But never 2s or 8s.

I didn’t even like writing them down here.



something about icebergs, sitting patient in far away water

seems akin to my

1 - television remotes, 

2 - bank accounts, 

3 - likes on a post, 

4 - street addresses.

5 - fuck, i need one more.



I used to draw shapes on the floor with my toes to match the rage music videos.



my breath catching if my account is 1 over a 7.



An obsession with purity, rubber gloves hanging doleful, and

pegged to a line of string. 





I’m sick of diagnoses so I just let this fact be. 
pasting icebergs on my wallpaper, so that patient purity
can slip    to me. 

• b.n.h 2026

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An article on mice in a cardboard box, flinching descendants.

Hysteria, famine, transportation, bright metal rain,

all peppering my screen as I absorb a flood through my skin.



A priest thrown out of a house,

a tremor in a vein that clutches around poached blood

that has long since stopped pulsing.



A whip wielded and welded to our hundred hands,

A garage filled with glowing nick-nacks and recipe books that explode in slow motion.

A cruelty inflicted, grinding them into our DNA.



Where I’ve come from is war,

my ancestors and descendants blur to one blistering being,

as we move through these shots day after day.



The mice keep flinching, the authors report, and the cardboard box they scuttle in, is being reinforced.

                                                                      - b.n.h 2026

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the sounds of people eating through a microphone,

i’m clipped to a lapel.

big jack vs big mac vs taglietelle vs a lymph node cell.


deserve, 

      nutrition, 

                joy, 

mmmhmmm. 



a growl remains to outmanouevre, and resubmerge.


chewing reverb in a mug, prop them up in a bell-jar, afar.

fennel seeds drift in water to spiral a start 

again, 


            start 

again.


- b.n.h 2026

bloated metal dragging the road and its surrounds into its exhaust,

turning the concrete to a soothing algorithm chosen by elon musk

that melts through speakers on auto de-frost.



swelling to cuff the children walking past on a path around their necks,

and snorting at scratched flimsy tin skins,

an anchor, a fungus furred and roiling dust-coat.



if someone’s inflammation bulges greater than theirs,

they work harder for a distension that can gulp everyone else whole.

Settle calmly in a warmer seat - much warmer - thank god it’s warmer,

rapidly filling with pus.

b.n.h 2026

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How freeing it is to fail.
Things I never wanted to be good at.

Wiping my hand on the grease on a silver doorknob and scratching myself into the walls of places I’ve ever been
Agree with my whole heart the criticism and complaints

I’ve really never been better. Pushing store bought wilting cut stems into the sun.

• b.n.h 2026

  

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• b.n.h 2026

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When I panic the dog starts rushing and barking at the fence line, at nothing and no one and the cat mews to be let out, panicked too, scratching at the walls only to ask to be let back in when I’ve calmed down and it’s because I’m wired up, the two of them, like when the cat runs across the deck three seconds before rain starts falling - whiskers sensing change in the atmosphere.

• b.n.h 2026

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