My cousins used to visit during winter break, and we used to dress up, do our makeup, dance our hearts out; sometimes we even fought, but above everything, we made uncountable memories in that one room. Sometimes I feel that the day they tore down the house, that room specifically, the kid inside me got lost somewhere.

These concrete walls don’t hold the same warmth. Now the conversations with cousins have reduced to what we are thinking about doing in a life next or just scrolling side by side in silence. That ‘room’, that time will never come back; we know that now. The time when our only issue was who gets to wear the prettiest skirt today out of the ones we got to play.

There were childish yet oddly intellectual talks, dreams in our eyes, no stress about tomorrow. When I sit back and reminisce, I feel grateful for that one room in that big house. I feel so happy that I didn’t waste my childhood. I made memories, I made some mistakes and learned from them. I cried in that room. I laughed in there. Sometimes I got angry there. Some of my best and worst ideas were born there. Sometimes I isolated myself in the room to be away from the world. I grew up in that little room and its memories shaped me into who i am somehow. Whatever I am today, a little piece of me from all those years ago is still somewhere there inside me.

However, my heart also fills with quiet sadness and nostalgia because there is no trace of that place left. Now it’s gone, replaced by a concrete room where I barely enter. I love my home; I do, but that one childhood room we shared as siblings, as cousins, friends, most importantly as kids, will always be our haven. A memory I return to whenever I feel lost or a little colorless. Now it’s a place I miss that no longer exists.

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Lifestyle Vloggers:

Emma Chamberlain

I’ve been watching her since 2016, and she has been my absolute favourite. Her humour, personality, fashion sense, and the way she articulates her words and knowledge through videos, fashion, and how she represents herself without any fear of any kind of validation, I just love that. She has grown a lot through the years. She was making her daily little vlogs, and now she is starring in a movie, Forbidden Fruits, so I can say I have grown up with her. She also loves coffee and has her own brand aswell named Chamberlain Coffee. (LA-based)

Nailea Devora

She started her YouTube journey in 2019, and I have been locked in since. Her content is a mix of fun and chaotic lifestyle, story time and random day- in- her life moments. She’s sarcastic and has a witty sense of humour, and is absolutely beautiful along with everything else. She also talks about mental health and shares her stories as well. (LA-based)

Sydney Serena

She is the clean girl aesthetic for me, but she also tries her hand at new things; her unique video ideas make her day-to-day vlogs more fun. She also has her fashion and grwm vlogs, which I really enjoy watching. She has a little series on her channel called ‘alone but not lonely’ where she goes out and tries out different things, navigating the city. (NYC-based)

Melissa Estrella

I got to know about Melissa when she had a couple’s channel with her bf, but they split up after some years, though she continued on her separate channel. She has a very chic, baddie, and calm vibe to her vlogs. She was from washington but she moved recently. She is the go to youtuber if you want to know about healthy eating, fitness, and outings in the city. She also loved to read and is an avid horror, murder mystery, and documentary watcher. I love listening to her advice sometimes, and her travel vlogs are the best. (San Diego-based)

Erica Ha

Erica is my most favourite out of the three ha sisters solely because I love her outgoing personality. Her vlogs are fun to watch; her bubbly, playful, and chaotic vibes make her the literal diva that she is. I love her vlogs with her friends. She has such a versatile friend group that literally makes me feel like I should be studying in NYC and meeting new people. I love her fashion and quirky personality. (NYC-based)

Alessya Farrugia

Alessya is the IT girl; her makeup, grwm vlogs are to die for. She also puts out fitness and productivity vlogs. I also relate to her because of how raw she is about her skin and acne journey, which actually makes you feel seen. Her content is about self-improvement, confidence, and romanticizing your everyday routine. (NYC-based)

Mai Pham

Mai is the high-energy lifestyle vlogger; she is literally a shot of espresso. I love her raw and witty personality; she is known for her intense and fun glow-up videos, travel, and ‘reset your life’ content. She is chaotic but also motivating; she also talks about manifesting and working on yourself to get better in life. She is all about independence, building your name, working hard, and main character energy. (NYC-based)

Aashna Hegde

Aashna makes trendy, aesthetic content with vlogs, GRWMs, and fashion-forward content. She is very polished and classy, and she also shares a lot of life experiences, including her mental health, personal life stories, and physical health, and gives that elder sister energy. She recently got married, and her wedding vlog series is the vibe. (India-based)

Via Li

I recently started watching via’s vlogs, and I love her podcast-style videos where she takes a topic, explains it, and also shares her personal life stories with it. Her everyday vlogs are also super fun, chill, and aesthetically pleasing to look at. (NYC-based)

Ha Sisters

They are chaotic, super fun, and pose a lot of challenges on their common channel. Travel vlogs, podcasts, food vlogs, whatever they make is just so fun and relaxing to watch. I also have sisters, and I absolutely love the drama and energy they add to their videos when they are together. The loud, playful, and unfiltered constant teasing, inside jokes are super entertaining. (NYC-based)

Lifestyle + Job/college vlogs

Zoya Abbas

I started watching her when she was in 9th grade, and her videos motivated me to be organised, study, and have a routine in my life. She usually made lifestyle vlogs where she showed us bits and pieces of her life, and now she’s in college at Duke University in China. I have seen her grow, and even though she isn’t very consistent now i like coming back to her channel whenever she posts. (India & china based)

Steph Ran

I started watching her because I wanted a YouTuber who makes fun, aesthetic, and lifestyle vlogs, along with working 9-5 and being a STEM person. I started watching her recently aswell but I instantly loved her vlogging style and her content. (NYC-based)

Fashion Vloggers

Hadassah Naomi

Naomi is currently in fashion school and shares little glimpses of that in her vlogs. She is a lifestyle vlogger, but you can see the infusion of fashion in her videos. She talks about styling, her goals, makeup, books, outing with friends. She went for a study program in Paris for six months, and you can see her vlogs with her friends navigating the streets of Paris. The aesthetics and way of telling her stories are actually so fun, and I love girls living in cities, growing and glowing every day. (NYC-based, currently in Paris)

Kelly Gooch

Kelly makes super informative yet chill fashion and beauty content with reviews, trend analysis, and styling tips. Her vibe is quite grounded and thoughtful. I love the way she breaks down what’s actually worth buying and what’s not, and her fashion and beauty predictions are spot on sometimes. Off topic, but I love her soothing voice, which makes listening to her at night so comforting. Her content is all about mindful consumption and personal style. (NYC- based)

BestDressed

Although she has left YouTube for personal reasons i still like going on her channel and watching her old vlogs. She is the OG fashion vlogger. I love her fashion-forward lifestyle and content with thrift flips, outfit videos, and creative storytelling. She is artsy, self- aware, and slightly awkwardly chaotic in a very charming indie main character way. You can check out her Instagram for the latest content and updates. (NYC- based)

Books

A Clockwork Reader

Hannah makes cozy, bookish content with reading vlogs, book reviews, and themed reading challenges. She also does little book-related challenges and talks about movies and series. I do consider her reviews very informative and fun to listen to. You can grab a coffee and just stay on your couch listening to her talk about books if you are into reading as well. Her reading genre is versatile, but she mostly reads fantasy and fiction, so if you are into that, do check her out. (USA-based)

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Speaking your desires to the universe, or God, or even just to ourselves can sometimes give you that confidence and support to move forward in life when you feel stuck. What we now call Manifestation may sound like a modern idea, but perhaps it has always lived within us in one way or another. Maybe it was the trust or willingness to move forward despite not knowing the outcome. I have been seeking guidance and making wishes since i dont even remember, but I got to know about what manifestation is as a concept a few years ago.

Manifestation, or the law of attraction, is a way of attracting or putting your desires out in the void by simply aligning your desires with your subconscious mind and the universe. Now don’t get me wrong, to achieve anything you have to take actions but as we know, the universe has no limits, so you can be voracious about your desires and just have a firm belief that you will achieve them. You don’t know how it will happen, when it will happen, yet you just have to trust the process with all your heart and mind without doubting it. The universe, vast and without limits, does not ask you to shrink your dreams. It invites you to expand them.

One thing I have learned after manifesting for a while now is that you will never get anything if you cling or clench onto your desires. The moment you become too attached, too desperate, or too consumed, you begin to create distance between yourself and what you seek. If you constantly obsess over a thought or desire, you will have to yearn for it more and more to the point where you may even start to think that nothing is working for you. Obsession breeds doubt, and doubt clouds belief. Patience is the key to connecting with the universe! You will achieve your goals, you were put on this earth to do things that were meant for you, and whenever you have a passion for something, be it a place, an idea, a job, a longing for anything, it is because you are meant to be there, to do that thing. You have to believe!

What is meant for you will not miss you. The Universe always gives you exactly what you need to live a life aligned with the frequency of what you focus your attention on. It’s essential to become clear on your heart’s desire, focus as much of your attention as possible on it, and courageously allow whatever comes up to enter your life.

Now I am no professional, but here are some of the methods or techniques that I have used till now to manifest my desires:

• 369 Method

• Scripting

• Visualisation and saying your thoughts out loud to the universe

• The Water Manifestation

• Iterative Manifestation

• Vision/Action Boards

Now, these are some of the things I practice, but I firmly believe in writing things down. Writing down letters to the future you, wishing for them to get what you want now, and then coming across those pages once you achieve your goals. Or just scribbling down your thoughts, whatever you feel like, whatever you want, your wishes, your dream life, let your subconscious mind take all that in so that your brain gets wired towards what you should do to start working towards your desires.

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I got to know about the concept of journaling in 2019. At that time, I was only gathering information about how to use them, what to do in them, so I saw a lot of YouTube videos, took ideas from pinterest and made myself a very questionable yet memorable journal that I can look back to even now, seven years later.

I just wanted to share them with you all, though I am no expert. This is just me showing you a little part of my life that started out of curiosity, but it's now something I look forward to every day.

2020

What’s inside:This was my first journal ever that i bought , a proper notebook and i made it a bit prettier or ugly idk, hey i was just 17 with a notebook and a dream. Ok dramatic enough. It had a few journal prompts.My favourite pages are the ones where i have written many random and meaningful qoutes.

2021

What’s inside:This was the second year of me continuing with the journal thing.It wasn’t any better either tbh, but this was the year when i graduated school and moved to college.There are pages filled with me feeling scared and at the same time excited about the events in my life.

2022

What’s inside:This novel is a bit special because i specifically got a yellow one as it is my favourite color. It was a bit smaller than usual so i made the details more dainty.I didn’t write much in this either like long essays it is rather empty mostly now, but still one of my most favourite.

2023

What’s inside:This year was more bitter than sweet for sure emotionaly. So I drew more rather than writing. Now in hindsight as i don’t draw much i feel sad that i needed to feel really down bad to draw and bring that side out, because previously when i didn’t write as much i used to draw.This journal got dirty through the years but i think the condition it is at now shows how the year was.

2024

What’s inside: This journal was originally light brown i hated that after buying it and my friend/roomate in college drew some doodles on the cover.I will hold it dear to my heart forever as a memory.She also got me into F1 that year(not a crazy fan now) but we were very diligently watching every race that year and journalling the results.This year i recieved a lot of flowers and i have carefully placed them in it. It has many essays and a new prompt monthly recap which is something i think you can use better yet make doodles of your activities.

2025

What’s inside:Ah, 2025 the year that made me go through a lot for sure,but that doesn’t mean i did not journal infact i journaled the most last year. Writing was my support system.I also watched 60+ movies and reviewed few. This novel has a lot of memory junks,long letters to idk who,book and movie reviews and much more!

Fun Fact- When i got the journal i didn’t know that the art that is printed on the cover page was by Claude Monet.I started looking through his work more after that, absolutely breathtaking.

2026

What’s inside:This is the current one i have a lot of prompts written in it already.Very few memories made but hopefully many more to come.I’m scared and thrilled however still looking forward to all of it.

Those were the main journals that I make every year. Though I do have a few more that are a bit different from the ones mentioned above.Shall we look ?

THE JOURNAL ECOSYSTEM

These are some of the journals that may not be the ones that i make every year, but they have more of the raw stuff in them. Any new idea that pops up in my mind is blurted out on them first.I started the common place journal for the very first time still scared to write on the first page i’ll get through it i hope:)

Random thoughts journal has the stickers on the cover by my favourite show that i specifically chose for myself lol proud.

The university memory journal was actually my favourite, it has days documented, if not daily then weekly or bi-weekly. It’s more like a novel with the worst articulation, but so many memories, thoughts, and moments penned down forever. Tarot one was strictly for learning purpose and it comes in handy till date when I need to get some readings done.

Now with this I end my long talk, i hope you enjoyed. If you ask from me,you should definitely document your life. Be it journals, videos, photos, keeping a memory box or anything for that matter, because one day you gonna want to look back on the memories you made and smile for the years you had.

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I say this because, even in real life, I have caught myself and even others doing this, reacting intensely in the moment, and then later realising that maybe there could be some other factor that may alter the story altogether. I mean, just sit back and think, maybe you might have agreed with your friend about the breakup they had, or some argument with some other person, that you both discussed for hours, and you sided with her. Only to realise weeks or months later, you might have been wrong after you got to know what actually went down. No You don’t stop caring about your friend, obviously, but you get quiet about the verdict that you had.

This book may take you through this emotion till the very end.

We do this everywhere, not just in breakups. We do it in family arguments, in friendship fallouts, in things we read or see online. Someone tells us their version, and we become their soldier before we’ve even asked if there’s another version of that situation. It’s not bad; it doesn’t mean we are spiteful, it’s just human. We pity the person in front of us, and we want to give them the comfort of our words.

The author is not asking you to stop sympathising with Andy. She’s asking you to notice how fast you did it. She’s asking you to sit with the discomfort of realising that Jen had a reason too, that she wasn’t just another person in the book, rather she had her own interior life too, which might have been shown to us for a short amount of time, but it was actually really important for us to think about every analysis we reached till that page.

Andy and Jen had a good love story till it ran its course. After all the years they spent together, it's not easy to just move on from someone who has been your constant for years, someone whose mannerisms are now unknowingly consumed by you too. You know how they like their coffee in the morning, which side of the bed they prefer, what is something that makes them happy, little things that you have remembered throughout the time. It is not easy to just pack up all these feelings, emotions, and love and just move out of it one day.

“It was fun to find out about each other’s self-made cultures and make our own hybrid in the years of eating, watching, reading, listening, sleeping and living together.”

Dolly isn’t really writing about a breakup. She’s writing about the story we tell ourselves so that we don’t have to hold ourselves accountable. Andy doesn’t just lose Jen, he loses the narrative he’d built around her, even around them. The book really argues that heartbreak doesn’t really reveal who the other person was; sometimes it may want you to question yourself, who you are, when the story changes its trajectory from your desired path.

When I finished this book, what shifted wasn’t my sympathy for Andy, but I was hit by a realisation that maybe somewhere out there in someone else’s version of my own story, I may be Jen too? Maybe you might feel this way too.

Content-Good Material by Dolly Alderton.

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“When I feel bad, I like to treat myself. Clothes never look any good... food just makes me fatter... shoes always fit.”

Rose and Maggie Feller are not the kind of sisters who finish each other’s sentences, share clothes, or even conversations without asking. They are actually one of the most honest portrayals of sisterhood shown on screen. The type of relationship they shared is kind of twisted and may feel indistinguishable from damage. So if you have a sister or are a sister, you already know that it’s not always that simple and easy to explain. The story begins.

Two women, Two worlds

The feller sisters are in no way similar. Rose, the older one, is a Lawyer who is responsible, the planner, the one who has her wardrobe and shoes coordinated, she loves to buy shoes whenever she wants to treat herself right. She has a system set up for almost everything in her life. Maggie, on the other hand is carefree, implusive and lives her life with little care for the world. She is very restless, doesn’t have a job or a proper lifestyle; we can say her life is all over the place in a non-conventional sense. They can easily be read as opposites. But they are not exactly so because they are responses to the same pain.

The shared wound

They both grew up in a household where they didn’t get what they deserved exactly. The house had chaos, emotional absence, and a kind of instability that left a mark on both of them. Rose tried shielding Maggie; she tried to absorb the pain so that her little sister didn’t have to. But even after all that, Maggie knew what was going on behind the shut doors. They both got scarred, and each one developed a separate personality to move on with life. Rose became the uptight, guarded, controlling one, someone who needs order in life, a place to show up to every day, but there were many areas in her life where she couldn’t get that structure in. She couldn’t find the type of relationship she wanted where the other person loved her enough to accept her flaws as well. Maggie never learned to settle down; she tried to cover her pain by refusing to acknowledge it at all, and she just fled every chance she got with no prospects or desires in her life that she wanted to follow. One common issue for them was how they just refused to acknowledge each other’s pain at all and just guilt-trip one another, which always made them hurt their feelings.

What both of them were searching for under the shoes, men, city, and career was the love and care they never fully got growing up.

When Maggie crosses the line with Rose and betrays her, it was a final act for Rose, not accepting Maggie’s reckless behaviour towards her for years. And for Maggie, it was her realising the mistake and the cost of her own actions; the betrayal was a plot twist that broke them up, but maybe for good this time. Though it was really painful and sad, it made them finally choose paths that they should have long ago. Maggie moves away to visit her grandma, whom she hasn’t communicated with for years, and Rose quits her job to become a dog walker wandering around the city and meeting new people. This movie showed us that sometimes the people who hurt us the most are the ones who never learnt to need us properly.

To Feller Sisters

The ending marks with them, finally sharing their feelings with no obligations whatsoever, rather out of actual care and love for each other. They finally discovered what they might have needed for the longest time. It ends with them eventually sitting, having conversations & heartfelt sharing of expression and emotions that were bottled up for years, and ending the toxic cycle of obligation and sort of hatred for each other’s choices in life. That is what good sisterhood actually is like in real life. It’s not all rainbows, giggles, sharing love and harmony all the time, but rather the fact that we can always show up for each other, even after falling apart, no matter what.

At the end, we can say that they both tried to fit into each other’s shoes, but that is not always easy, and when they did, they understood how long they had been walking alone.

For Rose, you tried protecting your sister from the storm, but forgot you were standing in it too. & Dear Maggie, you never knew how to stay because nothing in your life gave you the reason to do so.

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I do have conflicted feelings about people and situations, especially when I feel that I’m not being heard or understood. But I can never articulate them to anyone in real time. I don’t express the vexation, the hurt, or even the anger; instead everything stays contained in my heart and my mind, spiraling in my chest because I feel no one can resonate with my emotions, rather I fear I might get opposed for having them. What makes it harder is that my feelings go awry, and then I don’t know whether to let go or to have aversion to the situation and the person. I presume that the intensity of my internal reaction is rarely matched by the outside world.

I was someone who was a pushover before, because I needed a friend to sit and have lunch with at the school grounds, I was desperate for that. Therefore, I followed others merely to get a seat beside those people, so I wouldn’t have to be alone. I saw them neglecting me, picking on me, but I never spoke up. I simply had no courage. As I grew up, I understood that I can voice my opinions and have different ideas, and it is not important to have people beside me for that, especially the ones who don’t welcome me at their table. I began to recognise that having opinions and talking about what you actually feel, even the things that might be unacceptable to others, is not a flaw, but rather a sign of forming a self.

So the question here becomes: how do you let go of something that has lived inside you for so long?

The answer I found was that now, instead of suppressing everything inside me, I write it down. I augment those thoughts in my mind and then try to untangle them on paper. Writing has become my containment practice, something to get out of this vicious circle of overthinking, because I know I can never verbalise the thoughts to others and expect the answers I need every time. So it is better to document them on a piece of paper where my emotions are just accepted straightaway, not questioned.

I don’t want to keep stockpiling grudges. I don’t want to hurt myself with overanalysis. I want to learn to ‘let go’ of things. I don’t believe that letting go is a state of apathy; it is choosing yourself first. So for now, I will continue to write when I cannot speak. And when necessary, I will express without feeling any guilt inside me to take a stand for myself sometimes.

Perhaps I am not a hater.

Perhaps I am just learning how to deal with my emotions without being consumed by them.

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Last year, as the weight of graduation began to sink in, my girlies and I decided to go on a mini three-day trip. As the college days were slipping through our fingers, it made us realize that we needed to make one final core memory before stepping into the real world. After some discussions, we naturally decided that Jaipur was the answer. It was my second time visiting the iconic Pink City, however it was my first ever trip with my friends.

We leaned into excitement with no moderation whatsoever, suitcases started overflowing with carefully planned outfits, we watched a lot of videos related to the Bazars(market) we had to visit beforehand. The delicious food spots and the scenic places were also added to the list of things we had to hit.

We wanted a perfect vacation to say goodbye to the four years that we all spent together, and in the vibrant streets of Rajasthan, we found exactly that and so much more. Scroll down toexperience the city vicariously through my article.

DAY 1:

The City adventure begin with our arrival there, we checked into our hotel and dived straight into ‘The City Palace’ had the best lunch at the local restaurant, and then after a quick wardrobe change we transitioned from the marveling courtyards and grand architecture of the palace to the historical sightseeing of the festive culture immersion at ‘Chokhi Dhani’(Beautiful hamlet). The night was a fusion of folk music and dance with an authentic local feast that perfectly climaxed our first day there.

DAY 2:

Day two was also a breathtaking journey through Jaipur’s rugged hills and exalted forts. We started our morning by visiting the ‘Amer Fort’. Its golden sandstone corridors and walls painted with vegetable colours are still pleasing to the eyes after centuries. The ‘Sheesh Mahal’ (palace of mirrors) inside the fort was constructed for the royal comfort and aesthetics. The Queen wanted to experience the beauty of sleeping under the stars without actually being outdoors. When a single candle is lit inside the hall, thousands of convex mirrors embedded in the walls and ceilings reflect light, creating the illusion of a starry night. In the evening, we went to a restaurant and spent the entire dinner laughing and reminiscing about the highlights from the day.

*special shoutout to our palace guide who took hundreds of pictures for us lol <3

DAY 3:

The last day was set aside solely for shopping, so we wandered through the bustling lanes of ‘Bapu Bazaar’ to find traditional lac bangles and other knick-knacks. After the retail therapy, we rewarded ourselves with one last decadent meal as night fell. We visited the eclectic ‘Albert Hall Museum’ before making a final stop at the breathtaking ‘Hawa Mahal’ (hawa-air), bathed in the glowing pink light the ‘palace of winds’ called so because it was made to provide ventilation to the city palace, it bid us a glorious goodbye, leaving us with a lasting image of beauty and our hearts filled with a lot of memories.

Maybe it was a short trip, but the memories we made will be locked deep inside our hearts forever. This is your sign to go on a trip with your friends before college ends, or in general, just do it. Because at the end, memories are the greatest treasures we hold. So please document your life, take pictures, videos, keep a journal & record voice memos because the most insignificant moments will become some of your favourite memories one day.

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Though amongst all this madness once existed a Queen named Alysanne Targaryen. A girl simply born into fire but somehow she became the gentlest force in Westerosi politics. The woman who tried softening the throne of swords a little. While reading Fire and Blood i found her story quite resilient and worth reading. So here are snippets from throughout her life as a girl who ruled beside her husband Jaehaerys I and made so many impacts in the realm.

Her Turbulent Birth and Love Bound by Duty:

Alysanne was born to King Aenys I Targaryen and Queen Alyssa Velaryon during a turbulent period in her family’s history, a time of uncertainty and the eventual usurpation of the throne by her uncle Maegor the Cruel. Growing up she saw what happened when dragons were used with restraint so she grew up understanding Power must be temepered.

At thirteen she secretly married her brother Jaehaerys I , not out of duty but out of genuine love. When Jaehaerys ascended the throne after she stood beside him through influence and not just dominance. They chose to listen to one another, debate openly, argue reforms ,she shaped policies with intelligence and compassion. Their marriage faced disagreements too , even periods of separation but they tried to reconcile their differences. Together weighed difficult decisions, and worked in partnership to build a more just and stable realm.

The Good Queen:

Queen Alyssane didn’t just rule from behind the walls rather she travelled on her dragon back silverwing with her husband the king. The laws she reformed were powerful, influential and necessary:

•Abolishing the ‘Right of the first night’

While visiting The North once she talked to the small-folk women disturbed by hearing their problems she urged the king to abolish the custom by her moral conviction and influence , the ban was reinforced thus protecting many women from exploitation.

•The Night’s Watch

When she visited The Wall she didn’t just admire its mightiness rather noticed its struggles. They were under resourced she asked the king to grant them additional lands to support their survival.

•The Water Crisis

She noticed the filth in city streets how the people suffered, the poor were affected but seeing this she did not turn away. She brought the concerns to the king and asked him to reform the realm to make it more livable.

A Resilient Mother:

This story becomes tragic now the sorrow she carried as a mother after birthing thirteen children all who she loved fiercely. Not all survived her firstborn Daenerys died young, Baelon’s death before ascending the throne shattered the future she envisioned for him. Saera’s scandalous rebellion and escape to Lys wounded her and Jaehaerys deeply, one of her son Vaegon rejected marriage and power to become archmaester marked another quiet fracture. Some children disappointed her, others drifted beyond her guidance.Even after all the hardships she stood beside her king for the realm yet her personal life was marked by heartbreak.

Old age and the slow fading of light:

As she aged grief weighed on her. She birthed children till the age of 44 ,it tired her. After her kids death, disagreement over succession created tension between her and Jaehaerys. She died in 100 AC. Jae lived on but quieter and fragile without her it felt less luminous for him , he too died in 103 AC.

Why she mattered? She mattered because she did not just conquer cities, she did not lead armies , she did not burn her enemies rather she listened, travelled, persuaded, reformed. In a house that is remembered for fire & madness she ruled with empathy. So maybe that’s why she is not remembered as “The fierce” or the “The cruel” but as “The Good Queen”.

‘In a house built with fire & blood she proved that compassion could be just as powerful!’

Inspired by George R. R. Martin’s book:z

Fire & Blood

The four women Carrie Bradshaw, Samantha Jones, Charlotte York and Miranda Hobbes carried the show with such sassiness and pizazz. It can be uncomfortable but thats the fun of it . Some shows feel like nostalgia Sex and the city feels like a diary dressed up as a fashion magazine. It wasn’t really about sex or even the city, it was about the four women trying to figure out who they were while wanting more than they were taught to ask for.

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Now its time talk about the characters that gave the show the love it deserved. Diving in their characters while you tell me who feels the most like you?

1. Carrie Bradshaw- The Column Queen🍸

“I am looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, Inconvenient, consuming, can’t-live-without-each-other love.”-CB

•Glamorous •Self absorbed •Passionate •Shopaholic

If you think you are a Carrie then you love fashion, life is a blog and you are living it. You are a shopaholic even if you have to eat a Vogue magazine for dinner probably lol. You are an ultimate diva , your bold choices reflect your fearless behaviour. You can be the life of the party, someone who always have gossips and something bizarre to share. As a diva carrie also exhibited a certain level of narcissism. Her focus usually drifted from her friends to the infamous Mr. Big. She may be portrayed as someone who is inattentive to her friends problems once her world starts revolving around her romantic and personal dramas.

Carrie gets attention wherever she goes , she can’t go unnoticed thats just not her. She perfectly portrays the queen energy by balancing her love for fashion and luxury while questing for real love.

2. Samantha Jones- The OG ‘IT’ girl 🦊

•Magnetic •Sensual •Resilient •Independent

If you think you are a Samantha you are a maneater. Absolutely fearless , someone who never shy away from pursuing her desires . For you life is about embracing the pleasures and adventures of it without any rules and principles. You need to get what you want! The idea of so called ‘traditional romance’ is not your thing. You believe in living for yourself first, you can’t compromise your happiness or freedom at the expense of others. You know how to take a step for your loved ones. You are a bold self-assured woman , a true icon! However you can be emotionally avoidant ,wanting to keep everything breezy and using confidence or humour to guard your feelings.

Samantha channels the IT girl energy throughout the series . She represents the power of feminine charm and confidence that comes from knowing one's worth. She embraces her sexuality and uses it as a source of strength rather than a weakness.

3. Miranda Hobbes- The BOSS BABE ☕️

“I want to enjoy my success, not to apologise for it”-MH

•Self-Sufficient •Ambitious •Boundaries Inc •Controlling

If you think you are a Miranda you just can’t take BS from no one. You know when to take a stand for yourself, you are fiercely career driven person, you have strong opinions, you love your own company and how to handle when someone gets in your way. You can be whiny sometimes a lot judgy too, your words maybe a bit too harsh for someone. You are the unapologetic reality check queen ,there is no filter or sugar coating. Miranda's assertiveness is both her greatest strength and a source of tension in her personal life.

Miranda Hobbes exemplifies The Boss Babe energy, showing that true strength comes from embracing one's ambition and navigating life's challenges with determination and grace.

4. Charlotte York- The Divine Feminine 🤍

“I’m worth a million”-CY

•Poised •Optimistic •Hopeless Romantic •Classy

If you think you are a Charlotte you probably are a hopelessly romantic person, someone who loves love. You are always seeing the goodness is others. You are sweet, gentle and classy. Also you can be a baddie too when needed. You would love to have a family one day , a home filled with love and laughter and you deserve it. Someone who is selfless in love you can go lengths to make someone feel happy. However, you can be judgemental to others choices that are not idealistic to yours, there can be a superficiality and rigidity in you. Your idealistic nature can sometimes lead you to be overly hopeful but it is also your greatest strength, allowing you to see the beauty and potential in every situation.

Charlotte radiated an all consuming love, not just towards her partners but also towards her friends and family. Charlotte York radiates Divine feminism reminding us that love in its truest form is always worth fighting for.

ps: These are my personal opinions on the characters

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This quiet yet piercing line is something I once heard Phoebe Waller-Bridge say in an interview, (actually said by Anaïs Nin )and it instantly clicked with me. We write our thoughts when we feel, experience and think deeply about life. By doing so we relive those moments so i can say that we definitely write to feel life twice.

Some experiences are so delightful that you feel compelled to write them down, you want to preserve them on paper so they can stay stored in the pages of a notebook or a journal somewhere waiting patiently for you and one day years later when you stumble upon those pages again, you relive that time feeling satisfied and grateful for how winsome you life has been.

On the other hand, there are moments when life hits rock bottom. You feel so low so weighed down by emotions that you cannot contain them. You want to share them with someone but you can’t because it feels too hard. Those emotions remain trapped in your heart growing heavier with time. Then night-time hits and you finally pick up a pen and take out a page from your notebook at that time words begin to write themselves. By the end you feel slightly better. When you read it again you experience it all once more only this time with a sense of peace. The weight feels lighter and you may have found clarity to make wiser decisions about what you went through.

You fall in love with someone and you write them a letter to share that love. Writing your feelings gives shape to your thoughts. The way words dance on paper makes your heart feel fulfilled. At that time writing becomes more than just words on paper, they become a memory something through which we relive those moments when sorrows are soften down. We may even feel how immature we were while writing them once , but those words were our actual strength at the moment.

And so we write not just to escape life but to hold it closer with that ink we preserve what once moved and inspired us to pick up that pen, allowing ourselves to return to that time. We write to taste life twice and maybe sometimes that is enough.

It wasn’t a love story that failed rather a mismatch of intentions between them.

The Dreamer does not fall in love with Nastenka as much as he falls in love with the narrative she offers him, which was a new beginning or maybe a proof that his imaginative world might finally touch reality. He wanted a story where loneliness is redeemed by connection.

“I have created a whole life in my imagination.”- The Dreamer

Whereas ,Nastenka wanted none of that.She wanted a life that maybe imperfect, but real. Her desires were practical. She wanted security, a true connection and a future that does not rely on rendezvous and promises that are fragile. Long before the Dreamer enters her world, she already had a direction she was committed to. Maybe this is why they could not truly reach the same destination.

“You are kind, you are gentle—but you are only a dream.”- Nastenka

*contains spoilers*

On the First Night the story starts with dreamer wandering through st. petersburgs streets.  He lives almost entirely in his inner world observing and expecting from life rather than participating in it. Until one night when his solitude is interrupted by a woman at sight , it was a crash of imagination with reality. Conversations ignited.

Followed by the Second Night that deepened what the first night merely introduced. The dreamer and Nastenka spoke with growing ease as they shared their stories.The dreamer misunderstands the understanding for attachment , while Nastenka remains in touch with the ground reality. This was the night where connection felt mutual yet the intentions were uneven and certain feelings still concealed.

The third night Nastenka’s wait, suspended between what she once promised and what now feels possible, while the Dreamer allows hope to grow unchecked. The night where imagination begins to blend with expectation. Nastenka’s hesitation was honest not misleading, yet the Dreamer reads it as invitation.

On The fourth night reality hits conclusion. When Nastenka’s waiting ends, and with it the fragile expectations of the Dreamer had begun to occupy. But then on a sudden showing up of someone she chose the life she had already committed not out of cruelty, but clarity.

“Your hand is cold, mine burns like fire. How blind you are, Nastenka!”-The Dreamer

The Dreamer was left alone with his imagined future and the unrequited love by the girl which was now unrealised.

Yet this night cannot be called a betrayal, rather a decision that closed the story he hoped for and allowed Nastenka’s life to continue.

Everybody villainises Nastenka they say she broke the dreamer’s heart ,I feel his story connected more because his yearning was lyrical. He asked for nothing but sympathy from us and we usually prefer characters who ache, to the ones who decides and choose. Almost every story teaches us to value emotional profundity over its actual responsibility.

Nastenka didn’t dramatise her decision she simply chose what she wished for and that was unsettling and selfish to some. Something that even i thought i may feel before reading the book because thats how she was portrayed to us. But i felt that she was a kid with hope and unfulfilled love story ,a desire to be loved by the man she fell for. She waited for him long enough , but when the flame of her hope began to weaken she made some promises that made her unlikeable to many which i agree weren’t entirely faultless.

Whats makes White nights uncomfortable is that neither of them were wrong. The dreamer is pitied because he fits the romantic narrative, he lost and became meaningful. Nastenka chose survival & truth over imagination so she was the one who is forgotten and vexed.

Maybe if the story was outside literature or even if it were a bit longer with more explanation to their life as people they were apart from that situation they were put in and with not just some stories that were shared from the past she might be praised for her clarity and choice.

White nights hurts because longing or yearning is savoured on the pages but,  in reality it is the decision that dictates who moves forward.

Perhaps that is why we relate to him,we understand the dreamer and judge Nastenka because most of us believe that maybe feeling deeply for something or someone is just enough to achieve them.

The end.

6.Once Upon a Time… in Hollywood (2019):

“Anybody accidentally kills anybody in a fight, they go to jail. It's called manslaughter”-Cliff

The story follows a fading actor Rick Dalton and his stunt double Cliff Booth who struggles with relevance and work in a changing industry. This movie was a rewriting of Manson murders that happened back in the late 60s. An alternate ending to what could have happened if events occurred in a different way. Its was a mourning to an era before innocence was shattered by real world violence, yet captured in a beautiful way. Combining reality and blurred revisionism to reshape the history.The film is soaked in golden light, long driving shots, wide frames making Los Angeles (Hollywood) feel dream like.The ending of the film is satisfactory but in a very Tarantino way showcasing brutal heroism and a bloody fight.

rating-⭐️⭐️⭐️

7. Death Proof(2007):

"This car is 100% death proof. Only to get the benefit of it, honey, you REALLY need to be sitting in my seat”- Stuntman Mike

‘Chaos sits in the passenger seat’ Inspired by slasher films back in the 60s,Tarantino wanted to recreate something more powerful.This film follows Stuntman mike a creepy stalker who murders women for the thrill until he messes with the wrong group. It involves very talky hangouts filled with pop culture chatter & people enjoying their time in bars and cafe which suddenly swerves into brutal violence. When the tables turn and the guy meets woman who are not ready to give up making the hunter become the hunted.

An action packed film with a lot of yapping at first, when i watched it first i felt everything was too much but then i rewatched only to realise it was an absolute masterpiece.Motion treated as storytelling in the coldest way possible. The mess, loudness and absolute craziness was worth the ending.

rating-⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

8.Jackie Brown(1997):

“I put a cherry on top. Booh-yah! What the f*** did Ordell ever do for us, huh?”-Jackie Brown

Jackie Brown follows a middle-aged flight attendant caught between the law and an arms dealer, who decides to outsmart everyone to secure her own freedom.This film is not loud yet quiet tension is built.There is no revenge rather hunger for survival and self-respect. The game of deception where timing is the biggest ally. At its heart, it’s about choosing dignity in a world that constantly underestimates you.

Fun Fact: its the only Quentin Tarantino film adapted by a novel Rum Punch by Elmore Leonard. Tarantino changed the main character from a white woman named Jackie Burke to Jackie Brown.

rating-⭐️⭐️⭐️

9.The Hateful Eight(2015):

“Bringing desperate men in alive, is a good way to get yourself dead.”-Major Marquis Warren

A group of strangers trapped in a snowbound cabin where violence, lies, hidden motives slowly come to surface. Essentially a slow burning drama set in the aftermath of the Civil War. Gathers distrustful characters a bounty hunter, prisoners, and supposed lawmen inside ‘Minnie’s Haberdashery’ during a blizzard.

The narrative is fractured midway replaying events to expose lies and shifting loyalties. The vibes can be said as suffocating , as everyone is trapped in a place and they carry alternate motives for each other. Long takes and careful blocking makes the cabin feel like a pressure cooker.It’s a visual tactic that mirrors the story nothing rushes, no one escapes, and everything is exposed eventually.

rating-⭐️⭐️⭐️

Bonus Movie: from dusk till dawn

This movie was directed by Robert Rodriguez.

Though not entirely a Quentin Tarantino movie but it was written by him & he also played a character in the film called Richie Gecko.The genre mash-up in the movie is something to talk about.

10.From Dusk till Dawn(1996):

“Psychos do not explode when sunlight hits them”-Seth Gecko

Begins as a crime thriller about two outlaw Gecko brothers who are on the run with a kidnapped family. Slowly yet violently transforms into a supernatural horror film halfway, it indeed happens from Dusk till dawn. The sudden genre shift is startling as it breaks the expectations completely. The movie is leans into excess, blood, horror and dark humour without restraint. The aesthetics contrasts from dusty sun bleached roads to neon covered nights.The visuals are not aiming for realism rather something bold and weird. The story is descends into madness as the film continues.

Fun fact: The genre twist was kept a secret intentionally from the audience in early promotions and thats exactly how i went into this movie without any prior understanding.Not exactly my favourite film but its still worth watching as it is something different from his usual work.

If you haven’t do checkout the Part 1 of this series.

Also i want to thank you all for showing all the love in the previous part i loved all your comments.

Leave a comment down and let me know which one of all 10 movies is your favourite.<3

Last year i decided to refine my cinema literacy by watching different genres ,old movies, also getting to know about how different directors put in their personal elements in their work. I decided to start with Quentin and watch all of his ‘most famous’ works.

In 2024, i watched the first Quentin Tarantino movie ‘Kill Bill’ vol. 1&2. At that time i did not know that he has both written and directed it. I absolutely enjoyed the cinematography ,dialogue delivery and the screenplay, Maya Hawke was phenomenal with her acting as the role of the bride. In September 2025 i was homebound for a month so i decided to start watching more movies, as i was scrolling through Netflix i came across other Tarantino movie ‘Inglorious Basterds’ which turned me into an absolute fan of Christoph Waltz and ultimately making me watch all the other work done by him too.

So here is a list of all the movies i watched by Quentin Tarantino and what thoughts and rating i have about them:

1.Kill Bill Vol 1 & 2 (2003-2004):

“And when I arrive at my destination...

...I am gonna kill Bill”- The bride

Kill Bill Vol 1 was absolute cinema the story line follows The Bride, a former assassin who survives a brutal betrayal at her wedding and wakes from a coma fueled by revenge. She hunts down members of her old team in a violent quest for justice, ending in a bloody showdown with O-Ren Ishii in Tokyo, but the film ends without closure, leaving Bill the mastermind behind it all. The blend of martial arts, anime, grindhouse into a film was absolutely poetry. The soundtrack was transcendent.

Continuing in all its glory was Kill Bill vol 2 ,another action packed film with extreme violence turning the revenge saga into something more reflective and intimate. Especially the sword fight sequence & their silhouettes dancing around in the cast of blue light.Fitting conclusion after a long wait proving the story was not just about killing but closure.

rating- ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

2.Inglorious Basterds (2009):

“Thats a BINGO!”- Hans Landa

Basterds was a rewrites World War ll with an alternate ending, dark comic revenge fantasy. Story follows Shosanna , a Jewish Woman planning retributive justice against Nazis who killed her family and the Basterds ,a group of Jewish- American soldiers hunting down them down. Their paths converge in a Paris cinema where they scheme against the Nazis and their leader. The stretched conversations that filled audience with anticipation until they feel explosive. Giving us a very powerful character of Hans Landa played by Christoph Waltz though an antagonist but a character so sensational that even Quentin himself wasn’t ready to make the film until he found an actor doing justice to it.

The long scenes filled with stillness building unbearable tensions. Like the scene with Landa in the farmhouse drinking milk is a perfect example of polite mannerisms and calm pace hiding shrewd and evil intentions beneath them.Every shot was intentional showing how tension was lethal.

rating-⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️1/2

3. Django Unchained(2012):

“D-J-A-N-G-O. The D is silent.” -Django

My absolute favourite of all Quentin movies. I came across this movie randomly at 3 am and devoured it in one go.This story is about Django a slave who is freed by a bounty hunter agreeing that he will come along with him to hunt the criminals down while also moving towards Django’s real goal rescuing his wife, Broomhilda from her master. The movie has a blend of dark and racist humour along with historical horror. Also about liberation personal , emotional and physical. The vibe of the movie is sun drenched contrasting its moral ugliness.The climax scene feels confident as Django fully steps into power also saving his wife closes story with fire, justice and release.

rating-⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

4. Pulp Fiction(1994):

“Goddamn Jimmy, this is some serious gourmet sh..”-Jules

Pulp Fiction was inspired by classic pulp magazines, hardboiled crime novels and B-movies with its anthology structure of different stories all happening at once with different set of people who are somehow connected to one another.A boxer on the run, a mob boss and his wife, and a pair of small time criminals. Story unfolds in a chronological order and is induced with violence , chance and morality represented comically but dark.The instances of luck, clemency or choice decides who survives and who does not.Aesthetically its built with a retro cool vibe. 1950s pop culture is mixed with noir lighting a world that does not feel real. Dawdling with mundane gestures like talking, eating, dancing , conversations that sometimes just feel so long and boring but then a sudden burst of violence keeps the audience engaged. The dance sequence in the cafe with the mob’s wife Mia Wallace and Vincent Vega is one of the most iconic moments of the film.

rating-⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

5.Reservoir Dogs(1992)

“If someone shoots you in a dream, you better wake up and say 'thank you.'”-Mr White

Its was the debut film by Tarantino, this movie about when a heist done by a group of diamond thieves (identified only by their color coded pseudonym) goes terribly wrong and they wound up in a warehouse figuring out which one of them is an undercover agent . This movie showcases paranoia, betrayal , grief and intense violence. Its tense dialogue, time jumps , the black suit attire, sudden violence after long conversations & social moral collapsing the real spectacle.The fact that the actual diamond heist is never shown on the screen and is cut down deliberately forcing the entire tension to live in the aftermath.The movie was more driven by character psychology rather than action.

rating- ⭐️⭐️⭐️1/2

Blood and banter shall continue for the next part.

Ps these are just my reviews shaped solely through my rewatches and vibes i felt nothing serious.

I’ve always thought my fear is the sea, the vastness of deep water. But my actual fear is when it doesn’t move.

Stagnation frightens me it is a dark, eerie, and unknowable place where endings remain, where you cannot see what waits beneath the surface. You have no idea about what is in there. That is how stagnation in life feels. It is like drowning without waves, like suffocating in silence, it is slow & you are afraid of what the darkness might unveil, afraid that no one will hear you sink. Now as I watch everyone else move, cross the oceans, build better lives, finding homes in unfamiliar cities, becoming ‘more’. While I stand still, afraid of becoming water that no longer flows haunts me.

But moving water is different. When waves travel the water breathes they catch the sun, they shimmer, they feel alive there is a rise and fall. Even if you are unsure of its destination and what lies beneath the surface the movement makes it benign, less terrifying, free.

Maybe it was not about the fear of water rather about not moving forward.

Every year i make a list of books that i will read sometimes i reach my goals and sometimes i procrastinate to the point of feeling guilty by the end of the year, but i will definitely try my best to at-least read 20-25 books this year.

I am a murder mystery genre person always have been however i have been trying to broaden my horizons and reading classics , fun fact though my first book ever was a classic which i read back in 2016 which was given to me by my librarian in my school to enhance our vocabulary. It was ‘Little women’ by Louisa may Alcott, i didn’t understand the importance of the characters and story back then because for us it was just a chill period in school but when i re-read it and watched the movies after years i realised i need to go back to this genre.

After a long yap session here are the books i am excited to read in 2026:

1-Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

2-Crime and punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky

3-Animal Farm by George Orwell

4-Notes From Underground by Fyodor Dostoevsky

5-1984 by George Orwell

6-The Family Upstairs by Lisa Jewell

7-Blue Sisters by Coco Mellors

8-Bunny by Mona Awad

9-Tomorrow, and Tomorrow ,and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin

10-I’m A Fan by Sheena Patel

11-Monstrous Devices

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