If you’ve been around here for a while, you’ve probably watched me build, rename, reorganize, reinvent, scrap, rebuild, and occasionally have a whole new idea before I finished the last one. 😂

And honestly? That’s me.

I’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure out how all the things I do are supposed to fit together.

The brand strategy.

The writing.

The digital products.

The handmade items.

The cleaning.

The spiritual work.

The community spaces…

The random ideas that start as a thought and somehow turn into an actual business.

For a while, I thought everything needed to fit under one brand to be seen for everything that I do. Now, I give myself permission to be seen as more than one thing at one time. Sure, it’s good to be known for one thing but what if, you’re great at many things?

What if, those things are how you make a living for you and your family but your imposter syndrome wouldn’t let you release the shame of “being too good” at more than one thing AND PROUD OF IT…so much so, you create a creative space to showcase said “thangs”.

This is where SheDoEverythang comes in…

So...What is SheDoEverythang?

SheDoEverythang is my personal creative hub.

It’s the place where I get to be the woman behind all the different things I’m building without forcing every single thing I create to look, sound, or feel the same because as we should know, I’m not one thing and apparently, neither are my bodies of work. 😂

Different Thangs. Same Woman.

That’s the whole idea.

Instead of asking myself, “Which one am I?”

I’m letting myself ask: “What am I building now? Which hat do I want to wear today?”

Where does “For Black Women Only” fit?

Right here.

For Black Women Only isn’t going anywhere.

If anything, giving SheDoEverythang its own home, it allows For Black Women Only to become more of itself.

For Black Women Only is its own world.

It’s still where I explore Black Womanhood, self-return, unmasking, reflection, creativity, community, and all the beautiful, complicated things that come with being a Black Woman trying to come home to herself.

It doesn’t need to also be my cleaning business or my branding studio

…or every other idea I have. 😂

It gets to be For Black Women Only and I get to be Paris Abundance.

What’s on SheDoEverythang.com?

This is where the rest of the pieces can meet.

For Black Women Only.🌹

Thee Exclusive, Healing Studiio.

The creative world I’ve been building around Black women’s stories, self-return, reflection, community, products, and experiences.

Her Return Strategy. 🧠

The strategy side of my brain.

Branding, rebranding, creative direction, content planning, digital experiences, and helping people take the thing that’s living in their head and give it some structure.

Mess Rx. 🧹

Yep, I clean too, if you’re in the DMV Area. 😂

Mess Rx is my cleaning, organizing, decluttering, and practical home-service lane.

Apparently, I like helping people get their shit together in both the metaphorical and literal sense.

Why put all of this in one place?

I’ve realized that the connection doesn’t have to be the industry.

The connection is the creator.

My way of thinking.

My curiosity.

My creativity.

My willingness to try something new.

My tendency to turn a random thought into a full-blown concept.

My obsession with naming things. 😂

My belief that there’s usually more than one way to build a life, a business, a brand, or yourself.

That’s the thread.

Everything doesn’t have to match.
It just has to make sense coming from me.

So, if you’ve been wondering where all the different pieces of my work are going...they’re coming together.

Not under one giant brand, under one woman.

SheDoEverythang: Different Thangs, Same Woman. 🧚🏾‍♀️

If you want to see what I’m building, buying, offering, experimenting with, or inevitably dreaming up next...

that’s where you’ll find me. 🧚🏾‍♀️

[Enter SheDoEverythang →]

P.S.

This Substack is still this Substack.

I’m not turning it into a giant announcement board for every business I create. 😂 I’ll continue sharing the thoughts, stories, reflections, and work that belong here.

When there’s something from SheDoEverythang that I genuinely want you to know about, I’ll bring it through this door. Otherwise? Come find me at the hub.

She really does everythang; you just have to find your thang.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Rose in Harlem - Teyana Taylor

“What does she do? I do everythang, I move everythang…put that on my baby nameeee!” Shit don’t be people’s business but you can’t hide yourself from the world and expect to bloom in it baby. Remember: Nobody can take what’s meant for you…unless you give it to them.

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• My creative services, handmade and digital products are now under one roof called SheDoEverythang. Check me out, if you're ever interested.

• Enjoy my entries and desire to contribute The Stu? All Love Donations are accepted here.

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

When I first created this Substack page, I simply did it because I needed somewhere to release. I needed a space that was mine. I needed somebody to hear my cries that I felt had been unheard for sooo long. I found and created more space for me to do so publicly.

That is what HerDiaryStudiio was. I feel back in love with writing, sharing my story and creating content that people could relate to, but then she grew…

I mean, I am rawly, speaking from a Black Woman’s perspective on taboo topics, catering all my creations and services to women that look like me, and pouring directly into my community but that’s just me. I NEVER thought I would have as much attention AND APPRECIATION for what I do in my everyday life.

As mentioned in my last entry, I caught a little Imposter Syndrome and almost gave up my seat due to all of that attention. While I am so grateful to each and every client, supporter and subscriber. I almost ran away from all of y’all because a part of me felt undeserving of such honor. That amongst some shit I’ll write about later, had me all discumbobbled. I really had to step back and remember who the fuck I was!

Now, I am back and rebranding like a mothafucka because BABY THIS IS BIGGER THAN ME NOW!!!!

This space is now called, “For Black Women Only - The Healing Studiio.” Same vibes, same me; just not MY diary anymore. Let’s rap about it…

For Black Women Only. ☕️🌹

An Exclusive, Healing Studiio where Black Women press play on the parts of themselves they’ve been taught to silence. 🎧

The Stu aka this Substack is a Black Woman-led, whimsical, cerebral and healing Studiio where reflection sounds a little more like music than performance.

A safe space for Black Women across the diaspora to pause, create, question, laugh, grieve, explore, and become more honest with themselves...together.

This isn’t just my diary anymore.

It’s Our Healing Studiio.

A growing archive of thoughts, conversations, rituals, creative expression, spiritual exploration, music, and the beautifully complicated process of becoming.

For Black Women Only is a Protected, Healing Studiio built to center Black Women across the diaspora.

Our voices. Our joy. Our grief.

Our sensuality. Our curiosity. Our rage.

Our softness. Our becoming.

A place where you don’t have to translate your tone, shrink your experience, or perform your healing to be understood.

Here, you’re allowed to be:

Unfiltered.

Unfinished.

Unlearning.

Unmasking and still worthy of being witnessed.

What This Space Is. 🌹

A Creative, Healing Studiio.

A Protected Archive.

A Quiet Rebellion.

An Intentional Return.

A Recording Booth for the Soul...hence The Stu. 🎙️🌹

Where Black Women press play on the parts of themselves they’ve been taught to silence.

This is art that doesn’t ask for permission.

Reflection without performance.

Conversation without competition.

Community without constant explanation.

Every room inside The Stu. offers a different way to return.

Whether you’re sitting with an Interlude, moving through a Deep Cut, joining a The Soundcheck, Receiving a down On The Air, or finding yourself inside a Channelled Frequency...

The invitation is always the same:

Return to yourself.

One reflection.

One ritual.

One track at a time.

What This Space Is Not. 🧿

This is not a place for:

• Debating Black Women’s lived experiences.

• Tone policing disguised as conversation.

• Voyeurism, fetishization, or extraction.

• Disruption disguised as curiosity.

• Consuming our stories without honoring the people living them.

Respect isn’t optional.

Understanding isn’t forced.

Alignment is expected.

If You Are Here. 🪷

Move with care.

Listen more than you challenge.

Witness more than you explain.

Honor what is shared, even when it isn’t yours.

You are welcome to learn here.

But this space was never built to center anyone other than Black Women.

And that intention will remain.

The Process. 🎚️

In The Stu, we don’t rush clarity.

We don’t force healing, perform breakthroughs or sit with ourselves.

We replay what needs another listen.

We question what we’ve inherited.

We notice what no longer fits until what once sounded like survival begins to sound like truth.

In The Stu, you are giving yourself permission to:

• Rewrite your narrative.

• Leave unfinished drafts.

• Protect your peace.

• Question inherited beliefs.

• Release what no longer resonates.

• Create language that feels like home.

Nothing here has to be perfect to be powerful.

The Healing Studiio extends beyond these pages with intentional rituals, handcrafted adornments, oracle sessions, creative tools, and private spaces designed to support your return...on your own timing.

The Soundcheck.🎚

Before the world hears you, take a moment to hear yourself. These are the rituals that help us pause, recalibrate, and return with intention.

Interludes. 📺

The moments between the main tracks. The thoughts that arrive before they become something bigger.

On The Air. 👁🎙

Her Channelled Downloads from Source.

The Big Mama Confessional. 💋

Where Black Mothers tell the truth about motherhood — raw, real, and without apology. No performing. No highlight reels. Just Big Mamas being human first, and everything else second. 💋

Deep Cuts. 💽

For the Black Woman ready to hear the parts of herself she’s been skipping over. This Monthly Membership Includes: - Monthly Deep Cut Essays - Exclusive Shadow Work Prompts - Shadow Work Artifacts - Live Reflections - Early Access.🌹

Her Return Strategy.

A space for turning self-reflection into intentional movement. We talk plans, decisions, boundaries, goals, creativity, and the practical shit that comes after the innerstanding.

Know yourself. Then move accordingly. 🌹

Her Return Strategy.

Because innerstanding yourself is only part of the return.

Sometimes the work isn’t another journal prompt.

Sometimes it’s figuring out what happens next.

Her Return Strategy is the room where we turn reflection into intentional movement.

This is where we talk about the practical shit:

What you’re building.

What you’re changing.

What you’re protecting.

What you’re prioritizing.

What you’re no longer available for.

How you’re creating a life that actually reflects the woman you’ve been becoming.

This isn’t about optimizing yourself into oblivion.

It isn’t hustle culture wearing a healing bonnet. 😂

And it definitely isn’t about creating a five-year plan for a version of you who hasn’t even arrived yet.

It’s about strategy with self-awareness.

We take what we’ve discovered in the other rooms and ask:

“Okay... now what?”

Her Return Strategy may hold:

🎚️ Personal strategy and intentional planning
🎙️ Business and creative strategy
🌹 Boundary and lifestyle resets
📝 Goal-setting without self-abandonment
🧭 Decision-making and next-step mapping
💭 Turning ideas into actual movement
📀 Revisiting plans when the woman making them has changed

Because sometimes returning to yourself means going inward and sometimes, it means finally doing something with what you found there.

Her Return Strategy.

The room where we stop asking who we’re supposed to become and start making decisions from who we know ourselves to be.

What You’ll Find Here. 🎵🌹

🎙️ A Place to Tell the Truth Before You Understand It.

Not every truth arrives with clarity, you’re allowed to record it anyway.

Raw.

Unedited.

Unfinished.

🎧 Language for the In-Between.

For the shifts you can feel but can’t quite name.

For the seasons that don’t fit inside neat definitions.

For the parts of yourself still becoming.

❤️‍🔥 Rituals That Invite Return.

Not everything needs fixing, some things simply need witnessing.

Others need releasing.

Every ritual is an invitation, never an obligation.

📀 Reflection That Deepens, Not Distracts.

Repetition changes perspective.

You don’t just revisit old truths here, you hear them differently.

The Truth. ❤️‍🔥

“For Black Women Only.”

Isn’t a locked door.

It’s a clear signal.

A declaration of intention.

A reminder of who this space was created to hold because Black Women deserve spaces where our humanity isn’t debated before it’s honored.

If you’ve ever longed for a safe space where your truth didn’t have to fight for permission to exist...

You’ll recognize this one.

Final Note. 💌

For Black Women Only is a healing, creative, reflective, and educational space rooted in self-return, storytelling, ritual, and community.

It is not a substitute for licensed mental health, medical, or legal care.

By entering The Stu, you agree to move with curiosity, respect, and care for yourself and for this community.

Take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

For Black Women Only — The Healing Stu. 🎙️🌹

Where Black Women press play on the parts of themselves they’ve been taught to silence.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Black Woman, Unmasked. 🌹

Not a healing playlist. This is what’s left after the burn. This is her. Unmasked. Unapologetic. Not explaining a damn thing. Play this when you need to remember: You’re not her anymore...but you are HER.

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• My creative services, handmade and digital products are now under one roof called SheDoEverythang. Check me out, if your every interested.

• Enjoyed this kind of entry and desire more, all Love Donations are accepted here.

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

From that first week, shit was looking and feeling like everything was going wayyyyy left and as much as I wanted to transmute the moment in real time, I WAS REALLY GOING THROUGH IT! Hell, I still kinda am but it’s time to keep the party going.

Lemme tell ya, the month, Imposter Syndrome kicked me in the ass HARD with steel boot.

It’s like yes, my relationship with Source is stronger than ever before. My gifts and innergy GOES CRAZYYYYY. My son is thriving and most ethereal soul I’ve ever met. My income are starting to move again. Even, my brand is growing beyond what I ever imagined. So much so, a part of me started scrambling to meet this imaginary quota. I almost forgot what I created this space for…

HerDiaryStudiio is supposed to be a safe, unforced, aligned space for Black Women, but especially for myself.

This space is a pause from the bullshit of this realm and all the others.

I’ve been anally specific about NOT holding anyone’s hands through their journeys, yet I was still worried about how my Stu Collective would feel about me, not being as present as “promised”. All the while truly growing through some real life shit of my own.

The tug-of-war created the illumination of the people pleasing tendencies I was still holding on to. My ass is hard headed so, August teamed with Saturn to grab me by the eyebrows and say, “But what about youuuu?!” Saturn doesn’t really give “everything is falling apart.” It’s more like: “Baby, let’s check the foundation.” 🪐 and it’s retrograde turns that examination inward.

An Internal Audit…

Saturn Retrograde (began July 26 - Dec. 10, 2026) is giving us the opportunity for introspection and reevaluation. He also gives us permission to ask ourselves those questions we try to dismiss or avoid when shit is looking like:

What have you built?
Why did you build it?
Does it still hold you?
Or are you holding it together?

During my introspection, I received a download and Source, Spirit, Ancestors said, “It’s NO WAY you’ve come this far to be more worried about anyone outside of you and what you know you deserve. Your first and only purpose is to to remember that YOUR JOURNEY IS YOURS. God is here to support but she won’t do EVERYTHING for you. That’s NOT the point of spiritually AT ALL.”

God can AND WILL assist you without doing the work for you.

Faith doesn’t mean sitting around waiting for everything to magically rearrange itself and doing the work doesn’t mean believing you have to carry everything alone.

It’s both.

It’s trust and movement.

Prayer and participation.

Intuition and action.

Rest and responsibility.

The way I like to put it is:

Shit don’t shake without GOD...and shit don’t move without YOU!

Because baby, I can ask Source to open a door, but I still have to decide whether I’m walking through that bitch. 😭

I can pray for protection, but I still have to honor the boundary when it’s revealed.

I can ask for clarity, but I still have to be willing to accept what I see.

I can ask for the next step, but I still have to take it.

That’s where I feel that famous quote, “faith without works is dead” becomes more than a quote for me; It became a mantra.

Not as a performance of spirituality for comfort of others.

Now, I know that’s what Saturn is trying to show me.

I wasn’t actually being asked to do more. I was being asked to become more intentional about what I was doing and why because there is a difference between:

Building from purpose and Building from pressure.

A difference between showing up because something feels alive and showing up because you’re afraid people will be disappointed, if you don’t.

An innergectic difference between discipline and people-pleasing, wearing a little productivity costume.

Listennnn, I KNOW THAT COSTUME…maybe, too well. DO YOU? 👀😂

As a Black Woman, I am conditioned to pleasing others before myself in order to “keep the peace”. However, I am also a Black Woman who is changing ALL those narratives because none of that shit aligns with me forreal.

I denounced that “Strong Black Woman” shit a long time ago.

I am extremely intentional with everything I do, whether it make sense to you or not.

I am more intelligent, intuitive and innovative than a lot of people without denying or dimming myself.

I curse like a sailor, smoke like a chimney and probably one of the most purposely, unorthodox mother’s you’d ever meet.

I cultivate my life based of my vision, skills and talents vs. taking “the easy route” of just finding a man/partner to do it or hiding in their shadow.

P.S. You can do everything he does for you AND then some, if you just put that faith and grace that you have in his “potential” into yourself.

I am a shameless, undeniably gorgeous, ethereal, sexy and sensual Empress, who could give two fucks if her light makes you feel intimidated.

I AM REALLY THAT GIRL…THAT BITCH!

HER, without taking anything from anyone…unless you let me. 😏

And I can confidently proclaim all of these things because I DID MY FUCKING WORK. I KNOW WHO I AM, WHAT I’VE DONE AND I AM DONE PLAY SMALL FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES!!!

THAT is the innergy I have been creating from the past 6-8 months. I was spitting fireeeee, doing hella oversharing in the name of healing and attracted plenty more eyes; good, evil and indifferent, as I reintroduced my potent innergy back to the world. Yes, I am learning more and my gifts are stronger but I am also a lot more sensitive to innergy and Week Four of #HerMonth, lead me to diving deeper into more veneration and protection practices.

My go-to protection practice is disappearing until I get myself back together because “my misery hates company” but Saturn is teaching me that disappearing no longer works for this version of Paris.

The fear, I once had, of being seen and heard isn’t here.

The shame and guilt for being my authentic self no longer exists.

The desire to hide my truth from the world to protect those who have hurt me is FAR FUCKIN GONE!

So, it was time to learn a better way to protect THIS version of Paris.

You know me and I had to create some helpful teassss for my Stu Collective to make it through when she feels unsupported, lost or misconstrued by all this planetary innergy in 2026.

An Internal Audit.🪐

So instead of asking myself: “How do I get back on track?”

I started asking:

What track am I even on?

What am I doing because it genuinely feels aligned?

What am I doing because I think I should?

What parts of my life have structure?

What parts have become rigid?

Where am I practicing discipline?

Where am I just trying to prove something?

Saturn retrograde has a way of making you look at the architecture. Not just the pretty shit people can see.

The beams.

The foundation.

The shit underneath the floorboards.

The parts nobody applauds.

And that’s where I found the real conversation:

I don’t need to disappear every time life gets heavy anymore.

I need better ways to hold myself while I’m moving through it.

And THAT became this month’s lesson… ☕️

I don’t have to choose between being protected and being present.

I don’t have to expose everything to prove I’m authentic.

I don’t have to disappear to keep everything sacred.

There is a middle ground.

I can be private without being absent.

I can be visible without being available.

I can share without explaining everything.

I can rest without abandoning what I’m building.

I can let my community know:

“I’m going through some shit right now.” without turning my pain into content every time.

That’s the new boundary that this Saturn Retrograde has been asking me to build.

Not a prettier life.

Not a more impressive brand.

Not a perfect structure.

A life that can actually hold me!

🪐 Saturn Retrograde: The Internal Audit.

What are you building, and do you actually believe you belong inside it?

Let’s check the structure…Not to judge it. Not to tear everything down. Just to see what’s actually holding on, what’s being held, and what might be ready to change…like forreal this time. Remember there is time and only takes with resonates with you and your innergy and situation.

🪐 1. The "Who Told Me?" Exercise.

Choose three rules you’ve been living by.

Examples:

“I have to be productive to be valuable.”

“If I disappear, people will forget me.”

“I need to have everything figured out before I teach it.”

Then ask:

Who taught me this?

Do I actually believe it?

What does believing this cost me?

What would I do differently if I stopped obeying it?

🪞 2. The Imposter Evidence List.

Make two columns:

The Imposter Says

“I haven’t done enough.”

“I should know more.”

“Someone else already does this.”

“Who would listen to me?”

“I’m behind.”

“I’m not consistent enough.”

The Evidence Says

Then answer each one with facts, not affirmations.

Not:

“I’m amazing.”

Instead:

“I created ___.”

“I finished ___.”

“Someone told me ___.”

“I learned ___.”

“I survived ___.”

“I returned to ___.”

You’re not trying to convince yourself you’re extraordinary.

You’re reminding yourself that the evidence exists.

🎧 3. The Permission Slip

Write this at the top of a page:

I don’t need permission to be a beginner at something I intend to master.

Then finish:

I am allowed to build while...

I am allowed to learn while...

I am allowed to be seen while...

I am allowed to change my mind about...

I am allowed to take up space before...

Then, sign it and make it visible as a reminder to self that you are in control of yourself and your life.

📝 4. Saturn’s “Keep / Rebuild / Release”

Three columns.

KEEP

What has proven itself worthy of staying?

REBUILD

What still matters but needs a new structure?

RELEASE

What are you maintaining simply because you’re afraid of what happens if you stop?

This could apply to:

• relationships

• routines

• beliefs

• business

• identity

• commitments

• creative projects

🎙️ 5. Your Return Activity

Ask:

What would showing up look like if I stopped trying to prove I belong here?

Then, make a tiny commitment.

Not: “I’m going to completely transform my life.”

Something Saturn would actually appreciate:

One thing.

One post.

One page.

One conversation.

One hour.

One boundary.

One unfinished thing finally completed.

One honest appearance.

Sometimes, you realize you were never supposed to be living in a box at all and that’s where Saturn becomes less about restriction and more about self-mastery.

Build what can hold you.
Maintain what still serves you.
Release what requires you to abandon yourself.

Now that I coming out of the fog, maybe Saturn didn’t ask me to work harder. Maybe, he asked me to get honest about the structure underneath the work.

He wants me to find out why I disappear.

Why I hesitate.

Why I sometimes need external confirmation before I trust what I’ve already built.

I feel like that’s the part of imposter syndrome nobody talks about…

Sometimes, you aren’t afraid that you’re incapable.

You’re afraid that you’re capable enough for the thing to become real because once it’s real...you have to let yourself be seen inside of it.

All that being said, she’s bacckkkkkkkk but I’m returning differently; not because I finally convinced myself I belong but because I’m learning that belonging isn’t something I have to earn from the outside.

I built this shit; I’m allowed to sit in it! 🪐🌹

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: God in Me - Mary Mary

“What is it you think you see when you see me?!” God has a room with your name on it. Are you ready to walk through that door or you gonna let imposter syndrome take over? 👁

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• My creative services, handmade and digital products are now under one roof called SheDoEverythang. Check me out, if you’re ever interested.

• Enjoyed this kind of entry and desire more, all Love Donations are accepted here.

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Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

As Little Black Girls, we inherited more than our people’s eye color and curvy shapes. More than our family recipes, toxic traditions and diseases that “run in the family”.

We also inherited their language and beliefs without being able to question it.

They gave us their rigid traditions, unexplained definitions and family secrets.

Some of them became our foundation.

Some of them became our cages.

The interesting part?

Most of us never stopped to ask:

“Do I actually believe this...or did I simply inherit it?”

Though, one of my favorite topics, this week isn’t about rebellion.

It’s about introspection, remembrance and a little skepticism.

We are not questioning everything because everything is wrong.

We are questioning everything because you deserve to know what actually belongs to you.

What This Week Is Really About…

Practicing Discernment.

Exploring Curiosity.

Making Conscious Choices.

Not every tradition needs to be abandoned, nor does every belief needs to be replaced, but every belief deserves to be examined.

Because once you become aware… YOU get to choose.

Questioning Prompts...👁

🌹What beliefs about yourself came from your own lived experience? Which ones were handed to you?

🌹 What words do you use every day without ever considering what they mean to you?

🌹 What traditions or boundaries make you feel more like yourself? Which ones make you feel smaller?

🌹 If no one had ever explained success, femininity, love, or spirituality to you...how might you define them today?

I am a personal development junkie. So, I LOVE a good self-help book. One of the books that has invited me to think differently is The Kybalion: The Seven Kemetic Laws.

During the recent Mercury Retrograde, I sat in deep reflection mode and I was reminded of The Kybalion how everything relates. I was reminded “As Above so Below”, “The All is Mind, The Universe is Mental” and so much more. This guide of universal (kemetic) laws is a powerful reminder that EVERYTHING you do is connected to The Divine, your relationship with self and the world around you.

No, we STILL don’t do rules here but these “laws” are evident and actually made sense to me when I first picked up this book back in 2022. Whether or not, The Kybalion becomes part of your journey, what I appreciate most is its invitation to observe the life around you vs. just taking what’s given. Here’s a slight breakdown of each “law”.

Mentalism: "The All is Mind, The Universal is Mental.”

Vibration: “Nothing rests, everything vibrates.”

Rhythm: “Everything has it’s tides. Rhythm compensates.”

Cause and Effect: “What goes around comes back around a.k.a Karma.”

Correspondence: “As below, so above and as above, so blow.”

Polarity: “Everything is dual and had poles. Opposites are identical in nature but in different degrees.”

Gender: “Gender is in everything; everything has its Masculine and Feminine Principles. Gender manifests on all plane” ☕️

I won’t do a full synopsis here but if you do decide to dive deeper and read the text, you may get a better innerstanding of how deep shit truly is and how we are all truly connected. This text also helped me better innerstand myself as a Neurospicy, Black Woman. Yes, statements like, “Words are spells”, “Protect your innergy” & “Mercury Retrograde is coming.” are becoming more mainstream but next time you hear something that triggers you to rethink beliefs, maybe think a little deeper than,

“Here they go with that spiritual shit…” 😒

Simply ask yourself, “What significance might these statements have if more than one person is saying it?” or “What don’t I believe what I am hearing? Are these my thoughts or someone else’s?”

Purge Season is prime time to QUESTION EVERYTHING. This week, I encourage you to question everything you feel, see and hear, even if you experienced it before. Not because the life you’re living is “wrong” but because we have more control over shit than we were conditioned to believe and I want us to see it. This week, I encourage you to make the decision to control what you can and be more intentional with what you accept as fact for YOUR LIFE because EVERYTHING IS THAT DEEP ! 🗣️

Let’s be clear: The Kemetic Laws are not rules you have to accept but lenses you can look through. Sometimes a different lens helps us ask better questions and better questions often lead to deeper self-awareness. If you’re interested in reading “The Kybalion”, DM me and I’ll send you the pdf.

Yes, Language Matters Too. ☕️

During my spiritual journey, I’ve become extremely intentional about the words I choose and use, especially when speaking and writing in English. Not because language is about perfection but because spelling shapes how I relate to myself and the world around me. Over time, I’ve started replacing certain words with ones that feel more aligned with me and my own perspective, regardless of how it makes others feel.

At this point in my life, I feel like if you don’t like how I speak, then don’t speak to me. 🤷🏽‍♀️😆 Idccccc! Might sound “woowoo”, but I do believe that words are spells.

No, everyone doesn’t have to change their language to be in this space. Actually, I know that most won’t and the change is actually something that annoys tf outta people because it makes them uncomfortable. Nevertheless, I do want to share a small glimpse into the language I’ve intentionally adopted for those who are interested or doing their work to do the same.

Below is preview of something bigger I’m creating. 😏

The Studiio Word Bank. 📝

Rising > Morning: I am NOT in mourning and will not claim it. No, it’s not a different word because one letter is missing. It means the same thing, IDC how long I’ve been conditioned to say it.

Innerstand > Understand: For me, if something is underneath you, it’s more than likely unreachable and unseen. When you innerstand something, you can feel and see things clearly.

Goddess or Empress > Queen: The origin of Queen is Quean, which means prostitute. Don’t believe me? Do your own research. Even if you don’t, please don’t Queen me and I will correct you everytime.

Eye > I: When I use “eye” instead of “I”, I am speaking directing from my Third Eye with intention and discernment. For example, I will always use “Eye Love You.”. I am speaking with so much intention and truth when I share my love with anyone.

Honorable Mention.

Do > Try: Over here we don’t try, WE DO EVERY TIME!

Innergy > Energy: Nothing is really wrong here, I just like referring to my InnerG this way. lol

Males > Men: I don’t like the “females instead of women” narrative going around so these mfs are males until they put some respect on us. 🤭

🌹 Studiio Notes: this isn’t a dictionary, not yet. It’s simply a glimpse into the language that’s helping me become more intentional on my journey. Please share any word spells that you are debunked in the comments.

This Week’s Self-Return Activity.🎙

Introspection, Forreal. 👁

- Write down three beliefs you’ve never questioned before.

Ask yourself:

• Who gave this to me?

• Does it still fit?

• If no one expected me to believe it, would I choose it today?

✨ Bonus Activity: Begin incorporating any language that stands out to you and see how it makes you feel. It is difficult? If so, is it doable with practice? I think yes.

If you’ve made it this far...

Thank you.

Not for agreeing with me, adopting my language or believing everything I believe but for giving yourself permission to pause long enough to ask your own questions.

That’s all I’ve ever hoped this space would offer.

More awareness.

Because once you become aware, you can choose.

Choose what stays.

Choose what leaves.

Choose what deserves another look.

Choose Yourself. 🌹

Before you leave #HerMonth’s conversations...

Press play one more time.

Not on the entries or channelled frequencies, On Yourself.

Listen to the way you speak now.

The questions you ask now.

The boundaries you create and enforce now.

The parts of yourself you’ve become willing to meet.

You may not have all the answers but you’re no longer moving on autopilot.

And to me...that’s a beautiful place to begin again as you Self-Return. Whether you all four or one of #HerMonth moments, eye so proud of you and your growth. You choose yourself and looking damn good doing so. YOU GO GIRL!

Reminder: The Studiio will always be here when you need another place to pause.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: You are Enough - Sheléa

Listen, affirm and believe it to be true because it is.🌹

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• #HerMonth is an intentional month to pause and return to self. One month. Four returns. A lifetime of homecoming to yourself. 🌹

The Studiio is under construction.

However, I did add some things to The Archive., if you’re interested. 🔊🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Somewhere along the way, many of us were taught that being a “good” Black Woman meant being available.

Available to explain.

Available to fix.

Available to forgive.

Available to overextend.

Available to carry what was never ours in the first place.

They called it kindness.

They called it loyalty.

They called it “being strong”.

When it really was a lack of boundaries… ☕️

The truth is every “yes” costs something.

Every over-explanation costs something.

Every people-pleasing habit costs something.

Every version of yourself you abandon to make someone else comfortable costs something.

If this resonates. maybe not giving two fucks isn’t about caring less.

Maybe it’s about caring with intention.

This Week’s Intention.🌹

Ask yourself:

Where am I giving more innergy than I’m receiving?

Write the first answer that comes to mind.

Don’t edit it.

What This Week Is Really About…

This isn’t permission to become careless.

It’s permission to become discerning.

Permission to stop giving your attention away so freely, stop believing every opinion deserves your response, stop confusing accessibility with love and remember that your peace deserves protection too.

I would be lying if I said I wasn’t still working on this but as I incorporate this practice DAILY. The more I practice, the better I get standing up for, spiritually protecting and speaking up for myself.

If you know me, you’d know I am quick to cut a mf off; I am King Cut Off.

Yes, King not Queen. I do not use Queen to refer to myself because I feel like she is truly the peasant of the Royal Court. That being said, I prefer Goddess or Empress. Also, the origin of Queen is “Quean”, which means prostitute. Yes, I am one of those “Grand Rising” Girlies lol. Meaning I am VERY intentional with my language but more on that next week. ☕️

Anyways, I am very strong with boundaries these days because I have a child to protect and I DO NOT PLAY ABOUT MY JIT!!!! Me being firm about NOBODY having his face on the internet until he’s older is a HUGE BOUNDARY for me. Like, fuck around and never see him again type serious because mfs are weird and once something is on the internet, it’s no telling who and what someone can do. Call it woowoo crazy, IDC.

Another one of my boundaries is not allowing anyone to tell me what to do with MY LIFE. If I fucks with you, I MAY listen to your input but ultimately, I have to make on own decisions. My favorite saying is “Nobody knows me more than me.” Being as though I used to be a chronic follower and people pleaser, that is an amazing affirmation for me. If you struggle with people pleasing, try adding it to your rising affirmations and let me know how it feels over time.

One boundary I am still working on is finding the balance between speaking my truth and oversharing. While I do love writing in here and will never delete anything because these are my true experiences. I feel like my oversharing days are coming to an end, as I step into this new level of my spiritual journey. I am learning that I need to be a little more protective of myself and my very, potent innergy. Even if I love them…especially, if I love them.

When I love someone, I overshare, I overgive and I overpour and most of the times, there’s little to no reciprocation to replenish me. I am left empty and to replenish myself until I am needed again. The shit pisses off because I know better at this point but it show proof that I am still human, still learning and nobody is perfect; I mean what’s the fun in perfect anyway?! 😆 When I express this truth, I AM NOT looking for pity or advice. This is a conclusion that I have gathered as I study AND MASTER myself.

Self-Return = Self Mastery. ☕️

Instead of trying to control everyone else, practice mastering yourself.

The whole point of Self -Return is to master yourself first. This means, we can no longer be concerned with the outcome of anyone else’s lives, unless you have small children. However, even they have their own dreams and missions. So again, the ONLY guaranteed control you have and should want is over yourself. The process of self-mastery creates the opportunity to learn and develop rapport with our FULL & TRUE IDENTITY, instead of just accepting the projections of what others told us “they see.”

My Self Mastery Journey has taught me to remain open-minded, patient and honest with myself, creative asf and most importantly, FREE. Free of doubts, fear, limitation, negativity and anxiety. Simply by betting on myself and never switching up on ME for anyone. Eye love it here and eye am so excited to support you as you begin mastering yourself, this week and beyond.

This week, I want you to notice:

🎵 Where do I automatically say “yes” without thinking?

🎵 What immediately drains my energy?

🎵 What conversation didn’t actually require my participation?

🎵 Where am I abandoning myself to avoid disappointing someone else?

🎵 What would protecting my peace actually look like today?

Self-return isn’t controlling your emotions.

It’s learning not to abandon yourself because of them.

Things You No Longer Owe Anyone. 💌

🌹 Immediate responses.

🌹 Unlimited access to your time, space or body.

🌹 An explanation for every boundary.

🌹 Constant availability.

🌹 Emotional labor without reciprocity.

🌹 Shrinking yourself to make others comfortable.

🌹 Being “the bigger person” in every situation. SLAP THAT HOE! 🤣

🌹 Guilt for choosing yourself.

🌹 Access simply because someone is familiar.

🌹 Endless second chances without changed behavior.

🌹 Performing strength when you actually need rest.

🌹 Carrying emotions and problems that aren’t yours.

Pause after each one.

Notice which one made your body react.

Start there.

This Week’s Self-Return Activity.🎙

The Innergy Audit.

Draw three columns.

- Worth My Innergy

- Maybe

- Absolutely Not

Throughout the week, instead of judging yourself, notice where things belong.

People.

Habits.

Conversations.

Responsibilities.

Thoughts.

Memories.

Notice what keeps ending up in the “Absolutely Not” column.

The art of not giving two fucks isn’t about becoming harder.

It’s about becoming clearer.

Clear about what deserves your attention.

Clear about what deserves your compassion.

Clear about what deserves a response and what deserves your silence.

Sometimes, the most loving thing you can do for yourself is simply stop carrying what was never yours.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Quiet on the Creek - Saucy Santana

This song came out at the perfect timeeeee because baby, you do gotta be real quiet on the mothafucking creek. 🤣

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• #HerMonth is an intentional month to pause and return to self. One month. Four returns. A lifetime of homecoming to yourself. 🌹

Studiio Souvenirs & More in The Studiio. 🔊🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Not every truth belongs on the radio.

Some truths are quieter.

More uncomfortable.

More honest.

Those are the ones we’ll explore here.

Every month in Deep Cuts, we’ll choose one track and sit with the parts of ourselves we’ve learned to skip over.

No performances.

No pretending.

No pressure to have it all figured out.

Just a willingness to listen a little closer because sometimes the deepest healing begins with the songs we’ve been avoiding…

Welcome to Deep Cuts. 💽

Before We Press Play.🎧

One of the hardest parts about shadow work is realizing that sometimes the thing standing in our way isn’t another person.

It’s US.

Not because we’re broken, but because we’ve gotten comfortable repeating patterns that no longer serve us.

There comes a point where we stop asking, “Why does this keep happening to me?” and start asking, “What keeps bringing me back here?”

That’s where everything begins to change.

Set the Tone: Read Your Innergy First. 👁

Take a moment to ground yourself.

If you work with oracle or tarot cards, now is the time to grab your favorite deck.

Take a few deep breaths.

Then ask:

“What truth am I ready to hear today?”

or

“What part of me is asking for my attention?”

Shuffle or Pull ONE Card.

Don’t rush to interpret it.

Just let it sit beside you as you move through today’s track.

Notice what stands out.

Notice what repeats.

Notice what lands differently by the time you reach the end.

Trust yourself first.

Your cards aren’t here to tell you who you are, they’re here to help you remember.

🌹 Studiio Reminder: Trust what came before you questioned it.

Soundcheck. 🎛

Does any of this sound familiar:

“Here we go again…”

“Why do you keep going back to shit that is NO GOOD for you?”

“It’s Mercury Retrograde…one more time.” 🙃

The Track: When It Rains. 🎼

Okay, I know; a white band for my first track?! Yes, hear me out. 😆

Like many of us, a lot of my shadow side is my inner child/teen and she LOVES Paramore. I am currently reviving her frequency as I listen to the full “Riot” album and type this entry.

As a Black Emo Teenager, I always used to sing this song to myself, as if I was singing to someone who pissed me off or hurt my feelings; usually a parent or one of them “little boyfriends’" lol. Today, I listen and I hear Judiee (my innerteen) screaming at me…

“and convinced yourself that it’s not the reason you don’t see the sun anymore.” Then, “You always find an escape…just running away from all the ones who love you.” Lastly, “Take your time.”

She sees and feels the things I am not saying.

She loves me enough to tell me the truth even when it stings.

She gives me grace as heal through this.

Deep right? I mean we are in Deep Cuts. In music, Deep Cuts are the songs true fans know. They're not the radio hits. They're the honest ones. The vulnerable ones. The ones that reveal the artist. In the Studiio, Deep Cuts are where the masks come off and the truth gets a microphone.

Alright, back to The Track.

I am listening and while Judiee is giving me grace, she is also screaming at me because she knows I can be handling a certain situation better. It’s not just Judiee, it’s Babygirl, Trina, Big Mama; ALL OF PARIS but Judiee is the one with no filter, so she’s getting on my ass right now. 😆

Only because we see the recurring patterns.

We see have confirmation from Source.

My body sends consistent signals that shit is not aligned.

Yet, I deal with it and move through life like nothing is happening.

This disappoints and confuses us because we’ve grown sooooo much and even though, I know it’s Mercury Retrograde but it feels like we’re back sliding because…

WE AREN’T STUPID OR BLIND!

WE SEE THE SHIT!

WE FEEL THE SHIT!

WE TRUST THE DOWNLOADS!!!

So, what the fuck is going on?!

“Why am I so settled and “content” in this uncomfortable situation?”

This moment is when I knew I need to go in the Shadow Work Room…but Bitch, I am avoiding that room like the motherfuckin’ plague right now. Not because I don’t know that I need to face it but honestly, because I know facing this shit is going to change the trajectory of my entire life.

“and I am really ready for that?”

Well, I’ve done enough work to know that no one else can answer this question for me. So this week, I open the door and figure it out…

Lyrics: Journal Prompts. 🎤

Your situation may not be like mine or even similar. You might lsten to this song and receive a completely different interpretation from mine; that is welcomed and okay. Either way, after listening to this Deep Cut, what are you figuring out about your inner child/past self this week?

• What excuse have I been repeating that no longer feels true?

• What pattern keeps showing up in different people, places, or situations?

• What part of me benefits from staying exactly where I am?

Studio Time: Weekly Activity.🎚️

Write a letter beginning with:

“I’m sick of pretending...”

Don’t stop writing until the sentence finishes itself.

Don’t edit.

Don’t perform.

Don’t make it pretty.

Just tell the truth.

✨ Bonus Activity: Give your inner child a nickname(s). Not to separate her but to identify and celebrate her. No matter your goal here, she will more than likely be a major feature in this Deep Cuts album. ☕️

Studiio Playback: Community Reflection.🎵

Finish this sentence in comments with one word:

“I’m ready to stop...”

🎧 The Channelled Deep Cut: When It Rains - Paramore.

⏭ Next Track: “The Cost of Being Easy to Love.”

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A Channelled Deep Cut is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• I’ll be continuing this conversation inside the Deep Cuts Chat.

  I’d love to hear what came up for you while reading Track 001.

  No pressure to have polished answers. Just bring your honesty.

• My creative services, handmade and digital products are now under one roof called SheDoEverythang. Check me out, if you’re ever interested.

• Enjoy my entries and desire to contribute The Stu? All Love Donations are accepted here.

Deep Cuts Session 💽 is now available.

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Okay, let’s talk about it!

The truth is you won’t make a decision for yourself until you truly want to make one; no matter what you know, see or feel, that decision is solely YOURS to make. Some obvious examples: being in a toxic relationship or losing weight. You see this unhealthy person or food isn’t right for you and you are starting not to like what you see in the mirror, but regardless of what, you will continue this relationship with that person or food until YOU get sick of dealing with the same shit!

The same mindset applies to your Self-Return Journey.

You gotta get sick of what YOU continue to attract into your innergy that you aren’t really rocking with but you deal with for whatever reason. You have to take accountability for the parts you play in YOUR life, good, bad and indifferent, because everything you see right now is a reflection of your past thoughts and actions, or lack thereof. Taking that accountability, for me, looks like introspection. My favorite form of introspection is Shadow Work.

Shadow work is a type of introspection that allows you to intentionally dive deep into your subconscious mind (shadow self) and identify any issues, triggers or blockages that you may have. Our shadow selves are the parts of us that we hide from the rest of the world. The parts us that may be ashamed of or you’re just very secretive about this side of you. Now, this work is something a lot of people tend avoid due to “lack of time or capacity” but truly, it’s because of fear of self. That being said, I don’t think it’s the word “shadow” that scares people. I believe it’s the word “work”…but isn’t “faith without works dead”?

Shadow Work isn't about becoming consumed by your darkness. It's about getting curious about the parts of yourself you've learned to hide, reject, or silence, so they no longer have the power to run your life from the background. Shadow work is like a tattoo. Painful in the beginning and a beautiful OR growth revealing outcome in the end.

Recently, I’ve had to do some of my own introspection hence, #HerMonth. My current situation in life, beyond The Stu, is interestingly revealing and a little wild, for lack of better words. I won’t speak on it here because even though I’m coming out of it, it’s current, so yeah no lol. Nevertheless, I do realize when I do speak on it with the small but mighty village that I do have, they are receiving what I am sharing about my situation as something they have to help me with or fix. They love me, so they are constantly checking on me in passive ways and I can feel the pity and guilt. Which is one of the main reasons I don’t talk about my shit to anyone because honestly, I don’t even feel comfortable sharing shit with anyone, unless I’ve already found a solution or handled it for myself. I just be wanting to vent sometimes, to hear out loud on how far I’ve come. Yes, it’s a trauma response and I am using Shadow Work to address it. ☕️🤣

I used to get extremely irritated for speaking up in the first place AND not being innerstood after finally telling people what’s going on with me. I won’t lie, I almost went back into “escape mode” because a big part of me would rather be alone than constantly explaining my life decisions to people who JUST DON’T GET IT. However, I’ve gathered that the point wasn’t to have them innerstand me but for me to innerstand me more and practice using my voice to speak my truth, regardless of anyone’s reactions or how they receive me. I also gathered that I am not looking for help when speaking out, even if I do need it. I was looking for someone to hear my experience, then see and celebrate my ability to endure all that I have been growing through in silence.

Of course, I didn’t realize I needed it until my Shayla actually did it but yeah.

We reconnected after years of being apart but we were back like we never left. We linked, recreated that emotionally safe environment for one another and we were able speak our entire truths without much interference. By the end of my turn, I was expecting the face of concern and pity. Instead, she took my hand tightly, looked into my eyes and said, “I see you and I am so proud of you for still being here.” That one statement is what brought the tears; still does as I write. That feeling of being seen but also, HEARD and FELT. It was like the most gentle soul hug that I needed in that moment.

This exchange made me recognize my growth, strength & how far I’ve come. During the talk, I noticed that instead of running away and into myself; which used to be my safe place, I was confronting my feelings, trauma and giving the people I love some deeper insight on what’s really happening in my life behind the scenes. Lastly, I learned to accept how different I am from other women I’ve encountered and the interpersonal relationships I actually need in my life…

Yeah, I know…but let me explain. 🤣

Yes, I curated a Black Women Only Brand & Community but this is a calling, not really what I planned to be doing. Ironically, I don’t necessarily “get along” with women.

Many times in my life, I encounter women.

They love my innergy.

We become cool.

I start getting comfortable and showing myself more.

They start acting weird and I gotta gtf out their face.

I’ve had this experience with younger women, elder women, “friends”, relatives…hell, even my own mother. 😆 In the same paragraph, I also am romantically attracted to women and the one’s I experience, on the spectrum of love, makes me fall in love with loving on, being loved by and possibly marrying a woman. 🧐 Wild I know but it’s my life and as we learned in My Queer Story, it’s not a phase nor is it something I shy away from, anymore, as I deep dive into the root of my sexuality and other shadows to this day.

Shadow Work is the best way to get that done but it’s also the toughest way. The path people avoid most is my road most traveled. Not necessarily because I wanted to but because I had to, or I wouldn’t have survived the many attempts on my life, physically and spiritually. Hell nahh, it’s NOT EASY, It’s actually HARD AS FUCK to face, deprogram and return to your true self. but the other side is SO MAGICAL!

THIS is why I am no longer in the business of trying to prove to anybody that they need shadow work or any healing, for that matter. However, I am in the business of providing the tools, rituals and practices to those who are already healing themselves and desire support from those who are actually doing the same. A connection, of any kind, just hits different when someone knows themselves enough to unapologetically take time TO HEAL. I didn’t see to many non-performative spaces, I made one. Continue reading for more on that space.

This Week’s Mirror (Shadow Work) Challenge.🌹

This week, I want you to notice yourself.

Not judge yourself.

Not fix yourself.

Just notice.

Throughout the week, every time you feel yourself becoming irritated, defensive, triggered, or unusually emotional...

Pause.

Ask yourself:

“What is this really about?”

Not what happened.

Not who did what.

“What is this moment revealing about me?”

Then, before the day ends, journal on these three questions:

🌹 What pattern did I notice today?

🌹 What emotion did I try to avoid?

🌹 If this feeling had a voice, what would it say?

Don’t rush your answers.

The goal isn’t to solve yourself.

The goal is to stop pretending you don’t see yourself.

Sometimes the first act of healing is simply being honest. 🌑

If today's reflection left you wanting to dive a little deeper into your shadows...Subscribe to Deep Cuts. 💽

My new Paid Subbie section is now, for the Black Woman ready to hear the parts of herself she’s been skipping over. This Membership Includes: Monthly Deep Cut Essays - Exclusive Shadow Work Prompts - Shadow Work Artifacts - Live Reflections - Early Access to The Control Room. 💽🌹

p.s. Accountability is Alchemy. 🗣️

I’ve been a creative entrepreneur/freelancer for almost 8 years now and I’ve learned so much about myself and business but most importantly, people because what’s a brand without an audience?! We’ll get more into what I’ve learned in branding another day but I will say, “People don’t buy from your brand, they buy because of the experience you create.”

When I started HerDiaryStudiio, specifically The Stu aka My Substack, it was for the purpose of creating community and safe spaces for us to heal. While that is still my goal, I might have miscommunicated some things that has some people thinking I am the type of healer or guide that will hold your hand and spoon feed you the wisdom I have but let me set the record straight and let you know now, I WILL NEVER. 🤣

I’ve taught children for 10 plus years, I don’t spoon feed adults.

Eye love you on purpose, which means I will share the wisdom that I have done THE WORK to gain and a lot of it might be free but I WILL NOT continue to remind you to do what you know you should be doing for YOUR growth, I am growing myself.

I WILL NOT soften my language or make it more deliverable, so it won’t hurt the feelings you have been trying to avoid all this time. Some triggers are signals. Not initially fired to hurt you but to you warn you. If you feel me, you feel me, if you don’t you aren’t supposed to.

This isn’t church…well at least not the church you may be used to. Yes, God is ALWAYS present in each space I create. Yes, you CAN come as you are but you might also get cursed out, if you cross a boundary or disrespect anyone over these parts. We don’t do passive aggressive here. 🤣

I am not here to resonate with the masses, I am building for MY collective and creating a “Bad Bitch Coven” (more on this soon 😈) and I won’t keep censoring myself to make people comfortable that I was never even talking to in the first place.

Again I may not have made this clear, so the rest of this month is about solidifying HerDiaryStudiio. This also an invitation to unsubscribe and find a space that resonates better, if you don’t feel comfortable with the direction you see me going. Eye love you either way and I ultimately want you to feel comfortable in this space but your comfortability IS NOT my job to manage, it’s YOURS. ☕️

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Roll Dice by Roddy Rich

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• #HerMonth is an intentional month to pause and return to self. One month. Four returns. A lifetime of homecoming to yourself. 🌹

Studiio Souvenirs & More in The Studiio. 🔊🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Do you ground?

If so, how often? If not, why haven’t you started? 🤔

Grounding is an important practice to help you stay connected to all parts of the earth, including yourself. Giving you the opportunity to receive all the unmatched, healing innergy that you can only get from Mother Earth. Allowing yourself to be intentionally present in the spaces that Source has created for us to be free is a underrated blessing.

Grounding is such a sensual experience.

One of my favorite ways to ground is to simply go outside barefoot in the grass and hug trees. I feel, smell and taste the fresh air. Feel the grass and cold dirt on my BARE feet and toes, as I bird watch and listen to each one sing the unique song of their kind. I love watching the squirrels fight and play in the trees. Hands down, one of the best grounding meditation environments is Nature, herself.

I ground inside as well every day through Yoga & EFT Tapping. I have become pretty intermediate in this activity now, as you can see in the video above. I also would rather sit on the ground or floor, than in a bed or chair when I am in comfortable, clean spaces like my home. Lastly, I am barefoot most of the time, as long as it’s not cold; can’t throw off my Chi. ☕️

Below, I am providing several grounding activities, you can choose one or create your own ritual with multiple. You encouraged to use these throughout the week. DO NOT OVERLOAD YOURSELF that is the opposite of #HerMonth’s purpose.

Grounding Activities. 🌿

🌹 Rearrange one small space in your home to feel more Safe For You.

🌹 Stand outside barefoot for 10 minutes and intentionally notice what’s beneath your feet.

🌹 Cook yourself a nourishing meal and eat without distractions.

🌹 Declutter one drawer, one shelf, or one corner you’ve been avoiding.

🌹 Make a playlist called “I Am Safe Here.” or use the “Eye Am Safe Here.” playlist I created to ground yourself through body movement.

🌹 Wrap yourself in your favorite blanket, put your phone away, and rest without feeling guilty or shame.

🌹 Take a slow walk without headphones. Listen to your surroundings.

🌹 Write a list titled: “Things That Make Me Feel Like Home.”

🌹 Water a plant...or yourself. Drink a full glass of water with intention.

🌹 Wear red today, even if it’s just your lipstick, socks, nails, or waist beads.

🌹 Clean something you’ve been putting off as an act of care, not punishment.

🌹 Light a candle and sit with yourself for five quiet minutes.

🌹 Write a letter beginning with: “What I need to feel safe right now is...”

🌹 Unfollow one account that makes you question your worth.

🌹 Reach out to someone who genuinely makes you feel seen.

🌹 Build a small “Grounding Corner” with a journal, candle, crystal, book, or anything that reminds you of yourself.

🌹 End the day by placing your hand over your heart and saying:

“I survived enough. Today, I choose to feel safe.”

This Week’s Return Challenge.🌹

Every time you catch yourself rushing, pause for 30 seconds before moving to the next thing.

Take one breath.

Relax your shoulders.

Unclench your jaw.

Feel your feet.

Then continue.

It’s tiny, but it teaches your nervous system that everything doesn’t have to happen in survival mode.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: “Eye Am Safe Here.”

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• #HerMonth is an intentional month to pause and return to self. One month. Four returns. A lifetime of homecoming to yourself. 🌹

Studiio Souvenirs & More in The Studiio. 🔊🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

If we’re being honest, which we always are. Chiiilleeee, these retrogrades (pluto AND mercury) have had me overly sensitive to innergy, extremely honest about how I am feeling and genuinely not giving two fucks about anything. 🖕🏽😒🤣 As we know, I’ve been working on that so I am happy about that last part but baby, that first part…

Bitch, I’m crying about everything!

I’m spazzing over the smallest things.

I’m recollecting some shit that didn’t get me mad before but I am a little mad at now.

and there’s this feeling that I don’t belong anywhere anymore.

Though there is truth in this statement, it was happening again…

Difference this time?

I can see it AND I DON’T LIKE IT!

I am taking me “not belonging here” WAYYYY TOO FAR. I am starting to be unable to relate to ANYONE. I am witnessing myself become that disconnected little girl, escaping into her video games and journals when she couldn’t escape the nonsense inside her home. I am starting to claim that “I don’t like people” again, nor do I want friends and I want to be alone or Imma crash out. I can’t even hold a conversation with anyone without being “super spiritual” or emotional, which ultimately, kills the mood with my way of life or current experience.

While the reaction of some, is revealing how mfs feel and I am taking note of it but I know I’m not complaining and I deserve a safe space to release. I am also taking account of myself and part in all of this of being a little too spiritual to relate to my environment which IS NOT the mission in this life.

I am creating a community and safe spaces for others, so yes, being too unreachable or “in the clouds” may get in the way of that. ☕️

We love to say, “I am in this world and not of it” but I am learning, you must be of this world in some way in order to express certain things that connect and resonate with those who are also IN THIS WORLD. As Starseeds in this world, we know it’s all of our purposes are to reconnect OUR collectives to Source in some shape, way or form. We also know that we wouldn’t have reincarnated back here, if we truly didn’t belong here. Nevertheless, MY people were losing me, which we all know happens but I had to recognize that I had an issue too because I was losing me as well…

The Sensual Paris, the Fun-Loving Paris, the Loud and Intentionally Rebellious Paris who loves and cares about children, animals and the “less fortunate” of this world and not afraid to show it.

Babyyyy, I have been dying and crying for help behind the scenes, okayyy. 🤣 But trust me, I am good and always will be. I just have to take responsibility for my innergy, environment and actions by returning to me and recalibrating to the ethereal, down to earth, shit talking, loving, sensual and passionate rebel that I am created to be.

Basically, it’s time for me to take some of own advice & tools and return to myself.

I do know I am going to need more than a week to get this done. This is what made me think of #HerMonth, instead of, #HerWeek. During this month, I’m going to be a little less active digitally, so I can be more tapped in with me. However, I do want to I invite my Stu Collective to join me. This is an invitation for everyone in The Stu, to take a pause and intentionally return to ourselves, so that we can continue to be better for our families, communities but most importantly, ourselves. With that being said, every Sunsday of this month, I will drop a Self-Return Activity for everyone to use during their #HerMonth practices.

#HerMonth Reminders.

• Try to digital detox a little more than usual.

• Take your time and learn as you can. Don’t over do it!

• Don’t try to do everything spiritual at once; there’s no need to try to catch up, you are exactly where you need to be.

• Do things that make YOU feel good!

• Allow yourself to move and be comfortable in any setting you are.

• STAY SENSUAL!!!! 🦊😏

#HerMonth Upcoming Activities.

• Getting Back to Her Roots: Grounding

• Sick of Your Own Shit: Shadow Work.

• The Art of Simply Not Giving Two Fucks.

• Shit is THAT DEEP! ☕️

I love y’all so much for being here with me. I will be back tomorrow with our first #HerMonth activity. Thank you for your love, a piece of your time and space in your self-return journey, it doesn’t go unnoticed and I send it all back with love 100 fold.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Pretty Bird by Jhene Aiko 🕊

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• I’m never calling you a “bitch”, it’s just how I talk and express myself when I talking my shit lmao.

Studiio Souvenirs & More in The Studiio. 🔊🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

So before Black Pride Month ends, I promised a depiction of My Queer Experience thus far but where tf do I start, I don’t where to begin 🎶.

Okay so it’s 2007, I am on my fat back computer minding my business and lesbian porn popups begins to take over my screen. My first reaction was to rush and delete everything before I got in trouble but then I realized, I was home alone. 😈

So, I calmed my nerves and decided to press one…

Bitch, I went down a rabbit hole to a world that felt familiar, even though I had never done anything remotely similar, besides mastrubating a couple times but watching it?! HELL NAHH! 😂 The sensations I felt within my body and in my pants as I watched two women be intimate, just felt right…

I mean I’ve always had this unexplainable feeling for women but I never explored the thought pass an “Oh she’s gorgeous; I’d kiss her.” 🙈🤣 Nevertheless, from that day on, if I had the house to myself, which was frequent, I was on that computer exploring all things lesbian while allowing my mind and fingers to follow their own rhythm. My spirit felt comfortable and the more comfortable I got with who I was, the more I began interacting with women in the real world too.

Let’s be clear, this wasn’t just some computer fantasy, this was my secret, primary feelings coming out to be seen and felt for the first time. For the longest, dick used to disgust and scare me so bad. 😆 I always looked at males as friends, predators or enemies. Idk, if it was my fucked up relationship with my father, the other males I watched hurt my mother or predatory nature of the males around me, including relatives and their old dirty ass friends. I truly hated them and was not afraid to let it be known.

I constantly “scared away” strange men from my mother in public. I used to fight boys in school, on a consistent basis, for touching me without permission. I protected all my friends from the tomfoolery of male nature…a pitbull by nature because my parents didn’t play that soft shit. lol

People always called me, “Tomboy” ,“Little Boy”, “Boy in a Dress”…sometimes even, “Baby Dike” because I dressed like a boy, I acted like one and if you saw me with one, romantically, they were my best friend that turned into a lil boyfriend after while. 🤣 It wasn’t until 9th grade, when I started hearing that I needed to wear more skirts, dresses and purses. I kept hearing, “you’re a girl, you shouldn’t wear or do that” or “how are you gonna get a date looking or being like this” and that shit started to get to me a little because I’m like…

“Was I doing something wrong for being all of me?!”

And as much as I heard it, I must’ve been…so I gave in and became more “girly”. I started getting my hair done regularly, nails became a things, less sneakers and more makeup…Of course, the transformation got a “good responses” from everywhere. I became a model. I begin getting more attention from males, getting asked on more dates, more little boyfriends…and that was the validation would want and this is what I’m supposed to do…

Right?!

By tenth grade, I moved from Largo HS to Gwynn Park HS and I looked better so, I am attracting males like it’s nothing and due conditioning, I thought that was what I wanted. However deep down, I wanted to attract and befriend the Queer girls around me. Of course, I didn’t know the entire dynamics of anyone’s lives but I wanted to be as confident and not give a fuck enough to be all of me again. Most of them looked like they were free to do, say, wear and be all of themselves all the time…that is what I admired most. I remember I had the biggest crush on this girl on my Volleyball team. We flirted all day, our intimacy was there, connection was crazyyyy but we both were still “in the closet”, so we never acted pass the flirting. I wanted her so bad and we’re both out now so, if you ever read this, call me BB. 😏

By Junior Year, I was confident and comfortable enough to come out, on Twitter, as Bisexual on my first pride month ever. That one tweet revealed so much…first, the love and acceptance I received being freshly out from my virtual and some friends at school. Then, I came home one day and found out somebody; idk who to this day; screenshot my tweets and sent them to my mother. Basically, outing me before I could have the conversation myself. That day, I came home to a disgusted face and a weird conversation that lead to disappointment and loneliness. The questions were passive aggressive and judgemental. The attitude was disgusted and uncomfortable. All the while, I am sitting there feeling confused and abandoned because her best friend of over 20 years is a lesbian. That experience alone, made me revert back into “boys only”…at least in front of her and that lasted until I finally left her house for college.

Now, we’re in college and baby, I’m away from home sooooooo…I became more open and fluid in my sexuality. College is where I had sex with a woman for the first time. I explored a multiple relationships with women, some sexually and others just flirting. I even, found myself in a polyamorous relationship for a little while, with a woman and a male. Now that, though short-lived and chaotic, was an experience I will never forget because it introduced me to a new desire.

Now, I wanted a husband and a wife.

Chileeeee, that polyamorous experience took me through the ringer, simply because It was another time that I experienced public scrutiny for simply being myself. When I came out and shared my throuple back in 2016, it WAS NOT as glorified as it is today. We got so many “Ewwwww’s”, “this isn’t right” and “Imma pray for you’s.” Yet behind the scenes, I’ve never felt so seen and loved by people that I actually loved in all my life. They didn’t even live by me but they were my babies and I frequently traveled to see them until we broke up. They even moved in town, we reconnected and it was more chaos but I just loved the feeling of being loved by multiple people. Nevertheless, the backlash I received made me be a little more quiet about that desire but elevated my desires for strictly dating women. So after college, dating women was my new romantic goal.

Throughout the years, I had about 3 official girlfriends but I also picked the ones who wanted to remain in the closet and ultimately, wanted to marry men. That shit discouraged me to the point that I ended up on dating apps; something I swore I would never do but I wanted to see what it was like. So I explored as a Unicorn, met a few people but nobody I was interested in until…I met my child’s father. Of course, I didn’t know that at the time but yeahhh, it was amazing. He was open to my sexuality…of course and we vibed heavy but I did learn that ultimately, he wanted monogamy so I concealed my urges…

Listennnn, I thought he was the one. Nevertheless, within a year and half, I got pregnant FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME and during my pregnancy, so much came up emotionally, mentally and spiritually, including my sexuality. I mean, it didn’t go away, I just concealed it for his comfortability. So, during some shadow work and I accepted that the urge is most definitely still here. Honestly, it’s stronger than ever, especially after my son was born…

I kept asking myself “Now that I am a mom, what I do with these STRONG urges?” and, “Can I still love women and be a mom or is this still ‘a phase’?”

but a 15 year phase? Be so fucking forreal. 😒🤣

Today, I am two years postpartum and I am officially Queer, instead of Bisexual, because after doing everything but sign a marriage contract with a man…I can genuinely say I WANT NO PARTS! lmao but I am still figuring the rest out. I am very much still a girly girl as far as looks, I am a sensual, beautiful woman and embrace that. However, my mannerisms, my attitude and sometimes, my overall personality is more masculine and I am learning that is okay. This experience in itself has taught me that I need to show up for ALL OF ME first and simple not give a fuck about what anybody has to say or how they fucking feel about it because THIS IS MY LIFE!

Showing up for MYSELF looks like:

• Maintaining and strengthening my relationship with God.

• Being sure I am the best mother I can be.

• Speaking my truth with confidence and discernment.

• Standing ten toes on my boundaries, values and morals.

• Making sure my nervous system is regulated.

• Having a good, unapologetic gay ole’ time.

• Being sure I am ALL OF ME without giving af about what anyone has to say or how they feel about it.

Not giving af on purpose is something I am still working on because I used to be a chronic people pleaser. So much so, that I have put myself in a few near-death and other traumatic situations. Yes, I know the fault isn’t all my own and there was some conditioning to ignore my intuition and trust that someone else tells me to be truth instead. However, ultimately it’s up to me heal this shit and move forward with the scars, not bleeding. So today, I am a lot more self aware and able to catch when I am not aligned but that takes time and I would be lying if I said I didn’t have my moments.

Actually, I am currently having one of those moments…

It took me all day to write this entry because I have been getting triggered. I can hear the negative comments before I even press publish and shame keeps creeping in but the main reason for this month was to SHARE MY QUEER STORY! I done created Taste The Rainbow Ritual & Taste Your Rainbow collection, all based off my story and I was still scared to share my full truth…

TODAY THAT ENDS! I AM HERE, I AM QUEER AND I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE BITCH!

Not calling anyone here a bitch, unless you the bitch that don’t fuck with a bitch, then it is fuck you bitch lmao. Don’t take my bars 🤣

Anywho, Eye Love You Queer Black Woman. Eye See You. Welcome Home.🌹

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Morning by Tey & Keh

This is one of favorite Queer songs, I wanna make us a Queer playlist but I want some input from my Stu collective. Comment some your favorites please. 🏳️‍🌈👀

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• In the Stu and in my life, “men” are males until they stop calling women “females” idc idc idc lmao.

Studiio Souvenirs & More in The Studiio. 🔊🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman.🌹

Before We Continue...

If you’re just joining us, welcome.

If you’ve been here since the beginning, welcome back.

Before we move deeper into the rainbow, I want to invite you to pause.

Not to catch up.

Not to do everything perfectly.

Just to check in.

Because sometimes we move so quickly through healing, growth, and self-discovery that we forget to notice what’s actually changing.

So before we continue, let’s reset.

🎨 Refresher Activity: Your Current Color.

Without thinking too hard about it:

What color feels most like your life right now?

Not your favorite color.

Not the color you wish you were in.

The color you’re actually living in.

❤️ Red
Safety. Stability. Survival.

🧡 Orange
Pleasure. Creativity. Desire.

💛 Yellow
Confidence. Identity. Visibility.

💚 Green
Love. Compassion. Relationships.

🩵 Blue
Truth. Expression. Communication.

💙 Indigo
Intuition. Trust. Discernment.

💜 Violet
Connection. Purpose. Becoming.

Rainbow Reflection. 📝

Why did you choose that color?

What is it teaching you?

What is it asking of you?

What would happen if you fully honored it instead of resisting it?

Bonus Reflection. 🌈

Which color have you been neglecting?

The one you’ve been avoiding.

The one that makes you uncomfortable.

The one you know deserves more attention.

Why?

Now, If you made it here...Thank You.

For your honesty.

For your curiosity.

For your willingness to show up for yourself.

Recently, we’ve explored safety, pleasure, confidence, love, truth, intuition, and becoming. 🌈

Not as concepts.

As experiences.

As invitations.

As mirrors.

And while the challenge may be ending...

The relationship with yourself isn’t.

The question now isn’t: “What did I learn?”

The question is:

“What am I taking with me?”

Which color felt like home?

Which one challenged you?

Which one surprised you?

Which one keeps following you around even now?

Take your time as you honestly answer each of questions for yourself as you more forward and of course, you can always come back to ritual right here in The Stu.

For me, that’s always been the magic of the rainbow. 🌈

Orange feels like home.

Violet is challenging and ON MY ASS right now. lol

However, this ritual reminded me that every color belongs.

Every part belongs.

Every version of us belongs.

Not just the healed parts.

Not just the confident parts.

Not just the spiritual parts.

All of us.

More Than Just Color. 🌈

As I’ve been preparing for this journey, I’ve found myself thinking about color differently.

Not as decoration.

Not as aesthetics.

As information.

As memory.

As innergy.

Every color carries something.

Every color asks something.

Every color reveals something.

❤️ Red reminds us to come home to ourselves.

🧡 Orange invites us to experience pleasure without guilt.

💛 Yellow asks us to stop shrinking.

💚 Green teaches us to soften.

🩵 Blue reminds us to tell the truth.

💙 Indigo asks us to trust what we know.

💜 Violet invites us to become.

Since I am me...I couldn’t stop there. 😂

So, I started creating with those same intentions in mind.

The Crystals I Keep Reaching For.📿

Crystals are my favorite portable grounding tools. Each one holds a separate innergy and significance, just like colors. I use crystals to maintain or absorb certain innerges in order to protect, enhance or magnify you.

Yes, I create everything with intention or what’s the point really?!

• Lava Stone reminds me that transformation is possible.

What was once fire becomes foundation.

What once felt destructive becomes something strong enough to build upon.

• Hematite keeps me grounded.

Present.

Protected.

Connected to myself when life starts pulling me in too many directions.

• Black Tourmaline is one of my favorite protective stones.

Not because it shields us from life because it reminds us that everything doesn’t deserve access to our energy.

Together, they create a foundation.

A return point.

A reminder.

Recently, I created a bracelet with Red Jasper, Amber, Yellow Agate, Green Calcite, Blue Topaz, Lapis Lazuli & Amethyst to represent, protect and amplify the innergies of our inner rainbows.

And that’s a sneak peek of what I’ve been creating behind the scenes.

Handmade, one of kind pieces inspired by color.

Inspired by love and community.

Inspired by the Black Women learning to trust what calls them.

The Black Women learning that every part of themselves belongs.

The Black Women learning to live in full color. 🌈🌹

If you’ve been following along and something has been tugging at you...

Return to Yourself in The Studiio. 🔊🌹

I won’t say anything else, I’ll allow you to do the rest. 🔓

Taste the Rainbow Ritual 🌈 may be complete but your becoming isn’t.

So take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Come back, if you need to.

and remember:

You were never meant to live in one color.

You are the whole fucking rainbow. 🌈🌹

Drop your current color below using only the emoji.

❤️
🧡
💛
💚
🩵
💙
💜

No explanation required.

Just claim your color.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Ocean Views by Nipsey Hussle.💙

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

Studiio Souvenirs & More in The Studiio. 🔊🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Juneteenth is Ours.

and not in a borrowed, everyone’s-invited to cookout, water-it-down for everyone else kind of way.

Ours.

Black American.
Soulaan.
The specific, particular, irreplaceable
heritage of a people
who were told they were free
and still had to fight to make it true.

This is our day!
And I think we deserve to celebrate it like we mean it.

I want to talk about Black Women today…and everyday but,

Specifically.
Intentionally.
Without making room for anyone else,
in this particular paragraph,
on this particular day.

We, as Black Women, have carried freedom on our backs before it had a name.

We have fought for liberation while simultaneously being excluded from the liberation we just fucking fought for.

We have shown up for every movement,
every community,
every table —

and been asked to sit down,
be quiet,
or make ourselves smaller,
so the rest of room can remain comfortable.

But, Not today! ✊🏾❤️

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This Juneteenth, I want every Black Woman reading this to feel what freedom actually feels like within her body.

Not the concept of it.
Not the performance of it.

The real thing.

The exhale.
The unclenching.
The permission to take up every inch of the space you were always meant to occupy… ☕️

Before we go further —

Read this out loud if you can.
Or just let it land.

“I am no longer available for smallness.
Not on Today!
NOT EVER AGAIN!”

Let me know in the comments how that feels afterwards, if you want.

I’ll be honest with you, as I always am.

For the last few Juneteenth’s, I created and promoted a handcrafted jewelry brand that catered to “POC”, even though my overall message and delivery was specifically focused on the Black Women’s Experiences.

I was playing a character.
Shrinking my Blackness to make my brand more palatable to “a wider audience.”

Performing safety in a space that was supposed to be mine.

This Juneteenth?!

I have a Black Woman centered brand that represents all of me.

Growing.
Aligning.
Actually supporting Black Women as they return home to themselves.

Let’s be clear, that’s not just a business update.

That’s what freedom looks like when you finally stop performing it and start living it!

In honor of today —
in honor of US — I made something.

Her Instinct Beads.

Handcrafted waist beads in intuitively, curated colorways
for the Black Woman
who sees her color(s),
feels them,
and already knows they are hers.

No session required.
No application needed.

Just her instinct leading her back to her body.

The first colorway is Soulaani —
Black, Red and Gold.

For the heritage.
For the blood.
For the sovereignty that was always ours.

Available now in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Happy Juneteenth, Black Woman. 🌹

You are the living proof that freedom is not given.

It is claimed.

Code: SOULAAN for $11 OFF of your order if you purchase anything under Her Return Artifacts in the Studiio until June 30th.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Sexy Soulaan by Monaleo.

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

Come Privately Talk Shit in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Artifacts & Files are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Tonight’s Message: KEEP IT PUSHING BABY!!!!! 💪🏾

Yes, shit gets tough but that is not always a signal to drop everything and stop but to slow down, ground in your feelings AND THE EARTH for a moment and keep it pushing. Sometimes, the pain is nothing but a divine signal that YOU ARE STILL HERE, having a human experience, no matter how “spiritual” you think you may be AND THAT’S OKAY!!!

On my own journey, I am learning that finding a balance between spiritual and mundane is kinda the point of your assignment in this life. The balance is what keeps you in alignment.

Yin & Yang.

As Above so Below.

Karma.

Are all examples of the balance Source has naturally created for all of us and we cannot run away from; if you needed to see it in another way.

Listennnn, shit is GONNA DO THE MOST right before you get where you are working towards to make sure you really want what you’ve been asking for or you just bullshittin and gonna revert back to what’s comfortable.

Me? I GOTTA KEEP IT PUSHIN’!!!!! ☕️

After my Taste the Rainbow Ritual, I don’t necessarily feel “better”, but I am a lot clearer about me and my direction. I’m clear on my growth and how fucking far I’ve truly come. Clear on what I am no longer aligned with. Clear asf on who and what can go with me to this next level…THAT IS PULLING UP ON MEEEE!!!!

If you are still taking your time through Taste the Rainbow Ritual, that’s fine take your time…this is not a race, It’s a Marathon. 💙 I said it in my notes but just in case you didn’t see it: I have some 🌈 HEAT coming to The Studiio but I’m a perfectionist, so I need a second…end of this week type shit. 😆

Anywho, I won’t spill all the tea yet because we in the thick of it but baby, I asked God to show me everything I needed to get to this next level that she’s calling me me to step into…

but I must’ve forgot the quote, “Watch what you ask for because YOU WILL GET IT!”, because now, I am sitting here…everybody cut off, all my truth exposed and I am asking God, “Okay, soooo, what’s next?”. My higher self said “Bitch, she’s already making room where the possibilities are endless and the sky’s the limit!” ☕️

Me to Me: “Look how far you’ve come! Look at all that was sent here to destroy you and you standing here fine as ever. Looking like nothing has ever touched you…BECAUSE IT HASN’T!!! Might’ve made you stumble a little bit; even little scars that you gave yourself from not listening but God has had you back this entire time. When they doubted you, when the made fun of you and the way you think, when they LEFT YOU FOR DEAD MULTIPLE TIMES…KEEPING IT PUSHING IT WHAT THE FUCK YOU DO GANG! So, stop playing with us, let’s transmute this shit and keep it going as we do baby!”

I'm a little rough around the edges so this is how I need to be talked to get my shit rolling a lot of time but if you aren’t that way, I complete get it and I incorporated a calmer Grounding Exercise below. 🤣

Nevertheless, I am sharing this message here because it may be where you currently are or headed to in this moment as well. If so, I don’t think the question is “What’s next?” but…

Who am I now and what do I want to do with/to/for HER from here…like forreal?

Idk, maybe I’m just talking but I feel like someone else needed this too.

If so, eye see you, eye feel and you got this…

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman.🌹

🌬️ Grounding Exercise: “Come Back to You”

Step 1: Feel Where You Are

Wherever you are sitting or standing, press your feet firmly into the floor. Wiggle your toes. Feel gravity holding you up.

Say (out loud or in your head):

“I am here. I am safe. I am held.”

Step 2: Name What’s Around You (5-4-3-2-1)

• 5 things you can see

• 4 things you can touch

• 3 things you can hear

• 2 things you can smell

• 1 thing you can taste

Step 3: Breathe with Me (Box Breathing)

Breathe in for 4

Hold for 4

Breathe out for 4

Hold for 4

Repeat this 3–5 times at your own pace.

Let the air remind you: you’re in control now.

Step 4: Speak the Truth Back Into Your Body

Whisper it, shout it, write it:

“What happened to me matters.

What I feel is real.

I am not too much—I was just too honest for the room.

I do not need their understanding to be free.”

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: W.A.Y.S by Jhene Aiko

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

Come Privately Talk Shit in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Artifacts & Files are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

After seven colors...

Seven conversations...

Seven invitations...

We’re left with one final question:

Who am I becoming?

Not who were you.

Not who they wanted you to be.

Not who you had to be to survive.

Who are you becoming now?

The beautiful thing about becoming is that it doesn’t require perfection.

Only participation.

One choice.

One truth.

One act of courage at a time.

Today’s color is Violet.💜

The color of connection, possibility and becoming.

And if you’ve made it this far...

Maybe, the woman you’ve been looking for was never ahead of you…

Maybe, she’s been waiting for you to meet her. 💜

Theme: Spirit • Connection • Imagination

💜 Crown Chakra Prompt:

Who am I becoming?

💜 Ritual Practice:

Create a vision page, mood board, playlist, or journal entry.

Dream on purpose.

💜 Tiny Act of Freedom:

Act as if the future version of you already exists.

Because she does.

💜 Violet Self Reflection:

What is trying to emerge through me?

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Becoming Her.💜

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• “Ritual”, here in The Stu, means a purposeful, step-by-step experience you do with intention to create a real inner shift, not just a bunch of pointless language or lessons.

Come Talk Chakra Shit in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Tools & Practices are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Sometimes the answer arrives long before the evidence.

Long before the confirmation.

Long before everyone else catches up.

The problem isn’t always knowing.

The problem is trusting what we know.

We’ve been taught to second-guess ourselves.

To group think and ignore our intuition.

To trust everybody over ourselves.

Today’s color is Indigo.💙

The color of discernment.

The color of inner knowing.

The color of seeing beyond appearances.

So before you ask for another opinion...Pause.

There may already be wisdom waiting inside the question.💙

Theme: Intuition • Discernment • Inner Knowing

💙 Third Eye Prompt:

What do I already know?

💙 Ritual Practice:

Make one decision without asking for outside validation.

💙 Tiny Act of Freedom:

Trust your first answer.

💙 Indigo Self Reflection:

Where am I being invited to trust myself more?

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Intuition “Test”.💙

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• “Ritual”, here in The Stu, means a purposeful, step-by-step experience you do with intention to create a real inner shift, not just a bunch of pointless language or lessons.

Come Talk Chakra Shit in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Tools & Practices are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Her Safety + Nervous System Regulation. ⚠️

• “If your body tightens at any point, STOP!”

• Here are 3 grounding exercises:

  • Feet on floor + Name 5 things you see

  • Cold water on your wrists

  • Hand on chest, slowly inhale for 1…2…3…4…5, then, exhale 1…2…3…4…5

    • This keeps your nervous system from hijacking your writing.

There is a version of you that exists underneath those rehearsed answers…

Underneath the automatic “I’m fine.”

Underneath the explanations and limitations.

Underneath the things you say because they make everyone else comfortable.

That’s the version we’re looking for today.

The honest one.

Not the perfect one.

The honest one.

Your truth doesn’t have to be loud to be powerful.

It doesn’t have to be innerstood to be valid.

It doesn’t have to be convenient to deserve space.

Today’s color is Blue. 🩵

And today’s invitation is simple:

Tell the truth, at least to yourself first. 🩵

Theme: Truth • Communication • Expression

🩵 Throat Chakra Prompt:

What have I been wanting to say?

🩵 Ritual Practice:

Express one honest thing.

Respectfully.

But honestly.

🩵 Tiny Act of Freedom:

Say that shit ONCE with your chest and don’t repeat yourself.

🩵 Blue Self Reflection:

What truth deserves air?

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Speak the Fuck Up!

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• “Ritual”, here in The Stu, means a purposeful, step-by-step experience you do with intention to create a real inner shift, not just a bunch of pointless language or lessons.

Come Talk Chakra Shit in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Tools & Practices are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Love gets talked about a lot…usually in the context of other people.

Who loves us.

Who doesn’t.

Who stayed.

Who left.

However, the longest relationship you’ll ever have is the one you have with yourself. ☕️

And if we’re being honest, which we always are,

…some of us are still learning how to be gentle there.

Today’s color is Green. 💚

The color of compassion.

The color of grace.

The color of growth.

Not perfection.

Growth.

So today, notice how you’re speaking to yourself.

Notice where you’re withholding kindness or patience with self.

Notice where you’re still expecting yourself to heal overnight.

Then, offer yourself what you so freely give everyone else. 💚

Theme: Love • Compassion • Forgiveness

💚 Heart Chakra Prompt:

What within me deserves more grace?

💚 Ritual Practice:

Take yourself on a mini date or take an intentional pause.

Coffee.

Park walk.

Bookstore.

Something intentional and TAILORED TO YOU!!!!

💚 Tiny Act of Freedom:

Speak to yourself the way you’d speak to someone you love.

💚 Green Self Reflection:

What am I ready to soften toward?

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: Gotta Love Self First!

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• “Ritual”, here in The Stu, means a purposeful, step-by-step experience you do with intention to create a real inner shift, not just a bunch of pointless language or lessons.

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Come Talk Chakra Shit in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Tools & Practices are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Before the doubt.

Before the criticism.

Before the world started telling you who you should be.

There was a version of you who simply existed.

Boldly.

Naturally.

Without Apology.

Today’s color, Yellow, is about Remembering Her. 💛

Not the perfected version.

The Real One.

The one still underneath all the noise because confidence isn’t something we build…

Sometimes, it’s something we rediscover. 💛

Theme: Power • Confidence • Identity

Reminder: Power isn’t control. Power is self-trust.

💛 Solar Plexus Prompt:

Where am I waiting for permission that I don’t actually need?

💛 Ritual Practice.

Write down one decision you’ve already made.

Stop reopening the case. 😭☕️

✨ Bonus: Publicly Celebrate Yourself.

p.s. I know there are opinions about keeping your accomplishments to yourself in fear of evil eye but fear doesn’t exist here and nothing can be taken away from you, if you don’t give innergy to it. ☕️

💛 A Yellow Truth to Sit With.

Every time I betray myself, I weaken my own authority.

You can share your answers here in the comments, in the Taste the Rainbow chat, in The Booth or keep them in your journals.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: I’m really THAT GIRL! 💛

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• “Ritual”, here in The Stu, means a purposeful, step-by-step experience you do with intention to create a real inner shift, not just a bunch of pointless language or lessons.

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Come Talk Shit in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Tools & Practices are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

Somewhere along the way, many of us started treating joy like a reward.

Something to earn.

Something to schedule.

Something to justify.

But joy was never supposed to be a prize at the end of suffering.

It was always part of the journey.

Today’s invitation is simple:

Stop negotiating with pleasure.

Stop explaining your happiness.

Stop asking for permission to enjoy your life.

Just for today...

Choose what feels good. 🧡

🧡 Theme:

Pleasure • Creativity • Desire • Joy

🧡 Sacral Chakra Prompt:

What sounds fun right now?

Not productive.

Not responsible.

Fun.

🧡 Ritual Practice:

Do one thing simply because it feels good.

Dance.

Paint.

Flirt.

Cook.

Laugh.

Whatever.

🧡 Tiny Act of Freedom:

Choose pleasure without explaining yourself.

🧡 Orange Self Reflection:

When was the last time I let joy lead?

You are welcome to share your answers here in the comments, in the Taste the Rainbow chat, in The Booth or keep them in your journals. It’s all up to you and your comfort level…for now.😏

🎧 Her Channelled Frequency: The Pleasure Playlist.🧡

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• “Ritual”, here in The Stu, means a purposeful, step-by-step experience you do with intention to create a real inner shift, not just a bunch of pointless language or lessons.

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Join Chakra Alignment Week in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Tools & Practices are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹

There is a difference between surviving and feeling safe.

Many of us learned the first one long before we learned the second.

We learned how to adapt.

How to prepare.

How to stay ready.

How to carry more than we should.

But safety?

Safety is a different language.

One that asks us to soften instead of brace.

To trust instead of anticipate.

To rest instead of perform.

Today isn’t about fixing your foundation.

It’s about noticing it.

What supports you?

What grounds you?

What reminds you that you’re already standing on something?

Today’s color is Red.

Let’s come home to ourselves. ❤️

❤️ Theme:

Safety • Survival • Home • Stability

❤️ Root Chakra Prompt:

What makes me feel most like myself?

❤️ Ritual Practice:

Wear something red OR eat something red.

Bonus points if it’s both. 😭

❤️ Tiny Act of Freedom:

Say “no” to something you genuinely don’t want to do.

Bonus: Shake that Root Today! Play the playlist below if you need some motivation. 😏

❤️ Red Self Reflection:

What feels safe enough for me to stop fighting?

You can share your answers here in the comments, in the Taste the Rainbow chat, in The Booth or keep them in your journals.

🎧 Her Channelled Frequencies: Root Shakin’ Frequencies

Reminders from The Stu. 🎵🌹:

• A channelled frequency is just that. So when listening think more experience, moods and senses than the artist, their dealings and backgrounds. For example, how old were you or where were when you first heard the song?

• “Ritual”, here in The Stu, means a purposeful, step-by-step experience you do with intention to create a real inner shift, not just a bunch of pointless language or lessons.

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Chakra Alignment Week in The Booth.🎙🌹

Return Tools & Practices are in The Studiio.🔓🌹

Please only take what resonates, leave what doesn’t.

Eye Love You on Purpose, Black Woman. 🌹