in reality, we bring everything with us… like our childhoods and all of the things we learned too early, the ways we learned to be loved, the things we chose and the things we didn’t, the things we did to cope before we even had the language for what we were doing, the experiences and memories our minds remember, along with the ones our bodies seem to remember for us.

so, episode 0 begins there, in the soil. i share vulnerable pieces from my own story here, including early exposure to pornography, bullying, struggles with my body and food, substance use, self-harm, and eventually finding my way into cognitive behavioral therapy at age 13.

some of these things are easier for me to understand now, than they were while i was living them. others, i’m still understanding… and that matters too!

wild bloom was never supposed to be a podcast from the other side of healing. i’m not sitting here with some perfectly regulated nervous system and a list of answers for how everyone else should live their best life! i’m out hereee, still noticing things, still connecting dots, still realizing that some of the things i’ve judged myself for might have once been some of the things that helped me survive!

this is a conversation about the deep kind of tiredness that can accumulate, in a body, when a body has spent years learning how to survive, adapt, protect, and keep going. in other words, the kind of exhaustion that doesn’t always make sense when you only look at what’s happening today... sometimes you have to look backwards!

how long have i been bracing? how long have i been making myself smaller?? how long has my body been asking for something i didn’t know how to give it???

i’ve spent a lot of time asking myself questions like these and somewhere along the way, the question started shifting from why am i like this? to where did this come from?

✨✨there is sooo much more compassion in that question✨✨

and maybe there are things about yourself you’ve been trying to prune away, without ever looking at the soil they grew from.

this episode is an invitation, to look around and NOTICE what you’ve been carrying, instead of an invitation for you to dig everything up you find, all at once, or so you can turn yourself into another project that needs fixing.

let’s remember, and honor our journey, because before we get to the blooming part of this story, i think we have to be willing to know what we grew from!

and that’s where wild bloom begins!🌱

before you listen: this episode includes non-graphic mentions of sexual trauma, self-harm, eating disorders, substance use, and suicidal thoughts. please take care of yourself while listening. pause, come back later, or skip this one altogether if that’s what you need🩵

if something in this episode brings up feelings or memories that feel difficult to hold alone, reach toward someone you trust, like a friend, therapist, or another source of support. if you are in immediate crisis in the u.s., you can call or text 988 for the suicide & crisis lifeline.

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lindsey & the wild bloom collective 🌸💗🔥✨

a soft corner of the internet for real healing, nervous-system-friendly stories, and finding your way back home in your own timing.

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here you’ll find letters, practices, and reflections to sit alongside the podcast — one part soil, one part sunlight, and lots of gentle in-between.

my hope is that these words land in your lap like a deep breath and a warm mug, something you don’t have to perform for, something that meets you exactly where you are.

i’m keeping this space simple and sustainable. some weeks you might receive an episode companion (with journaling prompts or practices), other times a short letter from whatever season i’m in. no pressure to keep up with everything, take what supports you, leave the rest.

if you’re ready to breathe deeper, soften your shoulders, and slowly build a life that feels like it actually belongs to you… you’re welcome here.

with love,

lindsey 🌿