The transition into this new lifestyle and version of myself, has been shockingly easy - and I’ve truly been the happiest I’ve ever been 🥹 It just further proves that when you ask God / The Universe / Spirit (whomever you resonate with) for answers and then open yourself up to receive … life falls together in mysterious but beautiful ways.

by SZLO

I'm going back to a "normal" job after 6 years

6 years ago (almost to the date), I made the decision to leave my soul-sucking 9-5 and pursue an unconditional path. I had no real plan, just a whole lot of ambition and faith that I would find a way…

Read more

2 months ago · 10 likes · 8 comments · by SZLO

BUT, ANYWAYS!! Near the end of that post, I shared that I’m honouring the version of me 10 years ago who felt a huge sense of purpose writing about the undeniable experiences I have gone through in life and what it’s like to simply be human.

I’ve been taking my time to really sit with the direction I want to take in this new journey, and how I desire to build this newsletter-blog into something I’m proud of - something that represents the real me.

And that clarity has come … so this is me reintroducing myself and what you can expect from me moving forward!

I am not someone that thrives off having a “niche” and putting myself into a box. I’m here to express myself, and that comes with expressing all parts of me…

• The nerd who is obsessed with the brain and how past trauma shapes our current lived reality.

• The woman working an executive position in finance.

• The boss-bitch who loves entrepreneurship and desires to build something meaningful.

• The little girl in me who experienced parental narcissistic abuse and who has had to learn how to build back her self image.

• The conspiracy theorist who believes our world is being run by PDF’s who built corrupt systems designed to limit our potential and take away our power.

• The “woo woo weirdo” who doesn’t believe in coincidences and thinks that we are all divinely guided by a higher power.

So, rather than picking one thing to become an “expert” in, I’m embracing who I am as a whole, because I simply want to write about being human, and to have a space where I can be nothing but myself.

With that being said …

Welcome to “by SZLO” a newsletter with multiple personalities. Just a little bit of anything and everything with one core message: reclaiming power.

Here is a breakdown of the different ways you can tune in!

Free subscribers have access to

• All public posts

Paid subscribers receive all free content plus

• Deep personal reflections, frameworks and practical tools

• Any and all subscriber-only posts and full archive

Founding members receive all free and paid content for an entire year, plus

• Exclusive, immediate access to OVERRIDE, THE SIMULATION, and THE LIBRARY. Your all-in-one place to start understanding the mechanics of change and rewiring the self-sabotaging patterns keeping you stuck (valued at over $500)

Subscribe now

Whichever way you choose to tune in, I’m happy you’re here - and thank you for supporting me on this new journey 🙏🏼

First article in this rebrand is coming soon!!

The last 6 years have been the most transformative time of my life. I truly believe I followed a gut instinct (even if it seemed foolish from an outsiders perspective) and it led me to where I am today: more intelligent, wise, confident, independent, and faithful that things are always working out the way they are meant to - something 6-years-ago-me had a really difficult time believing.

This journey of entrepreneurship changed me for the better and guided me to grow into a version of myself I didn’t even know was possible (I’m tearing up as I say that lol). I gained skills, knowledge, friendships, experience, and most importantly … a sense of who I am at the core. Before this journey, I was a shell of a human. I had no voice, no opinions of my own, no idea who I was or what I wanted my life to look like if no one was there to tell me what it should look like. And taking that massive risk to pursue something outside the “norm” was the first thing I had ever done for no one other than myself. I don’t regret it for a single second.

But these last 10 months, a voice has been trying to get my attention, and I’ve been ignoring it. Until 4 weeks ago.

But first, let’s back track here for a second:

10 years ago when I dropped out of my college program for audio engineering, and came to the conclusion that my life-long dream of music just wasn’t for me anymore … I spent a really long time trying to figure out what I was interested in. What my “purpose” was and how I was meant to express my soul and my creativity (I swear I came out of the womb knowing a traditional 9-5 was not the route I was ever going to take).

And amongst all that trial and error, I found myself being most excited about the anonymous blog I started. Where I would write about my experiences with a narcissistic mother. A drug-addicted father who I felt abandoned by. The loneliness I felt, the lessons I was learning in real time, the thoughts that wouldn’t leave my mind. At the time, it felt like that blog was for no-one but me.

A few years later I began learning about the brain and the power it holds over your entire life experience. And how you can change the way it’s wired to change the way you experience life. To say I fell in love is an understatement. I knew I needed to find a way to pursue this passion and my talent of being able to take the complexity of the brain and turn it into tangible information, to help people. So I entered the world of the online space, and quickly grew a following of over 100k people in under 3 months. But, like any other entrepreneur, I needed to find a way to monetize so that I could make a living. So what did I do? I turned to coaching, because it’s what everyone else was doing. I believed it was the only way for me to help people and still be able to make a living without having to work a shitty job that robbed me of the freedom I was craving.

I thought it was a win-win. I got to make an impact and make a living. The work felt meaningful and it paid my bills.

But as I’ve grown and the more in-tune I’ve become with my soul, the voice inside me kept getting louder and louder: “This isn’t how you’re supposed to use your voice.”

I’ve openly shared with you guys before (recently) that I wasn’t feeling aligned with all the “how to’s” or heavy science-backed content anymore. And I have spent the last almost year, feeling so deeply unaligned and confused on how to move forward and what step to take next. I began to dread creating offers, marketing offers, having a week of scheduled calls, and (quite literally) everything to do with coaching. Other than my clients themselves - I LOVE my clients and feel so blessed to have such close friendships with all of them and to have been the one to guide them into major life shifts.

But I felt trapped, because the mere thought of going out and getting another 9-5 where I would take orders from someone all day and lose any ounce of the freedom (both mental and physical) I created in the last 6 years … gave me nightmares.

So I turned to the Divine. I asked God, the Universe, and my Angels (whoever would listen lmao), to give me some answers. And a few weeks later, an undeniable opportunity landed in my lap. A leadership role helping my best friends family build an incredible business. Without a single doubt, I took it.

And what happened after that? All the answers came to me. In fact, they flooded so quickly and so clearly, I spent 3 whole days crying. Everything made me cry. But here’s what God told me….

I had spent the last 6 years building a business off survival. The constant unconscious need to ensure I was making enough money to pay my bills and still have more to build a future for myself, was over-powering my judgement of what’s actually aligned and what’s not. Because the second I was presented with an opportunity where I wouldn’t have to worry about those things, every single desire to do what I’m doing right now, flew out the window at a 200km/hour speed. I’m talking ZERO ounce of desire.

Building a business off a foundation of survival, forced me to unconsciously build a business that wasn’t truly aligned. Because let me tell you something … feeling a massive sense of relief to never have to do something ever again, is probably not a sign that you’re walking a path you’re meant to be on (LOL).

So as I’ve settled into this job for the last 6 weeks, I’ve taken some time to reflect on what this means for my business and what direction I’m taking next - now that it won’t be built off a foundation of survival.

And the answer? I’m quitting my coaching business, and I’m going back to that version of me 10 years ago who felt a huge sense of purpose writing about the intense, crazy, wild and undeniable experiences I have gone through in life. What it’s like to lose and rebuild your identity after being raised by a narcissist. What it’s like to have no-contact with a parent. Moving through grief. Feeling misunderstood. The experience of just simply being human.

Because I’ve now come to realize something: that blog I started 10 years ago wasn’t just for me - it has the ability to make others feel more seen and heard in their lives too. And that is the definition of making an impact.

Do I think I took the wrong path all these years? Hell no. The path I took may have not been my forever path, but it taught me the skills and knowledge I needed to learn to excel at the path that really is aligned with me. It held the largest purpose in all of this. The value I am now able to bring to my writing after acquiring all this knowledge on the brain … will allow me to help those who resonate with my story to actually transform their own lives too. The experience and knowledge I have running and building a business … I know what to do and what not to do this time. The confidence and belief I have in myself now … is never going to allow me to follow the crowd or do something just because it’s what everyone is doing, ever again.

I needed these last 6 years of experience, to help me actually build something more aligned. Everything always holds a purpose, never doubt your path.

So anyways … this is a new chapter for me. And to say I’m excited is an understatement. If you’ve been here from the beginning, thank you. And I hope you’ll stick around on this new journey of mine!

I hope to bring you weekly (or biweekly) posts on reclaiming power, navigating the highs and lows of being human, and how I’m moving through trauma and rebuilding myself after 3 decades of being in survival. Will I still talk about the power of the brain? Absolutely - but not in a “tips and tricks, how to” kind of way. That shit is so boring to me now - I’m craving depth.

Alongside personal experience, I will also continue sharing the reclamation of personal authority when it comes to the systems we live amongst. This new direction has everything to do with taking your power back - whether that’s from the cages of your mind, the people close to you who made you feel small, or the societal norms and systems that have made you feel powerless.

I hope to inspire you, make you feel seen, and show you that vulnerability is the catalyst to building autonomy over your life.

XO,

JSZLO.

Subscribe now