Greetings everyone!

Kill your Darlings, a phrase most commonly used to teach how to clarify focus in the creative process, is thought to have originated with William Faulkner. Needless to say I am not advocating for actually killing anything. Only to invite a deeper level of harvesting what is essential , what is truly alive. I am also curious about what fills in the space, what vibrancy and mystery can come into the cracks when we let the "darlings" go. It feels simple, risky, and joyfully potent, and then, of course, we have to engage the process again, and again. 

stay in touch my friends,
Tracy


A POEM

Our perfect polished offerings
of self
we grip in our palm 
and grow
deeply entranced by their shine…

Forgetting the rough hand that cups
 them is so much more alive.

pain- hurt- shame- and collected injuried feelings

All things become spellbinding
in obsessive grip and gaze- 

Extend your arm and let it fall

Kill your darlings before they
Kill you

remember
You are the pulsing force that 
Bears the fruit
You are the continuous current
That spills into form.

-tracy broyles

In other news you are invited to come and write and move with Janice Lee and myself!

August 22nd, 10-3, in person in NW Portland. Janice Lee, btw, is a total superstar, and I am honestly so honored she wanted to do this workshop with me! We are crafting a gentle space to take you on a journey of sensing the space between, in the fascia of the body, in finding a memory or glimmering and shimmering light, in hovering in the potency of pause and breath, in feeling the infinite expression of a simple gesture. We will use movement, meditation, and writing as creative exploration, and and shared reflection as communal connection.

LEARN MORE HERE.

here is a drawing and a little message directly from the gorgeous infinity loop

Ribbons of energy

Between spirit and matter

I am the revolving

Evolving spiral

I hold stable currents in a

A way that is dynamic

Multi-dimensional

It is undulating

Front back

Up down

side

To side

within and without

and also in a quantum

Dynamic

Relational spiral that contains itself.

Walking, drawing, dancing, visualizing figure 8’s, noticing their alive presence in everything:

I cannot remcommend exploring figure 8’s as a movement pattern enough! give it a go.

In our community we also spiral and loop around events and people:

Many of you, especially those that have been with me for a while and may know me from my time at Body Mechanics, will remember my dear friend and colleague Mandy Tigre.

HERE IS A LINK TO SUPPORT MANDY

Mandy and I met in 2010, when a mutual friend introduced us and said I should teach at her studio. We have moved through so many levels of connnection.and similar paths; Pilates, dance, energy work, but most precious to me is a deep friendship that moves easily and joyfully. Currently we have a weekly date with our dogs and it is truly one of the highlights of each week! I know her kids, her husband is a friend and colleague and I love watching them all move with integrity and sweetness in the world.

Less than two months ago Mandy was diagnosed with aggressive breast cancer and she has started her treatment. First I want to say Mandy is a powerful human, and watching her move into this has been as incredible and intense. If you would like to read about her deeply unique insights into cancer and the process read her substack here.

But navigating the treatment, and the time it takes to heal is hard on many levels, and one of them of course, is financial. If you know and love Mandy, now is the time to offer some stability to her and her family so she can take the time she needs to recover. One of her friends has created a go fund me and you can access it here. Any amount helps. The community thanks you!

HERE IS A LINK TO SUPPORT MANDY

Mandy this winter with her sweet pup. Mandy and I in 2018.

I have chosen to share this one last, but really it is first, last, and all the ways in and around. There was a time (maybe still this is true?) where every dance class I would go to started with a fairly long period of constructive rest.

Constructive rest is an active recovery technique used to decompress the spine, release deep muscular tension, and reset your nervous system.

In these active or constructive rests, we would lay on our backs, knees bent, feet on the ground (sometimes with the knees leaning against each other), elbows bent and hands resting on the base of our ribcage.

And we would lay there, and breathe…and breathe, and lay there….

And eventually something would begin to happen.

The way I had moved through the day would begin to unwind, the place between my skull and spine would open, my hips fell towards the ground and my femurs dropped into the joints. My shoulder blades widened, my breathing changed, my nervous system shifted. The quiet parts could be heard, and the loud parts got to rest. A kind of neutrality was reached.

Later, when we would get up and “dance,” there would be more availability, less fighting with a body pattern I did not even realize was “wearing” me.

This kind of drop into a neutrality is where the renew and recalibrate can truly occur from. We are almost always walking with a pattern, the shoulder lifted from driving or a tense conversation, the hips held from sitting, or emotional struggle. A lot can “happen” with a little permission to not have anything “happen.”

TRY IT

Find a place to lie down. Knees bent, knocked together if it is more comfortable, feet on the ground. Elbows bent, hands on ribs, feel your breathing. If your neck is uncomfortable, place a book, an inch or two high, underneath it. Avoid a pillow or anything too soft.

Set a timer for longer than you think, 7 minutes maybe, or even 15.

Lay there and breathe. Unless you are extremely uncomfortable, resist the urge to fidget or adjust your position. Eventually gravity will do that for you. Try opening your eyes, what is that like? This is not sleeping, it is actually allowing your conscious awareness to become quite active, while the physicality of you is given permission to just be.

Notice when or if you get restless, do you judge the stillness of it?

Hang in this place until your timer goes off. Then get up and move around a little. How are you feeling now?

The fact is we need to rest, deserve rest, require deep resets right now because it is not a time in our lives and in the world to disassociate and dissconnect. Connect more deeply with yourself.

Let’s build a regular practice with rest and recalibrate so it is there we need it, there when it is GO time. Don’t walk forward already depleted, do what you can, now, to recharge. You will be glad you did.

Thank you for reading!! I wish you deep rest this weekend.

Tracy

SUMMER ALIGN it is not too late to join, but it will be soon! (Registration officially closes next Monday night.)

The signature series began July 14th and runs through September. THEMES are: Rest, recalibration, tending to our organs physcially and energetically, and then planting seeds of intention for the next 9 months. ALIGN is potent 30 minute practices two to three times per week, online- live or by recording.

If you would like to jump in SUMMER ALIGN, email me and I will get you all set up.

Hi my friends!

If you are looking for just the little bit of juice for your body, mind, spirit in a laid back summer kind of way.. you may love ALIGN. Short, consistent practices that you can do live or by recording. READ more below. We start TUESDAY.

This is the second in my series of RE words…

RECALIBRATE

To “recalibrate” means to make small, intentional adjustments to a measuring device, a plan, or a mindset to restore accuracy, balance, or alignment.

I love this so much because many of you know how much I value micromovements.Like, I really value it, and believe in its ability to do large things for us. For instance, when my fascia is tight, holding, gripped somewhere and I lay on the ground and use the surface of the floor as a partner with the micromovements of my body, something begins to open, to stretch and expand. I feel that with the fascia feeling supported by something so much larger; the floor, but really the ground and the earth, the tightness that has locked my organs, and skeleton can relax. Micro movements give way to macro movements, with a quality of opening from the inside out, or growing organically into and through shape, strength, momentum. A fullness of expression arises because the inbetween is moving. Expand the space in between.

TRY THIS

Lay or somehow put your body against a surface that can give you feedback. Some examples are: a wood floor, a tree, the dirt, sand, a padded bench. Something you can comfortably relax into, but firm enough to give you something to push into.

Notice your points of contact, is it the back of your head? Your hand, sacrum, upper arm or feet? What is the quality and sensation of that contact?

Imagine and feel how through the point of contact every part of you is being touched, in the interwoven web of fascia, skin, connective tissue, there is no point of isolation, there are no boundaries or lines of state drawn within your body.

Beginning with one of those points of contact- begin to move. This could be a small circle or line, you may feel like a bear scratching against a tree. Move into the surface with the small micromovements of your body, hang out with it being small and notice what you notice.

At some point that movement will end, rest, relax. And then another point of contact will come to your attention, your noticing will shift (if that does not happen organically it is ok to just pick another point.) Start the process again, small micromovements that originate around the point of contact between your body and another surface.

Follow this for as long as you like, put no pressure on yourself to MAKE anything big or more out of this. If something does arise, like you suddenly feel like walking, shaking, moving larger in any way, go for it, and try to stay attuned to the micro movements happening underneath it all, all the time.

SUMMER ALIGN! The signature series begins July 14th and runs through September. Registration closes July 20th. So much goodness here in potent, consistent practices meant to titrate into your daily life,

ABUNDOLOGY PODCAST

Renee Spears has me as a guest on her podcast talking all about somatic healing, I loved our conversation and you can listen here!

MOVEMENT MEDICINE

An in person experience. Movement Medicine activates dance as energy work, movement as somatic healing, experiential anatomy as meditation, and community as a web of support. Email for schedule and availability. Most Wednesdays 10:00 am at Flock in Portland, OR. Class size limited.

INDIVIDUAL SESSIONS Here is a deep dive and focused tending to specifically to you, what is alive and needing to be witnessed, released, invited or supported through somatic and intuitive healing practices.

INBETWEEN SIGHTS/SITES. An embodiment workshop exploring in-between sight as intuition and non-linear knowing, and the in-between sites within our body, movement, gestures, emotional mind, and stories we carry. Through images and memories of dappled light, light glimmering on bodies of water, and light seen through squinting eyes, we will explore through meditation, movement and writing practices how to cultivate a more aware relationship with ourselves, the multitude of fields we are a part of, and our in between sight and sites.

And:

Thank you for reading!!

More ways to engage, I would love to see you in one of these offerings, or hear from you anytime!


SUMMER ALIGN! The signature series begins July 14th and runs through September. So much goodness here in potent, consistent practices meant to titrate into your daily life, Registration open till July 20th, early bird available till the end of this week.

ABUNDOLOGY PODCAST
Renee Spears had me as a guest on her podcast, talking all about somatic healing. I loved our conversation and you can listen here!

MOVEMENT MEDICINE
An in person experience. Movement Medicine activates dance as energy work, movement as somatic healing, experiential anatomy as meditation, and community as a web of support. Email for schedule and availability. Most Wednesdays 10:00 am at Flock in Portland, OR. Class size limited.

INDIVIDUAL SESSIONS Here is a deep dive and focused tending specifically with you, what is alive and needing to be witnessed, released, invited or supported through somatic and intuitive healing practices.

INBETWEEN SIGHTS/SITES. An embodiment workshop exploring in-between sight as intuition and non-linear knowing, and the in-between sites within our body, movement, gestures, emotional mind, and stories we carry. Faciliated with the incredible Janice Lee. In person in Portland.

Happy Juneteenth, Happy Solctice, Happy Fathers Day, and Happy Pride.

May we all be free. May we all shine.

Here is a little reflecting that came as I was writing to the spring ALIGN particpants, and I thought it worth shaping and sharing with you readers.

May we all be cared for, courageous, and kind.

best,

Tracy

Creating and sharing ALIGN is such a pleasure to me, it is a place I can land regularly. It has started to take on a life of its own, things come up and through that I would never have predicted, practices emerge and we play in them together.

No matter the method through which others take it in, (live, remote, more or less frequency,) as a teacher, it is the consistency that gives me a permission to relax, trust, and let things flow. This is something I have noticed about the way I learn, starting in my twenties when I began to teach movement at a Pilates studio with a waitlist. I had an instantly full schedule, even as I was getting my footing, and what that gave me was a kind of hit the ground running, sink or swim kind of feeling where I exponentially learned from trying, failing, trying again, sometimes having clicks and A-HA’s, and then trying again, without a lot of time to ruminate along the way.

I see this kind of ruminating hesitancy very present in the world right now, people are afraid. They are afraid to start, they are afraid to continue. There is a kind of policing through the internet-- yes, but I think it is also something else, maybe an aftermath of the pandemic shutdown, maybe a freeze response to the horrors of the world, maybe a certain lack of embodied necessity that keeps us getting up, going out the door, and just simply moving along. Moving along in our own towns, neighborhoods, places among the trees.

Align, for me, gives me permission to move along, if I don’t get something in one day I know I will have many more chances, I don’t feel a pressure to get it all going at once because I know it is the layers of practice that make a cohesion. And, let’s face it- facilitating at such an early time of today for me doesn’t give me time for a lot of hand wringing before I show up, I just .. show up, sometimes partially in my dream state.

So thank you, Whether you are in ALIGN or just reading these newlsetters, I hope it offers depth without preciousness, opportunities for consistency, exploration and integration, belief in your own abilities to be intuitive, embodied, playful, psychic, and most of all to try and fail, and try and succeed, and to simply move along.

love you all,

Tracy

ANNOUNCEMENTS AND OFFERINGS

NEXT ALIGN begins July 14th, Summer series will involve deep release and relaxation for the first part, then something else for the second part, I think it will be along the lines of seeding and intention.

EARLY BIRD for next session, $190, through July 1. Can be paid in two parts.

SESSIONS one on one Intuitive Healing Sessions

MOVEMENT MEDICINE, I will say more abou this in the future, but I am opening up this small group class to a few more people! This is about approaching the somatic, embodied, and energetic as a deep balm for what is on our minds and in our lives. It can be sublte or wild, we may have conversations, vocalize or shout, dance our hearts out, draw pictures or just lay on the floor in a quiet meditation. Wednesdays 10-11:15 in person at FLOCK. You are most welcome to join if you are in Portland, email with any questions and for current class schedule.

SPIRITUAL SUMMER SCHOOL with Renee Spears. I am thrilled to be teaching as part of this awesome online series. My class is on July 9th, and there are so many cool offerings. I love Renee and the community she creates. (I will also be featured on her podcast soon!)

SAVE THE DATE:

IN BETWEEN SITES a movement and writing workshop led by Janice Lee, and myself. 8/22 10:00-3:00.

Registration opens soon but email me if you are interested in more information.

And I am thrilled to be seeing so many of you soon, to work together in the field of energy and consciousness, and to let the life force energy do its very special thing…

The ENERGY RENEWAL SESSIONS sale is ending in a few days. Monday the 1st will be the last day to purchase sessions for $100 each, so the time is now if you want to take advantage of it!

Follow the link above and feel free to reach out with any questions.

photo Adrian Hutapea

Today I laid on the grass contemplating the beautiful sky, and this poem came to mind. I wrote this one night in the southwest, in 2022. Enjoy, and hope to see you soon!
Tracy


EARTH BODY SKY MIND

 It happened laying on my back 
Under an aggression of stars
A realization
That I can be inspired and awestruck by the sky
Because I lay on the earth
And my earthy body gives me everything I need 
To localize to a point
That can perceive
In the way that earth matter holds me
I can be wrecked divine
By what the stars can show me

Hello everyone!

I have an announcement...and new session type (well not new but CLAIMED) and a one week only sale. READ ON!

If you have been in sessions with me you know that at some point I will invite you to hop on the table and we will clear and move your energy, call in the guides, and receive intuitive support. 

This part of the work has always been one of my greatest joys, through channeling energy with and for you, things that my brain would never know or understand come forward, and I get to step back from my thinking and allow the energy, love, and guidance to flow. 

It is always a delight and feels like a special treat when someone is open to working in this way. 

And in service to the practice of doing what we really love more openly and unabashedly, I am creating a new type of session; ENERGY RENEWAL SESSIONS. 

In these one hour sessions we will talk a bit to find what is up and ready to be worked with for you, then we will move to the table for energy work and intuitive guidance, supporting and clearing out what is old and stuck and making room for what is juicy and alive, on so many levels of your being!

I am CELEBRATING this reveal of sorts by offering a SALE on these sessions, for ONE WEEK ONLY!
Starting today, Monday May 25th and running through Monday June 1st, ENERGY RENEWAL SESSIONS are only $100. (After June 1st, the price will be $150.) Purchase as many as you like now, and use them throughout the year, or give them as a gift. 

PURCHASE ENERGY RENWAL SESSIONS HERE

After you purchase you will receive a special code to use when you book.

Another cool thing, you do not have to be in the Portland area for a session, the energy moves just as well remotely with us on the phone or zoom.

I truly cannot wait to share this work with you, I absolutely love doing it, and excited to see how it ripples out into the world, because as we shift our energy, the energy of those around us shifts with us! 

Thank you for reading and being with me on this journey.
with love,
TRACY

photo by adrian hutapea

Hi everyone!

I cannot wait to feel you and see you in this community class.

We will be meditating and moving with heart energy, yummy, gentle.

Come for free or if you are called to make a donation please send it to the:

Asian Mental Health Collective.

Register in advance for the zoom link (also this helps me call in the energy for those who are in attendance!)

Register here

Tell you friends and invite them to come along… Low stress and inviting, we will be in a field of the heart, 45 minutes or maybe less.

See you soon,

Tracy

photo by adrian hutapea

Hello everyone!

I am sharing today a bit of our ALIGN process. We have been working with the chakras and next week we will be in the fourth chakra, the heart. This coincides with our ALIGN Night CLASS, which is open and free to all who would like to come. It will be about 45 minutes and focus on intuitive practices for the heart field. It will be yummy and I hope you can join. Link to sign up. 

This week in ALIGN we are exploring the third chakra and today our theme was Anger.

To me: Anger is one of those  super confounding energy currents in my system. I know it has a place, an important one, I know it is powerful and relates to boundaries, integrity, and protection. I know that suppressed anger is extremely damaging when it shoots outside, or inside in damaging and inappropriate ways.

Yet a healthy expression of anger is still so hard for me to land on, I get easily overwhelmed. And, like learning to really feel our grief, love, or joy, the nuance and intelligence of working with anger in a healthy way, is rarely modeled or taught in our communities, family systems, schools, or culture.

In ALIGN  I offered a series of journal questions (see  below) 

The one that really got me was:
Do I trust my anger?

I thought that is the key between this powerful current acting in service or in damage. Do I trust it? Do I trust when I have an intuition, a discomfort, a frustration about a person, place, or situation that there is vital insight being distributed? That the fire is acting as a cleansing, healing, and transformative power?

The current answer is No, or well sometimes. 

The thing about suppressed energy is it is volatile, it is holding to what has not been moved from the past, often long ago past, and sometimes what is not even our own past, and so it is somewhat untrustworthy to guide us in presence in the moment. This is the issue with us humans, our instincts and habits that keep us surviving not matter the cost are also the ones that can block us, weigh us down.

Another important question here was:
What is my ally in a healthy relationship with anger?

What came to me was: laughter.

This makes sense to me! Think of the relief of a big belly laugh, clearing out the stagnancy in the third chakra, helping our diaphragm, breath, voice, and heart do what they do best: refresh and renew our energy. 

Other potential allies may be movement, singing, sounding, playing sports, journaling, even screaming in your car. You can get help by being in a class, working theraputically with a professional, leaning in to a trusted friend. It may be you are in a place to understand more deeply where the anger comes from, how it has played a role in your life. All with the intention to clear old stagnancies and support fresh and present energy. Releasing in order to bring into focus what is actually here now. 

I hope with continued practice I can learn to trust my anger more and more, trust that when it rises it is having an in the moment response to a real life situation. Trust that I can then mobilize it energetically in real time in service to life, in service to my values, in service to the wellness of all beings, or move it through an another way that is aligned to the moment. That is real fire transformation.

Much love to you all,
Tracy

JOURNAL PROMPTS; ANGER (written as you would ask yourself)

1. How was anger viewed in my family growing up? (As in what was I told about it.)

2. How was anger expressed in my family growing up? (As in how did it actually live.)

3. What role has anger played in my life?

4. Do I trust my anger?

5. What typically kicks up anger in me?

6. Am I angry about anything now?

(Take a breath, feel your legs, feet, belly and ask your intuition to answer this next question:)

7. What is my ally in a healthy relationship to anger?

Thanks for reading! 

Here is how you can

SIGN UP FOR ALIGN NIGHT CLASS! 

Or reply to this email with any questions.

Happy Mothers Day to all of us
To all of us as babies to a mother, as children to a planet
As ones who have been born of another

There is damage in the myth of Jesus born of a sterile womb, like a test tube
Instead lets acknowledge something else
Muscle, cries, and blood
A giving of the flesh and soul from the heart of a mother

Let's thank the planet, our big mother
Or is it cringe to do so, because 
Thanking implies reciprocity and giving? 
If we rip something away from someone do we thank them? Perhaps with a smirk and a side eye. Earth has offered us everything we need, still as bratty human children we demand more and more, always more.

I don’t think when I kneel down and kiss the soil, or throw my beating heart on the sandy beach that  it is enough, but from my singular body it is a place to start.

I sing the praises, quietly and deeply

Thank you mothers, all mothers and all who mother: 
the earth, the humans, the canine moms with their hunting and licking, the matriarchal elephants who as a group surround the young when danger comes, the whale moms who lift the young even in death, the hawk and hummingbird both who carry the nourishment, the mother tree standing in the grove and pulsing, the planet, the goddess, and of course and always my mother, the one who birthed me. 

Here are notes from todays ALIGN session:

Joy is not a given, not something to seek externally, when we have no connection to the part of us that can receive it.

Yet, we all DO have a receptor, a receiver, for joy, love, peace, power, spirit. (By the way, these words are all short cuts, representing something unameable and alive. )

Sometimes the receptor is buried deep, hiding, almost fearful of being discovered because it may have not gone well in the past.

Tune the receptors, align the inner vibration, build the capacity to sustain connection to joy. This is a commitment, a practice, a daily dedication. It is hard to overcome unconscious patterns, after all.

Joy, love, peace, power- Not as an emotion but a frequency. Alive deep within all of us.

Joy is not given, and perhaps even the idea of joy needs to be reformed- joy not conflated with happiness, but joy as a stable energy that can live in our cells, our breath, our gut.

These energies come refreshed, renewed, not recycled.

Let’s research:

Here is a journal or meditation prompt:

How do you cultivate the conditions, in yourself, to resonate at the frequency of joy?

What practices in your body, mind, emotions, spirit activitly cultivate your inner receiver for the qualities you most desire, be that joy, love, peace, power?

(And of course, which ones are in active opposition to it?)

GOOD LUCK! And WHAT do you discover? Lets share our practices as collective resources.

AND…

If you have wanted to try a session or two of ALIGN —now is the time!

For the next 72 hours, till Monday April 13th, you have access to the recordings.

You can start with the most recent, April 9th, 2026, if you want to explore the questions above, or you can puruse the library till a title cathes you. THere are literally 100s of classes, all 30 minutes or less.

ACCESS RECORDINGS HERE

password: BLOOM

and I have a feeling there are one or two more people that spring align is aligned for, so I am holding a space for you till Monday, and then the session officially closes until summer term.

If this is you, reach out through email and I will get you all the info and sign up.

MEETING TIMES: through June 12th. tuesdays, thursdays and sometimes fridays, 30 minutes online classes steeped in embodiment, personal transformation, movement, creative play and energy work. On zoom or by recording

PRICE: $240 for the series, can be made in payments

all the best to every single one of you-

Tracy

SPRING IS FULL OF STORMS


Spring is full of storms, 
As if the life force urging its way through the elemental solidness 
Rocks the status quo and tips the balance
A teetering pinball of sun, rain, cold, heat
The river rushes voraciously
And  consumes its own banks
The flowers preen at the sun then
Puff their strength up against the beating rain

We too are in storms

And no matter how prepared we are we 
May get caught in an unexpected
deluge
Arriving somewhere
 In soaked clothing and wet hair- 
maybe shivering and laughing, or angry, or in tears-

Or we may walk into 
The sun in her spring reveal
Our bodies and souls responding
Like the tulips
Reaching and opening

Emotions are in storm
“There is a tempest inside me.”- 
a client said this week.
Unpredictable, fierce,
Dizzying bliss bumps against volcanic anger
Releases to racking grief
All of this may be within you

Imagine your body as a landscape, 
as a planet 
Like the earth
And the weather patterns
Are moving within and 
Around you
And while they may scare you
With the emotional intensity
They change you
Transform you
And nourish your planet
for the upwelling of growth 
That is to come 
That is here


For the tempest inside
Perhaps the time to control, I remind myself, 
the time
To suppress is over
But I remember a storm 
Over the ocean is a different beast than a storm in a canyon
Or battling against a mountain

If I shift the climatic conditions inside of me
For more space
By choosing
Breath
Movement
Compassion
And yes
Humor
What may shift in my own weather pattern?

There is a wildness I dont want to tame
But to channel
To transmute
To watch its brilliance
Not its destruction
And when the storm passes to honor its
Gift in the 
Way I  am blooming

Storms are one of the themes of Springs ALIGN-
And we creatively, joyously, imaginatively
explore them, as well as other spring things,
in our potent 30 minute classes
Of embodied practice, energy work, and journaling.

ALIGN Begins April 7th and runs through June 12th, 2-3 times a week, online and by recording, 8-8:30 am pacific. $240/series can be made in two payments.

To learn more about ALIGN go here, or reply to this email.

                                            
Hello everyone!

This email is chock full of goodness, so here is the deal:
1. WRITING ON SPRING- get into it!
2. INFO on next ALIGN SERIES- including the EARLY BIRD DEAL- (you have till the 28th of March)
3. THE PEACE FIELD info- a longtime friend is offering a very cool series if you are in the BEND area. 
4. The SEED SALON- performance improvisation this SATURDAY! lots of great peeps including yours truly 

I love you and hope you are well,
Tracy

ps, when you notice some imperfect grammer, or strange spelling mistakes, relish in the fact that no AI writing was used in the making of this post. 


SPRING- get into it.


Spring is wild, forceful, willful, after all it takes a tremendous force of energy to pop open bright pink buds from a slumbering stick.


"...you don't need any more of your springtimes to win me: one is already more than my blood can take." RILKE, 9th elegy translation Gary Miranda


There is a kind of wild enlivening as spring urgently exhales herself from underground, heeding to the sun, the rain, the wind, the hail, driving the grass to suddenly shoot up inches in a few days, the daffodils and the cherry blossoms to their vibrant swan song.

Under Spring's spell, We, the animals,  become restless, sometimes reckless; make declarations, engage in sporadic actions- begin, push, retreat, with the welling up force. 

We seek expressions of the life force, we thrill in risk.

Springtime seduces with her intoxicating scent- nightwalks in the first lurch of warm humidity become dizzying when the lilacs breathes, when we pass beneath the sexy round scent of flowing trees

And the unpredictable snapping back and forth, warm spring day, then grey sky, or an unexpected frost. The drama of the darkening sky before a spring storm; violent and needy, under its deluge the tulips lay down, hang on, and wait.

In the desert the dry canyon becomes a raging ravine- clear and apparent danger if you are caught in its path, perhaps even death. 

And then the spring leans back when it is over, See- she says- it was tough, you were afraid of the intensity of change, but now wildflowers are springing up, and animals come to drink.

Her wisdom of force and power is not to be played or under appreciated. Her beauty is stunning, the wheeling headiness makes us lose our fixed identities, and forge forward in the unstable patterns, bowing to change, bowing to wildness. 

We are in spring. In the northern hemisphere we are in spring. In the United States, we are in spring, In our consciousness, individually, collectively, we are in spring. I bow to you spring, may your energy guide us to a new way that honors the life force, that wraps around love, that responds to both urgent calls and gentle new paths. That is made of inherent hope because spring comes again and again.


ALIGN INFO- theme is spring!

REGISTER HERE

Tu/TH and sometimes FRI. 8-8:30 am PST, a few bonus times.$240/series. Can be made in two payments. $120 now, $120 by June 1.EARLY BIRD pricing- register by March 28th, $190/series. Can be made in two payments $95 now, $95 by June 1.

The next ALIGN theme is the energy of spring- fertility, growth, expansion, storms. Our short and potent practices are magnetized around this theme, with room for adjustments and evolutions. Each class I  will offer a thought or teaching, and a connected movement/dance prompt, meditation, or journal practice. While the classes follow an arc they are also stand alone.

This is an ONLINE series, live on zoom, or through recording. 

For the time period you are signed up you will have access to ALL the ALIGN classes for the past two years.



THE PEACE FIELD

My friend Aowyn Jones is offering something beautiful this spring in Bend. The Peace Field is a two-month community container running April 1-May 31, and it includes weekly in-person practices and gatherings for nervous system care, upliftment and genuine human connection. It's not a program to complete; you can participate in your own rhythm, as you're called. Sessions are available in packages of 6/$108 or 10/$150, with drop-in options as well. If this calls to you, learn more at wholefromthestart.com/the-peace-field.

THE SECRET SEED SALON

Once a month, artists share improvisations of all disciplines – dance, theater, music, poetry, spoken word, clown, visual art… you name it. Performances of 7-10 minutes will be followed by a spontaneous collaboration of all the evening’s performers. Each one has been so amazing!

March 28 is our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY Salon! We’re doing something really special: we’ll have an evening of collaborations of performers and artists from the last year.

We’ve been having such a great time hosting these and building community with artists and we want to dig in deeper to the community building aspect in celebration of such a great year of salons. 13 performers have signed on to the night’s collaborations: Adrian Hutapea, Darlissa Andrea, Isaiah Spriggs, Kat Freya, For the Living Earth, Jet Black Pearl, Loujká Létom, Mary Rose, Nathaniel Holder, Tracy Broyles, Tudie Stropparo, Yaara Perczek. And live painting by Jennifer Mercede.

Come join us in the audience to celebrate! At the end of the show, the audience is invited to stay and play in the studio.

INFO HERE.

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Hi everyone!

I shared this quote in one of our ALIGN sessions a few weeks ago. Then, we did a drawing practice to really see what was up and in our energy field, what was alive yet unexpressed. Collectively we shared about it, danced with it, connected to it.

But also-I have to own, when I first read this quote I was like.. REALLY? EVERY SINGLE ONE!? Every tear not shed, every protest not expressed? It is overwhelming- I am looking at 52 years of who knows how many unexpressed impluses of my emotional body. 52 years of probably swallowing grief and rage in an often unconcious response.

It is intense.

So I am chewing on it now (notice lots of throat metaphors), and the guidance that comes is- not every single slight, hurt, memory, needs to be dissected and unpacked in order to be released. In Core Energetics we learned how memories combine, energy attaches to like energy, so unpacking a sticky ball of grief, or a firey center of rage will move a lot of the past at once. Thank goodness.

If things are not in the conciousness how do we know they are there? Well, I also hate to admit how true this part of the statement is, but unprocessed emotions do come out in ways that are inappropriate, often hurtful of ourselves or others. And it is very human, who has not had the experience of their emotions flying out sideways? Of hitting against something or someone that you really dont actually feel that strongly about, but they somehow shook the little tendrils of the held feeling.

When it is misdirected and unexamined it causes a lot of trouble, but this is also the same process that provides the map to examine what is underneath, as well as the catharis of art. For instance; that movie that makes you cry, or laugh, or rage, that music that makes you shake it out. We crave catharis becuase it helps move stuck emotions.

And I have found, even more direct at clearing the old emotions is working on our own creative process. To access the deeper, more unconcious material we often need a process that bypasses our concscious and critical mind. We can draw, sound, MOVE- express, create. And then sit back and say, wow-what was that inside of me? What did this creative process reveal about what I was hiding from myself?

We move forward and embrace our shadow work, accept our emotions, and also— turn our gaze so that we are not trapped in endless cycles of analyzing (a mind process) every hurt, but instead having the courage to feel ( a body process) the intense emotions we were avoiding to begin with.

And then? Then what? Move through, move on, but move on with a drop of the courage to keep things expressed in the moment, to feel our feelings, cry our tears, voice our protests as they come up, not tuck them away for later processing. We can try at least. We keep creating, we keep learning and growing.

At least, I hope so! For my own sake and for yours.

WAYS TO ENGAGE FURTHER:

Community:

As I write this I am remembering my friend Tsuyuno is offering an online workshop called the Hearth of Rage- starting this Sunday, dealing specifically with fire and anger. Creating container for it to be felt, understood, honored and moved. I have been in several of her containers and they are potent and kind. You can ask her questions here: Tsuyuno at wandersensedream@gmail.com

Work with me:

ALIGN Spring Session- April 7th through June 12th.

For the spring series our theme is the energy of spring- fertility, growth, expansion, storms. Our short and potent practices are magnetized around this theme, with room for adjustments and evolutions. Movement, Meditation, Teachings, Journal prompts.

Tu/TH and sometimes FRI. 8-8:30 am PST, a few bonus times.

EARLY BIRD pricing- register by March 28th, $190/series. Can be made in two payments $95 now, $95 by June 1. After March 28th, $240/series.

QUESTIONS about ALIGN, SESSIONS, AND OTHER SMALL GROUPS EXPERIENCES: contact me directly by replying to this email.

The class plan was only a picture in my mind. A picture of a spiral galaxy.

So for context- in ALIGN, my morning practice class series, we are exploring energetic patterns, patterns of defense and patterns of movement.

Last week we started to work on expansion- what happens and has happened historically, when our energy is ready to expand and push out. And since everything moves in spirals, we connected with the radiant navel point and the movement from center to limbs.

So it was not out of the blue this image came, and yet it was a little perplexing.

OK, lets go with it, I thought. So now how to lead clients through a spiral galaxy practice that is curious and embodied? What movement, words, images and directions can I offer to connect them to the concept and the feeling and still give them room to really discover themselves in the exercise?

And one part become clear: Talk to this galaxy within, find out if it has a message.

Here is what I personally heard:

Spiral Galaxy within says:

All will be well.

It is not passive.

It is incredibly active and dynamic

It is not alone - but you must possess your center to be effective.

Love is at the center.

Black holes are the most powerful force in the universe.

Cohesion cannot be avoided.

Antiform and form.

It was so clear and organized I started to wonder:

How does free will fit in?

Free will is a collection of personal power.

What you call evil is never free will. (This was accompanied by a kind of image,,, sort of like a manipulated being…. Can’t quite grasp it yet…)

Only rebirth is free will. (This had another image, like a star shooting off to form new galaxy or cluster of stars.)

This second part had more of my own struggle in it, and so the guidance was less clear. The first part I was open and just wrote what I heard. I have noticed it is like this, I get the guidance short and clear, but my human has an insatiable quality that is like give me more! Then it always gets more muddy.

I think guidance speaks in matrixes that our humanity needs to spend time with, time to figure out how it applies to our lives in the moment. The personal power piece lies in this collaboration.

Of course now, I am curious about you! Can you imagine a moving, dynamic, spiralic galaxy within you? And not just image it, but feel it? And not just feel it, but communicate with it?

What happens if you try? What messages do you get? And if you want, Let me know!

In a desire to connect body, mind, spirit to access deep guidance and fierce love, I guide humans and animals with experiential anatomy, movement and embodiment training, energy work, creative rituals.

Weekly group and individual sessions are available, please reply to learn more.

AND the book INSTRUMENT of the INFINITE lets you move through practices at your own pace. Email me if you want a copy, or visit Amazon HERE.

Hello friends!

This week, In Tuesdays ALIGN, we were practicing the “I have everything I need” meditation (Here is a version on a previous newsletter.)

and I had an A-HA.

Because maybe you, like me, have been able to settle into a certain truth of this, that if we make the units of time smaller and smaller, this hour, this moment, this breath, that we often DO have everything we need. Moment to moment and breath to breath.

And yet there has always been a scratch at me about that, because, our need may also not be met, in big and small ways. We may not have everything we need, we may need food, or shelter, or love, we may actually need something more. And the calling of need can also be what pulls us into our path, tugs us into growth.

So how to work with the tension of need, and still cultivate the quality of having everything we need? To energetically vibrate in a place of fulfilled heart, abundance, of enough- i am enough, i have enough, you are enough… To vibrate and cultivate this precisely because we can get addicted to energetic lack, and then we are not able to hold a charge in our systems, and we give away energy before we allow ourselves to have it, or we take what is not ours.

So, back to the A-HA, it was this, spirit is required. Infinite self is required, the part of ourselves that is connected to the mystery is the one creating the container of “I have everything I need.” In other words, we are already whole.

And that the human and earthy part gets to feel that, and bump along with its desires, and needs, and wants, and have and have not, the human parts gets to travel along the rocky path of finite edges so we can experience things, real things, in this particular realm of tangible and touchable life. And again, that is what is being held by the energy of we are whole, we are connected, we are part of something immense and huge and expansive and something that does indeed contain everything we need.

That is what I am researching this week anyway, feeling both, the completeness from the most divine part of me holding the squirmy human who is always moving towards and away, rocking and reeling, and mostly in the dark. And as I share in the end of this short video.. perhaps all desire is a desire to be united with the cosmic field inside of us….

short clip from ALIGN:

Image of Rebecca and I after teaching our workshop this week about “preferences and needs.”

Let us call in a power, a higher power, the nameless,
Divine form we all have connection to,
are a part of-
The unitive field, that is conscious and sentient.

Feed the spirit that moves through all things
Let it wave through us
Giving us strength and purpose
courage, the heart wisdom,
To carry our part.

Do not Fear,
When you are overwhelmed-
Relax.

Our ego does not know how to
Right size our actions.

It thinks it must be a hero or nothing at all-

Ahh, now little ego
It is time to decentralize and organize
To lean in to the fungal society
Because it is here-

Put the heroes to rest
And fall into the webs spun
of courage and peace
Our hearts will emerge
Stronger, larger than
The idea of what
we can and
Cannot do.

The time of death (evolution)
Is the most important for releasing love
That changes the field, the air shimmers different, the
Firmament sighs–

Thank you Meshi for looking up Hildegarde with me, and Thank you Isabel for risking giving me the feedback on the poem.

Meshi is at

https://ecstaticdancers.com/

Isabel is at

https://substack.com/@isabelmctighe

INSTRUMENT OF THE INFINITE Workbook. Get your copies now!

REACH, RECOIL, and REST in person workshop with the incredible Rebecca Harrison on February 11th.

Tomorrow evening, Wednesday January 28th at 8 pm PST, I am honored to offer a relaxing, grounding, 30 ish minute meditation. We will clear our energy field, relax our bodies, and give our nervous systems and minds some much needed TLC.

This event is FREE and open to all on ZOOM. 

I hope you will join me.

Sign up HERE to get the link in your inbox.

much love,
Tracy

Thank you for being here and reading….

CORE

The fabric we are in is the fabric we are all in. Your body, energy field, and life force is part of what is happening in the world. All things connected means all parts of self, of our micro and macro world of experience and existence. At this time we are all in great need to feel more resourced, attend to our nervous systems, find a way to express emotions, and to land in safe and supportive community.

What we do in our minds and hearts matter, as in eventually it becomes the matter our physical body lives in. It starts within and moves without, and of course, our within is, and has been, deeply affected by the without. We practice letting go. We pulse, we breath, we return to our version of prayer, prayer within, and prayer in action.

I love being on this path with you. I truly do. This messy, intense, path of terror and beauty. This week in my sessions and classes there was a great need to regulate, and return to the essence of self, to be held in the part of ourselves that is at our core. The part that is infinite and indestructible, and letting that upwell through the rest of our system and into our current life.

This short meditation from ALIGN this week is centered around that:

I hope you enjoy it! My aim with the content I put out in this newsletter, in videos, and in my workbook is to give you creative ways to explore yourself, connect with your body, show up as you feel called.. and also to love you up. To give a good dose of the stable vibratory current of love. I hope you feel it.

RELAX INVITATION

If you like this format of potent and short practices from your own home, please join me next Wednesday for simple and sweet evening relaxation practice. It is to shed the day and prepare for sleep.

And it is FREE! And open to everyone.

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Wednesday January 28th 8:00 pm PST come cozy

And now for an IN PERSON WORKSHOP ANNOUNCMENT!

Our emotionally charged belief systems, the ones that lives at the level below conscious awareness, action, reaction, and perception tend to run our lives when we are not aware of them. Survival patterns are instinctual and alive in all of us. Without examination they can hook us into repetitive behaviors that are accompanied by thoughts that do not let us grow and evolve.

One of the many inroads to understanding this patterns within us is through embodied practice, observing sensation, tension and release patterns in the body, and the movements they provoke.

REGISTER HERE

This is what Rebecca Harrison and I will be exploring in our two hour workshop- Reach, Recoil, and Rest. This time together will be juicy for the body, compassionate for the awareness building, and playful in its activities.

And the material for this workshop was developed through a creative grant from Chelle Hammer. Big thank you to Chelle!!

questions? respond to this email.

With love,

Tracy