actually getting paid!

Step 8: The Great Ordeal - You have something planned but it goes all wrong

I had this great dream to have a thriving coaching business. But people weren’t signing up. I came to realize I had chronic fatigue so I couldn’t offer 1:1 coaching spots and perhaps this offering wasn’t the best for my health and aligned giving. I had to learn to pivot. (that’s how I decided to create this course!)

Step 9: The Victory - What was the treasure chest? Where did I feel a sense of achievement or joy?

The victory was feeling more aligned with what my body’s wishes. Feeling like I can create work that is flexible and rewarding, without having to work so many hours or be “on” all the time - I am super introverted. It was feeling like I could nap every day and spend as much time in nature as I wanted. It was not setting alarms to wake up and letting my body wake me naturally.

It was taking time off when needed. It was learning that I don’t have to feel guilty to rest.

It was receiving business through my energy healing, dog sitting, and wedding officiant businesses. It was selling copies of my book and receiving wonderful feedback from my readers.

It’s creating this course to serve you for your Hero’s Journey too.

Step 10: The Road Back - After the hero gets the reward, the monsters tend to chase him or her and their tribe back and they have to escape, and then even nastier people or monsters come after them

After I got some business success there were some months where I didn’t receive that much business and so my money went down. My parents tried to get me to go back and get a part-time pharmacy job, though I knew I couldn’t work 8 hour days anymore because of my health. I realized I was the scapegoat of the family, and I was heartbroken and grief-stricken. Then, I tried to “push” myself to make more money, but the more I did, the more fatigued I became.

Step 11: The Resurrection - Getting Purified Before You Get the Elixir

I had to pivot in my business for my health - I needed to take business courses so that I could sell better online. I switched from 1:1 luxury coaching to making an affordable signature evergreen course. I had to let go of my parent’s abusive words and treatment because they were bringing me down. I had to heal so that I could reach my fullest potential.

Step 12: Bring the Elixir Back

The elixir is this course, the knowledge of the hero’s journey, and my 5-step PHASE Method that will help you get your elixir - meaningful work that pays you and gives you a schedule that you love. And to create savings accounts that create stability. It’s also considering the option to leave the work if that’s what is calling you.

The methods, the teachings, and the structure of this course will allow you to create a flexible life, so that you don’t have to work all the time, you can actually enjoy your life, on your terms, listen to your body, take rest when needed, and be your authentic self, sharing your authentic gifts with the world.

I now see how some of the challenges I went through seemed like such huge setbacks, but this is really what it takes to walk this path. You will have to cut out certain people, you will have to heal your beliefs and your trauma wounds, your attachment style, and your nervous system.

But it is all worth it!

But What Happens If You Follow These Steps?

You’ll get clear about who you really are, what’s important to you, and why you are here on this planet at this time. You’ll have clarity without a doubt as to what is your mission and purpose in life.

You will create a life you really love. Your consciousness will grow. You will create a life of meaning, p urpose, joy, and alignment. Your relationships will improve. You’ll feel really, really proud of the life you’ve built.

This is the elixir and I’m so grateful for your trust on this journey.

I love you, thank you for listening, and I’ll talk to you in the next one.

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Lots of love,

Angeli

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Today’s post is a message to you from the divine. It is meant to work out in your favor.

When you embark upon a new journey, a soul-aligned one, there will be so many tests, challenges, and growth opportunities along the way. Most of the time, these things will surprise you. Living a soul-aligned life seems straightforward… right?

But the truth is, you’ll encounter different versions of you that you’ve never seen before. The road to your dreams can be really bumpy. What can seem like a distant dream can have you falling to your knees, asking Spirit why you decided to take this path in the first place.

Nobody talks about the messy middle. You see a lot of hot shot people finally in their big-time aligned careers, thriving, but the beginning and the middle is often missed or forgotten about. Because it isn’t glamorous.

Sometimes you can feel outright crazy for wanting something new that you haven’t manifested in your life yet. Because in order to have that thing, you’d have to think outside of the box and be a new version of you.

When I decided it was time to leave my healthcare job, I can truly and honestly tell you I didn’t think it would be this hard. I didn’t anticipate how much personal growth and healing I’d have to undergo to do what I do now.

There were so many times I wanted to go back and crawl back into the job I knew that paid so well.

And yet, I was different. I was no longer a person who could fit into that type of job that worked for a broken system and did things I didn’t want to do every single day. I couldn’t continue to appease my own people-pleaser, inner critic, overachiever, and hyperperforming parts, meanwhile running myself into the ground with all the hypervigilance and caretaking.

I couldn’t continue to disregard my body’s desperate wishes for rest and alignment.

But the messy middle will bring you to your knees. There will be times where you really don’t know if things will work out, if you’re doing the right thing. The words of naysayers around you can get stuck in your head to create the exact shame that keeps you hiding and not reaching your full potential.

I say this all the time, but this path isn’t for the faint of heart. But it is the path of heart.

And even some weeks ago, I had to make the difficult decision to close down my live 1:1 coaching offer, because I am having health issues and was realizing I’m not fit enough to serve in that way. Perhaps it was not in alignment with my Human Design.

So instead I am creating a course to help burned out, corporate, millennial women find their way using the exact steps that have helped me. It turns out, pivots are part of the journey.

Whatever your dream is - a new career, a new relationship, a baby, a new house, a new location, a small farm, chickens, or something else - just know that it is meant to work out in your favor.

All the hardship, the sleepless nights, the healing, the releasing, the meditations, the difficulties - they all add up to something. They are the exact forces that shape you into the person you are meant to be.

Your desires are your destiny. I repeat - your desires are your destiny. They are the guiding light in your life. And they exist because they were meant to be achieved. They are meant to be manifested. Without a shadow of a doubt, they are yours.

Sometimes it can be hard to see that you are actually on the right track. For me, it took releasing a lot of shame (shout out to the book The Unshaming Way by David Bedrick) to help me receive the medicine that would help me see more clearly.

I’ll be talking about shame in my course: Meaningful Career Masterclass (on presale right now). There’s a free training at the top of the page, btw.

And now that I can see more clearly, I can honestly tell you - it was always meant to work out for you. You are destined for great and magical things. The gifts that were once ridiculed and pushed into the shadows are the exact medicine the world needs. Right now.

Your fulfillment matters. Your joy matters. Your alignment matters. Your soul matters.

Your authentic self can manifest way more than your protector parts ever could.

When you have a desire, it is 100% meant to happen. Even if it’s not in the way that you originally thought. It is meant to work out in your favor.

I have a feeling that 2026 is going to be full of abundant surprises, big life changes, and epic stories. I can’t wait to hear about them from you.

So I hope you remember that it is meant to work out in your favor. Have faith and trust that you are blossoming.

Thanks for reading! ✨

Lots of love,

Angeli

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