That's exactly how things will look like if we all carried a God-consciousness as we go about about our daily lives.

God is closer to us than the skin on our body but most times we are not aware of this, we mostly come into this consciousness when we feel the manifested presence of God in fellowship.

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There are times when I randomly feel the weight of God’s presence as I go about my ordinary activities. At first, I didn’t understand why it happened. I wasn’t in fellowship or doing anything particularly spiritual, yet I would suddenly feel God’s presence so strongly.

Then, the Holy Spirit told me that He simply wanted to awaken my consciousness to the reality that He is with me and that He is truly close.

He is with me whether I feel or not.

if God was more real to us like the person sitting beside us, we would be more careful in our actions. This will inform our righteous living.

Imagine we begin to approach all our simple ordinary activities in the consciousness that "God is here right now"

Worship will look more beautiful. We will learn to honour God with your action, deeds and thoughts.

1 Corinthians 10:31 (NLT): “So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”

We will learn to do all things to the glory of God. This will make our lives wholly to God and not divided. Where we see both the secular and spiritual as worship unto God.

This will keep our minds stayed on God even as we go about our day, and that there is also abiding. Where our gaze and thoughts are constantly fixed on God. Abiding doesn't end in fellowship with God, abiding is staying with and in God.

It's seeing God just as He sees us too.

We need an awakened consciousness to the presence of God because this will teach us the art of worship.

Dear Lord, Let us become more aware of Your presence, let us experience the glory of your presence, teach our hearts to acknowledge you in the ordinary moments, continually fix our gaze on you Lord, In your glorious name I pray amen.

Meno:A Greek verb meaning to stay or remain. Used physically to dwell in a place or wait for someone.

Meno Meno Meno

I have so much to show you,

I have a lot to tell you, too.

Come, let's get away for a while.

Meno Meno Meno

My beloved why are you in a hurry?

Can we just waste some time together?

Just tarry here, my love.

Meno Meno Meno

I want your presence.

Can't you linger a little longer?

Why the haste,

Don't you want to drink from my cup of satisfaction?

Meno Meno Meno

Just me and you and you and me

In this little space we share.

Give me your attention and devotion.

Meno Meno Meno

Abide with me, Beloved.

Stay with me, my Love.

I was going through my notepad today, and I found this and this reminded me of times where I rushed through fellowship with the Lord, days where I hurried out of God’s presence and how the Lord has gradually been teaching me to stay still and slow down in his Presence.

We live in a hurried paced world, where everyone wants to get tasks and assignment done as quick as possible and we can unconsciously treat our fellowship with Lord like that too. Where we want to treat our time with God as a task to tick off our list for the day.

Sometimes, I sit with God, and a lot of things wander in my mind, things I need to get done and in that posture everything in me just want to leave God’s presence. My heart gradually becomes hasty and noisy and I just want to rush out.

Each time I feel this way, I always hear the Holyspirit tell me slow down and sit still.

This hastiness goes beyond even fellowship with God, we see the hurry of our hearts when we are meant to wait on God for something, our hearts becomes frantic to get things quickly.

We must teach our souls to slow down when it comes to communing with the Lover of our soul. We can't hurry into the holy. To see the glory of God, we must be slow in beholding. The presence of God is that place where we get away from the noise of the world and breathe again.

There's really no way we can know the depths of God's heart if we are always in a hurry to leave His presence . we must learn to stay and wait on God in prayer. We must intentionally slow down.

We can't come into certain realities and dimensions in God if we don't stay long in prayers. We must stay put regardless of how we feel.

We must normalise wasting time in God’s presence because no time with God is a waste of time. The most valuable moments of your life is moments spent in God’s presence.

We must intentionally honour God with our time because he is worthy of our attention and devotion.

So spend quality time in God’s presence today.

Dear Lord,

We want to be slow in your presence, we want to linger and listen to what you are speaking Lord, teach our hearts to not be in a haste. We will not check our watches as we pour our love on you, we will not treat communion as a task we want to get off our list for the day for your fellowship is our feast and the delight of our souls. Give us slow feets, give us unhurried hearts, rid us of our quickness. Amen.

I have heard some older people talk about their walk with God in the past and looking at their life now, there's seems to be no passion like it was in their youthful years.

I keep asking this question, “can I actually get to a point where I lose my delight in God” that scares me more than anything because If there's one thing I never want to lose, it is my intimacy with God.

The Christian Journey is never a smooth sails. storms will come, gloomy days will come, terrible seasons will come but if a Christian is not well anchored, he/she could grow cold to the things of God.

Jesus never promised us a rosy life, but He gave of us a promise of His presence andVictory.

John 16:33 (NKJV) "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."

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There's a possibility that we can grow weary on this journey because of the different things life may throw at us

But what will keep us anchored?

what will keep us unshaken?

What will keep us burning?

It's simply gazing at the face of Jesus.

As we journey, storms and wind will definitely come but what will keep us walking on water without being swept under will be looking at God.

Hebrews 12:2 (NKJV)"Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith…..”

Remember Peter when Jesus commanded him to walk on water, at first he started walking on waters but the moment he took his eyes off Jesus to look at the wind, he began to drown.

29 So He said, "Come." And when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus.

30 But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying, "Lord, save me!"

We must keep looking at the face of God by staying in his word and abiding in fellowship with Him because it's only through that we can build personal convictions of God which will keep us anchored during difficult times.

One of the reasons some Christians grow cold over time is that, at some point, they shift their gaze from Jesus to something else. It doesn't happen overnight. Gradually, their hearts grow cold as their affection for Him begins to fade.

In the face of tribulation, you will find joy by just looking at His face. You will draw strength to keep pressing forward by gazing at Him.

I love this song that goes like this “show me your face Lord, Show me your face, I make it to the end if I could just see your face”

The Lord is the author and finisher of our faith and the only way to keep staying in faith is by gazing at Him, it's by looking at His delightful face that will keeps us burning in passion and love for Him, He is the only one that can keep us from stumbling.

The face of God is a well of delight, it's a great wonder, and the more we look upon Him, the more we are compelled to love and desire Him.

There's is a need for us to continually tend our altars by offering daily sacrifices of worship through abiding with God. The importance of abiding in God and His word cannot be overempahsized.

So Look to Jesus today, tomorrow and for the rest of your days on earth.

My earnest prayer is that our gaze will continually be fixed on the Lord; that we will learn to stay and abide in Him; that distractions and false gods will never draw our eyes away from Him, that the storm and wind will not take our eyes off Him. May the Lord fill us with such a deep longing for Himself that we become desperate for Him at all times, and may our desire for Him grow ever stronger. May He forever be the delight of our souls, and as the year goes by, may we continue to burn with love for Him. Amen.

And I know that when we finally make it to the end of this beautiful journey, our hearts will know that it was worth it all.

Show me your face

While on the bus, someone suddenly started preaching on the bus and in that moment I felt shocked, what was going through my mind was “ How come I didn't sense the leading to preach like the other girl who was preaching” because at multiple time in the past I had received nudgings to preach in public spaces and to individuals, some I responded to, some I ignored and some I gave excuses for, because I was afraid (which is not a valid excuse if you think of it)

While thinking about it, a part of me felt relief and I thought out loudly in my head saying “ at least I won't feel the guilt if I didn't end up doing it” because I knew deep down there was a high chance I won't do it because I was scared.

And in that moment I heard the Holyspirit say to me “ I am looking for people who are willing to carry the burdens of my heart, people I can trust to bring me my heart desires”

And that statement felt like a wrench in my stomach. As I pondered on it, I was reminded of times I ignored or dismissed the nudges of the spirit because of the fear of the unknown.

As I thought long about it I am reminded of how God is willing to always carry our burdens, how he is quick to respond to our cry for help at our first call.

I looked at my part and saw how unfaithful I have been, God commits himself to us but sometimes we do not reciprocate it.

People are okay with God meeting their needs, mending things for them, carrying their burdens but find it difficult to do His desires, play their part in his grand scheme, they want commitment on the part of God but don't want to fully commit themselves to Him.

Where people come to Christianity for what they can get and not what they can do for God's glory. That hurts when I think of it. It feels like God is being used by the ones He loves dearly.

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God also has burdens, the question now is “ Are we willing to carry the burdens of His heart?”

“ Are we willing to go any length to bring him the desires of his heart?”

God for sure will not lay anything on us beyond our bearing capacity, He will give to us only that we have the capacity to handle and it will really gladden His heart to see us get bothered by the things that bothers Him and see us fulfill the desires of His heart.

And trust me, if we don't respond to His call or His burdens, He will find other men who are willing to do his desires.

God does not need us. We are not doing God a favour by obeying or serving Him. He is God and He can accomplish His will without us, His plan shall stand.

So it's a privilege that He chooses to invite us to His work and gives us the opportunity to partner with Him.

I pray that when the Lord is looking for men to carry out his ordinaces and instructions, He will have us in thought and find us trustworthy to carry them.

May it not be heard that we withheld anything from the Lord considering all His sacrifices for us. The Lamb of God is worthy to receive the rewards of his sufferings starting with you and me. May our lives truly become the Lord’s reward. Amen.

For some Christians I approach who do not have a growing relationship with God, almost all respond with the same answer:

“I don’t always have time.”

And this really bothers me.

In my head, I wonder how it is possible to have 24 hours in a day and not be able to spare at least 30 minutes for devotion to the One you have surrendered your life to.

And yes, I understand that there will be genuinely busy days of life. But I don’t think it is possible to be busy all the time and never have a moment to spare for the things that are important.

Because if you truly love someone or something, you will make out time for it.

People say they don’t have time to devote themselves to God, yet they have time to binge-watch series for hours, doomscroll for hours on social media, and engage in their pleasures.

I saw a tweet post recently that has just stayed with me, and it says,

“Addiction is proof that you are capable of intense devotion, you just have a false god.”

Worrying is proof that you are capable of meditation, and binge-watching for hours is proof that you are capable of long bible study and prayers

Attention is the beginning of devotion, and whatever you commit your time to has your heart. And whatever has your constant attention is what you worship.

When “I don’t have time” becomes a thing, God is slowly and subtly replaced by false gods in the hearts of men.

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So the problem is not really time, it is desire and priority.

When you desire something, you will go all out for it. If you truly desire a relationship with the Lord, you will make time for fellowship and make it a priority.

When you see God as Lord over your life, you will prioritise Him above everything else. And even if you genuinely didn’t have time during your day for fellowship, you will still desire and long for time away with God.

Let's not miss the very essence Christ died, He didn't just die so we could just escape hell but to redeem us back to fellowship with God, where we can now have an intimate and close relationship with the Father.

So it's very important that you invest in your relationship with God. Spend quality time in fellowship with God.

This is also a note to myself, to always check what has my attention—is it God, or idols I have created?

God is so worthy of our time, devotion and attention.

I pray that the Lord will cause our hearts to hunger and long for Him, and give us the grace to devote our whole being to Him in worship. Our flesh is weak, but God’s grace is always sufficient for us.

And I think it is that way because they are the ones who get to see us bare and naked. They get to see us as we truly are.

It’s so easy to be all nice and sweet around those who are not so close to us. It’s very easy to put on a mask before people in order to maintain a good image.

A while back, I did something that hurt my Dad, and honestly, I am not even proud of it at all. I felt bad, and I repented.

While having a discussion with my dad about it, I remember him saying, “Pelumi, that’s not Christ-like.” He even started pulling scriptures on me, for real 😭

When I realized how badly I had behaved, I cried to my Lord, and He reminded me of a quote I had read: “It is hypocrisy to be a Christian everywhere but at home.”

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I thought about it for long, and I came to the conclusion that the true test of a Christian character is tested around their loved ones because that's where your patient and tolerance will be tested frr because you get to experience them with their flaws and shortcomings.

Speaking in tongues for 10 hours or knowing all the Greek words doesn’t prove to your parents, siblings, spouse or children that you are a Christian. What will really show that you have changed at home is when you begin to have Christ-like character.

Because I tell you, these people are actually watching you. They are watching how you treat them and how you treat outsiders.

This goes to every Christian, whether you are a pastor, mother, father, daughter, or son. Your lifestyle is a preaching, it will either draw them to experience the life of Christ or push them away from it.

Our lives are living Bibles to these people. We can spur them on to good works through Christ-like conduct.

Always remember, your Christianity is based on your way of life, not just the activities you engage in. So don’t just be a Christian in school, at work, or in church. Be a Christian at home.

Learn to accommodate your siblings, regardless of how much they annoy you. Don’t be harsh or rude to them. Be a Christ-like example.

Learn to treat your spouse kindly. Be a good pastor not only in church but also at home. You don’t want your loved ones having questions about your character.

Extend grace to your parents. They are not perfect. Appreciate them, love them, and honor them.

Don’t give room for them to doubt or question your Christianity. Don’t be a performer. Be true to yourself and your loved ones.

The Bible says, “My sheep hear My voice.” There’s no doubt about that.

But the real question is:

How many sheep actually listen to His voice?

Do His sheep truly listen and obey?

The Holy Spirit has been confronting me on this. He said, “If you truly call Me your friend, you will honour My words. You will regard My words and not trivialise them.”

For a split second, I began to feel the pain of being ignored. It actually hurts when someone you love doesn’t pay attention when you speak.

In that moment, it dawned on me again that the Holy Spirit is a person. He has feelings. He can be grieved when we hurt Him, and I need to be more intentional and considerate in how I relate with Him.

This is just a kind reminder to honour your Friend’s words—the Holy Spirit. Let’s not grow numb or cold to His voice to the point where we become insensitive to it. Let’s place value on His words.

God help us as we do so.

As I’ve spent these past three days in remembrance of my Lord, in humility and thanksgiving, honoring the sacrifice of Christ, I am reminded that there is a responsibility that comes with this saving grace. We are not saved to live carelessly, and our freedom is not to be abused.

Christ paid a costly price for the life we now live, and we ought to live as those who are truly grateful. We are His Bride, bought with a high price, and we must live as those who understand the worth of that life. We must live worthy of the sacrifice of Christ. The least we can do in response to His grace, mercy, and love is to lay down our lives daily as living sacrifices to the One who redeemed us with His precious blood.

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We also bear the responsibility of extending the good news to the unsaved and the unreached, that they too may encounter the grace and life we have received in Christ.

So it is not enough to celebrate the death, burial, and resurrection of Christ. Our lives must be a response, a response of love to His sacrifice of Love.

As we go about our daily lives, let us consider Him. Let us remember the shame, pain, and suffering He went through so that we might live a glorious life.

I pray that we live our lives on this side of eternity in honor of the cross, never bringing shame to our Lord. And when we stand before Him, may we be found blameless, as the Bride He desires, pure and worthy to stand before Him.

May the Lamb receive the reward of His sacrifice in His people, starting with you and me.

MARANATHA. Our Lord is coming back.

So I thought sharing my struggles as a Christian writer might actually help someone.

There’s a way we sometimes view people of God we admire, whether it’s a pastor, a mentor, or a writer. We form expectations based on how they present their lives online, and when they fall short of those standards we’ve created in our heads, we become disappointed and quick to judge.

I’ve seen this happen a lot, especially on social media. A pastor or a prominent figure in the body of Christ makes a mistake, and instead of giving grace, they’re met with harsh criticism.

Honestly, I believe there’s a need for more vulnerability among Christians so people don’t overestimate us or build false images in their minds, forgetting that we are still frail humans being helped by God.

It’s so easy to open your favorite writer’s page, read their content or listen to the words of our favourite pastor or teacher and assume they have a seemingly “perfect relationship” with God. We forget that the people behind those words are human too, with their own struggles.

I don’t want to be placed on a pedestal or be overestimated because of what I write online. I’m human, and I’m still growing.

So I’ve decided to be more vulnerable here by sharing my struggles as a Christian writer and how the holyspirit helps me.

1. Comparison.

This is one thing I struggle with at times, where I go on a person's page and I start underestimating myself, calling myself not good enough or perfect for the work. The Holyspirit keeps reminding me that He is not seeking perfection, he desires those who are willing and obedient and it is His validation that qualifies me.

2. When your words begin to stand as a monument against you.

This is a serious one for me, i don’t like this place at all.

So I remember writing about “ A steadfast Love” sometime middle last year, the article was basically talking about having a steady devotion to the lord despite the challenges we face in our everyday life, where our devotion to God is not controlled by our emotions or feelings.

I remember few months after then I had some really bad days and I just ran away from God’s presence, I didn't sit out my emotions with the Lord, I followed how I felt, I went days without fellowshiping with the Lord.

When I came back to my senses, I felt guilty, I thought to myself “how could i write about this but yet go against my words”I felt really bad because it felt deceptive and hypocritical.

The holyspirit told me it was bound to happen because i was human and he didn't seek perfection from me, what he desires is a broken and contrite heart.

3. Perfectionism

I want to believe I am not the only one that struggles with this😭😭.

There are moments when i feel my writing is not good enough especially when i want to publish an article, even sometimes down to the notes I post, where I begin to ask myself “does this make sense”, “is it good enough”. Where you become too conscious about the most smallest detail.

I honestly thinks this subtly takes root in trying to seek the approval of your audience.

I remember going through some of my old notes and poems I wrote to the Lord, I read them and saw how simple it was. I didn't strive to be accepted because I knew deep down, God loved it.

I keep reminding myself that I write for the audience of One and it is His approval I should seek and not any man. All he requires is my Obedience.

This puts off all the pressure when you write with this consciousness.

This doesn't dispute the fact that there is a place of improving your writing and becoming better at it but it shouldn't be taken to the unhealthy extreme.

4. Metrics and Engagement

There are times when low engagement discourages me.

When I started writing last year, I don’t know why I assumed I would automatically receive a lot of engagement😭lol. It does feel good when people engage your work, I won’t even lie.

But the truth is, metrics do not validate the authenticity or impact of your writing.

My pastor once said that popularity does not move him, because even the devil is popular.

Again, it comes back to the audience of One.

He is the One who approves, so I choose to remain faithful to the calling. Whenever I feel discouraged, I remind myself of the One who called me and the fulfillment that comes from doing the work of the Master.

5. Performance

It is very easy for performance to replace true worship and service to God.

I have seen this play out in my life in two ways.

First, when I began to receive more engagement, I became overly careful and calculated about what I wrote. It was subtle, but I was trying to please my audience without even realizing it. The heart of man can be very deceptive.

Second, I started trying to turn moments with God into content.

For me, writing flows from fellowship. I often write down thoughts I receive in God’s presence. But I noticed that I was beginning to document almost everything, and my motives were no longer pure. It became more about producing content than actually being with Him.

That was when I knew something was wrong.

Now, I guard my heart by not posting unless I am led to. I may have a lot I want to share, but I ensure that my motive is right, to glorify God and to be led by His Spirit.

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In this journey of writing for the Lord, I have learned that God is a merciful Master. He is patient, kind, and full of enduring mercy. He does not impose His will on me, He lovingly invites me to surrender to His ways.

So I do not write from a place of fear, but from a place of delight.

There are times I feel undeserving of His kindness, but I remain deeply grateful for His grace.

I do not consider myself a great writer. I see myself as a girl who was gifted without any efforts attached.

I was simply someone who loved writing poems to God during fellowship. I never thought it was anything significant until God made it one.

That is how the name of my publication came about: At His Feet.

I write from His feet, and I pray I never outgrow that place.

If you had told me earlier last year that I would start writing on Substack, I honestly would not have believed you. Even now, it still amazes me. Sometimes I read my own posts and think, “So Pelumi, you actually wrote this?”

God did not call me because I was qualified, He qualified me to steward the gift He has given me.

And even when I see my flaws and shortcomings, I remind myself that He still considers me capable of handling this. God is kind. That is all I can say.

I am learning not to become attached to this platform, so that if the Lord ever asks me to let it go, I will be able to surrender it back to Him freely.

I am deeply grateful for the works of Grant Herbel and Olufemi Babalola, which have helped keep my heart aligned with God in this journey of writing.

My earnest prayer is that He finds me faithful and trustworthy with what He has given me. May I never glorify the gift above the Giver. May I never lose Him to the things He has given me.

May He remain my one and forever delight.

Amen.

He knows your thoughts

You can't lie to Him

You can't fake it

You can't hide that intention

So you run to Him for help

For He will not condemn you

But He will convict you

For in the secret place

He reveals “YOU”

He brings every evil,

And deception to light

He brings it out not to rebuke you but to save you

So He shows you the faults that the world sees

For the world can't see the way He sees

And He asks you to acknowledge them

So He can fix you.

I am in a place where God is doing a serious work in my heart, where he is shining light into the deepest abssy of my soul that is even unknown to me which has secretly taken root in me and bringing every hidden and wicked intent to light.

I am learning to die daily to all he has been revealing to me and I promise you dying is not fun at all and it such an uncomfortable process.

Heb 12:11“No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way.”

Through this process I have been learning that God is a convicting God and not a condemning God.

I act in certain way at times and I am like Wow God you still want me regardless.

God is not a God of shame and he won't bring shame upon his people no matter their wrongs.

Remember the Adulterous woman, as much as what she did was wrong, Jesus never condemned her, he ofcourse didn't approve of her sin, he forgave her and said she should sin no more.

John 8:10-11: When Jesus had raised Himself up and saw no one but the woman, He said to her, “Woman, where are those accusers of yours? Has no one condemned you?” She said, “No one, Lord.” And Jesus said to her, “Neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more.”

I have never for once felt any atom of shame or condemnation whenever he reveals my flaws rather I feel the Love of a father's correction which always draws me to repentance to carry my cross and die to self.

Anytime I feel condemnation or try to hide or run, I just know it is not from the Lord.

And I just think this is a beautiful thing, it is the mercy and the Love of God….

That God sees you’re erring or becoming who he hasn't designed you to be and he calls your attention to it in a very loving way and not in a shameful way.

God is so intentional about the training of His Children and He loves us too much to leave us unchanged.

I really thank God for his work, for his purifying fire refining my heart to become just like His heart.

I pray the Lord keeps me humble and childlike to always receive his correction. I pray I never grow mature and slide into pride and then grow insensitive to his convictions.

That's the worst place to be, to engage in spiritual activities yet still comfortable in sin, that's a really bad place to be, to be left to a reprobate mind.

I am grateful to the Lord, that I am not walking in error or living in darkness.

I thank the Lord for his convictions, His corrections and training in love.

Chasing me down to bring me back to Yourself.

Knocking at the chambers of my heart

To offer me Your love

Even when I didn’t care to know You

I chased after my idols.

I gave myself to cheaper love.

I devalued myself.

But now I know better.

Now it is my turn.

To give You back my love.

I will chase after You.

I will pursue Your presence.

I will be found proclaiming my love for You.

I will be found publicly displaying my affection for You.

I will be found seeking to know every part of You.

I will be found knocking at the chambers of Your heart,

Longing to understand its desires.

I want to be called a finished woman.

If the world has not called me foolish yet,

Then I am not loving You enough.

I will pursue You.

I will run after You.

If You run to the valley,

Or You climb the mountains,

I will follow after You.

Because I must find You, my Love.

This is the sum of my life in you

To love You.

To seek You,

And to worship You.

I now live my life for you Lord therefore I will spend the rest of my days for you.

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People who truly walk with Him.

Why do I say this?

Whenever I go for camp meetings, I often hear people pray prayers like:

“O God of Adeboye,”

or share testimonies like:

“The God of Adeboye did this…”

For the longest time, I wondered why someone had to pray to God using another person’s name to get answered.

It wasn’t that I was against it in any way, I just didn’t understand why it was necessary.

By the way, you might be wondering who this man is. For those who don’t know, he is one of the fathers of faith in the body of Christ in Nigeria. Just as we had men like Kenneth Hagin and Kenneth Copeland as great figures of faith in their time, we also have men of great faith in Nigeria today.

So as I said earlier, I was always curious about why people prayed that way. Eventually, I took the question to God in prayer.

And He reminded me of scriptures where people prayed using the names of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, and David.

1 Chronicles 29:18 says: “O LORD God of Abraham, Isaac, and Israel, our fathers, keep this forever in the intent of the thoughts of the heart of Your people…”

All through Scripture, you see phrases like:

“God of Jacob,”

“God of Abraham,”

“God of Israel,”

“God of David.”

People often ascribed men’s names to God because of the history these men had with Him. They understood that these men knew God and walked with Him personally.

You will also see God say things like:

“for the sake of your fathers,”

or

“for the sake of David I will keep my covenant.”

1 Kings 11:13 says: “…I will not take the whole kingdom out of his hand, for the sake of My servant David.”

So people prayed using these men’s names because they believed that mentioning their names moved the heart of God not necessarily because they themselves deserved it, but because of God’s love for these men.

These were men who truly knew God. They had a tangible walk with Him. They understood His heart, and God honored them.

My pastor once said, David knew God so deeply that God decided He would be his great-grandfather when He came to the earth.

God identified Himself with someone who knew Him.

You might wonder, what exactly did these men do that made them so dear to God’s heart?

I don’t think it was some special formula. I think they simply knew God intimately. They sought Him to understand His desires and His will, and they spent their lives bringing God the desires of His own heart.

It is one thing for God to know you and love you, but it is another thing for you to love God back by seeking Him with your whole heart and your whole life.

If you study the history of these men, you will notice that they went all out for God. They made sacrifices and gave their best to Him because of how deeply they loved Him.

These were men who walked with God and truly knew Him.

I once heard a pastor say that God does not reveal the depth of His heart in a corporate setting. He reveals it in secret.

These men did not know God through people, church activities, or multiple sermons alone. They knew God for themselves. They sat with Him to discover the deep secrets of His heart. They searched Him out. They studied Him to know who He truly was.

Proverbs 25:2 says: “It is the glory of God to conceal a matter, but the glory of kings is to search out a matter.”

God is worthy to be known.

And knowing God is not far-fetched or difficult. It simply requires a conscious and deliberate decision.

The kind of knowledge God desires us to have is not the kind that puffs up pride, or makes one boast in Hebrew words and deep vocabulary. It is the knowledge that comes from staying. Staying long enough to study Him in fellowship with His Word and His presence.

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I am still on this journey of knowing God and honestly, I don’t think I know Him that well yet. I believe the knowledge I currently have of Him is still on the surface, and there is a need to go deeper in Him.

I pray the Lord helps us to hunger for Him, that we seek Him whole heartedly, and that we pursue to know Him daily. Amen.

You know, there is no restrictions or limits to God’s presence. No place and no time can limit the fullness of God. That we can always have access to Him anywhere and at any time.

Before the finished work of Christ on the cross, people could not enter into God’s presence, the Holy of Holies where God dwelled. Only the high priest could go in, and that only occured once in a year.

Hebrews 9:7 says: “But into the second went the high priest alone once every year, not without blood, which he offered for himself, and for the errors of the people.”

You could not enter God’s presence without authorization because sin separated God from man. There was no full access to His presence.

But now, the veil has been torn as a result of the redemptive work of Christ on the cross. We now have full access to God’s presence. We can come boldly before His throne, dwelling in close communion and fellowship with Almighty God.

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As I meditated on this, I saw how beautiful this reality truly is. To have access to God Almighty is a very big deal.

Then I began to wonder: why is it that we sometimes don’t maximize this access? Why don’t we spend quality time with God when the door is fully open?

As I thought about this, I remembered Esther in the Bible. She had to fast before entering the king’s presence because she was not authorized to go in at just any time. Access to an earthly king was restricted and dangerous without permission.

And I thought, if it was that hard to access the presence of an earthly king, how much more the presence of the Highest King?

Yet now God has given us unrestricted access, and sometimes we do not maximize it.

It feels strange when I think about it.

Who are we that the Highest King would welcome us in?

Who are we that He would call us His friends and share with us the matters concerning His kingdom?

Yet at times, it feels like we trivialize God’s presence. I still struggle to fully comprehend how we have such access to Him, how we can enjoy His presence freely, and yet not remain daily at His feet.

Is it because the reality hasn’t truly dawned on us?

Or have we simply grown used to it?

Or is it because we no don't see visible signs like the pillar of cloud that made the Israelites conscious of God’s nearness?

David did not even have the level of access that we have today, yet he understood what it meant to dwell in God’s presence.

He said he would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of God than dwell anywhere else. He knew God’s presence, and he treasured what he had.

He said better is a day with God than a thousand elsewhere

Psalm 84:10 (KJV) “For a day in thy courts is better than a thousand. I had rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God, than to dwell in the tents of wickedness”

A day in God’s presence can literally change everything. One moment with Him can redirect the entire course of a life.

Moses’ face was radiant when he returned from God’s presence. There is always a change and becoming in the staying.

Dwelling and abiding in God’s presence has a way of transforming everything in our lives. The more we stay with Him, the more we begin to look like Him. We begin to take after His character, His heart, His will, and His desires. We become more aligned with Him.

Sometimes, becoming who God wants us to be does not begin with doing more, but with staying longer.

I’m not saying all this because I have a perfect relationship with God or anything. There are times I fall short. Times I try to run away from His presence. Times I rush out instead of staying.

But I know that it is possible to cultivate the habit of sitting daily at His feet.

We did absolutely nothing to deserve His presence. Jesus did not have to redeem us back into fellowship with God, but God desired an intimate relationship with man.

That alone is a great honour and privilege that God considered us worthy to relate with Him.

If Jesus had to die to bring us back into God’s presence, then let us honour that sacrifice by giving Him our presence in return.

Jesus paid a costly price for you and me. It would not make sense for us not to give ourselves fully to Him.

God deserves our best.

He deserves our time.

Our presence.

Our love.

Everything.

Let us truly honour God’s presence.

I pray that the Lord makes us more aware of His presence and causes us to abide and dwell with him, just as he longs for us, may he also be our greatest longing and desire, that our appetite grows wild for him daily.

Amen.

My dear Lord,

When You beckon me into Your chambers in the dawning of the day,

and as I sit at Your feet in Your presence, my love,

ready to drink of the cup in Your hands,

make me more aware of Your presence,

that I do not lose sight of who you are.

Even as I raise my songs of worship to You, my Lord,

may it rise to You as a sweet melody that lingers in Your ears.

May my songs of praise rise like a sweet fragrance unto You.

Lord, I know You are full of splendour and beauty.

Help me not to lose my awe of Your beauty.

Help my gaze to be fully fixed on You.

And finally, my Lord, I know You are a great King.

It is always a pleasure to dine with You in the late evenings.

Help me, Lord, not to become familiar with Your presence

in a way that causes me to lose honour and reverence for You.

In all things, God,

help me to worship You in a worthy manner.

Amen.

Your beloved,

Oluwapelumi

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Whose hands will you take?

The hands of your lover

Or the hands of fleeting pleasure

Whose tune will you dance to?

The tune of your lover,

Or the tune of the world

Which step will you take?

A step closer to your lover,

Or a step closer to the World

Your lover beckons on you for a dance,

A dance of intimacy and love.

A dance that dispels you of your fears and worries.

A dance worth every step taken.

Would you trade enduring intimacy,

With cheap thrills with a prostitute?

Choose wisely beloved.

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Intimacy with God is such a beautiful thing to have. Walking with God has made me realise how much God desires and longs for us, how God delights in us and wants intimacy. You know the reason why Jesus died wasn't mainly for us to escape hell but also to restore us back to communion and fellowship with God. I find it so wonderful that God, almighty God actually desires a relationship with us, frail humans.

I have learnt that intimacy with God is an intentional thing, it is not something we stumble upon overnight, it is something cultivated over time and boils down to the little choice we make everyday. The daily choice of choosing him over and over again above our desires and pleasures. The choice we make in commiting our time, love, attention and devotion to him daily, that's how we draw closer to the Lord.

And is it easy as it sounds? No

Is it something we desire to do? Yes

Do we fall short sometimes? Yes

But one thing I have found out about God is that he doesn't desire perfection from us but continual surrender to him, so once we get it wrong, we surrender again in brokenness.

We must continue in surrender to God daily.

Intimacy with God is a daily thing, God desires something deep, real and palpable with us but it is our willingness and intentionality that will determine that.

Christ paid a costly price to bring us back to Him, let's honour that by truly drawing near to me.

If you feel far from God and desire intimacy, see this as an invitation from God and run back to living in his presence and continual surrender to him.

As for Oluwapelumi, she will have histories with her God, she will make good memories with her Lord in intimacy, she will not just be known as someone who God is with, but also someone who loves to be with her God.

I pray the Lord places a constant hunger in our heart for His presence, that we long and desire Him more than life, and we find nothing more satisfactory than Him. Amen.

2 Corinthians 9:6 (KJV): “But this I say, He which soweth sparingly shall reap also sparingly; and he which soweth bountifully shall reap also bountifully”

Many people have misunderstood this concept.

Some believe you must sow a seed(money), in order to receive anything from God.

Some think paying their tithe is what guarantees success in their career or business.

I have even heard people say that because they stopped paying their tithe, things became tight for them.

These mindsets quietly creates an entitlement mentality toward giving. Giving becomes a tool to get something rather than an act of love. Over time, it breeds greed. We begin to think, If I sow this amount, I should get double or more in return.

And when sacrifices are made and nothing seems to come back, disappointment sets in. God then appears unfaithful, when in reality, expectations were misplaced.

One thing I have learnt is not to assume realities with God unless I will get disappointed. We must base God’s character only on Scriptures and not our opinions or thoughts

I am learning that God’s love for me is not transactional. His blessings are not conditional on how much I give or whether I empty my account. I do not need to sow money for Him to be my provider.

God’s love is an “even though” kind of love.

Even though I am unfaithful, He remains faithful.

Even though I fall short, He remains good to me.

God’s love toward us is not transactional or conditional.

This does not mean that the principle of sowing and reaping is false. It is real and clearly taught in Scripture. If you sow good, you will reap good. I am not downplaying that truth.

I am not also disputing the fact that there are no blessing attributed to tithe payment.

Malachi 3:10 “Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the LORD of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it”

What I am saying is that the posture of the heart matters a lot when giving to God or people

If we choose to sow in giving, it should not be with the mindset of receiving in return. Giving should flow from love. God sees every sacrifice, and there is a place where He rewards the sacrifices of His children. But reward shouldn’t be the motivation for giving.

Our giving to God should not be transactional.

I am not giving to advance His kingdom so that He will bless my career. I am giving to his work because he is my father and as a loving daughter, I will love to contribute to the growth of his business

I am not paying tithe so that my business will not become tight. I pay my tithe because God commands it, and obedience is one of the ways I express my love for Him.

So my giving to God should flow from a place of Love and not from expectation.

God desires reciprocal love. Just as His love toward us is not transactional, He does not want our love toward Him to be transactional either. When love becomes transactional, the heart becomes greedy and deceitful.

God is not trying to raise greedy children.

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Happy New Year Friends, this year is the year of Audacity, we move with such boldness given by the spirit. I am so excited about what God is set to do this year. Bye for now.

I’m currently on a youth retreat, and one of the teachings was on desiring more in God and nothing less. That the life we live now is the Zoe life, the God-kind of life. And this life does not support smallness. It affords us more.

As I pondered on this, something became very clear to me. My God is a big God, and He is willing to give more than we can ever imagine. God is not operating on a budget. He is not rationing blessings or managing scarcity. He has more than enough, and He delights in giving.

Ephesians 3:20 “Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us.”

That is the consciousness I am stepping into 2026 with: there is more in God.

It doesn’t matter what I have seen or experienced with Him already, there is still more.

It doesn’t matter what I have handled that once felt great or deep, there is still more.

No encounter exhausts God. No revelation finishes Him.

Jesus is the river that never runs dry.

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So expand your vision. Enlarge your goals. Don’t dream small or settle for little. Seek higher dimensions in God. Refuse to be satisfied with where you are, because there is so much more to attain, so much ground to cover, so much depth to reach, and so many territories to possess.

Press deeper into God. Don’t settle.

The kind of life you have come into demands that you dream big and live big in accordance to the will of God.

And the criteria for receiving more from God is hunger. The more you desire, the more you receive.

Only the hungry will be fed!!

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But the question that bothers my heart is this:

am I living like he truly is ?

Am I truly living prepared for his coming?

If I am raptured today and I stand before my God, will I be able to give a good account?

Would I be found to have carried out God's mandate? Preached the Gospel?

Would I be found to have lived worthy of the price Jesus paid? A life truly spent on Him?

I’ve come to realize that living for Christ is intentional living. It is a conscious decision we must make every day. It takes deliberate effort to please God and reflect His glory. Living worthy of Christ’s sacrifice requires denying ourselves and carrying our cross daily.

Matthew 16:24 (NKJV):“Then Jesus said to His disciples, ‘If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.’”

And I won’t pretend it’s easy. It’s hard to live for Christ in a world constantly trying to lure us with its pleasures, or in a body that screams its appetites. But we must continuously discipline our flesh and steady our gaze on the Lord.

I really want to live worthy of my Lord, because what Christ gave to me was priceless, the least I can do to appreciate his finished work on the cross is by living a life he is worthy of.

And as for me I will intentionally live my life for Christ, that when he comes I will be ready, for the day he is returning. He will find Oil in my lamp because the Lamb of God is worthy to receive the reward of his sufferings in his Brides.

My Prayer is that the Lord make us more aware of his Presence Daily, that we have a God consciousness as we go about our days on earth, that we may live worthy of the Lamb and nothing lesser than what he truly deserves.

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Dear Bride,

A holy matrimony awaits you. Therefore, I urge you to consecrate yourself for the coming of the One who delights in you. Step away from the distractions and the noise of the world. Look neither to the left nor to the right. Fix your gaze on the beauty and glory that awaits you.

Beloved one, even as you walk down the aisle towards your Love remember you are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses cheering you on. When you finally stand before Him, may you be found worthy to behold His beauty and share in His never ending glory.

keep you Oils burning Bride, The Bridegroom is coming, MARANATHA.

If you are reading this and you want to experience the God kind of life and you have not received the life of Jesus, I invite you to do so. Not merely out of fear of hell, but so you may experience the life of Christ here on earth and the glorious future that awaits those who are in Him.

God delights in His people, and today, you too can become part of His Bride. If you believe in the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus Christ, that He redeemed us from sin and death into life, then say this prayer:

Jesus, I believe in You. Right now, I receive You as my Lord.

If you meant that from your heart, congratulations. You are saved🤭

I am someone who thinks deep but sometimes it goes to the extreme where i begin to over think things, my imagination has a way of running wild, and before I know it, time is wasted.

When I pause long enough to examine these wanderings, I find myself asking whether God is pleased with the things I let my mind dwell on. It’s so easy to get lost in my own wild meditations and forget the One who actually deserves my attention.

Psalm 19:14: “Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord.”

But I am reminded of David who was in constant thoughts of God and his laws and I think it takes intentionality to please God. David was one who took time to remember his God.

Psalm 63:6 :“I remember you upon my bed, and meditate on you in the night watches.”

Psalm 77:12: “I will meditate also of all your work, and talk of your doings.”

Psalm 119:148 :“My eyes are awake through the night watches, that I may meditate on Your word.”

David was one who intentionally pleased God with his thoughts and I find it interesting when he says “I remember you upon my bed and meditate on you”. I think it such a beautiful way to express one's love to God, that in the dead of night, I am caught up meditating on the lover of my soul and not some fleeting thoughts of self.

God is most worthy of our Souls and the meditation that runs through them. So as you go about your day, take time to remember your Lord, his wonderful deed, the greatness of his power, the wonder of his person and his ever sure words. He is so worthy of our attention.

My dear Lord,

You are worthy of my mind; You are worthy enough to consume my thoughts. In the early hours of the day, may I not be caught up in fleeting thoughts. May I not be lost in the lust of my fantasies and dreams when I should be in awe and wonder of You, my Lord. Let it be that when I rise with the dawn, and when I lay my head in the stillness of the night, my thoughts are always on You.

Help me, Lord, to constantly meditate on Your goodness and to acknowledge it in even the most mundane moments. Teach me to honor You in my meditation.

Firstly how did he bring God the desires of his heart, how did he satisfy and bring pleasure to God.

Psalm 51:16–17 (KJV)“For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.”

He understood that God didn't delight in sacrifices alone but desires our hearts first, because once God has our heart, he has all of us, and David never came short of that. Reading the psalms, you could see the kind of heart he had towards God, which was a broken heart.

He also satisfied God's desires through Obedience. We could see in so many instances where David was obedient to the instructions of the Lord, from instructions that came on how to go about battles to others like refusing to build God's temple when he said No, not killing Saul when he had the chance to do so.

1 Samuel 24:6: “And he said unto his men, The Lord forbid that I should do this thing unto my master, the Lord’s anointed…”

As I studied the life of David further I realised he actually had God's kind of heart.

Studying David's Heart through 2 Samuel 18

In this chapter David sent his Army under their commander Joab, Attain and Abishai to fight Absalom's Army because he was defending his kingdom from Absalom who was attempting to take up his throne by killing him. So during that period he was hiding from place to place to stay safe from attacks. When he was sending his soldiers to battle, he gave them a clear instructions which was that in all their pursuit, they mustn't kill Absalom

2Sam18:5: “And the king commanded Joab and Abishai and Ittai, saying, Deal gently for my sake with the young man, even with Absalom. And all the people heard when the king gave all the captains charge concerning Absalom”

So these men went out to battle, and a man saw a perfect opportunity to kill Absalom but he didn't because of David's command. Yet when he told Joab one of the David's Army Commander, he went ahead to kill Absalom, defying David's command, he thought that was the right thing to do.

2Sam18:9-15

9 And Absalom met the servants of David. And Absalom rode upon a mule, and the mule went under the thick boughs of a great oak, and his head caught hold of the oak, and he was taken up between the heaven and the earth; and the mule that was under him went away.

10 And a certain man saw it, and told Joab, and said, Behold, I saw Absalom hanged in an oak.

11 And Joab said unto the man that told him, And, behold, thou sawest him, and why didst thou not smite him there to the ground? and I would have given thee ten shekels of silver, and a girdle.

12 And the man said unto Joab, Though I should receive a thousand shekels of silver in mine hand, yet would I not put forth mine hand against the king’s son: for in our hearing the king charged thee and Abishai and Ittai, saying, Beware that none touch the young man Absalom.

13 Otherwise I should have wrought falsehood against mine own life: for there is no matter hid from the king, and thou thyself wouldest have set thyself against me.

14 Then said Joab, I may not tarry thus with thee. And he took three darts in his hand, and thrust them through the heart of Absalom, while he was yet alive in the midst of the oak.

15 And ten young men that bare Joab’s armour compassed about and smote Absalom, and slew him.

Read the whole of 2 Samuel 18 and 19 for better understanding.

Ofcourse, this felt like good news to the soldiers, that the person who has been trying to kill their King has died and there would finally be peace in the land. This is the normal disposition to someone who seems like a threat or an enemy. The normal disposition of man is to kill an enemy.

Ahimaaz who was a son of the priest, on knowing this, was so delighted to go tell king David because he considered it a good news (2sam18:19)

On bearing the news to David, David's response was contrary to what they expected. When David heard his son had died, He literally wept, I could feel the emotions, it was so real.

2 Sam 18:33“And the king was much moved, and went up to the chamber over the gate, and wept: and as he went, thus he said, O my son Absalom, my son, my son Absalom! would God I had died for thee, O Absalom, my son, my son!”

This just shows clearly that David truly was a man after God's heart. From a logical standpoint, it seems unreasonable to love someone who despise you

He did what God will do, he said it would have been better he died instead of Absalom. He did what God did, where God gave up himself, he became flesh and died for his rebellious Brides

When Joab heard of David's behaviour, he was disappointed, because he thought his behaviour was unreasonable, he saw thing from a logical standpoint but David's Heart acted in alignment with God.

2 Samuel 19:6 NLT
“You seem to love those who hate you and hate those who love you…….”

Jesus said the heart of God, exactly what David did.

Matthew 5:44 (KJV)“But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you.”

He just showed how much David had a heart just like God's own. No wonder God loved him so much

My Pastor once said, ‘God loved David so much that he said you will be my great grand father when I come to the earth’ (When he established a lasting dynasty with David's lineage).

God decided to identify himself with a man who knew him. I also realised God doesn't require perfection because David was a murderer but yet He chose to identified himself with him. God desires our heart because once he has your heart, he can make you into anything he wants.

As I reflected on this thoughts, I saw how far I fall short. It’s easy to love those who love us, but loving those who don’t is a much harder thing to do. I felt sad because I didn’t feel like I reflected my Father’s heart.

But the Lord reminded me that He isn’t seeking perfection. He is seeking nearness.

David was a man of God’s presence. From the Psalms, you can see that he stayed in the temple, dwelt with God, and constantly sought after Him. That nearness shaped his heart.

So really it is in beholding the Lord in fellowship and studying to know him through his word that we become like him. The more we stay with him, we gradually become like him.

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My prayer is that God find “DAVIDS” in our generation, men who are after the desires of his heart, men who are surrendered to know him and live for him. That when he is looking for Brides after his heart, we will be found walking worthy for him. Amen.

I am currently watching The house of David series and this makes my heart giddy. I really love Bible movies, because they just make the character feel so real.

Keep your heart childlike

that you may be amazed by His wonders,

never loosing awe of his works

Just like a little Child,

Keep your heart tender,

that you may feel the warmth of His embrace,

And be softened by the depth of His love.

Just like a little Child,

Keep your heart humble,

that you may be exalted in His glory,

For He is glory, the lifter of the Humble.

Just like a little Child,

Keep your heart teachable,

that you may marvel at His wisdom

and obtain understanding at His feet

Just like a little Child,

keep your heart pure,

that you may behold Him,

never losing sight of the beauty of his presence

Just like a little Child,

Run to Him when he calls on you,

Cause He is all you have,

And all you will ever need.

“Jesus called a little child to him and put the child among them. Then he said, “I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven. So anyone who becomes as humble as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.” Matt 18:2-4