Every morning when I wake up, the first thing I do is cleanse my face and hands with cold water, drink a cup of spring water, and meditate. After meditation I say my morning prayers, which become my spiritual armor for the day. These prayers are my lifeline, without them I would simply be, naked.

Because our human experience is governed by thought, protecting your mental space from fear, doubt, and outside negative influences is essential.

One of my favorite Psalms, No. 45 says, “The king’s daughter is all glorious within; her clothing is interwoven with gold.” When I say my morning prayers, I am working with my inner thought to put on clothing that is created with golden light. This clothing is my surrounding light (the radiant state of my individual consciousness) and becomes an impenetrable shield.

Clients ask me all the time, how can I protect myself? The only real answer to this question in my opinion is prayer, to lift your mind to a higher view of spiritual reality. Prayer is your mental (and therefore physical) defense. Because your mind and body are one, unified system.

True prayer begins with a heartfelt, righteous desire. The active longing for purity, spiritual growth, and alignment with God. Desiring goodness (for yourself or another) is already an act of turning toward divine Love.

Prayer requires quieting human will, our material senses, and ego. We enter a state of mental seclusion from material distractions so that we can commune silently with Spirit. Prayer is the awakening grace that lifts our human thought out of limitation and anchors it permanently in the divine.

One must be vigilant. Prayer is not just a passive request, it is an active practice of raising your consciousness. Just as a guard decides who is allowed to enter a building, active prayer involves monitoring your consciousness and admitting only right, spiritual conclusions while barring fear, sickness, or destructive beliefs.

Our individual minds are influenced by the collective consciousness. What does this actually mean, your mind is influenced by other minds. If this is true well then we must be aware of daily aggressive mental suggestions, and consciously realize that fear or malicious thoughts have no power or reality unless we accept them into our own mind.

Let me say this another way because this is the gem, everything we hear or see in our reality is merely a mental suggestion that can have no influence in our life unless we choose to first believe it in our mind.

For me prayer is like taking a bath in divine Truth and Love so that erroneous or fearful suggestions bounce off my consciousness without taking root.

Below I share my three daily prayers with personal reflections and a detailed explanation of how you can use them, from the three global spiritual traditions of Christian Science, Kabbalah, and Buddhism.

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Living in a quaint fisherman’s cottage by the sea, my life became so simple. In only two weeks time, my whole system intrinsically synced with the natural world, a sort of biological reprogramming. I could feel all of nature alive and humming within me. It felt as if every fluid cell in my body took the geometric shape of the morning dew.

Rising with the sun, sleeping with the stars, fresh coastal air, cold swims in the ocean waves, sunlight baths on the shore, meals prepared from fruits and vegetables grown on the land, gulps of spring water, gentle barefoot walks along the sea. It was the first time that I could remember feeling a deep sense of peace and safety in my body.

At the time a dear friend of mine in the city who was a photographer saw some of the polariod photographs I had taken in Switzerland, and suggested I experiment shooting on film with his medium format Hasselblad camera. He encouraged me to borrow it for the summer and see what happens. The moment I pressed the shutter, this camera and I merged as One. The sound like an exhale, an extension of my own breath, that captured a truth I could finally see with my eyes. It was more than a healing instrument to me. We became a shared pulse observing the world together. A daily practice that helped me slow down and record all of the little miracles in my day.

A honeybee blissfully collecting nectar from a hibiscus flower, an ocean wave folding into itself and shimmering in the evening mist, a neighbors rainbow colored parrot whistling the celestial melodies of love. What I learned from nature during this time was that being immersed in the natural world was the closest I had ever come to God.

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“As a highly sensitive person, I believe true healing requires returning to nature, detoxifying the physical terrain, and bringing the subconscious mind and soul into conscious harmony.”

This is my foundational healing philosophy, a personal and spiritual manifesto. I call it ‘the healing trinity’ because it reflects a complete holistic view of how a sensitive system heals, addressing the environment (nature), the vessel (the physical terrain), and the unseen depths (subconscious and soul).

While exploring all three areas was essential to my own recovery, one aspect in particular called me to travel the world for advanced study: understanding myself as a spiritual being, and illuminating the Infinite spiral within me, my subconscious and soul. What began as an act of self-inquiry eventually became my life's work, leading me to become a practitioner.

I have been working with clients in private practice since 2013, specializing in Spiritual Healing and more recently I began expanding my work to include supporting infants and children with Craniosacral Therapy. While I primarily work with clients in individual healing sessions, both in-person and remotely worldwide, I also co-facilitate two annual retreats a year at Esalen Institute in Big Sur, California in Spiritual Healing.

We talk a lot about healing as a straight line, but for many of us, it’s a cycle of temporary relief followed by regression. True, lasting healing doesn't come from managing symptoms, it comes from transforming your foundation. These are the actual steps I took to heal myself from chronic illness, and more importantly, the ones that finally lasted.

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My thoughts on self-healing and my personal story why.

Healing thyself as we know, is complex. A treatment that works to heal one individual may not necessarily work for another, even if their symptoms are identical. Even if their genetics are identical, and they are twins. The inquiry I have had for years, is to understand — why is this?

While it’s my life’s work to study and learn about the individual healing process, I have come to understand that the reason we all heal differently is because we are not just looking at a singular “body” or “mind”. This is actually the wrong point of view. So we need to look beyond this model. We need to look past what our senses are showing us, and look deeply into the individual as a spiritual being, an eternal soul.

My core beliefs through my lived experience:

1. I believe the mind and body are one. Meaning they are a united force. Changes in the mind, bring changes in the body. And changes in the body, bring changes in the mind. I call this the mind-body. They are in a sense inseparable.

2. I believe the mind-body is the outermost visible layer of the soul, and true healing does not happen to the physical vessel, it happens through the soul.

3. I believe the human being as a whole (mind-body-soul) is an integrated, energetic microcosm of the Universe. This is why aligning with nature resets the body's self-healing intelligence.

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My why?

So, we’re going all the way back to 2007.

I’m 25 years old living in New York City. I am living the exact dream vision I had of myself in my minds-eye at age 11.

I believe there are certain places in the world where our soul is connected to the soul of the land. These are places where our soul can elevate in consciousness more rapidly. I knew New York was one of those places for me. Just being there, I somehow felt more myself. I was humming. I had never felt so alive.

It all started one day at work, with strange digestive symptoms. Than a hyper sensitivity to common foods. Then exhausting fatigue. Then full body pain. Then depression. The list of symptoms I felt goes on and on into Infinity. Ultimately these “symptoms” (or bodily sufferings) led to an incredible loss of the entire life I had built for myself. Broken hearted doesn’t even come close to describing the pain I felt.

It is important to note that during this period of my life I was overly focused on my body. To me, I was my body. I mean, I believed that was all of who I was. I had no spiritual beliefs or religious upbringing and no other therapeutic support or understanding. So naturally I found myself asking, Who am I?

I followed the path of western medicine (how I was raised) and saw some of the leading physicians in NYC, but no one could diagnose what was wrong with me. It was then that I started exploring alternative medicine like Ayurveda and traditional Chinese medicine (TCM). None of these paths worked for me either. I finally was referred to a Naturopath who specialized in women’s health and she tested me for Lyme disease and it was positive. She referred me to a holistic and integrative doctor who specialized in treating chronic Lyme disease. Living in the city I don’t remember having a tick bite but I did spend my summer weekends in Montauk.

I began treatment for Lyme which at first was oral antibiotics for a cycle of one year. When that didn’t work we moved onto antibiotic injections. Along with IVs of vitamins, especially high doses of vitamin C. There was one day in particular where I was so fatigued that I couldn’t physically get out of bed to go into the city for my shot so my doctor walked me through administering it to myself. Well, I had a complete melt down after I injected myself. I literally fell to the floor of my bathroom and lay there.

Two years had passed, and I was still in so much physical pain. Doctors said I’d eventually need a cane to walk, that I’d never be myself again. I’d have to manage symptoms for the rest of my life and there was no cure for my condition. On the floor, on this day, I accepted that I may die. I felt death near. I cried out in vocals I had never audibly heard before. It was in this moment that for the first time in my life I began to pray. It was the only thing left that I hadn’t done. I will never forget my first prayer. “God, I don’t know if you are out there but please help me. I can’t do this alone. I am lost. Show me the way. I’m listening.” At the time I didn’t know this but it was the greatest prayer of surrender, of finally letting go of control. An ego death of the “I”. The person who I thought I was, the one who I was desperately clinging to, was dying. What I couldn’t see at the time was that she was actually being guided closer to her soul. And all she needed to do was just let go.

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When I finally got myself up off of the floor, I looked into the mirror and a single ray of light was streaming in the tiny bathroom window and reflecting into the mirror. When I looked at the mirror my right eye was illuminated. I leaned in closer and looked deep into the iris of my eye. For a moment I got lost in a sea of aquamarine. I heard a voice within me say with absolute certainty, “You’re going to heal yourself. Yes. Your body can heal itself. It will feel natural. Believe.”

My body was going to heal itself? What did that even mean. I had never heard of this concept before, let alone, it coming from inside of me. But there it was, as clear as daylight. A deep inner knowing. It was right there in my bathroom that I decided to immediately stop all allopathic treatments and trust that another, more natural path to healing myself would appear.

A few days later I confronted my doctor about my desire to stop treatment and he suggested I receive a final vitamin IV. During this I was resting when I heard the gentleman next to me began speaking to another woman about his sister who lived in Switzerland and had recently healed herself of Lyme disease via a center called Paracelsus Klinik where they practice biological medicine. The hairs on my arm stood up because in four weeks time my partner and I were traveling to Switzerland to attend his sisters wedding.

When I got home I immediately ran to my computer to find the clinic’s website where I read about biological medicine for the first time, “a holistic, root-cause system of health care that views the human body as an interconnected network rather than a collection of isolated symptoms. It aims to clear internal toxins, remove regulatory blockages, and stimulate the body’s innate self-healing and immune capabilities using natural, non-toxic innovations.” There it was, my confirmation that this was my next step forward.

I emailed the clinic straight away but unfortunately it was so last minute that they were fully booked. The woman I was corresponding with however suggested I try to email the clinic’s long-time Medical Director, Dr. Thomas Rau, because she heard he was currently studying rare cases of young women with chronic illness, especially Lyme disease and chronic fatigue syndrome. I put my entire heart into my letter and a few days later Dr. Rau himself personally accepted my case. He said I will see you in 1-month, please read my book The Swiss Secret to Optimal Health before you arrive.

This, I knew, had to be God at work. I felt the shimmering luminescence of what I could only describe as, a miracle. It was right then that I began believing in God. Purely as spirit, consciousness, or divine essence. An infinite, incorporeal, supreme, and all-good Spirit. That is all-knowing, all-seeing, all-acting, and an eternal presence in my life.

The clinic was in the Swiss countryside of Lustmühle, a mountain town in eastern Switzerland. It sits in the canton of Appenzell, just south of the city of St. Gallen. By car it was about an hour drive from Zurich. I stayed for one full month of treatments. The spring season was bursting with life — the fresh alpine air, blooming flowers, baby animals, swans, rainstorms followed by rainbows. I slept at a traditional German-Swiss bed and breakfast just down the way.

I learned that Dr. Rau had been at the clinic since 1992 and was widely known as a pioneer of Swiss biological medicine. The clinic used a three-pillar philosophy:

1. Detoxification: removing the hidden toxic loads

2. Microbiome and Immune System Support: restoring the body’s natural defenses

3. Regeneration: replenishing and activating deep self-healing.

I experienced many alternative therapies for the first time including: ozone therapy, homeopathy, neural therapy, liver & gallbladder cleansing, colon hydrotherapy, oxygen therapy, heart variability and breathing therapy, darkfield microscopy, nutritional counseling and education, biological dentistry, infrared sauna, immune boosting protocols, and three-vegetarian meals a day. It was at the clinic that my mind-body began to feel lifted. And my soul came alive. Somehow it felt reminiscent of being a little one again, growing up barefoot roaming the wild nature of Pennsylvania, picking red raspberries from my fathers garden, chasing bunnies and butterflies, and watching the starry sky at night. I was so inspired by the nature surrounding me that I began documenting my experience with my polaroid camera.

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I cleansed, I purged, I broke through. It was one of the most challenging yet most life-changing months of my life. It was in this place that I truly learned how to properly care for my body, something that I did not learn in my childhood. Healthy daily habits that are aligned with nature. So much of what I discovered there I still live by today.

On my last day at the clinic I had a final meeting with Dr. Rau and his assistant. It was in this meeting that they suggested because I am a highly sensitive person (HSP) to move out of the city and continue healing in the countryside. They viewed “modern city living” as a primary source of chronic toxicity, sensory overload, and disrupted biological regulation. They assured me that true healing required removing myself from urban stressors to restore my body's self-healing capacity in a natural environment. While today in 2026 this feels quite normal to hear, this is all the way back in 2009. No one was talking about these ideas. (Maybe I will do a separate writing on Paracelsus Klinik and the details of what I learned because it was so ahead of its time, and honestly still is).

When I returned home to the city, it became clear that they were right. A month or so later, as summer was approaching in May, I found a little cottage by the sea in Amagansett, New York. It was simply one room with 2 twin beds, a little cocina, and a bathroom with a tub.

It was in this little sea cottage that I would deeply reconnect with the rhythms of the natural world and my innermost Self.

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How turning toward nature and stillness eventually led me to Peru, where I finally discovered the spiritual root cause of my chronic illness and crossed paths with the beloved teachers who shaped my path as a practitioner.

A polaroid photograph I took of the Swiss home where I lived during my month of biological medicine treatments at Paracelsus Klinik. Spring, 2009.

This past year, since my birthday in September, I have taken a devotional Kabbalistic vow to refrain from negative, or evil speech.

It began in a Kabbalah class through the Kabbalah Centre in Los Angeles. During that series, one full lesson was dedicated entirely to this topic, and it instantly became the most meaningful class for me.

In Kabbalah, this is known as Lashon Hara (the evil tongue). It includes: complaining, gossiping, slandering, negative self-talk, unnecessary speech, hurtful or negative speech about someone, vain or vulgar language, speech that causes conflict, words spoken in anger, words that invoke harm and unconscious chatter. Even if what is said is entirely true, if it lowers a person’s standing, causes emotional or financial harm, or spreads unnecessary negativity, it falls under Lashon Hara.

What sparked my curiosity, and ultimately transformed my life this past year, was learning that participating in negative speech does more than just ripple outward. It actively drains your vital force, attracts negativity into your life and can slow or block miracles. Even miracles that are meant for your soul.

The Contagion of “The Swirl”

I was relatively confident in my ability to refrain from negative speech when I was alone. Being a highly sensitive person and aware of my internal thought processes and judgments of others, which happens to be my personal Tikkun (soul correction) as a Virgo, felt like a familiar landscape. Judgment is an area I try to monitor closely, both 1) toward myself, and 2) towards others.

The real surprise arrived when I tried holding this vow out in the world, interacting with friends, acquaintances, and loved ones.

I quickly saw that negative speech acts like a contagious virus. It infiltrates a system and quietly takes over the mind-body without you even realizing it, precisely because its transmission is invisible. I became absolutely allergic to being in close relationships with people wrapped up in drama or repeatedly speaking poorly of others. Immediately, I would feel a distinct physical chaos in my body. It was a spinning sensation that I began to call “the swirl.” You can almost feel it coming before it hits.

My first line of action was to articulate what I was practicing and draw a clear boundary. In some instances, that boundary required constant reinforcement. Many relationships naturally shifted and expanded to meet this new version of myself. But those that didn’t? I had to let them go. And I mean, had to. Once you commit to this practice, you develop an absolute intolerance for being steeped in negativity. It’s almost identical to the sensation of needing to jump in the shower to cleanse your physical body.

One of my closest friends was going through a deeply challenging period in her marriage. While I tried to offer the most compassionate version of myself, the heaviness of her experience perpetually bled into our dynamic. I tried harder to hold onto this relationship than almost any other, but as time passed, I saw the direct toll it was taking on my peace.

She felt judged by me, believing my love for her was conditional. But in all honesty, I simply couldn’t afford to stay in “the swirl” with her anymore. I saw too clearly the negative impact it was having on my life. It wasn’t her fault, but through that painful friction, I learned a profound lesson about containment, and why it is so difficult, even agonizing, to sit with ourselves and our own raw feelings.

The Power of the Pause

It is entirely natural as human beings to navigate challenges and conflicts. But how we respond to them is what truly matters. This is perhaps the single most important truth I’ve learned.

A classic test for me arises when someone begins speaking negatively about another person. The social conditioning is to nod along, agree, or validate their projection to keep the peace. But I’ve learned I can acknowledge someone’s pain and hold deep compassion for them while responding with complete silence or taking the wheel and redirecting the conversation.

When we are suffering, it is natural to seek the loving support of another. But we have to be honest with our intentions:

• Am I wanting to vent, or am I wanting to heal?

• Am I looking for true connection, or am I just looking to dump heavy energy?

• What are the actual consequences of the words leaving my mouth?

The effects of this practice were almost immediate: less friction, more quiet, stillness, and a profound influx of positive, uplifting experiences. Even miracles. As one of my Kabbalah teachers reminds us, the shift is palpable.

Yet, it was deeply confronting. I began to see myself differently, observing the very pull to speak rise within my own chest. I had to ask myself: Could I have once been a primary source of this in someone else’s life?

What is drama, and why do we cling to it? Drama and stories are addicting because they fill space. They fill the void. They rush in to occupy the exact moments when our nervous system doesn't yet have the capacity to sit with our emotional body.

Today I am here to help you begin this practice. I walk you through step by step. And bring you my favorite Somatic Experiencing® technique called Pendulation, for cleansing the body of overwhelm that often comes with negative speech and how to expand the resilience of your nervous system as a highly sensitive person.

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For the entire decade of my thirties I was on the move. Literally moving.

I lived in so many different geographical places and spaces. Home became wherever I was in the moment. From New York City to Australia to New Zealand, a little ocean cottage in Long Island to quaint villages in Peru to the sea coast in Uruguay to the wild praias of the Algarve region in Portugal. Traveling felt nourishing, movement felt expansive. It was my medicine, at the time.

I intuitively decided to close my private healing practice on Main Street in Amagansett in 2019, after New York being my home base for nearly fifteen years. A long term relationship ended and it was clear, I was free to follow the warm sun and my dream of moving west to California.

My path led me to a little ranch in Ojai, tucked into the mountains. I suddenly experienced the contrast of feeling like an orphaned child to being a gently swaddled newborn baby, as the valley naturally enveloped me in her bosom.

For the first time in my life, over the past 4 years of living here I have barely left my home and animals. Stillness has become my medicine. I went from feeling like a rushing, wild sea to being as still as a mountain. When I first moved here I consulted one of my favorite books, The I Ching or book of changes. I especially love the translation by Brian Browne Walker. The hexagram I got was 52. KEN / Keeping Still, Mountain. The first line reads, “Still your emotions through meditation.”

I am sharing the full text below because these words have melted in my mind-body over time and formed a simple practice that I often revisit.

“Receiving this hexagram is a sign that you need to quiet your emotions so that you can think clearly. To answer the clamoring of the ego with action now is to invite misfortune. The I Ching counsels nonaction and the stilling of the emotions through meditation. It is in the nature of having a body to have strong feelings and impulses. However, if we allow our thinking to be controlled by them, we cannot act with the gentleness, neutrality, and graceful wisdom of the Sage. Instead, we move rashly when we ought to keep still, or we quiet the body and its inferior elements so that our thoughts and actions may be clear and balanced. Three things are advised. First, sit quietly in a self-supporting position with your back straight and eyes closed. Second, observe the flow of your bodily emotions. Do not judge or resist them; the simple practice of watching them come, linger, and go without acting on them allows you to gradually separate them from your thought process. Third, turn your inner conflicts over to the Deity for resolution. The help of the Higher Power is only made available to those who ask for it in a disciplined way, who make an offering of their stillness and mindfullness. Through meditation we reduce the influence of the inferior elements and make it possible for the Sage to assist us. Keep still as a mountain now and you will be rewarded with good fortune.”

Being here in Ojai I realize that movement was - familiar. Movement was - safe. I had spent my whole life from age 4 when my parents separated to age 18, moving every week between their houses. By the age of 6, I could pack a bag in 5-minutes and go anywhere in a moments notice. Leaving everything behind. I lived simply. From a young age I knew the things that were most important to me and they could all fit in my tiny backpack. Well almost everything, besides my girl, a ginger cat named Sunshine.

When I first moved into my home I felt surprisingly anxious. I would pace around my house and when it would come time to sit for my daily transcendental meditation practice, I would have to get up and walk outside. Again movement? I would have this repetitive feeling of thinking I needed to be somewhere else. I would out of nowhere begin to feel incredibly emotional and this led to a sensation of overwhelm in my body. It was during this period that I remembered my I Ching reading and the three step practice which I simplified:

1. Sit, be still

2. Observe, feel my emotions

3. Let go, to God

A few times the feeling of anxiety and taking movement became so strong in my body that I would physically have to move. This looked like me getting into my car and slowly driving down my long winding driveway. All three times, when I reached the bottom I would breakdown crying. I remember talking aloud in my car and giving these feelings, these inner conflicts that I had been carrying - to God. When I did, I felt peace and the realization eventually came, “Wait, I am home. I don’t have to go anywhere.”

I began to realize how deep the subconscious programming was in my mind and how my body and nervous system mirrored this. I personally believe mind and body are one (united) and I look forward to breaking this down more deeply in future writings.

I was finally in a safe, peaceful place but my body was still in fight or flight. Safety and quiet wasn’t a normal-baseline for me since my childhood programming was centered around movement, confusion and chaos.

This home became a healer, holding space for me to transform myself. This land became a healer, witnessing me and reminding me that I am alive. I was living in the peaceful, temple sanctuary that I had drawn in my journal for years and years. I had arrived at the door. But to actually walk through the door, I was being asked to drop my tiny backpack.

I remember thinking, how did I manifest this home and this level of peace when my emotional body was still looping from childhood? That is when I began to understand the power of my mind and how I used my imagination to create my present day reality.

This is the longest I’ve ever lived in one place -- in my whole life. Every morning I look out towards the mountains that surround my home 360 degrees, and I think, wow, here I am, here we are. Leaving all of my family on the east coast was hard but I’m surrounded by the immovable. The unchanging. The mountains. I feel solace in that. I feel my eternal Self reflected back to me.

My little daily practices have become my new familiar anchor. I never had a routine, over time that was the same every day. Well, beyond a month or two.

These are some of the things I am loving: My mornings. Waking up and filling the bird baths with fresh, cool water, saying hello to my zinnia flowers that I’m growing from seed and my two plumeria plants from Hawaii, tending to my herb garden especially my lemon verbena plant that comes from a friend at the Krishnamurti Center in Ojai. Listening. Walking barefoot. Waking up to the first ray of light at sunrise over the mountain. Meditating with my two cats. Feeding them. Fresh spring water touching my lips, and blending up my morning green drink that I have every day.

The stillness in this moment of my life is one where I feel settled and have begun cultivating space and time for my creativity to move again. All of which will be channeled directly into this space.

The photograph above I captured during my first stay in Peru. It is Laguna Umayo, located near the archaeological site of Sillustani, just northwest of Puno in the southern highlands. The prominent-flat topped formation rising from the water is Isla Umayo, a striking mesa surrounded by the high-altitude waters of the lake. It was one of the very first places I had ever been where I felt the energy of peace reverberating in all of my cells.