Everyone asks me, the best way to get ready for Autumn, 🍁 start with the comfiest, SQUISHIEST mattress topper and squishy pillows, Your bed needs to resemble a cloud ☁️ enveloping you in snuggliness and on top of your bed you need a thick fur throw and matching pillows with a bolster pillow in the middle.

Being a Chronically ill Queen, I spend a lot of my time asleep so the bed is the number one snuggle palace for me 🩷. Also you’re probably wondering about sheets, shout out to Urban Outfitters, just for the cushions alone.

Scent is really important to me, I LOVE having the best smelling house, Le Labo Santal 33 and Diptique Tuberose are my favourite for Autumn and then in the kitchen I have the Caramel Cookie and it’s not too sweet it smells like Biscoff 🧡

I am GIDDY with excitement for Autumn 🍁 I change my Le Creuset from the Shell Pink 🩷 to the Garnet 🤎 and change the house from Summer to Autumn 🍂 All of the snuggly blankets, the GIANT mugs for hot chocolate and marshmallows.

Most importantly of all, I LOVE changing my wardrobe over from Summer to Winter 🧡 This is my most favourite part. Shoppies for Autumn 📦 Every Year I get a new coat, this year I got an oversized version of the Burberry Quilted Barn Jacket I also got the Burberry Tartan Mini seen here on Irina Shayk 🤎

The Slate Grey Miu Miu Cardigan

Bottega Andiamo Leather Tote this bag is ‘chefs kiss’

A good blazer will always last you forever, my favourite ones are from Gucci as they always have fun buttons, this Stella McCartney one in this colour is just SO good!

Stella McCartney Wool Blazer

I love to Jazz up any outfit with a good bit of Jewellery, anything with an initial on is Amazing to me, I love the tiny details 🎀

These Anita Ko huggies are the cutest!

Anita Ko Diamond Huggies

I hope you all love my Autumn picks 🍁 so happy to be finally settling in to cosy season 💚

B x

Where do I fucking begin, I am without a shade of a doubt, the ✨HAPPIEST✨ person, why might you ask, why am I SO ridiculously happy, like a fairy on Acid.. Well my people.. one simple thing..

I ✨LOVE✨ being ME, my superpower, No one finds excitement in the small things, yet here I am squealing with excitement over Marks & Spencers 🧡 EXTRA LARGE ORANGES 🍊, The cute hairclip section in Sainsburys, Kinder Surprise and building the tiny toy in the middle because you never know what you’re going to get!

Strangers compliment me ALL THE TIME, mostly because I am literally 💕GLOWING✨ with happiness, yesterday a kind person got me an iced banana caramel sugar free shaken espresso because she said I deserved it and I said she was like a sunflower, super bright and beautiful and she gave me a massive hug and we both went about our day, what a fabulous girlie whirl 💜

I have the most INCREDIBLE people in my life, My mother is pretty amazing, she makes me laugh so much and she just absolutely mystifies me in the most amazing of ways and I’m really happy she decided to bring me into this world. 🩷

My best friend 🎀Zippy✨.. she’s really seen me in some interesting states yet still tells me I look like a china doll and that she loves me more than anything because I love her SO much I could just burst into a cloud of love hearts.

🎀Lily✨ she’s doesn’t have substack but on the off chance she ever reads this.. she’s the baddest bitch going and she reminds me how lucky I am on the daily.

My sister 🎀Violet ✨💜 she recently moved to London and just knowing she’s around is the best thing ever, going for coffee with her is one of my favourite things to do!

🎀 ✨Lexy💕 We literally are the children of the corn and will absolutely burn you to death 🧡🫶 We won the genetic lottery 👏🏻

My Andii ✨ She showed me that even when you’ve been through a monumental amount of nonsense, You can choose your friends and sometimes they hold such a special place in your heart, you’ll be eternally grateful to them forevermore 💕🩷

My incredible parents, what can I say, you’ve outdone yourselves.. i’m really great 🫶

JP✨💚 My Dad is to this day, the coolest person I know, The Original Gangster ✌️ he almost killed the two of us once going down a hill on a skateboard and how he almost killed me because of an intentional Drop Dead Fred cornflake explosion 💥

What everyone needs to know here is, Please, Just be YOU, you’re fantastic as you are and fuck what people think, make sure your friends are REAL people, if you feel sick around them or they make you question who you are as a person ✂️ or they try and put you down in any way, they’re just an insecure little bitch and you don’t need that ❤️ You will always get the love you deserve from the right people 🩷

B x

☀️ The sunshine, I absolutely adore that the weather has been just BEAUTIFUL, most days, it’s been over 20 degrees, so many gorgeous little outfits have been worn and many cute Bikini sets and shorts have been purchased, have we all seen the new collection from LE VESTE… obsessed 💛

💚 Cricket Season with miniature cricket bats and Mr Whippy’s 🍦

🌸 It’s ALMOST Autumn 🍁 it’s still warm enough to be able to socialise til late in the evening outside in the sunshine, it stays light til late and you can enjoy Pizza 🍕 and Negroni’s with friends and still be in bed by midnight, mostly importantly of all, you get to see all the gorgeous leaves falling off the trees, the evenings slowly start to get chillier as September approaches ❄️.

🩷 Paris, my most favourite city in the entire world, I am there EVERY year for my birthday, 🎈 This without a doubt in my mind was my ✨ BEST ✨ Birthday yet, every single day I was there, I was blissfully happy and just so grateful for everything I have and so excited for everything to come 💜 being in your early 30’s is the best fucking thing ever, you decide what you want, you make a choice and you stick to it 💖.

Bx

✨May this article inspire you to have a Kitchen you absolutely LOVE, for you to find a little bit of love with entertaining those around you, that’s a love language within itself 💜

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The topic is MEN who think they are ✨DOMINANT✨ when actually they are just weak little bitches with anger issues, mostly with mommy issues in desperate need of either a prison sentence or a good old fashioned therapy session rather than praying on naturally submissive women, who choose to be submissive because they can be, because they choose to be a princess because they can LITERALLY have any man they want.

A man being dominant (naturally) says a lot more about the woman/women he chooses to be with than the man himself, I’m talking about a REAL dominant, one where other men look at him and they know you are entirely his, that you want no-one else and they just get that impression and leave you the fuck alone, Not some guy that just thinks he’s ‘Dominant’ during sex because he tied you wrists up with a silk tie and slapped you a few times, That’s just a nonsense and a bad version of a sick joke.

A lot of Alpha Males are the way they are because they want to PROTECT their woman, yes ‘Their’ because when you’re IN that kind of relationship dynamic that’s how it is and that’s how us girlies want it to be.

Someone said to me recently ‘I could never tell a woman what to do or wear’ One of my favourite parts of my day is when my husband helps me get dressed, I have the most incredible wardrobe so 🩷 it’s so much fun!

As we all know, I’m not a feminist, having been mostly in male orientated careers, I have seen the other side of the coin, assistants claiming sexual harassments that never happened and men losing 20 plus years worth of an amazing career due to false accusations, women intentionally baby trapping men for a lifestyle they never worked for, women lying for money and doing whatever they can apart from actually work hard and create her own empire because she hasn’t got what it takes to be run by FEAR.

As a fierce girl myself, I use the term girl because even though I am a Woman, the men I have in my life, my amazing father 🩷 and my incredible husband…they allow me to be exactly myself, my Dad always used to say it was amazing how much confidence I had and that I can do anything I want, I always had the most incredible male mentors around me and I just think it’s amazing how with the right man, you can literally be exactly who you’re supposed to be, my husband is amazing because he lets me just be entirely me and even though sometimes we don’t see eye to eye with things I still appreciate him educating me on certain topics.. like GEOGRAPHY 🌍

B x

💛 Life massively sucks the majority of the time because you spend so much of your life in the hospital, my GP is an absolute godsend, she does everything she can to see me the same day and I have her personal number so I can call her anytime.. she has literally saved my life on numerous occasions. 🩷Tiny Shout out to Dr Lamb🩷

📋After a few years, you get used to being poorly, being tired all the time, remembering to take your meds 💊 on time, repeating the same things over and over again, asking for the blue or the pink needle for the cannula as they are the smallest, asking for the cannula to be put in your hand or your foot because your veins are terrible because your blood pressure is insanely low but it still hurts.

💙It hurts that even though you’re happy and the nurses look after you and you try to remember to bring a banana with you to A&E for a little snack, you have to remember that you are never going to be 100 percent OK even on the good days. 💙

I have a ✨‘Chronic Illness Queen badge’ ✨just because sometimes when i’m having one of my bad days, I may come across in a bad way because i’m just having one of ✨THOSE ✨days.

💜 I always try to be so brave and so happy and grateful for everything I have and the people around me.🩷

Sometimes people just need to understand that sometimes i’m just tired, i’ve had enough and I don’t want to be ✨BRAVE ✨today.. I just want to be snuggled in bed, sleeping and trying my hardest to be OK so tomorrow can hopefully be a better day.

🌸Don’t get me wrong, I’m still the happiest Bunny but even when you go to a private hospital, eventually your friend or your husband or if you’re just there by yourself, sleeping is always impossible as you get checked on every hour or so… the pain management in the NHS is literally a sick joke, I always have to bring my pain meds with me or just call my husband.. he’s absolutely incredible at advocating for me and then they tell me.. your Dad was here.. and I just have to laugh and say ‘he’s not my Dad, he’s my husband’ and I can’t help but giggle because it honestly amuses me so much how they always apologise profusely and then I just have to say ‘it’s ok.. it happens.. ALL THE TIME, it’s one of the reasons why I married him’ and their faces are always a picture. 🌸

🧡Everyone that has a chronic illness, is so incredibly brave, it’s OK not to be OK sometimes, allow yourself to feel what you are feeling, you’re allowed to be frustrated when your body is letting you down.🧡

✨YOU really are doing ✨ absolutely amazing ✨ and YOU really deserve a medal for everything you’re going through💗 and just remember, next time you’re alone in your hospital bed, all tied up to your oxygen with your cannula getting in the way every 5 minutes and the atrocious blankets they give you… just remember how lucky we are to even have an NHS, how the nurses are incredible and they really do everything they can within the timeframe they have, they are just doing their best and yes you feel like a burden on your family, your loved ones and your friends, you just have to change your mindset to stay positive, take each day as it comes and remember we’re all in this together ✨💜

B x

I knew J✨would always be special to me when he got my thing for balloons and wrapping paper seriously, he got me the most incredible iridescent wrapping paper with personalised letters from Etsy to spell out Bunny and that was just everything, that was the moment, I knew.. THIS is my best friend and because we just look at each other when something funny happens and we can’t breathe.. he takes the most amazing photos of me.. capturing the CUTEST moments.. like this!

My Beautiful B, we’ve had so many amazing nights together, we never judge each other no matter how naughty i’ve been she will always just be there for me and in return we bond over the fact that we will be in each others lives forever, one of my friends said to B ‘oh I had no idea you and Bunny were still in each others lives’ both of us just laughed considering this person, I maybe see 3 times a year, she makes ridiculous life choices and I no longer consider her a best friend and the fact she had the audacity to try and come between me and B when we literally see each other monthly was hilarious to both of us!

💕I am exceptionally lucky because having left home at 17, moved to the other side of the world, I had to figure things out, find amazing friends and decide how I wanted my life to be as you’re only 18 once.. I mean don’t get it twisted, I had an Amex, a penchant for cocaine and getting up at 1.30am because I wanted to go dancing but my friends looked after me, these people I hadn’t even known for very long and here we were like a little family, they would come and get me in the middle of the night, tell me to add baking soda to my water to make me sick to avoid a hangover, and make sure as an 18 year old, I had incredible memories and friends for life and I completely appreciated it for what it was, I got introduced to the most wonderful people and we used to cry with laughter and i’d think how lucky I was to just BE where I was and a part of this incredible life, and now i’m 34 and I look back so fondly on the fact that my parents got me a first class ticket to paradise and to be looked after by one of the most amazing people i’ve ever had the pleasure of spending time with and what an opportunity it was ✨ and now we all make the effort for each other even though we are so far from one another!

💙 My amazing Andii 🎀 thank you for teaching me how amazing people can be, how even after the pain we had to endure and the heart break, we found each other in the most incredible of ways, I will always be here for you, I will always be so happy that I get to have YOU as a big sister and our beautiful Carol 💛 we will always look after you! Here’s to matching PJS, the most beautiful stationary and you teaching me the most wicked ways and to us always having a more beautiful garden than Alan Titchmarsh himself!

💖 The other half of my heart, My C 🩷 we are the very definition of fuck around and find out, she is everything to me, we love so fiercely and she taught me how it is to the most amazing you can be to someone, you can fuck up as long as you do everything within your power to fix it and show your love, everything will be OK 🩷Thank you for being there when no one else was, for my amazing Aeroplane, DB7 and all of the noughties we spent together, you make me a better person and I will love you forever and always and with J we are the three musketeers 🩷

MAKE THE EFFORT, show people that you love them, no one ever got anywhere from being coy, from hiding how they really felt, if anything they just ended up absolutely miserable, suicidal and wishing they had spoken sooner..so please.. if you love someone, tell them, if you love someone’s dress tell them, you never know you may bring sunshine to someone who is in the middle of a rainstorm, we must all be kind to each other 🩷

B x

Yesterday, I was having the most incredible day, I was doing what I absolutely love and all of a sudden, i’m just on the ground, I passed out from the pain and my friend looked at me and as she’s been my best friend for a long time, she knows how I am and she tells me to tell her how the pain is and I just giggle and say I’m absolutely fine while trying to stand, admittedly it was a bit of a mistake trying so soon, and I ask her to distract me by telling me a funny story, to which I will share with you all.

✨ A winters night in November 2013, absolutely freezing, so much so… I made the terrible mistake of deciding to take the godforsaken tube instead of Driving from Chelsea to Dalston Superstore…. 🧡

🌸 I was so excited as my Twin was having an event for his art, I was so happy for him and absolutely buzzing to have the most incredible evening together, he was only visiting for a couple of nights from New York!

Unfortunately, to my dismay… a person deciding that particular evening was when they chose to depart this terrible life by jumping in front of a tube, due to major delays we had to go a different route.. we had to get on the overground 🧡

She describes it in a much more funnier way than me ‘one minute you were right there with me, the next you’d vanished into the arms of two enormous men with you absolutely covered in blood..i’d fallen into the gap… my legs still have little bone chips from where I fell, luckily I passed out from the pain so I don’t remember any of it apart from apologising profusely to everyone and demanding that we must still go to the ✨PARTY✨

Bestie hesitantly agreed, she bundled me into a taxi and the driver assumed looked at the two of us in absolute horror.. she’s beautiful so mostly me I imagine.. off we went to Dalston Superstore. I was happily crunching down on my nurofen plus as she was cleaning me head to toe with her wet ones, by the time we arrived, I looked like part of the cast of one of Stanley Kubricks horror films, to this day, I just remember having the most incredible night, Twinny threw the entirety of a Lasagne with the cutlery at a waiter, A kind stranger offered me a ‘bugs life’ plaster for one of my knees of which I happily obliged and best of all, knowing that you can go through that and still carry on, really is the definition on ‘keep calm and carry on’

🧡One day I may take life a bit more seriously, but for now, with my bruised knees and my laissez-faire attitude, I’m perfectly happy ✨💕

💜Liberty comes through for us in the most incredible of ways in July, my beautiful Andii ✨got me THE most beautiful, pink 🩷Smythson Diary to match my Pink Sakura Birkin🌸 and every time I look at it, I just think how much of a wonderful person she is to have in my life, my north star when i’m feeling Blue and just being fucking incredible 💜

✨Someone that means the world to me, that somehow.. seemed to know how important the card is before the present 💝 my people.. the card had a JELLY on it 🥹 it’s now got a permanent home on my desk in a fluffy pink frame in the same hue of pink as the jelly, it really is the little things that matter the most 💖

My Beautiful Monster, E 🎀 Thank you for this Teapot.. for which I shall forever cherish as much as I cherish being a ✨BAD BITCH ✨

THE most incredible surprise from My Sister ✨C✨🩷 I was snuggled up in my bed in My Paris hotel room, opening my cards and amongst all my presents, is this very plain white paper carrier bag.. what could it be I thought to myself.. I open it.. and within the white paper carrier bag.. the most memorable Blue 🩵 a Tiffany bag, with the sweetest, most adorable present inside which I shall cherish forever 🥹

💗 Pretty much every year, for the last decade or so, I’ve spent my Birthday in Paris, and this is without a doubt.. The most incredible one yet, because if it wasn’t for the fact.. I didn’t have the most wonderful people in my life 💗 I wouldn’t be here today, so this is the most enormous thank you, for making 34 so fucking awesome and being my friends because you can’t choose your family right, so I created my own ✨

My forever friend, the person that makes me cry with laughter and understands me entirely, ✨J💚 Never will there be a day where i’m not grateful to you, I owe you my life, thank you for always being here when i’ve needed you and being a fellow Cancerian through and through, and of course for Drop Dead Fred 🤣 it will always be one of my favourite movies! 🍿

Love B 💖

Three times a week, I get to see my best friends 💕 I am so so so lucky for that, never have I appreciated an iced coffee with amazing company more than I have this month, we’ve all been friends for a terribly long time, from 10 to over 17 years 😮 and WOW what a LOT has happened in those years.

The last weekend of 💗June💖 is my 🎈 Birthday Soireé 🍰, This year I got the appearance of one of my favourite people in the entire world, Sarah 🩷 she has known me since I was 6, with all the attitude in the world and the ability to be incredibly naughty while most adults around me would think butter wouldn’t melt 💗 Sarah saw right through that, she was like a big sister with the most incredible vision for life and when she gave me the biggest cuddle before leaving and we mutually shared the ‘ I love you’s’ I was just absolutely blown away by the love I received and how lucky I am to have the most incredible, caring and beautiful people around me, helping me be the most amazing Bunny I can be…and it may be, forevermore, the most INCREDIBLE Birthday Soireé to date… 🍰 🧁 🎈

She may kill me for this, but it’s absolutely worth it.. my middle sister 💜 Violet, she moved a couple of weekends ago to London ✨ and just knowing she’s here, makes me SO happy! We went to the garden centre together in west London, we found the most beautiful David Austin Roses although due to the sunshine over the last couple of weeks, they were looking a bit crispy.. 🌹, we got lots of beautiful flowers for her terrace and had the yummiest iced coffees at Sally Clarke’s, I feel so lucky to have an amazing sister, spending time with her is so incredible to me and I love her SO much and she deserves the entire world and more and i’m so happy that she’s in London and I can see her occasionally 💜 she was living in Amsterdam so we would go yonks without seeing each other!

🍉 For those of you that know me, know I love nothing more than Watermelon and June is when the Watermelon’s are the sweetest and the ✨JUICIEST ✨and as much as I love Watermelon, I absolutely find Stolichnaya over ice with blended watermelon and sugar syrup, absolutely TO DIE for.. so you know.. June. Is just amazing to me 💗

☀️ This morning, I got to wake up with the biggest smile on my face, You know when you get that feeling, where you realise, everything is just how it should be, everything is right within your world and you’re exceptionally lucky for being who you are and the people around you 💖

As we all know, My Birthday Soireé is on 🧡SUNDAY 🧡12 of my favourite people 🩷 I’m absolutely beside myself with excitement, I haven’t been THIS excited for a birthday in about 10 years. I have to say being in my early 30’s is the best fucking thing ever and having the incredible opportunity of actually doing whatever the fuck I want to do after years of absolute madness 💙 I genuinely feel like the luckiest girl in the world for that.

✨YOU LOT✨ continuously showing your support and showing up for me, It genuinely means the most 😘 I am eternally grateful for that 💕

One of the fantastic people in my life got me an incredible Green Suede💚 XXL Chanel Flap 💚 and to my dismay.. it got stolen in transit which is of course no surprise, thankfully.. said person is amazing at gifts so i’m sure they will be able to find something as equally amazing and usually i’d be a little miffed at such a thing, yet here i am with a little smile on my face, that such people exist 💚 and want to make my birthday 🎈 as special as possible for me as they know I’m equally as excited about the wrapping paper and the card than I am about the presents. 🎁

My favourite girly whirl 🩷C🩷 her cards mean the absolute world to me, her words of encouragement that she has given me over the years including the occasional obscenity about how much of a twonk I can be and for all our ups and downs we genuinely love each other more than anything 🌸 and I have every one of those cards tucked away in my treasure box 💖

Every day is a gift within itself and even though it’s a million degrees (30 degrees) in the UK right now, I am SO happy that I can pop a sheet in the washing machine on a 90 and be happy all night 🌙

I appreciate falling asleep to the sound of the crickets in the gardens, the little fluffy owl that sits in the tree outside my top window and most importantly of all, my amazing downstairs neighbour, she’s an absolute scream 🩵 she loves a dirty martini as much as I do 🍸 when I moved here initially I felt a bit out of place as it’s SO quiet but now I appreciate it more than ever, I feel so lucky I get to wake up every morning to the most beautiful weeping willow tree sat over the lake and as I get older, I have a genuine appreciation for nature and going to Worlds End nursery with my beautiful sister 💖 best way to spend a ✨ Monday✨

or in Chanel on Walton Street with my best friend asking him to take a snap of the shoes so we can decide over lunch which ones to get 💛my favourite SA is Esther, she has been at Walton Street Chanel, since it opened, she was bat the original Brompton cross Chanel for over 20 years, this week she filled me in on a tiny secret, the boutiques NEVER carry the C, only the concessions and i’d rather drink acid than go anywhere apart from Walton Street or Sloane Street boutiques as they make the best mint tea 🍃 and they have my favourite Pierre Marcolini chocolates. 🍫

🩵💙The award for the cutest blue sandals goes to Matthieu Blazy 🩵💙

🍉 Next Sunday, is my Birthday Soireé 🎁 we drink Champagne for breakfast, Sancerre Sunday is in full swing and I spend the entire day being SO thankful for the incredible friends I have, I for the first time in the whole year, enjoy the process of getting ready, my bestie making me cry with laughter while she does my hair, the awkward choice of which colour lip to go for, the faint smell of nail varnish in the air and the absolute joy of just being incredibly tipsy with the people you love the most 🩷 which is why i’m doing this post today because there is absolutely no way it’s happening next week 💛 and I know you will all read this 😘

I am SO happy, I get today and tomorrow and all of next week to be so excited, I honestly believe that Birthdays are absolutely what YOU make them to be and I fucking LOVE throwing an amazing party 🎈 so you can imagine my excitement ❤️.

💕 I walked into Foxtons 💚 on the Kings Road, demanded a one bedroom flat in the hope that they would have something I could move into pretty much immediately.

✨To my boyfriends at the time surprise ‘you will never find a flat over the weekend, it’s a saturday’ 🪁 I just smiled at him and said ‘watch me’ secretly keeping everything crossed because I didn’t even have a Plan B✨.

✨Thankfully by 9pm that Saturday we had found the perfect place 🏠, SO much potential, the tiniest wardrobe, a hideous blue carpet and the best views over London, I absolutely loved it and to this day, it’s still my favourite flat I’ve ever had.💕

💚This was when I realised, when you set your mind to something, you can do literally… anything! 🌸

I very much did without the help of anyone and this is when I thought i’m 20 and you’re on your own Kiddo, it was followed by the most amazing few years, I learnt so much, I met so many incredible people from all walks of life and most importantly I learnt exactly what I want and to this day that has not changed.

Sometimes, even if you think your wants or your dreams are so far from reality, it’s laughable… you want them for a reason, you’d be amazed how many people around you, whom you thought may be supportive, actually are incredibly negative and unhelpful and that’s when you need to just not give a fuck about what anyone else thinks and just do ✨YOU ✨ it’s your life 💕

Never think your dreams are silly because only you KNOW your capabilities and how amazing you are, stick to your guns and have a little bit of faith ✨

B x

I absolutely love BIG dogs, they are absolutely brilliant, although small dogs are pointless.. get a kitty instead 🐈.

This post is my appreciation post for the Puppies I got to meet in June 🩷 and a couple of family favourites because who doesn’t love a gorgeous POOCH 🐶

Lets start off with BEAU 💛 he is literally the BEST boy, he is absolutely enormous, bigger than me and bigger than most people, he’s a Briard and whenever he comes over to say hello, I get very excited because he is just SO cuddly.. here we are rolling around the floor having the BEST time.

We then have ISLA the Samoyed🩵 we met in Starbucks and I was allowed to give her a PUP CUP 🥹

Little Lady Daphne of Chelsea, we met in Zara Home on Duke Of York Square, her owner and myself were bonding over interior design and before we knew it DAPHNE was invited as little guest feather on my Substack 💙 you all said the sweetest things about her so it would only be right to include her today. 🐶

Puppies are just the BEST.. everyone should always say hello to dogs 💙 they need as much love as we do!

I hope everyone had the most incredible weekend, I am absolutely ecstatic for my Mondaaaay! Iget to see one of my MOST favourite people 💚

B x

There are so many pathetic people, concerned about what everyone around them thinks, doing everything they can to get their parents/partners approval, choosing a degree on what someone but THEM would have wanted not what THEY would have wanted and before they know it, they are 40 wondering who the fuck they are.

I always get commended on how I’m absolutely 100 percent myself, I have always been this way, even as a child, I had this person growing up, we would see each other most weekends, she would tell people we were best friends and then after my 18th birthday after many years of friendship, what I felt about her came true, she became best friends with the one person that had been more cruel, more horrendous to me than anyone else and she knew this, so instead of talking to her about it, wondering why she makes such ridiculous choices, I just cut her off, no explanation, I just removed myself from her life entirely and it was LIBERATING..

After that, I knew… I’m completely on my own here, i’m 18 and no one is going to make my life happen but me, I got an amazing internship, I moved to Notting Hill with one of my favourite people, to this day she’s still a hero, she would climb into my bed on a Sunday morning after we’d been out dancing til the early hours and she’d say to me do you remember when you did X last night and we would be crying with laughter and our other flat mate Kwame would come in and be like GIRLS will you shut the fuck up, it’s 7am and nothing is funny and we would just laugh even more… he asked me once.. Bunny, you’ve left your light on and I looked at him and I said is that not allowed? My friend Alex was with me just looking at me waiting for Kwame to let us know what my punishment was because nothing he said was going to change the fact that I was still going to leave my light on..

Some of the people that mean the most to me, I hold them so dear to me because they let me be entirely me and that is the most important thing.

People that try and tell you how to be, to laugh less, bring negativity and are usually ugly with an atrocious personality or trying to bring you down because of their own insecurities… one of the most insecure people I know.. and will probably read this.. asked me if I thought I was pretty.. I just laughed because what a ludicrous question..i’m one of the happiest people, I care so much for people and I am a girls’ girl, if i think you’re beautiful..i’ll tell you! So when this girl asked me this.. I could see it wasn’t going to end well no matter what I said but the same person today, is one of the ugliest people I know, inside and out and absolutely desperate for the approval of others, it’s so sad to see.

Your 20’s are an incredible time, get to know yourself, your likes, your dislikes, sexual preferences, what you expect from others and what you can do to be the best person you can be, just because someone has been in your life for a long time it doesn’t necessarily mean they actually belong in your life, i’m a true believer of someone is in your life for a season, a reason or a ✨LIFETIME✨and for the latter, they better be fucking amazing.

I feel so BLESSED for having the people I have in my life, we laugh, we cry and we support each other, there’s no judgement we just take care of each other.

Remember you’re incredible and that you come first, We are all on our own in this world, The importance of who you have around you matters!

Make decisions based on what YOU want, not your parents, not the people around you because at the end of the day, it’s just going to be ✨YOU ✨

B x

I LOVE My kitchen,small but mighty!

I have the entire collection of Pink Le Creuset Pans, the pink Cast Iron Dutch Ovens, and most importantly of all the oven dishes.. I like everything to just be a certain way 🩷

CANDLES, Dior Maison Ambre Nuit or Figue Méditerranée are SO incredible, I absolutely LOVE the compliment of guests saying my house smells amazing.

Flowers and Plants, as a trained florist, I HAVE to have fresh flowers and plants in my house, it adds colour to the rooms, having living things in your house is incredibly amazing, water your plants 🌱 it creates a better atmosphere, Here I am organising my roses 🩷

My favourite room is of course my wardrobe… unfortunately the only picture I can pop here is a messy one but that’s just how it goes when i’m trying to decide what to wear 💘

Make your house as homely as it can be 🩷you spend so much time there so it deserves to be wonderful!

🧡June is my favourite Summer month, we have so much to look forward to, the evenings are gorgeous, the weather is mild or hot and you can plan amazing things with friends and grateful for the rainy days to enjoy the sunshine more!

💛June is the month of opportunity, you can make plans from June-October knowing that you have a full summer calendar, At the end of June I ALWAYS have a big birthday party because I fucking LOVE it! 🎈 all my friends together for the first time in the year, all the giggles and just the amount of LOVE I feel 🩷 and how lucky I am to be able to celebrate another year 🌸

💚 June fashion is incredible because some days are chilly so you can throw on a knit over a gorgeous silk dress, there are SO many amazing clothes around you get such fantastic inspiration, and you can wear a little bikini underneath things so ready for a dip whenever.

💛 I hope everyone is as happy as me about this gorgeous month, Pupcups for all the puppiessss 🩵 lets make the most of ✨JUNE🩷 shall we!

Every morning, I would be stood in front of my wardrobes, wondering.. what to wear today and now I look back I was a 13 year old girl, wearing Chloe on a Tuesday, Gucci Ready To Wear on a Thursday, Wednesdays we had ‘sports’ so that would always be paper bag shorts in the SNOW ❄️

Thursdays mostly beige or white vintage Dior with immaculate hair and perfect make-up ready for the first period fashion show because that’s what we used to do, paint each others nails and make sure the wing on our eyes was absolutely perfect for the day ahead.

Fridays were always ‘casual’ mostly vintage Levi’s 501’s.

We had 3 main buildings, my favourite was Nazareth as it had all the stairs in the world, it was like walking higher and higher and just getting the most incredible views out of the windows, overlooking the gardens, you could always see girls sat by the big willow tree, giggling about the boys in the opposite buildings to us, exchanging foreign cigarettes in exchange for much more money than the corner shop and you could see everyone had a different sense of style.. so much colour.. so much culture and everyone speaking different languages, playing hopskotch, Poker or just casually swinging on the tyre swings having a little chat and enjoying their cigarettes.

Now I look back, my favourite go to was a Black Dolce & Gabbana Dress gifted to me by my Russian Friend Anastasia, it was classic, fit like a glove and I could wear the highest shoes and i’d be applauded for the stairs.

Everyone was 5 years older than me, I was one of three mixed race English girls, I was the baby and everyone looked after me, it would be a fight about who was doing my hair, who was helping me get to my lessons which were from 9am to 7pm, a very long day and in that time there would be two study halls, which meant no lessons for a few hours, we could do whatever we wanted, go for a swim, play rounders in the park in the summer and most importantly of all GO SHOPPING 🛍️ we were in the middle of nowhere so it was hilarious seeing what people would get, my favourite shop was the Habadashery in a far away world equivalent of John Lewis, i’d always have ribbons in my hair as there was a lot of sitting with our backs for the smaller classrooms so it was a statement of identity.

we’d all share jackets and try each others things on.. until one day.. in the Art dryer room, there was enormous wet canvases..being my clumsy self.. I fell into one, I looked absolutely ridiculous and I had to go to some of my lessons looking like a mental patient in my cream outfit covered in paint 🎨 . my mother luckily came to my rescue.. she drove to the school absolutely furious, she got to my maths lesson and thrust a bag at me.. I said to her.. what did you bring, she looked at me like i’d spat in her face… took a sharp intake of breath and said JUST GO and put them on.. it ISN’T a fashion show.. but to me… to me it in fact WAS a fashion show, every single day, in a form of beautiful heel, a freshly ironed outfit and most importantly an enormous amount of self confidence I didn’t have a couple of years before, this is where I realised, what you wear really says who you are and that’s fantastic.

Enjoy getting dressed, it’s something we all have to do every day, you can be impeccable, comfy and cute or just you know.. Y💚O💚U..

B x

The weekend started off beautifully, so much so, my face actually hurts from smiling so much, then it all went a bit topsy turvey and now tomorrow will be spent having a little rest, lots of pots of Jasmine tea, My FT weekend and most importantly the company of incredible people 😌, even so, I couldn’t be happier ✨

Substack, is a little cloud of delight and we all need to enjoy it, I understand everyone is entitied to an opinion, sometimes people are just wrong because they’re either uneducated in the subject or they genuinely believe something a moron has told them.. either way.. each to their very own…

Today, I was feeling a bit interesting, I was moaning to my friend saying I felt like a tiny elephant was sitting upon my chest, I ignored it, continued to square breathe as much as I could.. being the excitable Bunny I am, we just thought it was because of having a hilarious time flinging ourselves around, so we got the nurse to look me over, to my dismay my resting pulse was 175 and I collapsed and the nurse was so sweet, she got me some water and one of those little amaretto biscuits you have with the ✨Good Coffee✨ I convinced myself after this, I was absolutely fine to continue, for her not to worry and that I definitely do not need to go to the Hospital, I am walking along convincing myself I’m definitely feeling better, the sun is shining the fresh air is wonderful, it’s a fantastic day, I was just walking along and before I know it, i’m waking up in a pile of bicycles surrounded by Paramedics and kind strangers..

I couldn’t believe it but I was too poorly to care, my heart rate was through the roof, I couldn’t really understand what was going on and all people around me were saying was how they couldn’t believe I was on my own, as if it’s the strangest thing to live in a city and walk around alone, an exceptionally kind lady.. she was in her 70’s she just stayed with me the entire time and kept asking the paramedics if I can have a sweetie or perhaps a bit of muffin to make me feel better, and she got this little sandwich bag out of her purse for her snacks, it was adorable, luckily they told her I couldn’t eat so I didn’t feel bad declining, the wonderful thing is… people are KIND, not everyone is a dingbat and more people should try and do kind things for others, i’m not quite sure what I would have done without her and that she just stayed with me the entire time until I got admitted, luckily it was a very quick admission but my goodness me, an absolute angel!

After many hours of much angst, i’m feeling right as rain again 💕 thanks to super pain killers, an incredible resus team and amazing nurses, I have a cheeky diagnosis of myocarditis from having Pneumonia a few weeks ago 😔 if you’re feeling poorly, please see a doctor instead of trying to struggle through it, i’m so lucky that I was several feet away from a hospital when it happened and I got seen by a doctor within minutes of arriving but I think we all try and be strong because we’re taught to be stoic, not to complain but actually complaining can be amazing and not just trying to be brave!

This is a lesson 💕 there truly is a silver lining in every cloud ⛅️ for the sun to shine, it must rain occasionally.

B x

🌹 I went to view my dream house, for those that don’t believe in manifestations.. you don’t know what you’re missing, the rose garden was literally TO DIE FOR 🌹, floor to ceiling windows.. I was in Real Estate 🏠 heaven, now i’m back down to earth, i’m having a little fruit salad, an iced chai and i’m gathering my thoughts.

Some people wonder, why do you want a MASSIVE house, well.. I grew up in a miniature version of a Georgian Mansion, absolutely beautiful, my mother bought it in the late 90’s it was incredible, me and my sisters used to share an entire floor and I loved knowing my sister was just next door and I could curl up in bed with her when we’d have these enormous thunderstorms, to this day.. i’m still scared of them, I feel like the Mississippi trick is a death wish…

We moved their just after my 8th Birthday on a sunny August day and to save us fighting my parents stood us in the garden and said each of you pick a bedroom on the top floor and that was it… our entire childhood pretty much was up there.. Big Houses mean Big Entertainment 💛 always having friends over and making incredible memories so here’s hoping it comes through

I have incredibly fond memories of every Birthday party in that house, my 11th where someone got so smashed they thought it would be a really appropriate time to get their nipple piercing out… I mean.. at least it was memorable.. adults at kids birthday parties is absolutely the way to go.. drunk adults are hilarious!

My sweet 16, to this day.. it will be one of my favourite days EVER and most importantly of all my 18th, someone had to be shipped off in an ambulance for having a whitey outside our gates and to this day we have absolutely no idea who it was..

My 21st.. 60 amazing people.. the theme was Great Gatsby and the first time I ever tried Edibles, the Edibles were made by a 60 year old and we thought they’d be WEAK.. absolutely not… they were INSANE..

My parents sold that house a few years ago and I genuinely miss it all the time; I want my house to be the new family home where everyone can gather and just.. Be 💛

Pleaaase keep everything crossed for me