Each spring, the world wakes back up. The seeds planted in the winter take sprout and we can start to see the growth that had already taken root beneath the surface. Sometimes that growth was expected, planned. Other times, it can surprise us, showing up in unexpected ways. Some seeds sowed don’t make it to spring. And that’s okay too. It’s necessary, actually.

Currently Cultivating 🌱

Moments that felt small or insignificant sometimes are bigger than we take them for. Other moments that are monumental for us don’t seem to impact others as much - but we are all connected, and the ripple is always felt. Sometimes in ways we’ll never see.

This season has been full of change, lots of it unexpected. And that can be hard. Here’s what I’m pouring my energy into to stay rooted:

• Park hangs with my buds 📍

• Lavender coffee ☕️

• The library 📍

• Leadership training 📝

• GNO’s! 🪩

• Egg Crafting ✨

Seasonal Picks 🌷

Listening 🎙️

• Hyades: Rising in the Face of Rain

• Soul Gum by Victoria Hutchins: A 5-Step Guided Practice for a Season of Transformation

Reading 📖

• Some Bugs by Angela DiTrrlizzi with Brendan Wenzel (Illustrations)

• Daisy Rewilds by Margaret McNamara

Watching 📀

• HOBBIES TO TRY IN 2026 I Go Analog, Stop Scrolling + Be More Creative & Interesting

• Butterfly Tale

Inspo ✨

Explore More 🗺️

• Vibe check on the gram: @planetjordandesign

• Honestly, my Pinterest is where it’s really poppin: @planetjordandesign

Reflection 🪩

As we look toward summer, I encourage you to ponder on just how much whimsy and joy you’ve included in this current season and how you plan to cultivate it in the next.

Paint some rocks. Repurpose an old art project. Take an art class. Move your body. Go to the farmer’s market. Enjoy this life - Flowth it 🪷

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I believe it was the fall of 2019 when I made the conscious decision to embrace winter. I grew up in a home which honors the beach and condemns the snow. My body naturally runs cold, and yet for years I underdressed for the occasion in rebellion - as if the Earth cares to adjust its temperament specifically for my preference. How human of me - of course I thought I hated winter.

6 years ago, I asked for accountability from someone I was close with.

“I want to go hiking once a week this winter.”

And so we did. In fact, on New Year’s Eve, we got lost for HOURS on our hike in Bloomington, and thank goodness that happened weeks into our commitment to the cold, or this piece would likely lean pessimistic - or not exist at all. Just about every inch of my body went numb that day.

This acceptance of discomfort changed the way I thought about how we all move through the world. The work you choose to put into your life experience will always transform the outcome. And that outcome, at the end of that project, that challenge…there you stand. With each thought, word, action, habit - Who are we choosing to become?

Make It a Great Life or Not, the Choice is Youre

In my early twenties, the clear display of, “basically you’re supposed to be wasted every waking moment you aren’t in class,” poured into most college-themed media wasn’t appealing in the slightest. So, until I worked myself straight into an addict whose inescapable grip pressed that I, “just [hadn’t] partied with the right person yet,”

*Hardest eye roll of them all*

I personally utilized the majority of my time huddled up in my bona fide cave of an apartment doing 1 of 3 things: Studying, playing the Sims, or rerunning Gilmore Girls…Until I realized that was killing my soul just the same. Sure, that one dream of having a Twitch gamer girl paycheck sounded nice, but the reality of dumping ~$100K into a degree to be a Sims gamer wasn’t my jam and having my own Gilmore Girls podcast felt both too hardcore fandom and out of reach for my respectable reality, so, I chose to buckle in and, “enter the real world.”

Burnout

And at the speed of Lorelai and Rory’s banter came the,

“We needed this yesterday,” “This is hot,” “Circling back to this,” “Hard drop date is today,” drum of the corporate world.

4 years of high highs and low lows later, I found myself in the lowest pit of them all - completely burnt out - and forced to make a change.

During this in-between flowth of life, I begrudgingly following suit of my in vogue parents and downloaded this new app called “TikTok,” scrolling my way into the topic of cycle syncing. My brain chemistry was altered once more. Eating with the seasons resonated with me, as I already strive to do this on an annual basis - though I hadn’t quite yet considered doing this on a micro-level each month. Honestly, I had forgotten that there was more to our cycle than “on your period” and “not.”

If you’re thinking, “what the heck is she talking about?” We’re talking women’s health. The short synopsis is that women go through, yes, the menstrual phase, which is then followed by the follicular, ovulatory, and Luteal phase where it then loops back to menstrual.

If you want to learn more about this, let me know and I’ll write a whole piece on it. I’ve linked resources at the end of this piece for you as well.

Back to my point: Functioning with the Gregorian calendar, thinking as if we are in a singular dimension - working in a linear fashion, suggests that we are not cyclical, round, planetary beings.

If we operate in this week-to-week, “Thank God for the weekend,” manner that has been pre-created for us, in order to maintain our own “that’s how I’ve always done it,” comfort, we are all bound to burn ourselves out over and over again.

She’s a Witch!

In the last few years, it became a habit of my coworkers and I to frequent All My Relations, a metaphysical store conveniently located near our lunch break whereabouts.

It was here that I found myself immediately drawn to, The Green Witch, a beautifully designed hardback book. I had initially thought this would be a humerous gift for my very witchy and also very Catholic grandmother, but was awestruck by the introduction and it has lived slovenly in my bedside drawer ever since.

Now, many years later, I frequently read tarot for friends and avidly follow the cycles of the moon, but this - this, was my very first “witchy” purchase and as a born and raised K-12 Catholic school girl, I half thought God was going to knock the book out of my hand before I made it to the checkout counter. Until I opened to the introduction and was met with this:

“Not everyone will be drawn to the same things and practice in the same way. It’s about finding a workable balance in your own life within your own setting…Listen to the world around you. Open your heart. Rebalance. And enjoy your journey.”

This wasn’t a strike against Catholicism. This was the natural flow of my life journey. Every ounce of that page is dripping Jordan, dripping “flow,” the meaning of my name.

Honoring What Is

Bringing you to present day, the last week of January 2025, where I am preparing for Imbolc.

The midway point from winter to spring, Imbolc is a feast day for Saint Brigid, Irelands patroness saint. Imbolc honors what is. In this moment, the Earth breathes deeply, shifts slowly, and peeks through the snow, reminding us there is life under the cold white blanket. Or if you’re in downtown Indianapolis - under the litter now embedded in the frozen, muddy park.

Imbolc is a moment to appreciate that we’ve made it this far, through the discomfort. It’s still cold and yet, we, along with the Earth, are still alive. I would be remiss to go without mentioning that being here right now doesn’t exactly feel good. The political energy is heavy, the economic situation is heavy, and of course, war is heavy.

In this moment, as we accept discomfort - we collectively decide, “Who are we choosing to become?”

References

• Planet Jordan Design (2025, January 31). List “Gamer Girl” https://a.co/5YFKs2T

• Planet Jordan Design (2025, January 31). List “Cycle Syncing”https://a.co/7GMSX2q

• “About.” All My Relations, 2017, allmyrelationsindy.com.

• Murphy-Hiscock, A., & Zackman, G. (2018.) The Green Witch. Simon & Schuster Audio, Inc. https://amzn.to/42vLOWu

• Road, C. (2021.) Next World Tarot. Silver Sprocket. https://amzn.to/4hFEcor

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I said I wouldn’t change. And here I sit, with a completely different lifestyle and outlook on life. Becoming a mother has been some of the most magical Uranian energy. For months, I was frozen, battling with change because becoming a mom meant altering every bit of what I had been building. I was occupied, tied up in climbing the corporate ladder, living in my masculine - and now I was about to mirror Lynette Scavo sans husband?

The discovery that I was pregnant was oddly calming for someone who had zero plans of bearing child at the time. In the moment I found out that I was becoming a mother - in a marvel moment of perplexity, (aside from having an explanation for the nausea,) I was at peace. With that consideration, I’d say that in my core I knew that everything was about to change.

And you will, change. From my career, to my friendships, home, dating life, lifestyle, personal style, down to the products I buy and media I consume - there is change. And that change has been crunchy. At first, I wasn’t being honest with myself.

I Didn’t Know I’d Grieve

After two home tests and a confirmation from the doctor, I promptly left my world behind - literally flying halfway around the world and hiking to Machu Picchu 4 months pregnant. Not much can clarify the important things in life like looking both ways with a Peruvian retreat.

Upon my return, I bitterly dragged each curated piece from my cozy, periwinkle duplex in Fountain Square, figurative tail tucked between my legs as I headed back to home base with family. After coming to terms with my reality, I cried - wailed really, participating in at least 2 full on guttural meltdowns. How the heck was I about to pull this off?

“She’s just a girl,” they’d said.

The words held more weight than they were worth. All things considered, they had only seen the girlish facade they were offered to perceive and, regardless, dangled “girls” without honor and dignity. And so, she strenuously dangled as they wished - until deemed unfit in the 9th month.

Here We Grow Again

While it most definitely didn’t solve all of my problems, the somatic release of wailing my way through professional and gestational abandonment a couple of times was absolutely equitable and overwhelmingly cathartic.

~ Feel your feels, man. ~

Between the desire of motherhood as a young girl and conception, a baby wasn’t truly in my cards until reproductive coercion came in swinging. A flagrant abuse of power in which I was now scrambling to rearrange my entire life around.

I felt as if I was asked to return the wings I had grown and return to my cocoon. I had always wanted to become a mom. But, alone? Like this? I was stripped down, terrified, now annoyingly mislabeled with a bold, red ‘A’ brandished on my stretched stomach, wondering why this was what life was asking of me.

Finding Flowth

What I was struggling to grapple with for a while was that just because this wasn’t the journey I expected didn’t mean that it wasn’t growth. With the unwavering decision to make it on my own - the decision to be free, I found flowth. The beauty in flowing with your growth, especially when it wasn’t a part of the plan.

I know that some women love being pregnant, and I truly wish that I had that experience. Relating to Khloe Kardashian would have never been on my bingo card. The very personal decision of pregnancy being stripped from me created a difficult reality in consideration of acceptance. Roe v. Wade was in the process of being overturned amidst all of this, and while I always knew that option was not the route for me, the symbolism was of unpleasant synchronisticity.

“Your body, my choice.” Jordan’s version.

From those two little pink lines on, flowth has not only had to be accepted, but embodied.

There’s more pressure knowing little eyes are on me now, learning how to live through each of my movements. Little eyes, please know I’m still learning alongside you.

You go from doing whatever you want to do, whenever you want to do it onto now considering that everything you do will affect someone who is learning how to live. And at first, you don’t even know who that tiny little someone is.

Had I not allowed flow, the growth of my life journey, the flowth - life would have remained the beige designated by them, and I want color. I choose pink.

References

• McDougall, C. (Director). Desperate Housewives, S1:E1, “Pilot”, premiered October 3, 2004 on the ABC Network

• Kahiu, W. (Director). (2022). Look Both Ways [Film]. Netflix

• National Domestic Violence Hotline [@ndvhofficial] (2024, October 4) Relationship abuse is a pattern of behaviors used to gain or maintain power and control over a partner. [Instagram]

• Winston, B., Conway E., Jones, E., King, D. (Executive Producers). The Kardashians, S2:E1, “I Have Something to Tell You…”, premiered September 22, 2022 on Hulu

• Reed, T. [@tori.reed.1690] (2023) Among many others, this just scratches the surface. [Facebook]

With the launch of Flowth, I’d like to take a moment to acknowledge the journey of Planet Jordan so far and where we’re headed next. For years, Planet Jordan has been your guide to ethical, sustainable living. With Flowth, it’s time to dive deeper into this story.

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While I’ve spoken in bites before about my experience as a survivor of DV and SA, and my advocacy for sobriety—a sobriety that isn’t rooted in addiction, but rather from a conscious choice to live without the influence of substances—I’ve been more private about my experience as a mother - a sole parent emerging from an abusive situationship. Now, I feel it’s time to incorporate this part of my life into Planet Jordan’s mission.

Becoming a mother has radically altered my being. It has had me reconsidering my ideology of wellness. I had always thought of wellness as something of desire, something to attain - you know, the Seventeen magazine portrayal.

True Wellness is Intrinsic to Our Beings

So, if we are unwell, what does our growth look like? Life does not pause for us; we’re morphing and adapting in each moment, regardless of whether or not we take the pause to acknowledge it. While we may feel stagnant at times or as if the world is only changing around us, though this does not mean we are without it. We are all forever shifting through different cycles - some balanced, others in restoration, another group are in an awakening, and the remainder are up on stage performing.

To sustain our healing we are asked to care for our minds, bodies, souls, and environments with balanced compassion.

The Flowth of Planet Jordan

Planet Jordan is evolving into a space that promotes holistic wellness and healing, offering tools, insights, and resources to support you through your own life transitions—whatever they may be. Together, we’ll continue to explore mindful consumption, sustainable living, and now, the deeper work of personal healing and transformation.

It’s been almost 3 years since I found out I was going to become a mom under precarious circumstances. I can only think to describe that life-altering shift as, “flowth,” learning to flow with my growth and grow with that flow. Flowth is honoring the transitions that shape who we are. Flowth is accepting the shapes of us that have not been flattering. It is an understanding that while we cannot reform the past, we have the artistry to cultivate a gratifying future.

And with that, I welcome you to Flowth - Where life happens. Thank you for being a part of this journey.

Outpouring gratitude,

Jordan Smith

Founder & Creative Director, Planet Jordan Design

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