Today, I found I couldn’t complete a whole deep breath. My breathing was shallow, uncomfortable and a sense of fear and unease began to creep in.

It was only when I got to pilates, laid on my reformer bed and asked my guides—that I remembered this was a feeling that was once all too-familiar.

Anxiety.

It was only a year ago that I was considering going on medication to help. It wasn’t that I thought medication was bad, it was just a sudden realisation that it was the first time in years that I felt so hopeless that it would never cease. And now, something that once plagued my existence for years (up until 6 months ago), now seemed so foreign.

I realised it was my message to write about my story with anxiety, and most importantly - how I overcame it. I know how debilitating true anxiety can be, sometimes deep enough to start to sense the little tides of depression rolling over your toes as you look out into the distance—to a future filled with more hopelessness, worry and fear. So if I'm able to help even one person move through that feeling, I'd be blessed.

Side note: the way I banished my feelings of anxiety is not “average”. But for me, it worked. So much so that those feelings of anxiety that surfaced this morning are now unrecognisable to me.

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The channels are for paid-subscribers, I feel in my soul that going forward, my life mission and purpose is to help the world raise their frequency. From a rational perspective, in order for that to happen I need to be compensated for my work. The compensation per month is small, but brings me one step closer to completing the awesome task that the universe has put in front of me to be one of the great spiritual leaders of the new era.

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I’m going to say it - manifestation, in the way it is broadly being taught; does not and will not work for 80% of the population.

Let me be clear, I don’t want to write this post to discourage people from manifestation, because it is very real. Just the way we’re going about it, is wrong and almost gimmicky.

Let’s talk about what manifestation is, and then I'll talk through my personal experience of exactly how I've manifested huge amounts of money and opportunity.

People have been manifesting since the dawn of time. The people of Atlantis (let me know if you want a full post on the Golden Age of Atlantis) wouldn’t have understood ‘manifestation’ as a concept like we do today. It was just ordinary life. There was no wanting or yearning for material possessions, the people of Atlantis had full gratitude and acceptance for everything they had, and everything they were.

If someone in Atlantis wanted a new home to suit their growing family, or a new piece of clothing to wear it would just be. Now I know that’s a hard concept to get your head around, we’re talking about ATLANTIS. Something that most of us have grown up to believe may or not be true. A sunken island in the middle of the deep sea somewhere. However, it is true; and no effort went into manifestation. It was their whole way of life. They just knew, that if they had need or desire for something - it would appear.

The same is said in the bible “look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them”. Translation? Every single soul in the animal kingdom doesn’t sit around and mediate or create vision boards to manifest their next meal. It simply is. They know that it is, and abundance is available to them.

I’ll be honest, writing this post is actually a great reminder for me. Even though I've learnt this first hand - the marketing around manifestation is so strong that even I feel like I need to join in. AI just said that “the standalone manifestation and "Law of Attraction" industry is independently valued at approximately $10 billion to $10.4 billion per year globally.” We can’t avoid the fact that this ancient, highly spiritual technology is now become big business.

Now I'm not saying any of these things are bad, in fact - I even subscribe to one app myself. However, for the most part I just think they’re over-complicated and sort of missing the point.

So, how do you actually manifest and what does it all mean? It’s two very simple steps.

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The answer? Because I have a higher purpose to achieve. I’ve written about this a lot, but in September 2024, the moment my second beautiful baby boy came into this world - I had a spiritual awakening. It started the second he was born, I had a c-section and the moment they put his head next to mine I felt an instant transfusion of the most beautiful, loving energy I had ever felt in my life. It’s only now, that I have come to realise that I received his love in it’s purest form; from the heavens. It was the second he came into this world, just as he crossed over from the angelic realms. I felt the angel energy we all possess. However, as we age, even by the minute as a newborn fresh out of the womb - we begin to become susceptible to the pressures, needs, wants and desires of being human. It’s something that’s truly beautiful, why our souls line up to come here, to win our place on this planet. But, it’s also hard - it shapes and shifts our aura, we come here with lifetimes of karma that we need to transmute.

All of this… and we forget our one true goal—for our soul to reach enlightenment.

I’ve spent my 29 years on earth being driven by goals. Constantly, goals, goals, goals, goals. We’re taught it so early on, right? Even my kid’s educators ask me what goals I want them to work through at ages 2 and 4. We’re taught how to create SMART goals at university. We fill out review forms at work that are centred around goals for the business. We have goals of having a house by X age, kids 5 years after that, our mortgage paid off in 20 years and we absolutely need to go on that holiday.

My team of angelic guides and ancestors recently sent me the opportunity to receive some free life-coaching with a mentor of mine. When she asked me what I'd like to work through for the next hour, I said I want to be present and grateful.

Let me take you back a few weeks before this very moment.

My great-grandmother, who I graciously had in my life for 14 years and whom I absolutely loved; was unbeknownst to me a bit of a “tough” woman. To me, she was the light of my life, we absolutely adored and cherished each other. However, I recently learnt that she most likely suffered from depression for most of her life, she was just never happy. One example of this I was given was that she moved houses 10 times in the later years of her life, because she just couldn’t find a place that made her happy.

We recently moved into our new home, which we built from the ground up; it was a long journey and extremely tough spiritually and mentally to say the least.

We moved in, and I wasn’t happy. I kept thinking about our next move. “What are we going to do next?” I said to my husband, a few weeks after moving in.

“I don’t want to become my great-grandmother!” I told my coach. See my angelic team of guides sent me all of this information for a reason. I’ve lived my life goal by goal. I’d forgotten to be present, I'd forgotten to feel gratitude. And when I say forgotten, not that I missed writing it on my to-do list. I had forgotten, the purpose of my being here, why I reincarnated on earth again.

We’re all in the process of remembering. We come to earth, again and again with the goal of being a better, more evolved soul. Each time we’re sent - our memories are wiped. We forget all of the little learnings from our past lives, it’s part of our spiritual growth and journey to remember them again.

So, I got to the point in this coaching session where I realised my only true goal for this next little while is to be present and grateful with what source has provided to me in this very moment.

My life, since I implemented this only a few short weeks ago, has changed immensely. I now frequently feel like bursting into tears because the emotion behind the gratitude I feel is so strong. I feel truly, happy for the first time in perhaps my whole life. I feel in-sync with the universe. I feel like I am one with our divine pacha mama (earth), mama yemena (moon), papa inti (sun), and wirrococha (consciousness).

I’ve written all of this to now contradict myself, I do have one goal. My goal on Substack is to show up as the spiritual leader my guides are calling me to be. I want to teach others to come to this point of true love and light in their lives.

I don’t want to sugar coat this - this is a true miracle in my life. If you had met me two years ago, you probably would have felt the negative energy vibrating off my aura from a mile away. Constantly needing approval from others, disappointed, feeling lack in every area of my life, tired and burnt out. To get to a place of honouring my self worth, being able to slow down without guilt, to feel truly content and filled to the brim with gratitude—is a true miracle. Not to mention, the fact that I now have the divine power of being able to channel the most beautiful, divine wisdom for you all from the angelic realms.

So what can you expect from me going forward?

1. I channel my team of divine angels and ancestors, every single day. I am in constant communication with them. They have lead me here, and will continue to lead me every single day. They want to open up a divine channel of communication so that I can be their mouthpiece to help elevate the world to our new, golden age in 2032.

2. I want to give you the gift of inner healing. By recounting my own stories, progress, channels and new learnings - I know that I can truly help you on your path and journey to increasing your frequency to the most incredible and divine place.

3. I used to wake up every day, saying if I could only find peace in my life I'd be happy—I have truly found that. I have found peace, even when the circumstances are completely wrong, I can find peace in every single day. Not all day every day, but every day.

4. I’m just a normal person. I swear, I have two kids, a husband, a house to clean, dinners to cook, bread to bake and money to make. I don’t sugar coat anything, spiritual evolvement is fucking hard. It is not easy. It ebbs and flows and just when you think you’ve learnt your lesson - there’s another around the corner. But we are doing this as a collective, I want to help you on your journey. Subscribing to this channel isn’t just reading journals from someone you’ve never met. DM me, chat through what’s going on with you with me, I want to help. I want to help us elevate our souls in anyway I can. Walk with me on this path, so that we can help each other.

So that’s where we’re heading. Tell me about which of the above you’re most excited about! I want to know what perks your interest, why are you here? Why have you taken the time to read to this point? I want to know so that I can do my best to serve you during my time on this earth.

With the highest love, light and blessings for a beautiful week,

Ellaina

P.S. Most of my content is paid, if you aren’t in a position to pay for it - please DM me so I can gift you a subscription. I never want the energy of money to get in the way of helping someone raise their frequency.

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I took this photo about 18 months ago, during an extremely challenging period of my life. I’ve only just realised the beautiful orbs showing - another divine message that we are never walking this path alone.

I bet you’re thinking “ffs here’s another woo-woo spiritual girl who’s completely delusional talking about quantum leaping, if I read another one of these I'll die.”

Every time I hear the term quantum leap I think “ok, sounds cool. but….. I don’t get it”.

Don’t get me wrong, I've never thought it wasn’t real. I just never understood it, until I experienced it for myself. I had an out-of-body experience (like I physically felt my soul leave my body). Twice. In the last 24 hours. And I'm here to try and explain it.

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I was thinking about how the fuck do I make it through another day without losing my shit at the kids, or going into a downward emotional spiral because my husbands going to be an hour late from work.

For years all I wanted was peace. I would pray for peace. Not world peace like Miss Congeniality, just inner peace. I wanted to wake up and just feel peace.

Now I haven’t reached angelic status yet, I still have my moments. But I can honestly say 99% of the time, I do feel at complete peace.

How? I learnt how to raise my frequency. Here’s my hot take - a lot of people online are going to try and sell you a lot of quick fixes to raise your frequency. If that works for you, that’s great. But in my experience, it took two years of incredibly challenging shadow work and a huge quantum leap. And? I want to genuinely teach you how to do this.

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I used to be someone who suffered with extreme anxiety. I’d have regular panic attacks where my husband would have to put pressure on my heart just so that I could breathe normally. Everything was “too much” for me, looking after my kids on my own, tricky situations at work, social outings. “Too much” was a constant phrase (excuse) in my life.

However, I genuinely feel like I've cracked the code to raising your frequency.

I know frequency seems like a woo woo BS concept to some of you, and it would have at one point in my life as well. But I've come to learn it’s a lot deeper than what most people explain online.

In fact I have really only heard people talking about frequency in order to manifest abundance, and that’s great; I totally agree, attracting abundance is a huge side effect. However, it shouldn’t be the actual goal.

To put it extremely simply, think of raising your frequency as increasing your mental health status. Imagine your mental health is a little bar on a video game, being able to raise your frequency means that little crash bandicoot health bar is allllll green baby. It’s being able to not just cope with every day life, but find true enjoyment out of it.

It’s a known fact in the spiritual realm that souls are lining up for the chance to reincarnate on earth. Have you had those days where you just feel like life on earth is so damn hard?! Rising costs of living, being forced to work for someone else for 55 years of your life only to retire on a small pension. Yeah, some of the facts we generally accept our life on earth are, in a word, shit.

But - we are so incredibly lucky to be here. To have the opportunity to experience humanity, to learn to love, to go to sleep and to wake up every day, to get to experience miracles, to have human bodies that can experience emotion, pleasure and pain. Getting to a point where you feel gratitude and expansion for each of these small moments throughout the day is when you know you’ve been able to raise your frequency.

Now, I think I could write about what this feels like for ever, and comment below if you want more info as I'd happily write another post. But for now, I want to leave you with three key takeaways that you can start doing right now to raise your frequency. And, because it’s me I am channeling these straight from my divine guides of the universe.

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1. Wake up in the morning with a sense of gratitude

   Starting your day with even a small acceptance of gratitude will completely change your outlook on life. Do not make this something that you feel you should be grateful for - like a roof over your head. Search for something that you feel truly and divinely grateful for. You should feel a moment where your energy completely switches. If you don’t keep searching.

2. Ask for a sign from the universe that you’re on the right track

   Asking for symbols in your every day life that you’re on the right track to raising your frequency can be incredibly rewarding for humankind. Humans are wired to want gratification in their lives. Raising your frequency can be a long process, so having small tokens of reward on your path can be incredibly validating. Ask for a specific symbol and we will show it to you when you’re on the right track.

3. Ask for forgiveness

   Having negative karma attached to you from this lifetime and the lifetimes that have proceeded it creates holes in your aura which makes it easy for your frequency to drain out. Ask Archangel Amethyst for help and guidance out loud. If there are people or situations that come to mind when reading this, seek forgiveness. It is important that we right our wrongs before moving forward.

Raising your frequency is not an easy journey, it can be harrowing but it is of vital importance if you wish to move through life with gratitude and abundance. There is no short-cut, there is no frequency music or tuning fork that can get you there quicker. There is a lot of internal, soul-healing work that must be done to get to where you want to be. Just start, we will guide you along your journey. Align yourself with allies in the physical realm (earth) that will help you along the way; community will help you vastly.

Sometimes when I channel guidance I think that it’s obscure, or overly simple and it won’t even make a dent in how I'm feeling. However, it always does. So my guidance to you, is just try it. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain. As someone on the other side of this, trust me. Life only gets infinitely better as your frequency rises.

Try it, and comment below with your results. I just know there is going to be magic for YOU in this work.

I am going to be writing a lot more about raising your frequency, so make sure you subscribe so you don’t miss out.

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I immediately asked my guides what this meant, and the purest channel about the new paradigm came through instantly and I just had to share it. I feel the information it contains is so incredibly important for all of us in the next year as we transition from the old world to the new. Getting left behind is not an option, right?!

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This is my journey to becoming, that I haven’t told - because it’s fucking scary to be this vulnerable. And tell a story I haven’t even really told to those closest to me.

See, what people tell you on spiritual community groups on Facebook and in books on manifestation is that your spiritual awakening is beautiful, a moment of surrender, “touch grass for the first time with your bare feet and you’ll feel close to godliness”. If that’s true for you, then I am SO glad for you.

But for me, it felt like I was being tested, over and over again. At first, it was little things - changing the way I react to every day annoyances. But over time, I got better at that and the universe decided to push me in ways that I felt (at that time) would threaten my very existence. That’s when the magic happened. In that moment, it felt like I might never get out of that darkness, but don't let that scare you away from delving head-first into your own awakening, because that was the beginning of my life now. Which honestly, feels like magic most days (even when I forget to be grateful for it).

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So, who am I? My names Ellaina, I've lived in Australia my entire life. I met my now husband when I was only 15. We were married at 24 and had our first son at 25, our second when I was 26. I’ve worked in the same field for nearly a decade now.

I am a projector (human design iykyk), which means I need a lot of rest and time to recoup which is incredibly hard in today’s world with two kids. (Yeah, yeah us millennials are shunning hustle culture but let’s not pretend it’s still not the expectation in a normal 9-5!).

I initially decided to start writing on Substack for fun but eventually I realised (with the help of my team of spirit guides) that my purpose for being here on our beautiful earth was more than that. It was to help effect change in this world. We are on our way to the new paradigm, and we need to shift and evolve our focus and attention or we will be left behind. I know that can be super hard to hear and a bit doomsday-esque but don’t worry, my team (spirit guides, archangels and Seraphims) have you totally covered - you are COMING to the new paradigm with us, OK?!

I have always been incredibly shy, and have had a deep love of writing. I actually studied journalism at university before my logical brain took over and realised that the possibility of getting a job in the field was slight and pivoted (limited thinking much lol). So Substack feels like a coming home to my most authentic self.

OKK so you came for the story that I mentioned above. Let’s go.

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In September 2024, I welcomed by second beautiful baby boy into this world. During my postpartum time spent scrolling on insta and listening to podcasts while rocking a baby to sleep on my chest, I discovered Kabbalah. Now the sages of Kabbalah say that each new baby brings blessings. Now I see why.

I started a Kabbalah course by David Ghiyam. I was 20 minutes into the first video when I paused it, and convinced my husband to join me. Just *TWENTY* minutes in, I knew this wisdom would change my life in a monumental way.

For the first time in my life, I realised that I was choosing for my life to be hard. Yep, reread that (and if it offends you, read it twice). A mentor of mine told me that everything in life is just a circumstance. Trust me, if someone had told me that while I was deep in the shit of some of the hardest times of my life, I would have excommunicated them straight way; and if that’s you, I completely understand and I wish you so many incredible blessings in your life and future to come.

Within a week of starting to practice Kabbalah I started to literally feel high (like I had been perpetually smoking pot for a week). Navigating every day life through the lens of gratitude for the first time in my life, changed my life in ways that I could not even fathom at the time. I started to believe in MIRACLES (which outside of Jesus turning water into wine was completely and utterly foreign to me at that time).

Fast forward six months and I found myself in a daily mental breakdown. See, during the time of what we’ll call the Kabbalistic enlightenment - a lot happened. We manifested the perfect block of land to build the perfect home to live. It all happened in perfect timing and for the perfect price. But when we went to sell our existing property - despite me trialling the best delulu manifesting techniques my baby-awakened brain could find. CRICKETS. We could not sell our house. It was supposed to be a four week campaign, finished with an auction. It took 3 months, and on the last day of that three months we sold the house for almost 80k less than market value.

We were banking on that money, we had designed our new house with that budget in mind. So because of this loss, we were now had an additional 80k on our mortgage.

But what really caused me to spiral, was trying to start my own business. See, what I didn’t know at the time about trusting spirits guidance was that you can’t predict what’s in your highest and best. Spirit (aka universe) has it’s own plans for your life, and they are going to be 10x better than what you expected. The best you can do is follow the messages and guidance you receive from the universe and detach from it at that point. I however, did not detach.

I was so, incredibly attached to the idea of starting my own marketing business and achieving 20k months that I strangled the very plan before my eyes. Every day I would wake up thinking, I can’t go back to my 9-5 job (more on that story later). I need this to work. I need it work. I need it to work. I came across some incredible opportunities during this time, including some human design readings. These incredible ladies told me that this business is going against everything I came to this earth to achieve, and I laughed it off and said I'll do it anyway. I’ll just keep working and working until it’s done, until I'm there, until I'm earning the money the instagram coaches keep telling me I can. It never happened.

I’m not going to repeat the story as you can read it here: How I manifested over 200k.

But eventually, through a lot of pain I got to where I needed to be.

Since then, I've learnt that pain isn’t the only way to achieve a spiritual awakening. But know this, if you are experiencing a high amount of pain - it’s the fastest method of cleansing your soul that the universe has. I know it feels immense and mind-boggling and you might break if it continues for even just one more second, but in the end I promise you’ll get it. You’ll get exactly why you had to go through it all in the end.

So, back to this present day. I’ve spent the last year recouping from this experience and continuing with my spiritual awakening in the most incredible way. I have been able to remember psychic and mediumship gifts that I could only once dream of having. Read: “remember”, because we all have magical abilities from our days in Atlantis innately within our soul, we only need to remember them.

I’m also in my era of leaning into my authenticity. I know I am of this world, not in this world. I know that what I busy myself with day to day to survive in our constructed 3D world is just that, a social construct that us humans have created.

This, this work on Substack is what my highest self is calling me to do. I know this is where I need to be. My only goal, expectation and reason for being here is that I help as many souls I can on their path to evolution. I know spirit is going to help me reach an audience larger than I could ever expect, maybe on Substack - maybe not. But as I retrospectively consider this fact as I write in real time - my guidance to you for this week (as I end all of my posts paid and unpaid) is that you start to practice following the pings (as would say) of the universe. No matter what calls, signs or little nudges you get this week - follow them. Even if it’s just walking in a different direction, or sitting a moment longer to listen to the call of a songbird. There’s a reason, even if you never logically know why - your soul will.

Tell me what guidance you’re being called to follow in the comments, I am so excited to hear about how the consciousness of the universe is guiding our collective to experience true abundance in our lives.

With the highest love and light,

Ellaina x

P.S. This is my first post of my new era on Substack, where I am owning my shit and the person I came to this earth to be. So I would subscribe, because this collective is about to level up.

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I like the fact that we’re kind people. We aren’t always of course, we fall into the trap of gossiping when we shouldn’t or getting annoyed when someone cuts us off on the road. But generally, I would say it’s something we both take pride in.

Last week, we had a huge fight with our neighbours. They erected our back fence and its wasn’t what we were expecting, it was 4 METERS high. I politely texted and said we didn’t love it, and we had talked to the contractor and there were a few ways we could fix it - could we please have a chat and just see if we can find something that suits us both? We were met with the most condescending response. The conversation went back and forth all day, us trying to be overly nice, them trying to be overly condescending.

When I had finally gotten a third party involved to prove the height was actually illegal, they backed down. It ended with a message that contained the phrase “please don’t contact me again”.

So what’s the spiritual lesson here? Well, I learnt that sometimes to make room for the universe to give you what you want - you can’t just sit and hope, you need to try your hardest to make it happen.

If that goes against everything you’ve learnt about manifesting, keep reading.

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I started studying Kabbalah in October 2024 and by August 2025 I manifested more than 200k. Even writing it now, even though it’s been and gone it seems so insanely incredible to me. Even though I’ve experienced it first hand. I guess another thing to work on…accepting that the universe will grant me what I need when I need it.

I’m sharing this because I am working on To Be Magnetic’s money challenge and I am looking for expanders in this space, so in the spirit of reciprocity, I’m hoping this post can be expansive for someone else. I also want to get very granular in exactly what I did to make this manifest, as I feel like there were some key moments to making this consciously happen. If any of this helps even just one person achieve abundance in their life I would be so incredibly happy.

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My focus for this week (or next little while) is to find out what my worth in this world is, and come to a place of acceptance around it.

When I began writing I typed out my “spiritual” focus for this week, before I called bullshit on myself and backspaced the word “spiritual”. I have for the most part until now thought of spirituality as a fun little hobby on the side. But I am owning it (for all of us), that the spiritual work is the work. Your 9-5 doesn’t matter, nor does how many veggies your kids ate for dinner or whether you went to pilates today. We are human beings and our only work is for our souls to evolve in this lifetime, the rest is superfluous.

I can feel lately that my soul is itching to shift. From the mentality that I was taught through my family relations and school, that I needed to go to university and get a well paying job in order to survive and thrive in this world. Up until now, that has worked for me. However, I am seeking more in my life. I need to shift from the mindset that my output is my total worth and net income to living my most authentic self will give me the most return abundance - how’s that for an ROI.

However, this isn’t easy for me. Someone mentioned the idea of reciprocity to me the other day. Now, I’ve heard this discussed quiet a bit in the spiritual world, but i’ve always thought of it sort of like karma. Now I'm understanding that the idea of reciprocity is a little bit more black and white. It also got me thinking about why I’m writing this Substack…

Initially it was a hobby, but as I reflect more on who I came to this earth to be and do; I think it’s to step into a leadership position. Where I can write about my learnings in the hopes that I can help others to realise their souls work. I find it pretty easy to learn and comprehend complex theories and write them out in more digestible ways. So that’s what this Substack is. I’m doing the experimentation and “hard work” of spiritual evolvement so that you don’t have to

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How does that relate to the idea of reciprocity? Well I’m setting the intention that by trying to be a pillar of light in this world, the universe will reward me abundantly (which leads me to my next point).

In all of that, is the mindset that no one cares enough to value or pay for my work. However, after gaining 1000 followers in just a few months - I’ll take that as the universes way of showing me that’s definitely not the case. So going forward, the majority of my posts will be paid posts. I’m going to change the format slightly so that each post ends with an action item that we can work on as a community for that week, with a subscriber-only chat so that we can support one another in levelling up.

I’m here to help our souls evolve to a new level, so that we can welcome in the new paradigm together.

So if you’d like to subscribe ahead of next week’s post - you’d make me one happy camper! x

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With all the love and light in the world,

Ellaina

Why do we find the need to fill our time with senseless tasks?

The whole world we live in is completely made up. Think about the tasks we busy ourselves with - cleaning, acquiring money, mowing lawns until they are perfectly manicured (in a way that nature just simply is not supposed to be) and spending hours perfecting our hair, make up and style to be just so.

Why? In a perfect world, the one people talk about, dream about - none of this exists. When so many people say “why can’t we just all get along?”, this is why. We have crafted a world that is fuelled by ego. Everything we do - it is to drive our ego and limitless desire.

We are designed to desire as human beings. But we are designed to desire to be, not to have. We are supposed to desire to be loved, cared for and to be abundant - not to have the perfect house, or a new dress to wear for every single occasion we go to.

So after all of that is stripped away? (Which it will slowly in the next year as we welcome the new paradigm.) Love.

If you want to succeed in the new paradigm, it is paramount that you desire to be and have love. To be successful, you’ll need to approach everyone and everything with love.

You may ask, but if this is so - if the new paradigm is fast approaching, why are we still living in a world so full of growing hatred? There is no light without darkness. To awaken the light in humanity, in a vast majority as it was in atlantean times - the darkness needs to prevail. So that we can see that which we do not truly seek and desire play out before our eyes. It is human nature to need to try something, before we appreciate the opposite.

The next year will be full of immense and intense evolution, if you do not learn to open your heart to everyone around you - you will be left behind.

Next time you’re faced with a challenging situation - with a colleague, a business partner, or a stranger in the street, ask yourself - can I love this person instead of holding onto this irritation or hatred? I mean truly, truly love like you would your spouse. Do you think this is possible? Let me know in the comments.

With love and light,

Ellaina

When I started my spiritual journey I was a few weeks postpartum after having my second child. I listened to a Melissa Wood-Tepperberg podcast with David Ghiyam. The subject was Kabbalah.

After the podcast I dove into the Kabbalah center’s intro course, and within the first 10 minutes I paused it and knew I wanted to ask my husband to do it with me. I knew that it was the start of something extremely important. A journey that my soul was calling me to begin.

What’s making me think of this today is I’ve been struggling for a few months with my Tikkune.

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It’s widely accepted in the spiritual community that we come to earth with a soul contract, a set of terms and conditions that we’ve completely agreed to when we asked to incarnate on earth. Kabbalists believe that part of this contract is our tikkune. We may have one, or many but they are recurring themes in every lifetime that we keep experiencing over and over again until we overcome it.

Once we overcome our tikkunes completely - we reach enlightenment. However, doing so can take many lifetimes.

A tikkune can be anything: an excessive need to please people and be accepted, addiction or overcoming an aggressive ego. You’ll know it’s your tikkune because it’ll be the one thing in life that continuously tests you. It comes up every year, without fail - like a bad smell you can’t get rid of no matter what you try.

It is thought to be our soul’s most important task.

Before Kabbalah I was raised Catholic and continued to delve in and out of it for my adult life. Since Kabbalah I feel my conscious has expanded much beyond a dogmatic religion. Not that religion is a negative thing, I think religion can be an extremely beautiful source of hope, love and generosity for individuals and community (I have a smile on my lips as I write this).

I’ve taken some of what I learnt during my time studying Kabbalah, and also left some. I’ve learnt to take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. After all, we come to every life time ready to remember. We’ve likely learnt all of this before, we just need to remember it for the highest good of ourselves and others.

As you read this, have you thought about your tikkune? I know I have a long way to go on resolving mine, and perhaps it’ll even take a few life times more - but I have every faith in myself to do so.

If you want to learn more, I highly reccommend listening to David Ghiyam’s podcast - it’s a great place to start. Kabbalah honestly changed my life and was the catalyst for cracking my soul wide open and beginning such an incredible journey into my soul awakening.

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With the highest love and light,

Ellaina

In plain English? It’s not the person dying that’s the lesson, or the grief, it’s what you take away from that grief and what you learn from it.

My biggest lesson (thus far of course) is being present. And boy did it take me a long time to learn. Although I was getting constant messages from my guides about it, it took a mentor of mine confirming it for me to finally start living it. (The dismissal of my own intuition and immediate trust in someone else’s is another lesson in itself!)

Over the past few weeks, every time I start to worry about something in the future; even when it’s a valid concern such as will this project be finished in time for me to book in the next trade? Yes, it’s a logical concern and one that I have to address. However, I have learnt that I don’t need to dwell on it or worry about it. The universe is orchestrating everything in divine timing. Even if nothing went to plan and everything was delayed - I could call a tradesperson at 7am on Monday morning and they’d turn up by 7:30. If that’s what divine timing warrants. And if that didn’t work, it is not MEANT for me.

Since I’ve started doing this, I have felt a genuine sense of calm that I haven’t felt for an enormously long time. Knowing, that my only responsibility is to be right here, right in this moment and nothing else - is a true relief.

As a Mum of 2, who works full time and has a whole lot of stuff on the side - the slow down in my mental chatter has been enormous. And I’ve made room for genuine experiences of JOY in my every-day, often mundane life.

I urge you to try it, if you brilliant souls aren’t already. It’s a lesson in gratitude for the present and living as I believe us humans are meant to - all rolled into one.

Let me know how you go?!

With all the love and light in the universe,

Ellaina

If I met me 10 years ago, I wouldn’t know me (iykyk satc fans).

At 20 years old, I had my whole life planned out perfectly. When we’d buy our first house, when I needed a promotion by, when we’d have kids, get married, where we’d travel. Absolutely everything. And everything happened on that timeline for the most part. And when it didn’t? I pushed until it did, even when it wasn’t right (which led to really negative experiences).

Now? I’m 29 and have absolutely no idea what the next 6 months will hold, let alone the next 6 years. And you know what? For the first time in my life - I love it.

Since my second son was born in September 2024 my soul has been cracked open, to it’s very core. Although the Chinese year of the horse is not resonating with me yet, the year of the snake was a year full of the most intense energy possible. I shed EVERYTHING that didn’t serve me anymore.

Every mindset, every action, every physical possession I didn't need - it all went. My soul, like a snake, has shed its skin and completely regenerated again.

One of the things that has changed is my complete and utter trust in the universe to have my back.

I find myself in a position where I am weeks away from moving into the house that we have been painstakingly planning and pursuing for the last two years. It has been a painful process that has taught me an equally painful lesson in patience - and a huge call to live in the present (because there is no past and no future, only now).

And you know what? I would give it all up in an instant if I felt called to do it. 10 years ago I would have thought someone that did that and believed in where the universe was guiding them all while listening to their spirit guides was CRAZY. Now? It’s my norm.

I really don’t know what the next chapter holds for me; but I do know there is a new chapter that’s fast approaching. A year from now, my life will look nothing like it does now - and how good is that?

A huge lesson I’ve learnt is to not attach to anything. It was a big lesson for me, not to always be acting in fear. I was fearful of not having a job, fearful of getting cancer, fearful of being bankrupt and losing our house. Not that I had any reason to even suspect these things would happen - but they were just things in life that everyone dreads right? It’s just normal - things that people react to and say “God forbid”. But I’ve learnt that fear only creates attachment to the thing itself. If I spent all of my time worried about getting cancer, I would surely attract that to me. So everything I’m fearful of something - I just think the whole scenario through. Scared of having no money? Worst case scenario, we’d live with family for a while until we got back on our feet. When we did? It would be a life with less luxuries then we have now, but who cares - we’d have each other still. Fully thinking through the worst case scenario actually destroys all the fear itself. Why? Because everything always was, always is and always will be okay - no matter what.

This full moon has created space for a HUGE amount of clarity for me. I know exactly what I don’t want to bring into my future, and how amazing is that? For the first time in my life, I’m not fearful of the unknown; I am deeply, deeply excited to find out what the universe has lined up for me next. I have no idea what it is, but I know it will be better than I could even have imagined.

Let me know if you want more articles on how I got to this place in my soul journey (full well knowing I have A LIFETIME of learning to go and MORE). I’d be more than happy to share!

With love and light,

Ellaina

And let me tell you, these turtles were showing up EVERYWHERE. On people’s jewellery, LinkedIn(?!), gifts, movies, visions - there was no limit to their persistence (and boy am I grateful!).

She sent me a card from an oracle deck on animal medicine. Animal medicine, albeit named differently - has deep origins in different indigenous and shamanic cultures throughout the world. Including, where I live in Australia through the rich spiritual history of Indigenous Australians.

At first, the animal medicine reading didn’t resonate with me at all. This must be wrong, I thought. I need to find another reason. I knew that it was a message from my guides all along - but I thought when I found out what it was it would hit me and I would understand.

However, that’s what our guides are for. To push us into a deeper understanding of ourselves, that without this constantly reoccurring turtle I would not have bothered to explore.

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And everyone on earth has their doubts,

about what the world is to be

in the next 2-3 (years)

but let us tell you

although rivers wind

they always flow.

You’ll see motion and currents that seem like they pull too far to the left or too far to the right,

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• Smashing my discipline challenge

• Posting regularly on Substack

• Getting deep into my meditation practice

• Hypnosis work was great

• Started To Be Magnetic’s manifestation course

And this week it all fell by the way side. All I could focus on was going through the motions: waking up, working, knitting and either sleeping 11 hours or 5 hours a night (extreme to extreme).

I feel guilty. I feel like I’m taking a step back in a negative way in my spiritual journey.

On top of this I keep reading about the new moon in Aries, how it’s the most powerful new moon of the year. How today is the day that sets your path for the rest of the year. I believe in astrology, it’s accuracy shines through particularly through Human Design for me. However, I have also heard on at least 5 different days that this is the day to be “perfect” to call in what you want the rest of year to look like.

Does anyone else feel that’s just an enormous amount of pressure?

So yesterday, on the new moon in Aries, I did nothing. I did no rituals, I didn’t try to act a certain way, I didn’t do a specialised mediation - and I stopped reading and consuming all information about it.

Why? Well a) because I'm exhausted. A deep fatigue that is settling in my cells. Not just physically but emotionally. I feel like i’m entering my crone era at only 29. The stress of selling, moving and building a house over the last 18 months has truly rattled me. On top of long work days and a demanding life, I just feel so incredibly fatigued and in need of a deep reset.

and b) shouldn’t we all be acting our best, no matter what the lunar cycle or auspicious date? Isn’t that the path of awakening our intuition? Day in, day out, being our best selves. Not because of the potential results but because it’s the way we’ve decided to be - of love and light.

Anyway, I apologise for my tardiness - I feel like I have put a lot of my series on hold for the moment. I’m just getting by, recouping and building my energy.

With love and light,

Ellaina

I’ve grown up with a hustle mentality. Everything you want in life that’s worth having requires you to work extremely hard. ‘Nothing comes for free’. However, as I tune further and further into my soul and start to vibrate at a higher frequency; I know this is not true.

Something has been playing on my mind for a while now, with a backstory I still feel too vulnerable to post about. But in short form, I’ve broken so far out of hustle culture that I now feel almost allergic to it (lol).

I think however, there is something to be set about discipline. I recently read a book called the ledger of good and evil - it’s about an ancient Chinese parable. I took a lot of learnings from it, but one more than most - spiritual work requires discipline. And from my own experience, I have learnt that the spiritual path is not always easy. In fact, it has bought about some of the most challenging times of my life.

So my new challenge is preparing my light body for the new paradigm. What does this mean? I want to keep it simple with only two rules for the next 60 days.

1. Eat a completely vegan diet.

2. Eat only to satisfaction, not to complete fullness.

Eating vegan food is less of a challenge to me than point two if I’m honest. On top of hustle culture I was also bought up in the era of ‘you can’t leave the dinner table until your plate is completely empty’.

I’m going to post daily update notes, yes very few may read them - but I’m keeping myself accountable. If anyone would like to join me on this endeavour I would be so happy!

Tomatoes from my garden (2023)

With love and light,

Ellaina

Apart from my babies, this is the best thing to ever happen to me. The feeling of ease, flow, abundance and connection with our universe has changed my life. I want to dedicate my Substack in teaching others to do the same.

So if you’re newly on this path to awakening - just know, that not all of it is magic and rituals. They are merely tools. The real work is done within, in the quietest hours, in the moments where you feel like hope is lost. That’s where the awakening happens.

Here are some things that have helped me immensely on this journey in the last month. Because although I feel worlds apart from where I was just two years ago - I appreciate that I know nothing, and it will be my life long journey to be a student of this universe.

Photo taken by me, connecting with our beautiful earth consciousness

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1. Gratitude

I started a series on here called “The Gratitude Project”, which I need to write a part II on. However, after listening to Jim Fortin’s podcast episode “Throwback to Ep59: Money doesn’t come from hard work” I finally understood what people meant when they say to manifest abundance in your life you have to act like you already have it. I’d highly recommend listening to the episode; but in a nut shell - this isn’t about forcing yourself to believe you have an extra million dollars in the bank. It’s about being extremely grateful for what you do have already in this world that makes you feel rich. i.e, an abundance of flowing water from our taps, enough food to nourish our bodies, all of the love in our lives, our consciousness - everything in your life is abundance as soon as you reframe it. This really helped me chance how I feel about gratitude, making it less of a chore to always feel the need to feel grateful for everything and more of a way to count my blessings.

2. Calling back my energy

This has been an absolute game changer for me the past few weeks. A few times a day, I’ll stop and call in my ancestors of the highest love and light to help me call back my energy and release any that doesn’t serve me. I’m highly sensitive to people’s energy - I have been since I was a little girl. I find it very overwhelming to be around others for long periods of time. This little ritual has helped me to feel in flow and alignment. Here’s a step by step of how to do it:

1. Take a deep breath, ground yourself on grass or simply by picturing roots growing from the soles of your feet deep into the center of the earth.

2. Say in your head or outloud “I call in my ancestors of the highest love and light to remove any energy that isn’t mine and call back any energy that is of my highest and best”.

3. Feel the physical energy moving around you.

4. That’s it! It’s simple enough to do anywhere, in a bathroom at a party, at your desk - whenever you need it.

3. Somatic work

A few months ago I started The Workout Witch’s programs. They have been so incredibly game changing. I have struggled with anxiety for the past 4 years - I can say since completing this program, it’s completely gone. I was considering going on medication before I started the program it had gotten that bad. I now haven’t felt anxious for at least 2 months. If you struggle with anxiety, you’ll know what an unbelievable blessing this is.

I hope this information helps, I’m going to keep sharing what I’m learning in hopes that it helps others. Remember, sometimes the simplest practices change your life in the most profound way.

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With light and love and healing reiki energy,

Ellaina