And part of honoring the season I now find myself in is to formally pause my weekly show until my kids are back to school and we are successfully through September. Anyone who’s ever had an online business knows how much goes into every part of it. Take my weekly Substack show, it is never just one thing. It’s a permanent open tab in your brain, the thing you think about before you go to bed, often dream about, and wake up with new to-do lists and ideas to support. And that’s just the mental space, that’s not factoring the writing, brainstorming, filming, editing, reviewing, writing again, posting, posting, posting, following up, planning, et al, on repeat. It’s a lot of work! And it’s wonderful work that I LOVE, that I just don’t have enough real time for right now, in this season of my life.

My plan is to come back formally in October and until then there will be lots of written essays, for free and paid subscribers. Plus my psychic call will be scheduled for the end of September as I have a VERY clear vision of what’s meant to come through for us!

One of the core teachings from my weekend long retreat feels especially necessary if you are trying to step into the This Is Who I Am Now mindset: Intuition.

I have been teaching some version of this for a very long time, originally in my first book Go With Your Gut a decade ago, and I still believe in the core of it. Underneath so much of this work is the question: Can you hear yourself?

This Is Who I am Now means recognizing what is actually true for you now, letting go of old versions of yourself, and noticing what feels fun, joyful or alive now. Using your intuition is how you keep doing that in your everyday life. It does not mean ignoring logic, experts or other people’s advice. It means strengthening your own filter so that everything does not automatically get decided outside of you.

FIVE STEPS FOR STRENGTHENING YOUR INTUITION

1. Tune Into Your Literal Gut

The more you take care of your actual gut, aka your digestive system, the more you’ll feel clearer messages coming from within. Take care of your belly with fermented foods, probiotics, and a wide range of produce. Plus, your gut and nervous system are constantly communicating, and your body gives you information all day long. Notice the butterflies, the heaviness, the relief, the tightening, the softening, the goosebumps, the energy. Your body is always a part of the conversation.

2. Connect To Your Breath

Most of us breathe high and tight, shallow, or unconsciously hold our breath. Deep breathing gives you a literal pause and brings you back into your body, creating a little space between the noise around you and whatever you actually know. I suggest 5 low and slow deep breaths to recalibrate and bring your intuition into clearer focus.

3. Ask Questions - For Everything

I am always asking myself questions, sometimes in my head and sometimes out loud. This has been one of the most powerful ways I have learned to connect to my own intuition. Ask: What would feel most supportive? What is my next right step? What do I need to see here? What am I holding onto? What would be most fun right now?

Also, do not keep your intuition on the special shelf!! Ask intuitively led questions for everything from what you want to wear today to what you want to eat for lunch. Do not save it for big/special occasions only!

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My 40s have been a quiet revolution. Not the kind anyone else would notice from the outside, but the kind that changed everything on the inside. And I want to talk about it, because I have a feeling some of you are in the middle of your own version of this right now.

So here are the five shifts that have made the biggest difference:

1. I Stopped Looking Sideways

Not “trying not to compare.” Not putting a Post-it on my mirror that says comparison is the thief of joy. I mean I actually stopped. I stopped checking how other people in my industry were doing things before I made a move. I stopped Googling what everyone else’s program looked like before I built mine. I stopped scrolling for “inspiration” that was really just anxiety in a cute font.

My intuition goes first now. Always. And the wild thing is, it was always trying to. I was just too busy looking at what everyone else was doing to hear it.

2. I Stopped “Shoulding” on Myself

This one took me longer than I’d like to admit. Because I’m someone who loves a good opportunity. I love saying yes. I love being in the room. But I started noticing that some of my yes’s were coming from a place of I should rather than I want to.

One of my favorite mantras these days is: “right plan, wrong time.” Just because something is a brilliant opportunity doesn’t mean it’s the right timing for your life, your season, your nervous system. And honoring that, truly honoring it without guilt or FOMO, has changed everything.

3. I Started Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT)

Game. Changer.

I need to say this louder for the women in the back who are white-knuckling their way through perimenopause thinking they just need more sleep, more supplements, more meditation. I was one of you. I spent way too long believing I just needed to push through the exhaustion, the mood swings, the brain fog that made me feel like a stranger in my own body. Three long years to be exact.

Turns out, sometimes the most aligned wellness choice is medication. I know that might sound surprising coming from me, someone who has built a career in holistic health. But here’s what I believe more than anything: wellness is about listening to your body and giving it what it actually needs. For me, that turned out to be HRT. And I wish I hadn’t waited so long. I have so much more to say about this, which I’m saving for a future live show! Stay tuned.

4. I Started Really Honoring the Season I’m In

Here’s something I don’t think people talk about enough. My kids were not hard for me as babies. I loved that stage. I felt like myself in it. But ages 5 and 10? This season is asking EVERYTHING of me. Emotionally, energetically, logistically, all of it.

And instead of pretending I can still do everything I did before, instead of performing the “I can have it all” narrative, I started actually respecting the season of motherhood I’m in. That looks like a lot more no’s. A lot more help at home. A lot more honesty about what I can hold right now without breaking.

It’s not giving up. It’s growing up.

5. I Started Therapy

Yes. In my 40s. For the first time.

Even after losing my dad to cancer when I was 17, I had never really sat down one-on-one with a therapist and done the work. I’d done retreats, breathwork, coaching, journaling, you name it. But never that. And looking back, I think part of me was afraid of what would come up if I actually gave myself a dedicated space to process life instead of just carry it.

Turns out? It’s been one of the most important decisions I’ve ever made. Having someone hold space for the stuff I didn’t even realize I was still holding has been huge. And I’m a little mad at myself for waiting this long, but also, right plan, wrong time, remember? I got there when I got there.

Because here’s the bigger picture, the thread that runs through all five of these:

The biggest shift in my 40s has been this. I am honoring who I am, what I truly want, and the life I have worked really hard to create. Not who I was at 30. Not who the internet says I should be. Not who other people need me to be. Me. Right now. In this exact season.

And that’s really what This Is Who I Am Now is about. It’s the permission to evolve. To let go of the old version. To say out loud: this is what’s true for me right now, and that’s enough.

I’d love to know which one of these resonates most for you? Hit reply and tell me. I read every single one.

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If you want to go deeper on all of this, come hang with me live every Tuesday at 12:30pm ET for This Is Who I Am Now, my new weekly live show where we get into the real stuff: identity, hormones, motherhood, purpose, all of it.

With so much love,

Robyn

PS You deserve a weekend away! Grab one of the final spots for my Kripalu retreat August 28!

And yes, you absolutely need to be there and definitely still can be because it is officially LAST CALL!

I recently got to attend my longtime dear friend Gabby’s Bernstein’s weekend retreat and let me tell you, I was absolutely blown away by how truly changed I was in such a short amount of time. After Friday night’s opening talk I turned to Gabby and literally said, “I am a changed person”. And she smiled and agreed.

From just one night. Now imagine a whole weekend.

With family, friends, phones, it is nearly IMPOSSIBLE to receive that kind of snap your fingers transformation… you must get away. And thankfully Kripalu offers housing at all pricing and you can join the entire weekend for as little as $350 (or go super deluxe with one of their last private Annex rooms too!). I’ve stayed in every kind of room there and they are all fab and all include delicious organic meals each day in addition to the weekend long programming you’ll receive with me.

And let me tell you honey, YOU DESERVE IT!

JOIN ME AT KRIPALU AUG 28

See you there! Just a handful of spots left!

Love,

Robyn

PS Last Call for joining my Kripalu retreat in just 10 days! LFG!

If you missed last week's mini virtual retreat or want to experience again, you can watch here. I've also included the written companion guide for you below, yours to revisit whenever you need.

Welcome to your mini virtual retreat.

We are going to spend some really intentional time together to just slow down, take a few deep breaths, and get to chill a little bit. We are going to breathe, meditate for a moment, journal, do some reflection questions, and have an opportunity to simply feel our own breath and body and hear our own inner thoughts.

Grab something you can write with. Preferably you have a journal, but a piece of paper and a pen works really well too. Ideally, you are in a cozy, calm place, and if that is not possible, that is completely okay. We do the best that we can.

All of the prompts in this guide are optional. Write down what pulls at you. If you feel an immediate pull to something, stay with it, take a moment, answer it, and stay there. You can also simply write down the question and come back to it another time.

Before you begin ⏸️

Silence your notifications, get cozy, and give yourself permission to be exactly where you are today.

Begin with your breath

Start to slow your breath and elongate it, inviting it to gently soften for you and become your own personal metronome of ease, peace, space, lightness, and support. If you are safe and able to do so, close your eyes and start to come more fully into your body, your breath, and this present moment.

Deepen and lengthen your inhales, then deepen and lengthen your exhales. On the exhales, try to really get to the end of them. We do not empty our lungs at their full capacity enough, and we can end up with old air, old oxygen, and old life inhabiting them. Allow yourself to come to a full and complete exhale.

As your breath softens and lengthens, invite your body to follow. Bring ease to your forehead, eyebrows, and face, softness to your jaw, chest, and throat, and breathe your shoulders down your back and body. Follow your spine to your seat, your hips, your legs, your knees, your ankles, and all the way down to your toes. Think about your hair softening, your smile softening, and absolutely your belly softening and letting go.

The you before

Picture yourself at whatever age, place, or moment you last felt your best. This is the before everything shifted age, place, or moment in time. You do not have to know exactly why you are choosing it; just let 1 thing show up and give yourself permission to be honest here.

Really be with the you before. See yourself there with no rushing to fix and no giving her advice, just seeing her. Then bring in whoever you might have needed back in that moment. It could be a version of you now or of your future self, someone who could sit next to her and say:

“You don’t have to fix this today. I’ve got you.”

Take a breath in and take a breath out.

This Is Who I Am Now

Now picture yourself right now, today, exactly as you are in this very moment. Whatever your body looks like, whatever your softened belly feels like, whatever your hormones are doing, or whatever moment you are in the messy middle of, silently say to yourself: This Is Who I Am Now.

Take a moment to remember what that phrase means: to be exactly as you are, to dance with this beautiful version of you, and to live out loud instead of waiting for some future version to arrive. It is not “this is who I will be once I fix this,” and it is not “this is who I am once I have earned it.” It is who you are right now, mid story, unresolved ending and all.

It is full permission for you to be with your most beautiful self in this very moment without fixing, editing, striving, or wishing anything were different. Breathe that all in, and breathe that all out.

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I am coming to you in the middle of a massive 1.5 day turnaround. After spending 1 month upstate in the Hudson Valley, we are officially heading off on a 3 week adventure to Europe!

Today’s show was short and sweet but it was so important for me to show up and share the realization I had while away: I just need so much less. Whether it is simple moments with family or learning to honor the person I am in this exact season, I am leaning into a newer, quieter rhythm. We’ll see how that all unfolds after all this travel lol!

🎥 Watch the full episode above.

In this episode, we get into:

✨ Why I am craving “less” even as I embark on a very “big” 3 week trip.

✨ How to handle plans made by a “past version” of yourself that don’t quite fit your current moment.

✨ A peek inside my travel kit of supplements, powders, and potions.

✨ The specific tea I use to combat travel bloat and water retention.

✨ Why I almost didn’t go live today and the advice that changed my mind.

I’d love to hear from you:

✨ What is a plan your “past version” made that you are navigating now? ✨

Leave a comment below or hit reply. I read them, and your questions and stories help shape where we go next.

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Coming next: I will be coming to you live from Europe! Join me next Tuesday at 12:30 PM ET for a brand new update from our travels.

Thank you for being here. ❤️

With so much love,

Robyn

PS: After my time in the Hudson Valley, I have realized how much we all need these pockets of nature and true connection. Join me at Kripalu the weekend of August 28 to create the space to hear your own inner thoughts and celebrate exactly who you are now.

SPECIAL BONUS - See all of my travel essentials and why below ⬇️

✨ Supplements here

✨ Bevies here

✨ Fiber Bites here

When I travel, I lean heavily into my “powders and potions” to stay nourished and energized. Here is a summary of everything I am packing for my 3 week trip:

Daily Supplements and Immune Support

• Individual Supplement Bags: I label small bags for morning and evening to ensure I actually take them.

• Immune Defense and Probiotics: Essentials for staying healthy while changing environments.

• New Chapter Zyflamend: Great for physical aches after hiking or carrying kids and luggage.

• B12 Tablets: My favorite afternoon “pick me up” for a quick energy boost.

• Creatine: I use Ancient and Brave or JJ Virgin’s Sheatine to support muscle building while away.

Digestive Health Support

• Papaya Enzymes: A must for general digestive support.

• Sakara Life Fiber Gummies: To keep things moving while the diet changes.

• Traditional Medicinals Peppermint Tea: Perfect for digestion or if you feel a little nauseous.

• Dandelion Leaf and Root Tea: This is my secret weapon for travel. It helps the body flush out excess water and significantly reduces belly bloat.

Hydration and Energy

• Ultima Electrolytes: My go to for daily hydration.

• Cure Electrolytes: A great tasting, coconut powder based option that my kids also love.

• Metagenics Endura: A high quality electrolyte power option.

• Matcha On The Go: Convenient packets for a quick caffeine fix when I’m not sure where to find good coffee.

Bevies

• Skip Hop Snack Stackables: I use these to carry my powders!

• Cacao Junapu: My favorite cacao for a grounding beverage.

• Cowboy Colostrum: Excellent for gut health and boosting immunity during travel.

• Emergency Protein: I always pack a protein packet to mix with water in case of a “protein emergency.”

Organization

• Stasher or Ziploc Bags: To keep all the tea and small items organized.

• Small Zip-up Pouch: Everything fits into one pouch that lives in my secondary carry on for easy access.

I moved things outside to my porch upstate today for a little change of scenery. This was born out of half necessity, as my in-laws are visiting and we have a full house, and half intention to create a personal and relaxed Zen moment.

I decided to turn today’s session into a virtual mini-retreat for us to just slow down, breathe, meditate, and journal through the messy middle of our stories.

🎥 Watch the full episode above.

In this episode, we get into:

✨ The power of saying “This Is Who I Am Now” without trying to fix or edit yourself.

✨ Why I am now a person who needs a 20 minute nap and how to honor what you actually need.

✨ The difference between “Big F” and “Little f” fun and how to get your daily nutrient supply of joy.

✨ Redefining success and why we need to bring back the lost art of venting to our near and dear ones.

A special note for my community: Keep an eye out because a special mini-retreat guide featuring all our journal prompts and visualizations from today is dropping later this week for paid subscribers only! If you want to make sure you get that guide and other exclusive perks, you can upgrade your subscription below.

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I’d love to hear from you:

✨ What is one thing you are currently carrying that is not actually yours to carry? ✨

Leave a comment below or hit reply!

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Coming next: I am heading to Europe for 3 weeks! Join me next Tuesday, August 4 at 12:30 PM before heading to the airport. THAT SHOULD BE FUN lol.

Thank you for being here. ❤️

With so much love,

Robyn

PS Join me at Kripalu the weekend of August 28 for my in person retreat, This Is Who I Am Now. This is one of those “Big F” moments you deserve!

Just a little reminder that the next episode of This Is Who I Am Now is happening tomorrow, Tuesday, July 28 at 12:30 PM ET.

Tomorrow’s episode will be a little different than the ones before. When I tuned into the current moment I deeply felt that we all needed a minute to just land. To sit with everything. To pause. To be quiet. To write a bit. And to have some space to just breathe. Consider tomorrow’s live show to be like a little mini virtual retreat!

>> Ideally come with a cup of tea and something you enjoy writing in. If you can’t be in a quiet space, no worries, just come as you are, I trust it all.

To join us, just open the Substack app a few minutes before we go live. You will also get a notification on your device when the broadcast starts.

One important note - this is the last emailed reminder I will be sending out for our weekly sessions. Moving forward, unless you hear otherwise about a special topic or happening, you can expect the show to be live pretty much every Tuesday at 12:30 PM ET and Substack will prompt you directly when I go live. Def set a weekly repeating calendar reminder so you never miss a live show!

See you tomorrow!

Robyn

PS Tomorrow’s show will be a fab little glimpse into what it’s like to retreat with me! Want the full experience? Join me at Kripalu the weekend of August 28 for my full weekend retreat, This Is Who I Am Now.

For most of my life, food took up an enormous amount of brain space. Even after doing years of work around loving my body, writing two books and helping thousands of women create a more peaceful relationship with food, there was still a running conversation in the background of my mind. What am I eating next? Did I eat too much? Should I have that? Can I have ice cream with my kids tonight, or does something else I ate today mean I should not?

I had already moved so far away from the diets and rigid restriction of my younger years, but that does not mean the thoughts had completely disappeared. They were often quieter and much less controlling, but they were still there.

Then, within days of starting a low dose GLP-1, the volume went down in a way I had never been able to experience before.

It was not simply that I was less hungry. Food suddenly felt slightly less important, and something that had taken up so much room in my brain for so much of my life became more…shh.

That decrease in food noise has given me more food freedom, not less.

I have ice cream with my kids without turning it into a negotiation about what I ate earlier or what I should do tomorrow. I do not worry about the cookies or the treats because my day did not go awry, and I was not restricting all day and then pushing back against that restriction later.

There is no retroactive fixing. I enjoy my food, I enjoy my day and then I move on with my life.

That may sound small if you have never experienced food noise, but if you have, you probably understand exactly how meaningful it is. You can eat balanced meals, understand nutrition, have a full life and still spend an exhausting amount of mental energy thinking about food.

To have that become quieter gave me more room for my work, my parenting, my relationships and everything else that matters to me. It honestly felt like a new level of joy and freedom unlocked in my brain, my heart and my body.

But there is another side of quieter food noise that I think we need to talk about too. When food becomes less demanding and your hunger and thirst signals are not as loud, you have to become much more intentional about properly feeding and hydrating yourself if you’re not super careful. Here’s what you need to make sure you’re doing to not fall into the danger zone on a GLP-1, at any dose.

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It was so wonderful to connect with those of you who joined our live Q and A yesterday. For those who could not make it, we missed you and hope when you’re watching the recording you feel like you were right there with us.

🎥 Watch the full episode above.

In this episode, we get into:

✨ The surprising link between metabolic medications and longevity.

✨ How to strengthen your own intuitive filter.

✨ The challenge of hitting protein goals.

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Just a little reminder that our Live Q&A is happening during our usual show time, tomorrow, Tuesday, July 21 at 12:30pm ET / 9:30am PT.

If you’re joining us live, bring your questions! We’ll spend the whole session talking through everything we’ve covered over the last few weeks, plus anything else you would like to ask me about.

If you can’t make it live, just hit reply to this email or leave your questions in the comments below, and I’ll answer them during the show.

How to join: Just open the Substack app a few minutes before we go live. You’ll get a notification when I start.

Upgrade to Join the Live Q&A

See you tomorrow! 💛

Love,

Robyn

PS Not ready to become a paid subscriber yet? No worries at all. I'll still be here every week sharing plenty of free conversations, stories, and wellness tips on Substack. I'm so happy you're here.

A quick update on this week’s schedule.

I’ve decided to move our live Q&A to our regular show time - Tuesday, July 21 at 12:30pm ET / 9:30am PT.

We’ve covered a lot over the last couple of weeks, and I want to give everyone a little more time to catch up on Episodes 2 and 3, sit with everything, and gather your thoughts and questions before we dive into the conversation together.

Next Tuesday’s live will be for paid subscribers, and we’ll dedicate the full session to your questions about perimenopause, HRT, GLP-1s, diastasis recti, body image, and anything else we’ve been talking about. Bring them all!

If you can join us live, we’ll cover as many of your questions as we can during the conversation. If you can’t make it live, just hit reply to this email or leave your questions in the comments below, and I’ll answer those too.

If you’re already a paid subscriber, I’ll see you there.

If you’ve been thinking about joining us, this is a great week to catch up on the episodes and come to the Q&A next Tuesday.

Upgrade to Join the Live Q&A

See you next week. 💛

Robyn

I’ve been gathering the courage to share this conversation for nearly 10 months.

In this week’s episode we talked about my lifelong struggles with body image, diet culture, postpartum healing, how it all came to head in perimenopause, and finally letting go of the stories I thought I had to live by. Plus I opened up fully about my decision to start a GLP-1, and why it was never really a conversation about just weight.

I want to approach this conversation with a lot of care. I know this topic can be really polarizing, and you might not agree with everything I say. Truly, that’s okay. This isn’t about convincing anyone. It’s simply me sharing my own experience, my own journey, and where I am right now.

🎥 Watch the full episode above.

Put it on while you’re walking, driving, folding laundry, or grab a coffee and make a little pocket of time just for you. ☕️✨(and a reminder you can listen to it like a podcast and adjust playback speed as well in the Substack app!)

In this episode, we get into:

✨ Why doing everything “right” still wasn’t enough
✨ The real story behind my diastasis, and why I almost chose surgery
✨ My complicated decision to start a GLP-1, and the fears I had to work through first
✨ The mindset shift that changed everything aka I’ve never believed we get extra points for suffering
✨ What it really means to stop fighting your body and start listening to it

I’d love to hear from you:

✨ What’s one outdated story about yourself you’re ready to let go of? ✨

Share with us in the comments below!

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UPDATED: Next, join me live Tuesday, July 21st at 12:30pm ET for a special subscriber Q&A where I’ll answer your biggest questions around this together in real time.

Thank you for being here.

With so much love,
Robyn

PS: Want to ask questions on Tuesday’s live Q&A? Upgrade to become a paid subscriber and come ask away! I’m happy to answer anything I can!

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Just a little reminder that Episode 3 of This Is Who I Am Now is happening tomorrow, Tuesday, July 14 at 12:30 PM ET / 9:30 AM PT. 💛

We’re picking up where we left off.

This week, I’m sharing more of my GLP 1 journey, diastasis recti, postpartum body trauma, body changes, diet culture, the fear and judgment I carried around choosing medication, and where I am now.

There is so much more to this story than could ever fit into social media. I’m sharing what surprised me, what I’ve learned, the changes I’ve made, and the things I’m still navigating.

Just open the Substack app a few minutes before we go live. You’ll also get a notification when I start.

And a little bonus for paid subscribers: we’ll continue the conversation with a live Q&A on Thursday, July 16 at 12:30 PM ET. Bring all your questions!

See you tomorrow! 🫶🏻

Robyn

PS If you missed Episode 2 (Part 1 of this conversation), you can catch up here before we go live tomorrow.

If you watched Episode 2 of This Is Who I Am Now, first of all, thank you. 💛 This was a big one for me.

Since the episode aired, I’ve been reading your comments, seeing your messages, watching the questions come in and taking notes. Because I know how I am when I listen to something like this. I’m immediately thinking: Wait, what was that thing she said? What did she take? What did she ask her doctor to test? Who were the experts she mentioned? Where are the links?

So I wanted to make this easy for you.

Think of this as the companion guide to Episode 2. I’m pulling together the notes, the details, the things I tried, what I learned, my exact experience with hormone therapy, and the resources I mentioned so you don’t have to watch with a notebook in your lap. Although I fully support that too.

And if you haven’t watched the episode yet, I really do recommend starting there. The nuance matters so much to me, especially with a conversation like this. This is not a “here’s what you should do” post. It’s my story, my body, my experience and where I am right now, which is still evolving in very real time.

First, what even is perimenopause?

I said this in the episode, but it is worth repeating: I genuinely did not know the word perimenopause a few years ago.

I knew menopause. I thought menopause was something that happened around 50, your period stopped, you got hot flashes, everyone made jokes about turning the air conditioning way up and that was basically the story.

That was my understanding.

Perimenopause is the period of time leading up to menopause when hormones can fluctuate, sometimes dramatically. It is essentially the transition from the reproductive years, when your ovaries are regularly releasing eggs, toward menopause, when ovulation and menstrual cycles eventually stop. It can begin in your late 30s or 40s and can last for years. Your periods can change, but they do not have to disappear. You can still be getting a regular period and be in perimenopause. This confused the heck out of me.

And menopause itself is technically marked after 12 consecutive months without a menstrual period. After that, you are postmenopausal.

I’m sharing that because I think so many of us are walking around with a very dated and incomplete picture of what this can look like. I certainly was.

I also want to say this very clearly: please do not read a list of symptoms and immediately raise a yellow card at every single one thinking, “That’s me! That’s me too!” So many symptoms can overlap with stress, sleep deprivation, nutrient deficiencies, thyroid issues, mental health, life being life and a million other things.

Everything I teach always comes back to intuition and what your body is telling you. Slow down enough to hear yourself, get curious, gather information and find qualified support.

What it looked like for me

Looking back, I felt a real shift between 43 and 44. I joke that 43 was my last good year, but truly, something changed.

The confusing part was that I could explain almost everything away.

I have always had sleep challenges. I was raising two kids in a completely different decade than my body was intended for (I had my first at 36 and intentionally had my second at 41). I was running a full on business. I was traveling. I had stress. I had a lot going on. So when I started experiencing brain fog, rage, anxiety, night sweats, changes in my body, feeling less resilient and this very hard to explain feeling of just not being myself, I didn’t immediately think: hormones.

I thought: What do I need to do differently?

I am a wellness professional. I have spent 18 years in this work. I believe deeply in food, movement, meditation, nervous system support, supplements, sleep, acupuncture and all the tools I have taught for almost two decades.

So yes, ofc I tried to wellness my way through it.

Not because wellness doesn’t work. I want to be very clear about that. These practices supported me enormously and continue to support me every single day. But there came a point when I had to acknowledge that I was doing so much and I still did not feel anywhere near okay.

One of my favorite stories from the episode is that I went to my acupuncturist and basically said, “This sounds like I’m deep in perimenopause. Can you make it stop? Can you put the needles somewhere that says no thank you, come back later? I’m still young and fun. I have two DJs to see this weekend.” 😂

I can laugh about it now, but there was something real underneath that. I was not ready for the word. I was not ready for what I thought it meant. And I think that denial is part of why I did not get stronger support sooner.

What I wish I had understood earlier

Perimenopause is nuanced. That is probably the biggest thing I want you to take from my story.

It can look different from woman to woman. It can look different from month to month. Honestly, it can look different from one day to the next.

I wish someone had explained the gray area to me. I wish someone had said: You may still get your period. You may not have constant hot flashes. You may be functioning beautifully on paper and still feel dramatically different inside your own body. You may have symptoms that seem unrelated until you start looking at the whole picture.

And I really wish perimenopause had been part of the conversation around women’s health much earlier. I had my babies later in life by choice and I still cannot believe there was no larger conversation about what could be coming hormonally, what to watch for, how my nutrient needs might change and how to prepare.

We are having so much of this conversation together in real time. The research and care will continue to evolve. I hope our daughters have a much easier path because we were willing to talk about it now. Deep bravery breaths for all. <3

A few things to write down before you rush to the “to do”

I am the biggest student. I always want to know: Okay, what’s the to do? What do I buy? What do I ask for? What’s the answer?

But sometimes the next step is simply paying attention.

If this episode brought something up for you, write down:

• What symptoms or changes have I been dismissing?
• When did I first notice that I felt different?
• What have I been explaining away as “just stress” or “just getting older”?
• What do I want to ask my healthcare provider?
• What do I want to learn more about without deciding I need to act on it immediately?

You do not need to solve your entire body today. You can take in information, get curious and decide what is actually for you.

All the notes I promised you 👀

For paid subscribers, I’m putting the deeper details in one place: what I tried before HRT, what my doctor tested, what my labs showed, my exact hormone therapy protocol, what changed six days later, what improved, what happened after about four months, why I paused and where I am now. Remember, everyone has access to the video, but the notes to go with this episode are here for you are below. Plus, your subscriber support means everything to me.

Loving reminder, this is not necessarily a protocol for you. It is a detailed record of what happened for me that I hope supports you in your journey.

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Take a deep breath with me… because today’s episode was a big one. ✨

This was a conversation I have been both excited and nervous to share.

I so wish that when I was navigating my own experience through my 40s, perimenopause, hormones, and all the changes that came with this season of life, I could have found someone sharing their real, honest story from start to finish.

Not a perfect story.

Not a “here’s the answer” story.

Just a real one.

That’s what This Is Who I Am Now is all about. A place for the conversations that don’t fit neatly into an Instagram caption.

The honest ones. The messy ones.

The ones where we’re still learning and evolving in real time.

🎥 Watch the full episode above.

Grab a cup of coffee or tea, put it on while you’re walking, driving, folding laundry, or make a little pocket of time just for you. ☕️✨

In today’s episode, we talked about:

✨ What my perimenopause journey actually looked like before I even realized what was happening
✨ Why brain fog, sleep changes, anxiety, rage, and feeling like “I just don’t feel like myself” were such confusing symptoms
✨ The moment I realized I couldn’t wellness my way through what was happening
✨ How I finally asked for help and what my first experience with hormone therapy looked like
✨ The moment when just six days into therapy was so amazing and intense I cried from sheer joy.

This conversation was deeply personal for me.

For years, I thought if I just tried harder… if I meditated more, journaled more, walked more, optimized more that I could figure it out.

But the truth was I couldn’t wellness my way out of it.

And that was such a humbling realization.

I want to be really clear: this is not a conversation about what everyone “should” do. There is no one-size-fits-all answer when it comes to our bodies, our health, and our experiences.

This is my story.

And my hope is that sharing it helps you slow down, listen to yourself, ask good questions, and know that you deserve support.

You do not have to wait until everything is falling apart to start paying attention.

And I’d love to hear from you:

✨ What part of this conversation resonated with you the most? ✨

Have you experienced something similar? Are you navigating this season now? Or did something surprise you about this conversation?

Leave a comment below or hit reply. I would truly love to hear your story.

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This conversation is just beginning. 💛

In Part 2, we’ll continue the story on Tuesday, July 14th with more about my GLP-1 journey, my relationship with my body and diet culture, and where I’m at now with hormone support.

And because I know this conversation will bring up so many questions, I’ll be hosting a special Q&A for paid subscribers on Thursday, July 16th where we can dive deeper together.

Thank you for being here, for listening, and for holding space for these conversations.

I know we’re creating something really special together.

With so much love,

Robyn

PS If you’d like to support This Is Who I Am Now, I’d love to have you as a paid subscriber. 💛 Your support helps make this show possible and allows me to continue creating these conversations.

Paid subscribers will get access to additional content, resources, and deeper dives as we continue building this community.

And if you’re interested in going even deeper, you can learn more about becoming one of my founding members through Robyn’s Rockstars level with additional live calls, guides, and special experiences along the way. ✨

[Disclaimer: Please note this is not medical advice. I am sharing my story and what helped, and didn’t help, along the way. Please seek your own trusted medical counsel and support.]

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Just a little reminder that Episode 2 of This Is Who I Am Now is happening tomorrow, Tuesday, July 7 at 12:30 PM ET / 9:30 AM PT. 💛

Let’s talk hormones. 😘

This week, I’m sharing my entire hormone replacement therapy journey, my experience with peptides, and where I’m at now.

I’ll be talking about what led me to HRT, what shocked me along the way, the changes I’ve made, what’s worked, what hasn’t. I’ve been waiting sooo long to go deep with you on this, it was just too much to go into in social media sound bites. I’m so glad we have this space to really talk about it together.

Just open the Substack app a few minutes before we go live. You’ll also get a notification from Substack when I start.

A peak into some of the messages I’ve been getting about this topic!!

See you tomorrow! 🫶🏻

Robyn

We did it! 🥹✨

Today was the very first live episode of This Is Who I Am Now, and honestly... it was everything I hoped it would be.

It felt like the beginning of something really special. 💫

If you missed it live (or just want to watch it again), you can watch the recording here! 🎥 Think of it like your favorite podcast. Put it on while you’re going for a walk, driving, folding laundry, or pour yourself a cup of coffee or matcha and make it a little pocket of time just for you. ☕️🚶‍♀️🚗

In this first episode, we talked about:
✨ Why I’ve wanted to create this show for years
✨ The original vision that sparked it all
✨ Why you can’t wellness your way out of perimenopause
✨ What the last few years have really looked like for me
✨ Why asking for hormone support wasn’t giving up on wellness... it was the well-est thing I could do. 😉

More than anything, this is the space I’ve been craving. A place where we can have the conversations that don’t fit into an Instagram caption. Honest. Messy. Funny. Real.

Over 35 of you joined live, which honestly blew me away. 🥹 One person commented that it felt like the OG days online, and I don’t think I could’ve received a sweeter compliment.

Before we wrapped up, I asked one question I’d love to ask you, too:

✨ What’s one conversation you wish more women were having? ✨

Hit reply or leave a comment on the post. Your answers will help shape future episodes.

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We’ll be back live next Tuesday at 12:30 PM ET! 📅 And for this first month, everyone has access to the recordings, so you can watch up anytime (though there is an absolute MAGIC in joining live!)

Thank you for being here from the very beginning. I have a feeling we’re building something really special together. ❤️

With so much love,

Robyn

PS If you’d like to support the show, I’d love to have you as a paid subscriber. 💛 You’ll help make this all possible and get access to extras like my July Psychic Circle and everything else I’ve got planned.

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Today is the day!

Join me for the very first live episode of This Is Who I Am Now:

📅 Tuesday, June 30
🕧 12:30 PM ET / 9:30 AM PT

If you’ve never joined a Substack Live before, don’t worry. It’s easy! Right before we begin, Substack will send you an email (and a notification if you have the app). Just click and join. You can watch, chat, or simply listen along.

Today is all about setting the stage. I’ll share why I created this show, what you can expect each week, and what I hope we’ll build together here.

I can’t wait to see you there. 💛

love Robyn

Last week I told you I was delaying starting my weekly live show and heading to Governor’s Island instead. A spa robe was chosen over a livestream. And I have absolutely zero regrets about that! You can watch a reel I made about it here!

Then this week, I found myself looking at my calendar again. The live show. 7 weeks of sleepaway camp packing. Two graduations. Scott’s birthday (which included not one but two music festivals and a house party). Father’s Day. A trip to Miami. Content to post. Life to live.

For a moment, I thought, “Maybe I can squeeze it all in.” But then I realized something.

Launching This Is Who I Am Now wasn’t actually the thing on my to do list.

I already did that.
We’re here. You’re here.
This community exists.

The conversations have started. The emails are being sent. The comments are rolling in. The gathering has already begun. What I was trying to squeeze in was my idea of what launching should look like based on nearly two decades in this industry.

And those are not the same thing.

For so many years, my default setting was: if I can do more, I should do more.

One more call. One more event. One more project. One more thing checked off the list before I let myself rest. But lately I’ve been wondering:

What if success isn’t doing everything?
What if success is knowing what deserves your attention right now?

This week, my attention belongs to my family. To getting Navy ready for sleepaway camp. To celebrate milestones. To being present for the moments that won’t come around again. To trying to keep most of my marbles in my head.

And next week, my attention can belong to the show.

My plan is to go live next Tuesday at 12:30 PM ET for our first official gathering. Nothing fancy. Just a chance to finally say hello, tell you a little more about what we’re building here, and start this next chapter together.

The funny thing is, I teach this all the time. We talk about nervous system regulation and boundaries and intentional living but then life hands us an opportunity to actually practice it. Its funny how it always seems to work like that.

So here’s a question I’d love for you to sit with today:
What is one thing you’re trying to squeeze in simply because you can?
And what would happen if you gave yourself permission not to?

I’d love to hear your answer in the comments.

Life keeps changing.

So do we.

And honestly?

I think that’s exactly what we’re doing here together.

xoo,

Robyn

PS I’m scheduling my first Psychic Circle call for the Robyn’s Rockstars founding members at the end of July! Be sure to upgrade to that option here.

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Instead, I'll be at a spa on Governors Island.

Yes, that's a real sentence.

After hosting 40 people for Shabbat on Friday, surviving a double dance recital weekend (including completely messing up one of the drop off times side note, they both crushed. I’m so proud of them!), and helping two very emotional rollercoaster girls navigate their own weekends, OH AND THE KNICKS WON WHOO HOOO! I found myself on the verge of a menty b.

And so I did something that felt both wildly indulgent and completely necessary.

I peaced out.

As you're reading this, I'm on my way on a ferry to the glamping tents on Governors Island. Yes that’s a thing as I learned last night at 11pm! Tomorrow, when I told all of you I'd be broadcasting my show, I'll likely be in a sauna, cold plunge, hammock, spa robe, or some combination of the above.

The irony is not lost on me.

Because if This Is Who I Am Now is about anything, it's about paying attention. It's about noticing when the plan is no longer the right plan. It's about recognizing when what you actually need is different from what you said you'd do.

So tomorrow, instead of showing up live, I'm showing up for myself.

The show will be back next week.

And honestly, this decision feels extremely This Is Who I Am Now.

Thank you for being here.

See you soon,

Robyn

PS We made it to #10 in Health & Wellness on Substack and rising! I am blown away by this - THANK YOU!! Click here to invite friends to the (eventual) party!🎉