Not that kind of frisky.

This kind of excited fristky: I had an extremely clear impulse to do something I haven’t done publicly ever.

I’m highly intuitive. (And just to be clear, in this instance intuitive means psychic.) And more so as the years have passed. I just don’t lead with it. It gets baked into the work I do with my different mentoring offers.

Today, I got the directions to open up straight Oracle readings.

So I created a booking link and I’m sending it out to the world.

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Here’s what you need to know:

When I say I do Oracle readings this is what it means: my intuition works when you ask the questions. That’s when the clarity and direction arrives. Think Oracle of Delphi. The knowing arrives as guidance, direction and clarity for your situation. It’s that simple.

You have questions, the answers are simply clear to me after you ask them. Most of the time they arrive in the moment. On rare occasions, they will come in a day or two later. If so, I will reach out to you with the details.

In your reading, I will respond to your questions. What you bring to the call will clarify the answers or path for you, and I will share what I receive.

Heads up! DO NOT bring questions that you know that Source will not answer like ‘when will I win the lottery?’ I won’t play that game.

You have situations in your life wherw you are at a threshold or crossroads, bring those. You have gotten yourself lost because you can’t hear what is best for you at this time, bring those. You are in your 40’s and it feels like all areas of your life are full on tension and you can’t find the way through, bring those.

I will bring my experience and expertise to the front as well. Here’s the lived experience of my life that will meet you:

• 30 years of running both a bricks-and-mortar marketing business and a solo digital business

• parenting and empty nesting

• complex divorce after 30 years of marriage

• experience with dealing with and healing from a covert narcissist

• spiritual work across many mystic traditions - I personally work with ascended masters, archangels, starbeings and other celestial beings

• experience in corporate and non-profit life

You’ll have 45 minute with me and we will go deep and fast. I see the patterns and receive the path for you. It’s that simple.

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The astrology right now is pushing on my North Node in the 12 house in Aries.

It’s about being fully myself, plainly, without apology. AND using my voice. And because of the rest of my chart, my intuition is highly amplified.

Here you go! I can’t imagine anything more plain-spoken or stripped bare.

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I’ve had this ability all the way back to my marketing business in my 20s. I just didn’t know it then. And it is what made me exceptionally good at it. I simply knew what my clients needed and wanted, more so than they did.

I’ve refined this by clearing up my energy. I now work cleanly with my guides and your guides. I understand how to feel the energy and trust it. This work has been my personal PhD level work.

My standard hourly rate is usually between $300-$500. These readings at $200 won’t last long and may not come back around.

I’ve opened up some weekend dates to provide times for everyone. And if you are in another country and need a time to meet you where you are, just message me.

I quite literally just pounded my fists together and said that.

It is the most frustrating thing I’m dealing with right now.

I know myself and my work better than I ever have. And I feel good about it.

I have solid offers - something that is life changing for the women who are ready. One set up to be accessible for those who need it, and one for depth without a long, heavy commitment for those that want a bit more support.

I feel strong on my topics and content. I know what I’m good at and confident in my gifts. And I’m showing up publicly, consistently and speaking more directly than I ever have.

And still it feels like no one is out there. Like I keep looking out at the world and see the people but they don’t see me. Or more eerily, I look out at the world and see the people but they aren’t there.

I’ve actively and deliberately worked with my intuition for almost 2 decades.

And in that time I’ve consciously devoted myself to building a strong connection with my soul. I say that to convey ‘I trust myself and what I perceive’ even when it seems wildly weird.

While I can’t explain it, I can tell you that what I’m experiencing is real. More than that I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one feeling it.

It is showing up around me in the stories of women who have noticed that their clients have gone quiet - no sales, at all. I see it in the women sharing consistently on their platforms - and maybe they are getting some of their ‘metrics’ but it still feels flat or still.

It’s almost like the pause a pendulum makes at the top of it’s swing. It’s that feeling.

The way I’ve explained it a few times is by saying that there are two timelines overlapping and just slightly off kilter. Like out of phase. And I’m somehow able to see both the timelines so that it seems like normal life, but they aren’t able to see all of each other.

A friend commented to me that that made sense. After all, she said, just take a look at anyone’s social feed and you’ll see completely different worlds.

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I don’t quite know when this ‘out-of-phase’ moment will pass, but I’m certain it will. The question for me now is, ‘what can I do to exist within it and help it move along?’

I do believe we are the creators of our reality, even collective reality. So when these sort of things come along, I can influence them.

That means I have agency over the experience I’m living in, even if it is (or appears to be) bigger that me.

Here’s what I’m doing:

1. I’m trusting this moment is about integrating higher frequency energies. I’ve been talking about and integrating 9th to 12th chakra energies for years within my paid community. I made a short reel about how to do it for yourself. It’s easy and make a really big difference if you add it to your regular energy practices.
   

2. I’m envisioning what I wish to be true - sales, clients, conversations, momentum, friends - and seeing it as true now. I’m using my powerful and creative brain to imagine/pretend it is all working out right now regardless of what it might look like. After all, my soul has my back. h/t to Abraham Hicks
   

3. I’m staying steady. Not stopping. Not questioning. Just witnessing it like a storm passing through. Using the time to keep building, keep sharing, keep loving. Living my life with the joy and delight for life I’ve claimed for myself.

Tell me how you are navigating this time. Have you felt the oddness of life lately? How is it showing up for you? Do you feel it like I do?

I have openings for Soul Arc Sessions and would love to read yours!

It gives you the clarity to move on the thing you can’t get clear on. Like should you burn it all down? Or how do you pivot and keep all that you love but get rid of all the rest?

For the entrepreneur on her spiritual journey with her business: it’s for you when you’ve done the inner work, followed the call, and paid your dues – and still can’t see the shape or direction of what’s actually becoming and where your Soul wants to go.

One 60-minute session and a written Report you keep. You leave knowing your next move, and why.

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This is a common pattern and feeling for me. It sneaks up on me. I wake up and realize ‘what happened?’ I was right here the whole time and suddenly the world changed.

Or more like something in the world changed.

This happened to me around 2008-2009 around the time of the birth of my 3rd child and the shut down of my marketing business due to the recession. About that time Twitter and Facebook were hot items.

It felt like I looked up and realized I was lost. I flat out did not understand Twitter. And I was actively involved in the tech world through website development. So it shouldn’t have felt so disorienting but it did.

It wasn’t until many years later that I realized that I wasn’t behind. I had simply felt that way. I was actually watching the development of a new way of business. I found my way to all the leaders in the online entrepreneurial space. When I watched them, I felt so behind. It’s like I’d missed the introduction and was dropped into the middle of the book.

With time, I’ve gained perspective, and it turns out it wasn’t the middle of the book. It was the very beginning.

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I’m back in the feeling again. Feeling behind. Feeling like the business landscape has changed into something else and I missed it again.

This time though, I have the benefit of years of experience and so much more awareness of myself. And this time, I know that is my old pattern kicking in.

This time, I can see that as a way I make myself small. A way that I discount myself. A way that I keep myself off the field of play.

This time, I’m not falling for it.

About a year ago I stepped back the time I spent on Instagram. I took it down to near zero.

I’d already decided years ago to exit Facebook. But I noticed the way that Instagram had become a place that was manipulating users. I didn’t want to support that. And I didn’t want to be influenced by the pull into addictive consumption.

Any time I stepped in because a friend shared something, I felt it hard. Instagram knew exactly what to show me to get me to lose track of the focus I had when I entered. It was easy to see what was going on. And still, I kept my focus on Substack.

I’ve recently begun to explore using Instagram again. Yes, for business purposes. And because I recognize the role it plays in most of my people’s lives. I know I don’t need it as a tool. But with the growth plans I have, it simply makes sense if I want to grow with ease and joy.

I just happened to step back in right about the time Jessi Jean was promoting and opening her first Yap Challenge. (If you’ve somehow missed this cultural phenomenon, just know that she blew up IG with her $300 offer.)

I watched. And then noticed the shift on the platform. The quality and style of reels changed dramatically. Not just a little change. A big change. Perhaps it’s the algorithm. But the content in my feed shifted. I wasn’t seeing fluff anymore. (And, yes, I had curated my feed and still it felt like a waste of time because I had to go to stories to actually get the content I wanted.)

Not after the Yap Challenge started. I saw content in a new way. Focused. Compelling. Helpful. Even when people were simply sharing their day, the reels landed differently.

And I realized the landscape had changed. Not by the Yap Challenge. It simply highlighted it in a more pronounced way.

After grad school I worked at a public affairs firm. It was there that I learned about messaging, polling, content and influence.

Back then, social media didn’t exist. But video did rule.

A message had to land in the first 7 seconds. You’d be surprised how much time was spent on the words that went into 7 seconds. Messages were tested and polled and refined. We could refine a message down to exactly what would shift a politician to support a policy initiative. And we also knew what it would take to build support for the policy.

Once the message was refined, a team would design videos for the issue or cause. They’d be run and the response would influence what happened next. Corporations paid hundreds of thousands of dollars, if not millions, for this work.

This is all to say that I understand the power and importance of communication.

Now, today, everything that took months of work with a team, can and does happen in minutes every day in the hands of anyone with a cell phone and an Instagram account.

It’s easy to learn the psychology of refining a message. There are free reels and videos on the importance of the nuance of voice and presentation. Someone can adjust and modify their direction over the course of a day. An offer or idea can be sold over the course of weeks.

So it’s no surprise I feel behind. Things move fast now. And yet…

What I feel is not because of what I see in the marketplace today.

This was all happening six months ago. And I didn’t feel behind then.

This right now is my mind and nervous system reacting to the growth I’ve committed to make for myself. It doesn’t make me feel any better knowing and acknowledging that.

What it does do is really showcase for me just how big my desire is. If my nervous system is activated in a way that is turning on thoughts of ‘not enough’, ‘the moment has passed me by’, and ‘worthlessness’ that’s a clear message of my capacity, not my insufficiency.

Listen, I’ve wrestled with those feeling for years (read: my whole life), and I’m still here doing my work, being a good mom, building a new relationship with a man, enjoying my life, and making each day better than the day before. That’s not going to stop.

What I am stopping is the avoidance of discomfort. Discomfort is normal and a part of growth. My nervous system just has to get used to this version. And I know it can.

I’ve lived through plenty of discomfort. I have plenty of proof. Difficult divorce after years in a difficult marriage. Moving 3 times to 2 new cities in 2 years. That’s a lot of discomfort. Some was caused by hard, unpleasant things. Some of it was caused by the pursuit of joy and expansion.

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What I know now, that I didn’t know back in 2008 or all of the times since then, is that I’m living my soul journey. I can’t get it wrong. I control the experience. Me. Not anything else, and certainly not my nervous system and trauma responses.

I have the capacity to learn, to change my actions and my mind, and to regulate my nervous system. In every instance, it is mine to direct.

I also know that I’m living my Soul Arc. This moment, the growth, the uncomfortableness are exactly right on time for this season of my life.

I’m right on the cusp of what every woman will work through at this age of her life because I’m right at the cusp of my second Saturn return.

That means: clearing what does not belong and claiming what is coming. This is a window that frames the next thirty years - and it is important to build it from my own center.

I plan to step up, and step in strong. I didn’t do it in the past because I just didn’t know how. I didn’t know that that was my actual growth edge.

Now I do. I know what my soul is asking of me because I know my North Node. I can do it. And yes, I promise, it does feel uncomfortable. But it also feels very, very right.

I hope you found something I shared helpful to you on your path. Would love to hear your comments!

I’ll be sharing more on Substack notes and Instagram. You’ll see more on:

• Documenting what it is to live through my second Saturn return

• Using intuition and understanding that it’s the language of your soul

• Living your soul purpose and soul path through your North Node

• How to live an uncharted path where you’re inventing a way - because business, intuition and spirituality are taking us into places no one has expected

• Transforming your core wound into your power and strength

• My journey and relationship with worth, value and wealth

Let me know what you like and what you want to see more of. It’s all a learning experience for me right now and any and all feedback is welcome. 🤗

In case you missed it…

This live is how you find that out – and what it looks like to actually live from it.

Why you should listen:

• How to know exactly where you stand on the timeline of your own life – without spending another five years figuring it out on your own

• What “midlife crisis” actually is when you look at the structure of it – and what yours is specifically asking of you

• Why the reading of your chart against the map does what more books, more coaching, and more inner work haven’t

• What these years are actually preparing you for – and what doing this now lands you at 60 with, instead of still asking the same questions

• Exactly what a woman walks out with after her chart is read against the full map – and which of the two ways in (Session or Intensive) is yours

Start here → Soul Arc Intensive

https://www.judithmanriquez.com/soul-arc-intensive

Soul Arc Session and report

https://www.judithmanriquez.com/soul-arc-session

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I’ve learned a lot.

About myself, about what I’ll do differently going forward, about visibility, about messaging, about focus. Perfect 3 profile in Human Design at work. Lots of growth for sure.

Join me tomorrow for the last in this series. See below for the details.

Thanks for sticking with me and allowing me into your inbox. I really appreciate you and your support!

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Finishing up Live #4 out of 4 tomorrow - see the links below

• My lives are here to help you understand this framework that I call your Soul Arc. To give you context for your midlife years.

• To help you know how midlife is a scheduled architectural upgrade that your soul planned.

• To support you to re-orient to your joy, clarity and path, even as life feels like ‘what the hell happened?’

Tomorrow, July 30, 2026

How to know where you actually stand in your life at 43, 48, 55 - and what’s being asked of you next

Thursday, July 30 at 11 AM PT - Get the link here to join

• Learn what the “midlife crisis” actually is when you look at the structure of it - and what it is specifically asking of you

• Discover why more books, more coaching, or more inner work hasn’t gotten you to direction - and what actually does

• Discover what these years are actually preparing you for - and why doing this now lands you at 60 with ease, power, and what you’ve wanted, instead of still feeling wobbly and asking the same questions

Live #1 out of 4

Live #2 out of 4

Live #3 out of 4

The gap between having all the wisdom and knowing what to do with it - and how to close it

You have the wisdom already. Years of inner work, multiple frameworks, spiritual training, therapy – and it’s a jumbled knot you can’t get the pieces apart. The information isn’t the problem. What’s missing is the thread that organizes it. And you keep waiting to feel called, ready, or clear before you move – and it isn’t arriving.

This live is the specific reason more inner work hasn’t been enough – and what actually moves you when nothing else has.

Why you should listen:

• Why more inner work, more frameworks, and more modalities aren’t the answer (and what is)

• The reason the wisdom you already have hasn’t organized itself yet – and the specific thing that does

• Why “I should be able to figure this out on my own” is quietly costing you years

• Why waiting until you feel called, ready, or clear before you move is exactly backwards

• The actual Soul Arc Report on screen – so you can see what “specific to your chart” really means before you decide

Start here → Soul Arc Intensive
https://www.judithmanriquez.com/soul-arc-intensive

Soul Arc Session and report
https://www.judithmanriquez.com/soul-arc-session

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https://youarethedream.substack.com/subscribe

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Why you should listen:

• Why the exact thing you’ve been most rewarded for is now quietly costing you

• The two points in your birth chart that explain your life better than your Sun sign, Enneagram, or Human Design ever will

• What the wound you were born carrying has to do with the direction your soul is actually building — and why they belong to each other

• The developmental pattern that makes midlife feel hard by design (and why “hard” isn’t the problem)

• One example walked all the way through — so you can start to see what your own chart is asking

Get your own Soul Arc reading here: https://www.judithmanriquez.com/soul-arc-session

If you want to know your own North Node and how it specifically is guiding you through midlife consider working with me through my Soul Arc Intensive. I have openings now.

This program gives language to what your intuition already knows. It uses your astrology and Human Design to clarify what you're building this decade – with four live one-to-one sessions to put it to work in your business now.

Learn about the Intensive here

Coming up this week - join me for more

• My lives are here to help you understand this framework that I call your Soul Arc. To give you context for your midlife years.

• To help you know how midlife is a scheduled architectural upgrade that your soul planned.

• To support you to re-orient to your joy, clarity and path, even as life feels like ‘what the hell happened?’

First in the series

Live 3

The gap between having all the wisdom and knowing what to do with it - and how to close it

Wednesday, July 29 at 2PM PT - Get the link here to join

Let’s unpack these things together:

• “I should be able to figure this out on my own.”

• “This is just more information — I already have a lot of frameworks.”

• “I need to have my external situation sorted first.”

• “I’ll do this when the timing is right / when I feel called.”
  

Live 4

How to know where you actually stand in your life at 43, 48, 55 - and what’s being asked of you next

Thursday, July 30 at 11 AM PT - Get the link here to join

• Learn what the “midlife crisis” actually is when you look at the structure of it - and what it is specifically asking of you

• Discover why more books, more coaching, or more inner work hasn’t gotten you to direction - and what actually does

• Discover what these years are actually preparing you for - and why doing this now lands you at 60 with ease, power, and what you’ve wanted, instead of still feeling wobbly and asking the same questions

Let me know if you have any questions. Happy to answer them! Have a great day!

Catch the live tomorrow to learn more about your specific soul growth. The link’s are below.

Heads up: your next email will come on Wednesday so you won’t receive additional remainders on the recordings and links until then.

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You’re somewhere between 40 and 55 and the last ten years haven’t looked like anything you expected. You keep landing on some version of “I should be further along” — and part of you knows that isn’t right.

This live is what’s actually happening to you in these years — the developmental passage you’ve been living without a map for.

Why you should listen:

• What’s actually happening to you between 40 and 55 — plainly, on the record

• Why “I should be further along” is the exact wrong measurement (and what to use instead)

• The three transits that quietly structure this decade — Uranus opposition, Chiron return, second Saturn return — and what each one is doing to you

• How to locate yourself on the map by the end of the hour

What changes the moment you stop measuring your life by a framework that was never built for these years

If you want to know your own Soul Arc to help you with your orientation, consider working with me through my Soul Arc Intensive. I have openings now.

It’s a 6 week hybrid mentoring-intuitive guidance container to pause, reorient with new information, come back to center and choose your next direction with greater clarity, by knowing what season you’re in, what you have to work with, and what you’re building toward.

Learn about the Intensive here

Coming up this week - join me for more

• My lives are here to help you understand this framework that I call your Soul Arc. To give you context for your midlife years.

• To help you know how midlife is a scheduled architectural upgrade that your soul planned.

• To support you to re-orient to your joy, clarity and path, even as life feels like ‘what the hell happened?’

Live 2

Why the exact thing you’re best at is quietly running your midlife into the ground – and what your life is actually asking you to build instead

Tuesday, July 28 at 10 AM PT - Get the link here to join

• Learn why the exact thing you’re best at is quietly costing you - and what your chart says to build instead

• Discover the two points in your birth chart that quietly explain everything you’ve been struggling with since 40 - and how to read them for yourself

• See how the wound you were born carrying is actually pointing you toward the direction your soul is asking you to grow

Live 3

The gap between having all the wisdom and knowing what to do with it - and how to close it

Wednesday, July 29 at 2PM PT - Get the link here to join

Let’s unpack these things together:

• “I should be able to figure this out on my own.”

• “This is just more information — I already have a lot of frameworks.”

• “I need to have my external situation sorted first.”

• “I’ll do this when the timing is right / when I feel called.”
  

Live 4

How to know where you actually stand in your life at 43, 48, 55 - and what’s being asked of you next

Thursday, July 30 at 11 AM PT - Get the link here to join

• Learn what the “midlife crisis” actually is when you look at the structure of it - and what it is specifically asking of you

• Discover why more books, more coaching, or more inner work hasn’t gotten you to direction - and what actually does

• Discover what these years are actually preparing you for - and why doing this now lands you at 60 with ease, power, and what you’ve wanted, instead of still feeling wobbly and asking the same questions

Let me know if you have any questions. Happy to answer them! Have a great day!

I’ve been sending too many emails to you - for my comfort, and probably for yours.

I’ve been figuring out how to handle the setting on Substack lives and figure out what I feel most comfortable with. I appreciate you for bearing with me and still being here.

So here’s what I’m doing now: I’m sending you a summary of what is coming along.

You can go ahead and sign up from the menu of Lives below if they interest you.

Big picture: here’s what will begin happening.

1. I have 4 lives scheduled for next week AND I’m exploring a more humane rhythm of sharing about them. So check the live line up for next week and sign up for the ones you want to hear about. Otherwise they will end up on my Substack page and I won’t mention it again.

2. I think I want to have a standing date on Fridays for an ‘at the kitchen table’ sort of reflection and touching base on what life is feeling like. For me. For what I’m seeing in others. For fun. I just want to allow it to be what it wants to be. I’m thinking it will be called Honest Talk. I’m starting this tomorrow and testing it out.

3. You will hear from me twice a week by email. One main post and one main podcast. I’m not totally set on the days of the week yet but keep leaning toward Sunday and Thursday - ish. If I have more than one email or podcast to send, I’ll send the ONE email that let’s you know so you can know it’s there. If I have less, you get a break. 😉

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Tomorrow’s Live

Honest talk: What “trusting yourself” actually looks like in practice - not the phrase, the actual muscle

Tomorrow! Friday, June 24 at 9 AM PT - Get the link here to join

Who this is for:

• You if you want casual, informal conversation, reflection and connection about what is working and not working as a soul-led, intuitive professional woman navigating business and midlife

• This week: how traditional marketing isn’t working for me since I’m introducing something outside the mainstream, what I’m exploring, and how I’m thinking about visibility

What the heck’s the deal with all of these lives?

Let me tell you.

I’ve developed a new framework for how to understand and navigate the time from 40-58. It comes from my lived experience of those years feeling lost, defeated and longing for clarity and meaning.

It can certainly apply to any woman but this is specifically for my women.

• The ones who have been finding their way to living and growing a business from their soul.

• The ones who listen to their intuition and continue to adjust as it develops.

• The ones who have accepted that they are walking an uncharted path and making the best of it. And may even realize that part of that path is necessary for what they are bringing into the world.

• The ones who do all of this because consciousness matters. Theirs. The way it impacts those that come after them. The way it creates forward what benefits the world.

So my lives are here to help you understand this framework that I call your Soul Arc. To give you context for these years.

To help you know how midlife is a scheduled architectural upgrade that your soul planned.

To support you to re-orient to your joy, clarity and path, even as life feels like ‘what the hell happened?’

If you want to pick and choose, I’d suggest Live 2 or 4.

And just so you know, these aren’t attached to a funnel of some kind. I’m just using Substack so you won’t get reminders and follow ups and ‘here’s your recording’ emails.

Hope to see you there. And I’d really appreciate it if you’d please share with a friend!

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Live 1

What’s actually happening to you between 40 and 55 - the map that changes every decision you make

Monday, July 27 at 12 PM PT - Get the link here to join

• Learn what’s actually happening to women between 40 and 55, without needing another book, framework, or self-help program

• Discover why “I should be further along” is the exact wrong measurement, and what to use instead

• Learn how to stop judging yourself from another ‘wrong’ assumption about what’s happening to you

Live 2

Why the exact thing you’re best at is quietly running your midlife into the ground – and what your life is actually asking you to build instead

Tuesday, July 28 at 10 AM PT - Get the link here to join

• Learn why the exact thing you’re best at is quietly costing you - and what your chart says to build instead

• Discover the two points in your birth chart that quietly explain everything you’ve been struggling with since 40 - and how to read them for yourself

• See how the wound you were born carrying is actually pointing you toward the direction your soul is asking you to grow

Live 3

The gap between having all the wisdom and knowing what to do with it - and how to close it

Wednesday, July 29 at 2PM PT - Get the link here to join

Let’s unpack these things together:

• “I should be able to figure this out on my own.”

• “This is just more information — I already have a lot of frameworks.”

• “I need to have my external situation sorted first.”

• “I’ll do this when the timing is right / when I feel called.”
  

Live 4

How to know where you actually stand in your life at 43, 48, 55 - and what’s being asked of you next

Thursday, July 30 at 11 AM PT - Get the link here to join

• Learn what the “midlife crisis” actually is when you look at the structure of it - and what it is specifically asking of you

• Discover why more books, more coaching, or more inner work hasn’t gotten you to direction - and what actually does

• Discover what these years are actually preparing you for - and why doing this now lands you at 60 with ease, power, and what you’ve wanted, instead of still feeling wobbly and asking the same questions

Let me know if you have any questions. Happy to answer them! Have a great day!

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Where have you mistaken disorientation for failure?

I’m finally feeling like inconsistency has purpose.

It feels like I’m finally able to name what has always been underneath my work.

After decades of doing my work.

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One thing that’s uncomfortable for me…

I almost never know what I’m creating while I’m creating it.

I only see it afterwards

When you don’t know where you are going it just feels hard.

And it has been so uncomfortable.

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The second uncomfortable thing…

Documenting the journey while I’m in it.

This is just not my strength. But I’m going to learn. This video is a first run.

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So I’m experimenting with something different. You are listening to something as it’s unfolding right here and now.

Messy and deep - because I am.

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When I looked back over years of my work…

1. I’ve been looking for clarity

2. I’ve was looking for a way to have ‘me’ make sense

3. It’s been continual exploration that never felt like it landed

Because I’m looking for orientation.

I keep asking: How do I orient in a landscape/life that doesn’t have any markers, no certainty, nothing solid?

Listening to intuition. Being ok with being different. Letting go for the need to know. Staying in integrity - even when the world made me feel wrong.

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I started in 2008

Now I can see I’ve been circling the same five ideas over and over.

They are the questions I asked, and the questions you ask.

1. Why am I here? (soul purpose)

2. How do I know what’s true for me? (intuition and human design)

3. Why does this part keep showing up? (core wound, trauma, nervous system)

4. How do I move forward when no one has done this before? (uncharted path)

5. Who am I becoming in all of this? (consciousness and evolution)

All of this wrapped in business as the practical application. You being you and growing a business - delivering your purpose through that. This lights me up.

Here are my answers to those questions:

• Intuition teaches you to orient inward

• Soul purpose teaches you to orient toward your unique expression

• The core would teaches you to orient toward what shaped you - instead of avoiding it you claim it as your strength

• Walking an uncharted path teaches you to oirnet without external validation.

• Consciousness orients you to your own evolution and what you impart to the collective.

So I’ve been working on how to be more fully myself - in ease and joy - and I’ve been using each of those answers as guiding principles.

My work is to help women orient to themselves - to the truest, deepest, most joyful, loving self.

This is the path and puzzle I’ve been working to solve. And the answer isn’t one way. It’s unique to each woman.

It’s my framework - the Soul Arc - that helps answer those questions. It’s what I’ve designed to help me answer those questions.

I hope it helps you to see the bigger picture you are walking too.

If you want to know your own Soul Arc to help you with your orientation, consider working with me through my Soul Arc Intensive. I have openings now.

It’s a 6 week hybrid mentoring-intuitive guidance container to pause, reorient with new information, come back to center and choose your next direction with greater clarity, by knowing what season you’re in, what you have to work with, and what you’re building toward.

Learn about the Intensive here

A desire for clarity and certainty is replaced by discernment.

At 44, a shaman told me something that stuck with me. Do the work now. If you don’t, by the time you’re 48 you’re going to have regrets. He was talking about my marriage. He was also talking about me.

I paid attention but wasn’t completely clear on what it was I needed to do.

My late 40s were bleak. A business had closed. There was financial pressure. My home life was so unstable I’m not sure I can say we had a home for stretches of it.

By about 48, it was crystal clear what needed to change. That’s when I found Human Design. That’s when the work I do now - helping intuitive, spiritual women build on their own terms - had become clear. It felt edgy because at the time it was norm-bending.

But I didn’t know then what the season was actually asking of me. So I doubled down on what I already knew how to do. I didn’t know it then but they were my South Node qualities. Service. Accommodation. Keeping the peace. Trying to hold the marriage together. Trying to hold the family together. When I used my voice, it was punished. So keeping the peace became easier than using it.

I had no idea there was another way.

That’s what this episode is about.

I hope it helps you make sense of where you are on your Soul Arc journey.

The gap doesn’t close through more understanding. It closes when you stop translating your life through an old framework and start living from what’s already here.

If you’re ready for support in that process, the Soul Arc Intensive is where we do that work together.

Learn more about the Soul Arc Intensive

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If you’re in your late 40s and the fog has finally lifted - and what you’re left with isn’t confusion but a clarity you can feel in your body about what belongs and what doesn’t - nobody is talking about this time. In this episode, I’m breaking down what’s actually happening in this window and why it matters so much for what comes next.

Why you should listen:

• Why the clarity showing up now isn’t an accident - and what years of questioning actually produced

• How to tell the difference between what survived because it’s real and what survived because you were managing it

• Why you’re not questioning anymore - you’re deciding - and what that shift means

• What this clarity is actually for - and why it matters that you use it now

You’ve spent years wondering. This is what comes after.

Start here → Soul Arc Intensive
https://tidycal.com/jmanriquez/soul-arc-intensive

Soul Arc Session and report
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For women over 40 who are ready to understand their own arc—and grow into it with intention.

You know.

You know the relationship has changed. You know the work doesn’t fit the way it used to. You know you’ve changed.

In my mid-40s, the hardest part wasn’t about finding the answer anymore. It was actually living what I’d already figured out. It seemed impossible at the time.

I really wish I had understood then that what I was living was developmental. That I hadn’t chosen wrong. That I didn’t need to find a better way.

This is just one of the reasons I’m sharing the Soul Arc episodes. The latest episode is all about what the mid-40s are developing.

The gap between who you are and the life you’re still sitting inside of — it isn’t a problem. It’s a passage. But by the mid-40s, it stops being something you can manage. It becomes something you have to start closing.

Not by blowing everything up. By being honest about what fits and what doesn’t. What’s yours and what isn’t. What you’ve been maintaining that no longer reflects who you’ve become.

And underneath all of it, this season is asking you to look at your relationship with power. Where you’ve given it away. Where you built from fear instead of authority. Where the choices that looked like strength were actually protection.

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I hope it helps you make sense of where you are.

The gap doesn't close through more understanding. It closes when you stop translating your life through an old framework and start living from what's already here.

If you’re ready for support in that process, the Soul Arc Intensive is where we do that work together.

Learn more about the Soul Arc Intensive

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Why the mid-40s demand something different and what happens when you can no longer look away

If you’ve done everything right and something still doesn’t fit — by the mid-40s you know more about yourself than you ever have, and you can feel the distance between who you’ve become and the life you’re still living. In this episode, I’m breaking down what that gap is actually asking of you and why the answer isn’t to try harder.

Why you should listen:

• Why the things that used to work — the role, the relationship, the way you show up — have stopped fitting

• Why the knowing that something needs to change keeps getting louder — and what it’s actually pointing at

• What those decisions forming inside you actually are — the ones you can feel but can’t yet explain

• What it actually costs to act on what you know — and what it costs not to

The gap isn’t the problem. What you do with it is everything.

Resources

If you’re ready to understand where you are in your own developmental arc, the Soul Arc Intensive is a six-week experience where we’ll map your unique season, the patterns shaping it, and what this passage is asking of you.

Start here → Soul Arc Intensive
https://tidycal.com/jmanriquez/soul-arc-intensive

Soul Arc Session and report
https://tidycal.com/jmanriquez/soul-arc-session

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For women over 40 who are ready to understand their own arc—and grow into it with intention.

You closed the business. You ended the marriage. You’re standing in the in-between - redesigned from the inside out, clearer than you’ve been in years, and still not sure what comes next. You know you’re done with survival mode. You know you’re done minimizing yourself. But the thing no one tells you is that the very independence that kept you alive is now the thing standing between you and what you actually want to build.

In this live conversation, I sit down with Sarah Jane - a creative, intuitive maker in her mid-40s who’s walking this passage right now - and we talk openly about what it looks like when your soul asks you to do the opposite of what’s always worked. No script. No filter. Just what it actually sounds like when two women name the pattern in their life and decide to move differently.

Why you should listen:

• What happens when your core wound - the one you didn’t know was running everything - shows up in your business, your pricing, and who you let pay you

• Why the woman who got 17,000 views on her first YouTube video still couldn’t translate that into income - and what was actually in the way

• How complex trauma changes the way you plan, set goals, and build - and why no business book written by a man is going to explain that to you

• What “do the opposite of what you’ve been doing” means when your entire nervous system was built on hyper-independence

• The difference between intuition telling you “not yet” and a wound telling you “not ever” - and how to listen for it in real time

Timestamps

0:00 — Introduction: who we are, what this conversation is about

2:10 — How this started: the Soul Arc report and why Sarah said yes to going public

3:17 — Sarah’s context: closing her business, ending her marriage, living in the in-between

5:30 — How intuition works for Sarah — and when she trusted it versus when she couldn’t

7:10 — Looking back on marriage and business: what the pattern was

10:30 — The core wound: desperate to be loved, terrified of being alone

11:50 — What healing actually looks like now — self-love, no contact, and never minimizing again

13:00 — Perimenopause, midlife transitions, and why this season is different for women

15:00 — “The crazy ex” trope, reclaiming rage, and why the normal response gets pathologized

17:00 — Loneliness in transition — what the Soul Arc report gave her

19:00 — The burn-it-all-down impulse versus building on what you’ve earned

20:30 — Hyper-independence as trauma response — why it worked and why it has to change

23:00 — Nervous system activation: inner child, trust, and taking action while activated

24:00 — The invisible labor nobody talks about in business advice for women

27:30 — Building something that doesn’t have a template — intuition versus the mind 29:55 — What Sarah’s building next: knitting, teaching, YouTube, advocacy, community

31:35 — It’s not just knitting — activism, feminism, power, and financial independence woven through

35:00 — Why she couldn’t leave: financial abuse, isolation, and why women must be financially independent

38:00 — The midlife reframe: “you’ve tried that for 45 years — might as well try this”

40:55 — The wobble: confidence, momentum, and knowing you’re not ready yet

42:00 — Emotional authority and giving yourself time to clarify

44:00 — Processing past versions of yourself in your current body

47:30 — South Node, North Node, and how the Soul Arc informs business and marketing decisions

52:00 — How the core wound ran the same pattern through business, relationships, and money

55:00 — Closing: “bring it on” — and how to work together

The Soul Arc Intensive — Sarah and I are doing a six-week engagement built on her Soul Arc report — working through the pattern, the passage, and the practical business decisions that come out of knowing where you are in your arc. If that sounds like what you need right now, send me a DM or leave a comment and I’ll send you a link to book a discovery call or use the link below to get started.

Start here → Soul Arc Session and report: https://tidycal.com/jmanriquez/soul-arc-session

Soul Arc Intensive → https://tidycal.com/jmanriquez/soul-arc-intensive

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Live: Let me show you how your 46 year old self can’t solve her ‘problems’ with what’s already made you successful - Saturday, June 27 at 3:15 pm PT

You’ve spent decades building real competence - marketing, medicine, education, whatever your title was - and somewhere along the way you also picked up yoga, astrology, Human Design, energy work, something the world doesn’t have a neat category for.

Now you’re in your 40s or 50s and you’re looking at all of it and thinking: what do I even call myself? What am I building? Because there’s no template for what comes next. And the harder part - the part nobody explains - is that what got you here is not what takes you forward.

In this video, I walk through what I actually mean when I say that growing in midlife requires doing the opposite of what you’ve been doing, why that’s by design, and why it starts to feel less disorienting once you can see the map.

Why you should listen:

• What it means that your soul arrived with one full set of skills — and is being asked to develop the opposite set now

• Why so many women in this season have built something conventional and something mystical side by side - and can’t find a name for what they’re becoming

• How the knotted necklace, the forest, and the hill — three metaphors from real women - describe what this passage actually feels like from inside

• What the “learning to ride a bike you’ve never seen” feeling is really about - and why someone describing it isn’t enough to make it land

• Why there is a sequence to this - from early 40s through your second Saturn return — and what changes when you know where you are in it

It starts to feel better. I want you to know that.

Message me if you’re interested in The Soul Arc Intensive - If this idea of having someone keep you company for six weeks while you find your bearings and build some balance sounds like what you need, message me. I don’t have anything up about it yet - but I’m doing this work now and I’d love to do it with you.