The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

I’ve spent a lot of my life being palatable, especially inside of the partnerships and friendships where I felt unsafe. Being likeable kept people from leaving, or worse, kept them from seeing the real me. It kept me from being seen as “too much” in many ways.

In high school I went from being the “freak” (as they called me) to being a “normal” popular girl. I traded in my black clothes, band tees, plaid pants, and black eyeliner for polos and jeans. I wanted to be liked. I wanted to be seen. I wanted to not have people cough the word “weirdo” when I walked down the hall. And yet, when I think back to my days of nu metal, death metal, emo and punk rock, I felt the most free. When I think back to the friendships I had during those times, they were the most real, the most authentic, and the only friendships I had known real peace inside. I had been safe to be my unique, weird, strange and expressed self. But something happened when I put on that American eagle tank top, and slipped into those skinny jeans. I became more charming, more likeable, and more “easy” to be around. I laughed off the gossip from the girls I became friends with, clones of my friends in earlier days — before my rebellious phase. I laughed off the snide comments and cruel looks. The judgement, the expectations, the falseness. I put on a pretty smile, a big personality, and pretended I wasn’t depressed, suicidal, and a boarder line alcoholic. Anything to be liked.

At some point, I learned that it was safer… easier, to be liked. So I pushed down who I really was and pretended everything was alright. Looking back I realize none of my friends were alright in high school. The people I was hanging out with at the time also had broken families, hard parental experiences, and their own deep traumas they were working through. I think about it now and I can almost pin point the ones who are most likely working through wounds of people pleasing, fawning, and being likeable in this life. Of course we found each other.

I recently connected with an ex, who has remained a friend over the last almost 20 years. He said something that stuck me. He confessed he had no memories of me being angry, he remembered my Libra rising side. Charming, level headed, calm. This was telling for me, because this reminded me I had always felt that if I had shown my true, intense, hot headed side, it would have chased him away. On the other hand, if you ask my husband if he has seen me angry he would merely laugh and say that I burn hot and fast, and that I always have. He sees the swings of my intense rage flaring up and calming and settling into regulation. I am safe with him to blow my top (appropriately) and anger is safely expressed inside of our relationship. I don’t hold anything back. I don’t shrink. I don’t fawn. I say the thing, always. I know he can hold it. But this isn’t the case inside of all my relationships.

I wonder now, as I am about to turn 36, is the world a more beautiful place when we attempt to keep the peace? I’m not sure. As a Libra rising I naturally I hate war and crave peace, but as I wrote inside of the piece on Sagittarius, the 9th house, and Jupiter — that might change if the enemy was at my door. I saw the part of me that can stand up and fight during what happened in 2020. I saw the parts of me that were unwilling to be palatable anymore.

I watch the world that many of the Libra in Pluto generation are birthing, as they arrive in positions of power, and I see what people pleasing, boundary issues, and not saying the hard thing has created. I watch as people around me shrink themselves to fit inside of relationships that are tormenting them and I wonder when they (and I) will feel brave enough to say the hard thing. In my own life I meet these themes through friendships, in my work, through internet trolls when I “take the high road”, and beyond. For others they meet it inside of their partnerships, with their kids, their family members and beyond. Maybe you’re already thinking about the many areas in your life you have also made yourself more easy to digest… where you’ve softened, where you violate your own boundaries in order to be liked, or at least not judged.

In this piece I want to discuss the cost that comes with keeping the peace, and how people with wounds inside of Libra, the 7th House, on the Descendant, and with Venus will continually initiate a soul into working through these themes.

Remember, you might not see yourself in everything I write, you might only find pieces of yourself. As I’ve mentioned before, don’t attempt to fit yourself into a wound that isn’t there. Simply let this piece reveal to you any wounds that already exist. Astrology is a spectrum and it expresses differently for all of us.

Let’s dig in.

Inside this paid piece of The Wounds of the Zodiac, you’ll explore the wounds and the medicines of people pleasing, fawning, shrinking, and the cost of wanting to be liked and keeping the peace. I’ll guide you through what these areas of the chart look like through lived client experience and more. I’ll show you exactly where to look in the chart, what placements might create more past life wounding. PLUS, I’ve added some shadow work journal prompts at the end to take you deeper into alchemizing the wounds.

Bonus: If this section of ‘The Wounds of the Zodiac’ hits home for you, listen to this podcast after this piece.

People Pleasing, Fawning, and Boundaries

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The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

Being here on earth, as we all know, is a hard Saturnian experience. The ancients thought that Saturn was the boundary of our universe, and so it is thought that we feel the physical Saturnian limitation being here on earth. When we move beyond those boundaries we meet new energies, of those being Neptune. Being here on earth, in physical form, in itself carries deep wounding and can be deeply painful, whether that’s emotional, mental, or pain found in the body. Here we enter the space where emotions and metaphysical experiences, as well as generational karma, can manifest as chronic dis-ease, escapism, saviour syndrome and more. There is hardness to being here on earth, there is a density, and this density is the very thing that Pisces and 12th house placements seek to escape from, as well as highly Neptunian people. They often long to transcend this physical plane. These signatures have the soul remembrance of what the Divine felt like. And when I say that, know that all souls have that remembrance, I believe we all remember what it feels like to be in the cosmic womb and crave returning it. It’s just that those working with the archetypal experience and this type of karma seem to have a deeper desire to be back there where things were not so physical and more boundless — and they’ll often so whatever it takes to get closer to Source/God/The Universe.

The way my own heavy 12th house signature has attracted highly neptunian, 12th house, and Piscean people into my life never fails to astound me. My husband, a Pisces rising and sun, with a 12th house Venus. My best friends, many of which are Pisces moon with heavy 12th house placements. Clients, friends, exes. All heavily focused in this area of the chart confirming my 12th house sun work of accessing and understanding these depths in this life. I am surrounded by this energy which on the one hand softens my Virgo and Leo intensity, and on the other feeds into my own need to escape from society. A blessings, and sometimes a curse. I write this from my small home on top off a mountain, as far as I could get comfortably from the nearest city, while still having amenities near by. Neptune aspects almost everything in my chart, sitting in my 4th house in Capricorn in whole signs at 11º in retrograde, sandwiched between Uranus and Saturn.

When I first started diving into the themes around escapism, addiction, alcoholism, and absence that these energies can bring into our lives, I finally felt like I understood my youth. I told you part of my story inside of the chapter on Cancer, the 4th house, the moon & IC, but let me reflect a little more for you now. My father was absent, as he lived hours away and I would begrudgingly visit him every other weekend and have to put up with my evil step mother. My mother was mentally present until I was 11, though her absence came in the form of working hard to try and pay the bills, a typical 4th house Capricorn, 12th house Virgo Sun story. By the time I was 11 my mom had suffered a severe loss and moved deep into depression, taking anti depressants that made her a zombie, and she began drinking heavily. I was utterly alone at this time, another typical Neptunian, Piscean, 12th house story. Neptune often shows us what is absent and the wounds associated with that. For me, Neptune is trine my sun, and inconjunct my Moon. The signatures that show us the relationship to mother and father tinged with the rays of Neptune. My sun in the 12th house echoing the sentiment. My Ceres, another energy we can understand mother wounding through, is also in my 12th house. My mother was much more physically present, as I lived in her home, but was consumed by the Neptunian and 12th house themes of pharmaceuticals and alcohol, echoing my 4th house. Needless to say, I felt like a victim for a large portion of my life.

I started drinking young. I was skipping school to get drunk off my friends parents booze at 12. I was high from morning until night every day of grade 9 as I entered high-school more depressed than ever. I began black out drinking around 15 every single weekend because the pain of being alive was far too much to handle. I faked my friendships, and somehow faked my way through the end of high-school receiving honours as I entered university. I would wake up not knowing where I was often with vomit down the side of the bed, or pieces of my hair burnt off from my drunken reckless night. More than a few nights of my life my best friends dad had to drag me up my front steps, unlock my door, and ask me if I was going to make it into the house okay. I’m not proud of these times, and I’m sad that no one was paying attention to how truly not okay things had gotten. I was deep inside of my 12th house, my Neptune, and even my 6th house Pisces where the asteroid karma lives conjunct my Hygeia. Learning to become embodied and present in this life has been my greatest work.

I share this with you to help you understand part of the Piscean, 12th house, Neptunian need to escape, to move into fantasy, and why it feels so common for these energies to have lives of themes like drugs, alcohol, and attempts to transcend the body. Earth can feel extremely difficult to people living with placements in this part of the chart. Often people living with Pisces, 12th house, and highly Neptunian signatures are deeply lonely, feel too much, and have a lot of ancestral and collective karma they are processing. When I was fully able to understand my birth chart and the repeating signatures and patterns that lived here and how they weaved into other past life patterns in my life I was more able to understand who I was, why my childhood had felt so hard, and able to find a deeper level of self acceptance and acceptance of my parents. I was able to personally accept that my soul had intentionally meant to work through these themes, and in turn start to understand that maybe there was a super power in all I had been through.

The past life themes linked to Pisces, the 12th house, and Neptunian that I have seen over and over include many lives of living in isolation by choice, or by force — monasteries, hospitals, prisons, isolated, alone, etc. Lives of escaping into their minds to escape imprisonment can be themes that could come up, often I’ve seen this with lives of torture in past life regressions, or severely intense lives. There are lives of seeking enlightenment, God, Source, to transcend the physical and come back into spirit, bliss, source, or the “cosmic womb”. These lives are also often connected to artists and creatives lives of seeking universal love, who are tapped into the collective, and even experience deep health crisis. These are our poets, painters, and deep feeling people of the past, and of the future.

Of course these energies have many other imprints and implications tangled into them, so let’s dive in.

Keep reading to explore the wounds and past life themes of Pisces, the 12th house, and Neptune, including wounds around highly sensitive people, addiction, fantasy, escapism and more.

Inside this paid piece of The Wounds of the Zodiac I’ll guide you through what these areas of the chart look like through lived client experience and more. I’ll show you exactly where to look in the chart, what placements might create more past life wounding. PLUS, I’ve added some shadow work journal prompts at the end to take you deeper into alchemizing the wounds.

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The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

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About a hundred years ago, before I was an astrologer, I read the book ‘Astrology for the Soul’ by Jan Spiller, one of the greatest books on the North and South Node in Astrology.

It was 2014, and all I knew about astrology was sun signs, and what I had read in the many little zodiac books my mom had bought when I was a kid. I sat there reading the section about my North Node in Aquarius, and South Node in Leo, and felt like someone had literally been watching my entire life and wrote a book about my most personal experience. It was tender, exposing, and achey. There were a lot of my wounds on display for the entire world to see.

Fast forward to astrology coming full tilt into my life in 2019. The Nodes of Fate became one of the most important conversations inside of astrology, and within my body of work for many reasons. For one thing, the deep exposure of self I found through understanding my own South Node had changed the trajectory of my life. Secondly, I saw the impact when people understood where they were coming from and their engrained patterns through the South node — and the focus that the North Node can offer when we fully understand the story.

Whenever I am asked where to begin unlocking past life patterns in the chart I offer the same answers, look to the Moon, Pluto, and of course, The Nodes of Fate.

What are the Nodes of Fate?

In case you’re brand new to these placements in astrology, or maybe you need another explanation of what the Nodes of Fate really are, let’s touch on that now.

The Nodes of Fate, or the Nodes of the Moon, are not physical points in time and space, but instead mathematical points in the sky. I won’t get too scientific on you now, mostly because that’s not my strong suit, but basically they’re the mathematical points of the moons orbit.

All you need to remember is this, “The Nodes of the Moon are the exact mathematical points where the Moon’s orbital path crosses the Earth’s orbital plane. They mark where the Moon crosses up or down across the path that the Sun appears to travel around the Earth.” (Thanks, google)

The North Node is also called the Head of the Dragon, while the South Node is the Tail of the Dragon. Picture for a moment a dragon moving across your chart from one house to another. The head would be in one sign and one house, while the tail would be moving from another house and sign.

The North Node shows the direction you are moving in, or what you’re moving toward. This is linked to the experiences, expressions, energies and soul lessons you are here to develop personally through your own North Node, and then by transit, the area of life you’re being asked to realign through fated twists and turns. The North Node is connected to your growth, evolution, and the parts of self that may feel unfamiliar at first, but help us expand into our potential, if we let it.

The South Node on the other hand, shows where you have already been, or where you are coming from. It exposes the old patterns, skills, instincts, and experiences you carry with you from the past through your natal placement, and by transit the area of life and expression you’ll be asked to release or redesign at that time. We can view this through past lives, ancestral inheritance, or deeply ingrained conditioning. These are the things that often come naturally to you because they are familiar, habitual, and engrained. Counter to older teachings you might find, the South Node is not “bad” or something you need to abandon, it actually contains deep mastery and great soul lessons. It holds some of your most powerful gifts, wisdom, and natural abilities. The challenge comes when you become too attached to what is comfortable and keep repeating old patterns that no longer support our growth.

The journey of the Nodes of Fate is about the integration process. How do you bring the wisdom of the South Node forward while consciously stepping toward the lessons of the North Node?

The South Node asks you: “What patterns, beliefs, and behaviours have shaped me? and what am I ready to release, shed, and redesign?” While the North Node asks you: “Who am I becoming, and what experiences will help me grow into that version of myself in this area of my life?”

It’s important to note that these teachings, though deeply correct in my experience, are relatively new to astrology since the 1900’s, medieval teachings viewed the North Node as good, and the South Node as bad, and Vedic and medical astrology has a completely different view on them. The short article below is a great reference point for looking at the Nodes differently, which I think is important to do.

To add to this, in medical astrology we find that the North Node creates growth, it is gluttonous. The South Node leaks and purges. It’s important we keep these themes in mind when we’re attempting to understand what a nodal shift may bring into our lives.

This means that though, yes, most astrologers have found it to be true that the North Node helps us move toward our higher path, it can also become an area of imbalance, over-growth, and over consumption. Being aware of this as we watch each 18 month cycle of the nodal shifts collectively helps us see why things can be less than blissful around the energy of the North Node, and why we experience such polarity between the South Node’s opposing energies. Maybe it’s just my Libra rising talking, but I believe we are always looking for balance.

The Aquarius North Node x Leo South Node

If I could teach you one thing about astrology, let it be this. Everything exists with polarity. We cannot have one sign without the opposing sign. They exist in tandem, and are expressions of each other. The Nodes of Fate shows us the truth in this. The signs are like the yin yang sign with bits of each other in sacred expression within the other.

When it comes to the axis of Leo and Aquarius we find the polarity between self and others, between me vs the collective, between the ruler vs the people, the performer vs the visionary, the solo vs the network, the ego vs the tribe.

Aquarius cannot exist without Leo.

Leo cannot exist without Aquarius.

We cannot have self without the reflection of other (which we also find highlighted in the Aries/Libra axis). We cannot have inner creation without the way it is received by the community. We cannot express our inner creative self without knowing what it means to be received by the collective. And this is where the fear of belonging, and the wound of performing become amplified.

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Your Role in the Collective

Your role in the collective is first found within your heart.

Without first understanding and accessing the inner Leo landscape of your life, you cannot full excavate and understand your aquarian terrain. This doesn’t mean that if you have a lot of aquarian placements and no Leo placements you cannot be fully embodied as an Aquarian. It means that the wheel of the chart runs as a wheel for a reason, and polarity exists to help us examine two opposites that exist within all of us.

Every single one of us have a house that is ruled by Leo, and a house that is ruled by Aquarius in our charts. Yes, even if you’re using one of those very shitty apps that tell you you do not have a house ruled by Leo, you do. Please use a reputable reader like astro.com, time passages, or cafe astrology and if you’re doing advanced readings I highly suggest astro gold/solarfire.

This means that you have an area of your life that is under the influence of the energy of Leo and an area of your life that is under the influence of Aquarius — even if nothing is there in your chart. These are the landscapes, or stages, of your life that these energies express on.

Let me give you a quick example from my own chart. I am a whole signs house system girl, and so Leo governs my 11th house of community, networking, friendship and belonging. Aquarius, directly opposite, rules my 5th house of pleasure, romance, and creative expression. These are the areas of my life where I experience the energies — aka, the magick, the wounds, the aches, and the love — of these energies.

Take a second to note what houses Leo and Aquarius rule in your chart.

Aquarius governs many things like belonging, group think, humanitarian causes, technology, and logic. It also helps you understand part of our vision for the collective and your role in the world, especially when we pair it up with what is happening in your 11th house. Whether you feel like you’re included in the group, whether you find friendship easy, whether you feel safe tapping into your futuristic vision for the world and stepping into the uncomfortable role of creating social change… it’s all found here.

I wrote you a full piece on this inside of the wounds of the zodiac here.

But in order to understand your role in the collective, it’s important you understand who you are, what makes you tick, and what the creativity within you desires to birth into the world through mediums like art, play, joy, and pleasure.

You’ve heard it a hundred times, you cannot serve from an empty cup.

And yet I’ve seen most highly Aquarian and 11th house souls do exactly that. They turn their hobbies into jobs, their pleasure into service, and their passion becomes the change rather draining the joy out of their every day life.

The opposite can be true as well. The overly focused Leo/5th house soul is only focused on self and what their creations can get them, finding approval, or sometimes so tapped out of the human need to be of service, they’re completely disconnected from their role in the community.

I’m not here to demonize either of these ways of living. Often the artists impact exists regardless if they’re consciously attempting to create social change, and often the social change maker natural creates their own art through their work. I am here to offer a reframe around balance.

Your role in the collective often comes from the inner capacity for your most creative work, and in tandem, your creative work will often offer some sort of ripple of social change. But this is only done well when it comes from the heart.

This only happens when logic and genius (Aquarius) are connected to the heart (Leo).

Where we’re heading: Aquarius & your role in the collective

The next 18 months will carry many themes personally for you, and one of those will be moving through the focus of the North Node moving through Aquarius. I could give you 100 keywords for what Aquarius rules, or I could access the deeper tendrils of what themes you’ll be meeting as we all meet this collective transit.

Both collectively and personally we will all have to come into deeper conversation with what Pluto has been ushering us into since 2023, aka, our power as individuals in the collective make up, coming to terms with our future as a community, and what that means for each of us as citizens of Earth. Do we belong? Are we in relationship or even control with our world? No, it’s not a surprise that the global “Elite” are attempting to usher in a one world government, and push through “agenda 2030”, and it’s not a coincidence that we feel like we’re living through a sci-fi movie/book right now (or 6). This is the futuristic lens of the Aquarian vision for a new world. But it’s not all doom and gloom. The important part is that we remember that we the collective are powerful, even in the 1 percent attempt to convince us that we have no real role in social change.

I’ve been talking to a lot of people since the day the North Node moved into Aquarius about what we can do. We see the chaos, the pain, and the fear “out there”, but how do we create social change? Unfortunately I am not here to answer that question, but I do know that it begins on the individual level including what we speak about, what we care about, and the impact and ripple we have on our community. But that starts within, which takes us into the South Node in Leo which I’ll talk about in a second.

We’re going to see a rise in technology, in the AI conversation, in the feeling of powerlessness as individuals as we move through this moment — but we can also find hope in with this energy if we begin to move toward freedom, live more in our radical unique individual expression, and allow ourselves to break free from the social contracts we’ve all been convinced are real.

I know, easier said than done.

Aquarius on the one end seeks freedom and liberation through future vision, and on the other hand will become so hive minded that it will not allow for anything that goes against the vision.

I’ll also add how unconventional things become under the energy of Aquarius. We break boundaries here, socially, relationally, and systemically.

The high octaves? A bigger focus on power to the people, a deepening of belonging, heightened awareness of social freedom, and a desire to usher in new ways of being individual humans, technological advancements.

The low octaves? Hive mind thinking, crushing decent or anything that goes against the narrative, and over dependence on logic, technological karma, and fear of the individual.

I talk more about this inside of the Collective Karma workshop inside of my monthly membership, You Are The Cosmos here.

Where we’re shedding: Leo & comes from your creative self

I can’t tell you how many clients I’ve worked with lately that have shrunk themselves over the last few years, or worse, since childhood, who are attempting to dig themselves out of the darkness and finally shine their light again. This is the work.

For some it’ll mean digging through the ego, the pain points around who you are and how they (aquarus, aka the community) judge you, and whether or not their coming for you with pitch forks.

For others it will mean being humbled to hell, maybe even a fall from grace as you begin to see clearly how much mental capacity has taken up space in the story of “you”. It’s hard to admit, trust me, I know.

We will likely see the fall of leaders, good and bad, and maybe the rise of “benevolence” — again, good or bad. Eclipses historically have been connected to the falls of kings, leaders, and politicians, and in Leo this becomes amplified as Leo is the monarchy, the kings, the rulers.

We’ll likely see the continued fall of Hollywood, but we might also see what I’ve been feeling into as a renaissance. For example, as the rise of AI happens, more and more artists are being called to create in an act of rebellion against the machine. This could be the most beautiful medicine for Aquarius getting out of hand, and yet a healing for the South Node in Leo in the world. We’re already seeing an Aquarian type resistance as AI companies are buying up rare books and consuming our human creations on mass for free, and using it to sell AI to the masses. People are in an outrage, and we may see more of the power shifting to the people, or we may see more technology themes fight against the human heart and soul of expression (Leo). What I think is even more interesting is around the approximate time the printing press was invented the South Node was moving through Aquarius, a technological advancement that allowed creative expression to thrive, A North Node Leo moment.

The high octave? A deepening of the creative path, the desire to come back into hobbies, romance, pleasure and expression, and a beautiful focus on leading from the heart.

The low octave? Tyrants and bullies, egomaniacs and leaders falling from grace, facing major visibility wounds, and the rejection of self expression.

The Past Life Patterns

Though the karmic patterns you’ll experience will entirely depend on where this transit is activating your chart, collectively the themes will be tied into collective karmic patterns as well as personal karma related to will, power, sense of self, impact, and leadership.

In one of my favourite astrology books, ‘Karmic Connections’ by Judy Hall she speaks of the many types of karma we meet here on earth, especially when we’re in relationship with other people — which this axis of energy brings us into. Themes that come to mind are your personal karma, group or racial karma, cosmic karma, retributive karma, communication karma, and I’ll add technology karma.

Each house brings its own karmic themes, you can dig deeper into those themes using my Free Essential Guide to Karmic Astrology here.

Nodal Returns

Astrological returns, aka, the placement in the sky returning to the exact place it was in when you were born, are major moments in our life. The Nodal Return in particular I like to think of as a fated check point. Are you in alignment with part of your life purpose?

I have my North Node in Aquarius, and South Node in Leo, so let’s go back to my story about when I first read ‘Astrology for the Soul’ for a moment. What I discovered while reading that book was that I had spent most of my life seeking approval, accolades, and celebration for my artistry. Now, this isn’t always a bad thing. I am in fact an artist, a singer, a songwriter, a writer, a painter, and many other things. But reading Jan Spiller’s words I found the most intense aches I had constantly met — my need for approval. I wanted to be seen as something special because deep within me I felt inherently special, a Leo South Node trait. I know for a fact I’ve spent many lives in leadership positions, and I’ve also experience intense falls from grace in very Aquarius fashions (one in particular ended in my death through revolution of the monarchy). As I tapped into the life path of an Aquarian North Node I felt something shift in my bones. When I leaned toward receiving external praise things always went haywire. I felt off in my body, my expression felt stunted, and I would often try to be what people wanted me to be, instead of myself. When I leaned into my more Aquarian traits I felt free. When I was playing my role in the collective as an agent of social change things went well. I felt lit up, excited, aligned, and fulfilled. Now, in my example, my Nodes are switched in the 11th and 5th, so I am playing out both of these energies in opposition — both must be expressed for me. For you this will look different.

My first nodal return through December 2007 to August 2009 was the ultimate shedding point in my life. I stopped talking to the girls I was friends with, the ones I had never felt safe to be myself with, when I found out they were all talking behind my back. I cut them out over night and never spoke to them again. I experienced the most crushing loss of romantic love I have ever experienced, and somehow met the guy that would encourage me to be more myself and free me from my wounds of belonging through our summer romance (the North Node in the 5th house of romance). I was finally alive for the first time in years as I danced, laughed, and found the deepest friendships of my life. I was free.

I share this with you so that you can see a real life Nodal Return play out before your eyes. Maybe you’re already thinking back to this time in your life to understand what happened for you when the Nodes returned to your natal placement and how pivotal this point in your life was.

This is the fated check point. The South Node cleared my ego out, my friendships out (11th house + Aquarius), and put me on the path toward my North Node through romance, passion, pleasure and creativity.

That is about to happen again for you, and for me. Maybe you can already feel it?

Reverse Nodal Returns

The reverse nodal return is another form of check in as the South Node hits your North Node to help you clear out any mis-alignments in this area of your life. It’s a time of reflection in order to question how your path forward is going, if you’re in alignment, and I often say it feels like bumper cars. If you’re just slightly in the wrong lane? Yeah, you’re getting bumped back into the path that is right for you. The North Node is going to highlight themes around your South Node to help you see where you’re leaking, where you’re still stuck in old habitual patterns, and how you can start to live differently.

I love the way it was put here “During these times, the universe flips the script. You’re asked to reckon with old karmic tendencies and reevaluate what “comfort” is costing you.”

What I would do, if I were you

Take a moment to reflect on the themes already coming up in your life.

For example, I love taking a minute at the start of a transit to see what themes come up naturally. This is how we stay in the experiment of life with astrology, rather than becoming dogmatic about what astrology means. I am already meeting so many nodal themes as I enter the prep phase for my nodal return. Dreams with themes of performance and community. Conversations around what our role is in creating change in a world becoming more and more chaotic. Seeing the horror of AI companies consuming and destroying rare books on mass and then connecting the dots around the printing press being creating in the reverse nodal shift (more on this in an article soon) Tastes of romance, music, and aliveness I haven’t felt since the last time the nodes met these energies. What a joy it is to be consciously aware of this nodal return in a whole new way, this go around. Music feels more alive right now. I’m witnessing a renaissance in the trance world, the metal world, my own musical world. Art feels more alive than ever as we push back against technology. My aliveness moves through me even as I work with themes eternally with my body. I am so aware of what I will meet over the next 18 months, and yet still ready for the unexpected. This is the magick of astrology.

What has already surfaced for you? These might be the very themes you will continue to meet as we move through this transit. But remember, your chart is a complex beast and you are experiencing many other transits beyond this nodal change.

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The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

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When we go back through time and look at what Sagittarius, the 9th house and Jupiter all show us, the threads between them are quite similar and connected. This is of course why Jupiter rules Sagittarius, and the 9th house. In ancient astrology Sagittarius is connected to prophecy, higher wisdom, and the quest for truth. The aim (pun intended) of this energy is the freedom that comes from the ultimate quest for truth. The 9th house in ancient astrology houses higher learning, foreign travel, philosophy, religion, ideology, and the quest for meaning. Placements in this house seek expansion and freedom through the quest to make meaning out of life, much like Sagittarius. And Jupiter rules expansion, wisdom, fortune and, of course, justice. These energies all seek the similar path. They are on a quest and exploration for more in this life through the many inward and outward journeys in order to find truth. The freedom of truth, the freedom of knowledge, the freedom that is brought through higher education — and the desire to then share and teach what they have learned with others.

I’ve talked about the importance of owning our shadows as we dig into each wound, but that doesn’t become easier just because we are able to see ourselves in the wounds — no matter how much inner work we do.

Wounds around morality, belief, faith, and dogma are some of the hardest things to accept about the self. It’s hard to accept that maybe there is a part of you that gets stuck on a belief, an ideology, an idea, or you are unwilling to change that belief even with evidence presented to contradict your way of thinking. It’s hard to believe or accept we’re unshakable at times, because this is what ideals and beliefs do to people.

The word morality is interesting, because though it can be defined as principles of thinking that define right or wrong, as humans we have a hard time agreeing on what that means. Is war wrong? Of course. Unless the enemy is at your doorstep. Is killing wrong? Of course, unless your life is in danger, or your family is threatened. Here comes the proverbial “would you steal to feed your family” question. Is it wrong to steal if you are starving? Questions like this, and moral conundrums have plagued philosophers throughout time. People working with wounds in Sagittarius, the 9th house, and with a dominant Jupiter in their chart struggle with these moral philosophies the most. These placements can be the benevolent guide, and the ideological tyrant (depending on other placements involved) for that simple reason — religion, belief, ideology and morality all make it very easy for someone to justify the pain they cause others.

There are lives linked to the quest for knowledge, for understanding, and as I mentioned earlier, the freedom that comes from gathering enough wisdom to become, well, wise. But life is messy, and so is the creator.

Keep reading to explore the past life themes of Sagittarius, the 9th house, and Jupiter, including wounds around religious trauma, cult conditioning, dogma, righteousness, moral superiority, spiritual authority, and the search for absolute truth.

Inside this paid piece of The Wounds of the Zodiac, I’ll guide you through how these karmic patterns can manifest in the birth chart, what transits to these areas may awaken, and which placements can indicate unresolved past-life experiences around belief systems, philosophy, education, and spiritual identity. PLUS, I’ve included shadow work journal prompts at the end to help you dismantle inherited beliefs, reclaim your inner authority, and alchemize these karmic wounds into embodied wisdom.

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The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

The mother wound.

Books have been written on it. Talks and teachings revolve around it. I’m sure the term is nothing new to most people. It’s everywhere in our hyper trauma focused world, and for good reason. This wound lives deeply within so many of us, as time and culture have done anything and everything it can to severe the ties between Mother and child, between Mother Gaia and our hearts. The more disconnected we are from Mother Earth, the more disconnected we are from our own relationship to mothering. The more abundance is stripped away from this world into the hands of the few, the more the belief that we are fed from the fountain of the mother is stripped from us. The role of the mother in society can help us connect the many wounds that exist within this world, which itself is a spectrum containing multitudes of layers from the absent mother (by choice or not) to the smother. When the mother is wounded, the world is wounded. When the mother is devouring, the world suffers. Just look at how disconnected we’ve become as a society to the cycles of life that are represented by the Moon.

Disconnected or wounding with the mother is one of the ultimate pain points found in this life, because the mother represents our first safety point. She is home. She is the ultimate place of comfort, safety, and nourishment. She is the great met, or un-met, need.

Though we often find wound of incarnation in the 1st house, and wounds linked to gestation and pre-birth in the 12th house, we find the connection to the expectation and actuality of the mother inside of the Moon, Cancer, and sometimes the 4th house. Judy Hall speaks of the soul expectation through the moon sign inside of her books The Karmic Journey and Karmic Connections. One of the most powerful things she mentions is that the moon shows the souls expectation of the mother, but what often ends up happening is the experience of the low octave of that sign. For instance, the Cancer moon may crave a deeply nurturing mother, but ends up finding their mother is overly attached, smothers them, or they feel unable to break away from her crushing love, especially when other placements like Pluto get involved. As I’ve mentioned, everything in the zodiac exists on a spectrum and so the soul can crave the highest octave of a sign, only to experience the lowest.

Keep reading to explore the past life themes of Cancer, the 4th house, the Moon and the Imum Coeli including wounds around mothering, family, ancestry, and nourishment.

Inside this paid piece of The Wounds of the Zodiac I’ll guide you through what transits to these areas of the chart look like through a lived client experience. I’ll show you exactly where to look in the chart, what placements might create more past life wounding. PLUS, I’ve added some shadow work journal prompts at the end to take you deeper into alchemizing the wounds.

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The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

To wander and seek

Life is a pilgrimage, and we are constantly seeking to make meaning of things by going out in the world, having new experiences, and building our belief systems through them. For some, going out into the world can be a scary thing. It feels overwhelming. There are too many people, cultures, experiences, views of life, and belief systems to digest. Some would shy away from the exploration of the world because of this, some because righteous and dogmatic believing their way is the one way. For others moving out into the world and experiencing the many colours or reality feels like the only way to live, there are many ways. For these people life is about the next horizon, the next (physical or metaphorical) mountain they’ll climb, and what they’ll learn along the way. Surprisingly enough (or may not surprisingly at this point in our conversations), sometimes these two experiences exist within the same person.

The Sagittarius, 9th house, Jupiterian soul has many different facets from religious and dogmatic past lives, to lives of pilgrimages and more. These souls have crossed oceans seeking meaning, expansion, and philosophies to bring home and share. These people may have also lived lives as missionaries, emissaries, scholars, and navigators, travellers, and more giving them an edge and desire to keep exploring what this world has to offer.

Keep reading to uncover The Wounds of wandering, running, and Spiritual seeking woven through Sagittarius, and the 9th house, Jupiter (and Jupiter Retrograde.) From feeling unrooted, the restirction around exploration, to the endless hunger for more.

Inside this paid piece of The Wounds of the Zodiac, you’ll explore the medicine hidden beneath these patterns, the shadow work needed to reclaim your power, and the deeper past-life signatures influencing the sense of endless meaning making, lives of religious involvement and ideological thinking, as well as the path to exploration in this life.PLUS, I’ve added some shadow work journal prompts at the end to take you deeper into alchemizing the wounds.

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Welcome to The Wounds of the Zodiac, where we explore the past life aches of the astrological signs, houses, and planets through the lens of Karmic Astrology. This work is meant to help you unearth the shadows, reclaim your power, and become more fully you. I will be leaking my manuscript ‘The Wounds of the Zodiac’ slowly to you as a paid reader, uncut, raw, and unfiltered. I hope my body of work can help you liberate yourself in this life and the next.

The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

The Witch Wound

I’m a millennial.

I incarnated with Pluto at home in Scorpio, according to modern astrology.

I lived through the rise of the witches, vampires, and dark lore that took over pop culture in the 90’s. I loved it… I still do. I will forever be enthralled with the vampires, the witches, the werewolves, and all the creatures of the night. I grew up on Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Sabrina the Teenage Witch, Charmed, Practical Magic, The Craft, and a slew of 5 star horror films. I didn’t like reading until I started reading ‘The Witching Hour’ by Anne Rice when I was 14.

I’m a Pluto in Scorpio kid, through and through.

I crave the symbolic and metaphorical understanding of what lives in all our underworlds — what’s beyond the surface, and the occult, aka, what is hidden.

I crave to look at the things we dare not touch, dare not speak about. The horrors of life.

Vampires exposing parasitic power play, and the cost of eternal youth, immortality, and power of blood, a life giving force. Alive and yet dead.

Ghosts, a haunted past, memories of wounds unhealed roaming the halls, sometimes screaming to be healed. The ache, the pain, the rage from the beyond.

Frankenstein showing the desire to play God, to have power over life. To design the world in a perverted image of God and gain control over the one thing we are truly powerless to stop — death.

And of course, the Witches. The ones with the power, and yet the ones who must hide. The one who play with the forces of the universe, and yet the most persecuted through time. The ones who must balance the forces of nature. The one’s who hold the magick.

The word occult does, in fact, mean hidden. Even light hearted Sabrina had to keep her secret of being a witch from the world.

I noticed it right away when I started studying astrology. The Scorpio placements, the Plutonian people, the 8th house souls, every single one (yes, including me), was working through similar, — though person and unique to them — intense themes.

The many versions of themselves they have transformed through in this life, like new chapters beginning and old chapters burning the past. The fear or resistance to being seen. The armour that is built to keep the world at bay. I’ve described if often as the shell of an armadillo, which perfectly fits as the armadillo symbolizes boundaries, protection, and emotional defence.

I studied as I began to understand that in this incarnation, these people deeply understood trauma, and had been through some of the most intense experiences. These traumas are like doorways to their past lives of repeating wounds that need to be cleansed, washed, and healed in this lifetime. After all Scorpio, the 8th house, and Pluto all bring crisis.

Every abuse of power — those they performed or those against them — every persecution, every loss, every grief, from all lives.

They carried jealousy, moodiness, and possessiveness due to these lives of betrayal and abuse. They had very little trust in others, hardening themselves… protecting themselves, understandably s.

They are the ones working in the underworld, and working with power. Very early on I began to understand the archetype of the The Witch Wound in relationship to these souls. Their ability to know, to see, the understand often through suspicion that was need, which in turn that they are now healing.

Lies, deceit, jealousy, secrets, betrayal, obsession… it often linked in to those who they love most, society, and not trusting any system as they seem to search out the flaws, the corruption, and the negative agendas.

“Are ‘they’ come with pitch forks and torches?” A common feeling amongst those who carry this signature expressing in unique ways. Often these fears and phobias come from previous lives of persecution, betrayal, grief, and even death. This ultimately leads most of these people into struggling to take their power back, claim creativity, and step into the world without this fear lingering.

Keep reading to uncover The Witch Wounds woven through Scorpio, and the 8th house, Pluto (and Pluto Retrograde.) From persecution, to fears and phobias, power struggles, and more.

Inside this paid piece of The Wounds of the Zodiac, you’ll explore the medicine hidden beneath these patterns, the shadow work needed to reclaim your power, and the deeper past-life signatures influencing your fear of being seen, your inner magic, and the fear that ‘they’ are coming to get you. PLUS, I’ve added some shadow work journal prompts at the end to take you deeper into alchemizing the wounds.

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Right now is simultaneously a moment for the creatives of the world to experience an awakening, and yet also a deep rebirth. And as we all know, the rebirth process is never easy. We go kicking and scream, we claw our way out of our old lives. We do not go ease-fully into the next version of ourselves.

This week on the It’s Karmic Podcast, I sat down with Renata Taravaski to talk about Pluto transits, visibility wounds, creativity, identity death, fear, grief, authenticity, and what happens when life strips you down to the bone.

We talked about the terrifying process of being seen while simultaneously wanting to disappear. The projections people place onto creators. The exhaustion of performing online. The grief that comes when an old version of you dies. The nervous system collapse that happens when your soul knows something no longer fits, even if your mind is still trying to force it.

We also talked about:

• Pluto transits and the destruction of old identities

• Leo/Aquarius wounds around visibility and belonging

• Fear of criticism and rejection

• Creativity as medicine

• Why some people lose themselves trying to be accepted

• Death, existential fear, and surrender

• How astrology can help you understand what’s happening to you instead of feeling cursed by it

• Learning to create from authenticity instead of performance

This episode is especially for:

• Creatives and artists

• Astrologers and spiritual practitioners

• People moving through major Pluto transits

• Anyone questioning who they are becoming

• Those struggling with visibility, self-expression, or online criticism

• The people in the cocoon phase of transformation

• Anyone grieving an old version of themselves

• People feeling burnt out, emotionally raw, or spiritually cracked open

There’s a moment in this conversation where we talk about how many of us keep reaching back trying to become an old version of ourselves again, instead of learning how to meet and love who we are becoming now.

That part hit hard, because sometimes healing isn’t about “getting back” to yourself. Sometimes it’s about allowing yourself to become someone entirely new.

If you’ve been feeling like your life, identity, creativity, or purpose is being dismantled lately… this conversation is probably going to meet you exactly where you are.

We want to know:

• What cracked open for you?

• What did you see differently?

• What are you being asked to let die so something more authentic can emerge?

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The things we don’t talk about

This article dropped into my head about a year and a half ago.

Over the years teaching my methodology of astrology, inside of my study sessions with my students, I like to look at some of the most intense characters throughout time. I’m talking about people like Charles Manson, Hitler, and Jim Jones, just to see what makes a psychopath tick, what signature did they incarnate with, and what were they learning here on earth? What can we see inside of the birth charts of some of the most horrific people in history? And how can it show us what is not only possible for everyone, but how karma and free will play a key role in how we live our lives?

The first time I pulled up Jim Jones’ birth chart the first thing I noticed was his Jupiter Pluto conjunction in Cancer in the 7th house. I was fascinated for a few reasons. Jim Jones encouraged the idea that the people of Jones Town were a family, and demanded his followers call him “Father” or “Dad.” In true Cancer 7th house fashion all his relationships carried a connection or energy linked to the family, where it seems Jim Jones played the Patriarch, dominating and maintaining control and power (Pluto) as the “benevolent” (and not so benevolent) leader (Jupiter).

Knowing what I know about Pluto and about Jupiter, and the karmic struggle that happens when the two are in conversation, I began to wonder… Do all cult leaders carry this signature? Is this the signature of a possible tyrant? Is this one of the big indicators of someone who will attempt to amass large amounts of power, wealth, or _____ insert whatever their is desire here?

I was hyper aware that we were slowly heading toward Jupiter moving into Leo, and opposing Pluto in Aquarius, as my natal Jupiter return would be happening in these moments, while Pluto was sitting on my North Node in Aquarius, loosely square my own Pluto.

I went down the rabbit hole, as I always do, and started to research other cult leaders, tyrants, and all around shitty people who have Jupiter aspected by Pluto in the birth chart. And hey, let me start by saying I know not everyone with this aspect is a cult leader, tyrant, or general shitty human being. I myself carry the Jupiter Leo x Pluto Scorpio square in my chart.

But this became a curious study for the possibility we all carry, and why some people claim power more through their karmic blueprint than others. What I found was dumbfounding. A seemingly endless leader of cult leaders, world leaders, tyrants, dominating forces, billionaires, and more having some sort of aspect between Jupiter and Pluto. Moments in history like in 2020 when Jupiter met Pluto in Capricorn twice, while our entire world was flipped upside down by power hungry “leaders” (and their puppet masters behind the screen) gripping for more and more authority control over us through control tactics, the threat of digital ID’s, and staying “six feet apart” while acting like it was for “our greatest good”.

I began to compile a list of human beings who put on a charming and benevolent face, while amassing power behind the scenes like cult leaders Jim Jones (Jones Town), David Koresh (Waco Texas), Warren Jeffs (Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints), Amy Carlson (Love Has Won), or the founder of the Mormon church, Joseph Smith, who had a loose square between his Sagittarius Jupiter and Pisces Pluto, a true signature of a possible religious fanatic.

From there I found people like Bill Gates, John D. Rockefeller, George Soros, Joseph Stalin, Vladimir Lenin, Sadam Hussain, Vladimir Putin. You might ask why I would lump these people all together. Maybe you’re not aware that Bill Gates has been amassing more farm land you can imagine in the united states, while telling us to eat lab grown meat. Or maybe you’re unaware that he believes in depopulation, or has released millions of GMO mosquitos (& I’m not even touching to worst of his crimes.) Maybe you’re unaware of George Soros hand in many of the sinister things happening in the world, again, a puppet master behind his screen. Or maybe you’re unaware of the radical and horrible changes John D. Rockefeller implemented on the world in the name of amassing wealth and control, second to none, the way he destroyed medicine. I encourage you to go down those rabbit holes, if you’re confused why I put their names next to people like Stalin, Hussain, and Lenin.

I then found other interesting people who may not have been seen as tyrants like Catherine the Great, though she was definitely ruthless in her reign. And Albert Einstein and the role he played in atomic power and what came out of that. Albert Einstein played a pivotal role in creating a very Jupiterian x Plutonian creation that could create mass (Jupiter) destruction (Pluto), even if it was never intended for that purpose.

As I said, not everyone who has this signature is bad. I could spend hours showing real benevolent leaders and philanthropists with this signature, but that’s not what we’re here to talk about today.

Jupiter vs Pluto: Zeus vs Hades

Mythologically were talking about Zeus and Hades. Astrologer Steve Judd makes a great comparison between the two here, reminding us that in Ancient Greek Myth we’re speaking of brothers who had to split dominion over the world (with Poseidon in the ocean, of course). Leaving Zeus ruling above, and Hades ruling the underworld. Steve Judd refers to this as “the over world and the underworld”. The seen, and unseen. Zeus, though he can be portrayed as benevolent, regal, and wise, also has a wandering eye, is vain, and gluttonous, much like Jupiter. Hades is portrayed as just but cold, unyielding, and though he was respected, he was feared, as those who met their end eventually all made it to his domain.

When we’re dealing with Jupiter and Pluto in astrology we’re working with the domain of the benevolent wealth that both of these signs can bring through the type of conversation (aspect) they’re in with each other. Is amassing Jupiterian qualities easy for the individual? And what sort of invitation and transformation through power (Pluto) will inevitably have to happen for them to get it? Why and to what end do they crave power?

Steve Judd gives us some great examples of characteristic of someone who has Jupiter in aspect to Pluto in this video, such as:

“You aspire to greatness, being comfortable in yourself with your own strengths.” (Conjunctions) – Steve Judd

“You must recognize your own capacity to go to extremes” and “You might oppose Jupiterian things (religion philosophy)”, and, “You must always be the best under the most difficult experiences” (Squares) – Steve Judd

“This will take them to heaven, or take them to hell” – opposition, Steve Judd

While this article by Marina, of Dark Star Astrology was one of the only other articles I could find that was speaking to what I was seeing around Cult leaders, and abuses of power. She states:

Jupiter square Pluto or Jupiter opposite Pluto can be a zealous preacher, obsessive predator or magician. Sometimes all at the same time! At the very worst, this archetype is one of a cult leader who abuses his power in order to have sex with his disciples. Jupiter is religion/law and Pluto is politics. As a transit, this can be a period where one can feel witch-hunted and persecuted or worried about rubbing authorities up the wrong way. This does not mean bowing down to these ‘masters’, just having to be careful with tactics. Going down the most direct, activist route only gives the elite an excuse to censor and crank down even harder on the dissent. The freedom is fought for however, but underground. – Marina

Jupiter x Pluto: Benevolence Leaders vs Amassing Power

While Jupiter seeks to expand, grow, and aims to find freedom through philosophy and morality, it can just as easily become righteous and dogmatic, believing it’s philosophies are just and right. Jupiter can bring riches, and ruin, as I’ve seen it. Often through excess and gluttony, like the medical association to the Liver and those who often had fatty liver syndrome are connected to eating far too richly. Isn’t it interesting that a what was once “rich man’s disease” has become so prominent in the “poor/regular people” of today? Jupiter is linked to karmic issues around excess, over consumption, a lack of boundaries, and constant expansion. It’s also linked to priesthood/priestesses and even the power that is amassed through these roles. (I’m side eyeing the catholic church here.)

While Pluto seeks to transform, destroy, alchemize, and detoxify it does this through ruthless life altering moments related to power struggles, control, and phobias. Plutonian people, and Plutonian moments will strip away everything you once felt powerless to control, they will transform your relationship with the truth of things… the things that were once hidden become visible, and the powerlessness you once felt becomes alchemized into your strength.

When these two are in conversation the Jupiterian energy make expand the powerlessness, or in turn, expand the need and desire for power, wealth, desire, control. The benevolent leader may use their philosophy for the highest good “of their people” or “the people”, while they may also be corrupted by the Plutonian desire for power.

How this all plays out, I believe, is entirely related to consciousness, inner work, and the relationship to the shadow. Some souls incarnate not ready or willing to meet the shadow. They’re unwilling to see their Jupiterian gluttony of power and wealth as something possibly harmful (though, of course, it’s not always harmful, good people are wealthy too) while pressing their philosophies on to others “for the highest good.”

Depending on what this soul incarnated to learn here, powerlessness, or powerfulness, they might give all their wealth away, like a true benevolent leader. I’m sure as you’re reading these words you can think about the many infamous “benevolent” leaders who sold their campaigns on a promise of giving everything, only to lead to casualties and death. The Bolsheviks come to mind. The promise of the end of hunger leading to millions slaughtered in the name of the Soviet Party. Yes, approximately 10-20 million people died due to repressive policies, executions, and man-made famines between 1917 and 1953. Insane, I know. And yes, Jupiter was in a sextile to Pluto on the most important days of the Bolshevik revolution of 1917.

When expressing from the lowest octave, it’s always the same thing with these types of people. “We’re here to save you.” And “it’s for the greatest good”, and let’s not forget “We’re all in this together.”

When I started researching this article, I stumble on an article that talked about the people I was thinking of (besides the cult leaders) that blew me away.

Patrick Watson states: “Jupiter is a benefic planet associated with wealth, abundance, growth, excess, wisdom, goodness and generosity. Pluto is a controlling and domineering planet of extremes, warping what it touches to incredibly large and small scales. Jupiter is the aristocrat of the solar system while Pluto is more of a fascist. Jupiter knows he’s better than you, but when he’s with Pluto he can be a real dick about it. Pluto might be intimidating, but when he’s with Jupiter you would prefer to have him on your side. The combination of Jupiter and Pluto evokes the dynamic of empowered wealth and benevolence to the point of corruption, in terms of big philanthropy, big business, the donor class, oligarchies and plutocracies, etc.”

I highly suggest you read the article for a more in depth understand more on this topic. He collected very specific names and things that have amassed wealth, even the start of amazon as examples of people and things with the energy of Jupiter in aspect to Pluto.

“births of people and inceptions of companies occurring around the major junctures of the 12-13 year Jupiter-Pluto cycle (conjunction, opposition, square, and to a lesser extent, the trine and sextile) have the potential to have extraordinary success alongside extraordinary downfalls. Extreme wealth can be used for philanthropic purposes, but it can also be used to acquire undue or undesired influence.” — Patrick Watson

Archetypes + Weitko + Cosmic Rays

It’s all left me wondering… can people become possessed by the archetypes of the planets?

Carl Jung said that when a person is “possessed” by an archetype, the conscious ego is taken over, and the individual acts out a collective unconscious script like the hero, the victim, the caregiver, and the ruler, in this case. The more we work on individuating (coming back to the true self) the less influenced by the archetypes we become.

I then begin to wonder about the parasitic energy described as, Wetiko or Luciferic temptation (different than satan). Like tendrils, it’s said, it creeps in and plays into your benevolence, your spiritual mind, making you believe that you are good. I know I’m not the only one who has wondered if all politicians and some of our more famous “philanthropists” have become puppets of Wetiko.

Could the theory of the influence of cosmic rays have some impact through people who incarnate with the energy of Jupiter in aspect to Pluto… like some possibility that can be sparked in the soul working through intense karma around power and wealth, gluttony and greed? Could there be something more easily touched through the tendrils of Wetiko to amass wealth, play the benevolent leader, or the evil dictator through this energy?

And for those working consciously with these energies in their chart — those who incarnated to become the highest octave of this expression — how much power is living within them, begging to get out? And how easily can they become possessed by the Jupiter x Pluto desire to amass wealth, greatness, power, etc. (or deny it.)

There’s no denying it. People with this signature are able to gather wealth, power, fame, success, and influence. They’re charming, they’re inspiring, they’re often fearless — unless impacted by their own past life stories telling them they’re weak and ineffectual. I’ve often wondered, in my own case of Jupiter Square Pluto, am I paying a karmic debt in this life for the versions of the false leader I have been in the past? And how can I complete this cycle as a true benevolent leader? (I sure hope I am doing that with this work, phew.)

Does all of this lead to the down falls mentioned by Patrick Watson above? Because Jupiter rules morality, and Pluto rules destruction, is it integrl one remains moral with this configuration in the chart?

So what’s in store for us?

Jupiter enters Leo on June 30th. Jupiter, at 4° Leo 26’, will form an opposition with Pluto at 4° Aquarius 26’ on July 20th 2026.

Understanding Jupiter in Leo:

Jupiter takes approximately 12 months to move full through one sign, and for the next year we meet the energy of Leo. Leo, at it’s highest, is also the benevolent heart lead leader. At it’s lowest? The emotional manipulative, self centred tyrant. Through this year we will all collectively be meeting the self, the ego, and personal and creative expression.

As you’ve learned today, Jupiter is not always for the greatest good, though it can be. Benevolence is all depending on expression, consciousness and choice. Jupiter can bring luck, abundance, wealth, and in Leo, joy. Something we are all in desperate need of. But there’s a cost when it comes to Leo, and the cost is ridding yourself of your fear of visibility long enough to create something, and to express yourself through some form of art or passion.

Leo Karma is linked to the fear of being seen, the fear of being powerless in your creative pursuits, the fear that no one recognizes or celebrates your greatness, and the projection and response of this to inflate and become larger than life to feel powerless. Yes, two things can be true.

Read more about Leo Karma here:

Leo Karma: The problem is you’ve been trying to be everyone but yourself.

The Creativity Wound: Leo, The Sun & the 5th House — [The Wounds of the Zodiac]

Understanding Pluto in Aquarius:

Pluto in Aquarius has been initiating all of us into personal and collective revolutions, though most days I ask myself why we aren’t revolting. Something inside of the collective ticks, demanding the power to be returned to the community, the people. And yet, we struggle to do that very thing. While the illusion is shattered around our 21st century version of the aristocracy (very Jupiterian, very Leo) and the proletariat, aka, working class (very Aquarian). What has existed until now cannot survive. It cannot continue. Suddenly I’ve arrived at the French revolution, a topic many astrologers have explored as Pluto was in Aquarius at that time. And yes, in case you were curious, Jupiter was in Leo and formed an oppostion to Pluto in in Aquarius during the French Revolution.

Oh, and yes, Maximilien Robespierre, one of the leaders of the French Revolution, did have a Jupiter Pluto conjunction in his birth chart, in Sagittarius, expanding ideals and amassing power through his philosophies. This conjunction lands on his midheaven. Do with that what you will.

Listen to these podcast on Pluto in Aquarius:

Pluto In Aquarius: Can We Remain Human?

The revolution wont happen over night

In these moments it’s important that we remember, as Alan Leo said…

What can do we do?

Oppositions require us to experience the polarity of life. Two opposing forces working in tandem, pulling us personal and collectively in two different directions. Picture the game of tug of war for a moment. The stronger side will always will. In this case, which is the stronger side? Will it be larger than life Jupiter in Leo or Pluto in Aquarius that pulls us out of balance? The thing about oppositions is that the ultimate request is to find balance, but when one force is greater than the other we feel off kilter. Our job is the find the space between the two opposing forces. What exists between Leo and Aquarius? What exists between Jupiter and Pluto? Where is the middle ground.

This moment in time is really about our collective and personal ability to remain heart centred, and remember our role in collective. Who are we, and what did we each individually incarnate to do in the collective community. How do we each have a role to play in the way the world moves forward? How are we complacent, and how are we moving the needle of change?

When the kingdom (Leo) falls, what happens to the people (Aquarius)?

We have to wonder how things got so out of hand in the world, and how we have gotten back to a place where people are starving, gas and food prices are inflating to the point of being inaccessible, and insecurity and survival have reached a pivotal point.

I wonder, as I write these words, is this part of the cycles of history and do moments like this, Pluto and Jupiter coming into conversation, act as emissaries for massive collective change?

All I know, as I sit here reflecting, is that we must remain in our hearts, and yet we must all play our role. Collectively we must sit with the shadows of the world, a world we built (I know, that stings), we live in and meet the darkness that this pivotal transit will most definitely bring to us, whether that’s revolution, clarity, truth, and beyond. And yet we must also maintain our hearts, as it’s becoming easier and easier to step into mob mentality.

This moment is collective, and yet, it is also deeply personal. Every person will have their own individual experience with this transit, and that means the shadows you meet here are deeply your own. We must all meet the monsters and victims within. We must all meet where the collective has been taking, devouring, and disconnecting us from our hearts, and from our communities and bring it back to wholeness.

The opposite of everything I have uncovered in this piece is the medicine. That when we see corruption, we become forces of change. When we choose people and love over amassing wealth, strip mining the earth, mono-cropping, pesticide lacing the world, spraying the skies, genetically modifying mosquitoes, and all the fucked up consuming that has become so normalized in our world — and come back to the community, the citizens, the people — we can change the world. Hopefully not through a violent and bloody French revolution style tactic, for example. This is a time of inner, and outer revolution.

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“The transition between the new and the old system is the period of greatest trauma and psychological intensity” — Astrologer Jeffery Wolf Green, Uranus: Freedom from the Known, Uranus in Gemini

The world is changing. I know, that’s not a surprise. But why? Why is everything changing around us so fast? Since 2020 we have been in wild astrological times, and 2026 is one of the most pivotal moments for this astrological weather. Everything, and I mean, everything changes this year.

With Pluto already well into Aquarius, Saturn and Neptune officially shifted into Aries, and now Uranus has taken its new place in Gemini (and more to come this summer), we’re in a new world.

I hate to parrot the “powers that wish they could be” (as the Cosmic Spacewitch calls them), but yes, it’s a brave new world.

With Uranus moving into Gemini, we are entering a seven-year era that will radically reshape communication, technology, consciousness, media, learning, the nervous system, and the way we perceive reality itself.

Uranus in Gemini will usher in challenges and shadows around the way you think, the way you perceive yourself and society, as well as a whole new way of understanding the world, the way you exist within it, and social contracts. It will stoke you into new ways of communicating, sharing, and thinking. Black and white thinking? You’ve got to leave it behind as you enter into the highest state of Gemini energy, which is curiosity.

In this new episode of the It’s Karmic Podcast, I sat down with Tambor for one of the deepest conversations we’ve had yet. We went everywhere in this episode — AI, nervous system regulation, freedom of speech, analogue culture, authenticity, consciousness, media manipulation, the craving for human connection, and the energetic split humanity seems to be moving through right now.

This is a conversation about what it means to remain human in a world becoming increasingly artificial.

In this episode we talk about:

• why Uranus in Gemini may completely change how we think and communicate

• the growing exhaustion people feel from constant stimulation

• the rise of AI and ethical concerns around technology

• why so many people are craving in-person connection again

• voice wounds, suppression, and reclaiming your truth

• authenticity vs performance online

• nervous system care during this era of acceleration

• how this transit may create a divide between deeper consciousness and deeper disconnection

One of the biggest themes we kept coming back to was this: your attention is powerful.

What you consume, what you focus on, what you speak, what you repeat to yourself every day… all of it shapes your reality more than most people realize.

This episode feels especially important if you’ve been:

• feeling overstimulated or mentally scattered

• questioning modern culture and technology

• craving deeper conversations and real connection

• noticing how online spaces affect your nervous system

• feeling the call to unplug, simplify, create, write, speak, or reconnect with your own mind again

Uranus will move through Gemini from: July 7th to November 7th, 2025 – April 25, 2026 - May 23, 2033.

There’s something very real happening collectively right now.

And whether you’re deeply into astrology or simply feeling the pressure of this moment, this conversation will probably activate something in you.

Go listen to the episode and let us know what lands for you most.

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Welcome to The Wounds of the Zodiac, where we explore the past life aches of the astrological signs, houses, and planets through the lens of Karmic Astrology. This work is meant to help you unearth the shadows, reclaim your power, and become more fully you. I will be leaking my manuscript ‘The Wounds of the Zodiac’ slowly to you as a paid reader, uncut, raw, and unfiltered. I hope my body of work can help you liberate yourself in this life and the next.

Please note, as we dig in to this piece, not everyone with the placements I am speaking about will express the way I describe. Your birth chart is unique to you, and your karmic signature.

The Lover Wound

When it comes to soul contracts, it feels like we all want to know, why are relationships so hard? And when it comes to Libra, the 7th house, the Descendant, and Venus, the question becomes “why are they so hard for me. Why do I keep repeating the same relationship patterns? Why do I draw in the same partner in new skin? Why can’t I stop repeating this loop?” Often this leads to a lot of blame. “what’s wrong with all these men?” Or “women are all the same.” Seldom do people ask “how am I the problem here? Why am I the common denominator in all of this? Why do I keep drawing in the same cycle over and over again?” Don’t get me wrong, I don’t say this to shame anyone working with these wounds, but instead to help open the eyes that haven’t accepted the shadow yet. When we incarnate working through relationship karma we have to take some tough looks in the mirror (A Libra/Venus word) to see what is true. Not necessarily what’s wrong with you, but instead, what is the repeating pattern you incarnated to work through. Was it power, control, master/servant dynamics? Was it lust, shame, or commitment issues? These areas of the chart can start to reveal the source of some of the deepest pain points some humans are working through.

I first fell in love when I was in kindergarten. I’m not kidding. His name was Cory, and he was nice enough to hang on the playground with me and my friend and would be the Tuxedo Mask to my Sailor Moon. We moved across town that year, and I only ever saw him one time after that at the mall when I was singing in a choir. We both nervously hid behind our moms legs looking at each other, saying nothing. I didn’t just think about him after the move, no, I cried myself to sleep over him for years. My next boyfriends name was Ryan, was in 9, and when we broke up I also cried about him for years while I listened to ‘Drive Myself Crazy’ from Nysnc’s first album. On and on this cycle continued throughout my life. Fall harder than anyone else, and cry myself to sleep over the one that got away. My Venus is in the tucked away in the 12th house, aspected by not only Pluto, but by 7 other placements in my chart. I repeated similar patterns until I “broke free” of this cycle after meeting my husband. I drew in patterns with intense commitment issues, who were completely unavailable. The relationships burned hot and fast. Even the timeline repeated for a few years. Meet them in the heat of June, the lust would burn out by September, and I would wonder where I’d gone wrong as I stirred about them for years, until I never thought about them again. I’ve had 3 great loves in my life, and though the pattern of obsession (Pluto and the 12th house) was the always same, they were the ones that stood the test of time. In a very 12th house way, these relationships continued to haunt my dreams until resolved — one, unresolved, still does. Though relationships somehow came extremely easy to me (Libra rising), and yet were some of the most intense work I’ve had to do in this life. It can feel like this for someone working through deep emotional karma in this incarnation. The soul lessons are all tangled up in other people, the mirror they become, and what we learn about ourselves inside of our relationships.

Libra, the 7th house, and Venus all expose what we desire, value, and want in relationships and the mirror in which those relationships provide for us. Some astrologers of the past have taught that Venus exposes the feminine desire of the woman, how she expresses, and what the masculine seeks in a woman. I think enough astrologers have debunked this at this point. Venus is desire in all of us, no matter our reproductive organs or what hormone is dominant in the body.

Keep reading to uncover the deeper relationship wounds woven through Libra, and the 7th house Venus (and Venus Retrograde.) From people-pleasing, abandonment, over-giving, and losing yourself in love, to the karmic patterns quietly shaping who you choose, chase, and tolerate in relationships.

Inside this paid piece of The Wounds of the Zodiac, you’ll explore the medicine hidden beneath these patterns, the shadow work needed to reclaim your voice and desire, and the deeper past-life signatures influencing intimacy, attachment, self-worth, and partnership. PLUS, I’ve added some shadow work journal prompts at the end to take you deeper into alchemizing the wounds.

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In this fascinating episode of the It’s Karmic Podcast, I sit down with archaeologist, writer, and researcher for a conversation that bridges archaeology, spirituality, ancient cosmology, consciousness, ritual, and the mysteries of human existence.

Together, we explore the tension between mainstream Egyptology and the esoteric questions many people secretly feel drawn toward: Did the ancient Egyptians understand something profound about reality, death, and consciousness that we’ve forgotten? And what happens when modern culture disconnects from ritual, meaning, and our role within the cosmos?

Carla and I discuss ancient Egyptian beliefs around the soul, death, time, magic, ritual, and cosmic order — including the concept of Maat, the sacred balance that maintained harmony between humanity and the universe. Carla explains how the Egyptians viewed life not as random existence, but as a process of becoming: a sacred unfolding of the soul into its fullest form.

The episode also explores:

• Ancient Egyptian views on the afterlife and consciousness

• The Book of the Dead and its true meaning

• Why ritual was considered necessary for maintaining cosmic balance

• The dangers of losing sacred wisdom and becoming disconnected from purpose

• Initiation, discipline, and spiritual maturity

• The overlap between Egyptian cosmology, karma, Daoism, Buddhism, astrology, and mystical traditions

• Reincarnation, collective memory, and whether certain ancient cultures leave “imprints” on the collective unconscious

• Why modern spirituality often lacks depth, devotion, and true initiation

• The relationship between ancient wisdom and modern chaos

If you’ve ever felt mysteriously drawn to ancient Egypt, ritual, past lives, consciousness, archaeology, astrology, or the deeper purpose of being human, this episode will absolutely pull you in.

Carla Berenice is an archaeologist, writer, and founder. Trained in Classical Archaeology, Near Eastern Archaeology, and Egyptology, specializing in Ancient languages and intercultural history. Through her Substack, Pyramids and Hieroglyphs, she writes and speaks about ancient Egypt, hieroglyphs, mythology, metaphysics, and the deeper cultural imagination behind the ancient world, making complex historical material vivid and accessible for a broader audience. She is also an accredited member of the Appraisers Association of America, specializing in Ancient Art.

• ​Carla Berenice Substack – Pyramids & Hieroglyphs​

• ​Carla Berenice YouTube

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The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

Astrology is a cosmic language to understand absolutely everything in life. And I mean everything. If you know where to look, what to look for, and have the key to decoding the map... it can change everything. Like the breakthrough I had the other day while sitting with my Venus sign. I was sitting in the bathtub, trying to understand why I find it so hard to receive. I was attempting to understand my own feast or famine patterns in my life. Why was it so easy for me to bring for so many of my greatest desires, and yet such an intense struggle with others? Was it that I didn’t want it enough? I looked to Mars. Do I not believe I am worthy of it? I looked to Saturn, and my 2nd house. Do I not believe it’s possible to create the life of my dreams? I looked to Jupiter. But I kept coming back to Venus, Taurus and the Second house. What was it my Venus really desires? What does my Taurus 8th house ask of me? What does my 2nd house require of me? And why was I in a constantly denial cycle of exactly that?

It hit me. Venus desires without any validation. Venus craves without worrying about worth. Venus hungers without an ultimatum. But I had been giving myself ultimatums my entire life.

“I’ll get it when I’m worthy enough. When I work hard enough. When I serve enough. When I’ve given enough. When I’ve created enough. When I’m perfect enough. When I deserve it.”

Instead of full embracing what these parts of me chart actually desire, I’d put stipulations on how she gets that desire. I looked to my Venus sign, her house, and her aspect, and I saw the real pattern. I saw the karmic imprint. I saw how many lives I had given away my own desires for others. I saw how I had humbled myself over and over. I saw how I had taken vows of needing less, to be more pure, more sacred, and something shifted inside my body. I began to see different within a matter of moments. I actually don’t need to prove my worth... and it’s actually safe for me to use the word want without a “when I” attached to it.

We humans are so good at tying stipulations of worthiness to our desires, as if to desire is not enough. Thousands of years of puritanical beliefs making us believe we need less, need to give more, need to sacrifice our desires at the altar of “later”, or “when everyone has enough” has left us stagnant. I read an article the other day that pondered whether Venus is angry.

There was once a world that sat at Venus’ feet and offered her beauty. Now we erect ugly buildings in the name of it being cheaper. We stopped honouring the muse of beauty, desire, wealth, and love. We started living from fear, judgment, and control. But what if your Venus placement craves that you feel safe again to feel desire? What if this whole story — your Venus, 2nd house, and Taurus story — could tell you the deeper story? And what if that could set you free?

For people with placements here, life is a spiritual assignment in self worth.

Let’s begin by stating the obvious. Not everyone will Taurus placements, 2nd house placements, and a “afflicted” Venus will have issues with receiving and self worth. Well… let’s say, not everyone with these placements will identify with this as a wound. Some will thrive with these placements financially. Some will get everything they want materially in this life. Some will have influence, and deep security. I always begin to wonder at this point what the cost is? I believe we all need to get more in touch with our desires. I believe we all need to start living more pleasure filled lives, not because “we’re worthy” but because we’re human, and humans deserve pleasure. And I’m talking about real pleasure here, not the dopamine response you get from scrolling, watching tv, or eating junk food. I’m talking about the pleasure of feeling the crystal like water droplets of a summer lake on your skin, the juice of a water melon dripping down your chin, the laughter of the warm sun filled days of summer.

Some people with placements here will crave, hoard, hold, and work them into oblivion to “receive”. They will beg, borrow, gamble, and devour material wealth to feel secure. Receiving may even be a given, as gluttony rules them. I call this the hoarding wound, and I talk more about that here.

But today we’re going to dive into the denial of desire and receiving, and it’s deep link to self worth.

Keep reading to discover the link between Taurus, the 2nd house, and Venus in relationship to self worth issues, denial of desire, and issues with receiving. + Journal prompts to help you go deeper.

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Please note, as we dig in to this piece, not everyone with the placements I am speaking about will express the way I describe. Your birth chart is unique to you, and your karmic signature. I am touching on a certain part of the karmic wound in this piece, and not everything within the placements will be discussed.

There’s this cool thing that happens when you really start studying astrology. You begin to pick out the zodiacal themes in people inside of your conversation. It’s not intentional. I don’t mean to break you down to the energetic signatures of the cosmos the minute I met you, and yet, I do. I don’t mean to make the suffering people are experiencing smaller by instantly pin points what transit they’re likely going through. Most times, I keep the signals I’m picking up on to myself, unless asked. The whole world is made up of these archetypal energies, it’s oozing out of every pore. It’s hard not to notice the major energetic themes when a person is speaking to me now. When you really begin to understand astrology you begin to pick up on the highly Mercurial themes of a person, or the deeply Plutonian signatures. Massive shocks in their life can’t help but be connected to Uranus transits. The utter destruction of the person you thought you were, or the life you’d thought you’d lead — Pluto. The complete confusion and illusion we dance in inside of a Neptune trance. We open the chart and it’s there — every single damn time. And the more you learn, the deeper this understand is — and more intense the knowing becomes.

3 years ago Saturn entered my 6th house. I knew, knew, I was in for something intense. I could feel it. I also had Pluto conjunct my Imum Coeli/Nadir at the root of my chart, and I was preparing for the South Node in Virgo to transit my 12th house. This was going to be a moment all about my health, my mental health, and my entire foundation. I’d read a million things about the 6th house, the 12th house, the South Node, Saturn… etc. And yet, one article, one year into Saturn moving into my 6th house made it all click.

I had gotten really sick at the start of this transit. The timing was uncomfortably on point. Saturn moved in, Pluto moved onto my IC, and there I was — down for the count in bed with chronic pain surging through my body, debilitating migraines, insane fatigue, and more. I couldn’t make it from 7am to 11am before I had to go back to bed and sleep. I could barely open my eyes, from the pain, and from the fatigue moving through me. “What the fuck?” I thought. The “doctors” had no answers except “it’s all in you head”.

One day, while in migraine spell laying in bed, I began another search on Saturn transiting the 6th, and for the life of me I cannot remember where I read it but I found the words “this might be a time of “convalescing”, aka, recovering from illness. Suddenly I was having past life/current life remembrances of moments throughout my current life where I had once romanticized convalescing. I remember there being some sort of “knowing” that I had spent a past life/lives in bed, ill, waiting for a lover/people to save me, or realize as I lay on my death bed and finally remember I was important to them. Some crazy ass ‘A Walk to Remember’ type fantasy, except I wasn’t dying. I cringe to recall these old stories that used to play in my head, or the fact that when I was around 25 I realized a huge part of what was in my “illness” loop was the fear that if I ever got well, or was thriving, “they” would leave me. I have spent the last 2 years unpacking these old “forgotten” (or so I thought) stories.

Through this journey, I began to dig deeper into the 12th house and the 6th house in the chart. I natally have 5 placements in Virgo in my 12th house, more when we bring in minor bodies and asteroids. I have Hygeia, conjunct the asteroid Karma in my 6th house. I can now pick out a 12th house/6th house from a simple conversation.

Conversations like “I’ve been sick my whole life.”, or “I’ve always struggle with my mental and physical health,” or “I’m a creative/artist who has to pay my bills, but I can’t seem to get well enough to do it.” People who have continuously struggled with thriving in their vitality in this life, people who are constantly searching for the root of their ‘dis’-ease, people who have had to deny their artist gifts. People who have trauma embedded in their bodies, and their nervous systems — the ones who haven’t realized yet that their mind has made them sick. People like me.

I don’t know if I have ever felt “well”. From crazy phantom fevers as a kid, to intense digestion issues that started as a teen, to insane allergies. I’ve never had a the type of energy other people seem to thrive in. Sometimes the mere act of existing makes me tired. Honestly? I’m tired just writing this. I’ve spent the last 15 years searching for the answers. Why am I not well? What has continued to make me suffer? What is my gut, or my neck pain? Was it my mild scoliosis? My lymphatic? Do I need 25 supplements a day? Another parasite cleanse? Another allergy panel? Another treatment? A massage? A colonic? Was is the mold we lived in for a year? (Oh no, my Virgo is showing.) I’m sure all of these things factor in. But what I realized was the searching was making me even more sick. My naturopath, who is also my friend, reminded me that my hyper-vigilance wasn’t the super power I thought it was. It was a response to the highly intense, traumatic life I’ve led and the fact that I was never safe enough to turn the part of my brain looking for danger off.

As I crashed deeper into my period of illness, I was more and more unable to work. I was unable to bring in the level of income I had from my work teaching astrology. I was less and less able to launch and host major workshops. I wasn’t able to sit and record podcasts anymore. I couldn’t focus on anything but the pain long enough to get anything done. I’d sit in bed and cry, unable to focus my mind for a moment.

I was being asked, no, forced, to surrender. And so it unraveled me, as I screamed “why me?” at the Universe.

I was bought to my knees before the altar of my art.

I had traded art for content. Passion for launches I didn’t want to do. I had become too visible for a 12th house soul, as I shared my entire world on my phone through instagram. My phone had become a portal, as Alexandra Roxo recently wrote on her Substack article here.

I finally understood a major piece of the 12th and 6th house axis. The heavy demands of the 6th house when we are out of touch with tending to our body through our daily habits, and the price our 12th house pays for our attempt to escape — especially when we’re not creating.

The 12th and 6th House Axis

The 6th House: The way we are in service to our physical bodies, day in day out, so that we may then move into service in the world. It’s the the physical and tangible daily routines and rituals that maintain the temple that is the body, and how the body is maintained — and what karmically needs to be transmuted here. The 6th house is the house of health and ‘dis’-ease.

Judy Hall writes in chapter 4 of her book ‘The Karmic Journey’

When the spiritual body is out of alignment, the physical body follows. When the physical body is not tended to, or worse, escape (12th house things), the spirit suffers.

I agree with John Frawley in that we tend to skate over the reality of experiences that are brought forth through placements in the birth chart. I can own the amount of times I attempt to soften what I am seeing in the birth chart, even though I know better. We’re no longer in the days of medieval astrology where it was okay to tell someone they are cursed because of their malefic 6th house placements (thank god), and yet, we are avoiding the truth of the matter. Like when Saturn transited my 6th, and I, an astrologer, wanted to avoid what I knew in my bones — my health was about to get rocked. My deep emotional unprocessed shit? It was about to hit my 6th house Piscean fan. We do a disservice pretending like ‘dis’-ease isn’t found in the chart, leaving people shocked when it happens. 6th house placements, especially ones like Pluto, Uranus, Saturn, and Neptune, request major healing of the physical body through transmuting old karmic stories of care in the physical.

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The 12th House: The place where we transcend the physical and move beyond into sacred service. This is the place that shows us how we connect to the collective unconscious, the types of information we are picking up on, and how we crave, or fear, being of service in the world. This is where, hopefully, the maintenance of the 6th house provides a physical foundation for the spiritual work to be done. The 12th house is the house of mental health and hospitalization but I would shift that to convalescing instead. In traditional astrology it’s called the house of Illness and Service. What we find in our 12th house is the collective ache that lives within us. The thing “out there” that drives us mad, drives us to escape, drives us to drink and drugs. It is the thing that the artist writes about. It is the thing that makes us need to paint, and write, and sing, and release the ache through art. But often, we need to be sat down in periods of rest to take enough time to do make the art.

Here’s where the traditional astrologers start to lose me:

As someone with a plethora for energies in the 12th house, I’ve not known it to be a house of punishment, through suffering is felt much more deep here. I offer, like many modern astrologers, that the 12th house is the realm of karma, the collective unconscious, and repressed energies.

In the book The Twelfth House by Karen Haymaker-Zondag she offers that the energies in the 12th house are the repressed and rejected energies of the ancestral line. This I can confirm to be true through my many ancestors who could not be artists, including my mom and dad.

In his book, his book ‘The Twelve Houses’, Howard Sasportas writes in the Chapter on the 12th house:

Is there some sort of link between sacrificing the self, the entire self — body, mind, soul — to the divine in order to create, channel, and ‘divine’ the art?

Or could it be that people working with this axis move in and out of their bodies so often, connecting to the collective unconscious, that the physical body remains depleted?

I have had not one but many clairvoyants speak about my health and my energy wandering. In an Akashic records reading something I had long wondered was confirmed — I was energetically working in many dimensions. My energy gets fragmented, and I have to consciously call my energy back into my body from all these places/lives/etc. This might seem far-fetched, and yet I had thought about it many times due to my intense dream world, the many souls I still feel reaching for me from the past, and the collective ache I am always tapped into.

Could this axis of the chart be why these creatives seem to have their fishing line in the worlds pain points, as they channel the art of the times?

I wonder how many creatives, with the 6th x 12th houses axis, crawl back into their beds, burned out from the energy of simply being alive, knowing fully the only thing they have the strength to do is create.

Yet that 6th house keeps requesting, and requiring the mundane. This might look like not being able to leave that “stable job” to become the starving artist, or the mental/physical break down it takes to remove you from the mundane thing that is keeping you from the art. Of course, for everyone it will play out differently. This is why working with (or becoming) a knowledgeable astrologer is so important.

The 12th house is also the health of mental health. Knowing this means we move between the 6th house, physical health, to the 12th house, mental health — and the work that exists between the two. In theory, when the body is well, the mind is well, and vice versa. But in a world where we’re taught to repress emotions, avoid the pain, and by pass the very real depth of specifically the 12th house, metaphysical ‘dis’-ease begins to arise.

Past lives of Illness and Art

When Diana Gerhardt suggested of the 12th house modern view “You’re advised to serve here, so that you don’t have to suffer.” It made me wonder… could these axis of illness and art be the payment for old karmic debts? Could this life be less about the “out there” work, as much as the “in here” work, and delivering the fruits of healing in real time through the artistic vision? Does one need to suffer in order to create? Is the service of being the artist the creative outlet that can allow one not to suffer so deeply?

Through the many teachings of karma there are several view points on the reasons we are working through karmic loops. Some because of deep mastery, some for redemption or paying off karmic debts, some to heal past thoughts, actions, view points, and beliefs. Well digging deeper into Judy Hall’s reflections on the types of karma I grabbed two that I think could often be linked into the person working through the karmic patterns of the 12th and 6th house artist/convalescing relationship.

Organic Karma:

This relates to the physical body and inherited conditions.

It can manifest as:

• Genetic issues

• Physical illness

• Bodily imbalances

It reflects how the soul has interacted with the physical plane across lifetimes, including misuse or neglect of the body. This could be related to ancestral patterns, like Karen Hamaker-Zondag pointed out in ‘The Twelfth House’. It could also be related to the denial of the emotional healing needed in order to tend to the physical body, and how our physical bodies store emotional patterns that soon become illness when not sorted out.

Redemptive Karma:

This is karma that arises when the soul chooses to balance or atone for past actions.

It often shows up as:

• Taking on difficult circumstances

• Being placed in situations that mirror past harm

• Choosing growth through challenge

This isn’t punishment, but instead is self-chosen correction and evolution of your soul. Could it be that the suffering of the 12th and 6th house create the perfect energetic weather for the artist to emerge? If whatever is in the 12th house naturally does suffer, or feel a deep sense of disconnection or rejection, is that the perfect recipe for the artist?

The meaning of convalescing helps us understand a little more. Convalescing is the act of healing after an illness.

Could a 6th house x 12th house life be a life of of spiritual healing? Could it be a life that requests one to retreat, to recover, to heal — through daily rituals, art and creation?

Note: of course, someone without 12th house placements might not feel this call. The chart is a complex beast. And yet, someone with 12th house progressions might, and someone experiencing 12th house transits might as well. Karma seems to get turned on when the time is right.

Artists and their 12th and 6th house axis

Through this transit, I unintentionally learned about the lives of many 12th/6th house artists, as the universe guided me to understand these karmic patterns deeper. I read a book about the real Lolita, and the inspiration behind Vladimir Nabokov’s novel. Not a typical read for me, but it had enticed me, and the library had it in stock. In it I learned that he had spent much of his life on bed rest, and in fact, that was where he had written most of his work. I also watched a move about Frida Kahlo’s life, where I learned she had suffered injuries in a bus accident and had to spend much of her time in bed, convalescing , and creating. I started to see these artists everywhere. I read an article on how Mariah Carey had had a mental breakdown and had to take time away from music. So I started looking deeper.

Every single artist I researched who had experienced physical illness, mental illness, or had spent some time conversing had the same signature. Major placements in the 6th and 12th house in the chart.

I compiled an interesting list of people who have experience intense physical and/or mental burn out, as well as periods of convalescing for you.

Convalescing Artists and the 6th & 12th House Axis

• Frida Kahlo – Painted iconic self-portraits from her bed during long periods of immobilization. Cancer 12th house with a Jupiter, Sun + Neptune conjunction x 6th house Mars conjunction Uranus in Capricorn. [Whole signs]

• Henri Matisse – Created his colourful paper cut-outs while bedridden and wheelchair-bound late in life. Uranus conjunct the South Node in Cancer in the 12th opposing, Mercury, Mars and the North Node + his Sun in the 6th in Capricorn [Whole signs]

• Louise Bourgeois – Drew and sketched while resting, turning her art into therapy. Capricorn 12th house Uranus, sun conjunction Mercury, 6th house Neptune

• Vladimir Nabokov – While often recovering from illness or fatigue, wrote and annotated manuscripts from his study or in semi-reclined positions. Venus in the 12th, and moon in cancer in the 6th with his mars. Placidus also widens his 12th and 6th huge, focusing energy there. [Placidus]

• Marcel Proust – Confined to bed much of his life due to asthma, wrote In Search of Lost Time in a cork-lined bedroom to manage light and noise. 12th Aries and pisces with his Chiron, 6th house virgo and Leo with his mars and Venus. Placidus also widens his 12th and 6th huge, focusing energy there. [Placidus]

• Emily Dickinson – Spent most of her later life in her bedroom, writing poems from her bed or desk there. Libra Moon in the 12th, Aries Pluto and mars in the 6th [Whole signs]

• Virginia Woolf – Wrote in bed during bouts of illness and depression. 12th house Taurus with Chiron, Jupiter Neptune conjunction, and 6th house scorpio, empty. In placidus her 12th and 6th are also widened and it puts her Nodes into these houses along with Saturn and her moon in Aries.

• Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec – Painted and drew from his bed or wheelchair due to mobility issues. 12th house Libra Moon and Saturn, 6th house Aries Neptune and Ceres opposite Moon. Placidus 12th house North Node in Scorpio opposing 6th house South Node conjunct Pluto in Taurus.

• Sylvia Plath Periods of severe depression and psychological collapse. — Saturn in 12th in Capricorn, Pluto in the 6th in Cancer.

• Franz Kafka – Often wrote at night from bed or while ill. 12th house Cancer Sun, Jupiter, Persephone conjunction + Part of Fortune. 6th House vertex.

• Mariah Carey: Bipolar disorder and mental break downs. 12th house Aries Sun, Venus, Eris, Chiron, North Node, 6th house Uranus and Jupiter. Wider 12th and 6th in placidus.

• Andy Samberg: Left SNL because he was “falling apart physically and mentally” — 12th house Leo with Sun and Mercury conjunct, 6th house Moon in Aquarius. [whole sings] Placidus puts his Saturn in Virgo in the 12th, opposite his Aquarius Moon still in the 6th.

Mental/Physical break downs

I wonder often, as I reflect on mundane life, how we must be in devotional practice of living in our bodies, day in and day out. How the mundane can feel like it pulls us from our ability to create. And yet… it’s within the mundane moments that I find I am most inspired.

The 12th house is the very place that can make us want to escape those mundane activities that might bring us to a place closer to source. It’s the place where we escape into the TV, our phones, drugs, and alcohol. And yet it is also the place where we can surrender to the divine an become a channel for the collective unconscious to transmute the pain of the world, the pain of our souls, into art — if you so desire.

There’s something here between these two spaces… the avoidance of the mundane and avoidance that can happen around the 6th house physical world where we tend to our bodies through daily devotion — leaving the a physical health crisis in it’s wake. On the flip side it can be the overly focused nature that the 6th house requests to the daily actions that pulls you so far from the inner creator that leaves the body in a mental health crisis. Work, fix, clean, adjust, clean, work, fix — on and on it goes. There is always more to do, it seems. And, of course, we know now that the body and the mind cannot be separated. The gut is the second brain, emotions create physical states, trauma impacts the nervous system, and so too the body, etc.

Could this be some sort of karmic recalibration? These two houses seem to demand a balance between the physical and the divine, and when that balance is thrown out of whack, it seems, the artist is back in bed, the body is “failing” and the crisis ensues.

Could the crisis be the very thing that births the art? Without the crisis would the art exist? Or would the soul keep being pulled in the very busy “out there” world, unable to sit still long enough to create?

I don’t want to say one working with these placements must experience illness through their life, but I do wonder if those who do are being guided to see how important their art is — until the time comes when they stop avoiding it? When they stop focusing so heavily on the things that pull them from their creations? When the time comes that they are in such deep devotion to their physical body that they can tend to their creative work? The healthier I feel, the more flowing creative work comes through me. The healthier I am, the more my mind flows natural, the more ease-fully the words flow through my finger tips. And yet… if this crisis had not happened I doubt I would have stopped putting my energy into the things that “made me money” and start trusting that I can be paid for my creative work, karmic themes I am constantly meeting in this life. I’m still working this out. Maybe you’ll become a paid subscriber and help me make that dream a reality? Hey, it doesn’t hurt to ask.

The question will remain, as it’s not for me to answer, does great come from suffering? And are we doomed to continue to suffer, or can we heal and keep creating great art. Are the two linked? Do they work together for the healers path?

I would also ask, could the karmic healing be in turning the suffering into art? Can that heal us?

Can the art heal us?

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There’s a moment in your life where you realize…you can keep playing it safe, or you can finally choose yourself.

In this episode, I sit down with Tamber for a conversation that goes way deeper than astrology.

This is about claiming your voice, leaving behind the systems that don’t fit, and trusting the path that doesn’t come with a rulebook.

We talk about what it actually looks like to step out of the “logical, acceptable life”… and into something that feels aligned, creative, and real.

If you’ve been sitting on your gifts, waiting for permission, or quietly knowing you’re meant for more, this one will hit.

In this episode we unpack:

• The identity shift from “doing what makes sense” to owning your true path

• Why rejection can be the exact redirection your soul needs

• The hidden exhaustion of performing online (and what to do instead)

• Claiming the identities that feel scary to say out loud (writer, artist, creator)

• The truth about building a business that doesn’t burn you out

• Leaving the 9–5 and navigating the “trust fall” into your purpose

• Social media, Substack, and finding platforms that actually feel aligned

• Reconnecting with intuition by stepping out of constant noise and distraction

• The discipline it takes to build something real, even when no one is watching

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The Wounds of the Zodiac move in a spectrum, from high to low and everywhere in between. Because of this, you may not experience all wounds that exist within one sign, house, or planet. You will carry your own experience and variation of the wound that you are working with in this life. For this reason, I ask that you not get too attached to something you may find here that does not resonate. What I mean is… don’t make yourself feel like you should experience a part of the wound, if you don’t already. Your specific karmic patterns are yours, and include more than just your birth chart — but also your soul contracts and personal lived karma and experiences. This work is meant to help you understand where you may be working with particular wounds and then begin to move through that wound, through the shadow, to raise your consciousness and become more whole. Over attachment to anything is never helpful. Let’s dive in.

I’ve yet to meet someone yet with Gemini or 3rd house placements, or is highly Mercurial, especially having a Mercury Retrograde, who does not carry some sort of wound around their voice, their communication, and their ability to be heard. Like my mother, bless her, who will repeat the same statements over and over until I tell her firmly “I hear you, I understand.” I don’t think she has ever felt heard as a Mercury conjunct Uranus soul. Or like the many people I’m sure you know who impatiently wait for you to stop speaking, not hearing a word you’ve said, just so they can finally get their chance so speak. The types of people who take up an entire conversation forgetting to ask you how you are, or inserting their stories to one up the one you just told.

It’s not always like this, however. Many working with the wound of Gemini, the 3rd house, and Mercury, feel tongue tied, silenced, and deeply misunderstood keeping them locked in the loop of hiding their voices or feeling like they’ll be persecuted for the way their mind thinks. As always, the wound expresses in a spectrum based on the signature in the chart, and the souls karmic journey. But I haven’t met one person working with wounds here who hasn’t expressed that their throat energy centre has a wound or is “blocked.”

These souls are often weavers of the past. These are our storytellers. These are our myth sharers. The ones who spoke up, and the ones who are learning how to live full embodied and in integrity in their voices. These are souls that would have worked through lives of sharing oral tradition and making sure that whether it was through talking, writing, singing, any of those beautiful expressions, that the messages were passed on, the stories were passed on. They were our scribes, our social butterflies, or teachers, and more. These are also the people who have been persecuted for using their voices, and their minds —as well as the ones who have abused their voices and used their words and minds in a disconnected way, operating out of love.

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It’s 6:30 am.

I’m crying because my heart is aching from the wounds I’m still living… still repeating. The ones I keep thinking I should be “through” or “over by now.” The wounds that tell me I’m never seen for my creative gifts. The wounds that tell me that when I put something important into the world, I’ll only receive crickets on the other ends.

I’m crying because the ache inside of me is so strong. I want to create so bad. I think what I birth into this world is important and yet… every time I invite people in I am ushered into a spiral of old stories.

It’s 6:30 am and I had no idea that the Moon was transiting Leo, sitting exact on my moon at 10º. My emotions are at an all time high. So I ache. I cry. And in my inner world I thrash about screaming, whaling, ripping the fabrics of my imagination. I visualize myself smashing the metaphorical furniture, smashing the lamps, the mirrors (whoops, is that bad luck too?)

I want to give up.

I want to give in.

I want to cancel everything.

Cancel all my work.

Close up shop for good.

What’s the point?

And yet I know… this is another initiation into this work.

How can I help people walk through the blazing fire of being seen in their creative work, if I don’t continue to unpack my own aches?

So I let myself fall apart. I sit on my pink sofa and I cry. I feel every sob in my body, and I wish my dog who died last year was here so I could sob into his fur. My new puppy isn’t the most snuggly of girls. I love her, but right now, I want my boy.

I let the initiation wash over.

What are you showing me?

And I remember.

This is exactly what the people I work with are feeling… All. The. Damn. Time.

I’ve been putting my work into the world for so long, but the fear doesn’t go away. I’ve grown rhino skin and it still feels tender when I put something out into the world and hear crickets.

I’m actively working with and releasing my need for validation. And it still hurts, as if I am tender, pink, and brand new.

I have to remember what is on the other side of this wound.

What it feels like when, even when no one cares, the creative work goes out into the world.I need them to know it’s like releasing a sigh from the body. I need them to know how much of their stagnant life is because they stopped creating…

I need them to know the ripple effect of letting their creative work be birthed into the world… to let it be witnessed. Even when it’s messy, and especially when it feels tender.

Like the moments I had no idea what I was doing when I started making music, but I went for it anyway. I stepped into the music world on my own and I had no idea what I was doing.

Like the moments I just went for it as an astrologer because I had something important to say. I knew the world needed to know my take on karmic astrology. I had no idea how I was going to get the message out, but instagram and tiktok seemed like a good start.

Or the moment I decided to burn my instagram to the ground and start writing The Wounds of the Zodiac on Substack. Once again, I had no idea what I was doing, but I knew I had to start sharing my writing with the world.

Somewhere out there are my people, reading these words, knowing that they’ve aching to create but terrified to take those first steps.

Not because they’re not talented. No, it’s not that.

It’s because they’re terrified of what happens when they drop that creation into the ether and they only get crickets.

They think that if they stick to the logical plan it’ll somehow all work out in the end.

They think that the judgement they’ll face on the other side of letting their artistic freak flag fly, it’ll be nothing but judgement and ridicule. And they might be right.

But I need them to know how important, how sacred, how powerful their work is.

How much their body will begins to shift when they start releasing that creativity that’s been stored up in them, making them sick.

I need them to know how much softer their spirit becomes when they finally let the creative ache flood out, even if they’re terrible at it.

I need them to know how absolutely terrible I was when I started every single creative endeavour I’ve undertaken. Seriously.

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When I started singing and songwriting I did not know what a key or “staying on the beat” was. I embarrassed myself in front of several world renown producers. I’m pretty sure some of them are still laughing at the vocal stems I sent them.

But for the most part I felt more alive than ever writing songs, singing them, and getting them signed.

When I started sharing my astrology on social my graphics were next level embracing. Honestly, they were awful. Some of my early emails on astrology still make me cringe. But I was having a blast stepping into my astro role.

And guess what? No one hated my work. In fact… most people loved it. Like, actually loved it. Celebrated it. My songs are still rotating on Spotify all these years later. Millions of listens. I’m still at the heart of some peoples playlists.

My earlier astro work is still somehow popping off on Pinterest.

Because I just went for it, even though it was messy. Even though I had no idea what I was doing. I had something important to say.

I wish I could tell everyone how important is that they just go for it, and they do it messy and raw.

I wish I could tell them that I know it’s terrifying, and yes, they might fail. I fail constantly, consistently, all the time. But it doesn’t mean I quit, even when I want to scream at the top of my lungs and ask the universe why the fuck it wants me to create so bad, if there’s going to be very little recognition or, sometimes, compensation. And yet the ache to keep birthing my creations into the world keeps getting louder, and that feeling like I’ll die if I “go back into the work force” feels like an undertow just about to snatch me back into hell.

So we let ourselves fail, because it seems that is part of the deepest medicine of all.

I am speaking to the multi-dimensional beings who want to birth their gifts into the world. The intuitive who want to help people, but hesitate when the light shines on them. The artists who, like me, never felt safe to claim that work. The creatives who shrink away every time they go to share their work with the world.

And how that locked up creative energy is making us all sick.

Because creative people are meant to create, no matter what this weird world tells us.

The doors for Unveiled close May 18th. This is your window to stop hiding, to finally be seen, and to step into the version of you that’s been waiting underneath the fear.

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Recently had the pleasure of sitting with two different women, in two very different healing modalities. The one studying a Divination Lineage out of West Africa. The other, a clairvoyant. The timing was, as always, divinely set as I’ve been moving through some sort of body illness the last 6 weeks, deeply hitting my wits end with my health issues over the last 3+ years, and sitting deeper with one question. “Do I give up on my work entirely, as my wounds around visibility have hit an all time high?”

On the surface, it doesn’t seem like these pain points are connected. At least not the visibility and the health crisis, that is. What does being seen in my work — recognized for my work — have to with chronic pain and debilitating unexplained migraines? And yet… what don’t they have in common? The more pain I feel, the less alive I feel, and the less alive I look in my expression. It’s only been the last couple months where I have weeks apart with these spells that I feel any semblance of being myself again, and that subtle call to step out of the shadows again. I’ve been inward for so damn long it seems.

The undercurrents of our lives are always connected, and I have to consistently remind myself of that. This is a holistic system… my body is a holistic system and what I experience internally, I experience externally, and vice versa.

As I sat with the first woman, Stephanie, a long time student under my methodology, a master of the shadow and healing, and a friend we connected with my ancestors. My question was about health and wealth. “I’ve been experiencing “dis-ease” for so long, it feels like forever, help.”

The second session I sat with Kristy, new to my world, though introduced through a trusted long time friend. We met the ancestral imprints, karma, my mother, my father, past lives. Each session unknowingly tangled into the other.

Both sessions took me to a place I should have known we’d be… the pain my fathers line of the family, the unhealed energy of the masculine in my ancestry, the grandfathers, and the heart break of the female line, the grandmothers.

My visibility wound: The Origin Story

In my session with Kristy, she asked about my relationship to my father. I laughed, and tried to brush it off. I love my father deeply, but our relationship has never made it past the surface. He’s there now. Every Sunday we video chat from 3500kms away but… he doesn’t know me. Doesn’t know my work, what I do in the world, doesn’t know my music, or my writing, or the deep feeling person that I am. He knows the surface smiles, chats about the weather, about a family that doesn’t recognize me as a person, about the puppies were now raising. There’s nothing wrong with this… it’s not to fault him. But it’s a pain point I often laugh off.

She laughed, and said the place we brush off is often the place we need to go.

Don’t I know it. So we went in, and unraveling something I was not expecting to fully understand this morning, after it all began to integrate.

“What is your relationship to your father’s side” she asked.

I hesitate. “They kind of just dropped me.” I say lightly.

“What does that mean, ‘they dropped you’?” She continued.

“They didn’t really have an interest in me, beyond my aunt — who is adopted. The rest never really reached out, stopped calling when I was very young. Forgot I existed.” Interesting, we note, that the adopted one was the one to not forget me.

She looks at the karmic agreements of that line. Not too many, not like the ones on my mothers side, described as being in shackles. She sees it.

“What age did they drop you?” She asks.

“Somewhere between 7 and 9” I say, and she ponders.

It’s right there, she explains. They began to reject me when my ability to see them came on line. When my intuitive and telepathic knowing began to really shine. When my witchiness started showing.

Yes. Felt that in my bones. When rejection became a big part of my story. I don’t remember it before that.

We talk about the rejection because of my power, a story that has repeated over and over in my life, through both sides of the family. One, leaving me abandoned, the other shaming me, judging me, gossiping about me.

Rolled eyes at dinner tables as I shared my big dreams. Scoffs at thanks-giving dinner when my aunt said “Oh, so you’re not perfect?” from across the table after I had mentioned a mistake I’d made — implying I thought that was, in fact, perfect. A projection, I know now.

The whole story unraveled through this session.

In some ways, I was never truly seen my family, and when I was seen I was rejected, abandoned, judged, forgotten — save for my Mother, my sister, and Step Dad (bless them for this.)

I realized I learned very early on that to be seen was to be rejected.

To be seen meant I would be cast out.

To be seen meant I would be ridiculed, judged, slandered, and alone.

Who would want that?

I learned early on that being me was dangerous.

But there was so. much. me to be. Fuck.

So instead of being seen, I shrunk, and too this day the energetic chords that have held me in that shadow have kept me dimming my light.

This pattern repeated throughout my life. Friends never seeing my quiet clearly gossiping behind my back, confirming I was not safe to be myself — until I broke free from that pattern during my first nodal return (yes, with my North Node in Aquarius, and yes, with my South Node in the 11th house).

Interestingly enough the people who usually saw the truth of me were the men I chose. Amazing men who picked me because they saw the unique individual under the surface. Men who craved the wild unconventional side of me who didn’t fit into the typical boxes. Men who I thank to this day for seeing my truth and coaxing me to step more fully into myself. The man I married who celebrates and see me shine more than anyone has in my entire life. I am so grateful to him.

The Imum Colei/Midheaven Connection:

What happens in the root, grows into our legacy. And if wounds in the root are not tended to, they become how we move into the world. If I’ve learned one thing, it’s this, rot in the foundation becomes rot in our ambitions.

Our families and early life becomes our origin story. What we learn inside of those formative years are echoes of the past life wounds that we are carrying into this life. We repeat the pattern, until the pattern can be recognized and changed — often post Saturn return, but sometimes before.

The Ancestors:

I wondered… how many of my ancestors had great talents, tucked away and unused because the were not “logical” or “useful” in a world that celebrates practicality over art, “a long day’s hard work” over creative expression? Both my parents have artistic gifts that they eventually had to “grow up and put to the side.” I can only imagine how many of my ancestors did the same.

Is it possible that I am one of the first, in a long line of people, who is able to go after my creative gifts? And be seen expressing them?

I think of my Great Great Oma, who’s name I don’t know, lost in train bombings and WW2 re-locations. She was known to be a very gifted clairvoyant, her myth gifted down through the generations. Was she safe to be seen as this, living in a German colony in then Yugoslavia? I wonder, but I expect the answer is no.

How many of my grandfathers had to work themselves to the bone, putting aside silly dreams. How many of my grandmothers had to turn off their creative gifts in order to put food on the table, tend to the babies, and do their “domestic duties.”

There are also the stories of the noble blood on my mothers side. My great grandfather born to a noble woman out of wedlock, rejected and forgotten by him. At 18 he went to find his mother. She slammed the door in his face saying he was not her child. Another ache of being seen, rejected, and abandoned in the family.

An interesting note, for the astrology souls, is that I have Mercury, Venus, the Sun, Part of Fortune, and more in the 12th house. In the amazing book ‘The Twelfth House: The Hidden Power in the Horoscope’ by Karen Hamaker she speaks about placements in the 12th house as ancestral patterns rejected in the family. Reading her words felt deeply confirming for me. Yes, my ancestors had repressed these things. Their voice (Mercury), their artistic talents (Venus), their identities (Sun), their joy (Part of Fortune), the list goes on. I’ll write more about this soon.

The fear of being seen:

Like I said, being seen became dangerous. For most of us it is.

Being our true authentic self often means challenging the status quo, living outside of the expectations of our families, peers, and loved ones. This creates immediate tension, and a story that if we’re our true selves, we’ll be abandoned. We won’t belong. How deeply heart breaking to think I’ll be abandoned if I am fully embodied in my purest self? Damn.

This wound of being seen and rejected exists more for some than others and the birth chart shows why.

Dominant placements inside of Leo and the 5th house, as well as Aquarius and the 11th house tell a very important story to people working with wounds here.

(Yes, the houses, and the signs, and planets are separate entities and have their very own powerful expressions, but for today friends, indulge me as we speak out them together.)

The Leo/5th House (and sometimes Sun) Conundrum: (fun, I’ve never gotten to use that word in my writing)

Let’s begin with the Leo/5th house, and sometimes Sun story. Leo wants to shine, to be seen. Leo was to express the ego, to be full and wholly the self embodied from the heart. Leo wants to bare it’s pure essence for all to see and so those around a Leo would say “wow, look at you!” Not because it is important to be seen, but because the heart is such an expansive and illuminating force that it inspires others to be seen, witnessed, and to be wholly themselves. It’s a ripple.

The 5th house requests creative expression not for money, not in exchange for goods, but simply because you must. Because pleasure is important, because the creative spark of being human is deeply important, and should be used and celebrated.

And the sun… oh well the Sun. This is your vitality, and when you are fully embracing and embodying your sun? You feel alive, expressed, vital.

To be yourself, expressed fully, is how you create health and vitality in your body.

Have you ever experienced the complete crisis that happens from denying your creative gifts? I have.

The Aquarius/11th House (and sometimes Uranus) Conundrum:

On to Aquarius, the 11th house, and sometimes Uranus. Aquarius wants create great ripples of change for society. It sees the future, the possibility, and what’s to come and uses it’s influence in the community to push the boundaries of what is possible — for everyone involved. It is a service based energy. Oh, not in the way that Virgo and Pisces are. But it is. Aquarius wants to invent new ways to help society be better, and that is the role, the service to the community.

The 11th house is the house of networking, connections, and even financial gains. What happens here dictates part of your role in society. And to belong in society means, often, to fit into society. The edge walkers are the ones who disrupt society to create change, and are often the ones who feel the deepest wounds of belonging.

And Uranus, well, Uranus seeks to break free from anything that holds you stuck in old patterns. Uranus desires rebellion against the status quo.

So there’s a choice… break free and be yourself, break society free from old ways of being, or break free from being yourself so that you can belong.

Where things get sticky:

Often the cost of being yourself is not belonging. Great artists who walk the fringes of society often aren’t recognized until they are dead, and we humans remember that when we study “the greats”. We remember the cost of being ourselves. We remember who taught us that it wasn’t safe to be ourselves, and that the cost itself was to belong. We remember those exiled in the past for saying the earth revolves around the sun — such heresy. We remember those burned for practicing folk medicine and helping others, burned as witches. We remember those forgotten, laughed at, and judged for their work when they were too ahead of their times.

And so you shrink as you’re pulled from one side of this axis to the other, until you learn how to integrate both.

How can you so fully be yourself, and let your light shine without fear that you will be rejected — while simultaneously helping change the very things you see need shifting in the world around you? How can you be yourself, and belong? It seems as though the world really isn’t built for that, is it?

This is the game of balance we find in the zodiac.

And the price? It’ll probably be your ego.

And let me tell you, you’ll be humbled.

What is the cost?

At this point, the question becomes, who doesn’t see me? Who am I afraid will see me? And what am I afraid will happen when they do?

We talked about the cost of being yourself, and the cost of belonging earlier, but there’s another cost I want you to consider.

The cost of a life un-lived.

I constantly sitting with the parts of myself I have waited too long to express, for fear of the trolls on the internet, or the judgement of people who never really understood me or matter to begin with.

What is the cost of you hiding your art, your work, your creativity?

What is the cost to the world? To all the people who need your work and will never get to feel its impact?

What is the cost to your soul? The aching part of you that has something to say, make, do, express?

What is the cost?

No one is going to come and force you to shine your light and let yourself be seen. No one is going to come and save you from your fears. No one is going to walk you through the dark underworld of your own fears and shadows. Only you can do that.

And only you can decide if the cost of your work un-expressed is worth it. Only you can decide if hiding in the shadows feels better than risking it all.

And let me tell you… though the risks create aches, and scars, and pulls at the seams of your consciousness — they have always, always, been worth it for me.

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So, how do you stop caring?

Picking the right people in your life:

If you’re anything like me, you grew up exposed, witnessed, and rejected by family, friends, and the world, and yet maybe you had heavy expectations thrust upon you, as I did. Or maybe you never felt recognized, seen, celebrated. Maybe you’ve always felt like you’re second best, the runner up. Maybe this was with the people around you, maybe not. But taking full account of the people you surround yourself with now is key when it comes to letting yourself shine. If you feel like you have to shrink around the people in your life, the question is why?

My Dad’s wife used to scoff and roll her eyes at me when I expressed anything I wanted to be “when I grew up”. In fact, it was only 5 years ago she called me a Witch (in the bad way) on a FaceTime call, amongst other things, and got cut from my life. I was tired of being treated like a second class citizen, and I was definitely tired wondering what she would see when I finally blazed my radiant light.

I’m not saying you need to cut people out of your life, but you do need to evaluate them if you feel at all like you have to shrink around them. It’s time to surround yourself with people who get you, and let you just be you. People who let you express yourself, people who celebrate your creative efforts, and cheer you own as you start shining.

When I let go of the gossiping judgemental friends I had surrounded myself with in my first nodal return I finally felt free. Something came online for me. It was the most alive I had ever felt in my life, even in the midst of the deepest depression I had ever known. In fact, it was part of what healed my severe depression at the time. Previous to breaking free I had been in therapy for intense suicidal thoughts. When I freed myself and starting embracing who I really was, and found people who loved and celebrated me, everything changed. The people I found in those years are still my best friends in the entire world, 18 years later.

Letting of the need for external validation and the fear of judgement:

This one won’t be easy, trust me, but you’ve got to get really good at not caring what people think or say about you.

When I first start making music back in 2014 a friend at the time told me “you’ve got to grow Rhino skin in this industry”, so I did. And let me tell you… it still hurt being rejected by producers. It still hurt being told a song I wrote was shit (and it was shit, honestly.) It still hurt feeling second best. But my fear of external validation zapped my creative efforts and eventually I stopped making music entirely, until recently. I let all the voices of judgement crush me. Funny thing is, in a see of celebration, I only hear the very small pond of judgement.

Let yourself be shit. Let your messy art go into the world and be okay with people hating it. Write shitty pieces. Write absolute garbage and still let it be seen. And be okay with what they say. This is the only way to grow and get better. And I bet you those shitty pieces are way better than you think they, are I bet someone needed to find them.

Stop letting the fear of what people will say get in the way of doing what your soul is aching to do. Just do it. And let them be wrong about you. Let them hate you. Let them judge you. That’s theirs to hold, not yours.

Recognizing and owning your role in the collective:

If you feel you came here to something important in the world, then you did. It’s as simple as that. And doing something important doesn’t mean you need to have 10821929187 followers, or be on TV. You don’t need a massive following to create ripples of change. But if that ache lives within you… the one I recognize all too well that says “I’ve got an important mission to help this crazy world,” well, then I trust you.

And if so, who are you to hide? What part of your soul contract are you learning through your visibility would? Are you betraying your art by hiding?

Listen… not everyone needs to be seen to create. But I’m speaking to those who know they want to have an impact, and visibility is part of that experience.

It’s time to recognize what you came here to do, integrate the shadow, and start doing it. Bit by bit, small step by small step, being seen and shining your light because you must. Because your soul is screaming for it.

Recognize it’s going to hurt, and do it anyway:

I love to remember when someone first told me the phrase ‘In life you have to pick the shit sandwich you want to eat.” Aka, everything has shitty things. The life you’re living now? The one where you’re too afraid to be seen or go after your dreams? I bet it has some shit. And the one you desire, where you’re stepping full into your creative light? Yep, it’s also gonna have shit. So which shit would you rather experience? Personally, I choose the shit that is also aligned with me being most authentically myself, even when it sucks. Even when its laced in rejection and processing all my damn shadows. Even when I have to process every single visibility wound in my psyche to launch something new, or put my work into the world (and trust me, I do.)

It’s going to hurt. Do it anyway.

What’s does life look like when we let go?

I want you to imagine for a moment a life where you’re not concerned about what others say about you, you just express yourself fully. Imagine there is no threat of not belonging, no threat of your expression being rejected. It’s just you and the creations you so desire to birth into this world. What would that feel like? I imagine, personally, it feels like freedom. The freedom to be fully embodied as myself. I’ve felt it many times, and it feels like pure freedom.

You would be free to create all you desire. Free to be your true self. Free to live fully expressed, no longer tucking parts of yourself aside ‘for later.’

As I mentioned earlier, the Sun in astrology is linked to your vital life force. In medical astrology, when we live our sun sign, our health expresses better, our body functions more optimally, and we are full of energy. I like to think about it like the fuel in your tank. When your Sun is expressed, there is enough fuel in your tank to feel alive, to get to where you want to go. When we deny the Sun? We suffer. Trust me, I know. You probably know and maybe haven’t fully realized it. Leo and the 5th house, ruled by the Sun, helps us understand more of this story. Your birth chart can help you understand where you need to express, how you desire to express, how important it is that you do — and what happens when you don’t.

If being fully yourself feels dangerous, it’s likely your vitality is suffering in some way, because this energy is play, pleasure, and it’s life force. I think of the many ways we shut off when we don’t want to be perceived. Often, I’ve found, it’s linked to every area of our live. Our sex life shuts off, our art shuts off, our hobbies shut off, we disconnect from the pleasure of food, play, laughter, joy. We become shells of ourselves. We need to express. We as humans are meant to express.

But when we find that inner light again, and start to shine, we become more free. We become magnetic naturally. We glow.

Fully embodied people are like shining stars in a room. No matter how “traditionally beautiful,” they glow. I know you’ve seen them, felt their presence. It isn’t loud, it’s a pure presence of being fully embodied, and I think we all crave it. To feel so very free inside ourselves, fully embracing who we are, and letting the world see it.

Shadow Work: So what now?

Ask yourself some important questions to get to the heart of this story.

1. What is the earliest memory I have of feeling unsafe, ashamed, or rejected for being seen or expressing myself?

2. If I were fully seen, what am I actually afraid would happen?

3. What part of me already knows who I am and what I’m here to share… but I haven’t fully claimed yet?

4. What is it costing me to keep hiding my voice, my art, and my truth?

I’m curious… What’s something you KNOW you’re meant to share… but haven’t yet? and why do you think that is? Tell me below.

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Listen to the Podcast for more on this topic:

Read the Wounds of the Zodiac Connected to this Piece:

• Introduction to ‘The Wounds of the Zodiac’

• [The Wounds of the Zodiac] Leo, The 5th House, & The Sun: The Wound of Visibility

• [The Wounds of the Zodiac] The Creativity Wound: Leo, The Sun & the 5th House

• [The Wounds of the Zodiac] The Wound of Belonging: What Aquarius, the 11th House, and Uranus Say About Your Soul

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You say you want to inspire people, change the world, and yet your greatest ideas are sitting in your notes... invisible to the world.

This isn’t intentional. I know that. You know that.

But something cellularly feels dangerous about sharing those thoughts with the world.

Have you ever felt that you need to hide your magic, not shine too brightly, and make yourself small so you are not rejected, persecuted, shamed, or made the black sheep again in this life?

What happens when someone has experienced lives of persecution for being themselves?

When the very act of being your authentic self has been dangerous.

What happens when being seen meant they would come with their torches and pitchforks.

Witch.

The Witch Wound shows up in the birth chart in many ways. (Which I’ll show you inside of my new container Unveiled)

The one who expressed themselves to much...

The one who was persecuted for being true to their art...

The one who was a healer, a helper, betrayed for their folk magick.

The one who was thought to be a harlot, a slut, a whore.

The one who was “too much”, hysterical, a wild child of sin.

The one who was too powerful.

Witch.

The list goes on.

There is and was power here. Power to be wielded, power to be feared, power to be taken, abused, lost....

But with all this inner power there is a layer of fear.

Fear of being seen, fear of your own sacred magic, and fear of being the black sheep.

Fear that it you’re witnessed, they’ll come for you again.

It keeps your light dim.

It keeps you operating just on the surface.

Just enough so they wont see who you really are, what you’re really passionate about, and the great work aching in your bones.

You may have irrational fears of being witnessed, or your creative work, your life’s work being seen.

You may have felt this always, or it turned on at some point in your life surprisingly. Past lives can get activated at certain times in your life, or you have felt these signatures since you were little

The remembrance of lives of persecution lies dormant within the reincarnated soul working with the Witch wound.

It begins to translate in your ability to step into your power in this life, right now.

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This looks like feeling:

→ Unsafe to be in your body

→ Unsafe to use your magic

→ Unsafe to step into your power

→ Unsafe to be your authentic self

→ Unsafe to shine your light

But you were born to turn your wounding, your fears, your pain into magic by healing through its guidance and transmuting its darkness into light.

By transforming your shadow, you in turn raise the vibration of the earth.

Your light is needed.

You are needed.

You deserve to express yourself without fearing what they’ll say.

Because you cannot stop the angry mobs, the trolls, the haters.

But you can show yourself you are safe to express.

You can write a new story, and start showing up in new ways you never thought possible.

This is why I’ve been endlessly speaking about visibility so much lately.

Shadow Work Questions to dig deeper into the Witch Wound:

1. What house is Pluto in inside of birth my chart? What does this area of life reveal to me around where I might be afraid of persecution? (Use this FREE guide to go deeper.)

2. What do you believe would actually happen if you shared your truest thoughts, your real voice, or your creative work with the world?

3. What is it costing you to keep your voice, your ideas, and your magic hidden?

4. If the world saw the real you... your thoughts, your voice, your power? What part of you is convinced you would be rejected, attacked, or abandoned?

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• Be clearer in your creative voice and what you want to create by tapping into your authentic desire and releasing the external judgement and need for validation.

• Feel more confident in sharing your work, even when it’s messy, because messy action is better than no action, my friend.

• Stop shrinking, editing, or apologizing and fully embrace the creative force without you without shying away

• Micro-dose sharing your work publicly and be able to meet the shadows that arise as we connect in our visibility circles and you taste sharing your work in the world

• Understand your visibility wound at a soul level through powerful shadow work, community, and deep reflection.

• Practice being seen in real-time community – the thing that has been the most powerful and impactful in my own life.

• Reclaim the parts of you that hid for protection because you are worthy of shining your light into this world.

• Start creating consistently, even when you feel” blocked”

• Step into your role as a visible, powerful, embodied creator – and start doing the work you know you’re meant to do.

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