ROOM TO BREATHE

Canary Vale — Remixed by CYMM3TRY

This project came from one artist finding another artist.

It is art inspiring art.

I am so appreciative of CYMM3TRY and the work he put into showcasing my lyrics in such an amazing way. Having someone else take something I wrote and add his own sound, and build an entire project around them has been incredibly fucking cool.

I love how it turned out. I think you will too.

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ACT I: The Hook & Introduction

Bright, euphoric liquid rollers with soaring vocal hooks and high-energy 2-step drums.

01. Sunlight in My Lungs (Album Opener)

Sunlight in My Lungs was written after my husband of 10 years asked for a divorce. After years in a physically and emotionally abusive relationship, I didn’t feel sad that the marriage was ending.

I felt relieved.

02. Don’t Ask

Don’t Ask was so much fun to write. I wrote this lyric during an extremely stressful point in my life. I wanted everyone to just handle their own shit and leave me alone.

I wanted something I could dance around to in my car on my way home from work, because that was basically my only “me” time.

03. Sail Away

Sail Away was written about my Substack crush. The lyrics came from actual phone conversations with him about my relationship anxiety, my general anxiety, and what it felt like to have this person I was leaning on take all of my spirals and loops with a grain of salt.

Eventually, I became comfortable enough to stop trying to solve everything and just be in the moment.

To sail away with him.

04. Simply Because

Simply Because is another lyric written about my Substack crush.

This one is about liking someone for who they are—not because of what they do for you.

Simply because.

05. If You Wanted To

If You Wanted To is a personal favorite.

I wrote it about wanting another person to choose you in very specific ways. The problem is, you can’t just tell them what you want, because then you’ll always wonder whether they chose it because they genuinely wanted to—or because you asked them to.

ACT II: Late-Night & Introspective

Sub-heavy, atmospheric 174 BPM grooves exploring overthinking and vulnerable reflections.

06. 2:17 AM

2:17 AM is a lyric inspired by ’s Loud Love.

I wrote it after a conversation about my brain’s weird tendency to find patterns, loop through them, and attach meaning to them—and how that connected to some of the things he writes about.

I felt understood.

2:17 AM became a pretty good metaphor for that entire anxiety cycle of patterns and loops.

07. The Lies I Tell Myself

The Lies I Tell Myself came from a writing prompt another Substack user posted asking people to write a “list poem.” I am so sorry, because I cannot remember who posted it now.

I made a list of the lies I tell myself.

Then I turned the list into lyrics.

08. I Don’t Lie

I Don’t Lie—another favorite of mine—is about reaching your breaking point while simultaneously trying to convince everyone else, and yourself, that you haven’t.

It is about not knowing how to ask for help—or even knowing what anyone could possibly do if you did.

I wrote it after someone else’s therapist looked at everything happening in my life and said, “You have a lot going on. How are you still getting out of bed?” and, “Most people wouldn’t be able to do it.”

09. Delicately

Delicately is about wanting to have hope but not trusting it.

It’s about holding onto that last little sliver of hope left in you, showing it to someone else, and saying:

Okay, now be delicate with it.

It’s all I have left.

10. I Love Myself

I Love Myself was written because my ex used to say, “No one else is going to love you if you don’t love yourself.”

The thing is, I did love myself.

I do love myself.

I just happen to love some of the parts of me other people tend to become exhausted by or take advantage of.

That’s where a lot of the hurt comes from.

I needed a lyric that explained that.

11. Time Will Tell

Time Will Tell became a shorthand phrase between me and my Substack crush.

I have a tendency to want to know how things are going to play out. I want to solve for certainty even though, logically, I know certainty doesn’t exist.

This lyric came from that fear of uncertainty—and from having to accept that sometimes you really do just have to let time tell, because nothing else is going to make you believe something is real or true.

ACT III: Peak Floor & Tension

Raw, high-octane energy featuring punchy drum lines, driving analog synth stabs, and heavy contrast.

12. Addicted

Addicted is a lyric written about my therapist saying I sound like an addict.

No, really.

I attach hard relationally. That is evident in pretty much every relationship I have, but especially romantic ones. I fall hard and fast.

Obviously, that can be concerning.

However, I am also extremely self-aware, and I wanted that awareness to count for something. I wanted to keep my autonomy.

Just because I have a tendency to attach does not automatically make the feeling—or the relationship—less real.

This lyric is basically me saying:

Yeah, you might be right about me.

But also…

13. Pull My Hair

Pull My Hair sounds like a sex song.

Sure.

But the lyric was actually written about how your brain can become rewired after sexual trauma—and how sometimes that can make something sweeter or gentler feel harder to trust.

14. Production Value

Production Value was written about onscreen female nudity and my relationship with it.

It takes the things I’ve learned from society, experiences in my own life, and the messages I’ve absorbed over the years and asks why I am so affected by it.

It also questions what role I play in the problem.

15. Running Out of Oxygen

Running Out of Oxygen is about those relationship arguments where the thing you’re technically arguing about isn’t actually the argument.

The real argument is happening underneath it.

It’s fear—and all the reactions that come from that fear.

16. Keepin’ Composure

Keepin’ Composure was written about a day when I was at work and received one of the worst phone calls of my life about a horrible and stressful situation involving my child.

I had a panic attack.

Five minutes later, I was speaking in that annoying customer-service voice, giving a tour of the property I manage, making social media videos for work, and continuing to take care of all the normal life things.

I wrote this lyric about that ability to keep my composure because I didn’t really have another choice.

Bills still needed to be paid.

Kids still needed to be fed.

Etc.

17. Terms and Conditions

Terms and Conditions is a lyric about acceptance.

It really is that simple.

We all have our own set of terms and conditions, and everyone likes to “scroll” right past them.

This lyric is about going beneath the label.

Beneath the surface.

It’s about seeing and being seen.

ACT IV: Narrative & Darker Storytelling

Cinematic, deep-liquid territory with powerful lyrical arcs and shifting dynamic builds.

18. The Shadowman

The Shadowman is an earlier lyric of mine and holds such a special place for me.

I wrote it about depression in boys.

I knew a boy who really struggled with the idea that boys shouldn’t need therapy or medication—that boys didn’t get depression.

Then one day, he finally came to me and asked for help.

I wrote The Shadowman the next day.

This is one of those lyrics I hope people pay attention to and share.

I hope this one gets held the way I intended for it to be.

19. Mama

Mama was a tough write.

Anyone who knows me or has been following me knows my mom died from an overdose on my birthday.

I wrote this lyric ten years later about the guilt I had been carrying, the feeling of having to lose her a little more every day, and my inability to completely move on after losing her.

It wrestles with the “what if.”

If I had not been born, would she have been found in time to be saved?

Logically, I know her death was not my fault.

Emotionally, my brain sometimes likes to torture me with questions like that.

The lyric is me working through it.

20. Cruel or Kind?

I wrote Cruel or Kind? after a conversation about what we wanted done at our funerals.

The person I was talking to had this fucked-up idea about having his ashes mixed into spaghetti and served at his memorial.

I didn’t really care what happened to my body.

What I realized I do care about is what happens to The Cage. My work.

I want the people standing at my funeral pretending to cry and talking about whichever tiny version of me they happened to know to eventually find all of it.

I want them to realize how blind they were to me.

And also how right they were about me.

I still don’t know whether wanting that is cruel or kind.

21. You’re Welcome

You’re Welcome was written after I got a thank you one Mother’s Day for raising my son after seventeen years of doing it alone.

It wasn’t written from resentment.

It was written from a moment of shock.

That thank you framed my life like it had been a choice I made in hopes of earning gratitude someday.

As if there had been another option I weighed.

As if loving my child, staying, and raising him alone were acts of generosity instead of necessity.

As if I would have chosen anything else.

ACT V: Resolution & Golden Hour

Euphoric, grounding, and atmospheric tracks bringing the 25-track journey to a memorable close.

22. Homestead

Homestead is a lyric about the good things that can come from terrible situations.

It’s about rape, keeping the baby, and raising the best human.

It’s about something painful becoming the beginning of something I would never want to lose.

23. After Midnight

I originally wrote After Midnight for New Year’s Eve.

I just wanted to write a fun lyric for the holiday.

Naturally, it turned into something a little deeper.

It’s about The Cage and learning how to remain myself in uncertainty instead of needing everything to be resolved before I can keep living.

It’s about going into a new year knowing that whatever happens, I can always fall back into my writing and this little universe I built here.

24. PS. Show Me Honesty

PS. Show Me Honesty was born from a lyric pen pal I had.

We sent old-school letters back and forth and had an entire conversation through lyrics.

This particular letter was about my feelings on religion and spirituality.

I don’t really find religion in the traditional sense.

I find it in witnessing something real and honest.

That is where I find faith.

25. The Last Song (Album Closer)

The Last Song came from those thoughts I sometimes have about what people will say about me when I die.

What will they remember?

What parts of me will stick with them?

What version of me will they tell stories about?

So I wrote a lyric about what I hope they say.

What I hope they remember.

And somehow, that feels like the right place to leave this.

Twenty-five pieces of my life, taken apart and put back together through someone else’s sound.

That’s what I love most about this project.

CYMM3TRY found my words

and gave them room to breathe.

-Canary Vale🪶

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

For my 200th lyric, I wanted to try something different, so I turned the livestream into a game of Mad Lib Lyrics and let my Cage Dwellers make some of the creative decisions.

They picked the title, mood, genre, setting, details, and a few words I had to work in. I took the chaos from the live and turned it into “Whatever Helps You Sleep.”

This was a fun way to get to 200.

Join me on my Livestream every Tuesday at 8PM ET.

I think Mad Lib Lyrics will be a regular thing and as always my Livestream’s are just a way for me to hang out with all of you.

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]

2:17 AM
And I’m still awake in my bed

Sitting here thinking
About what you said

I can hear the rain
Tapping on the glass

And see your anger
In the lightning flash

I know you have memories
That you carry too

Like how love will always
Smell like coconut for you

I heard you telling me
All of the ways you are trying

You wanted to reconcile
While you were still lyin’

You still couldn’t take
Any accountability

And I find it so convenient
How you can forget history

But I called Jasmine up
That night

Telling her back then
Something didn’t feel right

[Pre-Chorus]

I’m up too late
Just trying

To make jokes
Like I used to again

‘Til I’m reminded
That’s what our
Whole relationship’s been

[Chorus]

I find it funny

You called me up
Thinking you could come back

All I can say
Is bless your heart

‘Cause it just doesn’t
Work like that

Keep telling me
You’re sorry

But you’re the same wolf
Dressed like a sheep

I stopped counting
On you

‘Cause the pain
Runs too deep

So tell yourself
What you need to

Whatever helps you sleep
(whatever helps you sleep)

[Verse 2]

You’ve been justifying
Your need for the dark

While I spent years
Holding a candlestick

With no spark

But tonight my thoughts
Are becoming more clear

Like light refracting
From a crystal chandelier

And I know
From your side

It once felt
Like a dream

So you’ll never acknowledge
The nightmare you’ve given me

I’ve heard it said
That perception is reality

Like there’s nothing
beneath

But you can’t change the facts
With just your belief

[Pre-Chorus]

I’m up too late
Just trying

To make jokes
Like I used to again

‘Til I’m reminded
That’s what our
Whole relationship’s been

[Chorus]

I find it funny

You called me up
Thinking you could come back

All I can say
Is bless your heart

‘Cause it just doesn’t
Work like that

Keep telling me
You’re sorry

But you’re the same wolf
Dressed like a sheep

I stopped counting
On you

‘Cause the pain
Runs too deep

So tell yourself
What you need to

Whatever helps you sleep
(whatever helps you sleep)

-Canary Vsle

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

verse 1

lately life’s been looking
like a cathedral
made of echoes
and unanswered prayers

and fractured light
from windows
that change
the shape of the air

i’m brought to my knees again
out of routine
more than ritual

nothing left inside my body
and somehow
that feels biblical

pre-chorus

ooooh oh
ooooh oh
oooh oh

i don’t know
if this is sacred
or if it’s shallow

i only remember
i’m still here
when i see my shadow

chorus

and i can’t feel today
don’t want to feel tomorrow

i stopped searching for happiness
stopped holding on to sorrow

there’s nothing i want to follow

i think that’s the hardest thing to swallow

no reason to hold on
or to let go

oh, i think
i am just hollow

verse 2

i remember once a time before
when i was mesmerized
by stained glass

and when i believed in something
without feeling like
i had to ask

i don’t find sanctuary
in any of these walls

now i see it
for what it is

just something beautiful
built to hold
all of the emptiness

bridge

i remember...
though it’s been a while

holding onto hope
without calling it denial

what i once held
in reverence

has been baptized
in this indifference

pre-chorus

ooooh oh
ooooh oh
oooh oh

i don’t know
if this is sacred
or if it’s shallow

i only remember
i’m still here
when i see my shadow

chorus

and i can’t feel today
don’t want to feel tomorrow

i stopped searching for happiness
stopped holding on to sorrow

there’s nothing i want to follow

i think that’s the hardest thing to swallow

no reason to hold on
or to let go

oh, i think
i am just hollow

-Canary Vale

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]

I’ve been watching the light

move along your skin

and I’ve been memorizing the places

where your edges begin

My eyes take their time

and I ask myself, is this a dream?

‘Cause I’m seeing all of you

and I’m not sure if you’re

everything you seem

You smell like night air

a hint of weed

and clean clothes

Something warm

something dangerous

that my body wants to know

So I breathe you in slowly

and then I inhale you again

I think I am learning

temptation has a scent

[Chorus]

Mmmm, mmm

Mmmm, hmmm

I already want you in every way

that a body can recall

one sense at a time

until we blur them all

Five ways to lose my mind

five ways to make this real

Don’t make me wait another minute

I wanna know how it feels

[Post-Chorus]

Baby

I think I’m defenseless

you’re taking over

all five senses

I hear you

I see you

I feel you

I breathe you

and I’m still tastin

your kisses

you’ve taken over

all of my senses

[Verse 2]

And every inch that you touch

turns honest underneath

my body is giving away

the things my mouth won’t speak

Let me learn you with my tongue

we can let the lesson take all night

I’m not trying to find the answer

but I can still taste that I got it right

[Chorus]

Mmmm, mmm

Mmmm, hmmm

I already want you in every way

that a body can recall

one sense at a time

until we blur them all

Five ways to lose my mind

five ways to make this real

Don’t make me wait another minute

I wanna know how it feels

[[Post-Chorus]

Baby

I think I’m defenseless

you’re taking over

all five senses

I hear you

I see you

I feel you

I breathe you

and I’m still tastin

your kisses

you’ve taken over

all of my senses

[Bridge]

I hear that sound

catch in your throat

and you’re trying

not to let it out

That’s the best kind of honesty

so don’t go getting quiet now

Say my name again

let me hear what wanting does

I’ve used all five senses

and I still can’t get enough

[Final Chorus]

Mmmm, mmm

Mmmm, hmmm

I already want you in every way

that a body can recall

one sense at a time

until we blur them all

Five ways to lose my mind

five ways to make this real

Don’t make me wait another minute

I wanna know how it feels

[Post-Chorus]

Baby

I think I’m defenseless

you’re taking over

all five senses

I hear you

I see you

I feel you

I breathe you

and I’m still tastin

your kisses

you’ve taken over

all of my senses

-Canary Vale🪶

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

verse 1

we can spend a couple of hours
breaking down every wall of this tower
you can get to the last damn bit
but tell me,
what will you do with it?

’cause i was only inside of this
but i didn’t construct
the edifice
every stone that they set down
changed my views
and how i sound
so i’m asking you again
when you break the walls
can you tell me,
what will you do with it all?

chorus

the walls,
they held me like a threat
so i kept company with my silhouette
i’ve been wonderin’
can anyone tell me yet,
who am i?
because i forget...

post-chorus

i’ve been calling
myself persinette

have we met?
have we met?

please tell me that
i’m not persinette

verse 2

you say another name
that i don’t recognize
but it feels familiar
behind your eyes
like if i concentrate
on the meaning
i will see the walls
start leaning

and you let them fall
bit by bit
moving pieces while
smoking your cigarette
but tell me,
can you handle it?

chorus

the walls,
they held me like a threat
so i kept company with my silhouette
i’ve been wonderin’
can anyone tell me yet,
who am i?
because i forget...

post-chorus

i’ve been calling
myself persinette

have we met?
have we met?

please tell me that
i’m not persinette

bridge

when nothing’s left
to hold me in
where do i go then?
you say things like
i didn’t already know
like i didn’t notice
outside my window
so i am asking again
now that you
broke down my walls
what will you do with it all?

chorus

the walls,
they held me like a threat
so i kept company with my silhouette
i’ve been wonderin’
can anyone tell me yet,
who am i?
because i forget...

post-chorus

i’ve been calling
myself persinette

have we met?
have we met?

please tell me that
i’m not persinette

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Full disclosure: I don’t write happy shit often, it’s cheesy but I tried.

I am trying…

🪶

Lyrics:

Verse 1

I hadn’t sat by myself in quite some time
Usually try to avoid being alone with my mind
Try to stay busy and not mess with it
They say depression can’t hit a moving target

So I wrote some words down on the page
Started singing them from my cage
Like maybe if I gave pain somewhere to go
It wouldn’t have to be something I hold
I don’t have enough reasons to be okay
So I move forward in my own little ways

Chorus

Today I’m going to appreciate the little things
Little things, little things
The bigger ones just get way too overwhelming

I need a break from holding it in
And ignoring them
And from panicking
So I’m going to appreciate the little things

Verse 2

Someone made something beautiful from my pain
I looked at it again and it didn’t look the same
It took a new life the way I always wish I could
And I think that’s when I finally understood

That it doesn’t take much for me to move on
Just someone noticing I’m not gone

Oooooh, wooooah
Oooooh, wooooah
I’m not gone

Chorus

Today I’m going to appreciate the little things
Little things, little things
The bigger ones just get way too overwhelming

I need a break from holding it in
And ignoring them
And from panicking
So I’m going to appreciate the little things

Bridge

I talk a lot about how I just want to exist
I don’t feel alive until I’m noticed
And that’s such a little thing that helps me through
Just knowing someone else wants me to notice too

So yeah, let’s get creative
Life should be more collaborative

Final Chorus

Today I’m going to appreciate the little things
Little things, little things
The bigger ones just get way too overwhelming

I need a break from holding it in
And ignoring them
And from panicking
So I’m going to appreciate the little things

-Canary Vale

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

verse 1

you told me

i sound like an addict

and you know

maybe that's true

but i forgot to ask

exactly what is it you think

i'm addicted to?

is it the pleasure?

or is it the pain?

aren't you aware yet,

they're one and the same?

and we both know

there's no overdose

so believe me when i say

this is much better for me than

doing it your way

pre-chorus

you say,

you've seen it

too many times before

and you're scared

i can't take anymore

but i am so good

at taking the bad

even if you're right

i'm so fuckin familiar

with being sad

chorus

heeey, i heard you

you know that i did

you made it clear

when you said

i'm so damn

addicted

yeah, the timing,

the feeling,

may seem conflicted

i've tested

wants against the need

i'm not worried

i'm not worried

verse 2

you call it dependence

i call it relief

you see me reaching for someone

and i see something underneath

i know what emptiness feels like

i've slept inside it before

so if i'm choosing the danger

at least i know exactly what it's for

maybe i'm clinging

maybe you're right about me

but it's more than that too

it's about the safety

it lives beyond the fantasy

pre-chorus

you say,

you've seen it

too many times before

and you're scared

i can't take anymore

but i am so good

at taking the bad

even if you're right

i'm so fuckin familiar

with being sad

chorus

heeey, i heard you

you know that i did

you made it clear

when you said

i'm so damn

addicted

yeah, the timing,

the feeling,

may seem conflicted

i've tested

wants against the need

i'm not worried

i'm not worried

bridge

so tell me what's better

is it the hurt or is it the cure?

if both leave a mark on me

which one is more pure?

i see your advice

and i'll pay for it too

we both already knew

what i was going to do

so give me some autonomy

to decide what's best for me

promise to let you

say i told you so

if this leads where

you say it will go

with all due respect

if i want to, i can…

i think i could quit

just tell me again,

that i sound like an addict

final chorus

i heard you

i did

you made it clear

when you said

i'm so damn

addicted

yeah, the timing,

the feeling,

may seem conflicted

i've tested

wants against the need

i'm not worried

i'm not worried

outro

if i want to, i can…

i think i could quit

just tell me again,

that i sound like an addict

-Canary Vale 🪶

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

[verse 1]

I think I told you before

I can't stand to leave

problems sitting on the floor

and you know I cried at work today

turned my chair the other way

just in case someone walked by

didn't want them to ask

cause I didn't wanna lie

your name lit up my phone

another paragraph explainin

like I wasn't understandin

after I clearly named intentions

I just wanted you to see my hurt

from where I was standin

cause I saw the timing and the need

never told you not to save them

[pre-chorus]

you were ready with a match

and I was pointing at the smoke

you said it wasn't meant to burn me

I kept telling you that I know

[chorus]

cause you don't gotta start the fire

for me to still feel it burn

I'm not gonna choke on the ashes

of what you thought you heard

I've spent way too long begging for a spark

to catch in the tinder

I can't live in the dark again

I need at least an ember

I can feel the heat

forming from the friction

we're adding gasoline

while we're running out of oxygen

running out of oxygen

I don't wanna breathe,

I know what it'll do to me

[post-chorus]

can you feel the heat?

can you feel the heat?

I'm still tryin not to breathe

[verse 2]

a bed is just a bed

with no desire,

no intent

it's not about the offer

I know what it meant

there's intimacy that is innocent

but still doesn't feel right

no one has to be wrong

for me to say what I don't like

[bridge]

I told you that you didn't care

when I meant please care louder

you told me you couldn't leave things in the air

so why am I alone with this for hours

now I'm sitting on my floor

making fires with my metaphors

I've said it so many times before

they won't believe it anymore

when again

I say

I really am

one bad thing away

from letting my life

go up in flames

[pre-chorus]

you were ready with a match

and I was pointing at the smoke

you said it wasn't meant to burn me

I kept telling you that I know

[chorus]

cause you don't gotta start the fire

for me to still feel it burn

I'm not gonna choke on the ashes

of what you thought you heard

I've spent way too long begging for a spark

to catch in the tinder

I can't live in the dark again

I need at least an ember

I can feel the heat

forming from the friction

we're adding gasoline

while we're running out of oxygen

running out of oxygen

I don't wanna breathe,

I know what it'll do to me

[post-chorus]

can you feel the heat?

can you feel the heat?

I'm still tryin not to breathe

-Canary Vale

Pangram got a second one wrong🤦🏻‍♀

CopyLeaks got it right.

My notebook is a mess, but outside of recording myself writing every piece, I don’t know how to prove my lyrics are mine🤷🏻‍♀️

I stand by if I don't take credit for AI’s work, it shouldn't take credit for mine.

This is stupid.

️

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

[verse 1]

do you like the conversation

or is it the attention

sometimes the jealousy

tells me i should make you

choose me or them

but i’ve never believed in ultimatums

and i ask myself would i care even

if i was known and not hidden

who am i kidding

there’s no winning

[chorus]

in my mind

it’s like...

if you wanted to you would

because it doesn’t feel good

if i have to tell you

i just want you to want to

like a cheap trick lyric

where i don't have to ask for it

i want to be enough

to fill that need

but there's an appetite

they're all trying to feed

[post-chorus]

and i don't know if i could

i just know if you wanted to you would

[verse 2]

and i can’t even blame you

the way that i want to

i think we all like the feelin

of being desired

i guess i can’t be mad

but maybe i’m just tired

always feeling like

i am holding the place

for someone

more interesting, with

a prettier face

[chorus]

in my mind

it’s like...

if you wanted to you would

because it doesn’t feel good

if i have to tell you

i just want you to want to

like a cheap trick lyric

where i don't have to ask for it

i want to be enough

to fill that need

but there's an appetite

they're all trying to feed

[post-chorus]

and i don't know if i could

i just know if you wanted to you would

[bridge]

i think i get it too

how the ending becomes

"it’s me, not you"

i keep sayin i know

what i really want

then lose the courage

to name these thoughts

i don’t know if i’m

asking too much

by asking to be enough

[final chorus]

in my mind

it’s like...

if you wanted to you would

because it doesn’t feel good

if i have to tell you

i just want you to want to

like a cheap trick lyric

where i don't have to ask for it

i want to be enough

to fill that need

but there's an appetite

they're all trying to feed

[post-chorus]

i don't know if i could

i just know if you wanted to you would

-Canary Vale

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics

[verse 1]

i heard you sayin’

choosin’ you today

doesn’t mean i’m stayin’

or that this won’t fall away

you’ve been the prince

too many times before

til they treated lovin’ you

like it was a chore

you’ve been conditioned now

to think somehow

you’ve always got more to do

like that’s what it takes

to make me not wanna leave you

[pre-chorus]

but baby,

i don’t wake up

having to decide

you don’t have to earn me

i’m already by your side

[chorus]

i said it and i meant it

on a tuesday afternoon

in a parking lot of orange

not worrying

if it kinda felt too soon

and i’ll say it again

and i know it might

be hard to lean into

you don’t believe it yet

and that’s okay

‘cause i believe enough for two

and one day you’ll know

That I’m not someone you’ll lose

And you don’t got nothin’ to prove

i don’t need more reasons to choose

it’s you

it’s you

oooh,

i know

why you’re thinking

about this

the way that you do

but it’s true

it’s you

simply because you’re you

[verse 2]

give me inconvenient feelings

give me ugly, give me true

let me meet the pieces

you think i can’t make it through

‘cause i can’t choose the whole man

if you only give me parts

i can’t show you i can hold them

if you keep them in the dark

we don’t have to plan forever

we can stay here in the now

but sometimes we forget to ask

what if it actually does work out somehow?

[bridge]

just let me in

i know that you know

my heart is genuine

just let me in

take off the armor

there’s nothing you need

to defend

you don’t have to show me

the prince every mornin’

just show me the man

underneath him

[pre-chorus]

and baby,

i don’t wake up

having to decide

you don’t have to earn me

i’m already by your side

[chorus]

i said it and i meant it

on a tuesday afternoon

in a parking lot of orange

not worrying

if it kinda felt too soon

and i’ll say it again

and i know it might

be hard to lean into

you don’t believe it yet

and that’s okay

‘cause i believe enough for two

and one day you’ll know

That I’m not someone you’ll lose

And you don’t got nothin’ to prove

i don’t need more reasons to choose

it’s you

it’s you

oooh,

i know

why you’re thinking

about this

the way that you do

but it’s true

it’s you

simply because you’re you

-Canary Vale

PS-

I didn't care about the AI detector at first…but twice now it has scanned a fully human written lyric as AI.

I said before the damn thing was added about 1 in 4 or 5 of my pieces scans as AI. The rest scan as human.

They are all fully human written.

AI can't even agree on what’s AI or not if you paste this into CopyLeakd it comes back 0% AI.

AI is used for formatting

And for song generation

Not for the writing.

Believe me or don't. Idgaf. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I don't take credit for AI in the music portion so I am not letting AI take my credit for the writing portion, even if it only does it every so often

For more on how I use AI please see my series “How This Was Built.”

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

[[verse 1]

last night i ate

lobster tail

off a paper plate

cause why not

i drink cheap wine

the whole bottle

of muscadine

cause i couldn’t stop

stood up on my bed

dancing by myself

laughing at the ceiling

like nobody could tell

it’s funny how emptiness

can fill a space

and how i’m not alone

cause i memorized his face

[chorus]

oooh, ooh, ooh,

i’m up past eleven pm

still talking to him

telling him ‘bout

dancing

and

collapsin

into blankets

and pillows

wishing he was here

to hold me close

oooh, ooh, ooh,

but i just pretend

i just pretend

i just pretend

i tell him what i want

and wait for permission

he just looks at me

like i don’t need to ask him

and it’s so different

i don’t remember

where the hours went

but i know

time with him

is time well spent

[post-chorus]

i miss him already

god it annoys me

but he’s not like the others

he doesn’t avoid things

i swear this time

this guy

really is different

he said so himself

i think it could’ve been

genuine

oooh, ooh, ooh,

yeah, i just pretend

i just pretend

i just pretend

i tell everyone what i want

and

wait for permission

[verse 2]

sometimes he says

something almost

believable

and he

can hear me tryin

not to smile

i roll my eyes

at hoping

cause i learned it’s

just denial

he asks me what i’m thinking

i swear i try to speak

but every sentence disappears

before it reaches me

for just a second

i could rest

without anticipating

and i wasn’t waiting

for the sky to fall

for just a second

i looked at him and

i think i felt

a little hope

after all

[final chorus]

oooh, ooh, ooh,

i’m up past eleven pm

still talking to him

telling him ‘bout

dancing

and

collapsin

into blankets

and pillows

wishing he was here

to hold me close

oooh, ooh, ooh,

but i just pretend

i just pretend

i just pretend

i tell him what i want

and wait for permission

he just looks at me

like i don’t need to ask him

and it’s so different

i don’t remember

where the hours went

but i know

time with him

is time well spent

[final post-chorus]

i miss him already

god it annoys me

but he’s not like the others

he doesn’t avoid things

i swear this time

this guy

really is different

he said so himself

i think it could’ve been

genuine

oooh, ooh, ooh,

yeah, i just pretend

i just pretend

i just pretend

i tell everyone what i want

and

wait for permission

-Canary Vale

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

[verse 1]

last night

you said you liked

the shape of my eyes

and it felt too specific

for me to call it lies

then i yawned

three times

before i confessed

"that last one made me cry"

and you said i should rest

while you laughed at me

under your breath

and watched me fall

asleep in your arms

without touching me at all

and somehow i trusted

your voice more thoroughly

than any of the hands

that had ever held me

because being held had always

turned into suffocation

and you were the first one

that ever made it feel like salvation

[chorus]

shouldn't it be simple?

and couldn't it be easy?

i just wanna know why

it takes so much effort

to be around me

cause nothing here feels

too complicated

and nothing's worth

getting that frustrated

so i keep returning

to that same old fantasy

where i just cry

and nobody

comes to try and rescue me

they just stay

and they let me be

while i allow myself

to finally

trust safety

[verse 2]

i woke up too late

feeling all of this anxiety

i was already stressing

that you'd be tired of me

i was waiting for the anger

or maybe some disappointment

or for your voice to turn

into avoidance

but you stayed so steady

like you already knew

sometimes this is just what

my mind has to do

and every word that was spoken

made room for my thoughts

instead of you telling me

to just turn my mind off

i'm still getting surprised

by the ordinary things

and how calm can exist

through every feeling

[breakdown]

maybe that's all

that i've ever been chasing

not grand gestures, not saving

not fixing, not changing

just someone

that's not quick to react

and who stays consistent

maybe i just needed someone

who could see my intent

[bridge]

baby,

do you think you could maybe

just call?

and let me hear it

in your voice

can we let the patterns

make their choice

just watch me unravel

while apologizing,

i'll fall apart

without you trying

to rebuild me

little by little

cause maybe it

was never really

about them

holding my fears

like asphyxiation

maybe it was about

finding who could

sit beside it

without deviation

[final chorus]

shouldn't it be simple?

and couldn't it be easy?

i just wanna know why

it takes so much effort

to be around me

cause nothing here feels

too complicated

and nothing's worth

getting that frustrated

i keep dreaming

of that fantasy

where i can just cry

and nobody

gets angry

they just stay

they don't leave

they don't need

a better version

of me

i just want

a place that's calm

maybe that's

what i always wanted

all along

so baby

if you're there

just call

and let me

hear it in your tone

until i fall

back into myself

without having to

fall into this alone

-Canary Vale

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

verse 1

you fell for me
quick and easy
like they always do

i told you about this
from the beginning
can't say i didn't warn you

and you said the whole of me
made you feel fifteen
said your body answered
every time you heard me speak

you called my mind original
said you liked the way it ran
until it started finding patterns
you don't understand

then you wished for me a day
where the loops would all be good
and i heard
you were already getting tired
of the thing you said you understood

pre-chorus

you say
that isn't what you meant

i say that i know

and i do, because
i've already seen
how quickly
these things come and go

chorus

it only took forty days
for novelty to die

and i only fell asleep
ruminating on this
all forty of those nights

people fall for me fast
like they already know me
then let go of me even faster
when i act like the person
i warned them i would be

i ask if you're exhausted yet
because i can see it forming
i know it's not something you're ready to admit
maybe yellow was always meant to be a warning

i want to be wrong
but you keep showing me
i was right

i make endearing
exhausting

in only forty days and forty nights

verse 2

you said
don't call you my best
like you already thought you would be

said i could outdo the others
just by being me

and i heard you say
there's no comparison
and i didn't have to compete

but words never hold the same
when the actions fail to speak

i can sense a shift
in the most subtle of ways
i know what it looks like
when interest starts to fade

because men love certainty
when it's only meant
for a moment
and coming from their own mouths

but i have heard
these words
spoken beautifully
right before somebody
started looking for a way out

pre-chorus

you say
that isn't what you meant

i say that i know

and i do, because
i've already seen
how quickly
these things come and go

chorus

it only took forty days
for novelty to die

and i only fell asleep
ruminating on this
all forty of those nights

people fall for me fast
like they already know me
then let go of me even faster
when i act like the person
i warned them i would be

i ask if you're exhausted yet
because i can see it forming
i know it's not something you're ready to admit
maybe yellow was always meant to be a warning

i want to be wrong
but you keep showing me
i was right

i make endearing
exhausting

in only forty days and forty nights

bridge

i told you
way, way, way back

my mind pulls threads
until my fingers bleed

you said
you were here for it

but i don't think you understood
i was protecting you from me

breakdown

are you tired of me yet?

would you tell me
if you were?

have you had enough?

you don't gotta answer, babe

your silence already told me
that loving me is tough

chorus

it only took forty days
for novelty to die

and i only fell asleep
ruminating on this
all forty of those nights

people fall for me fast
like they already know me
then let go of me even faster
when i act like the person
i warned them i would be

i ask if you're exhausted yet
because i can see it forming
i know it's not something you're ready to admit
maybe yellow was always meant to be a warning

i want to be wrong
but you keep showing me
i was right

i make endearing
exhausting

in only forty days and forty nights

-Canary Vale

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

Lyrics:

verse 1

i think i am disecting

every single thing

trying to decide

what i really need

i know what i don’t want

i know who i am

but i don’t know

how to trust anyone

when it always looks

the same again

i hold onto it like water

already slipping through

my fingers and my thoughts

i pick at it like flowers

where the petals tell me

that he loves me not

pre-chorus

good night

sleep tight

k?

what else is there

for me to say?

chorus

i am one bad thing away

from just calling it a day

throwing in the towel

tapping out

admitting i know nothing

that i claimed to know

everything about

what else can i say?

guess i’m one bad thing away

from not ever having

another bad day

verse 2

tell me about how

everyone has been through

some type of shit

tell me i should be better,

like i’m failing

at holding all of this

tell me your truths

and your lies,

and explanations

and excuses

so when i look back later

it paints a picture

of every warning

i chose to miss

i don’t think

we need to

figure anything out

if we only stay concerned

with what’s happening

right now

pre-chorus

good night

sleep tight

k?

what else is there

for me to say?

chorus

i am one bad thing away

from just calling it a day

throwing in the towel

tapping out

admitting i know nothing

that i claimed to know

everything about

what else can i say?

guess i’m one bad thing away

from not ever having

another bad day

bridge

i said i’d stop searching

for certainty

stop giving into

the same old ways

but this life keeps on

hurting me

and i don’t know

what to do

because even good days

are usually

only too good to be true

chorus

i am one bad thing away

from just calling it a day

throwing in the towel

tapping out

admitting i know nothing

that i claimed to know

everything about

what else can i say?

guess i’m one bad thing away

from not ever having

another bad day

-Canary Vale