Gender dysphoria is a category of patterns of clinically observable or self reportable preoccupations, and so it can exist even if there is no such thing as a biological mechanism called gender identity. Gender dysphoria is the label for the psychological illness characterized by a belief in gender identity conflicting with sex, among other things, and trans ideology is the reality claim the illness has caused many to make, such as their industry reps trying to sell million dollar diseased arm skin funnels to teenagers.

The actual DSM-V criteria for gender dysphoria does not explicitly reference the term gender identity. It refers to experienced or expressed gender (how you say you feel and how you look to others) and assigned gender (what's socially and biologically expected of your legal sex).

In addition to that, and coequal, having personal beliefs about whether you have gender dysphoria is one of the ways to have gender dysphoria. In other words, it really is just gender dysphoria all the way down. If you think you're trans, you're halfway to a diagnosis. If you also want to trans, here's your nipples in a doggie bag so we don't clog the shower drain. Dysphoria cured. That'll be $300,000 at Dr. Marano’s office.

Gender incongruence is one of SIX possible manifestations of gender dysphoria under the DSM-5. You need only TWO criteria to qualify. You don't actually need to feel gender incongruent to have gender dysphoria. Wanting to get rid of your sex traits, even if no one can tell - what drove my use of HRT - is its own criterion.

Another criterion is wanting to be the opposite sex (trans classic). Again independent of that, is the desire to not be your sex, even if you don't want to be the other sex (nonbinitarianism). The final two are a DESIRE to be treated as a different gender (regardless of personal identification) and a BELIEF you're more like another gender.

This is an illness often borne of an incomplete theory of the world, and young person motivators like group cohesion and sexual desirability. There may be an un unquestioned belief that atypical reaction patterns for an individual member of a sex category are pathological, or not mirrored in the diversity of individuals of the other sex. It can be worked through in therapy. But for some, it is a kind of transient psychotic symptom that may portend a deeper neurological deterioration or medically treatable dysfunction.

Prior to and during my time on hormonal suppression and binding, I definitely met the official diagnostic criteria for gender dysphoria even though I had no interest, after beginning hormones and altering my appearance, to further look specifically like a man or have more of the physical traits of a man. My dysphoria was cured by having fewer female sex traits without additional male ones. 

Of course, my dysphoria was only beginning, because the hormone suppression made me worse the longer I was on it. It interacted with my underlying syndrome by affecting tissue elasticity, muscle strength and size, and other factors. I still saw the hormone suppression as helpful, since the injections felt good.  I was afraid of how bad I would feel without it.  I should have considered how I might feel better.  I did not realize the hormones worked by suppressing the function of certain glands in the brain, and that this might worsen cognitive symptoms from syndrome-related vascular compression, on top of the effect of a lack of estrogen and testosterone on brain function. 

Before long, I went beyond a rubicon of clinical invalidity, while the con continued to reinforce that all compounding difficulties and diagnoses they were giving me were coincidental to the original intervention of hormone suppression, and intrinsic to me. By the end, they were using my rejection of their last slew of diagnoses to argue I was too ill to understand my condition. In fact, they did not understand Eagle syndrome. 

They should have recognized they did not have the competency to treat me, but instead I was affirmed and given a binder, injections and an implant. Then it was ignored as a factor by a ridiculous number of providers who treat other women taking these same hormones for other reasons. Maybe at a lower dose than me, and maybe without my syndrome, makes them not be as affected. But, they're still affected. There's no free lunch. 

So I walked away. I stopped calling myself nonbinary and began consuming Magdalen Berns, Kellie-Jay Keen and Heritage Foundation panels trying to understand why the last decade of my life looked the way it did. I wouldn't begin making content for another year and a half. I had a lot of private healing to do first. Some would argue I clearly needed to do more of that. But I never expected my content to pop off the way it did. I had barely downloaded the app and spent most of my time talking about Turkish Article 301 and linguistics. I was pushed into disclosing my detrans status by the commenters calling me cis. No, I explained, actually I'm a detransitioner if I'm anything. I was completely out of the loop on the detrans movement’s existence at the time. 

The DSM criterion based diagnosis is not ranked. You aren't more or less gender dysphoric depending on what transition interventions you wish to select. Transition is how you respond to the conclusion that you're experiencing what psychiatry has defined as gender dysphoria with reference to these 6 observable or reportable criteria. If you buy into the idea that matching a psychiatric category automatically means you're ill and need their help, good luck to you as you will need it.

But for some, the preoccupation may be organic. That doesn't make the content of the delusion true or real. It makes it neurological versus psychogenic or socially acquired. The distinction matters because interventions for one won't work on the others, but to be clear, penis inversion should not be for sale. I believe much of what I was labeling dysphoria was simply symptoms of my Eagle syndrome, which is a physical condition that causes neuropsychiatric symptoms, including dissociation and a negative feedback of pain from social communication.

To suggest gender dysphoria cannot describe a person's preoccupations if gender identity does not exist is not consistent with what the DSM says. Gender dysphoria, like psychiatric diagnoses generally, is not a pathogen that can be isolated. It is a pattern of psychological preoccupation some people have, for complex reasons that detrans people are often publicly and pains-takingly, while facing significant ostracism and denigration, picking ourselves apart to show you the clockwork of.  And do you know what really grinds my gears?

Based on a true story. 

It is also akin to saying Capgras delusion can't exist unless the family members are actually imposters, or Cotard syndrome can't exist since obviously the patient isn't dead, and so we shouldn't have a specific label for those specific neuropsych patterns of fixed false belief, that may be neurogenic. “So you're saying some men have women's brains!” No, not anymore than I'm saying some Cotard patients are really dead. A delusion can come from the brain without being true. That's what a sense of gender identity conflicting with sex is. A fixed false belief. No one “has” a gender identity.  That's what gender atheists say. 

Some people do have gender dysphoria just like some people do have OCD. But no one needs to transition to prevent suicide and no one needs to wash their hands 100 times an hour so the planes don't fall out of the sky. The clinical label documents the reason for the clinical services. It doesn't require the patients’ beliefs to be true, just qualitatively identifiable. 

My take on the problem with the diagnosis is that it's defined in the way it is to be accessible to members of a social fad and then insurance fundable. The dog is then wagged with the 41% statistic to convince a lot of otherwise healthy, normal, beautiful, traumatized, neurotic young people, mostly women, many autistic, to self harm to prevent self harm on the belief that they're at high risk of self harm. I was deeply confused when this made sense. 

Look at these categories.  You want this. You desire that. You feel like this. You are convinced you're like that.  It's worse than giving the people what they want because psychiatry has redefined the concept of want as need.What's medically necessary is not amputation of the confused healthy person's organs, but professional support in thinking through the underlying cause of this envious fixation on what you don't have and don't need, to develop the metacognitive strategies needed to grow past it or reveal other impairments over time, in the case of genuine underlying mental illness. 

For most people, gender dysphoria is a phase. For some, they are stunted and will not outgrow it. And some are manifesting the behavior because of a deeper and possibly degenerative issue. They may also not grow out of it no matter how much talk therapy you give them.  It is important to not forget that you can only help the people you can help, and there are more people you can help than you have time to help, so don't waste time trying to help the people you cannot help. 

Lyrics for the song at the end:

What… did I just read?/

What in the ever loving f*ck did I just read?/

I can't unsee what has been seen/

Some links should always stay blue!

Another victim of overt Transhausen by Proxy, antidepressant overprescribing in autism and parental divorce trauma ended his life as a teenager.

Instead of taking accountability for their failures, his parents took to the media to politicize the death of the son they had chattelized since toddlerhood. They had attempted to fix May’s dissociation, possibly a result of autism, likely predictably compounded by a disassociated family experience, split between your dad’s house and your mom’s house because it’s never your house, by having a doctor prescribe him drugs. They “set it and forgot it,” and seemed to have never questioned the role the antidepressants were playing in his deterioration or subsequent gender preoccupation.

When antidepressants in 7th grade led to suicidal ideation by 9th grade, they added titty skittles instead of taking away the drugs. They blamed his anorexia, another possible antidepressant side effect (they increase dopamine downstream which can cause appetite suppression and sometimes psychosis) or primary mental illness symptom, and resulting malnutrition and chronic dehydration (both of which could have exacerbated his delusional thinking) on trans bathroom laws. It’s as though they just could not accept that their child was severely mentally ill and/or manifesting negative side effects of years of medication and long term impact of their lifestyle choice. No, society must be to blame.

Rest in peace, “May.”

If you or someone you know is in crisis, call or text 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or chat live at 988lifeline.org. You can also visit SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources for additional support.

She was the patent, acted upon, not the survivor willing to do anything if it meant getting thrive the night and staying on this rock. She's realizing that her authentic detrans self is not taken seriously. Because the ideology is an authority she's not ready to challenge, she blames the transphobic detransitioners for the fact her emotional needs are still not being met by the trans community and its allies. She’s not yet named that anger at being blatantly lied to about her possible prognosis. She is still in a denial mode where she does not regret the permanent changes even in the absence of the reason for them.

I also used to say I didn’t regret my transition and that I merely outgrew it, but eventually the warm glow of reclaiming your womanhood has to be seen alongside the fact that the cure I was sold was alleged to be the only answer. I had to be willing to look at the harm that was done unnecessarily. Time was also a cure. Some do grow out of it. Yet the experts pretend otherwise. They told me it was permanent when it wasn’t ever proven to be so. They told me I would always feel this way completely without justification.

Now we know we could have waited for it to resolve. Now one must question, did the hormones actually delay that maturation process by which we outgrew dysphoria? I believe so. The hormones disrupt your awareness of your uncomfortable predicament, so you feel less emotional pain, at the cost of reduced emotional processing and therefore personal growth. When all the while, watchful waiting and supportive care for safety and healing would have led to the same outcome, minus the bodily injuries and loss of function

I hope this woman finds her way to support groups at organizations like and Beyond Trans.

Gender ideology begins its machinations by destabilizing your sense of what you know about sex differences. One such difference is the strength and size differential. The destabilization is aimed at undermining your knowledge that these differences are DUE TO “sex,” and getting you to imagine a fanciful world where men eat more because they are socialized to be big and strong, and this leads to them becoming bigger and stronger. Since women are socialized to be thin and small, we eat less, thus becoming smaller adults. Yes, this is silly, but it is an indoctrination process, and there is a doctrinaire docent affirming you when you are leaving the rational, scientific part of your mind, your experiential knowledge and what you know to be true, and entering the dark fantasyland where anything is possible and probably it will help somehow to self-harm.

About 18 months into my use of hormone therapy to suppress my natural estrogen, stop my natural cycling, and have a mild androgenic/anabolic effect - resulting in getting as jacked as I have ever been in my life and objectively stronger and more muscular than I am physically capable of becoming while having normal estrogen cycles (I’ve tried! It just does not work the same) - I had a similar belief that I had in some sense, caught up to male biology and become man-like in my strength and stamina.

I was quite open about this belief, and few challenged me, both because it would be disaffirming of my gender, and because I was, shall we say, less open to patient attempts to reason with me. I knew what I knew, if you disagreed, you must be wrong, and that was that.

So one day, a man decided to show me rather than tell me, and challenged me to wrestle, and in about 4 minutes, I had what my ex-Scientologist parent used to term a “severe reality adjustment.” I came out of that interaction questioning what I had been taught in gender class. This man was my exact height and weight and we seemed to have a similar amount of muscle mass, yet he easily defeated me, as though his opponent had been a pool noodle or a raggedy Ann doll. The veil of my temple of gender had been torn apart in that moment.

This woman may be confronting a similar crisis of faith. Her belief is that if she takes drugs to look like a man, and identifies as a man, then she is a man. As a trans man, she’s arguably more passable than man (certainly more than myself). She likely had similar beliefs about her own strength compared to actual men. So she went up to this strange man on the street with a swagger of a thousand Chads and said, “What did you say to me?!” in an apparently aggressive manner, and somehow, this lead her to be struck, according to her.

I am skeptical that even that happened, as it seems to me that a punch that knocks out your teeth should injure your lip in some way, but assuming it did, her immediate conclusion was not that she had passed as a man and been struck for starting an argument with another man she did not know. Instead, she retreated into her actual sex category, with its coat of gender, and concluded that she was beaten up for being a female dressed as a male, not for being an aggressive, confrontational man. She did not expect violence, because compared to men, women are actually far less likely to experience male violence. The only kind of violence we are more likely to experience than men, is sexualized violence. But our overall risk of male violence is low, as men tend to fight each other.

She assumes no one wanted to call 911 because they did not want to “get in the way” of systemic violence against trans people, but it is more likely to me that they did not want to call 911 because they could see the situation had resolved and she did not need emergency medical attention. She also expresses frustration that no one wanted to film the altercation. Perhaps this is because the altercation was incredibly short-lived, and perhaps it speaks to her intent in starting the aggressive confrontation “at the beginning of pride month.” It sounds to me like there is a possibility that she was hoping to be victimized and have it go viral at the beginning of pride month for a political reason, and was disappointed that other people could see her intentions and motives clearly, and chose not to involve themselves. But perhaps she was just introduced to the world men actually live in, where they are 2-3 times more likely to be punched on the street by another man than a woman is.

“Pattie Gonia” AKA Wyn Wiley, 34, (unconfirmed relation to the famous coyote) is a drag queen and self-styled environmental activist openly parodying the Patagonia name. While I would normally be in favor of parody rights, given my parody title, I Am Jazz’s Waking Nightmare, what distinguishes Wyn from myself, besides our sex, is that he decided to ignore Patagonia’s patient guidance. They warned him, and he still tried to trademark the name “Pattie Gonia” for the purpose of selling clothing merch - what the Patagonia brand is famous for. No longer merely parodying the name for art, he had become a competitor in a tight apparel market. Patagonia had warned him, years ago, that this would be a bridge too far. He said he had heard them. His need to transgress overcame his sensibilities.

Help! Help! I’m being erased because you’re not letting me pretend to be you! Help!!

Patagonia is required to defend their trademark or else they risk losing the ability to enforce trademark rights - and their financial reason to do so, as their brand dilutes in the market. Patagonia has now sued him for $1, in order to force him to stop using the name “Pattie Gonia” to sell merchandise, as well as to get him to cease his mimicry of their label. In return, he has only offered to withdraw his trademark application. That is not enough for Patagonia.

Since being sued, Wyn has taken to Tiktok to cry foul at the transphobic capitalist borg that is trying to crush his mxm and pxp business on the eve of Pride month, in a year when so much terf rhetoric hath been uttered.

He has also published an open letter on his website, calling out the obvious motive: Patagonia does not want him to exist.

So let’s take a step back and reflect on the psychology of these men, using this case study of a man who was so affirmed and encouraged in his female impersonation that he sought to impersonate an entire company. So he did, and still, again, he hungered, so he took it a step further. Now Patagonia has been predictably forced by his incursion to draw the line and call for help. In return, Patagonia, the clothing brand that makes puffy generojackets for vegan hikers who plan to climb Everest eventually, is having their name dragged through the mud. Patagonia is the premier purveyor of butch lesbian trail fashion, so of course they’re being targeted by a guy in a dress who thinks he is one of them. I just never thought I’d see these guys try to compulsively mimic and force-team an entire class B corporation.

Wyn may lose this round. He’s already facing backlash on Tiktok from people respecting his pronouns. It seems the general consensus is that he’s clearly infringing on their trademark to a reasonable person. Further, many do not like that Wyn is manipulating people, such as by stating that he got his drag name from the geographical region directly rather than from the Patagonia brand, contradicting past statements, or that he is a victim of anti-queer sentiment. He is targeting a corporation that is broadly aligned with his goals. And like any other handmaiden, their allyship did not protect them.

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To celebrate Trans Day of Visibility, my therapist ended our therapeutic relationship because I said I don’t believe in the gender souls of her other clients.

In response to her probing and off-topic questions, I disclosed that I do not believe her other clients - whom she volunteered were satisfied with their transition - were born in the wrong body. I explained that I think this is because no one is “in” a body. We are our bodies.

I also said that the only way a person can be trans is to believe they are trans, just like the only way I think people are Christian is if they believe they are Christian, due to not sharing their belief in Communion with a deity. I said I view this as a difference in spiritual/religious belief. She then told me that due to her work with the trans community, she is not the right therapist for me. She then ended the session early.

I’ve never had my atheist-materialist beliefs or detrans history be a barrier to accessing care before. I went to therapy in good faith. I was referred to her randomly by my insurance. I was not there to talk about her other clients’ gender, obviously. I doubt trans clients get asked about or dropped for their thoughts about gender atheists, terfs or detransitioners.

Since I won’t say trans women are women, I have to to go the back of the line again, wait several more weeks, spend several more weeks explaining my life story to someone new, only to wonder what in my history, what religious or political belief of mine that the therapist might ask about several sessions in, will cause the therapeutic relationship to end without warning.

I had brought up my detransition prior to being referred and in the initial session. But this was the first session she directly asked if I think her clients actually have cross sex souls, and she ended the therapeutic relationship as soon as I explained that I do not. I’m in the process of requesting records to file a complaint which is why I am leaving out MR’s identity yet. If you’re detrans seeking therapy in the SF bay area and need to know who to avoid, DM me.

This is how that same profession that was happy to affirm you, inject you or even cut you to pieces will treat you when you realize it was a phase.

A Mormon man leaves his wife and four children to live his dream of full-time transvestism. He nevertheless ended his life at 55. His family used his original name in their obituary, so the trans community wrote their own affirming one, which I was able to connect using the dates. The affirming obituary notes that he ended his life during Pride month.

His Facebook used an AI generated portrait to make him look more feminine.

The children he left behind are in his banner.

The year prior to his death, he became certified in methods of permanent hair removal.

Based on his social media, his transition seems to have been a reaction to the pandemic. He was still in boymode in 2021.6

Rest in peace, Eric.

I am a graduate of your program (class of 2011. I wrote an honors thesis). I identified as transgender and nonbinary for about 10 years. I was prescribed hormones to alter my sex characteristics and natural hormone levels. I was medically harmed by these treatments that I received through Kaiser Permanente. I no longer take hormones. I no longer identify as transgender. I no longer experience gender dysphoria.

At the time, as I recall, the GWS program did not include any information about detransition or the reality that many people who identify as transgender/nonbinary are destined to outgrow it or otherwise recover from gender dysphoria. If you thought you were trans, you were trans, and would always be trans.

Has this changed at all in recent years? In light of growing public awareness of detransitioners, is there information on detransition and outgrowing gender dysphoria now included in the GWS curriculum at Cal? Are students still being given an inaccurate impression that trans identification is necessarily permanent?

Thank you!

Sincerely,

A 24-year-old trans-identifying man going by “Emma” ended his life in Indiana last summer following chronic mental illness, beginning in childhood, and an unspecified addiction. His obituary did not mention that he was trans or died by suicide, but social media and Trans Day of Remembrance has this information.

Owen’s mother seems to have not affirmed him. Despite this, he appears to have been on estrogen at the time he ended his life. Another suicide not prevented by gender affirming care or social transition.

Rest in peace, Owen.

He is now a detrans activist who was nearly platformed in a detransitioner documentary a few years ago. I am not mentioning the name of the documentary due to the fact that the other producers quickly cut him from the film when I and MANY others brought his history and confessions to their attention.

He was platformed by none other than my most femme nemesis, “desister” and terf activist Joey Brite, who I first encountered when she attempted to recruit me into a campaign against a trans widow GC content creator for being the wrong kind of Jew and using a term Brite decided was not hers to use. Ute was purportedly appropriating the extremely European term “grass widow” from Judaism (despite the fact she is herself a Jewish convert). I immediately pointed out, as a linguist, that “grass widow” had at best, a thematic similarity to the Hebrew/ Jewish term “agunah,” but did not derive from it or mean the same thing at all. Plus, etymologically, it began in Germany (strohwitwe) and spread from there, along with words like straw vote, straw poll, and straw man. The common theme of these words is that straw/grass means fake or false or imitation. I was accused of “weaponizing etymology.”

Brite went after her over this for months and contacted her estranged adult children to tell them their mother was “in a meltdown mode” and needed psychiatric hospitalization. I was sent this exchange out of the blue. When I immediately told her I didn't support what she was doing, including sending me the names and photos of this woman's relatives, and notified Heggen, Brite threatened me with a frivolous restraining order and tried to get people to report my channel for discussing the drama.

To this day, Brite calls Kendall a “reformed man” (like she's in a position to know if he's still spreading HIV to men and boys by sabotaging condoms).

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Now Brite has recruited another former transgender prostitute turned detrans activist, a man who threatens to physically brutalize specific younger women (not me, I'm older) that he dislikes. He fantasizes about them being raped in writing. Ariannna Laureanno was tasked with spreading the absurd idea that I “destroyed” the sex offender because I hate gay men. Apparently, this is what Ari thinks gay men are generally like. I don't think anyone hates men as much as a man who tried to give as many men HIV in the 90s as he possibly could, but that's just me.

To be clear, I genuinely hope I destroyed him, like he destroyed the lives of the victims he raped by deception, and their loved ones who were infected as a result of his rapist ways, as well as the child he was convicted of sexually offending against, and the children he got away with harming. He’s still trying to get people to believe he can't give them HIV. It stands to reason this predator still enjoys giving people a deadly virus by tricking them. I have no regrets about this destruction. Safeguarding isn't sexist just because rapists are typically men.

Lyrics to the song “Trust Me, Bro” at the top.

as a transgender prostitute

i had so much rage and all

but I found myself an outlet

My name is David Arthur Kendall

I was angry that a man gave me H I V

so I came up with a plan

to poke holes in the condoms

and infect man after man

so they’d infect their wives

AIDS rapist

pedo in disguise!

AIDS rapist

pedo in disguise!

that wasn’t all I did

and I was never caught

yet I’m a sex offender

I was like what

it must have been his mother

making the child lie about me

even though I was caught with a minor

who was only fifteen

I’m the real victim

aids rapist!

pedo in disguise

aids rapist!

pedo in disguise

now that I’m reformed

and Jesus cured me

I’m completely harmless

i won’t give you H I V

give me a platform

you all can trust me

can I speak at a school board please

put me in a documentary

it’ll be so affirming

aids rapist!

pedo in disguise

aids rapist!

pedo in disguise

you can trust me bro

He's a cluster B mega genius with a 181 IQ.

He admits he was assigned male at birth despite being born with no penis, a vagina, a womb, an ovary, and an ovotestes.

He then claims he was jack-o-lanterned at birth, stating at different times that one or both of his gonads were removed, and that he had a hormone deficiency in adolescence because he was immune to hormones due to his intersex disorder.

At age 5, he claims he was given a “hybrid phalloplasty.”

He elsewhere claims his mother and stepfather refused to correct his hormone deficiency despite knowing that his gonads were removed at birth. Yet they had him assigned male, took his ovaries and gave him a penis due to being evil.

He claims to have both true and pseudohermaphroditism, as well as XX/XY chimerism.

He claims he was given a phalloplasty with erectile device when he was still very young, against his will at age 4 or 5 (reverse David Reimer).

He claims despite the phalloplasty and the infant hysterectomy, oophorectomy and vaginectomy, and being assigned male, he was treated as female. His evil mother gave him a penis but refused him testosterone.

He claims his hormone deficiency, not the Y chromosome, led him to look masculine as an adolescent. He admits he has been on feminizing hormone therapy since he was around 19, and is 22 currently. He claims he is prescribed low-dose testosterone as part of his intersex hormone replacement therapy, though the dose he claims to be prescribed is too high for his alleged prescription to adequately cover in the time it is supposed to cover.

He claims he is prescribed 0.05ml of 200mg/ml bottle (so, 10mg of testosterone, presumably per day, or 280 mg per month - more than you’d get out of one 200mg vial per month). This is also about twice what women are typically prescribed for true female HRT (testosterone is increasingly recognized as an essential hormone for women, and in fact is essential to normal female fertility, meaning true female CAIS - female androgen insensitivity - might present as idiopathic ovarian failure).

He intends to feed his moob juice to babies.

He is a pornographer who sells “girldick” videos.

For the sake of due diligence, I investigated slightly (just the proverbial tip). He didn’t get the kind of phalloplasty he’s claiming he got from his evil mother at age 5. That’s not where that organ came from. That’s not what FTM phalloplasties look like. He was plenty androgen sensitive as an adolescent. I have seen enough. I'm protecting your innocence. You're welcome.

He does not like terfs and cis lesbians.

So my conclusion is that he got this testosterone prescription as a trans identified male who is legally female and pretending to be an “intersex woman,” and proceeded to begin distributing this controlled substance to the women in his life. While he has not admitted to distributing it to the two previous FTM partners he claims “accidentally” sexually assaulted him within a few weeks of starting testosterone, I do have to wonder.

Getting “rapejacketed” is a major concern for this serial victim of pre and early transition afab rapists.

He did admit to distributing the testosterone to a woman who, if I understand him correctly, permitted him to move in with her due to his need for housing. He’s characterized her as a roommate to downplay the depths of his narcissistic coercive control, but admits he was also sleeping with this woman. Here's where he again accuses her of having stolen the testosterone he gave her. His description of this alleged theft places it after the incident when he was in jail, but here he is clearly suggesting she stole the bottle he admits he gave her, and it sounded like the police only recovered one bottle from her, so I think the entire theft story is a lie to downplay the fact that if his story is true, she had a bad reaction to what he illegally injected her with despite his concerns over the interaction with the mental illness he believed she had and was not medicated for. I believe this is why he admits she was not charged.

Using his 181 IQ and cutting edge medical research (he’s a future doctor, don’tcha know, and basically a subject matter expert due to his extensive knowledge of his intersex condition /s) he seems to have convinced her that her bipolar disorder, which he alleges she has and was not on medication for, might be a side effect of gender dysphoria. He also told her trans men inherently need testosterone to function correctly.

Because of her mental health, supposedly, she missed her appointment to actually get a prescription for this controlled substance from a medical doctor who had reviewed her specific health history and assessed her for comorbidities like active mania. Because of his genius, though, our friend Ari here was well aware of the fact that giving testosterone to a young woman at a male dose might precipitate a bipolar manic episode.

But he did it anyway.

And he lied.

And not only that, he did it twice, and he did it a third time when he distributed another vial to her friend. Not only that, he injected her with the mystery drug he produced from his room. Who knows what was even in that vial! He tacitly conceded it could have been laced with the suggestion they fought when she was on “god kows what else.”

He used the accusation she had stolen the bottle (which he alleged she did after he was already in jail but still elsewhere libeled her and said during the fight she was on stolen drugs, despite admitting to injecting her) to get her to drop the domestic violence charges. I think he's editorializing her admission to having them to an admission to stealing them also.

He also has given multiple accounts of what led up to the conflict, including apparently crying rape again. This is clearly a dude who is sexually fixated.

Seems to be a chronic issue.

He’s clearly knowledgeable about drugs - he even agrees with me that depo provera is poison that should really not be used for birth control when actual progesterone is right there - and so the question is, what did he even inject her with that he says made her go crazy, just like those other FTMs that he says became violent towards him right after they somehow got injected with testosterone? Maybe he laced it. He’s clearly not trying to follow the law or be honest. And he’s admitted to having an interest in forced masculinization of women on his X profile.

He's essentially a living archetype of this subtype of “trans woman,” who uses an elaborate medical justification for why you need to respect his pronouns and why he really is a female, unlike those other trans women. But as with others I've documented - Dalea Rundblad, Eli Rubashkyn, to name a couple - they often do not understand the disorders well enough to keep them mentally separated. And intersex faking men often lash out against the women they long to embody.

This is who they want to put in women's prisons. No males belong in female jails.

A 22 year old trans-identifying man ended his life following his murder of his girlfriend, Amber “Ray” Muscat, and brother, Bishop Taverner, in Independence Township, Michigan in 2022. Like Lia Smith, Martin then walked into the woods and ended his life. He had been on hormones since lockdown, November 2020, according to his social media.

Martin AKA Ruby was one member of a set of triplets, and the murder-suicide of his brother therefore left behind a surviving third triplet.

Ruby’s other victim was also a trans-identifying woman calling herself “Ray.” Despite their gender ideation, the most likely scenario played out: a male killed a female intimate partner. Ironically, Amber’s social media handle was ray_graveyard. Amber was had been taking testosterone for approximately 10 months when Martin killed her, as suggested by her social media. What began as innocent cosplay would claim both their lives as they tried to live the costume full time, with the help of drugs.

Ray Muscat (FTM)

Martin’s obituary does not mention his trans status. According to his mother Karen, Martin had been treated for depression since the age of 7, and had been on medication from age 7-18. When he became a legal adult, he abandoned his psychiatric medication and switched to titty skittles.

Kobylik said her [son] had been treated for mental health problems including depression since the age of 7 but had stopped taking [his] medication at 18.

Somehow, the state that he was in permitted him to buy a firearm days after being released from a psychiatric hospital.

Just days before the killings, Taverner purchased the Glock 43X used in the shooting after she had been released from a psychiatric hospital for threatening to take her own life, Kobylik said.

Meanwhile, as I’ve written about elsewhere, some women who are no threat to anyone lose their gun rights for life because a hospital decides to keep them for four days instead of three, after the patient voluntarily asked to be admitted. Once you are on that list, it is very difficult, if not impossible, to get your rights back. But often times, people who need to be confined and receive a higher level of care, are released back into the community by these same hospitals and go on to commit serious acts of violence. The system is incredibly broken and patients and their families pay the price.

Rest in peace, Amber, Bishop, and Martin.