I have been noticing a strong theme in my client work lately.

First off, I work with some truly incredible humans with big, soulful dreams. Yet, what keeps showing up again and again is that their dreams keep being held back by their saboteur archetype hidden within their belief structures.

The inspiration to write this comes from my own deep dive into my own exploration of belief structures & as I come out of my obsession with learning about them I am also realizing how few people actually understand what core beliefs are or how they quietly shape literally… our entire freaking lives!

In honor of my clients, & in devotion to all of us out here who are building our own inner kingdoms to become the vessels that can hold the dreams that our souls are asking us to bring into form, today we are diving into the power of core beliefs.

So, What Are Core Beliefs?

Core beliefs are the invisible architects that have silently built our lives.

They form the bedrock upon which our perceptions, thoughts, emotions, & actions are built. These deep inner convictions shape how we see the world, relate to others, & our intimate relationships to our own inner worlds.

Taking responsibility for our core beliefs is beyond essential to the creation of the inner kingdom.

Ok so maybe your like ya that sounds good lets take responsibility! This is truly the most important step… so then first things first we got to find them.

Our core beliefs are shaped not only by our personal lived experiences but also by our early strategies for belonging & safety. And if that wasn’t enough of a head scratcher, they can also be woven into our framework of reality from the inheritance or legacy of our ancestral lineage. The beliefs, wounds, & strengths of those who came before us live inside our cells & often influence the very mission we came here to fulfill.

I really enjoy archetypal study, if you follow my work you know that already! See my last newsletter for more of a deep dive into that. I think its really helpful here to speak to the fact that we all have an inheritance & that we all have a Child archetype because we have all had a childhood. And how does that relate to core beliefs? Well, most of our core beliefs usually take root in childhood.

As little ones, we absorb absolutely everything. Family dynamics, cultural norms, unspoken rules, emotional environments. Think of it like a soup you are simmering in. You soak in everything around you while your psyche is forming. Yes this includes all the unsaid relational dynamics & emotional sludge that the grownups did their best to move past.

Lets make this super simple, Gabor Mate talked on an interview I saw about how even in the same home each child is having a completely different childhood. It would be so easy to say that a child raised in warmth & encouragement may internalize the belief that they are lovable & capable. A child raised in criticism or emotional inconsistency may internalize the belief that they are unworthy or not enough. That is a bit reductionist for my liking… but it does well to prove the point. Two children raised in the same loving home will have different experiences of how they respond to that love & internalize it in their own unique ways, but I digress.

The point is whatever beliefs we picked up then become the unseen forces directing choices, relationships, & emotions throughout adulthood until we either take responsibility to learn from the challenges of Life and/OR we finally become self aware enough to pull back the veil and see the pattern at work.

Oh ya, then there is the ancestral layer.

This one might feel like a stretch for some of you, so if you are skeptical, go read the book “It Didn’t Start with You,” by Mark Wolynn.

Personally, I have spent the last five years consciously working on ancestral patterns that I know did not start with me. Some of my deepest conflicts I have worked though have belonged to the women who came before me, not just to my own lived experience.

I am definitely here in my family lineage as archetypal cycle breaker though so it’s been a really radical path I have walked in this Life. If ya know then ya know. I am going to open up more honestly here soon about some of that in future newsletters, even though I am a deeply private person & sharing makes me want to puke. It feels important to me to lead with radical vulnerability & share from my Lived experience.

Anyways, back to ancestral core beliefs… many of our beliefs rooted in scarcity, fear, or survival often come from lineages that endured hardship. Truly, I have had a blessed upbringing, yet scarcity still lived inside me & that core belief at one point had dictated a lot of how I operate in the world. This isn’t to say that I have not also received gifts equally. The same lineage, handed down resilience, intuition, profound connection with the earth & resourcefulness.

I believe part of our mission in this lifetime is to discern which inherited beliefs still serve us & which ones are ready for transformation, to be honored & rewoven.

Core beliefs are not passive thoughts. They are structural beams inside the psyche.

Imagine your inner world as a house. Core beliefs are the foundational beams holding it up. If they are faulty or distorted, the entire structure feels shaky.

This is why so many people feel unstable inside themselves. The belief beams holding their inner kingdom together were built by trauma, fear, or ancestral survival strategies.

Because these beliefs are buried so deep, we often cannot see them directly. We only see the symptoms.

Here is real life example:
Someone with the core belief that people cannot be trusted will unconsciously sabotage intimacy & then gather evidence that confirms it. I have seen this so many times in my work.

One of the best ways to identify a core belief is to notice the situations that keep repeating in your life. The patterns that make you say, “Why is this happening again?”

My teacher Donna Maria once told me, “The devil has no imagination.”
Meaning, the recurring storylines in your life are pointing directly to the core beliefs that are asking to be transformed.

ALSO pay close attention to the spaces where you use absolute language:
“I always end up alone.”
“No one ever shows up for me.”
“I always have to hold it all together.”

These are the fingerprints of a core belief that is ready to be met.

To build a sovereign inner kingdom, we must examine these beliefs with honesty & self-responsibility. We ask:
Is this belief truly mine?
Did I inherit it?
Does it serve me?
Does it limit me?

This is sacred work. This is often uncomfortable work, it disrupts the foundational building blocks of our psyches. It also has the potential to unlock your soul & connect you to your truest alignment.

The first universal law, the Law of Mentalism, says, “All is mind. The Universe is mental.”

This means that our beliefs shape the reality we experience.

If we believe the world is hostile, we will find hostility.
If we believe the world is supportive, we will find support.
If we believe we are unworthy, our experiences will echo that belief.

Our beliefs become the lens through which Life responds to us.

Taking radical responsibility for our beliefs means acknowledging that we are co-creating reality through the inner stories we hold.

This includes the beliefs we inherited. When we transform limiting ancestral beliefs, we do not just heal ourselves, we heal the lineage that lives through us.

Our perceptions of everything, truly everything, are filtered through the lens of our core beliefs.

These beliefs help us make sense of the world, but they can also blind us.

Someone with a belief that they are unworthy will deflect compliments, distrust success, & interpret love as temporary. I cannot tell you how many times I have watched someone reject a compliment simply because it did not match their inner narrative.

On the other hand, someone with a belief in their worthiness will naturally allow themselves to receive, grow, & expand.

This cycle continues until we consciously intervene.

When we bring core beliefs into awareness, we can choose to perceive differently. When perception shifts, reality shifts with it.

One of my greatest joys as a facilitator of inner mapping work & a forever student of consciousness is witnessing someone recognize a core belief that has been shaping their entire life. Watching them reclaim their power & re-pattern that belief into something true to their soul is nothing short of sacred.

Deconstructing core beliefs takes courage. It requires a willingness to question everything you have known to be true.

This work asks you to become an explorer of your own inner world. To be open to the possibility that some of the beliefs you have held tightly may not be true, or may no longer serve who you are becoming.

This can be difficult because the ego loves familiarity. Even limiting beliefs can feel safe because they are known. When we challenge these beliefs, the ego often fears it is losing its identity, & in some ways it is, but its more of a reshaping towards a more truly aligned soul driven identity.

Our egos want to orient us towards the familiar, even if it is the familiar hell. This is why doing this work alone can feel impossible. We need mirrors. We need guides. We need compassionate witnesses as we dismantle the scaffolding of our inner kingdom & rebuild it with intention.

Re-pattering core beliefs can feel painful. When you pull up beliefs like “I am bad,” “I am unlovable,” or “I do not matter,” you will almost always feel the vulnerability rise. But that vulnerability is the threshold of transformation. It is the doorway to freedom.

As we release limiting beliefs, we make space for new, empowering beliefs to take root. This is not just a mental shift. It is a true sacred awakening. You begin to see Life with new eyes. You reorient to possibility.

You return to the sacred. Your consciousness evolves.

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Building your inner kingdom & reclaiming the sacredness of Life begins with taking radical responsibility for your core beliefs.

It requires introspection, honesty, & a willingness to change. It asks you to examine the beliefs you inherited, release what no longer aligns, & consciously choose the beliefs that will carry you forward.

In doing so, you not only reshape your life, you also heal patterns in your lineage & integrate wellness for future generations.

You move from unconscious reaction to conscious creator.

The most profound movement I have ever made in my Life is this one. Nothing has changed me more.

When we reweave some of our foundational beliefs, our inner kingdom becomes steady, grounded, sovereign. It becomes a reflection of who we truly are beneath the conditioning, the wounds, & the inherited stories.

Core beliefs are powerful structures of the mind that shape our lives in ways we often truly do not realize.

To build a strong & sovereign inner kingdom, we must become aware of these beliefs, trace their origins, question their validity, & consciously choose the ones that serve our highest truth, that connect us most with the Creator.

As we do this, we align ourselves with the first universal law & become conscious co-creators of our reality. By making our core beliefs conscious & re-patterning the ones that no longer serve us, we reclaim the sacredness of Life, honor our lineage, & step into our full power as sovereign beings.

Thank you for supporting my creative expression & joining me in connecting to the sacredness of Life. I am so grateful for each person who hearts, comments, or subscribes to this space.

If you feel called to go deeper, become a paid subscriber to receive access to my monthly LIVE Zoom calls, where we gather + work towards Reclaiming Within together.

As a subscriber, you’ll also be the first to know when the next Building Inner Kingdoms class opens.

Many blessings to you.

Within Love,
Ash

P.S. I am more of a speaker than a writer. Here is my creative process… I dictate what I want to say to an AI app on my phone. I ask it to just capture what I say without altering it. So all of what you read in my work is coming from my literal mouth haha! Then I sit down with what I spoke out loud & transfer it onto Substack where I edit what I had dictated. I am a 5/1 splenic projector & the only channels I have are to my throat, spleen, & g-center… so I work best when I am able to speak something out loud & I truly do feel like I need an invitation for everything. Even when I am choosing my topics I feel like Life is inviting me to share my own process with you all. I will never claim to be a writer… I am a just trying to bring more remembrance of the sacredness of Life to more people & hopefully bring helpful tools for you to traverse the inner, outer & archetypal worlds.

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I have been noticing a strong theme in my client work lately. I work with some truly incredible humans with big, soulful dreams. Yet what keeps showing up again & again is that their dreams keep being held back by their belief structures.

In this episode I’m diving into what core beliefs actually are, where they come from, how they quietly shape literally every area of our lives, & what it looks like to begin transforming the ones that no longer serve us.

This one is for anyone who keeps asking “why does this keep happening to me?” & is ready to look at the belief underneath the pattern.

In this episode we explore:

• What core beliefs actually are & why they are the invisible architects of our lives

• How core beliefs take root in childhood & what that soup of early experience actually does to us

• The ancestral layer & why some of the beliefs running your life did not begin with you

• Why core beliefs are structural beams inside the psyche & what happens when they are faulty

• How to identify a core belief by noticing the patterns that keep repeating

• The absolute language that points directly to a belief ready to be transformed

• The first universal law, the Law of Mentalism, & what it means for the reality we are co-creating

• Why doing this work alone can feel impossible & why we need mirrors & guides

• What it looks like when perception shifts & reality shifts with it

• Why the most profound movement Ash has ever made in her life is this one

A book mentioned in this episode:

It Didn’t Start With You by Mark Wolynn

Questions to sit with after listening:

Is this belief truly mine? Did I inherit it? Does it serve me? Does it limit me?

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Astrology is far more than the oversimplified categorization of people by their sun signs. It is a deeply complex & ancient symbolic linguistic system. A living archetypal system that is living alongside humanity.

In this episode I’m sharing why I have spent over two decades with this system, why it is not a party trick or a personality quiz, & what it actually means to work with astrology as a tool for self-discovery, compassion, & wholeness.

This one is for anyone who has ever felt curious about astrology but didn’t know where to start, & for anyone who has been dismissing it based on sun signs alone.

In this episode we explore:

• What astrology actually is & why it is so much more than sun signs

• The ancient origins of Western astrology & why it was never meant to be static

• Why reducing astrology to sun signs loses so much of its depth & richness

• How every chart contains all twelve signs & what that actually means

• The way astrology evolves alongside your consciousness

• How understanding astrological blueprints cultivates compassion for yourself & others

• Astrology as a metaphorical weather map & how transits work

• Why astrology does not dictate outcomes, it invites us to engage

• How astrology connects us to something greater than ourselves

A line to sit with after listening:

It reminds us that we are all interconnected. Each carrying our own difficulties & divine gifts.

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Astrology is far more than the oversimplified categorization of people by their sun signs; it is a deeply complex & an ancient symbolic linguistic system that is a living archetypal system that is living alongside humanity. Yes, you read that correctly these archetypes are just as alive… arguably, at times even more alive, than me & you.

Astrology is a categorization of these Archetypes & its enduring relevance lies in its ability to meet us exactly where we are, reflecting both our personal journeys & the collective consciousness of both the entire history of humanity & the consciousness of the times.

Astrology offers a mirror for the archetypal energies that shape the human experience. Learning to decode this blueprint invites us to engage in a lifelong dance with these timeless symbols.

At this moment in my Life, I have spent over two decades traversing this system.

And I will tell you, without hesitation, that it is one of the most sophisticated & profound tools for self-understanding that I have ever encountered.

It is not a party trick.

It is not a personality quiz.

It is a map of archetypal energies, a living language that has been evolving alongside human consciousness since before what we call “modern thought” even existed.

Western astrology as we currently know it was born in the Hellenistic period, around the 2nd century BCE, out of a fusion of Babylonian star lore, Egyptian cosmology, & Greek philosophical wisdom.

The twelve-sign zodiac that most people are at least vaguely familiar with came from that convergence.

What I find most beautiful about astrology’s origins is that it was never meant to be static.

It has always grown with us. It reflects the consciousness of the age it’s moving through. It is dynamic, not fixed. A living system. A breathing one.

That adaptability is one of its greatest gifts.

This system forces you out of your linear notion of time & invites you into the timelessness dimension of Archetypal truths. Each human that exists on earth & that has ever existed have come into contact with them.

Beyond Sun Signs…

When astrology is reduced to sun signs alone, so much of its depth & richness is lost. And to be honest, it gives me the ick when I witness people referencing sun sign judgments like, “oh he is a Cancer, that means we are not compatible.” ERGH! No! Not how it works, that is like saying mathematics ends at simple addition + subtraction.

While the sun sign provides a vital clue to one’s archetypal luminous essence, it is only one piece of a much larger puzzle.

Every individual’s astrological chart contains all twelve signs of the zodiac, expressed through a unique arrangement of planets, houses, & aspects.

These elements create a tapestry of energetic imprints or archetypal frequencies, offering insights into not only symbolic orientations in character & events in current life experience, but also challenges, gifts, & opportunities for growth.

The archetypes of the zodiac are universal, yet they manifest uniquely in each person.

For instance, someone with Aries prominently placed in their chart may embody courage & pioneering spirit in one area of life, while another may experience this energy as more of a soul calling, something they are working towards in this life to develop more self-leadership + assertiveness.

This mysticism, the deeply personal way that these archetypes interact within each chart, underscores astrology’s ability to honor individual complexity while connecting us to a larger collective framework.

AND it evolves with your consciousness, I just saw an aspect in my chart that I have NEVER seen before!? I have been studying Astrology since I was 13 & I just noticed that I have my Chiron square the Nodes of the Moon.

How amazing that when you are ready to see something it appears?! When your consciousness is ready to receive the message from these archetypal entities the information reveals itself?!

Astrology, Compassion, + Connection…

One of the most profound benefits of studying astrology, when working with it in an honoring way, is its ability to connect our humanity, as we are all apart of something united & when we understand that so much compassion can be cultivated.

Understanding that everyone is navigating their own unique astrological blueprint can shift how we view others. For example, someone struggling with emotional intensity might have a strong placement in Scorpio, reflecting deep transformative potential but also a propensity for shadow work.

Similarly, a person with significant Virgo energy may experience both the gifts of discernment & the challenges of perfectionism.

This awareness fosters a sense of wonder & compassion.

Rather than judging others for their struggles, we can see their challenges as part of their unique life path, reflected in the archetypes they are working with in this lifetime.

It reminds us that we are all interconnected, each carrying our own difficulties & divine gifts.

Astrology as a Metaphorical Weather Map…

Astrology can be described as a map for navigating Life, a metaphorical weather forecast that helps us prepare for the cosmic “seasons” we encounter.

Transits, which reflect the movements of planets through the sky in relation to our natal charts, provide insight into the themes & energies we are likely to face.

I like to share with people… its raining outside no matter if you bring your umbrella or not, might as well be prepared & look at the forecast to see how you might best prepare for the day.

And so, just as we prepare for rain by carrying an umbrella, understanding an astrological transit allows us to meet life’s challenges & opportunities with awareness & intention.

Whether you believe in the weather forecast or not, the weather is still happening. The rain will fall regardless of your belief in it.

The same is true for the planets and their movements. They continue their celestial dance, influencing the world around us, no matter how we perceive or interpret them.

Importantly, astrology does not dictate outcomes; it invites us to engage actively with the energies at play.

For instance, a challenging Saturn transit might highlight themes of discipline & responsibility, asking us to build resilience & structure in our lives.

The outcome depends on how we respond to these invitations. Will we lean into the lessons, or resist & fall victim to the growth they require?

Embodying Wholeness Through Astrology…

At its core, astrology is a tool for self-discovery & wholeness.

By working with its archetypes, we gain a deeper understanding of ourselves & our place in the cosmos. It is a mystical tool to orient us in time & space.

We begin to see life as a dance between archetypal expressions, each with its own rhythm & purpose. This perspective allows us to align more fully with our authentic selves, to honor the sacredness of each of our unique paths in this Life

And again, it is a amazing tool for helping you to approach life with greater awareness & intention.

Ultimately, astrology connects us to something greater than ourselves…a universal pattern, a divine blueprint that weaves through every aspect of existence.

It reminds us that we are both:

individual & collective…

finite & infinite…

human & divine….

By engaging with its wisdom, we open ourselves to the mysteries of life, reclaiming the gifts of the cosmos & the sacredness of our being.

Thank you for supporting my creative expression & joining me in connecting to the sacredness of Life. I am so grateful for each person who hearts, comments, or subscribes to this space.

If you feel called to go deeper, become a paid subscriber to receive access to my monthly LIVE Zoom calls, where we gather + work towards Reclaiming Within together.

I am playing with an idea to walk people through the zodiac & their very own charts. It would be a 12-week donation based class. IF this is something YOU or anyone you know would be interested in participating in, please reach out to me via email: reclaimwithin@gmail.com.

Many blessings to you.

Within Love,
Ash

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Faith & fear. We talk about them like they’re opposites. Like the goal is to get so rooted in faith that fear just… dissolves. Like the truly awakened ones don’t feel it anymore.

I don’t believe that. I haven’t lived that. I really don’t think that story is serving any of us.

In this episode I’m sitting with what fear actually is, what faith actually is, & why the invitation is not to choose one over the other, but to let faith be the one holding the map.

This one is for anyone who has ever felt fear & wondered if it meant they were off path. It doesn’t. Keep going.

In this episode we explore:

• Why fear is not a flaw. It is information

• How to know when you’re being run by fear without even realizing it

• What faith actually means, and it’s not the absence of fear

• The difference between the fear that is protecting you & the fear that is just keeping you small

• Why courage is faith saying let’s go while fear is still talking

• How to stop the war inside yourself & get curious about fear instead

• Somatic attunement & practical ways to come back to your center when fear gets loud

• Why each trembling step taken in faith rewires something in your nervous system

• A simple somatic practice to try anytime the fear stories start to take over

A practice from this episode:

Find two minutes to yourself. Take a few deep belly breaths. Try box breathing: in for 4, hold for 4, release for 6, hold for 4. Repeat 2 to 4 times. Then bend forward, letting your head & hands hang toward the floor, knees slightly bent. Sway gently side to side & let your fears know you are safe. As you slowly stand back up, thank your fears for trying to protect you.

And if that feels like too much, try a walk, gentle bouncing, dancing, singing, humming, sighing. The best medicine at your disposal, 24/7.

A line to sit with after listening:

Fear & faith are not opposites. They are traveling companions on the road of a Life fully lived.

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Faith & fear, We talk about them like they’re opposites. Like the goal is to get so rooted in faith that fear just... dissolves.

Like as if fear is a sign that something is wrong with you, with your practice, with your trust. Like the truly awakened ones don’t feel it anymore.

I don’t believe that. I haven’t lived that & I really don’t think that story is serving any of us.

Fear is not a flaw. It is just information.

It is the body’s ancient intelligence doing exactly what it was designed to do, orient you toward what matters, toward what feels uncertain, toward the edges of your known world.

Fear arises when something is at stake & something being at stake usually means you care.

You’re alive.

You’re in it.

The problem isn’t fear itself…. the problem is when fear becomes the one making the decisions.

Here is a wild truth. Many people don’t even know that they are being run by fear decisions, because they have normalized it.

Here is how you know your being run by fear without knowing it, life starts to feel like constant reactivity. You grasp for control. You shrink from risk. You defend yourself against things that haven’t even happened yet. You stay inside the edges of what’s familiar & call it safety, even when it’s slowly suffocating you.

I once lived from that state & I am here to tell you that’s NOT living.

That’s managing.

And then there’s faith.

And I want to be clear that when I say faith, I mean the bone-deep knowing that you are held.

That there is a current underneath this Life moving with intention even when you cannot see where it’s going.

That your suffering is not random & your becoming is not accidental.

Faith means that in some real & sacred way, you are in relationship with something larger than your own fear.

Faith is not the absence of fear. Faith is the unseen force lets you move anyway.

It’s the entrepreneur who feels the terror of risking everything & builds it anyway.

The person sitting in a health crisis who doesn’t know what comes next & chooses to stay present & find gratitude anyway.

The one who has been broken open by grief & chooses, again, to love.

Courage is not fearlessness. Courage is Faith saying let’s go while fear is still talking.

Here’s what I know about the interplay between these two forces, from my own life, from my own body, from my own becoming:

Fear will always tell you the story of what could go wrong.

It is a master storyteller & it is very convincing.

AND sure, some of what it says is totally worth listening to. Some of it is genuine wisdom.

The work is learning to discern the difference between the fear that is protecting you & the fear that is just keeping you small.

Faith helps you make that distinction.

Because faith is rooted in something that fear doesn’t have access to, your soul’s deeper knowing.

The part of you that understands, even when the mind is spinning, that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

That this moment, even this hard one, is part of a larger & more beautiful unfolding.

So how do we cultivate this? How do we practice choosing faith when fear is damn loud?

We start by stopping the war inside of us.

We stop trying to eradicate fear & we just get curious about it instead.

We ask it, what it’s trying to protect??

We thank it, genuinely, for caring.

And then when the fear has been seen, heard, & thanked.. then we let the soul speak.

How do we do that? Through somatic attunement.

We come back to breath. To body, & gentle movements. To sound, letting out a sign or a scream haha! Anything to let yourself come back to your center.

We come back to the practices that remind us we are more than our fears & anxiety, more than our worst-case scenarios, more than the noise.

We find our people.

The ones who know how to hold space for both your fear & your faith without needing you to perform certainty you don’t yet feel.

We take the small step. Not the whole journey.

Just the next step that feels true, then the next & then the next.

Each step taken in faith, even a trembling one, rewires something. It teaches the nervous system that moving through fear does not destroy you.

It builds a new kind of trust.

In yourself.

In life.

In the sacred intelligence that is always, always working on your behalf.

Fear & faith are not opposites. They are traveling companions on the road of a Life fully lived. The invitation is not to choose one over the other, but to let faith be the one holding the map.

That’s where the real freedom lives.

Within Love, Ash

Cultivating faith over fear requires intentional practice and a willingness to confront one’s vulnerabilities. Here are some strategies to help develop this mindset:

1. Mindfulness & Somatic attunement: If you are feeling the fear stories try to take over, get yourself into a space where you can take 2 minutes to yourself. Then take time to take a few deep belly breathes. You can do some box breathing, breathing in for a count of 4, hold for 4, release for 6, hold for 4. Do that 2-4 times, then bend forward letting your head & hands hang towards the floor with your knees slightly bent, sway gently side to side as you let your fears know that you are safe. As you slowly stand back up, see if you can thank your fears trying to keep you safe. Practicing this mindfulness to stay present and grounded, can help prevent fear from spiraling out of control.

2. Accept your Feelings: Use acceptance to reinforce your faith and counteract fear. Remind yourself of past experiences where faith helped you overcome challenges. Remind yourself that everyone feels fear sometimes, accept it as a friend that wants to teach you what you care about & what is in your way.

3. Community and Support: Surround yourself with a supportive community that shares your values & beliefs. SERIOUS GAME CHANGER!! Faith is often strengthened in the company of others who encourage & uplift you.

4. Spiritual or Personal Practices: Engage in spiritual or personal practices that nurture your faith, such as prayer, meditation, or journaling. These practices help you stay connected to your source of strength, your soul!

5. Taking Small Steps: Start by taking small steps toward your goals, even in the presence of fear. Each step forward, no matter how small, reinforces your faith & builds momentum. Just one step a day adds up over a whole year!

6. Movement, Breathe, Sound I may be a broken record with this one, but I don’t care!! God gave you the most amazing regulation tools we just have completely forgotten how amazing they are to use. A walk, gentle bouncing, dancing, singing, humming, sighing… the BEST medicine at your disposal 24/7!

Thank you for supporting my creative expression & joining me in connecting to the sacredness of Life. I am so grateful for each person who hearts, comments, or subscribes to this space.

If you feel called to go deeper, become a paid subscriber to receive access to my monthly LIVE Zoom calls, where we gather + work towards Reclaiming Within together.

As a subscriber, you’ll also be the first to know when the next Building Inner Kingdoms class opens.

Many blessings to you.

Within Love,
Ash

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And… that you begin to see this time of chaos not just as overwhelming, but as an opening. To feel, to understand, & to consciously shift what has been passed down through generations.

In this episode I’m sitting with something I think about often…. how many of us are moving through this world running nervous system patterns that were passed down for literal generations. Patterns built for survival. And what it looks like to finally tend to what was never tended to before.

This one is for anyone who has ever wondered why they feel the way they feel — and is ready to understand that so much of what they’re carrying didn’t begin with them.

In this episode we explore:

• Why survival is a full-body orientation — not just about food, water & shelter

• How our nervous systems adapt & what gets passed down through generations

• A profound moment from a class with Rachelle Seliga of Innate Traditions & what 300 people discovered about how far back intact communities go in their lineages

• Why so many of us never received the inner maps we needed

• What it means to tend to your inner child & your lineage

• The practice of holding multiple truths, yes, that hurt me. And… they didn’t have the capacity.

• Why this work is not about blame, it is about tending

• What it looks like to become an ecosystem within yourself

• A simple practice to bless your ancestors & honor yourself

A practice to try:

On a walk or at the start of your day bless your ancestors. Thank them. Give gratitude for everything they endured, carried & survived. And honor yourself for being the one who is willing to feel it, see it, & transform it.

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And… that you begin to see this time of chaos not just as overwhelming, but as an opening: to feel, to understand, & to consciously shift what has been passed down through generations.

Your ancestors… your parents, your grandparents, your great-grandparents, they operated inside of a completely different world.

Do you ever stop to think about how different of a world they grew up in?

I do. I think about how many of us are operating in this current world running nervous system patterns that have been passed down for literal generations.

I think about how many of us are running on auto-pilot having normalized the way we operate wondering why we feel stressed, burnt out, overstimulated, overwhelmed, checked out, unappreciated, unseen, numb & physically unwell.

Well most of the nervous system patterns we have inherited is from a world was built on one thing:

Survival.

Survival is not just about food, water, & shelter. Survival is a full-body orientation.

It is the nervous system organizing around the question:
“Am I safe?”
“Do I belong?”
“Will I make it?”

And when the answer to those questions feels uncertain… the system adapts.

Our nervous system is so intelligent & will find ways to cope & adapt by tightening suppressing, performing, & coping.

It does whatever it needs to do to stay connected… & to stay alive.

Most of our ancestors were not living in a world
that invited them to slow down & ask why.

They were living in a world that required them to keep going. To work, provide, endure, & push through.

There wasn’t space to sit with their feelings.

There wasn’t language for their inner world.

There wasn’t safety to unravel what hurt.

Because belonging is the priority.

And belonging meant staying connected to the system… even if it meant disconnecting from yourself.

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Ok quick side tangent… I want to share a truly profound moment I had that I think will really shine light on what I’m preaching about today… something that has really stayed with me.

I was in a class hosted by Rachelle Seliga, the founder of Innate Traditions. (highly recommend her work)

And she invited all of us to close our eyes & ask our Higher Self:

How far back in my lineage do I have to go to find intact communities?

• Communities that remembered how to honor the human experience.

• Communities that knew how to witness and hold space for the integration of difficult experiences.

• Communities that lived in right relationship with the laws of nature.

There were over 300 people in that class.

It was wild… as everyone started sharing what came through for them. Almost every single answer was somewhere between 7 and 14 generations back.

Just feel that.

Seven to fourteen generations since humans lived in a way where the full human experience was…

held.

witnessed.

integrated.

This means many of us have a long line of unprocessed, unfelt, unacknowledged experiences lodged within the nervous system patterning we inherited.

Let me see if I can make this more practical…

Maybe you come from a family where nothing that related to the internal world was ever talked about.

Where emotions were unaddressed, quiet… or just dismissed. Where you look back and think, “Do I even know who my parents really are?!”

Because no one was asking questions. No one was turning inward. No one was sharing their internal world.

So how are you to enter into a relationship in your life & actually feel herd, felt, cared for, understood?! YOU NEVER GOT THESE INNER MAPS!

Or maybe you come from a lineage where there was alcohol… or substances.

These lineages turn to something to try to fill themselves as a way of coping with sensitivity, overwhelm, with uncomfortable feelings that no one knew how to feel.

And yes… all addiction has logic.

People are the way they are for really good reasons.

However, coming from this pattern is going to leave you with a nervous system that has no idea how to cope with uncomfortable emotions, no idea how to have boundaries, possibly no idea who’s feelings are who’s!

YOU YOU NEVER GOT THESE INNER MAPS!

No matter what your family system looks like… most people in previous generations did not have the space to question their experience.

They were oriented toward survival & belonging. And now… we are living in a time that is, honestly, SoOoOo wild. There is so much upheaval being stirred up.

But I would argue that there is also something else here.

There are more resources than ever before & more conveniences, because of that… we have something our ancestors didn’t have.

The capacity to ask questions.

Why do I feel this way?
Where did this pattern come from?
What is actually mine… and what isn’t?

We have the ability to get curious about our inner world.

To slow down.
To feel.
To listen.

And this is where the work begins.

One of my favorite skills I like to teach is tending to your lineage, which obviously starts with you, but I like to start with teaching my clients & students is how to tend to their inner children.

To allow the hurt to be there. To let the younger parts of themselves
finally be seen, felt, and heard.

Not rushed.
Not dismissed.
Not explained away.

Just… tended to.

Once we have tended to our own inner child we get to walk ourselves back in our lineage where we learn to hold compassion for the adults who raised us & their inner children.

We take time to tend to the people who were doing the best they could inside of their own survival strategies.

People who often didn’t know how to show up for themselves… let alone for us.

This is the work of holding multiple truths.

Yes, that hurt me. And… they didn’t have the capacity.

Yes, I needed more. And… they were surviving.

Both get to exist.

Neither cancels the other out.

This is the work of Reclaiming Within.

It weaves healing through generations.

It allows us to give voice to the younger parts of ourselves… while also giving context to the generations that came before us.

In the work I do with people… we tend to what happened in their experience. But if there is capacity… we also tend to their caregiver too.

We let their story be seen. We let their nervous system have space too, because we are all connected in a web of Life together.

And sometimes… we go even further back.

I have gone five generations back in sessions before.

Because what we are holding did not start with us.

And something I see often is people feeling hesitant to do this work because they say,

“I had a good childhood.”
“I have nothing to complain about.”

And what I tend to see in that moment is someone who only wants to hold one truth.

Someone who doesn’t yet want to open to the full spectrum of their humanity.

Because the truth is every single one of us has had moments in our lives where we did not have full agency.

Where we were not fully seen, heard, & respected.

That is part of the human experience.

This work is not about blaming anyone.

It is not about making your parents wrong. It is not about finding fault.

It is about tending.

Tending to what was real for you.
Tending to what was real for them.
Tending to the space in between.

True ecosystems allow for all voices to matter.

And this work is about becoming an ecosystem within yourself.

Where your inner child has a voice.
Where your adult self has awareness.
Where your ancestors are acknowledged.
And where compassion can move in all directions.

We are living in a time where so much is being shaken loose.

And yes… it is uncomfortable.

But it is also an opening.

An opening to feel.
An opening to forgive.
An opening to reorient.

To feel the pain of what you’ve lived through.

And also… to offer forgiveness to the patterning that was passed down. Not because it was okay. But because it was coming from a hurt human. Your ancestors did the best they could with what they had.

And now… it’s our turn.

If you are feeling called to the work of Building Inner Kingdoms & you’re not sure if you want to do it for yourself… do it for your lineage.

Do it for your parents nieces, nephews, your children.

For the generations that came before you & the ones that will come after you.

This work changes the fabric of entire families.

If you’re ready to step out of survival & into awareness…to stop outsourcing your authority & come back into relationship with yourself I’m here to pass it along. This work is the greatest game of pass it on I have ever played.

Here is a quick practice you can do on a walk or at the start of your day…

Bless your ancestors.

Thank them, give gratitude. For everything they endured, that they carried & for all that they survived.

And honor yourself… for being the one who is willing to feel it, see it, & to transform it.

Thank you for supporting my creative expression & joining me in connecting to the sacredness of Life. I am so grateful for each person who hearts, comments, or subscribes to this space.

If you feel called to go deeper, become a paid subscriber to receive access to my monthly LIVE Zoom calls, where we gather + work towards Reclaiming Within together.

As a subscriber, you’ll also be the first to know when the next Building Inner Kingdoms class opens.

Many blessings to you.

Within Love,
Ash

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Consciousness is one of those concepts that, once you begin to grasp its depth & implications, shifts everything about how you see the world & your place within it.

In this episode I’m sitting with what consciousness actually is, what it does to the structures & stories we’ve accepted as just the way things are, & why the inner awakening of enough individuals has the power to shift the entire collective field.

This one is for anyone who has been living on autopilot & is ready to remember who they actually are underneath everything that’s been layered on top.

In this episode we explore:

• What consciousness actually is at its core — & why it’s revolutionary

• Why most of us live on autopilot & why that is not a character flaw

• Why you are not your thoughts — you are the awareness behind them

• How consciousness invites us to question the narratives, roles, & identities we’ve inherited

• Why your inner work doesn’t just change your life — it changes the field around you

• The reweaving process & what it looks like to bring curiosity & compassionate attunement to our conditioning

• Why the real revolutionary potential lives in inner awakening, not external systems

• Why the peace & clarity you’re looking for has never been out there

A line to sit with after listening:

The moment you can notice it, you are no longer inside it. You are at the beginning of freedom.

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My prayer is that you’ll walk away feeling empowered to step out of autopilot, live with greater intention, & connect to your True Self, while also understanding the collective impact of conscious living.

Consciousness is one of those concepts that, once you begin to grasp its depth & implications, shifts everything about how you see the world & your place within it.

At its core, consciousness is the awareness of existence, the essence of being present in your own experience.

It’s not just the fact that you are alive, but that you know you are alive, that you can reflect on your thoughts, emotions, & surroundings.

This simple yet profound understanding of consciousness is revolutionary because it touches on the most fundamental aspects of human life: who we are, why we are here, & how we interact with the world around us.

Most of us spend a significant portion of our lives on autopilot.

Not because we’re lazy or unaware or spiritually undeveloped. But because that’s what happens when we absorb the patterns of our upbringing, our culture, our pain, our conditioning, without ever being invited to question them.

We inherit ways of thinking, reacting, relating & we live inside them like they’re just the walls of the world. We assume they are fixed. We assume they are us.

But here’s what consciousness teaches & what I believe with everything I got:

You are not your thoughts. You are the awareness behind them.

You are not your past. You are not your wounds. You are not the story that fear has been telling about you since you were small….

You are the one who can notice all of that & the moment you can notice it, you are no longer inside it.

You are at the beginning of freedom.

That is not a small thing. That is everything.

One of the most quietly radical gifts of deepening consciousness is what it does to the structures we’ve accepted as just the way things are.

I am talking about… our roles. Our identities. The systems that we move through.

The narratives we’ve been handed about who we are & what we’re capable of & what this life is actually for.

Consciousness invites us to question all of it!

Not from a place of cynicism or destruction, but from a place of genuine & courageous curiosity.

It allows us to ask: is this true? Is this mine? Does this serve Life?

When we start asking those questions honestly, the false narratives begin to loosen their damn grip!

The ones that have kept us small, that have kept us performing & shrinking & surviving instead of actually LIVING.

This is a reweaving process once we see the shape of how something was woven together & we are able to bring curiosity & compassionate attunement to that expereince… it begins to become undone & more spaciousness opens underneath.

Consciousness is not just personal. It is relational. It is collective. It ripples.

When you deepen your own awareness, when you do the actual work of coming home to yourself, you don’t just change your own life.

You change the field around you.

Your relationships shift. (sometimes this one hurts at first, but honestly stay with it, its worth it in the end…)

The way you move through a room shifts.

The way you respond to conflict, to grief, to beauty, to other people’s pain, all of it begins to move from a different place.

Because consciousness helps us feel what was always true but is so easy to forget: we are not truly that separate from each other. And we are just meeting the world as we are not at the world actually is, meaning we can learn to become badass weavers & reweave whatever story our soul is calling us towards!

We are not separate from this Earth. Our inner world & the outer world are in constant conversation. As within, so without. Always.

This is where I believe the real revolutionary potential lives.

I am gonna be honest, it’s not in any political movement or system or ideology alone, but in the inner awakening of enough individuals that the collective field simply cannot stay the same.

When enough of us stop living in reaction & start living in creation, something real shifts. Something new becomes possible. A new consciousness (or maybe an old conciousness *wink*) begins to be born on this Earth.

That is not a metaphor to me. That is what I see happening. That is what I feel we are all, in our own ways, a part of.

And here is the piece that moves me the most:

You don’t have to go somewhere to find this.

You don’t have to earn it or achieve it or wait until you’ve done enough healing to deserve it.

Consciousness is not a destination.

It is not a reward for the most spiritually advanced among us. It is who you already are underneath everything that’s been layered on top.

The peace you’re looking for. The clarity. The sense of coming home to yourself. It isn’t out there. It has never been out there. It lives inside the awareness that is reading these words right now, breathing right now, present in this exact moment right now.

The revolution starts here. Inside. And then it ripples out to touch everything.

All we have to do is keep returning. Keep noticing. Keep choosing presence over autopilot, curiosity over certainty, openness over the illusion of having it all figured out.

That simple, radical, ongoing act of returning to ourselves, that is how we change the world.

Remember you are Sacred.

Thank you for supporting my creative expression & joining me in connecting to the sacredness of Life. I am so grateful for each person who hearts, comments, or subscribes to this space.

If you feel called to go deeper, become a paid subscriber to receive access to my monthly LIVE Zoom calls, where we gather + work towards Reclaiming Within together.

As a subscriber, you’ll also be the first to know when the next Building Inner Kingdoms class opens.

Many blessings to you.

Within Love,
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My prayer for you is that this episode helps you recognize this time as a turning point, in both personal & collective consciousness, so you can meet it with greater trust, clarity, & intention.

We are living through one of the densest periods of human history. So much has shifted, so quickly, that it can feel as though the ground keeps moving beneath our feet. But this is not random chaos.

This is the atmosphere of a renaissance.

In this episode, I’m sitting with what this moment in history is actually asking of us, why so much is falling apart, what the rare Saturn-Neptune-Aries alignment means for collective consciousness, and why the hunger so many of us are feeling for real connection is not a coincidence. It is a sign of something new being born.

This episode is for anyone who has been feeling the weight of this time & is looking for a reframe, one that moves from fear into trust, from reaction into co-creation.

In this episode we explore:

• Why this moment in history is not random chaos — it is the atmosphere of a renaissance

• What the last renaissance can teach us about what we’re living through now

• The rare Saturn-Neptune-Aries alignment & why it has always coincided with major turning points in human consciousness

• Why things are falling apart — and why that is an invitation, not a punishment

• The hunger for real connection rising beneath the surface of our culture

• How to become a story maker & co-creator of what comes next

• Why this is a pinnacle year — one we will look back on as a turning point

A question to sit with after listening:

How do we participate in the coming together, instead of only reacting to the collapse?

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We are living through one of the densest periods of human history.

So much has shifted, so quickly, that it can feel as though the ground keeps moving beneath our feet. But this is not random chaos. This is the atmosphere of a renaissance.

A renaissance always signals a turning point in the collective story. It is the moment when an old era completes itself and a new era begins to take shape.

Today, we are stepping into one of those rare thresholds.

The more comfortable you can can become with uncertainty & the more connected you can become with being the author of the story of your life the more you will be able to contribute to these rapidly changing times.

What a Renaissance Really Is…

During the last renaissance, old systems fell apart. Old ways of thinking could no longer hold the weight of what humanity was becoming. Life as it had always been simply stopped working.

From that falling away came a surge of creativity, innovation, spiritual awakening, and new forms of connection. People rediscovered ancient wisdom. They remembered that human creativity is a sacred force. Entire societies reorganized around a fresher understanding of what it meant to be alive.

We are in a similar moment now.

The Saturn Neptune Signature of Rebirth

Saturn is meeting Neptune in Aries, a rare planetary event that has always coincided with major turning points in human consciousness.

Saturn represents form and structure.
Neptune represents imagination & spiritual truth.
Aries represents birth.

When these three energies weave together, the world does not stay the same. Outdated structures dissolve. Truth pushes up through illusions. A new creative cycle ignites.

This is the essence of a renaissance.
Dissolution and creation happening at the same time.

Why So Much Is Falling Apart

A renaissance is not only a time of creation. It is also a time of clearing.

Things fall apart because they can no longer carry the frequency of what is coming next. Systems stop working. Relationships shift. Old identities become too small. What once felt stable begins to loosen.

This is not punishment.
This is not failure.
This is not something going wrong.

It is an invitation.

Whatever is leaving our lives now is making space for what has the potential to grow. What is falling away culturally and personally is clearing the way for deeper alignment. This year especially is a pinnacle moment, a year we will look back on as a turning point.

False Connection & the Hunger for the Real

Many of us have lived in a world filled with false connection. The kind that feels good for a moment but does not nourish. The kind that is like eating sugar. Sweet for an instant, but never satisfying.

Our culture has been built on quick hits of connection. Not depth. Not presence. Not truth.

As these old forms fall away, something powerful is emerging. A desire for real connection. Real community. Real coherence. A new renaissance of relational living is rising, one that values genuine presence over performance.

We are remembering what it feels like to build something real with one another.

Becoming the Story makers of What Comes Next

One of the greatest things we can do right now is become story makers.

Dreamers. Builders of what comes next.

We are being invited to create from deep alignment. To clear our own path so we can participate in the creation of a world that is more connected and more alive. A world where meaning is not outsourced. A world where community is practiced, not just spoken about.

In times like these, it is easy to focus on what is falling apart. But the falling apart is only half the story. Something new is rising at the exact same time.

The question becomes:

How do we participate in the coming together, instead of only reacting to the collapse?

There is always a choice.
We can get swept into fear.
Or we can become co-creators with the universe.

A Pinnacle Year of Realignment

This is a turning point year. The threads of the future are being woven right now. What leaves our lives in this period is not meant to harm us. I
believe it is meant to free us. It is meant to return us to our own clarity.

We are being asked to realign.
To simplify.
To reconnect.
To imagine again.
To participate in the creation of the world to come.

The renaissance is already here. We are not simply witnessing it. We are participating in it.

The more we align with what is true within us, the more we help shape what is possible for all of us.

Thank you for supporting my creative expression & joining me in connecting to the sacredness of Life. I am so grateful for each person who hearts, comments, or subscribes to this space.

If you feel called to go deeper, become a paid subscriber to receive access to my monthly LIVE Zoom calls, where we gather + work towards Reclaiming Within together.

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Many blessings to you.

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Ego, you are NOT the enemy.

I’ve been in enough rooms, read enough books, & sat with enough people to know that the demonizing of the ego is its own kind of trap.

I came back to this understanding through a book that genuinely rocked my world in the best ways: Return of the Bird Tribes by Ken Carey. I didn’t want to put it down.

It touched something ancestral in me, something that already knew what the pages were saying but needed the reminder.

The reminder that our mission here, on this Earth, in these bodies, is to be in service to our soul. Aligned with creation. In harmony with our true nature.

That’s it. That’s the whole thread.

What struck me most was what it clarified about the ego’s actual role. Because here’s the thing that I don’t hear talked about enough:

The ego is not the enemy. It is a part of our wholeness. It could be seen even as a tool, & like any tool, the question is who is wielding it & what it’s being used for?

Most of us are somewhere on a LARGE spectrum with this.

On one end, there are people being run by the ego without even knowing it.

Living in reactivity.

Grasping for control, for validation, for rightness.

Moving through life on autopilot, defending, deflecting, & wondering why nothing feels like enough.

That’s not a character flaw…that’s what happens when the ego has been left in the driver’s seat without any guidance from the soul.

On the other end, & this one lives deep inside a lot of spiritual spaces, is the tendency to make the ego the villain.

To talk about transcending it, eradicating it, rising above it. AND I understand the impulse. I really do.

But rejecting the ego is just another form of fragmentation. You cannot heal by amputating. You can only heal by integrating.

Neither extreme serves us. Neither one leads us home.

So what I’ve been practicing, what has become something I return to again & again, is one of the oldest & most widely used technology throughout all of history.

The technology of prayer.

This prayer has become my consistent ally. It is a simple reorientation I offer myself whenever I feel fear creeping in, whenever I notice my ego pulling me somewhere that doesn’t feel aligned.

I pause. I breathe. & I say:

Ego, I am grateful for your service. & I need you to remember that you are here to serve my soul. You are here to be in service to the Creator. Not to guide me by fear, but to follow the wisdom of my spirit.

That’s it. No battle. No banishment. Just a gentle, honest redirect.

Because the ego is just trying to protect us.

It really is. It’s just working from an older map, one drawn by fear & survival rather than soul & purpose.

When I acknowledge it, thank it, & remind it of its rightful place, something settles. The grip loosens & almost like magic I come back to center.

Speaking of fear, have you noticed that there is so much fear moving through the collective right now?

I feel it. You probably feel it too. And fear is exactly the kind of emotional weather that sends the ego into overdrive, scrambling for control, for certainty, for solid ground.

There was a study done recently where some scientists took one group of people sky diving & the other group they had run on a treadmill. The group that was skydiving gave off a potent pungent sweat. The scientists that studied it said that the sweat signaled fear & created a shift in the entire groups heart-rates & cortisol levels, whereas the people on the treadmill never gave off that same signal.

My point, we are effected by each others fear signals. We collectively affect one another. And if we are effected by each others signals of fear then we too can be effected by each others signals of calm, peace, trust, soul connection.

This prayer is how I find my way back.

Back to the knowing that my soul, aligned with creation, is what leads. Not the fear. Not the grasping. Not the noise.

We are not here to accumulate. We are not here to dominate or be right. That is what happens when we over-identify with our ego.

We are here to live in service to something much larger & much more beautiful than the ego’s small ambitions.

The ego, guided by the soul, becomes an ally. A collaborator. A vehicle for presence in this physical world rather than a wall between us & it.

That’s where the real power lives. Not in silencing the ego, but in leading it with love & with wisdom. That’s where wholeness lives.

I believe that is exactly what this Earth is asking of us right now.

Within Love,

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My prayer for you is that you learn to stop fighting the parts of yourself you were taught to distrust. That you find your way — slowly & tenderly — back to wholeness. Not the wholeness that looks polished & certain from the outside, but the real kind. The kind that has room for all of you.

In this episode, I’m talking about something I don’t hear discussed enough in healing & spiritual spaces… the demonizing of the ego, and why I think that’s its own kind of trap.

We talk about the large spectrum most of us are living on, the prayer that has become one of my most consistent allies, and why the ego guided by the soul doesn’t need to be silenced, it needs to be led. With love. With wisdom.

This episode is for anyone who has ever been told to transcend the ego, eradicate it, or rise above it & felt like something about that didn’t quite sit right.

In this episode we explore:

• Why demonizing the ego is its own form of fragmentation

• The book that stopped me in my tracks & brought me back to this understanding: Return of the Bird Tribes by Ken Carey

• The two extremes of the ego spectrum — and why neither one leads us home

• The simple prayer I return to whenever fear creeps in or my ego pulls me somewhere that doesn’t feel aligned

• How fear moves through the collective & why our signals of calm & soul connection matter just as much

• What it looks like when the ego becomes an ally rather than an obstacle

The prayer I share in this episode:

Ego, I am grateful for your service. AND I need you to remember that you are here to serve my soul. You are here to be in service to the Creator. Not to guide me by fear, but to follow the wisdom of my spirit.

A question to sit with after listening:

Where in your life has the ego been left in the driver’s seat — and what might it look like to gently redirect it back to its rightful place?

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My prayer for you is that you never stop being a student of your own becoming. That you stay soft enough to be shaped by Life, & brave enough to let what you thought you knew be undone, again & again & again.

In this episode, I’m sitting with something that keeps coming back to me & relates so much to the karmic lessons we are heading into with Uranus in Gemini, something simpler & harder than we might expect…

If you feel the calling to be part of the awakening shift happening on this Earth right now, I think the answer lives here:

Stay humble. Stay curious.

We talk about what happens the moment we feel like we’ve got something figured out… spiritually, emotionally, somatically & why that’s actually the moment we begin to close. We explore the beautiful & sometimes distorted impulse to be in service, what it means to birth something genuinely new, & how the people who trigger us most are often carrying the most honest medicine for us.

In this episode we explore:

• Why the moment you feel like you’ve “arrived” is actually the moment you begin to close

• The subtle distortion that can live inside the impulse to serve

• Why openness, not expertise, is the most healing thing we can offer right now

• How curiosity & humility are the advanced work, not the beginner work

• The teachers we don’t recognize & why the ones who trigger us most are often our greatest teachers to find our unconscious maps

• What staying open & staying curious actually looks like in practice

A question to sit with after listening:

How do we stay open to all the teachers in our lives, especially the ones who don’t arrive looking like teachers?

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If you want to be a part of the positive shift happening on this Earth right now, if that calling is alive in you, if you feel it stirring…

I think the answer is simpler & harder than we might think.

Stay humble. Stay curious.

That’s it. That’s the whole thing.

Here’s what I’ve noticed, in myself, in the spaces I’ve moved through, in the people I’ve watched walk this path of healing & service:

The moment you feel like you’ve got something figured out, spiritually, emotionally, somatically, is the moment you begin to close.

Not dramatically. But there’s a subtle shutting that happens. A narrowing & in that narrowing, you lose access to the very thing that makes transformation possible: an open state.

I’ve been there.

I’ve caught myself in it. That loop that sounds something like, let me just share what I know. Let me just offer what I have.

Listen, the impulse itself is so beautiful. It comes from real love. Real care. I do believe we should listen to the callings that stir inside us about where & how to be in service. I really, really do.

But there’s a distortion that can live inside that impulse if we’re not careful.

It’s subtle enough that you might not even see it at first.

It looks like service.

It sounds like wisdom.

Underneath it, quietly, is a kind of closure.

A I have arrived energy wearing the costume of offering.

We lose ourselves in it. We lose the thread.

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The most healing thing any of us can offer this Earth, right now, in this particular moment in the evolution of consciousness, is your openness.

This is the energetic invitation of the great awakener of Gemini in Uranus. From an symbolic linguistic perspective the way to stay connected to your soul & the soul of the world right now is walking the path of humility & curiosity.

Not in clinging to your expertise. Not your answers. Not your perfectly crafted framework for how healing works.

Your openness.

Because we are in a time that is asking us to birth something genuinely new. A new way of relating. A new consciousness & you cannot birth something new from a closed hand.

This is not to say that we all don’t have absolutly beautiful offerings to give to humanity. It is just to say, don’t get lost in what you are offering that you forget to stay open to the magic, open to learning from EVERY SINGLE PERSON YOU INTERACT WITH!!! Literally, every human you meet & every interaction you have is your greatest teacher.

Curiosity keeps the hand open. Humility keeps the ego from gripping.

These aren’t soft virtues. They’re not beginner qualities you graduate from once you’ve done enough inner work. They are the advanced work. They are the ongoing practice of someone who actually understands how deep this river runs.

So if you’re feeling the pull to help, to heal, to be in service, I’m not here to quiet that. Follow it.

AND carry humility with you like a lantern. Let curiosity walk beside you like a companion who keeps asking the questions you thought you’d already answered.

That posture, that open, humble, ever-curious posture, is how we actually heal together. It’s how we connect. It’s how we grow something worth growing on this Earth.

I dream in circles. & I know, with everything I am, that what we are birthing together & reweaving together is sacred & beautiful. I hold that knowing like a flame.

I return to it often.

I also know this… There is no reweaving without first feeling the unraveling. That is not a flaw in the design. That is the design.

So the question I keep sitting with, the one I want to leave with you today, is this:

How do we stay open to all the teachers in our lives?

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Because they don’t always arrive looking like teachers. Sometimes they arrive looking like conflict. Like rupture. Like the conversation that left you breathless in all the wrong ways.

Sometimes they arrive in the body of the person who triggers you the most.

You know the ones. The people who send your somatic system soaring, heart pounding, nervous system lit up like a live wire.

The ones you want to dismiss, to distance from, to be done with.

Those people. Those relationships. Those moments.

They are so often the ones carrying the most honest medicine for us.

Not because suffering is the point, but because our edges, the places where we contract & react & want to run, are maps.

They show us exactly where we are still gripping. Exactly where the next layer of opening lives.

Staying humble enough to receive that. Staying curious enough to ask what is this here to teach me instead of how do I make this stop. That is the practice. That is the path.

This is what staying open & staying curious is all about. NOT having all the answers. NOT knowing how to move forward. NOT knowing what to do next or how to interact with someone who really grinds your gears.

Stay open. Stay curious.

That is how we become the healing this Earth is asking for.

Thank you for supporting my creative expression & joining me in connecting to the sacredness of Life. I am so grateful for each person who hearts, comments, or subscribes to this space.

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Recently I shared that I have been feeling the call to come back into the conversation with astrology in my life.

The response I got from so many of you was so beautiful. So many of you shared your excitement about the possibility of doing readings with me again, & I just want to say thank you. Truly. I feel so grateful for each & every one of you who reached out, responded, or simply let me know that this part of my work still matters to you.

It does not feel small to me.

And because of that, I wanted to talk more honestly today about my relationship with astrology. What I believe it is. Why I walked away from it. And why I want to come back into relationship with it now from a very different place inside of myself.

I found astrology when I was 13 years old.

At the time, my world was going through a huge shakeup. My parents were moving through a divorce, & astrology gave me language for what I was experiencing. It gave me insight into who I am, what I might be here for, & some kind of orientation inside of so much upheaval. It helped me make sense of things that felt too big for me at that age.

I fell so in love with it.

From that point on, I studied constantly. I read every book I could get my hands on. I did my family’s charts, my friends’ charts, anybody who would let me look. I loved learning the archetypes. I loved seeing how the same symbols could express so differently in different people.

One of the things that stayed with me for years was my mother & her twin sister.

That has honestly been one of the most confounding things for me since I was young, because they are so different, yet they share nearly the same chart. That question stayed alive in me for decades. It kept teaching me that astrology was never going to be as simple as people wanted it to be.

Then when I was around 21, a beautiful friend of mine, Sam, told me I should start giving readings.

I remember being like, absolutely not.

At that point astrology was still something sacred to me. It was something I loved. It was personal. It was private. It was my passion. I had studied it for years, but I did not yet think of it as something I would offer professionally.

But eventually I gave it a try.

My first readings were donation based. Then I charged a dollar a minute. Then as demand increased, my prices grew from there. By the time I was in my late twenties, I was giving readings full time. I was doing 5 to 15 readings a week, sometimes 20. I had an office in Denver, Colorado, & at that time I was doing most of my readings in person.

Then COVID hit, & I shifted into doing readings virtually.

Then life took a very big turn.

I went much deeper into consciousness work, community building, & understanding how to help people expand their awareness through concepts, tools, practices, & lived experience. My life moved in a different direction. I started traveling, building communities, holding space for people as they explored their own depths, their own consciousness, their own patterns, their own healing.

And in a lot of ways, astrology moved into the background.

But that is not the whole truth.

The deeper truth is that over the last few years, astrology has actually been activating for me.

I have noticed really big triggers arise in me around astrology, especially around meme culture, pop culture astrology, & the way it gets used online. It started to feel to me like people were using astrology as a victimization tool. Like they were taking these rich, symbolic, archetypal structures & using them as weapons against themselves & each other.

“Oh, that’s why you’re like that. You’re a Scorpio.”
“Oh, that’s just my Saturn.”
“Oh, that’s because I’m this sign.”

It felt so flattening. Dismissing. Confining.

It felt like a sterilization of the depth & breathe of our vast unique expressions of ourself & these ancient living archetypes that have been storytelling with humanity since the beginning of time.

And honestly, I felt so disheartened that I shut down working with people in this way.

I pulled all the way back.

But recently something has shifted in me.

I have integrated a lot my own blocks & reconnected with my roots in astrology.

I now have words for what I was wrestling with back in 2020 when I shut it all down & when I stepped away from this way of weaving in the world.

I know with deep conviction what astrology actually is…

Astrology is an archetypal language.

It is a symbolic language.

At its core, that is what it is.

And like any symbolic language, it will meet you at the level of consciousness you are bringing to it.

If you are in a place where you feel stuck, victimized, collapsed, or committed to a black & white way of seeing the world, then astrology will be interpreted through that lens.

Like any ancient study when used in a reductive manner, it can become a trap to reinforce the reality you are already living inside of.

However, if you are willing to be curious, to question, to reflect, to hold paradox, to take responsibility for your own life, then this archetypal language will becomes something else entirely.

It will become a mirror.
A map.
A symbolic conversation.
A way of understanding the deeper patterns at work inside of your own psyche, your family structure, your relationships, & your own path in this Life.

What I have come to respect even more deeply is that this ancient language will work with you at any level of consciousness you bring to it.

In my opinion, this does not make all interpretations equal.

But it does mean the symbols themselves are as alive as the natural world is alive & the consciousness we bring to them matters.

Another huge thing I have found words for is that astrology is absolutely not a belief system. Many of us come at it from that framework, because of the belief structures we were raised within.

I actually think something gets lost when people treat it as something you either believe in or do not believe in.

That framing sterilizes it.

It flattens the mystery.

I would so much rather someone sit with me in a reading & question what they are hearing. I would rather you grapple with it. Push against it. Wonder about it. Disagree with parts of it. Get curious about why something does or does not resonate.

Because that is where the real value is.

Not in passively receiving some fixed identity.
Not in using astrology to explain yourself away.
Not in handing your power over to a chart.

The real value comes in quite literally engaging the symbols.

The real value comes in seeing what they illuminate within you.

The real value comes in recognizing that there is mystery here. That we are not supposed to fully dominate or master it. We are supposed to be in relationship with it.

As above, so below is a Hermetic principle that has always mattered to me.

The principle of correspondence lives inside astrology in such a profound way. When you begin to understand archetypal symbolism, you begin to understand that these symbols are not one-dimensional. Venus is not just “love” in some simplistic way. Venus represent the archetypal expression of all things associated with the concept of love. Venus is value. Attraction. Beauty. Relationship. Magnetism. Pleasure. Harmony. Desire. The way you relate. The way you receive. The way you make meaning through connection.

The symbols are layered. Living. Deeply relational.

And that brings me back to the question that has followed me since I was 14 years old about my mother & her twin sister.

How can two people with almost the exact same chart be so different?

What I understand now, after decades of sitting with that question, is that the chart is a seed.

It is a cosmic seed.
A blueprint & a pattern of potential.

But how that seed gets lived, shaped, resisted, nourished, distorted, embodied, or cultivated is profoundly unique to each person.

We have choice.
We have agency.
We have free will.

And the more conscious we become, the more we can actually work with our blueprint rather than feel trapped by it.

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Where I live, there are oak trees everywhere.

They all carry a similar seed blueprint. And yet none of them look exactly the same. None of their branches bend in the exact same direction. None of them express in the exact same way.

That is how I experience astrology now, as a living symbolic language that can help us understand the shape of our soul, the patterns of our life, the gifts we carry, the tensions we are here to work with, & the ways we are being asked to grow.

I think part of why I needed to walk away for a while was because I had to do my own shadow work around it.

I had to sit with the parts of me that had no words for my frustration.
The part of me that felt disheartened by watching something sacred become flattened by mass culture.

And I also had to grow.

I had to live more.
I had to deepen my relationship with consciousness, with free will, with community, with shadow, with projection, with embodiment, with what it really means to help someone know themselves without reducing them.

And now I feel ready to return, with more humility & more trust in the mystery.
And more respect for the fact that astrology, when held well, can be a profound ally in helping us understand ourselves.

So yes, I am opening this conversation again.

And I am doing it differently.

If you have been someone who has been curious about your chart, curious about astrology, curious about how these archetypal patterns are showing up in your life, I would be honored to explore that with you.

To help you enter into a deeper relationship with your own symbolic language, your own inner world, & your own unfolding.

Sometimes what is calling us back is not asking us to return unchanged, but to return with more of ourselves intact.

If astrology has ever supported you, challenged you, confused you, or helped you understand yourself in a new way, I’d love to hear.

And if you have a desire to sit with me for a reading to explore this archetypal language & how it shows up specifically in your cosmic blueprint….

Here is a booking link

Also, I have partnered with Ignite your Aura to bring you monthly horoscopes blended with aura exploration. We are sending out newsletters go checkout their website here to sign up for the monthly report & get notified on all the amazing goodies we will be dropping. There are some fun new things to combine all parts of what we love about the archetypal language of astrology & the vibrant study of your aura & all things color coming your way!

As always thank you for your support & for joining me in remembering the sacredness of Life. I am grateful for your time.

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I share what I believe astrology actually is: not a belief system, not a fixed identity, & not a tool that was ever meant to box us in or flatten the depth of who we are. To me, astrology is an archetypal language. It is a symbolic language that can meet us at whatever level of consciousness we bring to it.

I also speak honestly about what turned me off from astrology for a season, especially the ways I saw it being used through meme culture & pop culture astrology as a reductive, dismissive, or victimizing framework. I share why that felt so disheartening to me, what I had to wrestle with in myself, & what has helped me come back into relationship with astrology now with more humility, reverence, trust, & respect for the mystery.

This episode is really about symbolism, consciousness, free will, archetypes, mystery, & what it means to engage something sacred without reducing it.

In this episode, I explore:

• why the tools meant to help us know ourselves more deeply were never meant to box us in

• how astrology first supported me during one of the hardest seasons of my childhood

• the journey from private study to full-time professional readings

• why I stepped away from astrology for a period of time

• why astrology is not a belief system

• astrology as an archetypal + symbolic language

• the difference between using astrology as a trap vs using it as a mirror

• why consciousness matters in how we engage archetypal tools

• the chart as a seed, blueprint, & pattern of potential

• how free will, agency, embodiment, & consciousness shape how our cosmic blueprint gets lived

Key reminder from this conversation

Astrology is not here to tell you who you are in a fixed, lifeless way.

It is here to help you enter into a deeper relationship with your own symbolic language, your own inner world, & your own unfolding.

Sometimes what is calling us back is not asking us to return unchanged, but to return with more of ourselves intact.

Ways to go deeper

If you feel called to explore this archetypal language through your own cosmic blueprint, I am opening the door to readings again.

Booking link: [insert link]

I have also partnered with Ignite Your Aura to bring you monthly horoscopes blended with aura exploration.

You can sign up for those newsletters here: [insert link]

There are some beautiful new offerings coming that weave together astrology, aura, color, & the living language of archetypes.

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Thank you for being here & for supporting my creative expression.

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The truth is, hard times will come.

There will be seasons that shake you, stretch you, humble you, & ask more of you than you feel ready for. There will be moments when old fears rise up, old patterns come knocking, & the pressure of Life feels like too much to hold all at once.

And while none of us would consciously choose those moments, they are the very places where the deepest strength gets built. Building your inner Kingdom to stay grounded in the hard times is where you come face to face with your Soul.

This is what I have been forging in a very literal way lately.

Not that building your inner Kingdom makes life painless. Not that embodiment makes you immune to grief, chaos, uncertainty, or pressure.

But that devotion to that inner Kingdom really does hold.

It gives you something to come back to when everything in you wants to spiral, collapse, disconnect, or abandon yourself.

Honestly… I have never been more grateful for all the work I have done to build my own Inner Kingdom.

This year has felt like riding a bucking bronco. Wildly intense.

The funny gift in all of it is how clear I have been getting that all the work that I have done somatically, intellectually, emotionally & spiritually REALLY Freaking WORKS!

I have never felt so confident in what I offer as a practitioner, because Lord knows, I have been tested & I am so grateful to say I am able to gracefully hold or come back into coherence even though the world around me feels like pure chaos.

I don’t even know how to make words convey to you the depth of emotional turmoil that has been blowing throughout all areas of my family’s lives.

This last week my husband & I have been especially tested. We have pulled out all of our tools & used all the skills we have spent building.

This last two weeks it would have been so easy to spiral.
To turn on each other…
To collapse…
To go back into old coping strategies without awareness.

And, in full transparency… those strategies did for sure come up.

But this is the thing, we knew what was happening. We know how to track our somatic & emotional experiences. We knew how to meet it.

We know that my husband goes either into sympathetic fight mode or into more of a dorsal collapse when he has met his capacity, so we worked together to make sure he had time to curl in on himself in the grass when the need to shut down came up for him & because we understand how his sympathetic system gets activated we both together made sure there was time everyday for him to make it to the gym to healthfully move the activation or charge in his body.

This week we both made sure we BOTH had a lot of alone time, time to decompress when we inevitably hit our own capacities.

He & I also both know that I go into functional freeze/fawn states really quickly. I take breaks at least three times a day to practice gentle somatic practices that allow me to come out of that blended state & find coherence. He called me out a lot on when I went past my capacity. He often tracks me going past my capacity way earlier than I do, because that functional freeze state feels so normal to me, I have normalized functioning inside of overwhelm really well. I am the queen of “I am fine.” Learning to not be has been a wild journey of embodiment, and I now feel so grateful that I can let myself weep when I felt the energy finally mobilize in my body.

We both have taken so many turns being present (meaning… no fixing, no making it better, no worry) just compassionate attunement for each other when really big waves of emotion moved through us.

And over & over again, we kept orienting back to the Creator. We prayed, called in support from the unseen. And asked for angels & ancestors to be with us in the hard.

This season of upheaval we have used every skill we’ve built.

We slowed our bodies down & noticed when we were activated. We used somatic practices to move the energy & bring ourselves back into coherence.

We named what we knew to be true, named the facts we did know… instead of projecting it out onto the world or onto each other.

We held compassion for ourselves, for each other & when needed… we called each other forward. Not from blame, but from love.

We also reached out to our community, asked for support & for prayer.

And I cannot even begin to explain how felt that has been.

I have never felt so capable & so grateful in so much unknown.

Spending this year using every single tool & skill that I have built over the last decade, has left me feeling so purposeful in what I am teaching & sharing with the world.

But you know what has been the most surprising to me… building your inner Kingdom doesn’t actually create a Life where nothing hard happens.

Building your inner Kingdom, devoting yourself to your emotional, somatic, belief, & spiritual intelligence is what allows you to embody yourself & stand centered inside of your Life when it does get real.

It is what allows you to stay connected to yourself when everything around you is pulling at you to disconnect.

It is what allows you & your partner to stand shoulder to shoulder…
not naive to the storms, but prepared to meet them.

This week showed me this so clearly:

To become embodied in your soul’s truth does not remove challenge.
It does however change how you meet it.

Because yes all of our old patterns have come up. But we didn’t get lost inside of them!

We knew when to soften.
We knew when to take responsibility.
We knew when to breathe & shake it out.
We knew when to pause instead of react.

And that is everything.

Because the reality is… the storms will come.

This is not pessimism.
This is nature.

We are not separate from the laws of nature.

There are seasons of hard. There will be breakdowns. And if you are growing & on your souls path I can guarantee there will be initiations.

We are living in a time of great upheaval. It is written all over in the cosmic archetypal playbook.

What I feel so deeply right now is that over the next 20 years, as Pluto in Aquarius continues to unfold, we are collectively going to be asked to grow up in a real way. Pluto points us to where the collective soul lessons are needing to be learned & integrated. We integrate those lessons though the archetypal symbolism of the opposite sign, because we live on a polarity planet, so the essence of Leo is the medicine for the next 20 years. Meaning we need to learn to come back to the heart, as technology advances we need to tend to rebuilding our villages. And to honor & becoming the individual creator you are here to be, your soul signature can only be awakened through the heart, as it is the seat of the soul.

You become an initiated adult by turning towards the soul & not collapsing in on yourself but having courage to grow when Life throws you into an initiation.

Becoming an initiated adult means learning how to become a conscious communicators in relationship. To learn what is in integrity for you as an individual. (hint* do your thoughts match your words & your actions?) To operate from the wise adult inside of you requires you to learn to hold multiple truths. And to learn the dance of being both accountable & compassionate.

This is not surface-level work.

It is skillful work, that can be cultivated.

It simply requires practice.

It means being in devotion to your soul & your dharma.

Building your inner Kingdom means you learn how to be fully present for the good days & just as devoted to your inner Kingdom when everything feels chaotic & like it’s all falling apart.

Because it will.

And when it does… you will either have a relationship with yourself to come back to… or you won’t.

This hell week a.k.a. last three months reminded me why I do the work that I do. Why I do my best to walk the walk, so that I can talk the talk & pass on EVERYTHING that I learn to ANYONE who also wants to learn how to live a life their soul feels aligned with & they feel like the Queen or King of their own inner & outer world.

Because when life asks everything of you… this is what holds you.

This is the work of Reclaiming Within & building inner Kingdoms.

If you are in a storm right now the best recommendation I can give you is to come back to the tools Life has given you first & foremost; movement, breathe, & sound.

If you are feeling all the feelings:

…come back to your breath.
…come back to your body.
…come back to what is actually true in this moment.

You do not have to have it all figured out & you don’t have to do it alone.

Embodiment is the opening path of Coherence & homecoming.

Thank you for supporting my creative expression & joining me in connecting to the sacredness of Life. I am so grateful for each person who hearts, comments, or subscribes to this space.

If you feel called to go deeper, become a paid subscriber to receive access to my monthly LIVE Zoom calls, where we gather + work towards Reclaiming Within together.

As a subscriber, you’ll also be the first to know when the next Building Inner Kingdoms class opens.

Many blessings to you.

Within Love,
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In this episode, I share about the last 10 days of being in and out of the ICU with my husband’s father while my husband and I are also in a rebuilding season of life. It was intense, layered, & confronting on every level.

And through all of it, I have never been more grateful for this work.

This is a real-time reflection on what it actually looks like to live these tools when life gets hard. Not to avoid the storm, but to stay connected to yourself within it.

We talk about staying grounded in your body, orienting back to prayer, holding compassion & accountability in relationship. And learning how to stand shoulder to shoulder instead of turning on each other when pressure rises.

Because building your inner kingdom does not remove challenge.
It changes how you meet it.

As Pluto in Aquarius unfolds, we are being asked to grow in our capacity to stay in integrity, hold complexity, and remain connected even when things feel uncertain.

If you are at ease in life right now or you are traversing a hard season, this episode is here to remind you to come back to yourself.

IN THIS EPISODE:

• Staying connected to yourself in high-stress moments

• Using somatic tools instead of old coping patterns

• Navigating pressure in relationships

• The role of prayer and community support

• Why this work matters when life gets real

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