I’ve noticed that I seem to cycle a past trauma every 3-4 months. No matter how hard I work on it, it comes back every 3-4 months, water works and all. I thought this poem was IT. I thought I healed on SO MANY levels writing this poem.

I felt pain, shame, guilt, anger, oh my so much anger released while I wrote that poem. But it continues to live inside of me. I lost a childhood friend to cancer recently, and I felt this inward push, to work through my shadows.

To finally get things right. As I talked about this with my husband, he was concerned and said ‘what shadows do you have’?

I was silent.

He knew what my silence meant as streams of tears rolled down my face. In that moment, I was thinking of the surface level shadows like money blocks, self love. But internally my body had a different answer.

My husband said something that stopped me in my tracks. He said-

I decided to put this behind the paywall as this is a vulnerable share.

Below, I detail how I am tracking my trauma cycle and some insightful quotes from my husband, a licensed clinical counselor and a fucking amazing man.

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Song Credits: Blurry Dreams by Ambient Boy

Disclaimer: Breath Obsessed breathwork and meditation sessions are designed for self-exploration and personal wellness. Because this practice can activate the nervous system and bring up deep emotions or physical shifts, it may not be suitable for everyone—particularly those with a history of cardiovascular disease, epilepsy, severe psychiatric symptoms, or pregnancy. Please consult a healthcare professional before trying these practices.

Thank you for listening

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

Listen to the Voice Note above

This channeled message:

your dreams are within the confines of the soul

This message is reminding us that our dreams are actually not far out of reach. They are within us.

They are already within our built in container.

I think this message is also asking us to notice how are we nurturing our containers that are housing our dreams.

Knowing that our dreams live within us, and they are accessible.

‘Confines’ mean the physical edges of a space or boundaries.

So your dreams are already yours. It is a matter of matching that energy to bring it to fruition and taking care of your container.

It is within your hands but don’t let this discourage you if you have not manifested said dreams. It’s all part of the plan.

Your job is to:

1. NOTICE what your dreams are

2. Assess if these dreams are coming from an authentic place

3. If they are authentic to who you are today, what are aligned actions you can take towards these goals?

4. If you believe you have been taking aligned action and are getting discouraged that it hasn’t arrived yet—ask a close friend what they think your blocks are. Then ask yourself what you think your blocks are.

5. Journal about your blocks and what is standing in your way.

6. Check in with yourself and see how you are nurturing your soul, your container for your dreams.

I think the most important takeaway here is—how are you nurturing this container that holds your dreams? Maybe you are in a season of not being able to fully show up for yourself—and that is ok. You are being asked to just notice for now.

Noticing is a powerful tool because it gets you thinking. First your observe and then you can take action if needed. But it brings awareness.

Notice:

1. Notice where you are right now

2. Notice your overall vibration

3. Notice how nurturing you are to your soul

4. Notice your dreams (are they still resonating with who you are today)

5. Notice why you want this dream (is this coming form ego? if yes, why?)

6. Notice what is blocking you from working towards the goal (is it your vibration?)

7. Notice how your body feels when you think about your dream and where you feel it in your body

8. Notice how your brain shows up for your when you think about your dream (do you tell yourself I’ll never achieve it?)

9. Notice the small steps that you could take towards your dreams

10. Notice, Notice, Notice

If you are in a season of knowing what you need to do but not necessarily able to fully show up for your soul, notice what is in the way. Is it a mental block? How can you take one small step?

Ex: if you know you have to work on your website, break it down into small tasks. Set small goals to do one section at a time.

This is a message of hope so please don’t let it discourage you. Knowing that your dreams are not far off, they they live within you—let that be the fire. Let this be the flicker to your flame and just take off!

I hope this resonates with you and gets you to notice.

Thank you for listening!

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

***Listen to the voice note above*** also trigger warning at the bottom during the ‘PS’ section.

you are the protagonist of your soul

…is a gentle reminder that you are the main character. You bring the main character energy to your life, your soul.

Take notice where you may be outsourcing

1. Are you steering the ship or is someone else?

2. If you lost control—how can you regain control?

3. If you are outsourcing…why did you give the reigns to someone else?

And lastly, how can you get it back? This message is asking you to RECLAIM your Authority.

ditch the self help books

ditch the spiritual books

ditch the philosophy

Ditch all the noise and discover what resonates with and leave the rest that doesn’t. Reading the books can only get you so far. Put the information you learned to work and trust that you know what to do.

If you are still saying: But I need to learn more before I do that, just take a step back. Most times we know what we need to do, we are just scared to face it.

How can you become the protagonist of your soul again?

• Do you know yourself today?

• How is this version of yourself today compare to what the old version of you liked.

• The spiritual practices and tools that you use today, do they resonate with the old you or the new you?

• Sit in silence. I know this can be hard but noticing what comes up for you is a good start

• Notice any resistance. Resistance is often the key to your answers. Where you are resisting, is likely the area that needs integration of the information you are learning and trying expand on.

• If you are brand new and only just begun your journey. I think you are right on time. I still say limit the self help books.

• Journal about the resistance and see where it takes you

• Ask a close friend that you trust what they believe is getting in the way of your Authority

But what does that feel like when you have control, when you have self agency?

It should feel like you have all of the control:

• you are not a passive observer

• you are an active participant

• you are not seeking advice from others

• you trust your decisions

**I think it’s important to note that if you lost your authority due to past traumas please know that this message is not saying that you caused your trauma. I believe trauma are circumstances out of your control but they can cause you to lose your authority.

I hope if this spoke to you, and that this is the message that you need to reclaim your Authority.

You are of light in this world.

You are worthy.

There are no wrong directions.

There is only YOU today.

I believe in you so much!

PS—-also know that I am not a guru, I am someone figuring this out alongside with you. I attended therapy and implemented various tools to work through sexual assault. It is one way that I lost my self agency without realizing. I am only at the beginning of reclaiming my Authority. It is empowering and not from an ego sense. I love being reconnected with myself. It is another one of those things that lights tiny fires within me creating more fires of love and joy that I get to share with others including you all here on Substack.

From the bottom of my heart, I walk this journey with you. This channeled message is precious to me and is one of my favorite soul reminders. I’m excited for what’s next and I hold you in my heart as I share these messages. We will reclaim this together!

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

**Listen to the Voice Note above**

I posted about this channeled message:

you were meant to live a life fully expressed

I talked about it in this voice note. This message was helping us notice where you may be complacent in your life. It was a reminder that we were meant to live a life that is meaningful and allows us to explore or create.

I talk about creation a lot because when we create from our hearts, our passions, it lights a fire within you. This fire might be catapulting you into rooms or conversations with people that you would have not previously met.

A woman messaged me and said that she would live fully expressed if she had unlimited funds.

I don’t think that she was trying to be rude. I think she was being honest.

And the thing is, I can’t be mad at her. I was her and somedays I revert back to her. I am 43 years old and spent most of my adult life stuck with this mentality. Thinking that you cannot achieve contentment over complacency because you do not have unlimited funds is what prevented me from trying new things, from working on my craft.

When we are stuck with this mindset, we are unable to move forward. You cut yourself short if you say

“if only I had unlimited funds then I would do ___”

Why would you go create anything if you thought this way?

Here is what you can do:

1. Think about what your life would feel like if you had unlimited funds

2. How would you feel and act?

3. What would you create? What would be art if you had unlimited funds and why?

4. Take that feeling with you to match the frequency even though you don’t have the unlimited funds

5. Make one small step towards your art or craft. (If you want to sell your craft on Etsy, create the Etsy shop, start making your craft). Do the thing.

Spoiler alert—I still don’t have unlimited funds but I started my creation. When I started my breathwork certification, I had no idea where it would lead me but I was so lit about it. It created this fire within me and now I am here leading spiritual circles to bring women together with spiritual gifts. I am teaching breathwork classes in my community.

That fire, creates more fires within me to create more things. It is a ripple effect. Don’t let not having unlimited funds stop you or you will never get started and always wonder “why not me”.

Bet on yourself because you are the main character of your journey!

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

**Listen to the voice note above**

I received the following channeled message:

“the complacency of the soul is a reminder of the path you were meant to live”

I had to sit with this for a bit to fully understand. I wanted to make sure that I understood the definition of complacency vs contentment.

Complacency means a feeling of being self satisfied or overly comfortable which can impede your progress or growth because you don’t think anything needs to change; you fear growth.

Contentment means peace with where you are and being open to changes.

For me, my interpretation of the channeled message is asking us to notice if you are complacent. If you are complacent, the soul is whispering to you to live a life more fully expressed, more authentically. Your soul is inviting you live a life fully expressed.

What does the fully expressed version of you look and feel like? What is standing in your way from getting there?

Have you heard or noticed those whispers of your soul?

Here is what you can do:

1. Identify if you are in a stage of complacency or contentment

2. If you identified with complacency which area of your life? It may not be all of your life but certain areas.

3. Think about WHY you are complacent in that area

4. If you are complacent, what might you be avoiding? What are you afraid to face and why?

5. Is there something you can do about it today, this week, this month (it doesn’t have to be major even being aware can be enough for you to make a change)

If you are in the in between:

Meaning some areas of your life are complacent and some you are experiencing contentment that is okay! Don’t stress about not being in full contentment. Build capacity one area at a time!

If you are fall under contentment in your relationship, for example, take notice and be aware of how complacency at work might affect your relationship. Again, just notice for now.

When we live a life fully expressed, we are less likely to be drained because that excitement for your art, your craft is what is going to give you life, it is going to drive you.

Take time to journal, go for a walk without your phone, drive in silence and see what comes up for you.

Notice—I keep going back to ‘notice’ because it is a powerful tool we all have access to. Noticing is free. It takes courage to notice and not judge.

If you are complacent notice where you are, what are you avoiding and why? This is SO important. It may seem scary to face, but noticing is not asking of you to take action right now, its asking you to just notice.

Be aware of what is holding you back from:

-asking for help

-noticing

-signing up for that class you have been thinking about

-taking the first steps to healing

-talking about yourself positively

-loving yourself

-allowing yourself to let love in

***This message is also not asking you to live a perfect life. You can be content and still experience tests and stress.

The theme of this message is to encourage you to create. Creating from love and joy will influence you in other areas of your life. Bringing more fire, more joy because of your craft, your art, your creation excites you that much. That is what this message is about

And finally—-if you are starting from scratch, that is okay! (I know it may not seem like it), but the people that you look up to, the people that you follow they have not always been at the level you see them at right now, in this moment. And they are still human too.

After noticing what is holding you back, discover and learn who you are. What does this open version of you seem interested in? What surprises you about this open version of yourself? Follow that thread and maybe it will lead you to your new art or new craft.

There is SO much I could say here and maybe I might need to do a part 2.

Just know: I believe in you!

If you are struggling please reach out for help to anyone that you feel safe with. Please don’t hold it in.

I hope this gives you something to think about and helps you get clear on your path!

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

Song Credits: Near the Sea by Ambient Boy

Disclaimer: Breath Obsessed breathwork and meditation sessions are designed for self-exploration and personal wellness. Because this practice can activate the nervous system and bring up deep emotions or physical shifts, it may not be suitable for everyone—particularly those with a history of cardiovascular disease, epilepsy, severe psychiatric symptoms, or pregnancy. Please consult a healthcare professional before trying these practices.

**Listen to the Voice Note Above**

We are in a powerful time right now. This portal between the nodes shifting, this full moon and Lion’s Gate and an eclipse. We are being activating and this portal lasts through August 8th. You still have time!

It’s important that you take time to sit with this energy. Sit in the sun, allow it to move through you.

If you don’t know what your next journey or next chapter will look like. Use this time to create your art/hone in on a craft allowing it to move the energy through you.

The following can help you move the energy through you:

• Drawing/Painting

• Writing

• Meditating

• Journaling

• Movement

• Singing/chanting

This is also an important time to notice. Take time to notice any old patterns that are holding you back.

Reflect on your old patterns via journaling or a voice note to yourself:

• What are themes that keep showing up for me

• What are my triggers?

• Why do these triggers have a hold on me? (if you don’t know that is ok

• Ask someone close to you what they think your patterns are

When sitting in the sun:

• Imagine golden light slowly illuminating your chakras AND activating

• Feel the sun move through each chakra

• Use your hands to clear the energy in each chakra while sitting in the sun

Mantras:

• I am open to receiving

• I am open to releasing patterns

This meditation to notice is a nice pairing with this work this week.

One last note, as integration is an important piece-

Take this energy with you throughout the day. How can you incorporate the feeling of love and joy throughout your day. Don’t just leave this feeling outside with the sun. Bring the sun inside with you, bring it with you to work, bring it with you as you help your child work through a meltdown.

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

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I can remember being self conscious about my body from as early as 9 or 10 years old.

Throughout various parts of my life if anything I was maybe 15-20lbs over weight. Not small, not obese. But the in between growing up with friends who were not over weight. I found myself at an early age entertained by comparison.

I think a lot has to do with personality or character. I grew up in a loving family, an affectionate Italian American family. My parents told me they loved me and that I was beautiful very regularly.

Sadly, in my mind:

I was not thin enough

But where does that come from?

Why couldn’t I just see myself the way everyone else did?

Why did I desire to be thin?

And the thing is: I can’t entirely blame it on 90’s diet culture/marketing. I think I was just ripe for it..internally.

Within myself I lacked a sense of confidence, a sense of truly loving myself.

When I got to high school freshman year, I was in a “comfortable” place with my body. My height peaked at a whopping 5 foot 2 inches. My mom, who is 4 feet 10 inches, was SO excited for me LOL.

In 9th grade I felt a little more confident in my body until I wasn’t anymore.

I had an extreme asthma flare in 10th grade and needed to be on prednisone (a steroid) for an “unusually” amount of time. I will hear that often as I got older from doctors “you need a bit of a longer taper when you are on prednisone.” For whatever reason, my body needs to be on prednisone longer. It was around this time that I gained weight from this round of prednisone and as a teenager it obviously scarred my life—AND spoiler alert—I LET IT.

I stopped eating lunch at school, I became self conscious about eating around others.

If anyone questioned, I would bring a plain bagel with no cream cheese or butter on it and just “nibble” pieces of the bagel slowly. I would leave the bagel in the bag, and pull off teeny tiny pieces. Pieces that were smaller than a single m&m just to throw the attention away from me.

Here I was trying not to bring attention to myself by not eating in front of everyone and now, I brought MORE attention to myself by not eating at all.

The good news is, just slowly nibbling was enough for the questions to stop.

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As I got to college, it got worse

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What does it mean to ‘be the wayshower of your soul’?

I’m so glad you asked lol

a wayshower is someone who lights a path, they walk a path of alignment.

I want you to take a moment to reflect on your life. All the different areas of your life.

Then ask:

• Am I living soul led in ____ area of my life?

• If I’m not in alignment in this area, am I living for someone else in this area?

• What are small changes that you can make today?

You don’t have to jump from 0 to 100 today. Make small changes over time because if you are not living in alignment, chances are you may have lost your compass, your guiding light which is your intuition—and that might take time to find your back to it.

When you do find your way back to your intuition. I want you to notice:

• How does intuition feel in my body?

• Where in my body is it located?

• How do I feel when I follow those pings?

PS- if you know your Human Design, this where you learn about your authority and apply it in real life. Where is your authority in your body? This will help you follow the breadcrumbs back to your intuition.

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

Song Credits: Violet Haze by Ambient Boy

Disclaimer: Breath Obsessed breathwork and meditation sessions are designed for self-exploration and personal wellness. Because this practice can activate the nervous system and bring up deep emotions or physical shifts, it may not be suitable for everyone—particularly those with a history of cardiovascular disease, epilepsy, severe psychiatric symptoms, or pregnancy. Please consult a healthcare professional before trying these practices.

**Listen to the voice note above**

Getting quiet can look differently to each person.

Consuming too much information creates too much noise clouding our ability to listen to your inner wisdom.

Sometimes we are looking for answers when we are consuming. Most likely you already have the answer within you because your soul has done this before. Your soul has lived before.

Your soul wants to communicate with you. When I do intuitive readings—the soul says I have been trying to communicate with you. You are missing the messages

Your job today is to create more space.

For me it looks like:

driving to and from work in silence

meditating

getting up before my kids

working out before my kids get up

How can you create more space today! I’d love to hear it!

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

***Listen to the voice note above***

I wanted to take the time to really dissect this message that I received at 3am upon waking from a dream….

'there is power in waiting'

But what does that really mean?

it depends

It depends on where you are in your life

Have you planted the seeds yet?

I am someone who continually moves goal posts. I don’t take time to just enjoy or ride the wave of the previous achievement.

Waiting can be an active state of integration. This is where I receive the message. This where clarity comes.

Take a moment to reflect:

where are you right now

what phase are you in?

Acknowledge the place that you are in and truly taking the time to listen and surrender to….

the power of waiting

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

AND the thing is, it didn’t have to be this difficult OR did it?

After lots of physical therapy and googling my symptoms—It’s took me many years to figure this out.

If you continue to ignore the cues from the universe, the ones that start off subtle and then turn into total restructuring of your life.

If you do not listen, the universe WILL find a way to make you listen.

I was ignoring the cues from my body for so long. I was diagnosed with Sjogern’s Syndrome in 2017. I didn’t take my diagnosis too seriously because I was familiar with it. Sjögren’s Syndrome is an autoimmune disease where your immune system accidentally attacks the parts of your body and most commonly affects the tear glands and saliva glands.

Symptoms include:

Joint pain

Swollen glands

Extreme fatigue that is not relieved with more sleep

Brain fog

Affects certain organs in severe cases (lungs, kidneys, nerves)

(it is often described as a ‘close cousin’ to Lupus)

My Mom, her sister and my Grandma all have Sjogern’s Syndrome. I consider myself ‘grateful’ that these women walked this path before me, they learned lots of hard lessons and gained lots of wisdom surrounding their symptoms. I was blessed to have their support and advice.

…..until I got comfortable.

My Grandma, having the worst of the disease paired with Rheumatoid Arthritis, possibly due to limited research and medicine available for her back then. My Mom and Aunt have less aggressive symptoms than my Grandma.

I took this as that I am invincible. I can do it all because if my Mom and Aunt have it to a lesser degree then, I believed I would too.

I started following all of the advice on Instagram from fitness professionals as one naturally does lol.

I subscribed to the high protein, heavy lifting/HIIT agenda.

Until I began developing severe pain in my hips. I didn’t listen and kept pushing through.

Squats with dumbbells

Lunges with dumbbells

Leg lifts with dumbbells

I kept pushing through despite the pain because I believed with my diagnosis, that I would have pain no matter what.

I had pain in both hips when walking up the stairs, or just walking in general. I noticed swelling in both hips as well. I assumed it was from the workouts but did that stop me?

Nope.

Yoga has always been a constant for me in my young adult and adult life. No matter what stage of life I was in, I found tremendous peace in yoga.

Yoga feels like a massage for my body but I felt like I had to push through and lift weights.

At this time, I was also doing HIIT exercises (jumping, burpees, squat jumps, plank thrusts) in addition to heavy lifting.

Finally, it got to the point the pain was so severe, I could not do any of it anymore—just yoga.

Yoga has always been there for me, through it all. I denied my body’s messages and cues just because I thought a woman in my 30’s had to workout like this. I didn’t think there was an option to do anything else if I wanted to look a certain way.

So I went to several specialists to get an answer. I was given the run around. X rays revealed mild arthritis in BOTH hips. These specialists told me that the severe pain was from MILD arthritis because I have Sjogern’s Syndrome.

And yes, the arthritis has likely formed due to Sjogern’s Syndrome. When the pain first started, I assumed it was from that as well. But when you look at the X ray even the term ‘mild arthritis’ is subjective. It was so hard to even see.

It wasn’t until everything was taken away from me–not being able to lift or do any HIIT workouts for that matter that I had to truly listen. Something was not right although at the time, I didn’t realize it would take me several years to get to the bottom of it.

The timeline:

Pain started November 2020

First specialist appointment: August 2021

Official Diagnosis: September 2025

The official diagnosis: bilateral gluteus medius tear and bilateral gluteus minimus tear

Yup.

I thought that following “professional” advice online for the general public applied to me when in reality, I know this about myself—my body does not respond like it does for the majority.

But Why didn’t I follow my intuition?

I wanted the goal—I was focused on the end result for my body to look a certain way. I didn’t care to listen to my body.

What did I learn:

I learned that going against my gut rarely results in the goal I am trying to achieve. In fact, it makes it worse.

It took lots of physical therapy, discipline and being okay to SLOW DOWN to heal my hips AND to be able to participate in workouts that feel aligned for my body.

I took the LONG road.

Think back to a time where you ignored your body or your intuition that may have back fired on you. Identify or reflect on why you made the choice to ignore it

Here are some reflection questions that you could ask yourself or journal on if you feel called to:

1. How does my intuition speak to me? (sensations, emotions, dreams, images, words, synchronicities)

2. What does intuition feel like in my body?

3. What does fear feel like in my body?

4. Where do I still ask others to validate what I already know?

Even I am not immune to ignoring my body, but the lesson that it taught me was a loud one AND at the same time, I am grateful for it because of what it taught me.

My body quietly whispers to me what it needs through pain AND I’m so glad it does as I NOW have the tools to respond to it.

PS–let me know if you want more ways to connect with your intuition–through breathwork, meditation or other techniques! I love talking about intuition!

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Xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

I’ve been thinking a lot about balance lately. Balance is not being perfect, its about slowing yourself down and being present.

For me, as a Mom to 3 boys finding balance looks different day to day. Depending on our schedules. But coming back to my breath and taking care of my body is what. I keep coming back to. So that looks like Kundalini/breathwork, yoga, baking (I lOVE baking).

How do you create balance in your life? I’d love to know!

xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

Song Credits: Heavenly Dreams by Ambient Boy

Disclaimer: Breath Obsessed breathwork and meditation sessions are designed for self-exploration and personal wellness. Because this practice can activate the nervous system and bring up deep emotions or physical shifts, it may not be suitable for everyone—particularly those with a history of cardiovascular disease, epilepsy, severe psychiatric symptoms, or pregnancy. Please consult a healthcare professional before trying these practices.

I have been sitting with the feeling of belonging.

Recently I was at a gathering with newer people and I was worried about how I would be received.

What should I wear?

Should I straighten my hair?

What bag should I bring?

Am I too weird?

Do my clothes fit their vibe?

Here is the thing— we all came from different backgrounds and it turns out we all had a lot in common. Being a Mom was what brought us all together. We exchanged stories of meltdowns and worrying about our middle children. We were united in the fact that we all want connection AND we want more out of life.

Why did I put so much pressure on myself to fit in?

I ended up straightening my hair, I didn’t switch bags and used my ‘everyday’ non designer bag. On the drive over, I asked myself why I care so much, I love who I am in my own space and how true I am to myself. I show up as me and I love it that way.

Being in new spaces since I was young is something I always struggled with—internalizing everything.

Am I the shortest girl in the room?

Am I the biggest girl in the room?

I was never thin and not very over weight but I was always self conscious of my size. Growing up in the 90’s, diet culture really drilled unhealthy habits that I am still working through in my early 40’s.

Working out as punishment has been the hardest one to let go of. I would go to the gym not to feel good inside my body, but because I had a cheat meal.

I first joined the gym in high school to drop weight from my first bout with prednisone (a steroid that I was on several times a year and has plagued me with weight gain since I was a teenager due to uncontrolled asthma). I have been on prednisone so much that I developed cataracts in both eyes in my mid 30’s from long term steroid use.

Feeling good in my body is something that I have struggled with since I was young even before prednisone. I can’t pin point where it comes from. My Mom never talked bad about herself or her body.

Why does size matter so much?

I have always been well liked, lots of friends but still felt like an outsider. I’ve realized recently that I was the one that put myself on the outside.

It was me the whole time holding myself back.

fear of taking up space—

This is something that we hear a lot of. I’ve spent some time thinking about this for me, from my perspective.

I don’t have a fear of taking up space. I’m not afraid of being too loud or too much because I am not a life of the party kind of girl—which has taken me LONG time to be ok with that.

For me, I don’t feel the need or call to share with everyone. As someone who has lived in her head most of her life–I share with myself, OVER and OVER again. I take a part and analyze within myself mostly….outside of the times I bring my husband, Joe into the conversation.

I think that is why I have developed a strong sense of intuition, of following my gut because I know myself. I have turned everything over in my head more than I can count.

And when I do feel the need to share, it’s usually with people who get me.

Being around others who are loud, dominate the conversation, or need to have the conversation loop back to them is something that has always gotten under my skin.

But why?

I find it frustrating that I will spend a considerable amount of time with said people and they will not ask me one question about my life and talk about themselves the entire time. It upsets me because I internalize, that they don’t care to know what goes on in my life.

Joe will always bring me back down to Earth with:

What would you have wanted to share with them so badly if they actually let you talk?

My response:

*Silence*........nothing. I don’t have anything that needs to be shared or that I want to share as strongly as they do.

And that’s the thing—its not that I am withholding because I don’t want to share with these people, it’s just that I don’t NEED to share as badly as they do. I am coming to recognize that some people just need to let things off of their chest, they move through stress differently than I do AND that is ok.

And it doesn’t mean that they don’t care about me or that they don’t care to know about me, it’s just a blind spot of theirs that I am becoming more empathetic accepting of (it’s a work in progress for sure)!! And I can get better at interjecting about myself if I feel called to.

what does my astrology chart say about this?

I am not an astrology expert, I am a forever astrology student. Flash forward to my awakening, I decided to take a deeper dive into my astrology chart. You can look up your chart here.

I decided to focus on Chiron. Chiron is a small planet often referred to as "the wounded healer”. Chiron is part asteroid, part comet. It is our deepest and emotional wound and is also how we come to heal others based on our experience with said wound.

In Greek Mythology, Chrion was a Centaur (half man, half horse). Chiron was highly skilled in many things including medicine. Hercules accidentally shot Chiron with his arrow that was poisonous.

Because Chiron was immortal, he couldn’t die and suffered in pain despite having a background in medicine, he was not able to heal himself. He lived in an agonizing pain, a constant loop until he made a deal to trade his immortality to free Prometheus (another immortal) from perpetual pain. Thus Chiron became known as “the wounded healer”.

An astrology chart or zodiac wheel is divided into 12 parts known as houses. Each house represents different themes. Find where you Chiron is in your chart (your core vulnerability)—specifically which house and which signs occupy that house.

Chiron will magnify the theme of the house that it is located in. Each house has a shadow side and light side.

Find which house Chiron is in and which sign occupies that house.

The house tells you where in the environment that the wound triggers you.

The sign tells you how the wound shows up in your emotions, energetically and physically.

For me, Chiron is in 11th house in Taurus. The 11th house is the house of community, friendships, networks, hopes and dreams. Taurus represents security, physical and emotional energy and the physical body.

The shadow side or wounded healer with Chiron in Taurus in 11th house shows up as:

• Insecurity of belonging

• Fear of instability in both health and wealth

• Feeling ungrounded

• Taurus rules the physical body—if I overextend myself it will show up in my physical body (hello autoimmune flares and asthma flares)

• Body image and insecurity around self (spot on)

The Light of Chiron in Taurus in the 11th house: (this is how I can use my shadow side of Chiron to help myself and help others)

• I am empathetic to creating safe spaces for others to gather and feel seen because I know what it is like to feel vulnerable socially

• Ability to help others ground and find stability (hello breathwork classes)

How I use this information in my daily life: I now have an awareness of my sensitivity to feel belonged. When it shows up in my life, I address it and have a chat with myself—respectfully. I sprinkle the Light of my Chiron gift into my offerings and the communities I create and participate in. Thanks, Chiron!!!

Find where Chiron is in your chart (house and sign) and see how it applies to you.

PS—if you are interested in learning more about Chiron, I recommend reading The Chiron Effect

How can you use your wounded healer to heal both yourself and help the collective? Let me know!

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xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

Why has ‘niching down’ been so hard for me? I do not like being put into a box. I have always identified as being someone on the outside. I am not a “city girl”, I am a “just outside of the city girl”. I like being close enough but not directly inside. This is why the advice of sticking to one lane has been so paralyzing for me.

Without leaning too heavily into Human Design, I am a Manifesting Generator which means my ideas, my interests flip flop a lot. I am not a flighty person; it’s just part of who I am.

Before I found Human Design, I knew this about myself. It’s probably the one thing that frustrates my husband the most about me (he is a Generator, which means he picks one thing and makes a beautiful craft out of it AND for reference, he doesn’t really subscribe to Human Design). I love him beyond anything, but he just can’t get past his logical brain. He looks at it as, ‘why do I need something to tell me what my design type is when I know how I am’.

And he isn’t wrong. That is how I operated before my soul decided to wake up. I always had a deep understanding of who I am and how I operate. Thanks to Human Design and a deeper understanding of astrology, I now have a deep understanding of why I drop abandon an idea mid-creation. I now have the words for it.

I never saw myself as getting married. The idea of being with one person for the rest of my life felt so suffocating to this Manifesting Generator and Gemini sun. This doesn’t mean that I want to sleep around, it just means the thought of sticking with this ONE decision for the rest of my life feels scary to someone who likes to change their mind…OFTEN! We have been married 13 years now— I obviously got over that feeling, thankfully.

Another interesting example of my design–is picking out paint colors. I get extremely stressed at the idea of picking paint colors (anyone else or is just me lol). I freeze like a deer in headlights. I realize it may sound strange but choosing one paint color feels so FINAL to me. I struggle with finality (big time). I want to be able to change often. Of course I can change the paint whenever I want, but painting is so final to me (you have to cover everything up, rearrange furniture and with 3 kids it is not that easy to just change whenever I want).

Picking out furniture has the same effect on me

Hanging pictures on the wall…and I could go on….

L-I-T-E-R-A-L-L-Y

As a kid, I started and quit extra curricular activities.

Piano lessons—I stopped after 3

Dance lessons—I started and quit right before the recital 3 years in a row LOL

Basketball—I made it through one season

I was willing to try anything but if I wasn’t feeling it, NO ONE could force me. And believe me, my parents tried lol

I always chalked up my start and quit attitude to being a Gemini sun which I’m sure it plays a role as well but in the 80’s and 90’s that’s all we had access to in astrology— our sun signs. My Mom always blamed it on me being a Gemini (she and several of her family members are all Taurus).

And just for fun—- 2 out of 3 of my boys are Taurus Suns and one is a Gemini Sun.

What I’m trying to say is—-When you look at my Substack posts, I talk about various topics but the common thread is this:

It all goes back to this one thing….nervous system regulation.

I find it funny as an Occupational Therapist, I have spent half of my career helping kids regulate their nervous system. Now, as an adult, I use nervous system regulation as a gateway to…

• My soul

• My health and specifically living healthy with an autoimmune disease

• My intuition

• Spiritual awakening

• Channeling

• Sharing spiritual gifts with clients

• Being an overall good human

• Being present and patient in all aspects of my life but especially as a mother

Without regulating my nervous system through daily breathwork and meditation/Kundalini, I would not have been able to open my channel as quickly as it did.

If my brain is scattered, if I am not able to sit in silence, at least for me, I would not be able to receive messages. Sure, I could still connect with my gut feelings before all of this and see signs. But the connection is stronger, I don’t have to wait for gut punches anymore.

This is what you can expect from me on Substack. Here are the content pillars, the foundation of my Substack, including but not limited to…. (thanks to not wanting to be boxed in lol).

Nervous System Regulation: This pillar is the quiet work, the reason I am on Substack in the first place. It is my driving force. Once I felt what it was like living with a regulated nervous system, I felt the need to share this with the world.

• Breathwork and Meditation (We will dive into techniques and the science behind it)

• Kundalini

• Daily routines to cultivate nervous system regulation

• Audio meditations

• Nervous system regulation and parenting/motherhood

Spirituality: Spirituality is obviously very broad. I will share all things spiritual on my journey through my lived experience. As a community we can help expand each other in this area.

• All things consciousness

• All things awakening

• Infusing spirituality in daily life

• Channeling/intuitive readings

• Spiritual Poems

• Connecting to source

• Exploring spiritual gifts

• Developing community around our spiritual gifts

• Spirituality and parenting

Personal Development/Growth: This pillar is all about how I integrate my healing into my daily life/routines.

• I’ll share what am I listening to at the moment (podcasts, audiobooks)

• Inspirational stories/quotes or submission from the community

• Wellness trends

• Living with autoimmune and my approach/journey with it

Expressing your art: This pillar is all about moving past the fear of being seen and letting your soul speak. I will help you access your creative flow, develop your unique art form, and use expression as a powerful tool for self healing and connection.

• Exploring and developing your art

• How to use your art for self expression (similar to how I use poetry)

• How to connect with your creative flow while incorporating the above pillars.

This will evolve over time but I wanted to give you a framework, a snippet of the interests we will cover and a better understanding I throw some curve balls!

Which pillar/s are you most excited about? Reply and let me know!

PS- I am soooo excited you are here! I want this to be an open community where we build each other up and learn form each other.

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Xo Amy | Breath Obsessed

I stumble and groove
Until its time to make my move
I came across your shadow
And you got me with your arrow
Don’t free me now just for your sorrow
I’m your conscience
Your lived essence in a bottle

I granted you your wishes
But you forgot for which you came
Yet what remains is not the same
Your kingdom has been rearranged

Truth be told
I’m not what you behold
The dream is within
The shared space of this dimension
Finally we no longer have tension

This poem is the evolution of the soul peaking through, emerging through the ego. The wishes of the ego were not what it seemed. It’s funny how all along they wanted the same dream.

If you are reading this, you are on a spiritual path of healing where the ego and the soul intersect. This is the greatest work of your lifetime. Enjoy the ride!