In that moment, I experienced how what we consciously perceive as safe or dangerous may not be experienced in the same way by our nervous system.

Imagine walking towards the edge of the Grand Canyon. Move closer and closer to where the land meets nothingness, until the tips of your toes align with its edge. Below you, a drop of almost two thousand metres opens up. Take a breath and allow the spaciousness to enter and fill you.

And now imagine stepping beyond this boundary.

Yes, you heard me correctly - imagine walking beyond the edge of the Grand Canyon.

Observe with me how your body responds to this idea and to the image forming in your mind. What does it feel like in your body?

I was recently given the surreal opportunity to cross this edge.

A friend I had recently met offered to take me on a VR journey to the Grand Canyon at a coworking hub in Warsaw, Poland. If you have ever tried VR, you know how immersive this experience can be. You become almost completely detached from the outside world, while your senses are drawn into the reality created by technology.

He took me on a trip to the US without either of us setting foot outside Warsaw.

Twice.

During our first journey, I arrived at the edge of the Grand Canyon. Standing at the boundary between solid ground and the unknown, I could almost feel the breeze on my face. I could see every detail of the landscape beneath me - the meandering river, the rock formations, the almost two-thousand-metre drop and the vastness below. Everything felt so real. For a moment, I forgot where I was. Standing there, the danger of falling felt real, too. I could feel my heart beating faster the closer I moved towards the edge.

The experience left me curious. I began to wonder: what if I crossed it? What would that do to my mind, my body and my nervous system?

I like to challenge myself. I have always loved questioning the status quo and stepping outside the boxes of what is considered normal. And I have the courage to follow the intuitive nudges and impulses arising from my body.

The next time I had the chance, I asked him to take me on this journey again. And this time I knew: I was going to cross the edge.

I put on the VR headset and immediately found myself back in the place that had visited my mind many times since - a space of potential expansion and an opportunity to challenge my perceptions. Yet I have to tell you: what I experienced completely exceeded my expectations.

Standing at the edge of the canyon with the intention of moving beyond it sent my body into an intensely heightened and activated state. As I slowly began to place one foot in front of the other, my breath became shallow and sharp, my heart was pounding, and I was sweating and shaking. Step by step, I walked through the air. I crossed the edge, yet I did not fall. My nervous system was fully activated, mobilising me as though I were facing a genuine threat. Every part of my system seemed to believe that I was in a life-threatening situation. Even though my logical mind knew that I was safe in Warsaw, that my friend was standing beside me and that there was an empty room ahead of me with no “real” danger whatsoever.

What I see with my eyes, what I know with my mind or what my nervous system perceives as real?

It’s possible to inhabit two different realities at the same time.

One held by your logical mind.

One experienced by your nervous system.

My mind knew I was safe. My body was certain I was standing at the edge of the canyon.

In that moment, I experienced how what we consciously perceive as safe or dangerous may not be experienced in the same way by our nervous system.

The reality we experience is shaped by our nervous system

That is why, even when we all look at the same object, we may see different meanings, situations and experiences associated with it.

For one person, a tree may embody peace and beauty. For another, it may evoke the memory of a life-threatening accident from the past.

How often do we try to force an outcome in our lives, consciously knowing that it is safe, good for us and deeply desired and yet it does not happen? We keep orbiting around it, frustrated by the promise that we can have anything if we truly want it, while nothing seems to change. In that moment, I truly experienced the divide between what the mind understands to be safe and what the nervous system experiences as safe. We may sincerely desire something while another part of us continues to protect us from what it perceives as a threat.

Consider someone raised in a home shaped by violence and alcohol abuse. For that child, fights, arguments, screaming, physical abuse and alcohol formed part of everyday life. The nervous system can become organized around what is familiar and predictable, even when it is objectively harmful. For someone with a history like this, logical explanations alone may not be enough to transform what their system has learned to expect or tolerate and thus - safe.

Logical input, conversations or affirmations may not create lasting change if, on the level of the nervous system, the new reality still feels dangerous. The unknown can activate our protective responses simply because we have no previous experience proving that it is safe.

How many invisible cliffs do we stand before every day - our bodies preparing us for danger that exists only in a past experiences, memories, beliefs and inherited limitations?

Think about all the things you desire - money, a career, health, relationships - that somehow are not materializing in your reality, even though you desire them for all the right reasons and despite all the work you are doing to attain them.

Knowing that what we desire is safe and good for us may not be enough to make it feel safe.

What is the path towards change?

When I took off the VR headset, it took me a while to regulate and bring my nervous system back into balance. I was still shaking, and my body temperature was elevated.

My nervous system needed time to integrate the experience. I am sure that if I tried it again now, it would be easier for me to face the fear and take each step. I have already been there. I experienced it - and nothing bad happened. The experience ended safely, and this is new information my nervous system can register.

And this is often what our nervous system needs in order to expand its capacity.

Expansion. Experience. Repetition.

Expansion - see the evidence that what you desire is real, possible and safe. Surround yourself with people and experiences that show you - it is available for me, too. This is one way of building greater familiarity and safety around it: you gradually become accustomed to the idea of it being part of your reality. There is a reason people say that you are the average of the five people you spend the most time with. The more examples you encounter - in real life, on social media, on TV and in books - the easier it becomes to imagine THAT as part of your own reality. Your nervous system begins to experience it as less separate, distant and unknown, and therefore potentially less threatening. If you want to explore this further - To Be Magnetic speaks about Expanders in a powerful way.

Experience - begin inviting more of what you desire into your life. Direct experience can help us move forward. For example, if you dream of leaving the corporate world and working remotely as a digital nomad, take one day off and spend it as though you were already living that reality. Work or create from a new place, organise your day freely and notice how it feels. If you desire a healthier relationship with money, stop avoiding your bank account. Look at it regularly, spend consciously on what you genuinely need or value, notice money coming in as well as going out, and spend time with people who manage money well. The same applies to relationships: spend more time around the kind of love and connection you would like to experience for yourself.

Repetition - repeat the experiences above until your system begins to recognize this new reality as increasingly safe, true and possible.

All of the above asks for one more thing: becoming the version of yourself who can receive and sustain what you desire. It happens through small daily choices. Ask yourself: would the version of me who has that money, career or relationship make this choice or a different one? You cannot exist entirely separately from the reality you wish to create. Your participation is a necessary part of it. With time and gradual nervous system expansion, these choices will become easier as the new reality begins to feel more natural, familiar and safe. You stop automatically returning to old patterns and begin choosing more consciously.

It is about slowly helping your nervous system become familiar with a new reality - expanding your capacity to hold it and gradually transforming the perception of something new and potentially dangerous into something known, safe, true and possible.

And one more thing. Move slowly and gently.

Our nervous systems tend to respond best to change that happens at a manageable pace, aligned with our own, unique rhythm.

Thank you for being here.

With love,

Anita

We hear so much about the importance of how we begin and end our days - and for good reason. They are not simply the beginning and the end of the day. They are thresholds between our inner world and everything outside of us: the final moments before we surrender to sleep, and the first moments before the world reaches us again.

What we bring into these spaces may shape far more than we realize. It is not merely because the subconscious is more receptive during these windows, but also because falling asleep and waking up are gradual biological transitions rather than instantaneous switches. In the morning, we plant the seeds of what we carry into the day. In the evening, we create the conditions in which we enter sleep while the mind continues to work with the experiences, thoughts, and memories the day has left behind.

I am a practitioner and teacher of Yoga Nidra, a practice that has allowed me to become deeply familiar with the edges between waking and sleep. Perhaps that is why these transitional states fascinate me so much.

Today, I want to explore the evening threshold: the sleep-onset period, or SOP, and the hypnagogic state that emerges as we drift from wakefulness into sleep.

The descent into sleep

I find the moment just before falling asleep profoundly pleasurable.

It feels as if sleep was gently brushing against me before fully arriving.

I can feel the transition in my body. My mind becomes quieter. My muscles soften, my breath becomes shallow, my heart slows down. Time and space begin to dissolve.

It feels effortless - like floating in the air or resting on the surface of the ocean. There is a different quality of the energy flow in my body.

I love this state. Perhaps that is also why Yoga Nidra attracted me from the beginning: it allowed me to linger in this liminal space for longer and more often.

Science calls this the hypnagogic state - the transitional state between wakefulness and sleep. During this period, awareness of the external world gradually fades, ordinary thinking becomes less structured, and images, sounds, and unexpected associations may begin to emerge.

Hypnagogic experiences can range from brief, isolated images to rich mental scenes that resemble full dreams.

What we take into the night may follow us further than we realize

What happens during this transition is not entirely separate from the day we have just lived.

As researchers explain, “the experiences of participants during the wake period preceding the [sleep-onset period] are incorporated into hypnagogic content.”1

Research suggests that hypnagogic experiences can be shaped by:

• activities performed before sleep, including something as specific as playing Tetris intensively;

• thoughts we have tried to suppress;

• words and sounds heard while falling asleep;

• recent memories and experiences.

In other words, fragments of what we have recently seen, heard, thought about, or experienced may return as we drift into sleep - transformed into imagery, emotion, or loose association.

The creative sweet spot

The hypnagogic state may also offer a brief opening for creative insight.

In one experiment, participants who entered the earliest stage of sleep, known as N1, were almost three times more likely to discover a hidden shortcut in a mathematical task than those who remained awake. The advantage disappeared when they moved into deeper sleep.

Other research suggests that thoughts and images appearing at sleep onset can draw from memories separated by minutes or many years. As ordinary, linear thinking loosens, distant ideas may meet in combinations that would be less likely during fully alert, goal-directed thought.

This is why researchers have called sleep onset a creative sweet spot: a fleeting state in which we are still close enough to waking consciousness to notice an idea, yet far enough from our usual mental structure for something unexpected to emerge.

I recognize this effect in my own Yoga Nidra practice. When I feel a mental crash in the middle of the day, 20 or 30 minutes of practice often leaves me feeling energized and mentally spacious. A regular nap rarely has the same effect for me. I tend to wake from one feeling moody and drowsy.

That is my experience, not a universal rule. But it has taught me that rest does not always have to mean falling fully asleep. Sometimes what we need is a temporary release from effort - enough space for the nervous system to settle and the mind to reorganize itself.

When the threshold slips through our fingers

This transition is available to all of us, yet we often move through it without noticing.

Sometimes we do not gradually descend into sleep, we simply pass out with a phone in our hand, a show still playing, or a book open beside us. There is nothing inherently wrong with that. Exhaustion happens. Life happens.

But when it becomes our default, we may lose one of the few moments in the day when nothing is asking us to perform, respond, decide, or produce.

We miss the feeling of the body releasing its weight. The mind dissolving. The edges softening. The simple experience of being carried into sleep rather than collapsing into it.

Through Yoga Nidra, observing my sleep, and experimenting with how I move through my evenings, I have learned that I experience this threshold more clearly when I allow for a gradual descent.

Closing my eyes consciously. Feeling the contact between my body and the bed. Taking a physiological sigh. Moving through a brief body scan. Letting attention travel inward as the external world begins to fade.

This is not a protocol I force myself to follow. It is a way of closing the day that I have grown to love.

How I spend my evenings

As the sun begins to set, I dim the lights in my home. I love walking through the park at sunset and feeling how regulating that transition can be.

Later, I move away from large screens. I may read, journal, meditate, or listen to a guided practice. Sometimes I make chamomile tea. Before bed, I take a warm shower and move slowly through my skincare routine.

I keep my bedroom cool, aired out, and completely dark. I might read for another 10 or 15 minutes or write down any thoughts that still feel unfinished.

Then I cover my eyes with an eye pillow or mask.

The senses drift inward like rivers returning to the ocean.

A physiological sigh. A short body scan. And then I stay with the sensations of my body until everything begins to soften and melt.

To be clear, I also have evenings when I cannot fall asleep. Nights when time with people I love, an event, a conversation, or simply living my life matters more than any routine. This is not about perfect sleep hygiene or turning the evening into another self-improvement project.

I return to these rituals because I love how they feel - while I am doing them and when I wake the following morning.

Perhaps the invitation is not to create the perfect evening routine, but simply to notice what you are carrying with you into the night.

The books you read. The conversations you have. The images you watch. The thoughts you keep returning to. None of them mechanically “programs” your subconscious, and not everything will follow you into sleep. But the boundary between the day and the night is more permeable than we may realize.

The mind does not simply close the day when we close our eyes. It continues to work with what the day has left behind.

So before sleep arrives, perhaps give yourself a moment to arrive there too.

Thank you for being here.

With love,

Anita

Lately, I have been noticing how few of us seem truly present and available - to ourselves, to one another, or to the world directly in front of us.

In restaurants, on the subway, in shops, and even out in nature, so many people are looking down at their phones or seem completely zoned out, with headphones covering their ears.

How can we hear the voice of our intuition, access our inner wisdom, or receive creative impulses if we never experience true silence?

How can clarity emerge if we never create the conditions for it?

How can we become truly self-aware if we leave no space for reflection and integration?

You wake up and immediately reach for your phone.

From that first moment of the day, when your subconscious mind is so receptive, before you even have had the chance to notice how you feel, something external begins shaping your state, thoughts and actions.

While you get ready, a TV show plays in the background.

On the bus, subway, or in the car, you scroll through social media or listen to a podcast.

Every walk, commute, and quiet moment that could hold space for reflection is filled with information, stimulation, and distraction.

Slowly, all of it sinks in. It shapes how you feel, what occupies your mind, and ultimately, the choices you make.

There is less space for spontaneous interaction. Sometimes, not even for eye contact.

We become disconnected from ourselves, from one another, and from the world directly in front of us.

Next time you are in a public space, notice how few people are available for connection. Most are looking down at their screens. Technology is not the sole cause of loneliness, of course. But I cannot help wondering how much our constant withdrawal into private digital worlds contributes to it.

Even the content we consume for our growth and self-development can become another form of noise. We want to make good use of every second, so we fill our days with books, podcasts, courses, and information. We keep learning, improving, and optimizing - but rarely leave enough space to absorb and integrate what we already know and that, which won’t come from another book.

Insights, intuition and clarity - they feed on silence.

They need spaciousness.

Quiet moments uninterrupted by information, entertainment, and other people’s opinions.

Where do we begin?

We often believe that change requires a great deal of time, energy, or money - perhaps even a complete overhaul of our lives. So we tell ourselves: I am not ready yet. We postpone it until tomorrow, next week, next month, or the beginning of a new year. We wait for the perfect moment to begin.

Let me tell you - you already have all the resources you need to start. All it takes is bringing a little more intention into your day and a willingness to make a different choice.

So much can come through once you make space for it.
Ideas and inspiration begin to pour in, as if you had opened a door to the wisdom that had been patiently waiting for enough space to emerge.

▶︎ Find silence & stillness, even for five minutes.

When was the last time you simply sat down to just be?

No screens, no conversation, no music, no eating.

Nothing to distract or entertain you.

Just you and the silence.

And believe me when I say - this silence gets so loud after some time. You will be surprised how much get lost in the noice we constantly surround ourselves with.

▶︎ Notice where you are living on autopilot.

We live so much of our lives on autopilot that we often miss the brief moments of awareness in which a different choice could be made.

Reflect - when do you reach for your phone without consciously choosing to?

e.g. You could change your phone wallpaper to a simple reminder: Do I really need to open it right now?

▶︎ Leave your phone in another room while you sleep.

▶︎ Create half an hour in the morning and evening without screens.

These are the times when your subconscious mind is most receptive - when inspiration, creativity, and inner wisdom tend to speak the loudest.

Protect this time as sacred - because it is.

▶︎ Go outside with no agenda.

Go to the park without your phone or headphones. No podcast to listen to. No phone call to make. No destination you need to reach. Walk in nature. Let your mind wander without immediately giving it something to consume.

And please, ▶︎ look up more often.

Up from the screen.

Notice the beauty of the sky.

Make eye contact with a stranger.

Smile.

Be fully here.

Do not let technology steal the moments that make up your life.

Make it your ally - not your enemy.

***

With Love,

Anita

I loved sharing on Substack. I was thriving here. And yet, for many weeks, I felt enormous resistance to even opening the app, let alone showing up and sharing anything. All the pleasure I once found here was gone. In its place, I felt a strange sense of burden and responsibility.

I had experienced this state before. I recognized it.

I was burned out.

Can you burn out from doing something you love?

Absolutely.

When I started writing on Substack last year, something about it felt genuine, natural and refreshing. It felt as though I had finally found a platform where people could truly be themselves and share what wanted to be expressed through them.

A place where connections and communities were built on different grounds. Where you could meet people you genuinely resonated with and glimpse the depth of their inner worlds through their writing.

And yet, at some point, I lost all of that.

Not Substack. Me.

I lost myself somewhere along the way.

I lost myself in the pursuit of visibility, performance and growth measured in numbers.

Coming back now, I feel more aligned with my voice and with what I want to share. But I also understand more about how to hold this creative process, how to remain rooted in myself without exploiting my own energy to the point where sharing becomes impossible.

Your authenticity draws your audience. Do not lose your essence along the way.

Your authenticity connects you with the people who resonate with you.

It allows your work to grow and unfold.

And I believe this is the only sustainable way to grow - one that does not eventually lead to exhaustion.

This space is filled with advice and strategies for increasing performance and growing an audience:

Post a certain number of times a day, or you will become invisible.

Your posts should include this.

Your Notes should include that.

Follow this formula.

My algorithm probably began showing me more of this content as I leaned further into performance, watching other people grow quickly while not experiencing the same growth myself. And slowly, it dimmed the light and the voice within me. I became exhausted. The gap between how I was showing up here and what actually felt aligned with me grew so wide that I lost the passion and desire to keep writing and sharing. Somewhere along the way, my voice became buried beneath the pressure to perform and the attempt to follow someone else’s path. Being on Substack stopped being a way to express myself. Instead, it began to feel like hard work - like constantly showing up to convince someone to click the Subscribe button.

And do not get me wrong: much of this advice is valid and helpful. It usually comes from people generously sharing what they have learned while building large audiences of their own. But it becomes dangerous when following it causes you to lose what is uniquely yours.

First, you need to develop your own voice, pace and way of creating. You need to become grounded in what you want to express and why. Your audience may still be small - that does not matter. Only then can strategies for visibility support your work without beginning to shape or replace it. They can become a way of expanding the reach of your voice, rather than changing the voice itself. The deeper you are rooted in your message, your way of expressing it and the people you want to speak to, the less power anything external has to shake it.

Rest. Reset. Create space for your intuition and creativity to return.

The hustle culture we live in seeps into every aspect of our lives. It influences the way we create, too.

As I reflected on this, I remembered a time when I was making customized hats. I loved meeting each client and creating something that reflected their personality. The whole process brought me so much joy. Until I was pushed to produce more so that we could scale and sell more. When it stopped being a creative form of expression and became a repetitive manufacturing process, I lost the spark.

That is not the way. Not for me - and probably not for many of us.

Creativity needs space.

Space to follow the creative force that moves you.

Space to sit down when inspiration arrives, while still devoting intentional time each day or week to creating.

Space to nourish your particular form of expression rather than constantly demanding an outcome from it.

Sometimes, alignment needs space.

Space to rest and detach.

For the nervous system to regulate.

For the body to breathe.

For the mind to become quiet.

And this may be the hardest thing to do: to honour the quiet voice within that asks for spaciousness. To simply be for a while and allow your energy to return.

Allow yourself to realign - and follow the spark.

I used to think that we had to remain committed to whatever we had once decided our path should be. But my perception of life has changed completely. Everything changes as you change. Change is inevitable - perhaps the only thing I can be certain of.

Allowing yourself to realign is a sign of deep acceptance of who you are becoming. Your essence remains, and it will still be palpable through everything you create.

Sometimes, our resistance to change becomes another way of dimming the light within us. There is a part of us that continually pulls us toward growth and evolution, if we allow ourselves to listen.

Realignment does not always mean abandoning your core message. Sometimes, it simply means exploring another dimension of it or making small adjustments to the way it wants to be expressed.

All I know is this: nothing brings me more joy in creating than following the inner urges and sparks that direct me toward something new.

An intuition.

A question.

Something that feels ready to be explored through my work.

Often, that may be precisely what someone else needs to hear. We help one another recognize and experience things through what we are willing to express.

If only we could learn to ride the wave of self-doubt and see it as part of our becoming - not as a limitation or disruption.

Perhaps the world would be filled with more creation.

More fulfillment.

More passion.

More truth.

Your nervous system’s ways of protecting you

What I first interpreted as a lack of discipline was, in fact, withdrawal. My nervous system had begun to associate writing with pressure, comparison and the fear of disappearing if I stopped performing. Avoidance was a protective response of my nervous system.

And so I listened to what my body and nervous system were trying to tell me. I gave them my full attention and care. By giving myself space to breathe, pause and realign, I strengthened my connection to my voice, my body and myself. And today, I feel in awe and appreciation that this protective mechanism stopped me before I completely drained my energy and abandoned my own voice for the sake of performance.

And so, I am back.

I am back to sharing my reflections and thoughts on life, the nervous system, well-being and longevity.

I am back to exploring what allows me and the people I surround myself with and support through my work to feel more alive in our bodies, in our work and in the lives we create.

As I return, I want to offer one reminder: protect what is unique in you. Share in a way that feels natural, while honouring the small commitments you choose to make to your readers.

I will not leave you with another set of hacks or tactics.

Instead, I want to leave you with an open question:

Are you being true to yourself and to what wants to be expressed through you?

***

Thank you for being here.

With love,

Anita

Planning, structure, predictability - that is what makes you feel safe.

You like to know what will happen today, next month, next year.

You need to have a clear plan for your life.

Something in you longs for a path that has already been walked.

There are certain steps that everyone takes - why would you choose to walk differently if this feels safe.. ? College, internship, first job in a profession chosen for the family line, marriage, kids, mortgage, a new house you’ll spend years paying off…

Your mind orbits around what it knows.

You wake up thinking the same thoughts and feeling the same feelings.

And because your thoughts and feelings shape your reality, by repeating the thoughts and emotions you have already lived through - those familiar from your own experience or unconsciously inherited from others - you recreate your past into your future.

Looping. Circling. Staying stuck.

At the same time, the part of you that wants something different from life becomes louder and louder.

You want more.

And that stirs up fear and anxiety within you.

Because you know, different outcomes require a different approach.

Because you know, in order to get there, you need to step beyond what is familiar and into what is unknown and uncertain.

Make the courageous choice to allow your life to take a different turn -

one where you cannot yet see where it is leading,

or what is waiting just around the corner.

Yet something within you has expanded beyond what once felt possible.

Something has opened to receive the grace needed to take this step.

If I had to name one thing that alone could make it possible for us all to move from

~ fear to love ~

~ survival to thriving ~

~ lack to abundance ~

~ pain to joy ~

I would immediately, without hesitation, point to trust.

That invisible force separating the reality of resistance from the reality of flow,

available to us all,

yet to fully embody it, one needs openness in the heart and courage.

It favors the courageous.

The brave souls willing to step into the darkness that encompasses all of the light.

At first, you slowly begin to test the ground.

Discovering with each step a soft yet firm embrace of life itself.

And like a muscle, trust that you are held and supported begins to grow and expand.

Moments that used to scare you most, bring you now comfort and hope.

Uncertainty becomes your stability.

Resistance melts away.

Your heart expands.

You feel your heart space spilling beyond your chest.

You begin to lose the sense of where you end and life begins.

Merging with everything around you.

You begin the dance with life.

You become one.

One breath.

One heart.

The more you release the need to control, to plan every step of the way,

the more you embody the qualities that make your heart expand,

the closer you move toward your vision,

the more you experience life flowing through you,

moving you forward,

through paths never walked,

through unexpectedly aligned experiences,

through moments so beautiful you could never have painted them with your own imagination,

held and guided by trust to life, its wisdom and beauty.

Trust that opens you up to everything that was already here all along.

What changed was your inner capacity to receive it.

It’s a dance of surrender, a knowing that unfolds with each step.

Like a direct communication with God.

A language that does not need words,

but asks for presence, listening, allowing.

Deep trust.

Alignment.

Grace.

And in this space, magic is no longer a distant dream,

but a tangible force woven into every breath,

every glance,

every moment.

The unknown is no longer something to fear,

but the doorway to everything you have ever desired.

There will be moments in life when your heart feels shattered into tiny pieces.

And then you hear your mind whisper: You can’t trust. Stay alert. Life hurts.

In that moment, you face a choice - to close your heart, keeping it safe, numb, contracted… or to allow the pain to crack it open, expanding your capacity to love unconditionally - to remain soft, tender, vulnerable.

Ultimately, it is a choice between fear and love.

And every decision we make is, at its core, guided by one of the two.

Is living with your heart closed, guarded by fear, truly living?

For me, personally - absolutely not.

I stood at that crossroads many times.

I met all those thoughts and emotions.

I acknowledged that they were trying to protect me.

And still, I chose differently.

I choose to stay open - no matter what.

To let my heart expand each time I feel pain and heart break, knowing that those moments are there for me to grow and expand.

I choose to live fully.

How about you?

With Love,

Anita ♡︎

Only when you start to truly connect with your own body, do you realize that you have been living in disconnection.

You thought you were in tune, you felt the pain of falling, and yet…

A completely new dimension of experience opens up when your relationship with the body deepens.

Sensations.

Sensitivity.

Attunement.

Perspective.

Wisdom.

Intuitive insights.

I feel that women - oh, we have a special capability in this field. Not saying that men cannot connect to their bodies or should not strive to do so. But can a woman be truly feminine and not be in her body? I feel this is inseparable. A feminine woman is deeply connected, and you can see that in the way she moves her body and in the way she moves through life.

Because this connection is not only about the body.

It is about embodying the fullness of your potential.

Being in your power.

Connecting to inherent wisdom.

Making decisions from your body, from deep, deep within.

Decisions and actions that are deeply felt.

And without that… you only scratch the surface of what is possible.

You cannot exist here on Earth without your bodily home.

And so, living in disconnection from your vessel is a life not fully lived.

And more, you may move through life making decisions and taking actions that are simply harmful, without recognizing this crucial element of your very existence.

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How to deepen the connection with your body.

Believe me, years ago, as a burned-out corporate lawyer, this notion was not even close to my vocabulary. And then, gradually, something began to open up… Fascinated and intrigued, I started to intentionally deepen my connection with my body, and I began to experience a radical shift - both internally and externally. And here I am going to share with you a few of my go-to practices and tweaks - the ones that created the deepest shifts, within and without.

1. Yoga Nidra

I know what you might be wondering… how does this relate to the body? Well, Yoga Nidra opened many doors for me, and one of them was - and still is - a deeper connection to my body and its sensations. It all depends on the school you choose, but traditional Yoga Nidra - the one I practice and teach - allows you to truly find your body in space. You begin to feel your senses returning to you, like rivers flowing back to the ocean… And then, gradually, through body scans and energy restoration techniques, with each practice, you begin to feel more. You become more attuned, more present with everything that is happening. It was always there… You were just not receiving the signal. What clears the way is the release of muscular tension, deep regulation, and the sweet sense of peace and calm that brings more spaciousness to feel more of what’s there already.

2. Intuitive movement

Whether in a group or alone. Close your eyes and let the body take you where it needs to go, releasing any imposed structure, rigidity, or stiffness. Let it move you. Let your limits soften and your capacity expand. Explore different ranges of movement in a space free of judgment and expectations.

Contact dance was like my church. Every week, showing up and stepping out of my comfort zone. Oh, how much discomfort there was at the beginning… And then.. Freedom replaced stiffness. Confidence replaced shame. Softness replaced rigidity. I was thriving in the place that once scared me the most - the dance floor, with deeply embodied music. I felt stuck energy move and release. I gained so much more spaciousness in my body. I started to move differently. I feel lighter. More feminine. Rooted within myself.

There were many men participating, and it helped them connect with their feminine side - yes, we all have it, both men and women. And we both need to nourish it in our own ways.

3. Yoga

Yoga is so much more than just physical exercise. It is a holistic practice that releases tensions and blockages from your body.

Your body responds to all of your emotions. They can cause both – tension and contraction as well as relaxation and openness. By improving the flow of blood and energy in the body, yoga reduces not only muscular tension but also the related traces (blockages) stored in the body from past emotions and traumas.

4. Emotional regulation practices

A skill that influences absolutely every aspect of your life. When neglected, it leads to disconnection, dissociation, and dis-ease. When cultivated, it allows you to reconnect with your inherent nature - your essence - and, through that, to be in deeper connection with yourself and the world around you. Without the mind resisting its flow, every emotion is simply a sensation moving through the body. What extends beyond the natural cycle of an emotion is often the mind interfering - creating stories, resisting, blocking the natural current, and holding it within the body. You may think it is no longer there - that your ways of numbing have worked. But that relief is often only superficial. Beneath the surface, unprocessed emotions - pain, shame, guilt, fear - can still reside, quietly shaping the quality of your life and your connection to your body.

I’ve written more about this, along with practical tools and ways to begin, in one of my previous posts.

5. Vipassana Meditation

Challenging. Transformative. Deeply rewarding. Beyond measure and expectation.

Your body is the storage of every experience - the living library of your life.

Vipassana meditation is a gateway to all of it. Not to dwell in it, but to feel it - and let it go.

I’ve shared my reflections after Vipassana in one of my previous posts.

6. Detox & cleanse. Reduce stimulants

It’s about returning to a state of homeostasis - clearing what may blur the natural flow of energy within your body.

I’ve experimented with different protocols of fasts and cleanses, beginning under the supervision of a specialist. It has profoundly changed how clearly my body communicates with me. But even without going that far, you can support this connection through your daily choices and attitude.

• Avoid highly processed foods. Choose clean, nourishing options - organic where possible.

• Limit stimulants - caffeine, alcohol, sugar, and similar substances. They can numb your sensitivity and weaken your connection with the body. When you step away from them, even briefly, you may notice how much clearer your perception becomes, how much more you can actually feel and sense.

• Be mindful of the products you use on your body - including cosmetics, deodorants, and toothpaste. Check their ingredients, see if they contain aluminum, fluoride, etc. Make changes where it feels aligned.

Start to treat your body as a temple - care for it with intention and respect. Let what enters your body be consciously chosen.

And notice how your body responds. Your body will give back the love in many ways.

7. Being around other women

This one, of course, is for women.

There is something magical and deeply transformative about sisterhood. The presence of other women can feel like a balm, a warm blanket you can wrap yourself in and simply b e. Heart to heart. Body to body. Without competition, without judgment, without the need to be anyone else - just pure acceptance and presence.

My wish for all women is to experience the quality of this connection. The kind that transcends words and actions. The kind that changes something in your body, deeply and lastingly. It brings a sense of safety - and often restores a missing piece that allows you, and your body, to open more.

8. Listening & responding to the language of your body

I like to see this connection as a muscle. It grows when it is used. And so, every time you feel something and override it, numb it, you begin to weaken it. But every time you feel something deep within and choose to follow it, you build self-trust. You let your body know: I am aware. I listen. I trust your wisdom. The more you listen, the more your body begins to speak to you.

And so…

p a u s e for a moment.

Feel your body.

What is it telling you right now?

What intuitive way of deepening connection felt most like you?

Is there any other practice that has been supportive for you?

I am curious - let me know in the comments.

Thank you for being here, your presence in this space is deeply appreciated.

If you would like to dive deeper together into practices that may support you in deepening your connection to your body - subscribe and join the community!

With love,

Anita

It’s the weekend.

You are surrounded by your loved ones, or enjoying a peaceful moment in solitude - a moment of presence. You feel your mind and body softening, opening…

And then the well - known thoughts reappear, accompanied by a subtle contraction in your body. Within minutes, tension and guilt begin to fill the space that was just inhabited by deep peace.

“It’s Sunday. You should engage more. Post a few more Notes on Substack… And hey - Sunday is the day you release a new long piece. Just get into work or the algorithm will forget you!”

It sounds familiar, hm?

And how about Instagram?

I’m so glad it is no longer my space in that way, but I remember the pressure very well. Every experience became an opportunity to create a story or a post. It slowly took me away from the experience itself and into turning each moment into something that could perform. I was tracking time slots, what to post, when, in what order, just to reach more people. It was exhausting.

And even though Substack is very different, I feel it here as well - a subtle pressure to show up in a certain way, and a quiet guilt when I don’t.

The heavy guilt of the unposted life

It tends to appear the moment you allow yourself to soften, to pause, to be. And yet, stillness is essential for every area of life to truly flourish - for your relationships, as well as for your work and creation.

For many of us, the day starts and ends with this heavy burden in the back of the head. We are glued to the phone not always out of desire, but out of an anxious obligation to engage, to perform, be seen and to remain relevant.

It’s the invisible and intrusive weight of the unwritten post, the undocumented event.

The subtle debt we feel we owe to a digital space.

This constant background noise creates a paradox:

Yes. you can post frequently, stay visible, remain consistent… but is that sustainable, and is it truly the goal?

How many times have you published something just to fill a window, without fully standing behind it? How many times have you felt the lack of presence in your own words, knowing you would have created something entirely different if you had given yourself more space? And how many times have you pushed something out simply because it was time, only to realize right after that something essential was missing?

On the other end of the device, there is a real human being. Someone who feels the energy behind what you create - the intention, the care, the presence.

I invite you to reflect - What is the force driving your actions, your creative process?

For me, it is the desire to share in a way that truly adds value, that reaches people, that makes a difference. And that is why, whenever I feel myself slipping into the rhythm of performance and constant output, I return to this. To my intention. To connect, to share, to support, to create from a place that is real.

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Deepening your connection with creativity and inspiration

Sometimes it appears unexpectedly with the urge to write, paint, dance or sing…. in the shower, just before sleep, in the car, or in a conversation that moves you.

It does not thrive under urgency or pressure to scale it and make business out of it.

It unfolds when you allow yourself to pause, to breathe, to be with yourself, to do absolutely nothing, to be bored.

Your creativity can’t exist without you and so you are the soil in which it flourishes.

You are the space through which your creativity moves, and the quality of that space shapes everything you create.

And so, to truly connect with the reader, you first need to deepen your connection with your own creativity. How?

You must treat your creativity as a living organism - something that needs more than just a schedule. It needs space to breathe, moments of reset, your care and your attention.

1. Those spontaneous creative impulses - in the car park, in the bathroom, just before sleep - they matter. And what matters even more is your attitude towards them. They are not random. They are invitations. And the more you acknowledge and channel them, the more your creativity begins to trust you, to open, to communicate more freely and more deeply.

2. Creativity thrives when it has a physical home - a dedicated corner where the phone is banned and the only engagement is with whatever wants to be expressed. A place that is not interrupted, without distraction, without performance.

3. Creativity needs a spaciousness to exist as a way of expressing yourself, freely, without the agenda, without the pressure of turning it into something consumable.

4. True inspiration comes from the gaps between thoughts, from the silent and still place within you, in the moments when your system is no longer overloaded. Practices like Meditation, Breathwork, and Yoga Nidra, they are essential to clear the noise, release the tension and create the spaciousness for the creativity and inspiration to emerge.

5. Nature as the original source of creativity. Time spent there shifts your attention from the sharp, demanding focus of a screen into something softer, wider, more natural. Every leave, petal, plant and shape - magical, unique, beautiful. And nature… nature creates without needing to be witnessed. Without asking for validation. And in that space, something in you begins to open again. You remember that everything within and without is the source and result of creation, inspiration, which is endless, has no beginning and no end.

We need to trade the shame of not being online for the joy of being present.

And please, don’t get me wrong. This is not about avoiding what matters or endlessly postponing sharing your voice. Especially in the early days, when you don’t feel ready at all. That’s completely natural.

But there are moments…

When you are simply tired and you need rest and regulation.

When something important is unfolding in your life.

When your presence is needed somewhere else.

And in those moments, this invisible obligation to constantly show up online should not override real life. It should not take you away from the people who need your undivided presence. Or from the moments that are asking you to fully be there.

If you feel the need to slow down and reconnect, I’ve recently shared a Yoga Nidra practice here on Substack. And if you want to go deeper, you’ll find more practices on my Spotify - gentle entries into stillness, into presence, into that space where everything begins.

May we all cultivate more presence in our lives.

With Love,

Anita

There’s a reason you are here.

This space doesn’t find everyone.

And yet, something in you already knows.

That there is another way to live. To feel. To express yourself.

A way that is not rooted in survival, but in presence.

A grounded, regulated and empowered human is one of the most transformative forces on Earth. Because when you feel safe… You rise. You remember. You create. You change the world by changing the way you exist in it.

Here, you are invited to slow down, soften, and return to yourself in a world that constantly pulls you outward. Through nervous system regulation, deep rest, and honest reflection, you begin to experience a different way of being - one that is more grounded, more clear, and feels more… yours.

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A Gift for You - a guided Yoga Nidra practice

I’ve prepared a free guided practice for you, designed for deep sleep and total relaxation - a moment to land, soften, and reconnect with your body and presence.

While perfect for bedtime to combat insomnia or restless thoughts, this practice can also be used anytime you need to reset, restore your energy, or find mental focus. Simply lie down, follow the sound of my voice, and allow yourself to drift. Your practice of Yoga Nidra begins now…

Link to the Yoga Nidra practice

Whether you try the free practice or go deeper with the membership, the most important thing is to take a moment for yourself today - to pause, to breathe, and to feel fully alive.

Thank you for being here.

Your presence is deeply appreciated.

With love,

Anita

Lately, everything in my life feels accelerated - synchronicities, opportunities. Dreams and desires are showing up in reality faster than ever.

It’s the alignment of a few key phases that is fueling this speed - stages I’m going to share below with you.

But first, p a u s e. Right here. Right now.

Take a slow breath in… and exhale fully.

Feel the ground beneath you.

How do you want to feel in your everyday life?

Step into it. Now. Close your eyes. See it. Feel it. Become it. Write it down. Let it flow. A page from your diary, written from the version of you who is already there. You are already there. How does it feel in your body? Where is the energy? What do you do? Who surrounds you?Notice every sensation, light, tension, warmth, expansion. Let yourself feel it fully, without needing to fix, justify, or explain. This is your signal. This is the frequency of who you are - already arrived. Not in some far-off future. Not when circumstances align. Here. Now.

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In fact, there is no gap between you now and you that lives your vision other than the one you are creating in your mind and projecting out to the world. The idea of time distorts your vision and limits you in what you perceive as possible. It makes you believe you need to work hard, fix yourself, or wait before you can embody what you truly desire and see for yourself.

Well.. You don’t.

There is only this moment.

What you think, feel, and do in the now - is what you emit and live.

ACT AS THE ONE ALREADY LIVING IT

So be it now. Act from the position of the SELF - the version of you who has already arrived. The one who has moved through the storms, integrated the lessons, and lives THAT vision.

When faced with a choice, a conflict, or doubt, do not ask your past for advice.

Ask the version of you who is already home.

How do they speak? How do they breathe? How do they treat the person in front of them?

By embodying the version of you that lives your vision, you are not waiting for the future. You are creating it.

And now the very important, crucial part - say no to anything that is not that.

SAY NO TO EVERYTHING THAT ISN’T ALIGNED

with who you are, with your standards, your values, your way of being. You, who embodies all that you see and feel for yourself. You, the one already living it all. Say no to what does not feel good in your body, what makes you tensed and uncomfortable.

And this is where the real shift begins.

Boundaries. Standards. Values. Discernment.

All the above is so often misinterpreted.

They are guidelines on how to co-create with you.

And from that - everything reorganizes.

By your internal state, your thoughts, decisions, actions - you are choosing who and what has access to you. You are choosing what is present in your reality…

I have a practice I deeply love that truly makes the above visible.

When you encounter a situation or a person that doesn’t feel good in your body, for whatever reason you feel contraction and knowing - this is not for me see your “no” as a declaration. Imagine that the person to whom you are directing your “no” is only the intermediary. Behind them there is the whole Universe listening, what is that you need, want and are ready for. What you claim as yours. What you accept and expect.

And the world is listening. Adjusting. Seeing that you have elevated. That what you once tolerated, you no longer do.

I know it can be hard.

There is often a very uncomfortable phase between the moment you say “no” and the moment the new qualities arrive. This is the space of the “vulnerability hangover”. Your nervous system might scream. You might feel a wave of panic or the urge to "take it back" and return to the safety of the old, uncomfortable familiar.

Stay. Do not reach back into the fire just because you are cold. This silence is not rejection. It is the world clearing the table to make room for the feast.

We fall in love with potential - “it could be beautiful”, “maybe they will change”, “maybe if I stay in this situation for a bit longer, it will change”.

But in doing that - you abandon yourself. You can feel parts of yourself left with their needs unmet, you feel the sadness, inner discomfort and with time… you loose trust to yourself. Because if you cannot show up for yourself - who will?! To truly let go, you must be willing to grieve the potential that never materialized.

A shift doesn’t always look dramatic. Sometimes it’s quiet. Internal. Almost invisible from the outside.

It’s the moment you feel discomfort… and instead of overriding it, you listen.

The moment you speak your needs, calmly, clearly, without trying to be easier, smaller, more convenient.

The moment you stop managing everything alone and allow yourself to be met.

And the moment you choose differently - not to override yourself, to stand by yourself - Oh you feel it deeply, somatically, in your body. A shift, a surge, an elevation. There is nothing like it. And it is magnetic. Radiant.

There is a so much power in knowing your worth. In honoring your boundaries. In respecting yourself.

That “no” becomes a powerful “yes.” To the life, relationships and opportunities that are aligned with you.

I lived this so many times. Every time I follow what I feel in my body, my reality is elevating.

THE STAGES TOWARDS CONSCIOUS BOUNDARIES

1. Listen to the somatic signal. Notice how it feels in your body (not what your mind says). Allow your body to speak through sensations.

2. Identify the underlying need. Follow the sensation. What is the need sitting underneath the contraction or the expansion?

3. Inner audit. Ask yourself - is this a need I can step into myself? Don’t seek to extract from the outside what must first be felt within.

4. Raw communication. State clearly what you feel and what you need.

5. Surrender. Open the space for people to meet you there or to leave. No pressure. Openness. Acceptance. Surrender.

6. Presence with the discomfort. Stay with the “vulnerability hangover” without abandoning yourself.

7. Trust. Every aligned “no” deepens your self-trust and foundation of safety.

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SAFETY STARTS WITH YOU

This is how you teach your nervous system that the safety you seek already exists.

Safety to be seen - because you see yourself fully.

Safety to express - because you communicate your needs.

Safety to be fully yourself - without the need to perform, adjust, or hide.

With your awareness of what you need.

With your willingness to honor it.

And with your courage to communicate it.

And you know… the moment comes when something magical happens.

You’re not rejected. You’re received.

You opened up the space, with complete vulnerability, truth and you were met.

Because you finally showed up as you. You allowed your people to find you and love you as you want to be met and loved. You allowed aligned opportunities and events to happen in your life by directing Universe with every yes and every no.

The depth you desire in connection requires firstly, going deep into yourself and the honesty to say: this is where I am, this is what I feel, this is what matters to me.

And this is what creates really intimacy - being clear, open and real.

That’s when self-love stops being a concept and becomes a lived experience in your body.

And remember… You are meant to be surrounded by people who celebrate your “no.” Who recognize it as self-respect. Not rejection.

If you’re feeling that "vulnerability hangover" today because you finally stood your ground - breath into it. You aren't losing anything that was actually yours to keep. The universe is just making room for the upgrade.

What is the “no” you are holding in your body right now - ready to become a “yes” to your future self? - Let me know in the comments 🫂

With love,

Anita

Life is made of connections.

Every thought. Every idea. Every action.
Every breath you take is an act of relating, bonding, connecting with the space around you.

Is there anything that gives life more meaning than this?

Isn’t it fascinating that the way we connect shapes the reality we live in?

The connection to self. To nature. To others. To God. Source. Universe.

All of it intertwining. Shaping how you experience life. Defining your direction. Your sense of purpose. And yet…

What makes us feel drawn to some people and pulled away from others?

Why do certain people feel almost magnetic to us?

As if something in them touched a place deep within ourselves creating a bond that feels deeper than logic.

What if… that pull is not really about them at all?

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magnetic people as mirrors

We all encounter people who feel magnetic to us. Not necessarily in a romantic way - just people we feel deeply drawn to.

Someone you meet and suddenly feel the pull to be close to.
Someone who catches your eye on the street and lingers in your mind for days.
Think of a date that completely shook your world.

What if it’s not really about them?

What if it’s about what they awaken in you?

I started dating again after a while and I noticed a pattern: I was drawn to men who were artists, creatives, designers - deeply immersed in the world of expression. When I asked myself Why and what for? the answer became clear. I wasn’t drawn to them. I was craving something in myself - more of creative expression. And when I was not providing that for myself, subconsciously, I began to try to extract this from the outside.

So I asked a different question: How can I give this to myself? And I began setting aside time every day just to create. To sit down and let whatever wanted to move through me be seen, felt, and expressed - through writing, painting, or movement. And then something shifted. Immediately. The connection I felt toward those people softened. It didn’t disappear completely but it changed its nature. It was no longer a need, it became an openness.

Need says: I don’t have this, I must get it from you.
Openness says: I already hold this within myself, and I enjoy meeting it in you.

And that felt… radically different. Lighter. Healthier. More grounded. I stopped trying to fill something within me through someone else’s life.

And this is where it becomes important. When someone feels magnetic to you, they are often mirroring back specific qualities you have forgotten, suppressed, or abandoned. Confidence. Freedom. Playfulness. Courage. Softness. Creativity. Clarity. Something in them awakens a memory. A knowing. A longing for something that already lives within you and wants to be activated, honored, cherished and nourished.

People you feel drawn to - they are not here to complete you.
They are here to expand you.
To show you a possibility, a reality you haven’t fully allowed yourself to step into yet - but one that is already yours to claim.

This is why it shows up so strongly in romantic relationships. We all know this so well.. The times we bond with someone because they seem to complete us, as they carry something we feel we lack.

And this attraction can be a powerful signal. An invitation. A reminder:

This quality already exists as a seed within me.

And when you begin to nourish it, something profound happens. The entire dynamic shifts. Sometimes the connection deepens - in a more conscious, grounded way.
And sometimes you realize that the relationship itself was only ever a bridge. A mirror. A reflection showing you what you were ready to reclaim. And once you begin to embody it, the connection may naturally dissolve. Because this need was the only thing that was binding you. Its role has been fulfilled.

And yes, I know, that can feel scary. But what disappears is not love. It’s the need, the grasping, the desperation that feeds on pressure and fear. And nobody wants that. What remains after - is spaciousness, choice and completely different way of relating.

Of course, not every attraction is only a mirror. Sometimes there is genuine alignment, shared values, real connection.

The clearest indicator of the nature of the relationship is how you feel around someone.

Can you relax and soften into yourself in their presence?
Can you simply be, as if their presence is a soft place you can rest on? Or do you feel stimulated, activated, slightly on edge?

Because that, too, is information.

And so, you begin to recognize the difference:

calm, grounded attraction vs intense, consuming pull

The intensity is not about alignment - but about something within you being stirred, awakened, called forward. And sometimes, those disruptive, activating connections are exactly the ones we need. Not to stay in them forever but to see ourselves through them. To recognize patterns.To meet the parts of us that are asking to be reclaimed.

So what do you do when something like this appears in your life?

There is no single answer.

But there is a place within you that knows.

When you bring your attention inward, when you land in your body, in your heart, and allow that space to guide you… And when you choose to act from love, not fear, then whatever unfolds next, you will feel it:

This is exactly what I needed at this point in my life.

Let this be a gateway. To deeper understanding. To deeper self-connection. To a more honest relationship with what lives within you.

So the next time you feel that pull, that magnetism, p a u s e.

Reflect:

What exactly am I feeling?
Where do I experience it in my body?
What quality am I recognizing in them that feels so attractive?
Do I nurture this quality within myself?
How can I give this to myself?

Real, genuine connection is one of the most beautiful things we can experience.

We all want it. Even when we say we don’t. And, well… especially then.

The moment you stop looking for someone to complete you, something shifts. You begin to meet and connect with others from a place of wholeness. You naturally focus on what you want to give, not take. And you give from overflow - what you already carry within you.

With love,

Anita

When I was only a few years old, before I could even pronounce the word, I was already declaring I would become a lawyer. How does a small girl make a decision like that? Obviously, this was never my decision. It was a box constructed for me by the rigid structures of social and family expectations.

The further I traveled that path, the more the walls of that box began to shrink, squeezing out the air and stealing my freedom. Have you ever felt like you weren’t really living your life? That was the feeling that followed me for most of my life, until I turned 30.

For years, I existed in many boxes: the corporate lawyer, the good girl, the people-pleaser. My worth was measured in billable hours. My nervous system was wired for survival, eyes locked on a screen, mind three steps ahead of reality. I had become a high-functioning stranger to myself.

The walls started to crack during a winter holiday in the mountains. I spent twelve hours a day staring at my laptop, watching my partner and friends enjoy the snow through the window of a separate office. I can still see the pity in their eyes, feeling a physical pain in my chest - a desperate desire for a freedom that felt stolen. I realized I was allowing my life to simply pass me by.

What was most painful wasn’t the long days and short nights, the lack of time, or even the gradual weakening of my relationships with family and friends. What was most painful was the misalignment. The deep, inner knowing that I was not living my truth. That what I was doing wasn’t elevating or fulfilling, but draining and depleting. That I was devoting my time and energy to something that stood against my values and my deep inner desire to express myself in a different way.

Back in Warsaw, while closing a major transaction, a decision was born so powerful it ignited goosebumps through my body. I woke up utterly depleted, my heart racing so fast I feared a heart attack at only thirty years old. My days were a blur of screens, caffeine, and the crushing anxiety of deadlines and notifications. I had learned to ignore my body, but I could no longer ignore the heartbreaking scream of my soul - a burning heaviness born from living in total disconnection.

In that moment of crisis, something awakened. I reached for a small ball of light in my chest - the last living piece of me. A spark of - Love. Passion. Desire. Freedom. As a warm wave spread through my body, courage was born. It was the choice to live.

I began to teach my body and my mind different qualities of living.

I started with something simple. I took Fridays off for an entire month. Those days became sacred to me. I would wake up without an alarm, letting my body rise naturally, without pressure or urgency.

Then I would go out into the city. I would sit in cafés, surrounded by the quiet hum of people, working from a place that felt creative and alive. With a cup of coffee beside me, I would spend the day doing things that I was truly passionate about.

Creation. Studying for my first yoga teacher training. Exploring different modalities and practices. Discovering new paths and ways to evolve.

For the first time, I began to feel what freedom actually felt like in my body.

The felt sense of living in freedom. Of living in fulfillment. Of choosing my own direction and path.

I started to imagine that this was how I lived every day. And slowly, I began to spend more and more time there - both in reality and in my vision.

My renaissance didn’t begin with a new job title - it began with trust and surrender. I chose to step into the void, exchanging the gray boardroom for a one-way ticket into the unknown. It was a radical act of reclamation. I risked everything. To step from a rigid structure into the boundless unknown was terrifying but I decided to reframe my fear into excitement. I called it fearcitement and that word has stayed with me ever since.

Transitioning from law to wellbeing was a soul recovery. The journey took me from the yoga mats of Lisbon to the Balinese lush, Australia, but the real destination was the space within my own breath. I stripped away the belief that my value was tied to exhaustion or Excel results. I learned that rest is not a reward, but a fundamental necessity. The more I regulate and settle into my body, the more “me” there is in me. Today, I no longer measure my days by what I’ve delivered, but by how much I’ve felt.

This does not mean every professional needs to walk away from their career to find peace. It means we must stop compromising our freedom and presence. To enjoy life and every little piece of it. To remember who we are and our own divinity.

If you feel that persistent, quiet ache telling you that you were meant for more than just getting through the week, let this be your confirmation. We are not machines built for constant output. We are living beings meant for connection, stillness, and awe.

You were never meant to fit into boxes. You were meant to live fully - uncontained and unboxed. The box is only as strong as your fear of leaving it. Step out.

The world outside the screen is waiting, and it’s more beautiful than any algorithm could ever promise.

With love,

Anita

Let’s pause here for a moment.

I want you to notice something.

Your jaw - is it resting? or holding something invisible?

Move it gently from side to side. Feel the difference between effort and ease.

Your tongue - where is it right now? pressing against the roof of your mouth?

Let it drop, let it rest. Strange, how unnatural this feels, isn’t it?

Your shoulders - are they slightly lifted? contracted?

Roll them up, back and let them fall.

How about your feet? Are they bracing without you realizing it?

Toes gripping inside your shoes as if preparing to move?

Strengthen them for a moment and let them soften.

Take one slow breath in.

And out.

Full cycle. Without rush.

I’ll wait.

Most of the tension I just directed your awareness to, is so subtle, you stopped noticing it years ago.

It became your normal. Your baseline.

How you can recognize what safety feels like if you never had a true felt sense of it?

If your nervous system has learned to always stay prepared, just in case?

And so, you need to touch a different state. A different perspective. To experience the felt sense of another quality: safety.

And believe me, the first time you realize that what you once perceived as relaxed and regulated was not it at all, first time you truly let your body enter softness and safety… That’s powerful. Something shifts within you. Irreversibly.

This is what Yoga Nidra provides.

The full permission to stop holding yourself together.

Not the performance of calm.

It is not flying on the magic carpet.

No downward dog.

No sweating.

No flexible hamstrings required.

It’s not meditation in the common sense. No rigid posture, no forced focus, no attempt to silence the mind.

If I had to borrow a phrase, it would be the Italian Dolce Far Niente - the sweetness of doing nothing.

But even that doesn’t go far enough. Because it is neither laziness nor escape.

.the art of doing nothing.

Yoga Nidra truly is an art.

It’s called the “yoga of aware sleep” because the body and mind enter a state similar to deep sleep, while certain layers of consciousness remain awake, especially the one responsible for listening.

A Yoga Nidra session begins with the body comfortably positioned, usually lying down in Savasana. The eyes close. Awareness turns inward.

From there, the stages of the practice guide you progressively deeper - not into unconsciousness, but into a different quality of awareness.

In a state of full awareness, decision-making, and receiving external stimuli through the senses, your brain produces Beta brainwaves. The practice of Yoga Nidra gradually slows down your brain activity, shifting to Alpha brainwaves (a state of physical and mental relaxation), Theta brainwaves (a state of the subconscious mind and dreaming), and even Delta brainwaves (a state of deep, dreamless sleep, and body restoration), bringing you total peace and relaxation unlike anything else.

The senses begin to withdraw, as if rivers flowing back toward the ocean.

The external world softens.

Attention travels slowly through the body, the connection strengthens - not through effort, but through noticing.

You begin to feel even the smallest sensations.

Gradually, muscular tension weakens. The weight of the body dissolves into the surface beneath you.

There can be a sensation of drifting, floating.

You hear the teacher’s voice. You follow.

And yet, you are not asleep. You are home.

You are hovering in the delicate threshold between waking and sleeping.

.the space between awake and asleep.

The hypnagogic state - the threshold we enter every night, just before falling asleep.

You probably remember how good it feels. That moment when bodily sensations begin to dissolve, the edges soften, the body seems to melt into the surface beneath it. Mind clears. Spaciousness arises.

In Yoga Nidra you get to experience this state consciously and often for longer.

The boundaries of your body begin to blur. You are not sure where your body ends and the world begins. The sense of merging. All is one.

It is like a seed.

Powerful centre of your being.

There is no body here. No mind.

And yet, something remains - something that observes them both.

The seed of creativity and inspiration.

Pure. Untouched by performance and pressure.

It’s like the point where you remember your divinity.

Even describing it now to you makes me feel dreamy and melty inside.

Because there is nothing quite like it.

Here I often feel the energy moving through my body, experience visions, seeds of creation, inspiration, boundless sense of connection to life, to the divine and everything around me.

And here is a very important part.

This place is not created during Yoga Nidra.

It is revealed via it. It has always been here. Always present.

Yoga Nidra gently removes what is in the way (muscular and mental tension), like clouds parting from the sky so it becomes easier to see the blue that was always there.

.science-backed.

And if this all sounds poetic, almost intangible, let me ground it.

Dr. Andrew Huberman, a world-renowned neurobiologist from Stanford University, once shared on his podcast that if he had to recommend only two practices for longevity and overall mental health, they would be morning sunlight exposure
and Yoga Nidra.

Interestingly, because many people hear the word “yoga” and immediately associate it with something esoteric or inaccessible, he began referring to the practice as NSDR - Non-Sleep Deep Rest. Same mechanism. Different language. He even developed and championed specific NSDR protocols so that the neurological benefits of this state could reach a broader public.

Let that speak for itself.

When a neuroscientist known for rigorous research places a practice alongside sunlight exposure as foundational for health, it is worth paying attention. This is not fantasy. It is physiology.

And yet, what it reveals feels almost sacred.

You can probably feel my love for this practice. And you would be right.

It is an extraordinary tool. One that has changed not only my life, but the lives of many others - from women struggling with menstrual disorders to U.S. veterans living with severe PTSD.

And from this love, you can expect a new recording soon - a short practice created especially for you. So that you can experience this directly, rather than simply read about it.

Stay close.

Because this is not something to understand.

It is something to enter.
To experience.
To tap into.
To feel.

With Love,

Disclaimer: This is not medical advice, nor a recommendation or suggestion to fast. Fasting is a serious decision that can significantly affect your health and well-being. Fasts exceeding 24–48 hours require prior medical consultation. Extended fasting is not suitable for those who are underweight, have eating disorders, heart conditions, are pregnant and others.

I have been practicing multi-day fasts for many years now - sometimes once, sometimes twice a year. I always feel when it is time for another one.

A few days ago, I finished a 96-hour water fast. It was the most demanding and, at the same time, the most rewarding experience yet.

Physically, I felt great - full of energy and with no desire for food at all. I do remember times in the past when I felt extremely weak and craved food constantly, which, by the way, was my signal to step out of the fasting experience. The body communicates differently than the mind, and during such journeys especially, we need to listen to the former on a deep, intuitive level.

Demanding, but not physically - emotionally.

I met parts of myself at a depth I had never reached before. I experienced extreme loneliness. And then, an incredible expansion - a feeling of light pouring into all the spaces cracked by pain. A sense of connectedness - to myself, and all the integrated parts and to everything around me.

Food. It can be the most loving way of caring for oneself. A way to nourish your body with love, to celebrate, to provide your senses with pleasure and indulgence. A beautiful way in which we are all connected: nature, species.

At the same time, it can become a distracting force. Obesity, eating disorders, a way to punish or reward ourselves. Very often, it becomes a tool to self-soothe emotions, much like any addictive substance. It is a social drug. How many times have you proposed a meeting by saying “let’s go for a walk” instead of “let’s grab brunch, coffee, or dinner”?

When you stop eating, shopping, preparing, and thinking about food:

• You are gifted with an abundance of time.

• Your senses become incredibly sharp - smell, touch, sound.

• You turn inward.

• You enter a deep inner journey.

You are alone with your emotions. No filter to hide behind. Nothing to self-soothe with. Just you.

This is where you meet everything you have been running away from, in an exaggerated form. Your system is in fight or flight mode and your hormons are out of balance. In other words, you are more wired at this time to see threat everywhere than on any other day. It can take you to uncomfortable, lonely, and demanding places - all to crack something open and allow the light to enter. And believe me, on the other side there is so much beauty and expansion, beyond words.

To me, this is about cutting off distractions. It’s similar to social media detox or stepping out of any numbing mechanism we use to avoid feeling. Because something in us is always speaking. We are just rarely listening.

This experience is more powerful to me than plant medicine journey because it relies solely on you and your own resources. Nothing external.

All you have to do is let it be, let it pass, knowing that it is temporary. Letting it in is how you let it go.

- Yes. I know this is the hardest part. I was reflecting on how to support this process, how to actually allow yourself to be with whatever wants to be experienced and felt and not run away to any sort of numbing and distraction.

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When you cut off the noise and go into the heart, a whole new dimension opens. But like everything, it requires a decision - a firm, stable, and confident decision whose energetic impact you can feel in your body.

And this inner openness, readiness and willingness to change is what guides you further through the experience. This intention, like all perversive force guides all your actions and decisions to the implied and desired outcome - a deeper meeting with yourself, the opening of your heart, the expansion of your reality.

Are you willing to stop [...fill in the blank*...] and start feeling more?

*(Doing anything you know is your way of avoiding feeling? A social media detox, quitting smoking, drinking less coffee, or stopping the flight from emotions into circles that do not support you?)

Are you ready to meet your own depth?

To face your fears and doubts?

Are you ready to expand your heart?

Are you ready to see your reality change as you embrace your new energy?

This leap, though demanding at first, is beyond rewarding.

There is nothing more rewarding than coming home to yourself.

If you feel the call to look inward and strip away the noise, know that you don’t have to do it all alone and you absolutely don’t have to do water fast in order to do so. If you need someone to walk with you through emotions that emerges when the distractions fade, reach out to me.

With Love,

I was certain these were the words of Jeshua from the Bible. As it turns out, you won’t find them in the standard scriptures. I’m not even sure where I first heard them, but they stuck to me like a mantra. Whether they are biblical or not, they convey exactly what I’ve experienced - the theology of the desert. The idea that you must be led into the wilderness (the hunger) before you can truly experience the manna (the feeding).

To be fed in a spiritual sense, you first have to be empty. You have to be hungry.

2025 was my year of hunger. It was a year of the void, where the old ways of doing things, the old comforts, and the old certainties simply dissolved.

The collapse of certainty

I have always been a person with an unshakeable trust in life and people. I believed, with every fiber of my being, that I am held by life and supported in getting what my soul desires. I believed that people are inherently good, and I trusted my inner circle boundlessly. That faith wasn’t just for me, it was a light I used to empower others to claim what was theirs.

But in 2025, that light went out.

It wasn’t just a bad year. It was a fundamental dismantling of my worldview.

I opened my heart to a man after a two-year journey of self-connection, only to witness him walking out of a bedroom with my friend. I experienced betrayal from a woman I had let so close to my heart. While still in that vulnerable state, I experienced a new connection that ended painfully with a sudden flip from affection to cold indifference. And then the final blow: a legal and financial attack from someone I would have once entrusted with my life - one of two people I was certain would never hurt me.

For the first time, I felt the physical manifestation of a soul-shattering event. A deep, gnawing pain settled in my lower back - my center of safety and survival.

I entered a state of nothingness. My fundamental beliefs were put on trial. I had to accept a painful truth I had spent a lifetime avoiding: While we may all be born of the same light, some people will not reach that state of goodness in this lifetime. Some will intentionally hurt you. Accepting that intentional malice exists in the world was the hardest pill I’ve ever had to swallow.

The decision to claim my life back

I spent months in suspension - that hollow, in-between space where you are simply floating, waiting for the world to make sense again. I had given up. I was waiting for someone, or something, to hand me back my joy.

Until, in the stillness of early 2026, a clarity pierced through the void:

Only I could make the decision to claim my life in its fullness again.

It wasn’t a soft thought - it felt like command. I reached deep for that spark of fire and passion that had been dormant, and I felt as the truth vibrate through my entire body.

It is time to claim my life. Right now.

The energetic impact of this decision gave my whole body goosebumps of truth.

The moment I made that internal choice to claim my life back, I felt life claim me back. I felt a return to wholeness - not because the betrayals didn’t happen, but because they no longer defined my boundaries. I remembered who I am. I remembered my power.

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A new foundation. New standard of trust.

I realized then that the only foundation sturdy enough to hold my absolute trust is my relationship with God. Everything else is shifting sand. By placing my trust there first, I can trust everything else that is happening - but from a completely different place. It is no longer a blind hope that people will be good. It is a certain knowledge that I am held, regardless of what others choose.

While we may all be born of the same light, some people will not reach that state of goodness in this lifetime. Some will intentionally hurt you.

But let me be clear - this realization should not destroy your ability to connect with others or perceive them as carriers of light. It is simply a call to awareness.

You cannot be responsible for what another person chooses. You can only be sure of what you decide today.

You can rest your comfort on your own values, your own intentions, and your own actions. Let people live their lives and make their choices, while you fiercely make yours.

Show the world the evidence of the unshakeable qualities that hold true for you.

I know that by standing in this truth, I will naturally pull toward me the people who are aligned with my path.

The heaviness of 2025 wasn’t a punishment. It was a clearing. A strengthening phase. You cannot be filled if you are already stuffed with the baggage of the past. The hunger of last year was necessary to create the appetite for the life arriving now.

The winter is breaking. The light is back on.

Remember this -

Your fire is within. That spark of passion, desire, and joy is always there. It is yours to claim. And this year - the Year of the Fire Horse - is here to support you in reaching that space.

With love and best wishes for this new phase,

Ever noticed how the world feels different when your body feels safe?

The place is the same. The people are the same. But your perception completely transformed.

Your reality is not fixed. It is built upon your internal state. Tension, unprocessed emotions, dysregulation, and survival wiring - these are the lenses through which you may see, choose, act, and create. Shifting that internal state is what allows you to move from reacting to life to intentionally creating it.

And this isn’t just theory.

After guiding over 500 individuals through the process of regulation, I still find myself moved to tears by the results.

I have watched a woman paralyzed by scarcity and fear finally make the leap she dreamed of - moving to Spain to live a joyful, expansive life.

I’ve seen women break the cycle of abusive relationships by regulating their way into a new standard of safety.

I’ve seen people finally able to close their eyes during practice without panic, finding comfort in the stillness they once feared.

All of this happened because they changed the default state of their nervous system.

Nervous system: the active architect of your reality

I won’t bore you with a clinical definition of the nervous system. You can find that in any textbook. Instead, I want you to see it as the primary architect of your reality. I speak from experience - not just as a guide, but as someone who survived a total systemic breakdown and walked the arduous path of rebuilding it.

Imagine reality being composed of distinct layers, each vibrating at a different frequency. Every layer corresponds to a different quality of experience: abundance or scarcity, peace or chaos, connection or isolation, survival or thriving.

Now, imagine your nervous system as the frequency dial on a radio. It doesn’t just receive signals. It sets your internal tone, which is then broadcast out into the world. Just like a radio dial determines which station you hear, your nervous system decides which “layer” of reality you inhabit. It pulls toward you the experiences, people, and environments that match that frequency.

You aren’t just living in a world. You are tuning into a specific version of it.

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The “snap-back”

You might ask: If I can see a better version of reality, why can’t I stay there? Why do I keep snapping back to my old default?

The answer lies in the capacity. Your nervous system provides the container for your experience. It cannot hold a frequency it isn’t built for. You might catch a glimpse of profound peace, but if your system hasn’t been conditioned to hold that, it will eventually recoil. It returns to the default not because it wants to, but because that is the only state it knows how to safely sustain.

This is why, even when you understand your patterns intellectually:

• You keep returning to unhealthy relationships.

• You stay stuck in scarcity.

• You choose depleting connections or overstimulating substances.

You cannot think or affirm your way into a new life if your body feels unsafe. A physiological state of defense cannot support expansion. In survival mode, you aren’t wired to create - you are wired to protect.

Regulation as a foundation

We often try to change our lives by changing our external circumstances. But if the frequency bar is stuck, we will simply find the same songs playing on different stations.

The shift starts with the silent, electric pulse of the nervous system, deciding - moment by moment - which world we are going to see today.

Regulation is the absolute foundation.

Because when you feel safe within, everything begins to shift.

You return to your baseline - a place where you can finally ask aligned questions and receive aligned answers. Not from fear, but from truth. Not from contraction, but from your full potential, uncovered from the layers of fear.

• Your decisions become clearer.

• You stop repeating reactive patterns.

• You feel anchored enough to actually create what you deeply want.

Because you trust - yourself and life.

Only then can you move from a fear-led life… to one rooted in clarity, purpose, and possibility.

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The journey back to harmony

The most beautiful part of this journey is that your state is not fixed. It can be recalibrated. You are a living, breathing system with a profound capacity for renewal.

It is a sacred process of coming home to yourself - a gradual recalibration where the static of fear begins to fade, replaced by the clear, resonant notes of your true potential. When you support your nervous system in regaining its natural rhythm, you are opening the door to a version of reality you might have forgotten was even possible.

The music is still there. You just need to tune back into it.

In my next posts, I’ll share specific tools and practices I use to help the body stop broadcasting the echoes of the past. Together, we’ll move the dial toward the life you were meant to inhabit.

“I don’t know.”
Oh, I used to say that a lot.

Suspended in between.

Immobilized - as if I had no access to my own knowing.

Stuck in a cage of passivity.

Waiting for clarity for years.

Today I know - and maybe you do too, deep down - that:

I was simply afraid of my power to create a life I truly want.

Afraid my dreams might be too big to pursue.

Afraid I might not be ready yet.

You always know.

Clarity is always here.

A quiet voice whispering about dreams.

Visions painted by your inner eye.

What creates the illusion of “not knowing” is fear.

Fear of failure.

Fear of the finality of a decision.

Fear of making the “wrong” choice.

Fear of living with the consequences.

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There is no wrong decision.

Every step, every choice, every path is the one you were meant to take -

so that you can feel,

experience,

and learn what is truly yours… and what isn’t.

What we often label as mistakes or setbacks are simply redirections.

Realignments.

We get lost when we fixate on big outcomes and forget the only thing that truly matters:

The decision you are making - today.

The action you are taking - now.

The inner voice and wisdom that guide you and gently pull you forward.

This decision, this action, is what allows you to expand and grow -

so you can meet yourself already living the vision.

When you look back, everything eventually makes perfect sense in the bigger picture,

even if in the present moment it doesn’t.

So how about choosing to know?

How about choosing to live fully?

To lean in.

To try.

To explore.

Because if you keep waiting and hesitating…

you might live a life that never truly felt like yours.

I’ve made decisions others would call reckless - if not outright stupid.

And I’m grateful for every single one of them.

Even when they brought pain and discomfort.

And to be honest - especially the painful ones.

Thanks to them, I now know what I want by fully experiencing what is not for me.

So where are you hesitating right now?

Playing small?

Telling yourself the story of “I don’t know”?

Lean in. Explore.

One step at a time - that’s all it takes.

Taste life in all its beauty and awe.

Life responds to courage -

to the willingness to be fully alive.

Speak your desires out loud.

Your throat bridges your heart and your mind.

And remember:

There are no bad decisions.

Every life experience brings you closer and closer to yourself.

With Love,

Anita

The sphere and skill that influences absolutely every aspect of your life.

If neglected, it causes dissociation, disconnection, dis-ease.

When mastered, it allows you to connect to your inherent nature, essence and through this - to be in connection with everything and everyone around you.

Emotions are automatic reactions to anything that flows into your system through sensory input.

Seeing beauty through your eyes,

hearing beauty through your ears,

you feel appreciation and gratitude, your heart expanding and your body reacting with goosebumps.

Seeing pain, injustice, suffering,

hearing words that cut straight to the heart, presenting your judgments and opinions about yourself,

experiencing someone else’s actions stirring the residue of insecurity and unmet needs,

smelling something that brings the memory of a painful event from earlier in your life,

all these situations contract your body,

and the body reacts with fear, grief, resentment, anger, jealousy, and hatred.

Experiencing emotions is part of being human.

Beautiful one. I would not choose to stop feeling them - You can’t experience beauty, compassion, and love without experiencing fear, anger, and resentment.

What you can do is befriend all of your emotions, allow them to come and go, to flow through your body. In doing so, you prevent years of suffering and gently release the armor around your heart, allowing yourself to feel everything.

Without the mind resisting its current, every emotion is simply a sensation moving through your body.

Everything that follows beyond the natural cycle of emotion is your mind resisting, building stories, blocking its natural current, trapping it in your body.

You may think it is not there, that your usual way of numbing it helped. But you need to know - it is only superficial. Deep inside, under the covers - pain, shame, guilt, fear - all of it - still resides, influencing the quality of your life and connections. Without you realizing it - you’re being driven by the very feeling you’re trying to liberate yourself from.

Emotional release practices

And that’s why I am sharing with you here, below, two practices from which I started learning how to befriend my emotions.

Meet them. Allow them to come and go.

Not fighting them — making space for them so that they feel seen, valid, recognized, and can release their grip on you.

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Logical & Masculine way

- this is where I would start, and I did. I remember the first time my ex helped me with this… tears flew immediately, as I had never before experienced such a powerful emotional release. I was holding them all in, which caused great tension in my body and mind.

When you feel a rush of emotion - anger, resentment, hatred, fear - pause for a moment and close your eyes. Gently name what is present. If it’s fear, let it be fear. If it’s anger, resentment, or hatred, acknowledge it as it is. Bring your attention into your body and notice where this emotion is located. You might feel pain in your chest, a sense of heaviness, pressure, or a burning sensation. Simply observe. Now, see if this sensation has a color, a texture, or a structure. Anything that allows you to connect with it more deeply. There is no right or wrong - just notice what comes.

Bring your full attention to the sensation in your body and allow it to expand. Let yourself feel more of it - knowing that this is temporary. Allow it to grow, to intensify, more and more, until you reach the point where you feel you cannot take any more.

At that moment, ask yourself:

Am I ready to let go of this emotion?

Answer consciously, as a choice:

Yes, I am.

Then ask again:

Am I ready to let go of this emotion now?

And once more, respond with intention:

Yes.

With your eyes still closed, imagine large, heavy wooden doors in front of you. See yourself opening these doors. Now sense this emotion separating from your body. Allow it to take any shape that feels right - whatever matches the definition or image that came to you earlier. Watch as this emotion flows out through the open doors, moving away from you, dissolving into the void. Gently close the doors, leaving the emotion on the other side.

Now return your awareness to your body. Notice how you feel. Is the emotion still there? Has its grip loosened? Does it feel lighter, smaller, or more distant?

If needed, you may repeat this process two or three times - slowly, patiently - until you feel a sense of relief.

Embodied & Feminine way

- this is what I use until today - now even when walking or in conversation with someone, it gets so natural with time, habitual.

Begin by gently defining the emotion that is present. Name it. And then locate it in your body. Notice where it lives. Give it shape, structure, color - a form. Whatever arises naturally. Now, close your eyes (or practice with eyes opened if you can connect with your body this way) and simply stay with the sensation this emotion creates in your body.

There is nothing to fix, nothing to change. Just stay. Remain with the raw, somatic experience of what this emotion feels like in the body.

As your awareness and attention rest fully on the sensation, your mind begins to quiet. You are no longer feeding the thoughts connected to this emotion. You are not engaging the stories, the interpretations, or the mental commentary. Your attention is now anchored in the body - in the direct, lived experience this emotion is creating. And whenever your mind wonders - come back to the pure sensation of the emotion in your body.

And then, without forcing it, without aiming for it, something begins to shift. Gradually, naturally, the emotion starts to soften. The tension, the contraction it has been holding in your body begins to melt away. You may feel more space - in your body, and in your mind.

So often, when emotions are trapped, when they are not allowed to be felt, they generate endless thoughts, stories, mental tension, and what we call the monkey mind.

But when an emotion is fully felt, when space is created for it to exist, it loosens its grip.

It slowly dissolves.

And in its place, there is more spaciousness. More ease. More freedom.

More of you.

It’s counterintuitive - staying with the discomfort, instead of running from it, is what actually sets you free.

Your acceptance, your surrender, melts it. The grip releases. Lightness streams in to fill the new space, and spaciousness settles into your body.

That is the ultimate freedom.

There is another practice, crucial, that I use every time I feel myself resisting - journaling.

Simple and powerful.

I have written a lot about this on my profile. I can’t express enough how much journaling has been supporting me in life continuously for many, many years.

Next time you feel the emotional wave approaching - can you stay with it?

Every emotion is simply a sensation in your body.

Knowing that - can you make space for it?

Letting it in is what lets it go.

out of fear and to avoid hurting someone, igniting an argument or an uncomfortable situation,

you are not doing a favor for either yourself or another person.

There is a natural rhythm - a flow of events - when you allow it.

It originates from your body’s wisdom, the natural impulses to say or do something.

From inner knowing, wisdom, intuition.

Flowing to aligned decisions and actions - when you allow it.

And then you can watch as a wave of life ripples outward,

inviting others into their own reflections, choices, and acts.

And from them, the wave keeps going -

an uninterrupted wave of life.

When you choose to silence this voice,

to ignore the impulse,

because of what others might think, or how their opinion of you might shift,

because of the fear of hurting someone, igniting an argument or an uncomfortable situation -

you block the natural flow of life.

It’s like building a wall against the current.

Standing in resistance to life and its innate wisdom.

Standing in resistance to your own authenticity and integrity.

And that is the great responsibility -

to yourself, and to others.

There is someone out there who desperately needs to hear what you have to say.

Someone who desperately needs to experience the gift of your authenticity.

To face your truth.

Especially when it brings discomfort,

the necessity to face themselves,

to pause and reflect, as it is sometimes hardest for us to see something from a different perspective,

to change the course of actions following yours, coming from an aligned place.

So don’t hold back.

Let your truth move.

Let it ripple.

The world doesn’t need you perfect -

It needs you real, in your fullest expression.

Last but not least, ALWAYS verify where what you want to do or say originates from.

What is your intention?

Whenever something that is not easy is burning to be said or done - do it with kindness and compassion.

xx

Anita

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Do you know this experience?
When facing a decision, your mind and body automatically want to choose the familiar way - the one you walked before - and yet, a voice becomes active in one of the layers of your consciousness, quietly showing you a different direction.

It whispers -
not this way
be kind
this may hurt someone
would you like to receive it yourself?

The inner compass.
The inner voice.
Inherently good, compassionate and loving.

At the beginning, it speaks so quickly and softly that you can hardly grasp what it’s saying.

With time - and with the journey back to yourself and your heart - it becomes louder. Clearer.

And then comes the first moment when you choose to truly listen and align your actions with what it is directing you towards.

The reward is subtle, yet powerful.
So powerful that each next time, you trust it more. The clouds of chaos begin to move away, clearing a direct path toward an aligned life - being true to yourself.

You begin to sense that you are connecting with something greater than your mind, greater than automatic impulses and habitual reactions. You feel the presence within you. Good. Compassionate. Loving.

I truly believe, I know, that we are all inherently THAT.
Good. Compassionate. Loving.

If you allow your heart to speak louder than your mind.

We live in a world filled with concepts, opinions, practices, teachers, gurus.
So many voices. So many truths. So many that it is so easy to simply get lost in the chaos that they all create -

Which one is mine? What I feel to be true?
Which voice should I follow?

unable to make a choice, feeling overwhelmed.

And yet, only one thing truly matters:
what feels true for you in this very moment.

It will change with time, as you change - Your soul constantly seeks higher expression of itself, choosing people and experiences that supports your growth in every phase of your life.

And perhaps one of the greatest challenge is not to cling - but to allow life to move you through what is true for you now.

As the heart expands, guided by trust, so do the ways you connect with yourself and others.

I know it can be demanding.
It can feel lonely to move differently than those in your closest circle.

To choose a path that speaks to you.
To walk away from conversations where someone is not present to speak for themselves.
To speak up when you witness injustice or harm.
To step out of the chaos of disconnection that runs through so many communities today.

To choose the path that feels true for you.

The inner compass I mentioned at the beginning is always pointing the way.

It is the same loving, compassionate force guiding us all toward ways of living that support - not destroy - life.

And when you listen to it, when you allow it to speak through you, you become an example of life and action rooted in love, compassion, integrity, and kindness.

Sometimes, that is all others need - to awaken the same voice within themselves.

Isn’t this the most beautiful responsibility?
To initiate collective change.
To participate in awakening.
To experience communities grounded in qualities that truly support life.

By the force of your example only.

Pause.

Find stillness.

Break the cycle of constant movement and hustle.

Truly connect with what you feel within.

Invite presence.

Feel -

by closing your eyes and directing awareness inward,
by experiencing what is present,
by simply being, without the agenda or goal.

Strengthen the connection with your inner wisdom, with your inner compass, until it speaks not only in stillness - but also with eyes open, hands holding another, feet walking forward.

Whatever your heart calls for - meditation, yoga nidra - when the mind is busy, inspiring reading that holds the frequency of love and compassion, or conversations that help you land more deeply in yourself.

I begin each day in stillness and silence.
Turning awareness inward, noticing how I feel, what I need, what my body needs today. Then I land in my heart space and stay there, watching it expands and whispers to me.

What is your practice - your action - that helps you connect with yourself and sets the tone for your day? For your life?

xx
Anita

There are those rare, sacred encounters

that shift something inside of you forever,

allowing the deep remembrance to emerge.

Moments when you feel your soul fully met -

beyond bodies, beyond minds, beyond fears and conditioning, beyond masks and pretending.

You see and are seen.

You feel and are felt.

Complete oneness.

Timeless.

Formless.

With no beginning and no end.

Eyes that see straight to your soul,

heart fields meeting in expansion,

deep resonance pulsating in your chest.

And now, you carry the piece of each other.

No matter where you are.

In your hearts and your essence.

Recognition like this leave the mark and forms the baseline for everything else.

When you remember the love and oneness

woven into everything,

you no longer shrink to fit.

Even when you are not met.

Even when you are rejected.

No voice, no wound, no shadow

can convince your heart

to return to separateness.

Love is all there is.

When you open yourself to embody, experience and receive it.