Are you the one who holds everything?

You are the steady one, the one who tends, who reads the room, who carries the worry so others don’t have to. It is a sacred way to move through the world. And it is exhausting. Because somewhere along the way, the holding becomes s…

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What happened next has shaped every day of my life since. I became golden light. I was held in something so complete, so loving, so home, that there are no human words that don’t shrink it. And in that place, I understood that I had been given a mission — a purpose I would carry back into the world through music, through healing, through sound. (You can read more about it in my book, Waking Up in Heaven: Living with Purpose Through Afterlife Wisdom.)

But here is the part I want to talk about today. The part I have sat with for decades. The part that became the great question of my life.

I came back. But it was my soul that chose it.

Not my human spirit. Not the frightened twelve-year-old girl who wanted her mother. My soul. And I was very clear about that distinction, even on the other side. It was clear in a way that only the light can make you clear. My soul looked at everything — the pain that waited, the long road, the forgetting, and it said yes. I will go back.

For years that left me with one question that would not let me go: Why would a soul choose to return?

The light is complete. Home was right there…then why would any soul willingly leave it to come back into a body, into limitation, into grief and effort and the ache of being human? Why would it choose the horse-kick and everything after?

I have spent my life listening for the answer. Here is what I have come to understand.

The soul chooses what the human self would never choose

This is the first thing I had to make peace with. Our human self, with personality, ego, and the frightened animal that wants comfort and safety, is not the one steering our deepest choices.

The human self wants to avoid pain. The soul wants something else entirely. The soul wants to grow, to serve, to love, to complete something.

This reorganizes the knowing. Because it means the hardest things in life are not things that happen to me against my will. On some level beyond the personality, they were things my soul said yes to. Not because it wanted me to suffer, but because it saw something I couldn’t yet see.

A soul returns to finish what it came to do

In the light, I was given a mission. And a mission is not something you complete from the other side. It’s something you carry into form. The soul returns because there is work here that can only be done in a body, in relationship, in the messy, embodied, earthly middle of things.

The healer cannot heal from heaven. The song cannot be sung without a voice. The love cannot be given without embodiment. The soul is made of love, and returns because love wants to take form. It wants to become a hand on a shoulder, a bowl ringing in a dark room, a mother, a teacher, a friend who walks alongside. Spirit is beautiful in its formless state but there is something the soul can only become when it consents to matter.

A soul also returns for the ones it will love

I have come to believe that souls return for each other. There are people we are meant to walk beside, to hold, to be held by, to grow through. From the light, a soul can see the whole web! It knows who it will meet, who it will love, who it will help carry through their own dark passages. And it chooses to come, knowing the love will cost something. Knowing love always does. And choosing it anyway.

Forgetting is part of the gift

This is the hardest to understand and most beautiful part. We come back and we forget. We lose the memory of the light. And for years I thought that was the tragedy of it. I longed to go back to the golden light. To feel my spirit expand into the all-knowing. To feel the warm fullness of that love. It felt like I was sent back into the dark with the lamp blown out.

But now I believ the forgetting is part of the design. Because a soul that remembers everything cannot truly choose love in the dark. It’s the forgetting that makes our earthly love real. when we love, reach, stay, and heal without being able to see the light, we are doing the bravest thing a soul can do! We are choosing love on faith. And every time we remember… every meditation, every moment of grace, every note of a singing bowl that cracks us open, shows us that we are remembering what our soul already knew when it said yes.

What this means for you

If you are here, in a body, reading this, your soul chose this too. Whatever you are walking through, however heavy it feels, some deeper part of you said yes to this life. The part made of light.

You are not here by accident. You are here on purpose! Your soul’s purpose. And the ache you sometimes feel, that homesickness for something you can’t name? That’s not a flaw. That’s the memory of the light, calling you to remember who you really are, and why you came.

The soul returns because it has something to give. And so do you.

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And then life handed me a season where understanding wasn’t enough. I had to actually do it. There was nothing else to do. So I practiced…in the dark. Without certainty. Without knowing if it was working.

That’s when I found out what I actually believed.

The Difference Between Knowing and Practicing.

As a practitioner, one pitfall is tying my worth to whether my students get instant results. If someone I taught didn’t see it work in a reasonable amount of time, some quiet part of me heard: you haven’t earned this. Then you’re not really the teacher you claim to be. You can do it, but how can you help your students create the same condition?

What I’ve come to understand is that this was never mine to carry. A teacher offers the practice. She cannot manufacture the student’s readiness. Their timing is not a verdict on her gift.

I only really understood the concept of timing in manifesting when I had to learn that in the hardest way. By being the student myself.

What I Actually Did.

When the hardest season of my life arrived, I didn’t just think about manifestation. I dove in.

I worked with the different institutions and teachers throughout the years, teaching myself to move into expanded states of consciousness where the analytical mind quiets. I knew I could help others reach this state, but I wanted to master it for myself.

I studied multiple approaches, drawing from what resonated and leaving what didn’t. There were so many facets to my learning process, but there is one I want to focus on today. I received a powerful message from Source that told me I am meant to manifest from the golden light rather than from the void. I was told, “This is where you visited on the other side. It is where you draw your abilities.” That was huge for me. Entering the manifesting state through golden light, through the elevated frequency of love and presence, rather than through emptiness, changed the quality of what I was able to receive and embody.

Both the void and the Golden Light are representations of our soul before embodiment. Both are frequencies where we can release the story that we cling to in our lives. This might not work for everyone, but it was a huge realization for me.

During this time, I also read Neville Goddard’s books repeatedly, until his understanding of the I AM and the end state started becoming felt. I journaled. I studied the dream state and began working with the hypnagogic threshold, that edge between waking and sleep, as a place to plant the frequency of what I was calling in. I practiced replacing negative mental scenes with the one I wanted, consciously, deliberately, every time the old image tried to reassert itself.

And then I did it again the next day. And the next week. And the next month.

It didn’t happen instantly. Each practice built on the one before it. I would get better at one layer, really embody it, before adding another. The nervous system had to learn a new way of being. The subconscious had to be shown, repeatedly, that a different reality was not just possible but already real.

What I was practicing, specifically, was living in the end state. My nervous system inhabited the frequency of it. Id drop my shoulders, settle in to the calm feeling of living as if it were real in all it’s dimension, and breathe out. I learned to return to that feeling when present circumstances tried to pull me back into the old story.

That is genuinely difficult work. It requires a completely different relationship with your subconscious, your mind, your own nervous system, and your capacity for sustained inner discipline. It is a practice in the truest sense. Not a technique you apply once and walk away from.

And there is a tension inside living in the end state that I don’t think gets talked about enough. You are holding what you know inwardly while still standing in the reality that is here. You still have to live in it, feel the feelings, have the difficult conversation, feel the grief.

If you walk away with anything today, let it be this: pay attention to what your body is telling you. Accepting the present moment does not mean agreeing that it is permanent. And inhabiting the end state does not mean pretending that your present reality isn’t real. It means consciously choosing where you place your attention, actively replacing the thoughts that pull you back into the old story, and allowing your body to release what it is still holding in this moment.

That balance was one of the hardest things for me to learn. I could not use the vision to abandon myself in the now. I had to let reality be what it was without making it the final word. To meet the facts honestly while refusing to turn them into prophecy. To feel the fear without allowing it to decide what was possible.

Some days, living in the end state felt less like certainty and more like holding two truths at once: this is what is here, and this is not where the story ends. The practice was learning not to collapse either one. Not to deny the life in front of me, and not to surrender the life I knew I was becoming.

What Manifestation Actually Is.

I was talking recently with a friend who is a powerful manifestor. She was navigating something significant in her life and I suggested she work with manifestation around it. She said she was intentionally not doing that because she didn’t want to alter things if they weren’t meant to be.

I understood what she meant. But I also recognized the misunderstanding underneath it.

Envisioning the higher state is not imposing your will on external reality. It is elevating your own frequency to align with a version of reality where the possibility already exists.

The change is internal. You are not reaching into the world and rearranging it. You are becoming the version of yourself who inhabits a different field, and the outer world responds to who you have become.

This is why it isn’t controlling. This is why it doesn’t violate anyone else’s free will. You are not changing the external world. You are changing yourself, your frequency, your nervous system baseline, your subconscious expectation, until you naturally move through life as a different kind of signal.

The right circumstances, relationships, and outcomes tend to organize around that signal. Because you became coherent enough to receive them.

What I Know Now About Teaching This.

When I ask my students to practice manifestation, I know what I am asking. I know it is not easy. I know it requires more than intellectual understanding. I know that some people will study the concepts for years before life hands them the pressure that finally makes the practice click.

That worry about feeling like a failure of my teaching. Now I understand it differently.

The students who couldn’t receive it easily were the ones who helped me to understand it more deeply. They revealed where my own teaching was still living in the conceptual layer rather than the embodied one. They showed me where my worth was still entangled with their results so I could untangle it. They were refining me so I could serve the ones still coming.

Living in What I’ve Created.

There is one more thing I want to say and it’s the most personal part of this.

After this season, after everything I put into practice in the hardest circumstances of my life, I have arrived somewhere. Things I held in the end state, that I practiced and envisioned and felt in my body and returned to again and again, have come into form. Unmistakably.

And I am learning, still learning, to let myself actually enjoy it. To relish what I’ve created. To live in it fully rather than immediately turning toward the next thing to manifest or the next student to help or the next article to write. To receive my own life the way I teach others to receive theirs.

That is its own practice. And it might be the hardest one yet.

There is a kind of faith that comes from having done it in the dark and watched something real emerge on the other side. A knowing that is different from belief because it has been earned through actual experience.

I knew it was going to come somehow, somewhere. Even in the moments when I consciously couldn’t have told you that with certainty, something in me knew.

That knowing is available to anyone willing to do the practice. Every. Single. Day.

With love, Ellen.

I won’t be hosting a live meditation today — it’s my off week, and I’m taking some intentional time to rest after staying closely connected through the recent astrological windows with all of you.

I wanted to reach out anyway, because I have something special to share.

Back on August 8, during the Lionsgate Portal window, a small group within …

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Neil and I created a breathwork and crystal bowl experience specifically for this portal window, and there are still a few hours left to receive it while the energy is live.

This recording is a full breathwork and bowls journey designed to help you clear, open, and align with what this portal has been activating. People have been having profound experiences with it.

Today only, you can access it for $19.

Text LionsgateReplay to 760-230-0040 to learn how to access it before the portal closes. (Ignore the original price and send the discounted rate to access the full practice.

✨ Ellen

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We are already feeling the energy of the Lionsgate portal.

This cosmic gateway opens every year around July 28 and reaches its peak on August 8, the 8/8, before closing on August 12. It occurs when the Sun moves through Leo and the star Sirius, the brightest star in our sky, rises in alignment with the Earth and Orion’s Belt. Ancient cultures, particularly the Egyptians, recognized this alignment as one of the most sacred windows of the entire year, a time when the veil between spiritual and physical reality thins and the field becomes unusually receptive to intention, healing, and transformation.

This year’s portal is genuinely exceptional. Here’s why.

Both the Sun and Jupiter are in Leo right now, with Jupiter sitting at 8 degrees of Leo on the peak day of 8/8. Jupiter is the planet of abundance, expansion, and higher wisdom. In Leo, it magnifies creative power, authentic self-expression, and the courage to be fully seen. The invitation this year is not just to set intentions, but to trust what is asking to be expressed through you and to step into it fully.

The numerology deepens this. 2026 is a Universal Year 1, the number of new beginnings and self-directed power. The 8/8 date in a year 1 creates a triple 8 frequency, the infinity symbol turned upright, the bridge between the material and spiritual realms. This is a threshold energy. A genuine initiation.

And then, four days after the portal peaks, on August 12, a Solar Eclipse arrives in Leo. Eclipses accelerate what is already in motion. They close chapters that were ready to end and open doorways that couldn’t be opened before. The combination of the Lionsgate portal and a Solar Eclipse in the same sign, in the same week, makes this entire window from now through August 12 a profoundly significant season.

We are not building toward something that might happen. We are inside it right now.

What This Means for You

The Lionsgate portal asks a specific question every year: are you willing to be fully seen? Leo rules the heart, creativity, courage, and authentic self-expression. It is the sign of the one who steps forward rather than shrinking back.

With Jupiter amplifying this energy and an eclipse arriving to accelerate whatever is already in motion, the field is asking each of us to stop holding back the thing we have been quietly carrying. The gift that hasn’t been offered yet. The truth that hasn’t been spoken yet. The version of yourself that has been waiting for the right moment.

This is the right moment.

Today’s Meditation

Today’s recorded meditation, available now for paid subscribers, was created specifically for this window. We worked with the Moon’s movement from Aries into Taurus, the grounding energy of Venus newly in Libra, and the stabilizing influence of Sun trine Saturn. It is a meditation about trusting what you know, releasing what you cannot force, and finding ground beneath whatever you have been carrying.

And Comet, my dog, joined us at the opening and brought his own medicine. Dog energy in the spirit animal tradition speaks directly to this moment: keep faith strong no matter what is going on. Remain determined when you face disappointment. Stay loyal to what you know is true. Call on dog energy when you are losing your resolve, when you need companionship, when you are facing something hard and feel like giving up.

The meditation is waiting for you. It was made for exactly where you are right now.

How to Use This Window

Between now and August 12, the field is unusually receptive. A few simple ways to work with it:

Get clear on what you are ready to release before the eclipse closes the chapter. What has been running in the background that is no longer true for you?

Get clear on what you are choosing to step into. Not what you hope will happen. What you are consciously, deliberately moving toward.

Tend your inner frequency. The field responds to coherence, not effort. The Download of Light, the meditations, the bowl work, the daily practice of returning to your own knowing, this is the mechanism.

And if you feel dog medicine calling, call it in. Loyalty. Determination. Faith. Unconditional love. These are the frequencies that move through a portal like this and land somewhere real.

The portal is open. Come through.

✨ Ellen

The August 5 recorded meditation is available now for paid subscribers. The peak of the Lionsgate portal arrives on August 8. The Solar Eclipse in Leo closes the window on August 12.

Ellen Wier, MT-BC, LPC is a music therapist, near death experiencer, transpersonal coach, and sound practitioner, and author of Waking Up in Heaven. Learn more at wellnessmusictherapy.com.

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Comet, my dog, walked in and joined us with a full soulful howl just as we were beginning. I released any idea of how this was supposed to go and let him stay. It felt like a perfect metaphor for the meditation theme today, which was all about surrendering control and allowing what wants to …

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A recorded journey into collective consciousness, release, and the intelligence that forms when we gather with intention

This week’s recorded meditation arrives just after the apex of one of the most significant Full Moons of the year!!

Today, July 29, 2026, the Moon is full at 6 degrees Aquarius, sitting beside Pluto and directly opposite the Sun conjunc…

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People who have never met each other find themselves in the same place.

The same image.ry The same detail that neither of them could have known the other was carrying.

I want to share four of these moments as an invitation into what becomes possible when people gather with open hearts and genuine intention.

The Church in New Orleans

This happened during a large breathwork and crystal bowl session that Neil and I co-facilitated in Salt Lake City.

A woman in the session found herself, during the experience, inside a church. A very specific one she recognized as being in New Orleans. Her father, who had passed, was there with her. And the message he brought was simple and complete: you are enough.

When the session ended and people began sharing, something extraordinary happened.

A woman sitting several seats away and had no prior connection to the first woman, raised her hand. She described that she had seen her during her own experience: a woman and a man in a church. The same church in New Orleans. She had witnessed it independently, from her own imagery, without any prior knowledge of what the first woman had experienced.

The room went quiet.

And then a third woman spoke. She said she had brought something to the session that morning, a necklace she had been holding all day because she felt strongly it was meant for someone else. She didn’t know who. She had simply felt it.

She got up and walked across the room and placed it in the first woman’s hands.

The necklace said: “I am enough.”

The field had arranged the whole thing before any of us arrived.

The Yellow Poppies

Two women who knew each other came to a singing bowls, music and imagery circle together. During the guided experience, both found themselves in the same field, a field of yellow poppies. Same field, the same color, the same flower, described independently when they shared afterward.

When they realized what had happened, the sound that moved through the room wasn’t surprise. It was recognition. The deep, collective exhale of people remembering something they had always known but never had confirmed so beautifully.

The field between us doesn’t keep its boundaries. It never did.

The Little White Dog

Two women came to a circle together and didn’t know anyone else there. During the session, both kept encountering the same image: a small white fluffy dog with a red bow. It kept appearing in their inner experience, present and insistent, arriving like a visitor who knew exactly where it was going.

When they shared this afterward, both describing the same dog, a man sitting across the circle who had come alone reached into his pocket and pulled out a photograph and cried.

His dog. Recently passed. Small, white, fluffy. With a red bow.

He had never met either of these women before that evening. He’d come to try to connect with his beloved dog.

Love, it turns out, knows how to find its way into a room.

The Roadrunner

Before a session Neil and I were setting up together, a roadrunner appeared in our yard where we were about to hold ceremony. We had never seen one there before and haven’t since. It felt significant enough that we mentioned it to the group when we completed the event.

A first-time participant raised her hand, eyes already full.

Her mother-in-law had recently passed. During her final days in hospice, she would look out the window every day, waiting for the roadrunner that came to visit. It had been their sign, their thread of connection in those last weeks. It was also the best part of this woman’s last days.

She said she came that day to connect with her mother in law. She knew the moment we mentioned it that her mother-in-law had found a way to say she was still there.

The Beloved Presence doesn’t need a body to show up.

What the Field Is Showing Us

I’ve held these stories carefully for a long time because I wanted to honor them properly.

What I believe, after years of witnessing moments like these, is that when people gather with genuine intention, something becomes possible that none of us could access alone. The field between us carries information, organizes around what’s needed, and moves with an intelligence and a tenderness that I find breathtaking every single time.

This isn’t the universe performing magic tricks for our entertainment. It’s something far more profound: consciousness, when freed from the usual walls we build between ourselves, revealing its true nature. We are not as separate as we think. The field has always known this. These moments are simply the times it shows us.

The yellow poppies. The church in New Orleans. The little white dog with the red bow. The roadrunner at the window. And hundreds of other stories…

These are invitations. Evidence of what’s available when we arrive in a room with open hands and the willingness to be surprised by something larger than ourselves.

The field is real. It is alive. And it is far more loving than we know.

If this kind of work calls to you, this is exactly what we explore together in the paid community here on Substack, through live meditations, sound journeys, and group field work. I’d love to have you there.

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✨ Ellen

Ellen Wier, MA, MT-BC, is a music therapist, transpersonal coach, near death experiencer and sound practitioner, and author of Waking Up in Heaven. Learn more at wellnessmusictherapy.com.

Today carries the feeling of standing between two worlds: the quiet waters of Cancer and the rising fire of Leo. One asks us to return inward to the body, the home, the memories, the tender places where we learned what safety and belonging mean. The other calls us forward to live with courage, to speak from t…

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“Invite her to combine her consciousness with yours. Expand the Golden Light outward. Invite the Presence to lead you both. For the greater good.”

So I did.

We were deep in the work together, both connected to messages arriving through the field, both visualizing possibilities, our awareness entraining through shared vibration and intention. And then something shifted. The field between us had organized itself around something larger than either of us, and what followed felt like a transmission. The healing extended beyond the room. It felt Divine.

I’ve been a practitioner long enough to recognize that moment. But this one stopped me, because I found myself asking: how?

That question sent me into six thousand years of spiritual tradition looking for an answer. And what I found across six lineages. When two people enter genuine spiritual agreement, something constitutes itself between them that belongs to neither one. Every tradition that has studied this carefully has arrived at the same conclusion, through completely different languages, from completely different directions.

The I AM

When Moses asks God for a name to bring back to the people, the answer is: I AM THAT I AM. The divine identifies itself as the ground of existence itself, the one reality that simply is.

The mystic Neville Goddard spent his life teaching that this wasn’t just a name given to Moses. It was a revelation about the nature of consciousness itself. Every time any human being says “I am,” they are speaking the divine name. Every “I am worthy,” every “I am light,” every “I am loved” is an invocation of the same creative power that spoke creation into existence.

In the Gospel of John, Jesus makes this explicit repeatedly. “I AM the way.” “I AM the resurrection.” “Before Abraham was, I AM.” He wasn’t using a grammatical construction. He was teaching his listeners how reality actually works: consciousness declaring its nature from the I AM level is the most fundamental creative act available to a human being.

This is the foundation everything else is built on. When Jesus says “where two or three are gathered in my name,” he means gathered in God. As I see it, this is the I AM…the unified field of conscious.

The Between

“Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.” (Matthew)

Read it slowly. Two people agree. A presence constitutes itself among them. In the relational space between.

The Jewish wisdom tradition arrived at almost the exact same understanding through a completely different path. In Pirkei Avot, one of the oldest collections of rabbinic teaching, Rabbi Chalafta says: “When ten people sit together and occupy themselves with Torah, the Shekhinah rests among them.” Then he extends it: five. Then three. Then two. And finally, even when one person studies alone, the divine presence is there.

The immanent presence of the Divine, is understood as the feminine face of God. And the teaching is precise: the Shekhinah doesn’t rest upon anyone. She dwells between. The relational space itself. God exists between us relationally!

I heard something similar during my near-death experience, before I chose to return, a message arrived that I've carried ever since: what matters is each other.

Our relationship with others. All. Strangers, family, friends... Relationship. The between.

Independent traditions, separated by centuries and culture, pointing at the same thing: genuine agreement between two people doesn’t just add their energies together. It constitutes a third presence in the space between.

Six Traditions, One Recognition

What makes this more than coincidence is how consistently this teaching appears across traditions that had no knowledge of each other.

Jesus and the I AM Teaching. As above. Two gathered in the name, in the I AM, creates a presence among them. Conscious agreement at the level of being.

Jewish Wisdom / The Shekhinah. The divine feminine presence dwells in the quality of their shared attention. The relational field itself becomes sacred ground.

Rumi and the Sufi Tradition. Rumi writes of two candles whose flames, brought close enough together, merge into one light that is neither flame alone. The fire that passes between two hearts in genuine love or genuine spiritual seeking comes from somewhere else, drawn by the quality of the meeting.

The Quaker Gathered Meeting. Quakers have practiced corporate silence for nearly four centuries, waiting together without agenda or performance until something they call “the gathered meeting” occurs. It descends on the group. Friends describe it as unmistakable, a palpable shift in the quality of the silence, a presence that arrives when the individual minds have quieted enough to stop competing with it. No other tradition has documented this phenomenon more carefully or more humbly.

Vedanta. In the non-dual Hindu philosophical tradition, Atman, the individual self, is ultimately identical with Brahman, the universal ground of being. Two people meeting in genuine spiritual recognition are, at the deepest level, the one consciousness recognizing itself through two faces. What feels like a meeting between two is actually the one reality becoming aware of itself through relationship.

Studies of Consciousness. Robert Monroe documented, across decades of consciousness research, that when individuals in expanded states of awareness, what he mapped as Focus 12, 15, and 21, came into genuine resonance with each other, something happened that exceeded the sum of their individual capacities. His framework is the most recently developed of these six traditions, but the observation is the same: coherent group consciousness in expanded states accesses something that individual consciousness in the same states does not.

Six traditions. Six completely different vocabularies, histories, and methodological frameworks. One consistent finding: genuine agreement between two consciousnesses constitutes a third presence that belongs to neither.

The Space Between

Carl Jung, studying the alchemical texts of the medieval time, noticed something the alchemists understood that modern psychology had missed. In their images of the coniunction, the sacred union, the alchemists depicted the meeting of two principles producing something that had not existed before and could not have come from either source alone.

Jung applied this to the healing relationship. When a therapist and client meet in genuine presence, something enters the space between them that can work on both. He called it the transcendent function. The alchemists called it the philosopher’s stone. The point was the same: the between is generative. It produces something.

Christian theology has its own precise term for this. Perichoresis, from the Greek, describes the relationship within the Trinity: three persons, completely distinct, completely interpenetrating, their very unity and their very distinctness being the same act. It is, at the summit of Christian metaphysics, a claim that the most fundamental nature of ultimate reality is relational.

When two people come together in genuine prayer, they are, according to this framework, participating in something that is central to reality.

The Invitation

Divine presence is invited through alignment. When the practitioner’s soul orients itself toward the divine order with sincerity and presence, grace can flow.

The field between two people doesn’t simply appear because two people are in the same room. It has to be invited.

Iamblichus, the fourth century Neoplatonic philosopher who studied the ritual traditions of Egypt made a distinction. The quality of what enters the space between two people depends entirely on the quality of preparation each person brings to the threshold. I believe this is something I’m learning through my work.

When two people bring genuine sincerity, genuine presence, and genuine willingness to a shared space, something in the field between them begins to organize. Because they became available to it.

That availability is the invitation. And the invitation is everything.

Sovereignty

Every tradition that teaches the power of joint prayer also teaches its boundaries. And those boundaries matter enough that I want to name them clearly.

Sovereignty. Two people entering a genuine spiritual agreement must each arrive as whole, self-possessed individuals. The power of the between comes precisely from the meeting of two distinct, sovereign presences. A covenant that connects and strengthens each party.

The traditions are also careful about intention. When the intention is genuinely mutual benefit, when both parties are serving each other’s highest good and something larger than either of them, the field that constitutes itself is what various traditions call light, love, or grace. When the intention drifts toward control, extraction, or agenda, the field changes accordingly.

“For mutual benefit and the benefit of all” is the nature of what you’re calling in.

What I’ve Witnessed

I keep watching it happen in my sessions.

When my clients and I arrive in genuine coherence, we both set aside our agendas and simply become present together, something enters the room. Old trauma clears in ways it hadn’t cleared in years of individual work. Synchronicities multiply in the days following, as if the field that constituted itself in the session continues working after the session ends.

I am stepping into a new level of this work as a practitioner. The between is real. The third presence is real. And learning to prepare for it, to create the conditions it requires, to protect it when it arrives, and to work skillfully within it is, I believe, some of the most important work available right now.

The traditions have been teaching this for thousands of years. We are, perhaps, only now developing the language and the courage to take it seriously again.

This week, notice where in your life you experience real meeting, genuine resonance. And notice what arrives in that space that neither of you brought.

The traditions promise it will announce itself. In my experience, they are right.

For those who want to go deeper: I’ve developed a guided joint prayer practice for partners or practice pairs, available to paid subscribers below. It draws on the frameworks in this article and includes specific preparation, language, and integration practices for working with the between deliberately.

✨ Ellen

Ellen Wier MA, MT-BC, is a music therapist, with a masters in transpersonal psychology, a sound practitioner, host of Life After Life, and author of Waking Up in Heaven. Her work sits at the intersection of neuroscience, consciousness, and ancient wisdom traditions. Learn more at wellnessmusictherapy.com.

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Just a quick note to let you know there will be no meditation group this week. It’s my birthday week, and I’m taking this week for a little space and reflection.

In the meantime, I wanted to share something I’ve been writing about that feels very alive right now… it’s about the subconscious mind as a doorway into the field, and what it actual…

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For years I studied the subconscious mind. Our beliefs, emotional memories, nervous system patterns, and unconscious expectations shape how we perceive and co-create the world around us.

That made sense to me. I built a lot of my early work around it.

Then something kept happening that didn’t fit the model.

In sessions with clients, images would arrive that neither of us had consciously summoned. In my own meditation practice, ideas would come fully formed, carrying a clarity and specificity that felt like it was coming from somewhere beyond my own thinking. Synchronicities stopped being occasional and became almost daily, not just meaningful coincidences but what felt like direct communication from something I couldn’t name but could no longer ignore.

I started calling it the field.

Not because I have a precise definition for it. Because, similar to my NDE I kept encountering an intelligence that existed beyond my own subconscious, and that word was the closest I could get.

Two Systems, or One?

For a while I held this as two separate things. The subconscious creates reality. The field responds as a loving partner. Clean enough.

But the longer I’ve worked with it, the less convinced I am that they’re actually separate at all.

What if the subconscious isn’t a storage room for memories and patterns, though it certainly holds those too? What if it’s also the interface through which we interact with something larger? Not generating the broadcast on its own, but tuning into one that already exists?

A radio that not only create the music, but becomes coherent enough to make the music come alive.

That single shift in framing changes everything about how I understand what I’ve been doing for twenty years.

What My Own Life Has Shown Me

I came back from my near-death experience at twelve with a sensitivity. I was in contact with something beyond ordinary perception. As a teenager, I didn’t have language for it. As a music therapist I began to see it in sessions. As a sound practitioner I learned to work with it intentionally. And through twenty years of sitting with people in altered states, through ceremony, through consciousness work, through my own daily practice of meditation and internal tracking, I’ve come to understand something I trust more than most things I was taught:

The quality of what I receive is directly related to who I am being when I receive it.

Who I am being.

When I’m contracted, scanning, anxious, or efforting, whatever comes through feels murky, distorted, hard to trust. When I’m genuinely regulated, present, and coherent, what arrives is clear in a way that almost startles me. As if the signal was always there, and I simply became quiet enough to stop interfering with it.

We Are Both the Question and the Answer.

We Are Both the Question and the Answer.

There’s a metaphor I keep returning to, and it takes two images to complete it.

The first is a conductor. Someone who doesn’t create the violin, or the cello, or the music itself, but listens, coordinates, invites, and shapes. The music already exists. The conductor’s work is to become so attuned, so present, so coherent, that it can come through fully.

The second is an composer. Someone who doesn’t simply receive what arrives, but brings intention, vision, and deliberate design to what gets built.

We are both.

This is the mystery I keep circling back to: we are not passive receivers waiting for the field to hand us an experience. Through intention, through the state we cultivate, through the choices we make about who we are becoming, we are actively participating in what gets built. And at the same time, there is something larger we are listening to, something that has its own intelligence, its own timing, its own design.

The empowerment isn’t in controlling which of these roles we play. It’s in knowing we are always playing both simultaneously, designing from intention while remaining genuinely open to something larger than the design.

Every tradition I’ve moved through deeply, whether through transpersonal psychology training, deep consciousness work, the I Ching, Neville Goddard’s teachings, or the direct knowing from my own NDE, points toward the same paradox: you are both the one who creates and the one who receives. The one who asks the question and the one who contains the answer. Trying to collapse that into one role is what creates the suffering. Holding both is what opens the field.

Where This Leaves Me

This shifts the central question of my work.

For a long time the question was: how do I read the field more accurately? How do I interpret signs correctly? How do I know when a synchronicity is real guidance versus wishful thinking?

Those are still interesting questions. But they’re no longer the most important ones.

The question I find myself living with now is quieter and stranger:

What if my work isn’t to read the field?

What if my work is to become the field I’ve been trying to read?

Not in the sense of becoming all-knowing. In the sense of becoming so coherent, so present, so rooted in genuine love and trust rather than fear and urgency, that the separation between observer and observed begins to soften.

When that happens, even briefly, in meditation, in session, in ceremony, in the quiet after a Download of Light, something changes. Intuition stops feeling like reception from somewhere far away. It starts feeling like remembering something I was never actually separate from.

I don’t know if that’s the full truth. I’m not writing this as a conclusion.

I’m writing it as an honest account of where twenty years of paying very close attention has brought me.

And if there’s one thing my near-death experience, my decades of sitting with people in their most open and vulnerable states, and my own ongoing practice have taught me, it’s this:

The deepest discoveries don’t arrive as answers.

They arrive as better questions.

This is the question I’m living into right now.

And I think it might be the most fascinating one I’ve ever asked.

✨ Ellen

Ellen Wier, MT-BC, is a music therapist, transpersonal counselor, and sound practitioner whose work sits at the intersection of neuroscience, consciousness, and ancient wisdom traditions. She is the author of Waking Up in Heaven. Learn more at wellnessmusictherapy.com.

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As a sound practitioner and music therapist, I know that sound moves through water with remarkable efficiency, which is part of why vibration affects the body so profoundly... we are, after all, mostly water ourselves. In my retreat work, water has shown up again and again as both subject and teacher, something I return to as a living collaborator in healing. And in my own daily life, water holds a practice I return to constantly: blessing it, speaking to it, drinking it with real intention rather than habit.

So when I recently came across the work of Dr. Glen Rein, a researcher with serious academic standing studying whether human consciousness can directly affect water, it felt like finding scientific language for something I have already been living.

Who Dr. Glen Rein Actually Is.

Rein’s credentials are not New Age. He earned his PhD in biochemistry from the University of London and spent twenty-five years conducting biomedical research at Stanford and Harvard Medical Schools, eventually publishing twice in the journal Nature and holding an assistant professorship at Mount Sinai Medical School. This is someone who built a career inside the most rigorous tier of mainstream science before turning his attention to a much stranger question.

In his foundational 1992 paper, “The Biological Effects of Consciousness on DNA,” Rein documented something remarkable. When practitioners directed focused, coherent intention, the kind cultivated in practices like Reiki, toward samples of water and DNA, the water’s UV absorption measurably changed, and the DNA’s solubility shifted as well.

This was a measurable, physical change in the water and genetic material itself, correlated directly with the practitioner’s intentional, coherent state.

Rein went on to found the Quantum Biology Research Lab, where he has spent years studying how water stores and carries frequency information, not just from human intention, but from electromagnetic fields, acoustic waves, and even written language. In later research, he found that written words carrying positive meaning, including sacred or spiritually significant text, produced measurable protective and reparative effects on oxidative-damaged cells in laboratory studies.

Decades of his work is consistent: water is not simply a passive chemical substance. It appears to function as a medium capable of receiving, holding, and transmitting information, including the kind of information generated by focused human consciousness.

How This Connects to My Own Work.

I’ve spent two decades working at the intersection of sound, frequency, and consciousness, and water has always sat quietly underneath all of it.

When I lead a crystal bowl session, I’m working with vibration moving through tissue that is mostly water. When I guide someone through a Download of Light, I often “see” the light moving through the body the way it would move through water, organizing, clearing, settling into coherence. The principle Rein documented in a laboratory setting is one I’ve been applying intuitively in sessions for years: coherent intention changes the medium it touches.

This is part of why I built water consciousness into my retreat work directly, not as a side detail, but as a central teaching. Something about being near water, working with water, drinking water with real presence, seems to accelerate the depth people are able to access. I didn’t need a peer-reviewed paper to know that. But I’ll admit, it feels good to have one.

In my own personal life, this has become an actual daily rhythm rather than an occasional ritual. I bless my water most mornings, often with my hand resting on the glass for a moment before I drink. I speak to it. I’ve started treating my own hydration less like a biological task and more like a continuous, quiet conversation with something that is, in a very real sense, listening.

Why This Matters Given What We Are.

Here is the detail that makes Rein’s research personally significant rather than merely academically interesting: the human body is roughly 60% water, and the brain is closer to 73%.

If water is capable of receiving and holding the imprint of focused intention and coherent energy, as Rein’s research suggests, then we are not separate from this phenomenon. We are, quite literally, made of the exact substance his research has spent decades studying. Every thought, every emotional state, every moment of genuine coherence or genuine distress is happening inside a medium that, according to this research, may be receiving and holding that information at a level deeper than we’ve assumed.

This reframes intention and prayer in an interesting way. These practices are not necessarily separate from the physical body. They may be operating directly within it, at the level of the water that makes up most of what we are.

Long before any laboratory measured this, certain feminine mystery traditions seemed to already know it. In esoteric and Gnostic teachings, Mary Magdalene is remembered as far more than a follower of Jesus; many trace her training to the Isis lineages of Egypt, where water carried deep sacred meaning as the source of life and renewal.

Within this lineage, she's connected to the letter "M" itself, said to symbolize primeval sea magic and our original mother matrix, and in the Byzantine Eastern Orthodox tradition she has even been called the fountain of life, the divine wellspring, the holy waters of life. I find it meaningful that a tradition devoted to the sacred feminine would center itself so completely on water, both the literal substance and the inner waters, the emotional, intuitive, womb-centered current that ancient initiates were taught to work with directly.

It's worth naming clearly that this comes from modern esoteric and Gnostic interpretive tradition rather than verified historical record, but as lived spiritual lineage, it resonates with exactly what the science is only now beginning to measure.

Applying This to the Full Moon Ahead.

This is where I want to shift from research to my own personal practice, because what follows is my application of these principles, not a specific finding from Rein’s published work.

Tomorrow evening, June 29th, 2026, at 7:56 PM Eastern, the moon reaches fullness in Capricorn, opposite the Sun in Cancer. This Full Moon arrives at a particularly loaded astrological moment: Mercury stations retrograde on the very same day, and Jupiter shifts from Cancer into Leo within hours of the lunation peaking, closing out a full year-long cycle and opening another.

Given what Rein’s research suggests about water’s capacity to hold coherent intention, I find this an especially meaningful window to work directly with water, not because the symbolic weight of a culminating Full Moon is, for me, a natural moment to bring focused, embodied intention into something I can hold, drink, and receive back.

This is exactly the practice I’ve been doing privately as I move through my own threshold right now. Before this Full Moon, I sat with my own water in silence, hand resting against the glass, and simply asked it to hold what I am ready to release from this completed cycle, and what I am ready to carry into what’s beginning.

If you’d like to try this yourself:

Take a glass or jar of water in both hands sometime around the Full Moon. Sit quietly for a moment and let your breath settle into genuine coherence, not rushed, not performed.

Speak your intention to the water directly and simply. Name what you are choosing to release from this completed cycle, and what you are choosing to carry forward into the new one beginning as Jupiter shifts into Leo.

Hold gratitude as you do this. Rein’s research, along with related studies on water and intention, consistently points to coherent, loving states producing the most organized, measurable response in water. Fear and urgency appear to produce the opposite.

Then cover the water with a clear cover. Let the water sit until the moon peaks, or through the night if that feels right to you. Then drink it, consciously, as a way of receiving back what you placed into it.

What This Means More Broadly.

I find Rein’s research compelling not because it proves every claim made about water consciousness in the wellness world, plenty of those claims outpace what’s actually been measured, but because it establishes something genuinely significant: focused human intention appears to produce measurable physical changes in water and DNA, documented by a rigorously credentialed scientist working within mainstream institutions.

That finding alone is enough to take the practice of intentional water work seriously, not as superstition, but as a genuine, if still emerging, area of inquiry into how consciousness and matter actually relate to one another.

It’s also enough, for me, to keep doing what I’ve been doing quietly for years: treating water as a collaborator in this work rather than simply a substance I happen to need. Tomorrow’s Full Moon is just a particularly meaningful, symbolically rich moment to bring that practice fully into the light.

With love, Ellen.

Most people think of the field, that intelligent, responsive layer of reality that produces signs, synchronicities, and guidance, as something like a messaging service. You ask a question. You receive a sign. You decode it. You move on.

After decades of paying close attention, I no longer believe that’s what’s actually happening.

The field isn’t sending you messages from the outside. It’s working on you from the inside. And the signs you notice aren’t the mechanism of change. They’re evidence that change is already underway.

This reframes everything. The question isn’t what does this sign mean? The question is: what is the field already shifting for me, before I’ve even noticed it?

The Field Doesn’t Inform. It Transforms.

Here is the part that took me the longest to understand: the field doesn’t seem particularly interested in telling us the future. It seems far more interested in changing who we are in the present, because who we are in the present is what actually determines the future.

This is a subtle but enormous distinction. A message-based universe would hand you information and let you decide what to do with it. A living field, by contrast, doesn’t just inform. It reorganizes. It moves through your nervous system, your beliefs, your emotional state, your capacity for trust, and it changes those things directly. The outer signs are simply the visible trace of an inner shift that’s already taking place.

Think of it less like receiving a letter and more like standing in a current. The current doesn’t send you a note explaining where it’s taking you. It simply moves you. And if you pay attention to your own internal state, you can feel the movement happening before you ever see where you’ve landed.

Why Internal State Changes Outer Reality

This is the mechanism worth sitting with carefully, because it’s where the real power lives.

When your nervous system is activated, fearful, scarce, hypervigilant, you interpret ambiguous information through the lens of threat. You make decisions from urgency. You send a certain kind of signal into every interaction, every choice, every relationship. The field, responding to that signal, tends to organize experiences that match it. Not because it’s punishing you, but because your internal state is genuinely shaping what you notice, how you act, and what becomes available to you.

When your nervous system shifts into coherence, settled, trusting, genuinely open, everything downstream changes. You notice different opportunities. You make different choices. You show up as a different kind of presence in every room you enter. The field, responding to that altered signal, organizes differently around you.

This is why the deepest spiritual work has never really been about decoding the external world more accurately. It’s about changing your internal state, because your internal state is the lever that actually moves reality.

The field doesn’t change your future by handing you a roadmap. It changes your future by changing you. And once you’ve changed, the future you move toward is already different than the one you would have walked into otherwise.

What Years of Watching This Closely Taught Me

I came to understand this slowly, through tracking my own life with real rigor: dreams, synchronicities, readings across multiple systems, and most importantly, what actually happened afterward in lived reality.

What I found surprised me. The strongest patterns were never single dramatic predictions about external events. They were repeated internal themes: love without self-abandonment, trust the process, release control, become the witness rather than the reactor, showing up again and again, through completely different channels, all pointing toward the same internal shift.

And here’s what mattered most: the moments when real change happened in my outer life were never the moments when I correctly predicted an outcome. They were the moments when I genuinely embodied the internal shift the field had been pointing toward all along. The prediction was never the point. The transformation was the point. The outer change followed the inner one, every single time, like a shadow follows a body.

This pattern held across every modality I tracked, which is itself meaningful. Cardology, dreams, the I Ching, astrology, numerology, visions, spiritual downloads, even ordinary conversation. Different languages, same underlying message, repeated until I finally understood it wasn’t about the content of the message at all. It was about what the message was doing for me.

The Field Responds to State, Not Effort

One of the clearest discoveries in decades of watching this closely: the quality of guidance you receive, and the speed at which outer reality seems to shift, tracks directly with your internal state, not with how hard you’re trying.

When I was operating from fear, signs felt confusing, contradictory, hard to trust. When I was operating from genuine regulation and openness, the same kind of information became clear, almost obvious, easy to act on with confidence.

This wasn’t coincidence. Every contemplative tradition that has seriously studied consciousness, Egyptian temple sleep, the preparatory rituals before consulting the Greek oracles, the I Ching’s emphasis on the questioner’s sincerity, shamanic journeying, Tibetan dream yoga, converges on the same principle. The state of the observer changes the quality and clarity of what the field reveals.

This means the most powerful spiritual practice available to any of us isn’t trying harder to interpret signs correctly. It’s tending the internal state that determines how clearly we can perceive, and how directly the field can move through us into the world.

A Field That Works Through You, Not Around You

Here is the deepest implication of all of this: you are not a passive observer waiting for the field to hand you a different future.

You are the mechanism through which the field reshapes reality.

Every time you choose coherence over fear, trust over vigilance, presence over control, you are not just managing your own internal state for your own comfort. You are altering the actual instrument through which the field expresses itself into the world. The shift happens in you first, in your nervous system, your beliefs, your willingness to remain open, and the outer reality reorganizes around that shift because you yourself have become different.

This is not metaphorical. It is, as far as I can tell after decades of careful attention, how the whole system actually works. The field is alive. It is intelligent. And its primary tool for reshaping your future is not information.

It’s you.

✨ Ellen

Ellen Wier, MT-BC, LPC is a music therapist, transpersonal counselor, sound healer, and author of Waking Up in Heaven. Her work sits at the intersection of neuroscience, consciousness, and ancient wisdom traditions. Learn more at wellnessmusictherapy.com

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